Is anyone here even trying anymore?
How many of us have really given up and aren't doing anything with their lives?
>>24430169
Reporting in senpai. Dropped out twice and currently addicted to alcohol.
no one can be doing nothing with their life, you are doing things always
>>24430198
same, but only ever dropped out of high school and work dead end retail job.
woo woo sweet death take me
>>24430169
I've given up a long time ago, barely work part time and just sit in my room shitposting when not at the shitty job.
Sometimes I try to give up, but that glimmer of hope inside me hasn't completely died yet.
tfw 21 years old endlessly fucking the dog in community college
College drop out NEET ordering drugs to self medicate with. Poppy seeds for tea en route, Bitcoin on the way for darknet stuff, benzo's currently delayed by my bank thinking someone stole my credit card.
Yo. mothrfcrs.
If you thinkin, that your life is worthless because of some wethole, you're a piece of shit.
Wetholes have no value whatsoever.
Go and find your way anon, got blesss you.
>>24430211
Are you twelve?
I used to think this way when I was twelve.
I'm breathing and shitposting right now, but that's not in any way helping me.
Of course I don't care anymore jesus, I have ZERO skills.
God I've come to give zero cares about this anyways, the world runs just fine without me, I shouldn't have to contribute anything to receive something in return.
Try to disagree with me!
>>24430331
That's not what I meant, but you bring up a good point.
>>24430331
Aren't you going to try to develop a skill of some sort?
It doesn't have to be useful.
>>24430169
>30 years old and live with mummy and daddy
>unemployed for two years, nearly three
>college dropout
>tried to get into network administration through community college: too hard
>tried to get into basic IT & computer repair through community college: too hard
>tried to get into web design & coding through community college: too hard
>want to become a rockstar millionaire music producer: fl studio and music theory is too hard
the best part is how my mom will always go like BUT ANON YOU'RE SO SKILLED AND TALENTED DON'T WASTE YOUR SKILL AND POTENTIALS. I want to call her bluff and be like "yeah? What skills?"
to be honest, I wouldn't mind just scrubbing toilets as a living. Pleasure in life is found in the small things, not in your job or career.
>>24430169
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yVpw1SwJRBI
>>24430169
still two years of engineering school to go. No idea what I'm gonna after though. Working seems fucking boring and pointless.
>>24430459
I'll reply.
Godspeed bro,
see you on the other side.
I gave up on the hope that my life will get any better, now I don't have the motivation to study or even do simple tasks such as showering or going out. I only spend my days laying in bed, nothing seems interesting, and I'm terribly lonely.
>>24430459
>Pleasure in life is found in the small things, not in your job or career.
This the reason I'm not setting up a plan to shoot everyone I know.
>2015
>implying women have value
>>24430523
I no shit own this full tracksuit, actually gets good attraction from girls, consequently have got a date on thursday
>>24430684
be my gf and your value will go up
>>24430169
i don't even know what to do now
i dropped out of highschool more than 3 years ago
>>24430855
wew lad,
I'm male btw desu
no gay shit pls
>tfw dropping out of college and dad is kicking me out
>have 3 grand in the bank, 5 grand in debt from loans
>going to have to find somewhere to live soon and a job while I figure out what the fuck to do with myself
>considering suicide if I have to wageslave for the rest of my life
Slowing failing cc and I have gained 20 pounds. My new insomnia medicine sucks ass
>>24430940
escaperope.jpg
godspeed m8
>>24430565
y-you too brobot
>>24430985
No, escape train. It will be more instantaneous as in literally instantaneous and boom you wake up as bebe
>>24430814
Girls love not-really-ironic self-deprecation. I used to walk around in a shirt that said "Drunk chicks think I'm hot" & stopped being that I WROTE YOU A POEM guy that I was in middle school and most of high school and sure enough I ended up hooking up with a drunk girl who was actually dating the friend of a friend at the time and she ended up breaking up with him to be with me instead.
>>24430169
when i'm not on here i literally sit in a chair doing nothing
I can't empathize with any of the people in this thread.
I've been depressed before, but I've never been nihilistic or suicidal. I have something to live for; I'm going to be the greatest video game designer of this century. That is the organizing principle of my life, and I must live as long as possible so as to further that goal. As long as I have that anchor, nothing can destroy my will to succeed and my will to live.
Why don't you have anything to live for, anon?
