>depressed as fuck
>nowhere else to share my feels
>make thread on /r9k/
>no answer
>>24426355
>tfw even robots don't like you
>>24426355
Same, I can't even join an IRC because I'm too autistic.
>>24426355
"robots" on r9k only like chads like Eggman, not actual real depressed/socially anxious people.
Seriously, fuck eggman. I wish he had actually had his ass kicked when people were trying to pin the shooting on him. Fucking attentionwhore.
>>24426355
>>24426376
>>24426377
>>24426417
I'm here for you, friends
>>24426355
What are you feels, anon?
>>24426355
Share your feels OP.
I'll listen if no one else does.
>>24426663
>>24426689
>>24426614 here
>tfw OP doesn't want us to hear his feels
What a weird feel
>>24426937
>tfw denied of feels
>tfw this stupid thread gets more replies than mine
REEEEEEEE!!!!!
>>24426999
At least you got some nice trips, bro
/r9k/ sucks ass for feels
It has been completely taken over by /s4s/ and DUDE REEE LMAO me and my gf post this frog meme all day lol we're such introverts.
Why can't /s4s/ stay in /s4s/?
>>24427026
HOW lS THAT SUPPOSED TO MAKE ME HAPPY?
>>24426417
There are real robots here too.
>>24426355
I know that feel, friend. It sucks.
>>24427027
There are still some legitimately nice and helpful robots too. Just last night I made a thread while I was completely wasted and there were some nice anons in that thread. They made me feel better.
>tfw I always want too pee because of my anxiety and I can't go to school anymore because of this
I take pills but is doesn't help
My life was already shit, now it's nothing
>>24427085
Yeah sometimes you find the nice piece of chocolate mousse in the ocean of diarrhea.
What are we most feeling about tonight lads?
>tfw no gf?
>alpha fux beta bux?
>no more tendies?
>you're just a leech of society?
>she gives you a hug, she gives chad a tug?
>don't want to be neet anymore?
>slowly realizing and giving yourself more examples of your deteriorating mental health and know that you will either end up dead in the middle of nowhere or in a mental institution?
I realize most of those are meme'd up, but it's the best way to mask the feels we all carry.
>>24427285
>no gf
Is the feel that consumes me. All of my feels come from a lack of companionship.
>>24427285
>tfw no tinder matches
>>24427285
>tfw she's very much happy with someone else
>>24427285
>in a mental institution
I'm starting to think that it might not be so bad. As long as they shoot me up with tranquilizers that is.
>>24427285
Are mental institutions that terrible? I don't think it would be that bad as long as other patients weren't trying to smear their shit on me or anything
Just gonna bitch if you guys don't mind, if you think of any advice please share it.
>spoke to my oneitis and asked her to stop back if she'd share a riddle or wants to chat
>has not stopped back doesn't make eye contact
>starting to get more confident with women
>still afraid to ask for a phone number irl
I feel like i'm afraid of being labeled as a sexual harasser or something like that I guess. Couldn't care less about the grills opinion.
>friends are shit, non-supportive / assholes even though I'm a very good friend and listen to them
>need to swap jobs to buy a house as my current one is very stressful
>no call backs or anything
>my internet is shit
I get that my oneitis may not find me attractive in anyway, but my approach was very kind and non-intrusive. As if I were trying to make a friend, and i'm still ignored. Really sucks seeing all the people in her department getting to hang out with her, but you don't get to because you're a resource.
I was pretty sure she wouldn't reciprocate my approach but still man, I was kind of expecting to be treated like a human.
>tfw the best part of my day is when this person comes in and talks to me for about 10 minutes and can actually talk about myself
I get that twice a week, and i'm pretty thankful for it. Wish my oneitis was that nice, she totally seemed quiet and reserved but I guess a pretty face can make for some interesting psychological changesthanks for letting me bitch, sorry. Kinda seems petty when it's all written out.
