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How there is nothing I can do to become what I desire to become. How what I desire to become is not even something I want or it will give me joy but only want it because society tells me to and if I don't comply I will be seen as a weakling by others rather a person who chose his own path.
>>24289075
I'm thinking about saying plz respond to this girl i've been trying to talk to. I'm trying to resist it though.
>>24289142
>plz respond
ironically, right?
"I want to be kissed and loved"
"I want to be kissed and loved"
"I want to be kissed and loved"
"I love you anon"
"We will be together forever anon"
"Anon look! The test says I'm pregnant!"
"Anon I hope you're okay, I'll always be by your side no matter what"
"I want to be kissed and loved"
"You make me so happy anon"
"I wouldn't change my family for anything, my dear anon"
"Anon, I want to cuddle tonight"
Please just kill me.
>>24289192
No. I'm just that lonely and desperate
>>24289260
if you really do feel like that, you should take time to reevaluate yourself insteadi've done similar before, and seriously, don't do it.
I feel like shit after half rejecting the friebdship from a girl who ive become super close to in the past 2 months bc we always eat together andshe uses my 50% off meal plan card(pay me back obv). B4 at least there was someone to say good night to and someone waiting for me ti walk home together with. now its just me alone again. I have 2 essays i have to finish by tonight and i feel so shit i can only lay on this big table in an empty classroom and listen to glen gould's goldberg variations. I feel horrible.
Treasure your friendship friends, dont let your selfishness and inner robots desire to be alone ruin what little relationship you will have. I can only murmur "im sorry" a few hundred times and cant think of anything else.
Im so sorry michelle
Z
>>24289075
Every time I fall asleep in the middle of the day I wake up covered in sweat and with a huge headache. It happened again just now and I'm wondering why.
Tired of this shit.
ive been doing nothing in all my classes and could salvage my grade by doing a simple video project but cant be arsed to do it
i like laying down and staring at the clutter in my room. it's therapeutic.
>watched a thing on cheating on ifls
>"Men who make more money than their wives or g/fs are more likely to cheat"
>No duh
>"Men who are house husbands are more likely to cheat"
>Wait, whoa
Alphas AND Betas more likely to cheat
should I paint my nails
>>24289404
oopsies, i forgot my image
>>24289075
i've been having lewd thoughts the past few weeks. i need tosuck a benis, get fucked and cuddle afteror i'm gonna explode tbhwyf
nothing matters, life goes on and life will end. absolutely nothing we do matters in the grand scheme of things, we have absolutely no impact on anything because we will eventually all die anyway. we are quite literally a speck, a tiny grain in the universe. Everything is false, life isn't real.
I do not like having nigger neighbors howling on sunday afternoon.
Also I should start defrosting the fish p soon.
Its 10pm everyone is asleep and im sitting here and i wish i could sit down on my piano and learn a new song but as soon as i do i lose my motivation. Please let me die in my sleep tonight kthxbye
>>24289444
Stop triggering me. You're gonna make the thoughts come back
i can't stop thinking of her but i am fairly confident that she sees us as only friendswe have been intimate beforewe were once in lovejust kill me fa m
>>24289075
I fucked your mum in the ass before I shot my load in her pussy, that would explain you, you piece of shit.
- dad
>>24289489
i can't keep it inside anymore my friend
the lewdness of overwhelming
>>24289576
Oh god why are we such faggots? Just kill me now please
My life is an utter disaster
>>24289075
I have to stop jerking off, smoking weed and playing videogames all day.
I'm really high, I should be working or doing something but i just jerked off and im playing fallout 4
I hope my fantasy team wins. My bench has scored 71 points so far. How was I supposed to know Roethlisberger would have to play?
>>24289075
I'm thinking about how lonely and pathetic I am. Luckily, I have a bottle of vodka to help with these thoughts.
Maybe I should kill myself. If everyone finds me worthless, then for all intents I am worthless. Thus there is no real reason to not kill myself, as I barely count as a person anyway
I should kill myself, why do i have to be such a pussy and why are guns not legal in my country?
>>24289599
im a grill though
>>24290030
O-oh, yeah, me too...
>>24289075
"Was he lying about her?"
"I hope not"
I want to feel more
>>24290030
>>24290056
Yeah, I heard it's hip now to say that you're a girl instead of being gay. You don't even have to mutilate your genitals now! What a time to be alive!
>>24289719
Why? adsgasgsaghshh
>>24290094
I'm just curious anon, its just a one time thing for me to try. I dunno how gay i am until i go for it
>>24290030
Here suck on this
Why can't I just knuckle down and do my work for once in my pathetic life? I don't even have the guts to drop out, yet I still waste every single moment I can on here. Even in class I waste time so that I can waste time elsewhere.
Fuck.
>>24289075
>thinking
Maybe I should try to message someone. I have a couple people who i talk to sometimes, but I dont want to come off as needy since I initiate conversation 80% of the time. I dunno, i'm just lonely, bored, and dont have anything to do
>feeling.
Lonely. Sad. Halfway angry. Small bit of jealousy
>ect.
I'm trying to stop drinking because I have an alcohol problem, but its getting harder every day.
There's a bottle of smores vodka in the kitchen that smells pretty great.
I'm on day 3 without any alcohol besides a beer every night. I feel shit
>wake up from hilarious dream where friends from college were staging a play
>im nervous but i actually performed my bit with gusto
>giggling as i awake and suddenly think about something
Ive been obsessed with getting myself to a point where Im committed to one craft so that I can find fulfillment as well as acceptance because Ill be respected for my committment and passion for a craft.
When I awoke from that dream, it was like i could see that obsession from a new perspective and the only thought that crossed my mind was how silly it was. So silly to think finding a craft will solve everything.
Not that Ill stop thinking about it, but now I can see that its not such a life or death thing, and it feels like I can breathe for the first time in a while.
>>24290150
>iktf, friendo
I have a paper due today. I'm just going to take the points off for turning it in late. I have like no motivation to do it though.
>>24290141
I'd use that dong to scratch the itch at the back of my throat. Looking good man
>>24289075
>my armpit is really itchy
>stick fingers in it
>smell it
>smells quite good
>>24290357
You do this too? I think i have some kind of fetish or something. Normally icky smells are kinda nice to me
I'm so frustrated and irritated by my failure to deal with women in a romantic sense that I can't even look at porn.
I just want to hold a hands with a girl again... snuggle up, hold each other while we sleep.
It's been so long.
I just want human touch again.
I can keep this.
Yes, I can do this.
>>24290387
theres like three smells to me
>good smell
>bad smell
>bad but also good smell
Like some things smell quite bad but its also good. Its like when I cut myself it hurts but also feels good.
that good but bad but good
nom sayin
Stupid fucking insurance isn't fighting the other person's insurance to pay for my medical bills for the car accident, even though I was the most hurt.
Now I got a hospital bill of ~$3,000 and an ambulance bill of $1,590 even though they did nothing to me on the ambulance other than check my blood pressure. Fucking jews. I'm not paying shit.
>>24290357
It smells good because it smells of you...
People always talk about body odor as a bad thing but the basic clean, fresh non-sour sweat smells are fine.
Being aware of an odor shouldn't automatically mean that it's a bad smell.
We're just trained to believe that everything should smell of "product" or perfumed.
I'm not saying that all body odor smells nice or that dirty unwashed stale sweat doesn't smell disgusting.
I'm just saying mild smells shouldn't bother you and some of them are nice.
"im one step closer to the edge and about to break"
>>24289075
I am thinking: "WTF is that with my stomach? Why I'm so I'll? Looks like I'm having a panic attack or some shit. Anxiety high. My potatoes are almost ready. Dinner time. I need to drink some more water."
I feel very insecure about being talentless, thinking about getting guitar lessons
>>24290672
post your selfharm jlh
>>24289075
All you retards could easily get a job and stop being friendless neets if you put even an ounce of effort in. If pedro can get a job in his broken english, so can you. If he can get a wife and kids in a country where he doesn't even speak the bloody language, so can you. Apply yourselves, stop wasting your lives. It will always get fucking better, but the world owes you shit. Get up off your arse and do something.