>>24430985
S-so I can hang myself with it?
>go to college out of highschool
>wanted to be an engineer, they put me in business school
>study art and marketing for 5 years
>didn't learn anything
>hated the students, the professors, girls were empowered dicks to me
>one girl almost gets me arrest for saying I raped her, I didn't even kiss her
>drop out, my parents call me a disappointment
>my sister graduates to become a successful nurse
>i live completely alone off of money I got from an accident when I was a young kid
>draw porn all day
>watch twitch all day
>borderline alcoholic, tired all the time, worried about my heart and liver
>lose car, no phone, apartment is disgusting
I'm still alive though haha
>Chemistryis the only fun thing left
>absolute shite at math
: ^ ))) gonna get keked by Calc 2 and then Idk what I am going to do.Look for security guard job?I couldn't tolerate anything else...
>>24431088
Because I'm lazy senpai but godspeed I know you'll make great games for us neets to play better get started though cya later!
>>24431005
Can't stand this shit. I've lived this life 3 or more times. The first time I died because of nearby nuclear explosion about 70 km away, the second time I was stabbed with the knife, you know this dejavu shit. There's nothing beside your life, I'm you, you're me. I'm so high.
>>24431094
It's for you to decide.
Should I start a new life training sled dogs in the middle of nowhere in Alaska? Seriously considering
>>24431088
same shit m8, I feel you bro, godspeed
Currently working, can't wait to get a proper wage once February starts.
Once I get proper money coming in I'll buy a PC and do some streaming/youtube.
Still waiting for the gym to reopen so I can start working out again.
Have a slutty female coworker flirting with me, but she is dumb and uninteresting as shit.
I honestly don't have nothing to do apart from improving myself and earning money and maybe find love after I reach some level of independence and rent/buy my own house.
>>24431260
Try to do something with your current life,
>>24430169
i drew 13 drawings for practice and homework today, reached my 3 hours and i would keep drawing if i didnt hjave somewhere to be
>>24431088
Well I was kind of like you except that for every dream & goal that I set out, I realized just how shit the life was for those people and also how I didn't have the abilities or skillset or the time or the money to do any of those things. At one point in my life I wanted to be a pro wrestler, a journalist, an anthropologist, a lawyer, a sociologist, an interior designer, a firefighter/EMT, a MMA fighter, a writer, a stand-up comic, a translator, a hacker/IT security specialist, a few other things as well, etc.
Part of the problem is also how I absolutely dreaded the notion of doing one thing and one thing alone for the rest of my life and couldn't really pick one thing. I think most robots have that problem.
I may have found something within my abilities, but I changed more goals in my life than a.... something something soccer player... I'm sure there's a joke in there somewhere.
>>24430169
>finally get job after like 80 applications and feeling suicidal
>only work 10 hours a week
>feel like failure because everyone else there has multiple jobs
I have a plan, but life just feels like too much for me
>>24431260
Nice plan, I want to shave my head and move into a buddhist temple personally.
>>24431303
Lad. 95% of women have no value. Don't waste your precious life for some useless bitch.
>>24431369
Yeah that's what I already figured out.
It's quite depressing how shit they are and how all seem to have boyfriend.
>>24431359
Somedays, especially today, I want to shave my head.
I've only shaved my head like 3 times in all my life.
>>24430
I know that feel bro.
Social life is just awful at community too.
Was a virgin til 20 then lost it immediatly at uni.
Wish i went to uni from the start
>>24431088
>; I'm going to be the greatest video game designer of this century
make sure no sjw shit, and more gore family.
OP, please define "trying".
I feel like giving up a lot.
I'm almost 29 and have been on antidepressants for 10 years, I've been on bipolar meds since 2008.
Getting out of bed was really hard for about 2 days this week. Not like, "I partied hard last night, hard for me to get out of bed." It's more like, "I wish I wasn't around anymore. sleep is the only place I feel safe." .I have mini meltdowns all the time. I felt really suicidal when I was off my meds for 2 days this week. Happens about 2-3 times a year. I don't even see the joy in anything. I just want to die or have it end me. Sometimes I make the noose and contemplate buying alcohol and drinking it until I get in a stupor bad enough to make me finally do it.
I have no friends really. I've only been to my best friends house once in the past year. I deleted Facebook and all contact from the outside world because I know they are sick of my depressed self. Nobody tries to contact me even though I have a cell phone now. Nobody wants to be around depressed people.