>>24428090
I can really relate to the first part. I'm in literally the exact same situation. I don't know how to ask for her phone number.
I wish I could give you any advice; but, I'm just as inept as you.
>>24428133
I'm nowhere close to asking my oneitis for her number, the last thing I asked her was if she could stop by and give me a riddle of she remembers it. Haven't heard from her since (about a week ago)
The girls I want to ask are somewhat infrequent to my work place or places I visit. I'd like to be able to go back there. Anyway I did talk to my oneitis which is a pretty big feat for me, I was pretty proud of myself for a weekend. Your (you) is all I want from you anon :3
>>24428256
Thanks for the (you); but, there is one thing about your posts is confusing me. Are you a supervillain or something? What's up with the riddle?
>>24428324
That's her thing, she comes up with riddles and I wanted in on that so I asked if she could give me one.
WHY DOES THIS THREAD KEEP GETTING REPLIES WHEN MINE DOESN'T REEEEEEE!!!
>>24428477
Oh, I see. And no riddle so far? I actually socialise pretty well with my oneitis, no quirky things like riddles. But I speak with her often and I've walked her home a few times. We just talk for like an hour during the walks.
Yet, I still can't ask for her fucking number. My stomach just drops at the thought of it.
>>24428522
Which thread is yours?
>>24428522
I'll reply to your thread. Link it baby.
>tfw depression has taken me over
>tfw no sex drive
>tfw lack of hunger
>tfw always tired
>tfw constant headaches
>tfw no motivation,especially not to leave the house
>tfw easily irritated
>tfw lack of concentration even while browsing /r9k/
>>24428668
>tfw you've expressed so many feels autocorrect doesn't even bother to correct "tfw" to "the" anymore
Tonight I'll try to kill myself and will fail again.
>>24427285
>playing Fallout 4 (yes, I know it's mediocre but I love me some post-apocalypse)
>romance a companion to get that extra XP
>realize this will literally never happen to me in real life
>feel the widest save of >tfw no gf I've ever had
Now I know why some people can actually be serious with their waifus. The alternative is just too fucking shit.
>>24428668
>tfw I know all of those feels
The kicker for me though is I have to keep pretending to be a normie so no one asks me about it. I mean, people genuinely care about my well being, this is a fact that I know but most of the time I wish they didn't so I could be a NEET and end up killing myself in a couple years.
>>24428523
nope no nothing, I don't even feel my approach was that autistic.
Like idk how i'm supposed to befriend anyone than asking about their interests. Feels bad
Just ask her bro, I wish I could even get as far as walking down the exit path from work. Holy fuck the universe is out to cock block me so bad.
>hey I enjoy talking to you, maybe we could do it somewhere else
ez, good luck chief.
>tfw NEET
>tfw I didn't really sleep much last night because I thought about every regret I had in life and why I'm such a loser
>tfw I went on normiebook and saw everyone I knew in High School are now leading successful and happy lives
>>24428668
You should drink more water
>>24428888
>(yes, I know it's mediocre but I love me some post-apocalypse)
who cares what people think, you're having fun right?
>>24428964
Yeah it's fun as fuck so far. Even if I've totally overlevelled and I can defeat Deathclaws in 10 or so shots on Very Hard.
>>24428936
Good luck on your front as well, friend. I have 2 friends who are relatively normie and the only advice I've gotten from them is essentially "Just bee urself, man!" I don't understand how people do it.
>>24428960
Normiebook is just people posting the best moments in their life. Which gives the illusion that they're having these amazing fantasy lives.
Don't feel too bad about it.
>>24429026
I just wish I could say I accomplished something or did something with my life. Seems like no matter what I do though I always fall into the darkness.
>>24428928
I don't wanna be a dick but pretending to be a normie is the "right/normal" thing to do. People do not want to hear about your feels, what hurts you or makes you happy. No one is that deep anymore (imo) Everyone likes talking about themselves,
That or they are uncomfortable talking about how they process emotion, women are not the most emotional creatures they just act on emotions more than men.
