It's that time again robots.
How long ago was it?
How much does it hurt?
>how long ago was it
a few days
>how much does it hurt
not at all, felt pretty good.
I've never had a gf.
>>24470136
He's talking about the time your oneitis turned you down, silly.
>>24470168
Not exactly. But it works too I guess.
1 Year
Still want to kill myself
Literally this Saturday. We're forced apart by circumstances.
I actually came here because I know he browses r9k and I had hoped that he'd made a thread or something, in spite of the fact that he doesn't have access to a computer or a smartphone right now.
Hurts like a knife in my chest desu senpai. Trying not to think about it too much. End up thinking about it every other minute.
About a year and 5 months since she died. She and I lived through 2 tours with all kinds of shitty situations and then a goddamn drunk driver gets her. I'm glad the driver died too otherwise I'd have found and killed him myself.
2 months ago..
First i felt nothing
But now i feel myself getting empty.
I don't know, a few months ago. She won't speak to me anymore. I think she might hate me, actually. She says she doesn't but her actions say otherwise. I don't know if it's her staff interjecting and judging even though they've never met me in their life or if she came up with it on her own. Probably a combination of both. I want to be friends but she's convinced I'm out to use her for sex I think.. I don't know. She is quite dull but oh my god she is the cutest thing I have ever seen. I would never lay a finger on her.. call me a beta pussy but I almost worship the ground she walks on and this is a person with an IQ in the 70s.
It hurts a little bit. I cried over it a few times. I just want to be on speaking terms again but she seems hell bent on making me some kind of villain. I think I might love her. All I wanted to do was love her and her fear of sexual abuse keeps me from doing that. I don't know, man. She shouldn't mean this much to me. She cares more about her cat then she does about me and yet here I am typing this paragraph about her. I can't get her off my mind. I don't want to like her anymore but I can't help myself.
This happened 4? years ago
>highschool junior year
>very small highschool, sub 30 students from 7th-12th grade
>have to go out of your way to not be friends with people
>bro tier senior year girl 7/10 just in looks
>likes me more than likely because I was "funny"
>never asked her out
>graduates
>goes to prestigious aeronautical school
>still friends, comes back to visit me and the others
>get the balls to ask her out
>just about to
>starts talking about how she might have left drugs in the car
>talks about the orgies at her school where 80% of the student body is male
felt my heart physically slow down and sink. hurts less now
>>24470110
>How long ago was it?
Never, I'm not a normie like you fags
20 days
Depressed as fuck f a m
3 years ago
The true irony:
>Only talked to this girl for about a week
>Never slept with her, never kissed her, never met her in real life
>Got keked online
>Still faping to her and the other guy 3 years later
I guess this is being a Pisces.
>>24470110
>How long ago was it?
About 2 years
>How much does it hurt?
I still cry myself to sleep some nights.
The guilt is always in my mind.
>>24470110
4 years ago. The pain fluctuates from days I really want to kill myself over her to days where I think I'm finally over her.
107 days
a lot
>>24471174
>circumstances
iktf, I fell for a girl pretty badly and I think she felt something for me too, but then a week or two later she left the country. we're still friends and skype every so often, but I don't know when it'll stop hurting
3 years every single day. I failed out of university as a result and she puts up pictures with her new guy in her graduation gown. Awesome times.
https://youtu.be/D5eMYyCYwVg
>How long ago was it?
almost 3 years
>How much does it hurt?
pretty bad for 3 years, but lesson learned I guess
>>24471313
How could you ever find a woman in the army attractive? The ones I know are all whores and annoying bitches that I wish would die.
>tfw the pain is just numbness now
Coming up 7 months. I miss him so much but I'm too much of a coward to contact him. I guess its for the best though, I was a huge cunt. I don't even know why. Never loved anyone like i do him.
Most days its just a dull pain unless I dream about him. Then its like someone has shoved a knife into my chest.
I honestly hope hes moved on with someone who actually deserves such a wonderful, smart, funny, kind man.
He comes on r9k, it's actually how we met. Fuck, I miss him.
i've been in love with her since 5 years almost, never really came out to her but i'm p sure she knew/knows ,she prob thinks it's not the case anymore
cuddled with her during 1h in a sofa yesterday while thinking i shouldn't be around her to preserve my feels
shit hurts
>10 months and 1/3 of a week
>Stopped talking to him because of his social safety (anon is gay, he had a gf)
>He talked to me on my birthday and I cried the whole day
>I still follow him on snapchat and he still follows me despite telling me to not ever talk to him again
Despite the fact that I know he used me to feed his unstable need of control and power, I still love this asshole because he gave me the so much needed attention and affection my daddy issues made me needy for. I know every problem I have and had, yet my heart is still so fucking stupid he cannot get over it or function in a reasonable way.
