Well guys, I did it. I proved that I'm fucked up beyond repair.
>Be me, 21 year old guy
>Relatively charismatic, but somewhat weird, awkward person
>Can only get turned on by clothed women pissing themselves
>Don't even get a chubby from vaginas, tits, dicks, asses or anything but women pissing themselves
>Sex is just a form of masturbation for me while I fantasize about girls soaking their pants
>I've been aware of this for a while, but have always been in denial
>Consider myself to have a somewhat normal sexuality. Delude myself with ideas that I'm attracted to sex, a specific gender, or something halfway normal
>Have even wondered (and experimented with the idea that) I'm gay with no luck
>Currently abroad, have access to cheap, high end prostitutes
>Find myself a hot girl for a reasonable price
>Hope to find that I've outgrown my weirdness and can finally get turned on by something normal
>Get to her apartment - beautiful, petite Asian girl with excellent features all around
>She only speaks a few words of English, so communication is extremely difficult.
>She strips and starts sucking me off. I try to focus and her and not imagine any girls pissing themselves.
>Dick doesn't budge
>She seems confused, asks me if this is normal. I tell her that I'm stressed and to keep going.
>Dick doesn't budge
>I get desperate, ask her to kiss my chest while I jerk myself off
>Dick doesn't budge
>I think about this whole scenario and find it hilarious. I can't help but to start laughing
>She tries to go back to my dick (which is still totally soft). I tell her to keep kissing my chest as I furiously tug my completely flaccid cock, still laughing all the while
>She becomes more and more visibly disturbed. Tries to go back to my dick several times. I pull her away and tell her to keep kissing my chest (it felt kinda good, I hoped it might trigger a boner).
>Dick doesn't budge, the increasing amount of failure in this whole ordeal makes me laugh harder
>Eventually, time ran out. I paid up and walked out the door.
In retrospect, I'm pretty sure I scared the shit out of that girl. I was literally just some foreign dude violently shaking his soft cock on her bed, ordering her to lick my chest while laughing the entire time. She probably thought I was pretty psychotic.
But what worries me the most is that there seems to be no fix for what I am. What the fuck can I do to have a normal sexuality? Fuck, I'd take being gay over this. At least then I can get turned on by something halfway normal.
You got two choices from here:
1) Pay a girl to piss on you next time
2) Stop masturbating and watching anything you find sexually arousing for a month. You'll be so horny by the end of it you'll get turned on by 'regular' stuff again
>>24403299
why didn't you make her pee dude
>>24403512
>>24403577
1) I'm not attracted to girls pissing if they seem disgusted by it (which the vast majority of hookers would be). She definitely didn't seem like the type who'd be into that sort of thing. Also, it's not just girls peeing that turn me on - they need to be pissing their pants.
2) I've tried that before. Went 2 months no-fap, then tried rubbing one off to all sorts of non-piss porn. I got a chubby at most. In order for that to work, I'd probably have to prevent myself from having any orgasms for a year. And even then, it would only work once.
>>24403299
>sex is just a form of masturbation
this is me...and im trying desperately to change it
I want to have that amazing physical experience its supposed to be, but in the end I have to resort to fantasizing during sex to get off
i mean it can even be a fantasy about what im doing..but it always requires that seperation
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>>24403780
It's such a fucking problem.
The only time it works for me is what I'm shitfaced drunk. I can manage to multitask fantasizing and fucking without losing a boner. And those high-end prostitutes are specifically against hosting guys who are as drunk as I'd need to be.
But yeah, I'd love to have that normie "love" experience during sex, but I've never gotten it. I have nothing but lust for watching women urinate in their clothes.
it could be pchychological go to a prof or find a girl with some urinal problems kek
I'm the same op, not worried though since there's no chance of me ever getting near a pussy.
>>24404210
>find a girl with urinal problems
That's my dream. Dating a qt girl with incontinence issues who routinely pisses herself, but somehow is aroused by it instead of being ashamed by it.
Will it ever happen? No.
>>24404211
I'm not sure which is worse. It's so unbelievably frustrating to have a beautiful pussy right in front of you, only to be denied it by your own fucking mind and body.
>>24403982
Why didn't you just pay her to piss herself, that's literally what whores are for.
>>24404503
i don't know faggot, why do you let your dad shit in your face
Fuck this is my fetish and my greatest fear. I've literally never fapped to regular vanilla sex in my life, only fetish shit.
I'm scared that if I ever get with a girl I'll be unable to get it up.
