Who enjoys bad feelings here?
I had some acquaintances come over to celebrate my birthday the other day and I secretly felt disappointed that I couldn't cry about no one coming. It would have been so deliciously sad if I made that cake and no one ended up eating it, like a tragic movie where I sing happy birthday to me. I feel really awkward when good things happen to me.
>>24109770
Jesus fuck! I have this! Shit aint healthy though, tbqhwy senpai.
did you enjoy their company or was it somewhat painful because you're an autist that can't interact with others?
I'm like this. A lot of the time I feel like I deserve for bad things to happen to me, and when something good happens I wish I could feel bad. I resent feeling good, I like feeling sad, I like pitying myself. Negative emotions are the most intense for me.
>>24109820
I didn't feel much. It went smoothly.
>>24109770
me tbn
it's like masochism only emotional
>>24109851
I don't feel like I deserve it. It's more like attention seeking behavior for me. I learned as a child that no one gives a shit about me or want to talk to me unless I am in need of psychiatric help. I was raised in a non-interventionist "do whatever you want" fashion.
I feel weirdly guilty whenever something good happens to me. Like it's not supposed to be that way.
I hate getting any kind of gift, not that I get them often.
>>24109770
do you have an INFP personality type by any chance?
>>24109799
It's not ideal but I'm extremely mentally stable compared to someone who feels guilt and shame about not being happy(the trait that causes self-harming behaviour). I accept all my negative feelings as natural and necessary so I never succumb completely to them.
Come to me dark warriors, battle awaits us