I got a message from one of my own good friends the other day. I didn't want to hang out with her because I look like shit. My life looks like shit. I don't want to have to answer the "how are you doing" question. I always have to make up a lie. I don't like lying and the truth about my life is ultra cringe.
Bad employment history, liberal arts major at local community college. No real future with any stable amount of cash there. Plus, I'm a convicted felon. Once you're a felon, society doesn't want you to succeed. A good paying job and a family are so far from obtainable right now.
I've been in the hospital more time than the average person for suicide attempts and meltdowns. I don't know why my shitty brain won't make me think right. Why can't I just be normal and not have mental illness?
>>24431477
The last girl that I was really interested in actually had hobbies and loved to paint, play guitar and had a good singing voice but she was a bisexual so I dropped it.
The girl that's flirting with me can't even save money because she's a girl and she is just waiting for someone else to support her, currently it's her parents, plus she earns more than me, people are retarded.
>>24431597
Humans survive in groups, you should seek help otherwise you will kill yourself.
There are places that can help you, plus you don't sound like the worst case.
Just imagine this shit,
>cosmos
>infinite possibilities
>infinite space
>everything, everywhere
>the world is just a vision created by your simple mind
>wetholes are trying to prove that they are useful
>people are constantly trying to make you sad
havent given up just yet, still doing uni and havent resorted to VNS to fill the void in me. There is still time though senpai
>>24431563
Don't worry man, I'm very anti-SJW.
>>24430169
Still trucking through college. Life is gonna hit me hard when I'll actually gonna have to work and sign my life away 5 days out of 7.
>>24430459
awww
oh god I have to move out of my parents house
It's just not feasible mang
>paying rent
>literally tossing money out the window
>buy a house
>lose your job and all your capital for missing one payment
>>24431894
>tfw live in bay area california
>one of the most expensive areas in world to live
>have shit paying job out of college, so shit that im embarrassed to pay the pay
>father trying to make me move out
>i hate living at home but i would literally be homeless
>>24431101
>heart and liver
same
except my liver, not too worried about that.
>>24431088
This is my dream too actually I want to start up a business doing this. I like programming but all the sand niggers in india are completely destroying our worth.
Gf and career reporting in.
I'm just friendless and terrible in all social situations.
I just want to fit in with the geeky normies and have plans after work for once but they just know I don't belong.
>>24430260
same but life keeps fucking with me.
>life took away my taste for dairy and gave me ibs
>life took away my taste for sugar and gave me sensitive nerves in my mouth
>life took away my taste for learning and gave me a compact mind
>tfw am on easy mode for a shut-in neet but it feels like hard mode because motivation
>tfw cannot get mad/sad or i get a headache
>>24430459
Fuck I know that feel
2nd year undergrad is wrecking me
part time job stresses me out
how can I possibly work full time?
>>24432033
I'm not too worried about the sand niggers. I'm going to work in the game industry for a few years and then strike out in my own. I hope I'll make some friends who believe in my ideas and are willing to help me out; I won't be able to pay them well. My ideas are so insane that they would never be traditionally funded, I'll have to rely on crowd funding. In the meantime I'm just workin in my free time, inching closer to my goals.
>>24431088
>I'm going to be the greatest video game designer of this century
lolno, you won't.
>>24431956
get the fuck out of cali my friend
Seriously once you're out of there you'll see how the rest of the world survives with guns and beer.
For real though like 40% of all taxes in cali goes to welfare. The tax rate is like 50% already.
>tfw I wish I knew how to move to a different state
>seems awfully expensive to view a few houses and leave
>>24432093
>gf
>friendless
how does this work? what does your gf think?
All these anons who actually have sources of stress.
Is being a non neet even worth it
>>24432171
Probably not, but my parents would be absolutely disappointed in me and they'd force me into some shitty job. Might as well try and somehow work myself into a nice job where I won't have to do backbreaking labor.
>>24432129
nice pipe dream, faggot. another impotent ideaguy who will never achieve anything. kek.
