Secrets/Confessions thread.
I guess I'll start. I'm a straight guy, I've mutually masturbated with other men, online and offline. No touching.
me too, don't feel ashamed desu, he was rly qt
>>24359236
Same here actually. I also used to let my brother play wirh my dong when we were kids. He's full blown gay now and i fear that he'll tell everyone about it
>>24359236
>I'm a straight guy, I've mutually masturbated with other men
When I was about 8 I used to blackmail a neighbor girl to let me eat her out.
I can't remember exactly how or why I did it but I cringe like hell when I think about it and just hope she's keeping the memory repressed. I feel guilty as shit over it.
I regularly ruin people's food in the public kitchen of my dorm.
That involves, literally fucking them up, turning up the heat so much everything just burns, or just throwing the entire in the trashcan (the pan included)
>>24359651
My experiences are when I was older. When I was drunk.
The only gay experience I had as a kid, and the only other gay experience I've had is some kid in my street asked me to flash my dick when we were playing and he flashed back. He's also gay now.
>>24359820
Mine was a prolonged thing when we were pre teens. He just asked me one day if he could "taste it" when i was half asleep one morning. It just kinda kept going on from there. Gay experiences fucking my shit up tbqh
I feel attracted to dogs
I want a fat ugly gf to abuse and dominate me, spit on me, make me lick her feet and ass, make me crossdress and cook for her.
I was probably catfished a ton when younger.
>>24359905
>>24359651
>>24359820
I used to do gay shit with my brother and other 4 neighbors boys,never touched my brother thoonly thing I remember was a masturbation centipede we did. sad thing is they were pre teens and I was younger so I meant shit to me, I only did it cause they did
>tfw never had a proper gay experience
>tfw 18 and confused
>NEET
>too scared to use fuck apps
>I'm in love with my older brother. I'm not going to tell him.
>I have fantasies of being tortured sexually, eaten alive, kept as a house pet, etc.
>I stopped self-injuring but I miss it and want to go back. Don't really know what's stopping me.
I'm a 29 year old wageslave with no friends or gf, I have no interesting confessions in my life it's just a blur of monotonous laboring and occasional internet usage before I pass out for the night and begin the cycle anew.
>>24359236
I'm actually a normie but I come here because I really have nothing better to do.
I have an extra sense that I havent found anyone else with, its like a muscle and I have to keep using it for it to actually be of any use.
Its like a secret door in the back of my head but its hard to get in, but when I do i can become unconscious at any time I want. I can switch it on and off but then regain consciousness and nobody notices, like putting myself on autopilot
>>24360174
First anon you replied to. You shouldn't be scared of dating apps, my man. As long as you're clean, and they're clean, you should have no problems finding a gay guy to give you a proper experience. Also, you're still pretty damn young, work on getting into uni or an apprenticeship. You're gonna make it anon.
>>24360309
What do you do to break the cycle?
>>24359236
>straight guy
>mutually masturbated with other men
nigga you gay desu senpai
>>24359236
Then ur gay
>tfw all of my deepest secrets are illegal and extremely damning so I can't even confess to it on a FBI-ridden Mongolian wood-carving board
>>24360768
I don't know. No media/drug escapism works because they just make me think about how I'm wasting my time until the slaving begins again. there is no escape.
>>24360429
I heard napoleon could sleep whenever he wanted or something, can anyone confirm?
>>24359236
I'm a loner and have a love/hate relationship with being alone, I can do literally anything a "Chad" can do. Most of the time when I had the tiniest amount of motivation I got and did whatever I wanted. Now I just sit around and do fucking nothing, I save my money and go to school. I don't live close to anyone I once knew, I think I'm going to go get laid tonight, but I really rather not. Life's easymode for me if I actually want to do something or get something.
>>24361325
Calm down son don't wanna cut yourself with that edge.
>>24359236
I'm afarid i might be a fucking poet. I like to read my own poems.
At least i don't suck my own dick.
>>24362002
I can suck my own dick, I dont though as I don't like it.
