Who here is/used to be a cutting fag?
Share pics and stories
Pic is me, I stopped months ago though.
>>24296293
I used to SI all the time AMA
>>24296293
you didnt even break skin. try harder
>>24296293
What did you try to cut with, tootpicks?
>>24296293
you gotta cut deeper if you want attention. Those look like you were playing with a cat
>>24296447
>>24296426
>>24296416
I stopped a little while before I finally started to cut a bit deeper. It was with a pencil sharpener.
I discovered opiates and realized I cut for the endorphin high.
now I'm addicted to pills
What skinny arms you have, OP.
>Left, darker arm = Mine
>Right, lighter arm = Ex
I haven't cut this year. Maybe cut once or twice last year. Can't remember. Either way, definitely consider myself an excutter. It's behind me. I've never really been able to wear a short sleeve shirt since I started several years ago. But given I work in a professional capacity, dress shirts and ties, that's alright. Still, it'll be an issue, maybe, when the next girl comes along. I got lucky that the ex was a cutter too. Neither of us knew from the start, but it was part of what brought us together.
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>>24296650
Yeah I'm 85 pounds and 5'9 and I've also had two different kinds of eating disorders
I've got a nasty cut on my ribcage, two faint scars on my face, and about 5 on my left arm that vary in thickness.
Normally back then I would get wasted, break the bottle, and then cut myself with the shards, the one deep cut on my chest is from when I got carried away with a razor-blade. I could see my subcutaneous fat layer and it was bleeding like crazy.
That was over a year ago, I haven't cut since. I haven't felt the need.
>>24297144
The real skelly of /r9k/.
Wear the title with pride.
>being a cutter
high school sure is tough huh guys :(
>>24296650
man
>straight down
>potentially fatal
woman
>across
>simply for attention
>>24296426
>>24296416
>>24296447
those are scars
Anti depressants are great
I went from being a depressed sack of suicidal shit to an uncaring NEET with a deep passion for vidya
It was always my intention to cut shallow enough to leave no scars, but these are 5 years old and are still there.
>>24296293
pussy
what did you use sandpaper?
my boyfriend broke up with me and i'm still being pathetic about it
>>24298185
Those looks kinda deep
What did you use?
>>24298354
Explain the situation.
>>24296293
I never understood this dumb shit I mean I was depressed as the next guy, hold guns to my head crying and shit but the only self harm was when I get mad and punch shit. It's always skinny people cuttin too. I think it's low test
I have a lot of degenerate fetishes but a cutting bf is pretty high on my list ;_;
At least not directly,
I think I'm attracted to broken people, I wanna be awake with them all night, highly emotionally talking them out of hurting themselves and becoming a securing force in their life that stops them from cutting.
Am I alone in this
>>24298400
Go fap to land whale you high test
Can someone recommend stuff to cut deep with? Don't say something like razor or knife. Some shit you can find lying in your house?
>>24298388
Box cutter
The slash was supposed to cut the main blood vessels and bleed me to death but turns out sudoku isn't that easy
when i was in high school i started to cut myself because seeing blood made me feel better for some reason. after a little while i stopped cutting my arms and only cut my thighs because i could cut deeper there. last year i looked at my arms and realized that it looks like i did it all just for attention since there arent very many there, so i started cutting there again but i feel like im not making it any better.
just kill me tbqh family
this was right when i started up with my arms again
>>24298440
I had a bf from /r9k/ that cut himself in the past and hated himself. He broke up with me even though I was nurturing and he liked me being dominant. ;_;
>>24298440
No, because I want a gf exactly like this.
>>24298495
Scalpel might be exactly what you want.
>>24298495
kitchen knives are pretty dangerous
cutting yourself hurts.
>>24299008
it depends on how fast you do it
>>24296293
why is your arm still there? why are you still there?
Thats my deepest one
these pictures always make me aroused
>>24298354
you are disgusting. please kill yourself.
>>24298354
Get off my board, roastie.
>>24299090
you should try cutting yourself. it always gets me rock hard
>>24299090
Check out Guro, it maybe you thing.
