How bad is your social anxiety?
>>24389639
Can't smoke out the window because I believe the tire guys across the street are watching and judging me, so I smoke in the bathroom. Still feel like I'm being watched
>>24389639
wow is that real?
>>24389811
probably someone who works at a movie theater
>>24389639
what a fucking cunt ass roastie bitch
making sure no one else can enjoy anything else
my hands sweat constantly please kill me everyone who shakes my hand questions me fuck and its hard to type on my phone sometimes kill me
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK I HATE ME WHY DOES EVERYTHING REMIND ME OF MY MISTAKES AND HOW I COULD'VE FIXED THEM AND EVERYTHING IF I WASN'T SUCH A FUCKING DUMBASS SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
>>24389639
My eyes get a bit teary when I talk to people sometimes. Though it's not always. It's kind of random, really.
>people watch me
>people judge me
>no one wants me
>Stop paying attention to reality and surroundings
>Phase out into my imagination and nightmarish daydreams
>Weak knees turn into whole body going numb
>breathe heavily
>lights get brighter
>air gets hotter but also cold at the same time
>eyes are about to shut
>almost lost consciousness several times in public
I wanna do fun things but other people are always there. Even if I'm playing vidya by myself I can't help but think this is some sort of Truman Show thing and that people are always watching me always no matter what.
>>24390418
Relax anon, it's never too late :^)
>>24390436
Talking to strangers or talking to someone who is over you (boss or so); the teary eye trigger. Plus a stupid shaky voice. Just when you thought the s-stutter typing was a meme.
>>24390418
Your mistakes are tears in rain, anon.
you guys don't have social anxiety
https://www.reddit.com/r/toronto/comments/3sxtvj/friends_wanted/
this man is the embodiment of what its like to struggle with social anxiety, so get over yourselves.
When I'm standing or sitting in a place for too long I start sweating and I get a little antsy. This only happens in public.
>>24390418
This, holy fuck. I analyze everything to the nearest detail. Literally every time I go drinking with my friends, It's expected that I need a 3 day recovery period because I worry about what I did the night before and if I fucked it up real bad.
>Good friend of mine has a very honerable prestigous job
>Be me
>Got accepted into the same job only a few weeks ago
>Invites me out to a concert
>Concert goes fucking great, were drinking having a good time
>On the way home, I try dip for the first time
>Proceed to pull over and throw up out the door (narrowly miss 95% of his car)
>He throws up because he saw me throws up
>Back at his place, 2 of his friends are there
>His one friend is giving me tips left and right, what to do, what not to do, seems like a great fucking dude
>His actual roommate is being all pissy
>Throw up again in the toilet there
>drink beers and the rest of the night is awesome
>Have been spending the past 3 days trying to figure out if it was something I did or not
My friend cant stop texting me about how fucking awesome the whole night was in general, but fuck. These are my seniors at this new job, I'm afraid I've already fucked up my reputation.
I piss in my room sink to avoid seeing people in the halls, that's about it
>>24390436
I get this too sometimes, is there a reason for it?
>>24390702
This is what happens at workplaces anon.
>>24390683
He has a girlfriend and Skype , you fucking piece of shit.
>>24390856
Re-really? It's normal? Like I said I'm worried about already fucking up my reputation. The job isfirefightingso I thought I was supposed to be this burly brawly kick ass dude and I don't start the academy until March, but yeah.
At my current job I'm very selective who I hang out with to drink.
>>24390683
No person with severe social anxiety would make a post like this asking complete strangers on the internet to be their friend.
No social anxiety.
People actually avoid me. that's a different problem
>>24390683
>social anxiety
>on reddit
Yeah no
Girl I'm into, invited me to drinks tonight and didn't go because I couldn't bare the thought of meeting her work friends because social interaction is impossible
>>24389639
>tfw some people try to talk to you but you avoid them because you feel like pure shit every time you try to have a conversation with them
>>24390944
everyone with social anxiety doesn't need to avoid others, so you can't deny that his experience since all social anxiety is relative.
his struggle with not being able to befriend random strangers on the street or sometimes feeling awkward over a single stutter is just as valid as your experience with social anxiety. :^)
>>24389639
>spending 2000+ dollars to watch a mediocre movie once
>>24390418
We all get what we deserve in life
>>24391177
True Detective S2 was terrible. Stop that.
>in high-school i never spoke a single word
>didn't go to clubs, or events
>spent free periods in back of library reading
>fast worward 5 years
>they organised a reunion this fucking early
>didn't get my invite,thought it got lost in the mail
>learned information from aunt
>heard to the school
>go to the entry table
>they ask my name
>ohh im Anon...