>>24290672
Yeah, we talkin bout the same stuff bb. That post-workout smell for me is heaven in a bad but good kinda way
I'm so damned ugly, and the worst part about it is i can't figure out for the life of me what about my face is ugly. It just sorta... is.
Just fuck my genes up fampai
>>24289075
>what's wrong with my gum and will i lose my teeth
>how do i make my hair look good
>how tired am i going to be tomorrow
>i wonder if i'll get a gf tomorrow
thats about it
>>24289075
I hate myself way too much
I feel like I dont have any perspective anymore. Perhaps its because ive been through too many things without fully digesting them but it just feels like im getting spun around in a chair. Im expected to take my life somewhere right now but I have no leads as to where.
I wish I had direction in my life, i'm just so lost.
>no hobbies
>no dreams or ambitions
>don't want to work but can't get autismbux
>cutting contact with any friends or family I had left
why can't I be a child again? I don't want responsibilities.
>>24289075
my ass hurts , ive been in this chair too long.
going for a walk
why did i post this ?
who cares?
>>24289075
how i care too much, how i think too much, how i pay attention to strangers too much. i listen to people and take names they mention and think about those names all the time, like josh who a woman was screaming at in the street when it was raining. and i think about why she was screaming and what he did and what his favourite colour is and all the sad things that have happened in his life. or the girl who was crying on the bus ride home, or the homeless guy i walk past on the way to work every day. i think about these people a lot and it makes me cry because i want to tell them i love them and that i care about them so much, even though they could be awful human beings and i don't know anything about them. i just want them to know that i forgive them for everything in the world and if i could i would help them in every sense of the world
i over-exaggerate all the time. i just want to save the world even though i'm just an edgy teenage girl who stays inside playing games most of the times. i don't feel usless, i just feel hopeless. like all i can do is watch the world fall apart around me, and it hurts. it hurts so fucking much
>>24289075
why did you leave me
pls grow up soon and realize what i know before its too late
in all my dreams you leave me but i still fall asleep looking forward to seeing you
i will try to be the good person you think i am
>>24289075
I can't afford energy drink and i will be home tommorow about 1 am. At least i got the job.
I feel insecure. Coming to terms with the fact that I am not that attractive and reevaluating myself. My ego is crumbling but I have decided to strive towards pleasure and enjoyment mercilessly anyways.
I installed Tinder today, first time using it. I am still reeling from a four year relationship with a girl I loved but did not really want to be with. Not going to write that novel now, it's best I stay focused on Tinder. It didn't go all that well. 8 matches and 200 swipes. I look good but my profile might not be the best. I don't have enough pictures of myself since I got rid of my little beard, and some of the ones I do have were taken by my ex and it feels like a shit move to use those.
Going to give the app another try tomorrow. And if I feel it does me more harm than good then I will uninstall it and try to move on. Maybe things could go better when I have better photos.
I have fears that all my efforts will fail. That my current depression will smother me.
But I am happy that my nihilism at least grants me freedom to move and expose myself.
Society is collapsing and normies' are struggling to make sense of it. The collective depression is accelerating as the West smothers itself. Things will honestly have to get worse before they get better. But now I am acting as if it's a given that things will get better lol. But at least The West got a dose of stimulation. Like a girl who wants to be hit a little too hard.
>>24291686
http://www.powdercity.com/products/caffeine-pills
here's a month of caffeine pills for $5. If you don't have a debit card then buy one of those money gift cards. Really most of your energy will come from your food and your time management for sleep and relaxation. You should just take caffeine for a boost.
>>24291567
>tfw you just want to make the world a better place but aren't able to / don't know how to do it
I know that pain.
Im 20, no job, no degree, not in uni, no skills or trade and I just got rejected fromthe air force. What the fuck am I meant to do
>>24289075
I gave her a ticket to a concert I was going to. She said she would meet me there. She never came. I can't decide if I should skip class all week to punish her (ha!) or go in the hopes that she has an excuse. JDIMSA
>>24289329
Jesus Christ.
I sabotage all my friendships. I don't want someone to be nice to me out of politeness or pity, so I can only be friends with jerks who tell you how they really feel. When a nice person is nice to me I assume I'm bothering them and I push them away for their own sake. Then they think I'm the jerk.
Suicide?
>>24291967
Bad feels man. Go to class but dont talk to her
>>24292014
Story of my life man. I never think someone truly likes me. I pushed a girl away recently and now I feel like shit. Goddamn my fucked up brain.
>>24289075
>come from rich family
>be white
>be 6'0
>look like this (excuse the hair, i'd just gotten out of bed)
>clever, go to good uni
>funny, people laugh when i talk to them
>not socially retarded any more, can hold a conversation with normal people
>speak french, spanish, italian
>can't get laid
what is my problem? People assume i'm alpha. then they speak to me and friendzoning happens. Every time. I am a robot of some form.
People are cruel, unjust, and self-serving first and foremost. People will purposefully go out of their way to make your life miserable, no matter what age or gender or race you are.
The pack mentality that once supported us so well has given way to a painful existence where everyone is clawing away, trying to get a bit more than the little they had before.
>>24292088
don't allow that friendzone shit to happen then. Be somewhat aggressive if they try and take your relationship down that road
>Brother has anger issues
>Constantly goes on long winded rants on subjects he knows nothing about(politics,religion,world issues,science,)
>Stuff akin to "Hang the politicians, abolish religion, nuke the middle east, chem trails"
>Wan't to smack the shit out of him and tell him to shut the fuck up
>Can't because I live with him and have nowhere else to go.
What the fuck can I do? Arguing him gets me nowhere even if I have evidence, and when I keep my mouth shut he'll go on for like 20 minutes and I'm to the point I can't really stand it anymore.
I'm thinking about how this fucking planet is doomed to die and everything is fucking meaningless. The whole fucking universe is going to die, there is no future.
Life is a big joke. I just want to stay alive, hoping to see some interesting shit happen. A huge accident or something. Nuclear war would be nice.
>>24292144
i think that's my problem. i really do lack balls. approach anxiety is my life.
>>24292159
Abolishing religion isn't an ignorant perspective necessarily. Religion does divide people and can be used to justify fucked up shit.
I told myself that if I can have one date with her, I'd be happy with just that. I was happy. But after the date, I was so into her that I wanted a relationship. She's too busy with life. I'm too busy with life. We just never have enough time. When I'm free to hang out she has work. When she's free I'm out with another friend. It just doesn't work. I'm scared to lose what little we have.
>>24289142
Know thw same feel man ive talked this girl for weeks and she answer like 30 minutes late and its mostly just ok after i write 5 sentences
>>24292237
I know it does, but there are religious people who aren't extremists and he clumps them all into one group and thinks they have no right to exist.
Plus i hear the whole spiel multiple times a day every single day. It's not even a conversation, it's just him voicing his thoughts out loud angrily as no one else in the room even replies.
>>24292228
Music can help you grow balls
Also, being confident and taking pride in your achievements helps as well
>>24292185
I read this and smiled for the first time in a week. I'm really fucked up when I connect with absolute pessimism more than anything else in my life.
>>24292265
cut her off, she's not worth the time
>>24292312
Problem is i cant shes the only one i talk to besides me vodka bottles
>>24292341
is there anything you could do to stop her stupid replies?
>>24291894
community college. youre still relatively young; just do something
I have a slight headache. I should probably open a window for some fresh air. But if I do, the room will be too cold to masturbate in comfortably if I want to cum before bed, and I'm going to bed soon. I'm not horny enough to jerk off right now. Everything is awful.
>>24292341
Get some liquid courage and straight up ask her if she even likes talking?
>>24292363
was a 22 year old kissless virgin a month ago.
Now I'm not and the girl of my dreams broke my heart and it is so much fucking worse.
I wish it would have never happened.
getting annoyed that you use my rats as a cool accessory
>omg look at me with these rats arent i so cool and quirky? please pay attention to me :)
Are you fucking serious? You're constantly posting pictures of them on facebook and refer to them as "your rat/rats" because you want people to notice you.
Meanwhile, while everyones gawking at how cute you and my first rat are
in the photo you took after I asked you to keep an eye on her and allow her to rest, im stressed out over the fact that I didnt get my paycheck and wont until another couple of weeks because someone screwed up their job and wont be able to get her to a vet or get any medicine while shes struggling to breathe normally
But sure, keep posting pictures of "your" sick rat on facebook to get your stupid likes
>>24292443
woops. Meant to reply to thread not this comment.