>>24298687
Probably a lucky escape for you anon
>>24298922
I think a cutting gf would be a lot more work
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>>24296293
From suicide attempt in june
i wear long shirts to work now because i am ashamed of myself. I cant believe i used to do this to myself.
I have mutiple burn scars all along the length of my left arm. They're red as fuck and look absolutely retarded. I never wear short sleeves anymore because It's so ugly.
>>24299326
Wear that shit with pride pussy.
THE BEST THING ABOUT CUTTING IS SHOWING OFF MY SCARS, AND ALL THE ATTENTION I GET
>>24299387
Not everyone wants to look like an angsty 13 year old bitch.
>>24299387
>take pride in the fact you used to have no pride at all
irony
>>24299326
Not really noticeable, plus nobody gives a shit when you're a guy.
>>24299457
they are the same color as my bedroom light so its just hard to see, im planning on just covering them with tattoos
HEY GUYS LOOK AT MY CUTS AREN'T THEY SO COOL? I DO IT WHEN DAD TURNS OFF THE INTERNET ROUTER OR WHEN STACY REJECTS ME FOR THE 10TH TIME
>>24299499
Sounds like a good idea. Sick dubs btw.
>>24299457
guys are supposed to be manly and masculine and not have to resort to slicing veins to deal with their problems
it's awful to have cutting scars as a guy cause no one gives a shit, they just laugh at you for being weak
I'M SO TORTURED AND FULL OF ANGST, BELIEVE ME GUYS. LOOK AT MY COOL SCARS THEY'RE THE BEST LOL
MY FAVORITE BAND IS BLOOD ON THE DANCE FLOOR THEY SPEAK TO ME SO MUCH THEY UNDERSTAND ME UNLIKE MY PARENTS THAT'S WHY I CUT BECAUSE MOM WON'T BUY ME PEPSI ANYMORE AND SHE DIDN'T BUY ME THAT PAINTBALL GUN OFF AMAZON I WANTED
I cut when i was 16, and worked my way out of it until i got out of college.
I dated a guy, broke up for a while got back together. He was 22 i was 23, broke up right after college. He was a looser, bad job, no motivation. Treated me like shit and i did everything for him. When we got back together found out some 17 year old home school christian had been flirting with him at his job as a waiter at a restaurant off the highway. And by flirting i mean sending nudes. I told him to choose between us. Four months of him lying to me and saying he wasn't talking to her. I couldn't take it, he beat the shit out of me when he found out i pulled his phone's data and found a nude. I cut to try to bled out.
tl:dr; boyfriend of 7 years cheating and beating me sent me back.
Notice how most of the posters in these threads are girls? It's undeniable that women come to r9k for attention to be honest f@m.
>>24299629
I started cutting deep when I was 21 and a practicing alcoholic. I lied to everyone and manipulated everyone into giving me money for booze. The only people i hurt were people who actually cared. I knew i was a piece of trash so I treated myself like one.
Now after some time sober i just think about how stupid i was
Spidy thread
usurped
>>24299441
pretty much this, I tried to convince myself that it looked cool, that people would think I just got in a knife fight or some shit. I can't wear short sleeves without looking like a fucking mental case, I can't go to the beach and take my shirt off because I've got them on my shoulder too, people don't have sympathy for you they think you're fucking weak. You don't have to believe me man, you'll find this shit out for yourself. In conclusion it was the worst thing I've ever done, I would have rather gotten a giant spiderman tattoo on my chest
>tfw deep, thick scars on my thigh because the two times I decided to cut I had scalpels sitting around
Ugh.
I cut a lot in high school, thankfully grew up and got help though
>>24296293
"I stopped" liar
>>24298354
Heart for you, friend. you dont need to feel guilty about how you feel.
Someone tell me, why does one cut his/her self?
>>24300966
intense self-hatred
release of pent-up emotions
alternative to suicide
it feels good, to be honest.
I've cut on and off for 10 years now.
I've done really well with NOT cutting this year, but of course I've had my relapses.
ended up in the hospital twice because of it.
this picture is kind of old.
>>24301050
Why would u want an alternative to suicide?