>sorry it doesn't show you on the list,
>sorry this is for class members of 07
>try to show her me in the graduation photo
>tells me to leave
>start to tear up
>leave the building
turns out the student board forgot i was even attending the school,didn't know who i was
sent me a bullshit apology letter
never again
>>24390683
>"has social anxiety"
>has a job
>has a gf
>has social media
Pick only social anxiety or the other 3
>>24391232
I'm sorry anon, thats terrible. Why would they tell you to leave though? Was it like mean or what?
How bad is my social anxiety?
>afraid of going outside because i don't want people to look at me
>don't "express myself" in any way
>hate shopping, all my clothes are plain, no logos, nothing
>have owned the same ones since high school
>i like to draw but always hide my drawings because i don't want anyone to look at them
>don't like writing in front of people
>feel really secretive about really miniscule things in general
>no one in my family really knows anything about me, my likes or dislikes
>don't actually speak to any of them anyways
>feel really overwhelmed whenever i have to ask my mom for anything
>i haven't opened my mouth to speak to anyone in months (not even myself)
>get really scared when i'm home alone and someone knocks on the door or rings the bell, ignore them and feel relieved when they leave
>>24391232
God, that's hilarious. Like out of a bad sit com or something.
>>24391232
that sucks, though honestly i wouldn't have gone
>>24391232
>showing up to high school reunion
Fucking normie
>>24391520
didn't want to go family thought it would be a good idea
>>24389765
You're not that important you special snowflake
I have not been outside in over 5 years.
>>24390683
>Has a girlfriend
lol
>>24390683
>social anxiety
>has no problem going to the bar to get drinks
all the keks frienderino
>>24390907
>firefighter
If anything that happening helped you.
>>24391520
>not going to it to see everyone you know be the exact same but fatter
>go to school
>can barely wake up in the morning
>am always anxious about seeing people I know even though I see them 4 times a week
>can never make eye contact
>can barely speak
>whenever I try to speak my eyes get watery like I'm about to cry
>people don't know how to act around me
>got asked today by a girl to scoot over
>apparently I was sitting too close to her for practically the whole semester and I never noticed it, but she did
>feel like shit after that
I actually dropped out for a year because it got so bad, but I forced myself to go back, and it's been an uphill battle every day.
>>24389848
Read it again. You baited me hawrd man.
>>24389639
Eye contact is awkward to me.
Every time I finish a sentence, or the other person does, we just stand there for some reason.
I can hardly speak to someone in a service job.
If I need help with something at a job or whatever, I hardly ever ask. Mainly because every time I have, I've just annoyed the people who offer their help from the beginning.
Being in a crowded aisle of a market pisses me off and I just want to burn everyone in it so they'd get the fuck out of my personal space.
I keep my music low on buses or trains because I always think someone is shit talking me for some reason. Though I've gotten over this one for the most part.
i can't remember the feeling of sunlight on my skin. when my mother or brother brings people into the house i immediately run into my room. same shit when people knock on the door. deathly afraid of those. or, when the phone rings. dongt even get me started, it is sheer panic. sheer hell.
gotta close all these curtains, lock the doors. they can't see me. if they do, i spend a good week figuring out what they might have thought about me. weird, ugly.. strange, eccentric. i can't hold conversations, i can't look anyone in the eye, can't stop getting twitchy in the face. laughing too loudly, sweating and shaking. they're all staring at me, mocking me.
im nothing but a joke.
>>24392846
>it's your fault anon, you need to put yourself out there more
Yeah, no.
I've paid an extra $2 for the bus a few times a week just because I'm too anxious to go in and get a bus card
>>24392937
I had a gym membership for a year and only went for the first 2 months, too anxious to call up and cancel. Just work out at home, much better.
Sometimes I wonder if solitary confinement would be punishment for someone like me who willingly confines himself into solitaire.
>>24391442
You sound like a cunt
>>24393027
Only if you don't get internet access
>>24392846
>im nothing but a joke
True
>>24389639
>can feel the axiety all over my body
>really struggle to let words out of my mouth
>get feelings of persecution
>>24392969
Shit are you me? I once purchased a year gym membership as well and didn't go back after that day. Mustering up the courage to buy it was stressful enough.
>>24390702
Dude no I'm sure that dude loves having some excitement in his love. Sounds like they like you. Just stop worrying, it's a confidence problem
>>24389639
Shieeet. I built my home theater for about 1200 USD. Never going to the theater again.
>>24389639
I get anxiety even from posting on here. I fucking hate myself.
>>24390418
This, constantly. It sucks so bad.
>>24389848
>wanting to watch a boring, western sci-fi, SJW, kekold movies for manchildren and lolsonerdy teenage girls
>>24394386
>tfw you post something than after re-reading it realized you made a typo
>tfw your face turns bright red
>tfw start sweating
>tfw try to delete it
>tfw not enough time has passed since posting
>tfw temporary freakout
>tfw close browser and don't dare go back to 4chan until you are sure thread has 404d
>>24390436
>>24390620
>>24390730
>Talking to strangers or talking to someone who is over you (boss or so); the teary eye trigger. Plus a stupid shaky voice.