No real idea why I post here. I have this absurd idea I'll meet people at random, on a fucking anon board. I'd attach an email but it seems like hardcore trip-fagging. I just can't make myself do things like post if theres no real way to follow up or 'develop' anything from it.Having an 'hours played'-display alone makes me all the more likely to keep playing. ;_;
Why do people act differently around you when they find out you're from Ashkenazi Jewish heritage?
Whenever people are talking about their heritage I have to remain quiet.
You either get special treatment or people act with disgust around you.
>>24292088
i'd do you
>>24289075
I keep accidentally thinking about a person who stopped talking to me a while ago. I don't even like them much I just hate changes. Don't understand why people always choose to move on.
I wish I had some job experience and a better brain.
I'm never going to have sex because it's for other people, not me. If I act sexual or interested in nex in any way no one will want to be friends with me and I will probably be arrested. I can't even look at a girl because she will think I am creepy. If I actually try to hit on someone I will probably be humiliated or killed
>>24289075
Got a lot of shit to study but I'm barely doing it. I think I'm not going to pass. I also thinking about a girl but she ignores me all the time. It makes me sick. Sometimes I feel the urge of strangle people. I got a bat. I could use it.
>>24289075
I feel like I lost the road to happiness, long, long ago when I stayed away from other kids because I spilled my spaghetti everywhere (not autist but the genius type that can't get friends).
Now I'm barely holding up in a high level college and growing up made me even more antisocial.
I just saw a blog from a 37 years old artist posting since 2004 and I can relate somehow to him, but he's a full blown normie who already met hundreds of friends, went to Japan, the US, Africa...
He's living the life I want to have but I'm too much socially inept and I'll end up most likely in a boring, high qualified job, alone.
>tfw you understood too late that money doesn't mean shit if you stay away from others
>>24289132
Girls want you to be a certain way. You want girls. Therefore you want to be that way.
>>24289075
>i've spent the first 2.5 months at uni drinking my self to comfort and smoking
>realising my course is shitty the first year
>have 3 room mates that are girl
>winter-is-coming.mp3me
>activate depression
>been sleeping in roomates bed with her
>she has a boyfriend
>blue-balls.jpeg
>going to stop and reclose myself from the world for winter
>I'm walking this lonely road the only one that i have ever known
>numb.mp4
>feel like shit
>mostly girls at my uni (art school)
>can barely speak to any of them
> went to bed 4AM
> sleep at 4:xx AM
> woke up 1:30 PM
> out of bed 1:55 PM
> internet to now, 3:30 PM
> maybe i should do something
> ... maybe tomorrow
Lying in my bath tub, drinking beer and eating cake, thinking how good was this weekend, that it was good to break up with my gf of 3 years and that I don't regret it. I should study whole Monday because of my exam on Wednesday, maybe I should write to this girl that lives nearby and was always somewhat close to me or maybe hook up with some cute guy
>>24292734
>sleeping in roommates bed with her
at least you aren't sleeping alone every night
do you actually cuddle? or does she hug you much? even if not, I'm still jealous.
>>24292941
she sorta had half a thing for me, we've kissed and i've hugged her holding her boob under/over top. but I think she's just using me to pent out some shitty sexual frustation before her boyfriend visits her, which i don't think is gonna happen anytime soon. she still seems pretty loyal and it's fucking me up a bit so i'm not going to do it anymore. I feel like her shitty orbiter and now i'm at uni I want to try to actually have a relationship with someone (something i've never done before) my life is pretty pathetic desu
I hate getting sick.
I want someone to understand the way I feel. I want someone to make an effort on my behalf. I want someone to care about my thoughts, and to respond with their own. I want someone I can relate to.
But, I am afraid of people. I am too afraid to reveal myself to the world or to any one person. I am consumed by fear of doing anything, so I only stay the same, and hide away. Lonely, afraid. Forever.
The world around me hasn't been good. I thought for a bit there were a few weeks where I'd found some self determination, I'd reconciled with my roommates, I was doing what it took to foster some self belief. I am miserable now. It's ok, but I have no one to talk to about this sort of stuff. I'm sure you all know it just becomes tiring. I am too much a political person as well, and the riots and specifically terrorist attacks have made me evaluate the absurd nature of our world. I'll get past it, but I would like some friends or even a girlfriend in these troubled times
>>24292473
At least writing your ideas out can helpful too, even if no one responds. There are others out there
Numb, empty want to be sad.
I don't want to play games, I can't tell anyone how I feel.
Taking weight loss pill and eating much less, works wonders. Just want some below average chick to talk to. I'm probably going to die alone or off myself one day.
>>24293448
I used to write very personal feelings into a diary/journal every now and then to get me through tough times.
Afterwards I would burn the jounal and pretend it never happend. It's a good way to let out feelings. A good cry at night helps too. They don't help the situation at all but it makes me feel human and gives me the willpower to go on.
I don't trust people anymore they tell me lies and care only about themselves.
My roomies are having friends over, one of whom goes to martial arts class with me. Now he knows how socially awkward I really am
Feels bad
I want to stuff my face but I also want to lose some fucking weight. I don't wanna turn into a fatass
>>24293811
Welcome to robothood.
just woke up from a dream where i fucked a girl that one of my friends had a crush on for a while but nothing really happened with it, this was probably about last year
recently she told me that she used to like me and im wondering whether to actually fug her or not since my friend would probably get angry at me for it (shes 9.5/10)
I'm suspecting that I'm not made for this world, for this society
My posting in this thread is an aimless action, and thus not worth doing. In the future I should focus on acting towards some goal, big or small.
I really need someone to talk to.
i'm thinking that somehow i will fail life miserably
>>24293811
as long as you can have that power over yourself, there is hope
Intensely and violently lewd, that's how I feel.
Happens for like, a week out of each month and I can't focus on anything.
>>24294159
stop watching porn
>>24294103
try /soc/, its gay as hell but at least its something
>>24294188
I don't even watch porn, or masturbate for that matter.
Maybe life's a losing game.
I have a chemistry exam tomorrow and have no idea what to do because I cant remember anything and Im going to fail it and end up passing chem with a C even though I decided to put it off until my senior year
I fucking hate this class
>>24292637
>tfw you feel the same
>>24294188
Already tried that. Have had my skype up on /soc/'s last 2 skype threads.
All I got was 2 chicks that added me saying "I seemed cool" then never bothered replying to me. Eventually deleted me after 2-3 days. Oh and not to forget the german dude that added me and told me "greekfeg pay debt" and then deleted me.
A lot of my friends are suicidal and so am I. But I think I'm not sad about it anymore. My life is that bad. This makes me the biggest loser of all my friends.
Why didn't you do all that you wanted when you still got the time
Thinking about starting a thread asking what people would do if they were suddenly dropped in the leader role of a very small cult. But not sure which board I should post it on, or if I should just post it some other day.
Also thinking about what organization I should volunteer for since I have not found a job in two years.
> tfw I've been using an unmaintained branch of a 4chan extention for 2+ years
Feeling really dumb tbqh bruh.
>>24292435
Update: I came. c:
It wasn't the greatest, so I can stil go again, but it was better than nothing. I'm gonna watch Let's Play videos untill I am too tired to continue, then I will go to sleep. Buh bye.
Thinking of the best way for this girl who lead me on to eat a cake full of shit
>>24289075
grace is pretty hot, and she's new and i know she's not a whore. mfw she wasn't wearing make up and her skin was slightly oily and that humanized her
Fugg gotta get down to 12% body fat to unlock gf. I hate the perma cut.
Who am i kidding, people like me aren't supposed to be loved. We are different. I am different. I will never be loved, at least in the same way someone might love me.
I had so much love to give, but after this long winter i fear I'm running out
I'm thinking back on my high school days, I was the quiet autist and my parents thought I was being bullied because I talked to no one ever but those were the best days of my life.
2011 was a really good year for anime so I always had a bunch of shows to keep busy with, SSFIV AE and Neptuna came out, shitposting was really fun, and Rustle was in his prime. Those ways were much simpler since high school work was literally for 6 year olds and I had a 3.8 GPA with barely studying and going to sleep at 2am and waking up at 6am then sleeping during some classes.