>>24428960
Delete your kuckbook profile and focus on yourself rather than comparing to other people
>>24428997
same
if being myself wasn't working before it's not gonna help now, fucking dumbfounded logic.
Change is the only thing that'll help me, and thank you anon. Doubt it'll go anywhere but I'm gonna keep trying for other fish.
>>24429068
It's not like that, it's more like, people ask how I'm doing and if I say anything other than great with a legitimate smile, they continue to inquire about what's going on. I don't want to tell people what's going on because they're all real normies that don't have the same issues of >tfw no gf that I do. Among other things, but I'm not going into my life story.
>>24429101
I like using facebook to read articles while at work
Thinking about deleting (or whatever it is now) my old one and just making a new from scratch, I could use it for tinder articles and trolling. Think it's worth the effort?
Does anyone else ever have sudden moments where you feel completely detached from where you are, like things suddenly came into focus, like you're just viewing the world but unable to really interact with it? I can't really describe it. I've only ever had this in the last few years as I've became more of a shut in, it only ever happens when I leave my house too, not every time of course, but never when I'm at home.
>>24429183
Huh, that's funny. I used to remember thinking just like that, I can't even remember when that changed.
you must be younger than 21 or so.
>>24429219
Yea, happens a lot when I'm riding my motorcycle lol. I can snap back to reality pretty quickly.
I made some serious mistakes in my wkrk and now im stressed they will fire me. I m not even afraid of the financial aspect, but the humiliation. I already feel like nobody respects me anymore. I cant sleep because of this and due to exhaustion im more prone to another mistakes
>>24429226
I turn 21 in a couple months actually. I've been so angry lately, just so angry because if I was sad in it's place, I would likely kill myself right now. Thanks for at least replying.
>don't feel like my meds are working
>leech off society
>leech off parents
>neighbor is pissed because utilities went up
>internet relationship over
>gaining weight from sitting at home all day
>too beta to suicide
>>24426417
How is he Chad when he is actually fucking ugly? Like if I had a baby with him, I would Casey Anthony the damn thing if I could get away with it....make it look like it had SIDS.
Just because a loser fucked him doesn't take away from the fact that he's a worthless human being and no decent person with self esteem will commit to or love him.
>>24429369
np I felt like you did too actually
I've grown to care less about what people think or say about me, I still do but much less. Stress has gone down a bit as well. People never really cared about my feels before nor did I want to get into it with anyone.
>>24429352
>I m not even afraid of the financial aspect, but the humiliation. I already feel like nobody respects me anymore.
I have this feel all the time, still think about putting a gun to my head everyday. On a less morbid note. I would stop stressing out about work. There will always be more places to get some cash and I deal with people getting fired all the time. At most they talk for a day, if that. Then you're just a memory.
My job is super high stress (like retardedly) I have to admit it's gotten better though. I have stopped worrying about such things as well. I used to worry if I'd still have a job next week. I'd love to get fired and collect some neetbux while looking for a new job, I could never intentionally do that though. Some decent advice someone once gave me was
Ask yourself if this will matter in 5 years, if yes worry if not fuck it.
>>24429369
As for the Anger, I felt it too. Just try not to push away people that love you <3
>>24429839
I just want a girl to feel about me the way I do about her.
>>24429862
I've already started it. I've been seething and I've flat out told a couple of people their advice was worthless and that if they wanted to continue being friends they'd need to give me time to either sort this out or move away.
>>24429967
It's going to take some time and I have no idea how you should start
I'm still working on it myself m8, if you ever feel like sudoku you should do something wild and adventurous as you're already going to die. That's my plan anyway, may as well have a cool story. I hate this 9-5 bullshit though, I want to see things i've never seen do things i've only seen.
>>24430041
Well, I'm killing myself on my 23rd birthday if I don't have a gf by then. That gives me a couple years at least.
>>24430083
why your 23rd?
