>psychotic episode at work
I want details OP
Full greentext pls.
don't disappoint.
>>24347162
I want the full story anon. Showing my powerlevel at work is one of my biggest fears.
Come on OP, don't let us down
>>24347162
>your coworker tells a joke
>his laughs are like screams in your ears and you can't even smile
it's not a psychotic episode when It's me who chooses to act this way
>>24347162
This is /r9k/ and you better have some
>greentext
for us faggot.
>>24347162
>tfw every monday is extremely unproductive as I try to readjust to the wageslave mentality
>awkward check ins with the boss on days like these slowly draining me of my will to live
>tfw just one good long vaction would probably help immensely but my stupid boss keeps piling on the stupid "super important" projects
Someone just fucking kill me already
I broke down in the middle of class when the professor was drilling me on something.
He kept drilling me too.
It was one of the most embarrassing moments of my life.
How can I induce schizophrenia? I am ready to crank this. Shit up to 11
>>24348367
woah bro you're crazy lol.
>>24348367
just pretend you see stuff for attention like all the other schizophrenics do.
>>24348367
Bathsalts.
I had a few, broke some furniture, threw food on walls, poured liquids on floor, threw food to my family.
Also bough 1k worth of stuff from Amazon just to feel anything.
Hitted on women around town and at malls, succeeding at it made it worse, I can't trust women since 2012 because of it.
Went to an escort.
And many more, all while being derealized as fuck, it was like a videogame, I was controlling myself from the outside and for 90% of the time I wasn't controlling myself, the disease was, the fucking disease was.
Now I got better, it was fun after all. Too bad I wasn't there, I remember everything but I feel I never lived those episodes.
>>24348921
I hallucinated 3 long interviews with people I had deep seated issues with, an ex, my father and someone else I can't remember. They were heartwrenching, cathartic conversations and once I realized I wasn't speaking to anyone I just started crying
>>24349627
> i imagined conversations
that's normal
>>24348367
Do a shitton of LSD and shrooms in real big loads. While you do them, put yourself in a dark as fuck room, set up 4 or 5 speaker how all blast something else. i.e. one is blasting some episodes of sesamstreet, one gives you your healthy does of aestethtics vaporwave, one is just some documentary about economical hitman or about some other conspiracy, one is this video where this one girl is just whispering numbers into a stereomicrophone from diferent directions and the last one is maybe a childhood video of you playing or saying some shit.
If you're prone to social anxiety, load up on LSD shrooms and just go to somewhere with a shitload of talking/chating people. If you don't get shizoid psychosis from things like that, either smoke more weed and do more LSD and shrooms until your brain rewires and you do or feel lucky and don't
>>24348367
Coming from someone with schizophrenia
It's scary yet so peacefully
I only came out of a mental institute last week after being in there for 1.5months on new medication
I miss the friends that used to talk to me
Until I tried killing my whole family because they were spying on me
>>24348367
It's not worth it. But weed for those with predisposition for it will cause it to manifest itself. Some drugs cause psychosis but you'll probably just end up in jail or the psych ward until you come off it.
But yeah, it honestly just makes me feel really sad. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.
>>24348921
Did you ever try to hurt yourself
When I get to that point I always slap myself as hard as I can and barely feel anything, it's pretty weird