The heart is a bitch, and you should never trust bitches.
2 years. I've moved on.
>>24471918
Well, you're still in contact with her so there's always hope, no matter how slim. My own situation is pretty much welded in place for at least two years so there's nothing I can do but wait and hope.
I'll be rooting for you anon.
>>24472678
Just tell her anon. You'll regret it for the rest of your life if you don't. Either she feels the same way, or she doesn't.
>>24471402
>I don't know, man. She shouldn't mean this much to me. She cares more about her cat then she does about me and yet here I am typing this paragraph about her. I can't get her off my mind. I don't want to like her anymore but I can't help myself.
I really do know this feel and I hope it goes away soon for both of us, anon
>>24473015
awh cheers, but there won't be a happy end to my story: she wants to spend her life in her home country and I sure as hell don't. besides, we are completely different and I really think it'd actually be best for me if I cut all contact with her, except I opened up to her more than anyone else and now I am consciously aware that she could destroy my life at any moment, had she wanted to tell others what I told her. I do trust her and I know she trusts me, but it all just feels so toxic, it's like she's sapping away all my strength, know what I mean?
>>24470110
2 or 3 years now. Still hurts not as bad anymore. I used to get over it then she would appear in my dreams and the cycle would start again.
>>24473382
>I am consciously aware that she could destroy my life at any moment
But would she? Does she have any reason whatsoever to do that?
But I get you on the drain thing. Maybe it'd be for the best to walk away from that, I don't know anon. I'm an optimist at heart and distance doesn't have to sour friendships, but pining for someone you can never get probably isn't the best for your mental stability.
2 weeks
a lot
>>24473389
>she would appear in my dreams and the cycle would start again
The idea that I can have dreams about her where we're having sex or where we got back together is truly cruelly sadistic.
>>24471174
What happened? Did he lose his home? Did he move far away?
>>24472434
Would you have liked him to contact you? I'm in the reverse situation. It's been 5 months and I'm wondering whether I should try contacting her. I think that if she wanted me back she would be too scared to try, but at the same time I don't want to reach out if she's already moved on. I could use some perspective from the other side.
>>24473606
oh yeah waking up in the morning is a crushing kind of feeling.
You're having a good week feel like your confidence is coming back not even thinking about her then you dream about seeing each other and falling back in love or never leaving each other at all and it all the feelings come back and you feel like shit.
5years, 5 fucking years
its ok
its only really bad when i start to remember when i see threads like this
>>24473673
I would love him to contact me, even if it was just a quick "hey hows it going?". Part of me thinks if he did it would just cause more pain though.
>ex gf got adderall prescription right before we broke up 15 months ago
>saw her for the first time Friday since then on campus
>she gained weight
how do you gain weight with an adderall prescription you dumb cunt fuck I hate you so much
>>24473621
It's a bit of a story. Short version is his folks got in the way, big time. Never knew a parent could get so vindictive. He lost access to both is phone and his computer (which, seeing as we live in different countries, is kind of a big deal)
Last I talked to him he was seriously considering the final solution, much to my abject horror. We barely had 40 minutes before he had to dash.
I spend every waking moment worrying about him, just about as much as I'm miss talking to him.
>>24473766
That's weird. Why did his parents get in the way? Usually parents don't mind too much who their sons get involved with.
>>24473728
That's a shame. That sounds like something she'd say too. I don't want to cause her trouble, but I really want to talk to her again.
>>24473486
she doesn't, and, as I said, I trust her, but consider if we stopped contacting each other: people change, and hell knows if she wouldn't feel inclined to tell our mutual acquaintances about some stuff if she met them a couple years later. then, in the career field I'm aiming for, I probably won't be hard to find, and rumours are prone to start. it just boils down to realistic approach, and as much as I want to say I will trust her till the day she dies, I don't want to take any chances (any more than when I first told her, at least).
it also doesn't help that I do still have deep feelings for her. still, she only left like 2 weeks ago, so I hope time will heal my wounds.
>>24473885
This might be just because I would love him to contact me but I say go it. If it goes well thats awesome, if it fucks up then at least you know you tried.
I wish i could contact him. Pretty sure he'd bitch me out but eh
6 months ago
I feel worthless and I am worthless. She loved me effortlessly and now she's gone because I treated her like shit. Always love the woman who loves you anons, she may not always be there
>>24473806
It's probably partly because I'm a dude and not a grill, but there's a certain age-gap between us that I didn't become aware of until about a month and a half into our relationship. (I honestly thought he was much older than he turned out to be), and the fact that I didn't back off when I found out is probably what triggers them. I'll grant that any parent in that situation would probably be a bit leery, but they literally just exploded when they found out. He's just a bout an adult anyway, and I just feel that the whole thing is, I don't know, absurd. When a near-18 girl gets it on with an adult man no one bats an eye, but when it's two dudes meeting on the internet the older one is suddenly a groomer and a pedo no exception.