>>24299557
Slow down there, no one here is looking for any trouble, so if you dont want to contribute, maybe you shouldnt be here.
>>24300966
some people do it for attention, some people do it to feel better. you can tell the difference between them in real life by seeing if they parade their scare around and act all woe is me all the time. to be completely honest, most people absolutely hate their scars, especially because of the reputation self harm has with attention seeking
also holy fuck i had to do audio captcha cause i cant fucking get these gay ass street sign things right
>>24300966
Its different for everyone. I cut because it feels good.
Tried it once, decided it was retarded, never again.
I know why you do it self harm fags.
You don't do it for attention.
You don't do it because it's edgy.
YOU DO IT BECAUSE IT GIVES YOU A SENSE OF CONTROL OVER YOUR LIFE
Doesn't it. Being able to inflict pain and injury on yourself. Deep down you are trying to tell yourself "I have control" "I can do this thing that most other people couldn't".
But the feeling doesn't last does it. Because sooner or later reality comes flooding back in. That sense of helplessness, aimlessness, shame, guilt, rage turned inward.
I pity you. Because you are broken. But not broken enough to see the ultimate futility of your actions.
>>24301086 if someone wants to feel better, they should kill themselves or just turn over a new leaf all together. If u constantly cut urself but want to live, then y not kill urself?
>>24301079
because you're right on the cusp of committing suicide, and you feel guilt and preemptive regret for possibly being so selfish as to hurt everyone else in your life
you essentially hate yourself SO much you don't even feel you deserve to die and have a reprieve, so you instead cause yourself more pain
it makes so much sense at the time.
>>24301226
Yeah, that's actually why.
My parents were psychopaths and controlled my life very heavily, and also beat me.
I could conceal wounds; it was something I was fully in control of.
>>24301269
Well then become a veggie.
>>24301226
I used to do it knowing how futile it was. It never made me feel better, but I was just so angry at myself at the time and felt I deserved to suffer a little more on the outside.
I stopped, but unfortunately it was because someone I thought was a friend backstabbed me, so I became angry at her instead. Thankfully, this only lasted around a month earlier this year.
I'm 23 and work full-time, btw. SI isn't something that babby high schoolers experience. I never would have thought I'd go through it, either.
>>24301226
Thats pretty true for some of us.
>>24300966
for me it was that it felt good and that I wanted something that was MINE I guess, since my parents were extremely controlling and abusive. and it felt like a way to punish myself
>>24301377
If ur parents are shit, then call cps. If that doesn't work, hurt urself and frame their asses.
>>24301467
Foster homes are worse.
>>24301297
>>24301361
>>24301363
It's OK I understand, and I don't judge you for it. No one can judge another unless they've lived their life. Remember that.
But the question is, do you want to understand? I could tell you things, insightful things, things that might change the way you look at the world.
>>24301479
Relatives or friends that will take u in?
>>24301524
pls give insight
>>24296293
In the right light, you can see all the scars on the back of my left hand. I don't have the right light here. I did it there because I could more easily explain it as injuries from work.
But like, nobody gets injured that much. So I'm sure something about that stood out. I haven't done it in a while though.
>>24301540
Parents were already living with them. They just let this shit happen too.
>>24301226
>>24301524
you are like that person who goes to a self help group to get laid. You tell sick people what they want to hear and they are sick enough to believe you and that is what makes you feel in control of your life.
>>24301226
yeah. and i get to decide how many i want or how deep i want them. it makes me feel less useless, makes me feel better because it gives me this... sense of accomplishment and acceptance towards myself.
but no one wants a nut job with scars so lol. i'm fucked.
>>24301629
>but no one wants a nut job with scars so lol. i'm fucked.
that was a really hard thing for me to accept. it isn't like here where everyone is mentally ill and stuff, nobody wants to date a crazy person in real life
>>24301467
>house got visited by DHS
>they did nothing
>things got way worse for me because of it
fuck off. the system fails in too many ways
>>24301771
dhs doesnt give a fucking shit dude, the same thing happened to me when i was in middle school
Lol no I never fell for the MySpace meme
>>24301702
i don't even care about romantic relationships at this point. i would just like friends who understand that sometimes i can't help it. that my brain is legitimately fucked and i find comfort in doing those things but that i don't do it because it's 'trendy' or 'edgy' or because i want attention.
i want to kill myself. i haven't because i cannot afford being more jealous than i already am. so i guess i take solace by doing the second best thing.
