Sup Robots,
A few weeks ago I finally got my penis into a vagina at the age of 22. It doesn't make you feel any better. I'm still not wanted. The girl is a vapid whore. I still don't belong anywhere. I'm still a loser by all common metrics. I still hate myself. Don't obsess over getting laid so much. I used to and I've had better orgasms masturbating. In fact I'm so conditioned for masturbation that I had to jack off on her every time. Vaginas don't feel that great. And the things attached to them are almost always dull and manipulative. So don't stress about what normies do or how they evaluate you so much.
That being said, I find no reason to stay around. I'm a grown man and I have no skills, a bunch of student loan debt and shitty grades at a community college, no job prospects, no girlfriend, and no friends left who care about me. My mom and dad were probably typical robot's parents: a brainless ex stacy and a mentally unstable beta male. Super permissive and gave me absolutely no direction in life. I also never knew any extended family because my parents are intolerable to even their own kin.
I'm too lonely to keep up this charade. They told me getting a job would help. They told me getting laid would help. They told me lifting would help. I don't feel any better as a person. I really did want to change myself and accomplish something, but it's like I'm just doing things normies do to satisfy them and not myself. I see the fruits of my labor; a pathetic paycheck, a dull girl who will lie to you and sleep around, a meaningless piece of paper.. and I'm even more depressed than before I started trying.
Anyway, I think I should just check out. Some people don't belong anywhere. I hope you guys can find happiness somewhere that I couldn't. Don't be so bitter and hateful at the world. Those normies are just as lost and worthless as any of us. For some reason it just doesn't bother them as much.
>>24447472
I only wish that you find peace.
The only way to live a productive life if you're not a normalfag with no brain is to be independently wealthy, which of course means you have to be born into it. Sorry dude, shit sucks.
>>24447472
Why did you let a doctor talk you into getting you're dick cut up and made into a barely functioning vagina?
You did realize you would lose like almost all sexual pleasure, right?
>>24447570
lol what? op had sex, he didn't get a sex change
>>24447570
>>24447607
Kek, I think he was joking about my word choice. "Got my penis into a vagina", thanks for the laugh
>>24447607
oh shit i read it as "i finally got my penis turned into a vagina"
anyways your still a faggot OP only 13 year old boys and autists think having sex will change their life.
>>24447472
You might be in the dip.
Keep going anon kun.
>>24447472
I feel the same way OP, nothing ever changes for the better no matter what kind of shitty accomplishment we overcome. Is there really nothing else to do but kill ourselves at this point?
>>24447743
nah
>>24447757
nah
of course, death is scary and it's hard to have a painless one without people stopping you
>>24447854
What do then? Just merely exist n wait for the old age to kick in? Sounds more painful than jumping with a noose around your neck tbqfwyl
>>24447743
what a shitty image. when you first journey into something (like trying to get a college education) you get no rewards at all. and unless you have plenty of free time and high intelligence it will take 5 or 6 years to start seeing results.
>>24447854
I don't expect it to be painless. Helium hood has way too many variables to fuck up. I dont have my own place and I don't want my parents to find me, so I'm gonna find some isolated woods and a sturdy tree.
>>24447472
this made me sad anon ;_;
im kinda in the same boat except still virgin at 21. I hope you will make it
I can strongly relate to everything you've written. I wish you the best of luck in killing yourself, friend.
Honestly, spend 6 months away from this board and then reevaluate.
Ill bet life feels more worth living after that.
Anon, Lets be honest here. Killing yourself is dumb.
You might disagree, and thats fine.
You tried to be good, to follow the rules, and it didn't work, your life is still shit, you are still unsatisfied. And your response after playing by the rules and it not working is to kill yourself?
Pah. The answer is to fuck with people. Fuck with everybody. Go down the path of degenerancy, ruin stacies lives. Make your parents regret ever birthing you. Make your life an unbleachable part of human existance. Shooting spree? Fuck that. You get a day in the sun.
No, be a lawyer. Be the guy who defends OJ Simpson, and gets him off.
>>24448532
If i could just "be a lawyer" i wouldnt be depressed.
>>24448766
Why can't you? Just go to law school and it all goes automatically from there.
>>24448862
Law School costs money, senpai-tachi
>>24448884
We'll put you through law school young grasshopper!
Jk, Good luck with the rope.
>>24448884
Just get a senpai to put his tachi in your saya baka.