>too fat for a gf
>start lifting
>lose weight, get built
>realise all too late women don't give a shit about looks if you're not confident or outgoing
>keep lifting anyway
>become huge, thinking about entering a weight lifting competition
>accepted i will always be alone
At least I'm strong...right
>>24432216
Labor isn't as bad as you think
Landscaping could make for a comfy life
>>24432129
Are you programming in your spare time? I have completely lost all my desire to learn things. Which is the saddest part of my life, seriously though it is. I did just finish school so maybe I'm on a break but I need to get out of this funk.
Programming is a lot of fun too once you get started. You should be worried about them though, I used to do freelancing and they're dirt cheap. Granted the quality is equivalent to what you're paying but if it's just web design and things of that nature no one cares.
For my programming venture I would like to get hired to do some real world programming for vydia.
That or I'm going to do it on the side, like grandmas boy, and see what happens. I wouldn't worry about funding or anything people would help if they see you're serious. Besides if you're the main programmer you will only need a few pieces of data here and there. It's not like you're asking them to give up their jobs. Look up the game banished, dude did that all by himself.
I'm trying but I feel an impending sense of doom. I'm pretty much just waiting to see where I end up desu
>>24430169
I have sudden bouts of trying. I'm in one right now, they happen about every other month. I'll suddenly work on a lot of things that have been piling up undone, feel motivated to succeed, seek out ways to improve my career.
But most of the time I'm not.
>>24432277
You excited for ww3 too? can't wait
I'm absolutely not trying anymore.
I worked through undergrad with the goal of becoming a physical therapist (No, I'm not interested in programming or engineering like everyone on on this board).
After 4 years of isolation and misery, I am still a kissless friendless virgin. I see no reason to continue with life. I don't see the point in trying to go to school and spending almost 100k on a degree where I will surely be as alone and miserable if I complete it as I would be if I had a shit paying job
Except now I'm scared because everything I have done like volunteering, internships, degree were all going towards physical therapy, so I have no idea what type of job I would even do.
>>24432306
>tfw health issues will prevent me from going on the first draft
enough time for me to c.uck Chad while he dies for his country
>>24432171
As someone who is a former non-neet. Yes.
Honestly the only thing that makes it worthwhile is simply the fact that you have money coming in and can spend it on drugs or anime figurines or upgrading your computer or whatever else.
I guess if you get autismbucks you got that much covered, but also just being out and sometimes socializing with people that are sometimes not half-bad, or just riding the bus and seeing all sorts of crazy/interesting people, is also a benefit of being a wagekek and also student
>>24432140
>Had friends
>Left school
>seen as close to normie
>get gf
>Lose touch with friends because we only were friends because of school
>get depressed
>get freak medical condition which fucks me up
>Scare off everyone else
>gf stays because I have job
>nobody wants to be friends with the friendless guy with a medical condition
>>24432247
>Landscaping requires expertise in horticulture and artistic design.
Yeah no, I'm horribly uncreative, and I don't have any connections for better labor jobs like that. The labor job I'd probably get forced into would be some moving belt shit or worse, spending all day with working class normies and immigrants.
>mfw parents forced me to accept summer job at moving belt at a glass recycling plant
>quit after 2 days
Never again. That shit would lead me to suicide, especially since I feel I'm smarter than that and would look down on everyone I'd interact with.
>tfw so much potential and opportunity but still want to give up
Should I do it? Is life really just a joke, or am I losing my mind?
The only thing that brings me happiness is the thought that I could give up on "success" and live a comfy shut-in NEET life for a few years before carefully planning a painless suicide.
But then I think that maybe I'm just going through depression and that if I wasted all my chances I would regret it and hate myself forever.
>>24430459
Have you thought of studying something not related with computers?
>>24432366
>>24432216
This is just me, but I'd rather have a backbreaking job involving labor than a mindbreaking job involving dealing with people or crunching numbers.
The body is much more resilient and easier to heal and rest than the mind, generally speaking.
>>24430882
Take the GED exam.
>>24432306
you know this. godspeed, winter's comming
>>24432335
pffff
there will be no draft this war anon
>>24432404
I'd love to get one of those "easy desk jobs" that pay like shit but involve little chance of failure and just generally do some paperwork all day for a set amount of hours. I can be prudent with money to save up for my purchases and I'd be happy enough to just sit in a comfortable office and listen to music while doing a repetitive task. For me this would be the bare minimum which I would be happy with.
A lot of those jobs are gone or going away though and they are usually filled up with dumb relatives of higher placed company members anyways so little chance to luck myself into that situation. So I got to work for a college degree that will allow me to carve out just enough of a comfy life for me to be content with.