>>24430174
I decided initially 28 because then it wouldn't look like it's cause I don't want to be a wizard. The past 3 years have been so bad I'm not convinced I can go that long. So I decided 23rd because that way it's close enough, but I also have some time left for it to turn around.
>>24427285
>know a girl
>she fugged my best friend
>we met through my best friend
>feel some sort of a weird connection with her
>talk to her last week at a party
>completely sperg out, unable to say a single word to her
>no possibility of meeting her again
>my best friend and her don't talk anymore
>tfw no gf
>autismum maximum
>no amount of alcohol and/or weed is able to open my mouth
>hate myself
>>24430334
Also:
>too anxious to go to a psychologist and get help
Pls anons wat do
>post in a populated thread
>it just dies
this happens with like 15 threads a day
it'll probably happen in this one too
>>24430358
iktf bro. I kill threads with my comments, it's like even r9k doesn't want me.
>>24430379
like I don't think anybody understands how much this happens to me
I'm not even exaggerating, at least 90% of the threads I post in die when I post
>>24430399
No, believe me famille It happens to me too, in fact this is the only thread in about 3 or 4 weeks that I've posted in that hasn't died within 4 or 5 comments after. The only exception I find are those threads that you "post in this thread or x"
>>24426355
7cupsoftea.com
free amateur counselling so you can share your feels with someone
>>24430463
alternatively
>type out a big heartfelt post
>thread dies
>think "fuck it, I didn't put all that effort into that post to have it just wiped away"
>create a thread with it
>thread dies with zero posts
>>24430399
Don't worry anon we'll keep this thread alive.
>>24430530
We are of a kind, you and I
>>24427285
mental institution
my mom made me talk to her about how I was fucked up which I really didn't want to do but she was drunk and (hopefully) forgot
>>24430530
>>24430572
same desu senpai
I wish I could just be wanted by robots at least.
>implying this board isn't filled with normies, chads and females
>>24430243
You do but why not instead save up a bunch of cash and go to an amazing place on your 23rd? If you still want to die you can do so in the beautiful place of your dreams.
>>24430334
as far as getting into contact with her, i'd just ask your buddy for her number
for you talking to her? bro you gotta get out of your head There's a green tea extract that's supposed to help with cognitive function, I have some but have yet to try it. I'm going to try it at a social event.
l-theanine or something, it's brandname is suntheanine
>>24430620
Oh, i already have her number.
Also, it's not just her i can't speak to. Its everyone except for my few close friends.
>>24430620
The least I can do is give the money I have backt o my parents so they can at least be compensated for the fuck-up of a child they had that they had to waste money to clothe, feed, educate etc.
>>24430618
I'd go bar hopping with some robots but that's about it
no need to share my feels with a real human bean. But I do need a wingman.
>spent all day worrying about texting manager to ask for the night off
>finally text them after 8 hours
>set phone to silent and hide it under bed sheets in case they reply
>day was ruined by worrying about texting them all day so it doesn't matter if i got the night off or not anyway
>>24430620
Also:
>suntheanine
Will look into it. Thanks
>>24430671
I would go out to a bar for sure with robots. No doubt about it. We probably live thousands of kilometers away from each other.
>>24430655
yea try that suntheanine stuff
that's the highest quality extract there is, infact I think it's artificially made in sunflowers which is why they can sell it cheaper and in bigger quantities. Extracts are too difficult and not cost effective as it takes a long time and amount of material.
>>24430659
A vacation will cost less than 3,000 dollars. Save up 10 grand, use 3. Send them 7k
to be honest whatever you make isn't going to make up for what they lost. I've thought about that a lot. m8 A lot...
>>24430399
This is why I started shitposting tbqh
>>24430748
You're right. They don't deserve a fuck-up kid who kills himself, I don't deserve to live a life that makes me angry and sad all of the time though.