But like everything all good things come to an end, see you in space cowboy
i feel incredibly uncomfortable right now. there's nothing i want to do but go to sleep but i'm not tired and i know if i do that when i wake up it'll just be the misery of class again. i can't find any music that's depressing enough to listen to and i just want to die. nothing makes me happy
I think it's time to finally kill myself. The depression and lonliness is unbearable, the failure is unbearable.
I still miss her after four years.
>tfw i will never own and dj in a shinjuku underground rave basement that only plays high bpm juke/footwork/jungle fusion that only gradeschool kids know about because shits post-modern as fuuuarrrkkk
>>24294782
>you will never be a denpa artist in akiba playing trudenpa to your 50 year old fans
>>24294640
Have you tried Carissa's Wierd?
>>24294834
yeah i listened to them a couple of months ago when i was feeling shitty but they weren't as crushing as i'd have liked.
i can either kill myself of live a lonely life until i die of natural causes
>>24294662
oh fuck man
it's been 1 year for me
it g..gets be..better tho, r..r..right?
>>24294640
this song is pretty depressing.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KGrM1sh-8pE
>>24294910
fukkin normie
>>24289998
you just stop breathin nigga
I'm about to play Fallout: New Vegas for the first time and I hope I am able to enjoy it.I get spooked in vidya easily.
everything sucks and i don't like living anymore
>>24294640
try have a nice life and giles corey
>>24294851
Oh. Well here's some charts if you haven't seen them:
http://i.imgur.com/8amoH3u.jpg
http://i.imgur.com/ncVUekF.jpg
>>24295106
i was listening to them earlier. i like hanl better because of how heavy it is. i'm just listening to dragged into sunlight now.
I just want to hurt somebody, but I need to calm down, make dinner and study.
> 2005 was ten years ago
> you can never experience adolescence again
why live?
>>24295142
>you will never experience the golden age of the PS2 again
>the one time in my life I had friends and we played Melee will never come back
>>24295142
why would you want that? my teenage years are when i became a robot and started hating life.
>>24294936
not really fukking, now ami i?
>>24295174
>Melee
>ps2
I'll be celebrating my 24th year of virginity soon.
Please kill me.
It was all my fault. I shouldn't have opened up. I gave her the opportunity to toy with my feelings, really, what the hell was I expecting?
I hate that I miss her, and I miss her so badly.
>i almost got laid like two weeks ago
>she was pretty but on the fat side o well
>the walking dead is pretty cool
I wish I wasn't such a tight ass with my money. All I care about is working and hoarding and when the weekend comes I just sit around waiting for the next day of work so I have something to do.
>>24295282
talking about separate events
this girl that i dont know very well keeps saying hi to me when i see her around, should i ask her out?
>>24289142
>>24292265
I'm a girl waiting and praying someone will talk to me on skype..
>>24295369
>someone says hi
>should I ask her out?
Is this a joke
I go in these threads and read about how like guys are missing girls and how they have feelings for her. I imagine I'm the girl cos I'm that pathetic(?), attention starved(?), loserish.
>>24295434
im insecure and need encouragement mate
>>24289075
>went to another university for an event this weekend
>got back much later today than I thought I would and missed my friend's sorority event that I told her I'd go with her too
>Feel bad cause I'm a really flaky person in general and this has not helped me feeling like a piece of shit for it
The pain, sorrow, misery, regret, loneliness, despair, desperation will never leave my life.
>>24295076
Just make a build with high perception so you can get a heads up beforehand so you get the jump on everything rather then the other way around.
Sneak helps with this too.
Become the bump in the night rather then fear it.
I should really be getting this shit done right now
>>24295340
Get a hobby or some friends to hang with.
>>24295194
> childhood crushes
> staying over at your friends house playing vidya all night
> no job, no responsibilities
> jerking off for the first time
> learning to drive and getting freedom from the house
> two dogs, neither had died yet
> you could be friends with most people despite being in different social circles
> hadn't become a jaded, emotionless asshole yet
It was pretty good, for me at least. Nostalgia's a hell of a drug. The mid-00s were a special time.
>>24295495
That is what I was interested in but after some quick Googling, it appears PER isn't actually that helpful in increase compass range while some certain perks or whatever are.
>>24289075
I think he's so cute... i want to hold his hand and i want him to find excuses to accidentally touch my butt, I want him to kiss me under an awning in the rain at night. and his nose blushes red every time I talk to him and he just goes speechless.
but my friend thinks he's cute too. and she'll hold a grudge for nothing, absolutely nothing. and of course I plan on doing /something/ with this boy.
meanwhile, my other girl friends are literally going out of their way to cause drama and so one of the boys who absolutely cannot stand my crush is now figthing with the rest of the group because he embarrassed himself at the hockey game.
I know, it's stupid. completely inane and a waste of my time. There's a cuter, lovely boy who I flirted with on Saturday. (I must congratulate myself on that lie about keeping her seat warm in order to rest my arm on his.)
>>24289075
Wondering what the fuck I've been doing with my life as of late. I'm watching all the people I know move on with their lives, get married and have kids, and yet here I am, 26 years old, still living in my mom's basement, no education, no special talents, just a waste of space.
How the hell did this happen...
this world is brutal, darwin figured it out, then the themodynamicists showed us we're just treading water, fires go out, the whole universe is going out, there's no such thing as life without struggle it would be better to die
I'm still not sure if she ever felt the same way about me. She could never be clear about it. This is what I get for crushing on an online friend.
I want love, I can't take it anymore. Loneliness is killing me, I'm going insane.
>at work at new job (college dropout)
>finally feel like im going in the right dircetion in my life
>talk to friend at work about college stuff, hes a dropout too
>"dude you should pay off your loans and go back. that's what im doing. anything beats this shithole!"
I know it's dumb but I can't help feeling guilty for dropping out of college. I wish I never went in the first place, all the memories there plague me.
i talked to this girl recently. she lives with her sister and has a shitty job that doesn't sound like it will allow her to move out soon. she's thinks she's an entrepreneur and tried to sign me up for this sketchy sounding "marketing opportunity." i was like "nah," thinking "i have a real job you dumb bitch." she was like "well if you know anybody..." i was like "yeah i'll let you know." she was so condescending and sarcastic and self-satisfied. oh god.
pic related. a man could never do this shit. i hate women so god damn much.
>>24295689
This desu f.a.m.
I might end it all if i cant find love
>>24295698
>this girl is gorgeous
>still is lonely
there is no hope for me at all
>>24295698
oh yeah, pic related wasn't the girl i talked to, but not far off
>>24295698
>I really don't care as long as I don't do it alone
What a fantastic way of saying you have no hobbies or interests at all, and are boring as fuck.
God it must be easy being a pretty girl and never, ever having to be funny or interesting in any way.
I'm in love with her but she won't ever love me back in this lifetime god I feel empty.
oh man shes so cute i almost forgot about her and about me liking her back a few years ago but now the flame has rekindled and on yesterdays party i should have made the move when she was drunk on my shoulder saying i smell good and that ive changed much i even think she sent me a flying kiss or whatever its called when i was leaving but i might be wrong idk man i may not see her again soon and when i do i might never approach her just cause im a beta but im thinking so hard about her the last day that it feels like its been days idk at least she showed some interest in me albeit drunk so maybe the next time ill have a chance at least i hope so
im sorry for the mistakes and especially for the lack of commas but im too lazy to write them
for the past 5 months i cant stop thinking about breaking up with him.. he is my first relationship ever.. met on online dating site.. but he hates my family and i have no friends to begin with.. so im isolated with him and his mother.. my mom says im welcome back home but its such a scary thought of leaving.
I feel awful
I'm a failure
I give up on life
I hate college
I hate everyone
Black people hate me and i dont know why. I think i give off this aura of perceived racism. Just in general though i get treated poorly by black people. One time when i was in a mental ward i did a handshake wrong apparently and was called a racist and he told me him and some other people would sneak into my room at night and beat me up. Even a black nurse overheard and kept knocking on my door to keep me awake and she kept making faces at me. I'm seriously turning into a racist just because black people dont like me when i haven't done anything to them. Its not like i go around saying nigger or trying to act black im very aware that im white and act accordingly. Can any anon give some advice on the subject or have any idea what i could be doing to piss black people off?