>>24301524
I'll tell you, because you might understand.
The condensed version is this.
None of this matters, this world doesn't matter, so on and so forth, nihilism, etc.
Nothing matters but there are things that are important. Self preservation is important, survival is important, and above these things good times are important. Seek pleasure where you can. If something doesn't help you achieve your objectives discard it (friends, ideas, "loved ones", habits, material things). You have no obligation to anyone or anything but yourself. Speaking of which, self-defense is law. Everything is permissible in the name of self defense. Moral absolutism is the great lie, the destroyer of the downtrodden. Live life for yourself, care about nothing beyond your own aims and desires. When that voice of yours speaks, the low voice, the deep down voice that speaks without rational thought, the Id, the reptile brain, the gut feeling; listen to it. It often knows best. You spend too much time thinking, philosophizing, idling in existential dread. Were have your rational thought, your guilt, your values, your morals gotten you? Perhaps it's time for a change.
Give in to evil.
>>24301844
i dont know if internet friendship is something you're looking for, but we could be friends on steam if you'd like.
im really bad at talking, but i'd do my best
>>24301620
I am here to spread a way of life. A more helpful way of life.
But I am also an honest man. I will admit I do get a certain degree of satisfaction spreading my particular brand of bullshit around. But then again if I didn't get anything out of the deal I wouldn't do it. I'm guessing that most of these folks have already heard every piece of normie advice in the book. Hell, they might have even heard mine before. But as long as people are willing to listen, I'm willing to talk. And whose to say that maybe I even feel a bit of empathy for them.
I give people an alternative, a different perspective. They choose what to do with it. I'm just nobody talking with other nobodies. We will never meet and even if we did we wouldn't recognize each other. If people can find an alternative that works for them (Buddhism, Christianity, Islam, suicide, etc.) I'm not going to judge them for choosing it over what I advocate. Maybe someone will read my words turn away in disgust, reevaluate their life and make another change that betters them.
>You tell sick people what they want to hear
I tell sick people what I like to hear. What I live my life by. It's up to them to decide what to do with it.
>>24301979
not particularly into "cutting" for the relief benifits of it but chopped at my arm in anger at myself a few times in senior year of highschool when busting my ass for college. Recently xanax blackout and came to with this on my arm. Aparently gf became benzo rage, insulted me a lot, I tried to get her to pay attention to me and ended up having my hands lightly around her neck. She went ballistic about that. Proceeded to do pic related at some point because I was upset with myself. Have about two t shirts 70% covered in bloodstains. Fuck xanax. Luckily I must have realized I was probably blacked out earlier on because I also locked my rifle and computer in my trunk and threw the keys into the back yard.
Fuck benzos /opi/ always better.
>>24301979
i don't have steam, anon. sorry. i appreciate the intention though.
I did for a month or so when I was 14
I haven't been able to wear short sleeves since and it's been six years.
>>24301853
>Moral absolutism is the great lie
>Give in to evil
wat
sure sounds phil 101
>>24301853
>>24302013
I could cut myself on your edges if I wanted to.
>give in to evil
or you could build self esteem by doing things that are esteemable to you
>seek pleasure where you can
addict here, that doesn't turn out so well, ever. There are worse feels than just wanting to die. Wanting to die while experiencing delirium tremins or crippling depression after a speed binge.
>using freudian psychology
just distasteful
>spreading satanism
just- just
ugh
>>24298277
Your arm looks like a machete
>>24302282
no worries
i hope things can get better for you
>>24302196
that's a pretty good one
>Cutting
fucking PATHETIC
i fucking bullied the FUCK out of these kids in school lmao
how about you just steal your dads gun and kill yourself instead fucking faggot gay boy attention seeking whore """men"""
>>24302423
If you said that shit to me, I would have just bashed your brains in with a book or something.
>>24296650
if you're thegirl, post your nails