>>24362002
Write your poems down here, or vocaroo them. Do it
>>24362002
post one of your poems, faggot
me and my pal fapped together when we watched porn movies when we were 15
it started getting weird when we were 16
>>24359236
I can and do suck my own dick on a regular basis. It's incredibly hot but the shame after sucks. I'm usually fantasizing about this one friend of mine dominating/keking me. I'd never do something lewd with another guy normally, but I feel like if I was horny and he pushed it I'd definitely suck him off.(He's not that sort of person, he doesn't know).
>>24360429
>putting myself on autopilot
Jealous AF desu
Went to high school with the cutest/best looking guy I've ever seen.
Got him and myself drunk and high on a week-long school trip and then proceeded to fuck.
Nobody found out, but I think I've scarred him for lyfe.
>>24359236
Then you're not entirely straight, then. Probably 80% straight, 20% fag
I married my girlfriend when she was 14.
I have written a big ass story that is about 1000 pages long.
20 people read it so far and 19 actually fucking enjoyed it, but 1 told me it sucked and ever since I'm no longer able to produce anything.
I deleted the whole thing. But I still have the entire story in my head that I play every days , as my own personal little movie.
I work in the medical field and stay fucked up on drugs i get from the facility.
>>24363266
Oh, and so does everyone i work with. To even pursue it would ruin the company
>>24363102
... you could have made a deal with a publisher
>>24363665
Even if I hadn't delete the whole thing , I'd have not shared it with a publisher. Too personal , too violent too Meta.
Although , times to times , I give little parts of what I remember have written on /b/
>>24359236
Did you charge up with crystals or JO on the rails or eat excess imitation crab?
>>24364064
What was it about? Setting?
>>24363102
Never delete your stories senpai. Especially not if you put your heart and soul into it.
>>24359776
thats called being an alpha
anyone who tells you otherwise is a butthurt beta bucks orbiter or a tumblrina
>>24359236
>I killed a frog when I was 4 by impaling it on a twig
>I fucked an escort 6 days ago and lost my virginity to her
>>24364236
>>24364261
It's too long to explain , it was and still is a whole Universe.
And eh , it wasn't even that good , have you guys ever written something?
>>24364572
you're one retarded cunt
>>24365494
And why that?
>>24359236
> entire thread has keyloggers
> hackers kekking at u faggots
>>24360768
Take some risks.
>>24364372
Congrats anon. How was the escort, and how much did you pay?
>>24361744
You sound like future me
>>24359236
>i pee in sinks in public, private bathrooms.
>i have a terrible mother/son/sister fetish but id never my own mom and dont have a sister.
>i pretend my girlfriend is my waifu most of the time
>i pee in bottles but i have a job and a female mate
>i have been here for way to long and this robot meme needs to stop
>i like marceline r34
>i miss moot
>i am a 4chan purist and automatically hate anyone who doesn't like anime/manga or vidya and posts anywhere on the site
>>24359236
I don't know if this is the right thread for it, but I haven't told this to anyone else and I feel like telling it now.
This is the story of why I killed my cat.
>be 15
>sometime during christmas break
>Bob was found as a kitten when I was a baby, so we were both 15
>he was getting on in years, but figured he'd live to be 17 and old age would take him in his sleep or something
>I was so fucking wrong
>making mac n cheese in the kitchen
>mom comes and tell me basically the cat's dying in the driveway
>oh fuck what this can't be happening
>stop what i'm doing and get out there immediately
>see Bob lying on his side near the garage
>his breathing is labored and his mouth is a bit open
>it was apparent that these were his last hours, and he knew it
>gently pick him up to get him to my room
>he makes this warbly, weak meow i've never heard from him before
>grit my teeth take him to my room
>determined to be there for him in his last hours and make this as comfortable as possible
>lay him down on the edge of my bed where came to sleep sometimes
>pet him and try to reassure him and make him feel calm
>cat keeps trying to get up to go to the door and meowing at me in some unfamiliar tone
>this isn't working out
>let's just see where he's trying to go and follow him there, then
>open door
>cat gets halfway up the driveway before he just kinda gives up and drops to his side again
>guess he wanted to die somewhere alone far away where I wouldn't have to deal with this
>kneel by him and decide to watch over him
>mom comes out to see whats happening
And this is where things began to go wrong. I'll never forgive that awful bitch for a LOT of things, but this is way the fuck up there on that list.