These two guys just added me to their headset chat, and when I turned my headset on and said "Hi" they both kicked me out and I think they blocked me, too. What the fuck did I do wrong?
What's the holy grail of shit ?
I know /d/ made a guide on the holy grail for cumming in big amounts, but I wondered if there's something similar to take huge shits.
Every few days I get bouts of intense longing for this girl I had feelings for. It's been a year since I last seen her, visiting the college she went to. We were good friends, but I never told her my innermost feelings for her. I am constantly haunted by that "what if." Even though I know I'll never see her again, I just can't move on from her. I just wish I could forget.
On another note, I finally made a friend the other day at this accursed place. She's cute, reserved, and doesn't seem to have a boyfriend. We've met up to go for lunch a few times, and each time went great; we really seemed engaged in each others' conversations. I just wish I wasn't so socially clueless--I feel like I might want to eventually date this girl, but I've got no idea on how to go about that and I'm to embarrassed to ask my normalfag friends for help.
>read about other people getting affection and love
>realize how deep this loneliness goes and feel dead inside
I don't know how to feel. I keep telling myself "it's okay, you'll feel better" but I don't. My grades suck and I really want to go to uni. I have a 35 in calculus, I took addreal to help, and it did, but I feel like shit afterwards. I want a boy to love me, But not just any boy, a new boy. I want Martin so bad. I love him. I don't particularly love him, he's 8 years older than I, so I have admiration for him. However Andy loves him so I can't really love him. I don't know how to feel. I contemplate suicide a lot now, which I can't fully follow through with, I am a coward. I wish I had someone to fulfill my void. I wish I was pretty, and had money. I wish I was 20 lbs lighter. I wish I wasn't so socially inept.I just want to start over, I want to go away and forget all these feelings. I want to cry my true feelings out. I wish I was as pretty as my friends, as outgoing. I've always wanted to be the girl that people thought was pretty. The girl that boys would see and think I was cute. But I am not. I can only wish. I miss my dog, so much. I wish I would have loved him more before he passed. I love my dog, I miss you Tito. I went to my backyard and laid next to where we put you under the ground. The grass over you is so much greener than the other grass. I miss you so much. I still leave out your water bowl for you. Hoping that I will wake up and you're going to be there, eager to see me and your bell on your leash will sound once more to remind me that at least someone loves me. It's been months and still I can't wait to go home to hope to see you. I miss my grandpa. My father figure. I love him so much and I hope he never dies, I wish he had taken care of me, I wish I had at least one man in my life to remind me its ok. I hate myself.
>job is boring and nerve-wracking
>im so ugly
>im not quite who I want to be
>something is missing within
>im bored
Am I a piece of shit for loving this kind of music?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xxWo9UO4B3A
>>24296559
no,some of them are quite good
>>24289428
Shit, that blue air shooter in the middle? I had one, was awesome desu. Uses to kek cat and in room for it lol.
I fail miserably at trying to be normal
>>24297243
Weird, I just had a deja vu, and I feel like I made a post very similar to this one a long time ago.
It feels like I have to poop, but I know that once I get to the toilet, the feeling stops and I won't be able to.
>after high school realize that a girl in my friend group showed signs of liking me
>knowing this fact made up what little self-esteem I had
>recently found out that she tried getting with the two only other straight guys in my group and failed
>she was desperate af
>not her first choice
>not her second choice
>but her third choice
>confirmed for never being anyone's first priority or love interest
>>24289075
this looks like I neat thread, I wonder what I'll type in it. Oh wait, techincally I need to type that right there. I wonder if anyone else talks inside their mind when the think, or if they just get the impulse. Hopefully someone in the thread will answer that. Actually, I speak inside my mind when I read to. Man, maybe I'm strange for doing that, or maybe I'm not, I guess I'll find out when I post this in the thread. Speaking of such, I probably should have put all of this in a better format like green texting or something so it would be easier for anons to read. Whatever, no one will respond or even care about this post anyways, they will glance right over it. God damn I type fast, I'm really impressed with myself that I can keep up at the rapid pace that I think at. Fallout 4 is shit. Wait, what? Where the hell did that thought come from? That was pretty strange. I'm probably about to run out of charecters to type so this thought array that I'm giving out to all of /r9k/ will end pretty abruptly. Then again, a random array of thoughts really can't end abruptly, as there wasn't any order to it to begin with. Oh boy I still need to bake all of those sugar cookies, but I don't think I have all of the ingredients that I need. I think I'm low on butter. Maybe I should cum in the cookies and then give them to her. I'll tell ya what, I'll just ask /r9k/ what to do, considering they can read my thoughts for the time being. Yeah, that sounds like a good plan. Well I'm done typing this because I'm getting pretty bored. Time to launch Space Engineers and fuck around on a planet. I should proabably tell anyone on /r9k/ that has space engineers that the planets update came out. But then again, that's old news and they don't really care anyways. It would be a kind gesture though... but its already been like 5 days since it came out, so whatever. Damn I really need to stretch, my back is killing' me. I wonder what picture I'll use for my post. Probably just Pepe.
>>24289075
Every embarrassing moment of my life and how I will never be happy but I don't deserve to be happy either
>>24289075
Feeling fat, just went to mcdonalds for the 2nd time this day. Other than that, pretty okay, kinda lightheaded. Gonna play some fallout or bo3 to end the night.
>>24292088
betaface BetaFace BETAFAAAAAACEEEE
>>24289075
When do it all go wrong? Why are we here? Just to suffer?
I'm tired of living with my parents, I'm bored of my dead end job, and my co-worker is pissing me off. I don't want to end it all and I don't blame anyone for my emotional and psychological problems. If I can't improve my life before Spring 2017 I am thinking of loading up an old ALICE pack I bought and walking to the west coast with as much money as possible.
>>24298241
The inside of your brain is pretty qt
What I wouldn't give to be sitting next to the woman I wish was more than just a friend.
>>24289444
>tfw no slimboy to cuddle with
I'm wondering if anime and videogames can sustain me for the rest of my life.
Women are too much work, so I'm just going to get a bunch of hobbies and nice things.
Girls go "WOOO" at night and I don't know why
Either people walk really slowly, or I walk like an autist
My bitchy roommate just came home from her parents house (she leaves every weekend because she gets homesick and stressed from school). Now I have to put up with her until she leaves again on thursday/Friday. Literally stresses me out because I'm waiting for her to snap one day over little shit
I'm hungry, might have to make those ham and cheese croissants now.
I just want to do something out of hate. Of power.
>>24289366
Someones been raping you while you sleep
I wish I stopped thinking
I'm so stressed our right now, and I just can't relax
My mind just doesn't give me a rest even though I can hardly keep up anymore
Well, it has happened again, my friends (the few that are left at least) are making plans and partying without me again. Worst is that when we talk online, they have no problem rubbing it all over my face, like i shouldn't care. That's what i get for having normies as friends.
Ah, i feel like i should just stop talking to them all together, it takes too much effort on my part to be available to friends, and it just sucks when they dont consider you.
I feel awful cause i know that i dont have more friends, soon i'll be completely left out, and i dont want to go back to be alone again.
dont even get me started on girls, i admit id love to be with one, but -besides my uglyness- cant do much when youre missing "that" ability to talk to them. So frustrating.
>>24292088
You might be a douchebag. Step back and evaluate the way you interact with others. Or you can just ask people.
>>24290645
>again
at least you had the opportunity, appreciate it for the rest of us who can only wish.
>>24289075
I kind of wish I had cancer so I would die young and people would care.
> I like chicken wings
> my local wings station had good ones
> haha that one William Penn south park episode
> I have all the south park episodes on my media server
> my media server is my computer
> my computer is getting old I should build a new one
> computers are expensive
> I should work more overtime to get more money
> I want to change jobs
> Hitler had a job
> I would make a good Nazi
> wait no I'm too different
> differential equations = time travel
Why can't I keep one steady thought? My mins bounces around too much
What's the fucking point of becoming great in life. Why even have dreams or aspire to become great. Fuck all these great expectations everyone has. Fuck all these people. I just want to be normal and die like everyone else.