>>24432396
idk why that made me laugh but yeah that's what I'm doing now. I'm sticking with music production until I'm dead, I'll just work wagekek jobs in the meantime and also to help me buy all the shit that I need.
I think the issue was that I come from parents who were, and still are, technologically illiterate and against computers & video games as a whole. Since I was literally the only person in my family who knows how to do the simplest most basic shit like burn a CD or manage Windows accounts and reset the router, my parents thought that I was another Bill Gates.
There's also a bit of knowledge and technical skills relate to music production in 2015 when ti comes to building a proper computer with the right sound card and and CPU and other specs so that your music isn't a stuttering glitchy mess when you make & render tracks with a DAW, but it's nothing I can't handle.
>>24432577
>tfw you didn't have any kind of high speed internet when you were a child
>tfw you learned to do some cool computer shit but would have been a god damn prodigy if you had real internet access
>tfw trying to download anything meant you're spending all day there
>tfw friends did have high speed internet
>waste it away on vydia
i mean I would have been too, but once I was bored with vydia I would have been learning more shit about programming
>>24432926
We didn't have any internet at home until I was17
not only did it hinder me from getting interested/started in computer science and IT stuff at an early age, but I also didn't know what a fucking vagina looked like until I finally looked up real pictures online.
The shit that they showed us in sex ed courses was always like see-through diagrams & drawings. For the longest time I thought that you could girl's ovaries and uterus just hanging out there like it's shown in those textbooks.
>>24432546
>implying all straight white males won't be shipped out so racemixing can occur uninterrupted
>>24431088
HAHAHAHAHAHA OH GOD
Fucking delusional you are, lad.
>>24432264
I'm already a professional programmer actually. I taught myself to code when I was 13, so programming is the easy part for me.
Unfortunately, a game isn't just a "few pieces of data" you add to code. The art and the writing is the hard part, it's more time-consuming than the code. That's why I need to teach myself art as well, I'll get people to help me with it obviously, but I also need to be able to draw on my own.
>>24431088
because my hopes and dreams were exactly as stupid as yours
>hopes
>dreams
>future
>2015
kek m8,
>>24433188
What do you mean man? Writing a game is like making any other program. There's no magic to it.
Have you tried making a tiny 2d game? Shit's easy just needs to be written so you can add content to it.
>>24433092
Oh lawrdy lmao
the internet taught me everything about sex ed so I guess I should be thankful I had some kind of connection
>it's almost thanksgiving
it's like clockwork, every fucking year
young faggots here in their first semester of college, now are looking down the barrel of the gun that is the end of the semester they spent smoking, drinking, sucking chad off, gaming, sleeping, not going to class bc too smart, etc
many will drop out at this point, the rest will fall come next april or so.
I gave it an honest shot. I forged myself into a somewhat successful person career wise barely but I'm devoid of anything that might help me resemble a human being and I think people can sense that.
If by given up you mean gave up on relationships or friendships outside of the internet I think I've reached a point where I either don't want it enough or it just isn't possible anymore.
Strangely enough the longer I let things go this way the more I become ok with it. I just think more about my hobbies and what I want to focus on next career wise while I wait to die. It's calming and freeing really. The only thing that bothers me now is the people who aren't ok with it but it's not
>>24430169
>tfw cant leave house without feeling crushed by other people
>always feel like people are looking at me and judging
>constantly paranoid even in my own house thinking people can see in
just end me senpai
>>24433689
Surprise! people on this board don't have very good self control, have mental issues, are young stupid and socially awkward or a combination of all of the above. Most college students aren't exactly known for their sanity and good decisions and they're surrounded by dozens of others just like them in order to balance eachother out.
anyway good baito much bite very yes here's your reply.
I'm going to U Chicago next fall to study physics with a minor in CS, my goal in life is to work at Dwave Quantum Computing desu
>>24433428
>Writing a game is like writing any other program.
Yeah, I know, I've made games before. I thought by "data" you meant art and writing, guess I didn't read the post closely enough.
You should listen to the song, "I Tried" by little fyodor. Actually, get his greatest cd...he was an anon before 4chan.
Im not done trying, I give it till I am 35-40 then ill probably become an alcoholic.
I start grad school next Fall. I wanna make it for my robots. ;_;