This has plagued me my whole life. Looking at eyes is a big trigger of it for me, as is talking with people who seem intimidating. Good to know there are other brobots who share in the struggle
>>24390418
>why am I alive
>why is something as disgusting as me allowed to live
>why did I do it
>>24390436
Make it stop.
>>24394386
Goddammit same fucking here.
>>24389765
Lay off the weed hombre, it's making you paranoid
>>24389639
I don't even think I have anxiety anymore. I'm not shy. I just literally don't know how to talk to people.
If you:
Went to college.
Go to university.
Have a job.
Were able to proceed through highschool until completion.
Have had a partner.
Have more than a single friend.
Use voice chat during games.
Post yourself online.
You do not have anxiety as a disorder, you have anxiety as a normal response to new situations.
Source: Agoraphobic of nine years.
>>24389639
>mfw netflix
>>24389811
>>24389837
Yeah, if you could just buy all the tickets like that the Mafia would be reselling the tickets to you by now and there would be no other way to get em.
OP pic is just some attentionwhore trying to look funny/rich
>>24394458
>>wanting to watch a boring, western sci-fi, SJW, kekold movies for manchildren and lolsonerdy teenage girls
This. Such a pleb normie tier movie.
>>24389639
Not as bad as it used to be, I managed to get over most of mine because of my job. It still comes back every now and then but very rarely thankfully. I can talk to people pretty fine now. I still have trouble holding a conversation but small talk is easy for me now.
General anxiety and paranoia is a different story though.
About a 6/10 on good says, 9/10 on bad days. I get panicked even when I have to talk to strangers on the phone.
>>24389639
bad enough that i dropped out during my last year of highschool and will never ever get a job
>>24389639
One reason i hate going to the movie theatre is that everyone is so loud and shit and i can't enjoy the movie. FUCK YOU ALL THAT LAUGH OUT LOUD OR GO "OOOOOOH"
>>24395438
this
i dont really get anxiety much but i still fucking hate talking to people online and irl because i can never think of anything to say
>>24389639
Bad enough that I never asked a girl out, never asked for a job anywhere because it would require I talk to people and have to explain to them I've never worked, never went to a barber until I was in my 20's, hate driving, and finally hoping my friends forget I exist since they have all went on to have a life of some sort while I'm too paranoid to even leave the house.
I always wonder how so many people can be so damn close minded that they can't comprehend the reality some people can be like me. I should seriously be allowed to claim disability checks. Maybe I can actually. IDK but maybe I am schizo since I feel so out of place amongst the world.
>>24395492
>Agoraphobic
>durrr i have a severe anxiety disorder therefore i have an authority on what's real anxiety
>>24395690
Are you me? I typically lurk but this post might as well have been me.
Talking to people exhausts me. I can feel the sweat dripping from my armpits whenever I have to be a part of any conversation and people always bring up my flushed face. It only makes it worse. Even online, typing anything about myself makes me tense up and shake. Anytime I see the (You) or the notification of a response, I can feel a hurting in my chest.
>>24390683
>normies saying they have social anxiety
this shit really grinds my fucking gears
>>24395492
If you're talking about anxiety disorders in general then you are completely wrong. I get social anxiety to a degree (even though I still disagree) but anxiety in general you are wrong.
I have a job a few friends and completed high school but am still extremely paranoid and get anxious over the stupidest things. To the point where I actually believe i'm crazy.
>>24395723
>I typically lurk
I actually have a huge problem posting here. I went back to being a lurker the entire month of October for reasons I won't mention but I really need to go back to never posting again. I actually lurked the site for a whole year before I finally posted. I kinda knew I would trap myself here if I started but I did it anyways.
>>24394386
keep posting, anon. it took me years before i built up the courage to post for the first time. now, i usually don't feel bad. i'm pretty sure continual desensitization is the solution to social anxiety.
>>24395690
when did i write this. it suck anon it really does. i get scared to even call employers on job position.
>>24395757
I'm just trying to stay alive long enough to join the army. It will either make a man out of me, kill me, or give me an easy way to become an hero.
Good luck fellow robot.
>>24395777
>i'm pretty sure continual desensitization is the solution to social anxiety.
This is true, I ended up getting over most of my social anxiety through my job which forced me to make conversations with people. Was terrible in the beginning and almost got fired for it. But I stuck with it and managed to get over most of it.
>>24389639
I wonder if the brother purchased the tickets 'cause he's a dick or has anxiety.
How will he handle hooligans that sneak into his private theatre?
>>24390683
ok family
>>24395801
>>24395806
>joining the kek army
Even if I was much more confident and extroverted I still would never join any military. Now joining a police force on the other hand I wouldn't mind doing.