>>24289075
I cant believe i am going to die alone. I should of seen this coming. I always knew, No matter how hard i try to shuffle the deck the cards always find there way back to there original places, Im cursed to die alone and i cant do anything to stop it.
>>24289075
So I was thinking today, the only logical reason for why the Bible says gays are bad is because gay people can't reproduce and therefore can't make more Christians.
I wish my leaky gut would heal and go away so I can gain weight again...
>>24289075
>these feels are complex pls bear with me anons
I can't wait to see you, hold your hand, make love to you over break. I can't believe it's been almost two years since I've seen you,
Your boyfriend is a stupid hippie SJW faggot and if we end up having an orgy I'm going to fuck him in the ass so hard and break his rectum. I will also not respect his pronouns either, they/them isn't even grammatically correct.
How do you think your relationship is stable being open, when you were always strongly hinting to be closed with me?
I'm so sorry I picked her over you. It is the worst mistake I have ever made and I am so sorry I hurt you and I wasn't there for you. I am going to try my hardest to have you fall in love with me again, and I will try my best to do it honestly without manipulating you, but it will probably happen anyway and I am already somewhat doing it.
You've been SJW indoctrinated, I miss the days we laughed about the Jews and sperged out memes. I don't want to call you by that hippie non binary name when we make love, that's what that faggot calls you, your real name is so beautiful, it means "pure" and that's what you are, despite all those horrible things that have happened to you.
I'm going to grind, work hard, and study all day until the life I envision for us can be okay .
your mother is so disappointed of your goddamn ass.
you should've killed yourself shortly after, it would have been plausible then. no one would have questioned it... and you could've ended up in the place you rightfully belong to.
you're nothing but a waste of space. do the world a favor and just kill yourself.
>>24298499
That is the strangest compliment I've ever gotten. Thanks anon.
>>24302595
>they/them
so fucking dumb. I live in a city where that shit is getting out of hand. I've brought it up before to more sjw oriented people that is seems people are just taking up non-binary pronouns/nicknames to be "in." They of course are made uncomfortable by that sentiment.
I shouldn't have skipped so many classes this semester now I'm gonna be in school until I'm like 26 and it's gonna mess up my parents credit because they're in on my student loans. The girl I've been talking to everyday is having nightmares and cut up her legs and I don't know how to cheer her up this time, I thought if I lost weight I'd be happy but I've dropped forty pounds and I still can't do anything right.
>>24302797
It makes me mad. So mad.
My dick needs to be so bomb when she sees me, so she will love me quicker, and I haven't had time to get much practice in. sigh
>>24289075
>tfw my father and I are both spergs
>tfw we don't know what to talk about unless it's history, economics, literature, or technology
Not sure whether to feel good or bad. We don't talk much but neither one of us can engage in any sort of independent small talk when we do.
>>24289075
where do i find anyone i would actually consider dating? i'm decently attractive (i get complements from the opposite sex) but god they are all so boring.
>>24289075
waiting for next year to see if youll really kill yourself
>>24303038
>sweden2020.jpg
I am worthless piece of shit, going to college is a waste of time, no one will ever love me because I'm a possessive and jealous mothefucker. I should just kill myself and this is it.
>>24289075
Thinking about tomorrow getting liquar, and figuring out how I'm gonna kill myself in a way that's not that painful.
>>24303138
And to complete it, Im in love with a girl that don't love me back and don't give a shit about me.
>>24289075
The Paris attacks will be discussed on Monday, and I spent a day worrying that a friend of mine may have been blown in half by some sub-human Islamic terrorist. I'll have to watch my tongue, despite the fact that the company I work for extensively outsources to countries sympathetic to the terrorists. I'm so fucking mad.
>>24303164
Not at all, actually.
>>24303164
Meant to quote>>24303072
>>24303225
Care to explain?
I feel tired. I dont want to wake up
>>24303264
Jesus fuck, I tried to correct my quotes and.fucked up again...
>>24294834
Carissa's wierd is usually pretty strong stuff, you shouldn't be prescribing that to just anyone
>>24289075
Feeling pretty lonely....I want to blow a bunch of money on camwhores just for the pretend affection that comes along with it, because usually that is good enough for me and will make me feel good for a while.
>>24303532
Have you tried working out? It might work for you.
>>24303582
when I was in college I did, but I am in my middle 30s now
>>24289075
I hate myself and want to die. Life is so terrible.
>crushing on a guy
>don't know if he's a closet alpha or just a high functioning beta
>he has a group of friends that always follow him and he takes them to places and always sets up hang outs
>everyone says that he has weird ass tastes in music and film
>don't know why people still follow him
>don't know why I'm so attracted to him
>we've only hung out with each other (we held hands two weeks ago though) but I want him to ask me out, but I'm just too shy
>he probably thinks that I'm too boring
>he does his own thing and is very independent, while I just follow my friends around
What should I do?
>>24303629
So what? Go to a gym and do it.
It's never too late to do what you want.
>>24303673
>>>/high-school/
Dumb roastie
>>24303673
grab his cock and wink
>>24303700
I never leave the house except to go to work or grocery shopping.
I guess I shouldn't complain if I am unwilling to do anything about it.
>>24303771
Buy a set of dumbells and barbells. Just read about the exercises and do it at your garage.
My face hurts again
I want to leave, but i don't want to leave her alone.
Fuck
She's pushing me away, but I'm her only friend.
Fuck people. Fuck this.
I'm a mess over you, girl.
I love you.
Love me.
You can't..
I should probably go to bed but I've grown to hate sleeping. I don't fall asleep easily, I don't stay asleep, and I don't feel rested when I wake up. It feels like a waste of time and a chore.
Ironically it used to be the only thing that I really enjoyed doing.
WHY do these fucking lecturers try to be hip and shit with their ebin funny commercials and big bang theory clips?
But I know it's my fault for picking a meme study anyways.
Why can't I put effort info anything?
I'm scared I might be becoming schizophrenic. My thoughts are getting really disorganized and weird, and sometimes I'll see a bug on the wall that isn't there. I looked up the symptoms and a lot of the onset symptoms are things I have experienced. I probably won't do anything because it's probably just anxiety and even if I do end up schizophrenic it'll just mean I get easy NEETbux.
I wish I had died in my sleep before ruining things with this female friend. Despite us not being close anyways and her probably just talking to me out of pity.
man I haven't browsed 4chan in years but glad to see these threads still exist. thanks for feeling with me guys. just watched 5cm/second and literally crying. Crying for childhood, for simpler times, for my future, for everything, for love lost, for love never found. Life is so weird, it's nice that we can all feel together
I've finally put a time period for when I'm going to finally kill myself, it's scary because there's no emotion attached to it anymore, it's more like it's actually a legitimate choice. I don't think I'm going to back out from it when the time comes, at least with the way I'm feeling about it now.
I'm also thinking about cutting contact with everyone I talk to onlinefor good this time.It's messing with my head a lot recently and I think I'll be better off if I do it, but then talking to literally no one might be just as bad..
I wish when I go to bed later I would die in my sleep.
>>24295174
>tfw memories of playing melee with friends
>tfw memories of playing halo 1-3 with friends
>tfw those friends are gone and forgot me
>tfw I'm too dead inside and a loser to make new friends
the sadness will last forever
>>24304924
please don't
even online friends care about your well-being
Why even bother living for another 40 years?
I won't ever find love.
I'm powerless and pathetic.
I'll be forgotten instantly after I die.
I wish I would drown in my bathtub.
>>24304974
But at this point in time, having online friends is doing more harm than good.
Between two groups I talk to, there's one from each that is fucking with my head a lot and there's really no way to stop it without breaking contact completely from both groups.
>>24289075
I want to fap but I'm currently doing nofap.
I don't know how to stop thinking about fap.
I'll go crazy, that for sure.
>>24289075
I can't ever remember what I think about
>>24289075
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=POS5JZweu3Q
>>24292265
Usually if this is like tinder or something, she is already being messaged by 5 different chads who type "Hey babe u wnt muh dik" or something short and simple. You writing an entire beta novel is boring to her, but she replies anyway just to get rid of the message notification.
Once you get these one or two word responses it is pointless and you need to move on.