>discussing how we should handle this
>she tells me she's going to go get some morphine from her room
>she was prescribed some heavy pain meds like diazepam and shit, but what the fuck
>tells me my aunt gave it to her after my uncle was taken off life support
cont'd
>>24368081
>she tells me "Don't worry honey, he's gonna be fine if I just give him a little dose. It'll put him out of his pain and he'll rest easy."
>obviously this isn't right but I know I can't do anything to stop her and I don't want her to start a fight during all this
>she was a nurse for a few years until she had to quit due to a back injury that left her with chronic severe back pain
>hence why she was such a disgusting opiate pig with a daily literal mouthful of pills, shit like diazepam and hydrocodone
>and so I couldn't argue for shit without her pulling the nurse card even though she hadn't nursed fuck all in years
>fuck it, worst case scenario, he'll fall unconscious and won't feel anything, right?
>so mom comes back with a syringe with no needle and a few CCs of morphine
>puts the end up to his mouth and shoots some in
>he's resisting
>mom tells me to help and hold his mouth shut
>this is getting less and less okay with me
>after a minute or two, she gets it down his throat somehow
>it's quiet for a minute as she waits for him to go unconscious
>he doesn't
>she gets up and tells me she's getting more morphine
>i'm not fucking okay with this
>but now she's just gonna do whatever the fuck she wants to do and I'm stuck watching
>try to have my time alone with Bob while I can while she's gone
>lay him in my lap and pet him and keep talking to him nonstop
>my voice starts quivering
>quietly sobbing over my dying cat knowing this is the last time I get to spend with him
>and knowing it's about to get worse if mom comes back and gives him more of that shit
>he's getting upset too, like he's scared and doesn't know where he is
>know that if he were to die now, he would be spared from this and everything that's to come
cont'd....
>>24368123
>I just couldn't bear to watch this happen to him, /r9k/
>I just wanted to spare him from the pain and fear he was in at this point
>who knows what he must have been feeling, what he was going through in his head, what he must've been thinking
>so I decided it would be best if he died before this went on any longer, and especially before he was drugged up and fucked in the head even more
>and I had to be the one to kill him
>and I had to do it before mom came back
>I hugged him close to my chest so tight his breathing was restricted to the point of suffocation
>"I'm so sorry, please just go, your time is up... please. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Listen, she's gonna come back soon and make you feel even worse. I can't her do that to you. I just want to let you rest. I'm sorry this happened to you. Please, please let go. I love you. I love you and I'm going to miss you so much."
>when it was over and all was silent and I laid him down in my lap for the last time
>got to spend some time by myself like that for a few more minutes before mom came back with three fucking syringes of morphine
>told her he passed away
>we buried him in the backyard
>i had to dig the grave
>went back inside, threw the mac noodles away and went to my room
>was too fucked up inside to hold a funeral for him
>went on with highschool after christmas break was over like nothing happened
Holy shit, I think I repressed the emotional aftermath because it's all coming back fresh as I'm writing this. I wasn't planning on drinking tonight, but I guess I am now.
I don't have any pictures of him after I left that family, but he was a grey Manx like this and he always purred really loud. I forgot just how much I missed him until now.
>>24368242
Jon, I told you I hate Mondays
>>24368242
Jon, I told you that I hate Mondays
>>24365494
This anon is salty because he'll never be a writer.
>>24364572
I'm a writer who has also given up on the craft. I was extremely good at it and I'm sure that you were too, and the skill never really leaves you. Since I'm going to die anyway I think it's best not to leave behind too much unfinished work; the guilt of leaving readers hanging would be palpable.
You are my African American associate of ill repute, anon. My nigga, mein neger, my friend.
Sometimes I pretend to wash my hands but I really don't. If in public, sometimes I'll turn the water on and make cleaning motions with my hands in the sink but not under the water, then take a paper towel and pretend to dry them.
>>24368242
Sonny?!
>>24368641
If you were good at it then why give up? Did you finish any short stories or novels?
>>24368969
Nope, not Sonny.