>>24391232
im confused as to why the fuck you would even go, and why you would be sad when they didnt let you in. doesn't seem like how someone with sa should act.
>>24392631
i couldn't go to sleep in college i could go to bed early and still fall asleep at 5am with my class starting 8 or 9am
>>24391406
Hey you are almost just like me
Do you have depersonalisation disorder and thing about killing yourself like every single day multiple times a day for 14 years?
>>24395554
>the mafia scalping movie tickets
>>24389811
doubtful, you can only buy a certain limit in most theaters. because theaters make all their money off concessions, only 1 person = no revenue
>>24395806
>I'm just trying to stay alive long enough to join the army
Same. I plan on joining the marines and dying in a gunfight or an IED.
Death will be a sweet, SWEET release.
>>24396006
The mafia has pimps organizing beggars and defending their turf from foreign beggars who dont pay tribute.
All business is good business.
>>24391520
fucking this.
fuck high school.
I SKIPPED MY 10 YEAR REUNION because fuck them.
Pretty bad.
Walking, breathing, and arm movements become manual when I'm in public.
My legs sometimes awkwardly lock up and I get pain in my ankles.
My back becomes either unnaturally straight or very slouchy.
My eyes dart around.
I get pins and needles and an itch all over my body.
If anyone for whatever reason talks to me, I talk very quietly and stutter.
I always look at the ground when in public.
Always rushing.
Just kill me.
>>24396182
Holy shit. Are you...me?
I feel like that all of the time.
>>24396182
>>24395735
>>24394566
>>24392846
>>24391406
You don't deserve this hell, I wish you the best
>>24391232
>go to high school reunion
>everybody starts using insulting nicknames
>the bully tries to bully me, despite now being half my size in every dimension
>the fat girl comes to me and tells me she used to like me
>yes, she really wanted to get it on with me
>but she has a boyfriend now
>i lost out, i wasted my chance, i could have had that
>kisses me on the cheek and walks away swaying her hips disgustingly
>guy i used to be friends with comes to talk
>haha anon remember when we used to spend all our time playing vidya and cards
>haha what fools we were damn, good think we grew up, have you met my wife yet?
>the sexy teacher looks like a low budget movie zombie
>leaves in the middle of the party to buy more cigarettes
>HEY REMEMBER WHEN jokes all night long
>decide to leave early
>someone mentions that i am still the same soft faggot who has to go to bed early
>leave without paying
>go home and jerk off to /d/ shit
Such is life.
>>24390683
>first comment
>I'm in a committed relationship
FUCK YOU
>>24395656
>tfw I like that the most about the movie theatre because it actually feels like I'm hanging out with friends...
>>24395656
Noise is a torture to intellectual people. It is the most impertinent of all forms of interruption. It is not only an interruption, but also a disruption of thought.
I can judge a person's value based on how loud they are and how much noise they make.
>>24396275
start getting that degree. your anxiety will make the experience suck and you'll probably look back at your cringe moments, but you will be better off than what you are now.
>>24396280
Damn, anon, that just fucked me up. I'm gonna go kill myself, brb.
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>>24390418
>wake up by myself just a few minutes before the alarm clock
>open window, a calm and soothing coolness escorted by sunlight enters the room
>pushups and shower, feel fresh and energetic
>breakfast for champions, my favorite song plays on the radio
>pack lunch, dress up, leave for work
>greet my neighbor on my way out, she greets me back and smiles
>think of that one time i was awkward around her
>wonder if she is only smiling because she pities me
>spend the rest of the day being bitter and cynical and consumed by hateful thoughts
>>24396280
Why is this a feel
I've been on 4chan since 2007 and have never made more than 20 posts. Even though it's Anonymous the idea of discussing my thoughts makes me nauseous. I can't even message people i've known for over 15 years with more than a few words or i start sweating.
>>24392846
iktfb, hide in my room when my mom or sister has people over (even if I know them)
>>24396466
Well, not only have you just made a post, but you also got dubs. Congratulations anon
Mine was really fucking bad. I was agoraphobic and couldn't leave my apartment, I constantly missed work and classes, I starved myself because I was too afraid to go outside and go to the grocery store, etc.
What helped me was changing up my exercise. I was weightlifting but that didn't do shit. Longer distance running helped me (like when you build yourself up to run for 90+ minutes and shit). At first it gives you the opposite of a runner's high (the chronically depressed runner's low), but if you keep it up for weeks it like reshapes your brain and you get a positive runner's high for good. Then the anxiety just eventually decreases in magnitude. You probably don't even need to do long distances; just OD on cardio days in general or whatever.
I don't know. Just my stupid method but it helped me. I was in a world of shit.
>>24389639
Just testing by saying wagekeks (the c word).