Or.... just say some stupid shit to her like "plz respond you stupid whore, give me $10 and I'll take you on a wonderful mcdonalds date. After which we can fuck in the bathroom."
Shit like that works sometimes because women are stupid fucking whores.
erection going for half an hour
ive been told ill be less horny over 30
its all your fault danish single mom for not being mine
A robot acquaintance of mine has managed to finally get a gf. From talking to her, it turns out me and his gf have a bunch in common. Furthermore, she's drunkenly flirted with me on a few occasions and hinted that she'd be down for a threeway if both me and her boyfriend were okay with it.
The boyfriend is a neckbeard, so if I go along with this, I probably end up c-u-c-k-olding him.
Is it right to steal a girl from another robot, /r9k/, if it means losing my own robot status?
Will I become Chad?
>>24305884
no robot wants to become chad and if you steal the girl from your friend you arent a friend but a dead fag because i will find you and kill you after feeding your own willy to you
I've been a friendless neet for years and I wish I was dead.
I think I've just made HUGE personal progress and I finally know what I want to do
>I wish my gf didn't love me so much
>I wish I could fuck someone else
>I wish I could attract girls non hipster sjw girls
>>24305884
you'd be a shitty friend, and remember the rule.
You have to wait as long as their relationship before you can see her.
>>24305900
>>24306005
and what if the acquaintance is bi and has also expressed interest in said three-way?
I feel like a god.
I'm currently depriving myself of sleep in the hopes of hallucinating just for the hell of it.
>>24305991
I want my gf to love me so much she'd do anything. I want to fuck other girls while she stays loyal to me. She told me she would dump me if I cheated which is weird because I get some yandere vibes from. She's also told me I can't cheat because she would stalk me and watch through the window and masturbate. Bitch be crazy.
>>24306047
are you bi? I'm gonna assume you aren't.
If he asks you to rim his asshole, to fuck you in your ass, or to suck his dick, are you ready?
If no, rethink keking
>thinking
I'm thinking about an ex of mine and how she told me she is still in love with me despite currently being in a relationship with the most SUPREME beta faggot I've ever encountered.
>feeling
Just fucking kill me.
>>24306077
Basically how my gf is, it's really uncomfortable honestly. I really like her, and as a person she and I are incredibly similar and never run out of things to talk about. However, after a year, I'm just not that attracted to her anymore.
>tfw can't have my cake and kek it too
Its 5 am and the smell of burning grass just woke my up. Must be my asshole neighbor burning thrash in his lawn again.
I hate this country
I want to either die, or runaway somewhere and try start anew.
I've been trying to psyche myself into asking for this girl's number for the past week but I'm probably gonna pussy out again today
I should literally just end my life
I just want her to love me, why I fell in love for someone that lives in another country and don't care about me at all?
tl;dr I'm thinking of this girl I've known for awhile and considering if I should ask her out.
We have good chemistry and we have a bit in common(we're both introverts, like to talk literature and psych, have a similar sense of humor, etc). She recently commented on my shirtless self portraits and said that I looked beautiful. (I'm planning to do photography as a side job so I'm currently building my portfolio and I don't know any models.) The thing is that she's bi with a slight lean towards women. I'm told I'm good looking but she's basically a 9/10 and I'm to much of a beta to do anything. I really like being with her and I don't want to jeopardize that but I also want to show her I'm interested.
I'm also having a existential crisis but what robot doesn't.
i went outside for a cigarette and as i was coming back in a pleasant-looking fellow said "morning!" and i said "morning!" that's fucking hilarious, we just enthusiastically said what period of the day it was to each other and that's a legitimate human interaction.
I miss college. The people, the dorms, not having to worry about food, fun stuff going on all the time, it was great. Now I'm in the real world, and everything sucks.
>>24295471
Not that guy
Try to talk to her first, if she says hi for no reason she's atleast a little interested. After you have a few conversations you can gauge what she thinks of you.
>>24304924
don't dew it bro
Pretending that nothing was wrong and acting aloof when bad stuff happened to me throughout my life has probably damaged me more than the actual bad events themselves
>that horrible feeling when you don't have a girlfriend
I'm feeling like my heart is breaking, since my 12 year old dog died four days ago. I loved her so much, she was my everything. Whelp.
>>24289075
im not studying for the 3rd week in a row and im taking a test that will literally decide my future in 5 months.Ive got so many stupid shit going on that i cant shit down concentrate and study...
>>24289075
When women are ovulating, their mind has a tendency to be substituted by the mind of any person she comes across, since she is temporarily with really high empathy.
If a dominating man wants to fuck her, she will want him to fuck him as well, since her mind has become his.
When women are not ovulating, their mind has a tendency to not be substituted by other minds, since her empathy is lower.
If a dominating man wants to fuck her, she will feel threatened and find safety along with beta males, who won't be able to fuck her as well.
>>24310062
Do any of you guys see sense in this?
I'm trying to run and I shoild probably start by walking first.
I'll read the K&R and the nice book I just dl'd, and also beej's instead of those huge dense books
>should i get fallout 4 for the pc or ps4?
>my pc is shit any i wont be able to run it on ultra
>but what if i save some money the next few month and buy a new gpu, better get the pirated version by my buddy and play on low-medium
why bother? shit's never gonna change, shit's never gonna get better
>>24289075
I'm desperate. I can't even find a reason why I'm still a gf-less virgin.
>So there was this kid in Elementary school
>We were in the same group of friends because he liked vidya
>Absolutely More socially inept than I was
>Could not speak in public
>Constantly bullied (So was I, but he was even more)
>Ate his boogers in public
>Vomited in PE after exercise
>Vomited in every school excursion while we were in the bus
>Girls constantly made fun of him
Years pass, fast forward 12 years
>Visit him again (I had moved to another city by then)
>Still the same sperg guy as always
>He's a weeb now
>Likes hentai and shares ecchi roleplaying shit on facebook without realizing people can see what he likes on their news feed
>Wore socks with sandals
>Had started a career, failed the semester twice, dropped out
>His father had him working for his business, admitted he was a bit mentally impaired
And one year later
>See he is on a relationship on normiebook
>His gf is not even that ugly
And here I am, 23, virgin, and STILL haven't had one fucking girlfriend. The (most?) autistic guy on the class could do it and I can't fucking put 2 and 2 together and do it myself.
Fuck this shit mane. There are guys fatter than me, shorter than me, dumber than me, more beta than me and have a gf. I don't fucking get it
I'm thinking about this girl, my friend told me he knows her and she is into guys like me. I was in a "house party"two friends + friend's gf + her two girl friendswhere she got piss drunk and I carried her down thr stairs and stuff, but last time I went out with the group I kinda called her bitch because she started ranting about how all men are evil. Later I apologized because I learned that she came to the pub we were drinking in like an hour after she got pumped and dumped by some guy she was in love with. So I kinda fucked it up. I don't know how to talk to her without looking like a creep. Also I don't know if I want to start a relationship ship, I'm a pretty boring guy and I don't want to waste anyone's time. I wish I had the confidence to hook up with girls.
>>24289075
thinking about killing myself to be honest, it just looks like a prime option more and more as I think about my life and what I expect from it.
You should all stop being such betafags
i had this weird sexual dream.
i was watching a porn of a woman engaged int he most abusive sex imaginable. multiple dudes of all races and hues were violently fucking her. she was drenched from head to toe in semen, slapped around etc. she seemed perversely to be enjoying the abuse. then it got really weird.
it cut to her friends in the opposite room who were all bathing in a shared bath. the dirty water was transported via a tube into the room where the above woman was being fucked. the idea was to use the dirty bath water to give her an enema. i suppose this was supposed to be sexual because the bath water was full of lady juices?
then it got worse. on top of being fed copious quantities of semen, the gang-banging men had something worse in mind for her. they took a syringe and injected it into her eyeball. they remove a quantity of liquid from her eye. then they fed it to her. i don't even know if you can survive that IRL. she seemed to like it.
i woke up and swore off porn for a long time.