>>24426355
>>24427285
>granddad dying of cancer and I can't bring myself to visit him (never really had a relationship with him)
>grandmother lost her mind (Alzheimer's)
>other grandmother also dying
>parents divorced (good thing, my whole life they just screamed at each other (and me))
>father keeps talking about killing himself, panic attacks+anger issues+depression
>mother in mental hospital because of multiple breakdowns, also suicidal, diagnosed bipolar
>I'm 20 and fucking alone, always has been
>distractions don't work anymore
I'm back to thinking about killing myself again, even though things seemed to get better for some months. I'm a genetic junkyard and hated being alive since I can remember. There is no point. If I would get a relationship (however that would happen), I would just come to hate the other because that's what I'm used to (I don't think anyone would love me anyways). Things never get better, problems never get solved, it just gets more complicated and there will be more mistakes you made to look back on. All my life I felt guilty even without knowing what I did, I feel like I'm riding the bus without a ticket and I'll be found out soon, maybe I should just get off the ride myself.
>>24429388
He's a chad relative to the other people who browse r9k
>rejected by society
>rejected by r9k
>literally have no one that i can relate to on a fundamental level
i've never been so alone, yet now it's all i know
>>24430863
no but you have the power to change it
I don't know if you mistook what I said but whatever you save ISN'T worth you
even if you had a million dollars to leave behind, get what i'm saying?
At the same time I am giving you this advice I am not heeding it myself but I know it has to be done. I need to change my life around and hang around with people that enjoy being around me.
>>24431057
>yfw you could have been an Indian from India
You won the fucking lottery dude 1 and 7 chance of being a person who shits in the street and you fucking made it bro. You're not as unlucky as you think.
With that said, seems like there's a lot of shitposting happening and I never get replies either when I'm posting honestly (about 95% of the time)
This thread was nice
It was nice talking and I hope I honestly helped someone today.
>>24431121
Yeah i try to remind myself i could be choking on smog in north korea, but i used to be so happy as a kid and teenager that the stark contrast to my current life cant help but make me depressed. hopefully we can make it.
>>24431245
Not that this is a game or anything but i've felt this way ever since I was a kid
I expected things to not go my way, expected people to cancel on me, stuff of that nature. I remember being naive about it though, wasn't very long. I remember looking in a mirror and telling myself to just expect it from now on.
That's not to say I didn't have pleasant memories and friends though.
>>24431385
>>24431245
man that's kinda dread and I didn't make my point
Anyway there's nothing for us in the past we gotta keep looking forward.
I try to think like old people do
no fucks given
>>24431121
At least you'd have the motivation of having to get a job or else you and your family dies of hunger.
>>24431245
what happened? why are you unhappy now?
>>24431385
I was an angry kid but I remember still being happy. I think it was the fact that I still had my whole life ahead of me. Now I'm almost 23 and pretty much locked into what I'll be doing for the next 40 years until I die. and yeah >>24431404
I just try to forget about what's happened and move forward. sulking is easy but it wont do anything so I try not to do it.
>>24431664
had a tight group of friends all move away in a 6 month period. former best friend basically has cut all contact with me, and I'm going to be in IT until I die. other than that I can't complain a lot.
>>24431756
it all seems pretty trivial when it's written out huh? Seems so easy to just change some words around.
I had a temper and I was a little shit too, feel kinda bad.
>>24431805
yeah in the grand scheme of things none of this is catastrophic. it's just been extremely jarring to go from having multiple people I could share my true thoughts and feelings with, to sitting in my car alone just wondering why everyone who I ever called friend felt the need to ditch me. i've also been raised really religious my whole and only questioned it the past couple years so i'm sure that hasn't helped my state of mind. I just wish I could be a mindless idiot who enjoys life and does whatever they want, normies have it good.
