anyone here on permanent or long term disability pay? if so why?
I like this circle better.
>>24350091
is my circle better now?
I'm on depressionbux until the end of 2017. It's not much but it's enough for me to live alone and pay my bills.
tried to die a few times, the most recent time my heart stopped beating in the ICU for a bit over 2 minutes but they brought me back. not sure when I'll try again but I'm sure I will.
guns are extremely difficult to obtain in my country and I'm a coward about pain, so finding good methods has been difficult.
>>24350117
Try this circle on for size.
>>24350145
want to trade lives? i live in US and i imagine it is harder to get your kind of welfare here but guns are real easy to get
>>24350067
Yes, PTSD and recurring major depressive disorder. It doesn't pay enough for my medical expenses, let alone living by myself. I feel like it's going to get revoked soon if my medical expenses keep going to collections, but I'm too depressed to care enough to figure something out.
>>24350201
what are your medical expenses? it's crazy to think that it couldnt cover therapy and meds, but i also dont really know what im talking about
>>24350190
yeah, the US seems like paradise for a suicidal person. imagine having the ability to just end all the bullshit painlessly with a flick of your finger, I'd never be able to live with that kind of temptation.
>>24350067
Yes. Schizophrenia. Or maybe bipolar schizoaffective, apparently it's hard to differentiate. It's nice not having to work, I've always detested having a job. But this illness sucks, I really just want a way out, I've wanted to die for years but I don't want to hurt myself.
Some days I can forget about the hallucinations and delusions so all I have to deal with is the crippling depression. At least I have my cigarettes.
I have type 1 Diabetes so I get a little every month. Not some rich, handsome sum but it's handy
>>24350258
yeah maybe someday i'll just get it over with, so far havnt been super suicidal, still content with sitting around all day and smoking pot
>>24350259
sorry ur struggling man. i get jealous sometimes of people who have reasons to "easily" get full disability, but it's usually well deserved
>>24350067
mental illnesses: generalized anxiety, ocd, and treatment resistant depression. ADHD, but that's neurological.
i also have chronic pain in my joints and muscles and no docs can figure out what the hell is causing it. been present since early teens.
some days i get so mad that i was born like this.
>>24350351
where do you live?
I can definitely appreciate the anger about the cards we were dealt.
How severe is your OCD?
I've had therapists tell me that I have OCD tendencies but not sure if bad enough for full diagnosis. I don't flip switches or anything but ibite finger nails and obsessive thinking etc
>>24350067
PTSD, Loss of cartilage in knees and ankles, Traumatic Brain Injury, Spinal Injury. Thanks US Army. At least I can NEET it up for the rest of my life until I kill myself.
>>24350404
brutal, at least you can NEET with an endless supply of oxycontin
>>24350419
I stopped taking VA meds because I don't want to be hooked on opiates and give them a reason to lock me up.
>>24350392
i have the pure O type. lots of fucked up, distressing intrusive thoughts.
>>24350239
I only get 488 a month. Therapy is twice a week for me, 20 in copay per visit, so about 160 a month just on that. Meds aren't too expensive, but I also have to pay for hormones because transfag. I need to help out with food and utilities as well because my mother is stuck working a shitty wageslave position despite having a masters in system engineering, and that's where most of it's going.
Mainly what's going to collections is bills from hospitalizations from like 1-2 years ago before I had the crazybux, and having to see a doctor in the ER at a hospital to get my hormones on the down low because I'm stuck living in the south where basically no gender specialists work.
>>24350432
fair enough, probably is smart thinking, although I would definitely get sucked into addiction, I already was into just pot enough to fail college and go to outpatient rehab
>>24350440
thanks for explaining. why does your mom work at shit job?
>crazybux
kek
>>24350304
Also type 1 here but live with parents, how 2 get mone??
>>24350513
She's very close to retirement age because she was out of the workforce for 30 years as a mother. People avoid hiring her despite her degree being less than 1 year old because they think she'll just retire in another 6 years, but in reality she has no money to retire on. We also live in an area where the market for jobs in engineering is fierce to begin with.
>>24350552
Just apply. I live in the UK, but being a Diabetic means you're entitled to DLA/whatever else they call it, here. It's not a large sum, but it's there. I have a niece and a nephew with Diabetes, too, and they also get it, though their rate is higher
>>24350404
were you an 82nd?