>>24289075
everything's my fault. i'm a shit human. a lazy asshole. i hang around this shithole, i play videogames, i smoke pot, i have an easy job, an easy life, it's making me soft and constricting the FUCKING LIFE out of me. fuck everything. the end of the world is coming, great. i hope i'm ready to die. i've wanted to commit suicide for a long time.
i've wanted an escape from reality, and this yearning for an unrealistic possibility has unwound me from the inside out, caused me to become a chronic masturbating, stupid, lazy helpless parasite trying to drag as much contentment out of my sedentary lifestyle as possible. it's killing me from the inside.
i need to do better.
>need to take a shower and get to class
>roommate randomly decided to take a shower at an unusual time for him
>it's been at least 30 fucking minutes
Normies keep derailing my wageslave threads with memes.
What do?
I used to be creative.
>>24289075
woke up today with a deep seated feeling that I have cancer. It was like a doctor just said "you have brain-cancer" to me. Made me shiver. Drank some water, took a piss and went back to sleep. I feel like I'm loseing it, boios!
Having a PhD in mathematics and understanding quantum gravity doesn't help me get pussy at all.
Don't get me wrong, I get some pussy and I invest in it and try - but it's bothersome that my academic interest that take so much time are of zero positive contribution to a good sex life.
>good thing suicidalprof missed class, I'd have embarrassed myself
>the only things that keep me going are coffee, cat and prayer
>I hate how my life turned out
>sleeping is the most pleasant thing I do nowadays
Senpai, I miss you
I will never make it.
>oh shit they're gonna find out soon oh god what do I do I need to do something oh fuck it I'll do it tomorrow
FUCKING TODD FUCKING BETHESDA FUCKING AMD WHY CAN'T YOU EVER DO ANYTHING FUCKING RIGHT FIX THIS DRIVER CRASH ISSUE ALREADY AAAAAAAAEURJGBSEUI8BRYHNERJGVWUNMRGOBWIENBGWEORJGVWNE
I'm afraid of being so bored that it'll end in a psychotic break
>more beta
he's more m'lady aggressively chasing the poon. I don't think you want the spergy daddy issue weeb girls that your friend has.
As for you, you sound very bitter, and are most likely unpleasant to be around. That is probably the reason. You are also not assertive enough clearly.
Should I shave my head bald or just cut my hair a little.
>>24289461
Ow I think I just cut myself or that edge. Sorry family but a beta kekoo like you should just give up now.
Wagekek here, moved into a private office. It's nice and quiet, but now the CPU is too far to use my headphones. Haven't gotten a single thing done today.
Also, I quit smoking weed and I feel better than I have in a long time.
>>24312807
>Also, I quit smoking weed and I feel better than I have in a long time.
really? I've quit smoking (24/7 for 15+ years) like a year ago and I feel no different, only that I'm not stoned and can talk to people in the morning. I don't even miss it all that much, but I literally feel no different at all.
>It's nice and quiet, but now the CPU is too far to use my headphones
wat? The computer is too far away for you to use the headphones? Then buy an extension cord, or even an external DAC. The fuck dude?
Squatting is so uncomfortable. Why do Slavs love it so much?
>>24313167
I just moved this morning. I didn't there would be a problem with the cord. Gonna buy an extension later today.
Since I quit smoking, I sleep better and can actually focus on stuff.
>>24313235
I find squatting far superior to standing and not uncomfortable at all.
Then again my grandfather on my father's side was from Silesia, who fled after the war to western Germany and so I'm like 1/4th almost a Slav maybe?
>>24313272
I used to smoke a bowl before going to bed (and I know from friends who slept worse when they did), but I always slept like a baby. Now I need forever to fall asleep and this is a year later, mind you. I don't know. Maybe I smoked for too long.
>>24313235
Squatting is natural man, it only sucks for us because all we do is sit in chairs which destroys any and all flexibility and mobility. I stand when using my pc.
>>24313272
Oh also please never use CPU synonymously for computer. Because it's wrong on so many levels.
I hope they don't shut off my electricity this week I'm getting the money soon.
>everybody posts but nobody reads thread
>check thread periodically anyway hoping for replies
first time posting here
uh. feeling really depressed and hopeless. incredibly stressed out and feeling directionless, with all odds against me. I can't tell if I'm lying to myself that things will get better
>>24313235
I shit on the toilet squatting after one of my friends introduced me to it. I swear it's literally hacking the act of shitting. You can shit so much easier while squatting on the bowl than while sitting, up to the point where whenever you get constipated it comes out normally, and whenever you get diarrhea it comes out as a concentrated shit harpoon laser beam that obliterates everything in its path.
The only catch is that you have to actually be able to squat and balance on the bowl. But if you got that down, you're golden. Some people can't do this because they're fucking plebs and cant touch their ass to their ankles when squatting.
>>24313475
If you're serious about what you said, please leave.
This place will only make things worse for you.
>>24289236
christ end yourself
>>24313521
What the hell man
>>24313468
I'm replying, have a (you).
See here:
>>24313363
>>24313167
>>24313411
and fyi I only came here, because my dog died and got zero replies as well.
>>24313521
I can do this and tried this, I can't relax like that though. I'm fearing that I might poop all over the place or I might fall when I do poop.
>>24289260
honestly dude what they say about learning to love yourself first before another etc, as gay as it sounds, is what you should prioritize even if you are a 30 year old virgin neet whatever
I've been trying to co!emup with a list of reasons to live and things I would like to do before I die. It's pretty short at the moment.
>Welp. There went society I guess.
(Reflecting on Paris, btw.)
>Note to self: cutting is better than flaying yourself with a key. Shit hurts for far too long.
>"People think capitalism don't be like it is, but it do." -Bearded economics man.
>>24313615
his science is spot on though, since the colon is lined up perfectly when squatting. While your poo has to make like a 90 degree corner when you poop seated.
>>24313615
There's an actual term for it now, I believe it's called the third world squat since it's so common in those places.
But man, after you've mastered it, you've literally obsoleted chairs in your lifetime. Like you can hang around anywhere just by squatting. In addition the insane amount of manspreading while committing the act might piss off feminists bearing witness to your glory, which might be a good or bad thing depending on the situation.
Third world is fucked up for sure, but they got this shit quite right I swear. In comparison the over use of chairs all over the first world has conditioned people to lose their fucking birthright to be able to squat wherever and whenever they please.
>>24289418
Makes sense desu. The wife is always a cunt to house husbands. My poor uncle and sisters ex bf. I'll never allow myself to fall in that trap.itrap. It sounds like neet master racno. but no. It's just humiliation, no sex, and the bitch resents all the guys hobbies even more than your average wife. A happy relationship depends on a severe power imbalance greatly in the man's favor.
>>24313521
Squatting is truly master race. I discovered it on my own as a kid and can hardly shit any other way. Squatting is just top comfy. Sitting on computer chair? Nope Squatting. Waiting outside class? Squatting. Come to think of it sleep is about the only thing I can think of that Squatting isn't optimal for.
>>24313624
That means you still couldn't get the hang of it. If done correctly there isn't any room to balance anything since there are no moving parts to consider when your ankles are locked down on your ass.
When most people squat, it ends up something like pic related. Hence they find it uncomfortable since with that amount of floating you have to make an effort to balance.
I should have gotten twerked on by her at the party
>>24313889
Dude, I'm not retarded, I know how to squat.
But when I squat my weight is on the frontal part of my foot only making it not the largest contact surface to the seat. Secondly I'm European and we don't have American sized toilet seats. Also the seat itself isn't fused to the toilet itself, it has some wiggle room (and it's not even a low quality seat).
Can you squat with the whole foot touching the ground? How is that even possible without falling over backwards?
>>24314045
>apparently I'm retarded
oh crap I think I'm doing it wrong after all, but it's not relaxing at all to squat with your full feet on the ground.
>>24314045
>>24314120
Yeah, you have to balance on the balls of your feet right? That makes it wrong. You have to have your feet flat to the ground as well. Only then would it be a challenge to actually make your ankles touch your ass.
Anyone can lift up their heel to make their ankle touch their ass, but that's wrong because it causes instability. Your feet must be flat on the floor and your ass must go to your heel, not the other way around.
>>24314120
Actually for a certain percentage of the population, squatting with their feet flat on the ground comes naturally. It's also common in younger children, although they typically lose this ability with age if they don't exercise it often and sit on chairs too much, which causes their achilles tendon to not be stretched as often leading to lower flexibility.