>>24431756
sorry to hear about that senpai
i can relate ever so slightly: some stuff happened during the summer and my tight group of friends is no longer tight - i'm not even looking forward to seeing them all when i go back home from uni this christmas. the person who is probably my only good friend from home outside of that group got diagnosed with depression earlier this year and we've spoken less frequently ever since - haven't spoken to him in a week (before his diagnosis we spoke everyday), not sure if i will again
>>24432265
really wish i could get the camaraderie i used to have but i have a feeling it will never be the same. at least we have 4chan i guess.
>>24432265
Honestly any real friend is one that you can chat up like you were speaking yesterday after months of silence
happens with one of my buds
phone works both ways as well anon
he was robot as fuck for the longest time, seems like he's getting his shit straight now. Maybe it's time to consider him as a roommate
>tfw OP and I didn't expect this thread to get any answer
>tfw now I'm far too anxious to post my feels knowing that people would judge it
>On holiday in southern Europe
>Found website to find escorts months ago
>Last day here
>decide fuck it, adventure
>City is full of people, move up to the adress
>Call her she opens the Gates into a small creepy ass yard
>walk up stairs
>Door is open
>ugly ass South American lady in there
>think whatever, no one knows and I want to try anal
>hard as fuck to keep it in there
>keep pounding she's clearly mouning to make me cum
>can't cum
>literally feels 999999 times better to masturbate at home
>After a long time trying to blow me she gives med a handjob with two hands
>after a long time finally cum
>got the fuck outta there
Feel like shit senpaitachi, I was so hyped to fuck someone anal like in the porns but it was completely meh
I feel so fucking filthy right now, I even liked her asshole in the beginning. Everything was with a condom but I'm scared as fuck for STD's still.
I've got fucking lube all over my face, thank fuck no one knows about this except me.
Forget traps, escorts and no-string sex in general. Just want a cute gf to chill and have missionery sex with.
N E V E R A G A I N
>>24432712
Someone please give me a (you), i need someone to talk to, fucking horrible experience man
>>24432777
I can't ignore those trips
>>24432777
no one what to reply to a failed normie. nice trips tho
>>24432712
Damn this kinda made me cautious of hookers
Lickin the pooper was not a wise choice anon, otherwise I wouldn't worry about it m8. Life is a game, you tried something and didn't like it :)really though licking her pooper man, maybe if it was your gf okay, but you don't know where that's been. Or what's been in it.
>>24433028
Was only 1 time senpai, dry as fuck, zero fluids n shit, hope I'm in the clear. Going to get tested when I get home.
I had just hyped up watching anal porn all my life, kind of got cought in the moment. If I turn out negative in the STD test it was just a bad experience only I know about.
Kind of spooked though, the fuck was I thinking
>>24433124
you're fine dude
you might show positive for the herp but like 70% of the population has it already so don't even worry about that one. Your stomach would kill anything that got in there.
I just read the last line of your story again and it made me laugh
>finally get gf
>gf wonders why i'm so boring in bed
>can never reveal my secret
Again, don't worry you will not get a STD m8. The pooper thing though, I can't get over that. What did it taste like? was it hairy?
oh god lol
>>24432712
Hahaha I've never had an escort myself. But I've had some embarrassing shit happen to me. No harm to checked for STD's I was reckless with that shit and now I have gonorrhoea. In my experience these embarrassing moments make for great stories own that shit and learn to be able to laugh at yourself sometimes.
>>24426355
stop eating gluten. gluten intolerance cause mental illness and depression (and shit tons more).
>>24433208
Thanks for calming me down man you have no idea how fucking tripping this is.
Nah it was clean, no hairs, didnt taste like anything really. I guess she was pretty clean. She even used disinfective cloth on my dick before putting a confirm on. Holy shit those condoms are small as fuck that might have been why I couldn't enjoy it they literally Strangle dick.
>Can't tell her why
You Damn right, I'm bringing this to the grave.
>>24433229
Thanks for the words of wisdom man, gonna get checked anyway you know, just to prevent subconscious night-mares.
>>24433316
Guys this thread has been great for me, even if I got no answers people listened.
Thank youalso check um