Our meeting was a total accident, and before him I wouldn't have even considered getting it on with someone of the same gender. We just clicked in a way that I didn't think was possible, and I've had two relationships prior, one of which lasted a longass time.
>>24473890
Here's hoping anon, that's a shit situation to be in. True, people change, but it'd take a major personality overhaul to change someone in that regard. Or alternatively, she was merely pretending all along. Here's hoping it'll never be either of those.
>>24473975
>certain age gap
40+ year old pedo confirmed
>>24474033
actually only 27.
A week
I don't have the vocabulary to describe it.
>>24474125
Let it out senpai. What happened?
>>24474115
>27 year old man grooming a 17 year old
Yeah that's fucking creepy dude
>>24474227
It actually happened three months ago but it just hit me a week ago. When we first broke up I really thought nothing of it, I was surprised at how well I took it. Throughout this whole time I still loved her but then a week ago I saw her with someone else. I am someone who always can control their emotions but it hit me like a ton of bricks. I could barely get out of bed, I didn't eat for a few days. I still feel dead but my autistic self cheered up a bit when I remembered Just cause 3 was coming out soon.
>>24474303
>Pure depression to a little happy because Just cause 3
Never change anon
>>24470110
Yesterday
Fucking sore, falling on your hip is painful
>>24470110
>how long was it?
9 months ago
>how much does it hurt?
it doesn't, I'm the one who ended it
>>24474303
Have you tried talking to her, getting her back?
>>24474569
She talked to me for a few minutes but hasn't responded to the last two texts I sent her.
>>24474673
Don't text her anymore. If she wants to talk to you she'll reply to you. Might sound harsh but its to save you some heartache
>>24474292
I'm not grooming him, by any definition of the word. (to be honest, I had to look it up when I heard it), but nothing of it matters now. I won't see him again until he's legally an adult and beyond his parents rather smothering grasp, and by then, well, I worry that we'll have grown apart. It's a long time to go on memories alone.
It's just my luck that the first person I've really loved in a long time turns out to be forbidden.
not long enough
too much
>>24474761
Thanks anon, I haven't texted her since the last two. I got the message after she didn't respond to the second.
>>24474783
Aren't fags massive deviants ?
>>24470110
Not long ago but she always turns me down. I'm a fucking beta. When she gets bored she leaves and seeks attention in other people. It hurts.
It always hurts.
>>24474841
I wouldn't know, seeing as I only recently became one.
I know he's into traps. While we were still talking he was slowly warming me up on the subject. I don't really have any great big fetishes one way or another. I still only look at straight porn.
Almost two months. It's hard knowing that she probably doesn't think about me at all anymore and has probably found someone else, meanwhile she's all I can think about and regularly cry myself to sleep.
>>24474905
>I only recently became gay
So you're more along the lines of prison gay because you can't get a woman?
>>24470110
A week
I just feel empty man. Worst part is she seems fine, I mean, I guess that's good for her and all but it just hurts that much more knowing she was able to get over it like nothing
She could have at least not fucked me over that hard like Christ why did you use me as a test?
>>24470110
Last night when I fapped to some top-tier quality 2D dickgirls
It was a pleasant distraction from the nearly constant awareness of our pointless existence in a stupid, meaningless universe. I do not need you to tell me that I'm not a cat.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZmSffa0Aj0c
>>24474975
I wouldn't say that. I've had relationships before him, and I've never had any problems getting laid. Girls are easy to figure out, you just have to be what they want you to be, and most of the time that's just fit and confident.
But it's always been just sex, cold and emotionless. I never really connected with anyone of them on more than a purely physical level, and certainly not like I did with him.
He just got me, and when we were talking it felt like I had known him my entire life already, even though we came from wildly different backgrounds.
When I realized that I actually had a crush on him I had to do a whole boatload of introspection, because up until I met him I had always considered myself 100% straight. It was pretty horrible to be honest, wrestling with the fact that I was attracted to his mind more so than I was attracted to the female form. It took some time before I was ready to confess to him, and then he jumped the gun and confessed to me first.
I don't think I've ever been as happy as then. And scared, and confused.
Fuck I miss him.
>>24474983
Same, It's always the worst when you are miserable but she is happy with not a care in the world.
>>24474983
I know that feel, my friend.
I can only hope that one day it hurts her. It's not fair that I have to deal with this and she's living like nothing happened.