>>24447472
create the thing you want to belong to
>>24448862
>JUS B A LAWYER
Seriously fuck off you retarded fucking normalshit.
How often do you fap, anon?
>>24449281
OP here, every 2-3 minutes
>>24449281
Was fapping at least twice a day for like 10 years. Trying to cut back now. Pretty sure all that porn really fucked up my brain, at least in regards to normal sexual encounters. Couldn't even stay hard most of the time.
>>24447472
But its not getting laid that we prospect over, its doing it with the one we love, who loves us back. But that hasnt happened yet. Its always one sided attraction. Either you have sack'o'shit mcbitch face o'landwhale fawning over you, or you just look at that one girl you hope is different, but deep inside, you know she still prefers Tyrone/Chad.
>>24449328
Well in my experience, going noporn and nofap, while a huge struggle in itself, restore your dopamine levels and give you a sense of enjoyment in things. Now on some level you're aware of how empty most of life is, and you may think that you'll just develop an enjoyment for things that's nothing more than a mere matter of brain chemicals... but as I see it, if you get this under control a bit, you'll probably feel immensely better about life, especially now that you don't worship women. You can pour yourself into some solitary activities - you can game, read, study, exercise, listen to music... you could get yourself functional and happy enough to go and find someone or something that could use what little love you have to give. You seem to talk about how empty the people and relationships around you are... but common sense tells you that love has to start with someone... so why not with you? Get functional, become a vegan, adopt a pet or something. Read the Old Testament scriptures. Struggle for something.
Even if in the end you live another 50 years only to die miserable and alone anyway... who knows what things could come?
>>24447472
I'm basically normal except for being highly socially avoidant, and I'm basically cosigning all of this.
>i've had better orgasms masturbating
I never thought I'd see someone else say the same thing. Vaginas are fucking lackluster, but it's okay because you have to work really hard for them, and still once you're in them. I'd rather just lay down and jack off.
>>24448766
You got fit. You got laid. You did more than most people will ever do, and fucking law school, shit that even chads can pull off seems to hard? jfc
>>24447472
How do you lost all the hope? I'm almost 22 and don't have the half of the shit you have. I don't speak to girls, uneducated, poor with dead end job. I'm tired of having hope of getting better, I just want to give up and fall low enough to kill myself but that seem impossible at the moment. What realisation do you have that I don't?
>>24449689
it's called money you pleb.
>>24449781
Never heard of student loans, eh?
>>24449771
I'm pretty much doing the same thing though. I've racked up a bunch of debt going to a community college and have a shitty GPA. I don't think I'll be accepted to any schools even if I had the money to transfer, and now all of my shitty minimum wage bucks will be going to paying those loans off.
As for talking to girls, I don't either. I spent some time talking to one girl because I got sick of being a virgin, but the sex wasn't even that exciting. And as much as I wanted to have something meaningful, she's just a shallow horny girl.
The realization is that chasing things that normal people are supposed to care about still won't make you happy.
>>24449221
This actually gives me a little hope, though.
>>24449846
you can't just keep taking out loans and dig yourself into a financial shit hole. I'm already in too deep.
>>24449958
You are literally debating suicide. What do you care?
Fuck you OP. You fucking know you're lying to yourself and to us. How is it you forgot so quickly the despair of being an incel? God damn it you KNOW deep down how bad it was and that you've at least gotten it off your chest. Fuck you.
Your next goal OP
get a girlfriend. Doesn't matter if its a roastie or if the relationship will last only for a couple of months/weeks
>>24450177
>Doesn't matter if its a roastie or if the relationship will last only for a couple of months/weeks
Yes it does. I'll just be under the false pretense of monogamy while she sneaks around and fucks Chad and Tyrone. What's the point? Sex isn't really worth pretending these chicks are interesting over.
>>24450325
What do you like to do anon?
>>24450152
Being an incel IS bad, but hitting the Earth after flying to close to the sun hurts a hell of a lot more than staring at it
>>24447472
>The girl is a vapid whore.
that doesnt count then
>>24447901
you didnt get friends, connections, a feeling of fulfillment?
I feel bad for you
>>24450533
Jack off, play video games, and eat. Drink vodka. I'm on 4chan aren't I?
>>24450882
Gets me through the day, Why do you want better?
Anything else? What sorts of video games? And what do you like about the,?
>>24450325
>I'll just be under the false pretense of monogamy while she sneaks around and fucks Chad and Tyrone.
You are scared. You can't be scared of the world, you have to take it as is.
