i want my friends back
>>24095888
every single one of my friends that i used to spend time with hates my guts
>>24095888
i miss being able to interact with people who like me
>>24095888
well there is still one person who likes to talk to me but she lives 2000 miles away
>>24095888
Nice trips, but uh you don't get to have friends.
>>24096305
well if i keep being a paranoid bitch who lashes out at people yea i guess i dont
I lost all my steam friends who were good friends last year by being a little bitch and I still miss them. It hurts even more knowing that two of them stopped being friends and I could've prevented it.
>>24096440
im op
i used to be in a big circle of friends online and i started to get paranoid thoughts about being replaced so i started lashing out and stalking people online and they all hate me for it
i deserved it
>had the best group of friends i've ever had
>moved away
>2 weeks later they tell me that they've secretly hated me for years and that i should kill myself
>now have huge arm scars from attempting it
>2/10 btw, painful and nothing happened after many hours
>live alone
>see tall building across the street
>soon
>>24095888
I'll be your friend OPIf clingy weeb qualifies
>>24096597
I can relate. The hardest part for me is how I took having them for granted. Now when I have nobody I realize that instead of looking for more people like them, I could've just kept them if I were smarter.
>>24096629
im a clingy bitch with a lot of complications, i highly doupt you would like me
>>24096700
i feel like the worst part is the bordom. all i have to do every day is play games or watch anime, or else the memories will start creeping back. even that doesnt work 100% of the time. i found the old skype conversations between me and my former best friend today
>>24096831
Oh yeah, that stuff is hard. Whenever I get bored I get the urge to check out their steam profiles and see what's changed. It's unhealthy and weird but I don't even know how to stop it. I can't just not use steam or something easy.
>tfw lost all my friends after dropping out
>haven't talked to anyone in months
>can't make online friends, gave up on trying
I'm kinda happy now though. I found a tiny community on otherchan and it's nice talking to the people there occasionally. Even if I don't usually talk about anything important it is pretty close to having friends and I really like trying to give people advice.
>>24096921
i just want them to forgive me, i dont want them to think im a bad person. i cant fucking control myself
Same here. One didn't even invite me to his wedding along with two other people. Another is married to a Mexican girl so he gets dragged along with too many family activities, another got a girlfriend and doesn't have time in the year to see me once, and the other guy seems a bit cynical.
It has been a bit over ten years past high school, I don't think I could have imagined this but that is life and all I can do is deal with it, even if I am often alone.
>>24096972
How long has it been? I waited too long to decide what you're trying to do, so it'd be pointless, but if it's been less than a year and they really were your friends, I'm sure they could forgive you.
>>24096942
That's one cute anime girl senpai, what show is she from?
>>24097110
ahahahahah no
its been 9 months and they probibly hate me still, in fact they probably joke about how much of a bitch i am
and why would they forgive me?
>cut off all friends after graduation
>they all try and get in touch with me
>change phone numbers
>delete the few I have left on steam
>live in comfort not having to worry about any rl relationships
>make all my new friends on line
It's a good life if you're someone who prefers being alone.
>>24097159
Yuru Yuri
>>24097237
I don't think online friends counts as alone.
>>24097208
Try and reverse the situation. If you were in that group of friends and one of them broke off from the group, would you still accept them if they tried to come back?
Another good method is only first trying to re-befriend one of them, the one who either liked you the most or is the most sincere. What do you have to lose? Them saying no?
>>24097237
Top lel, you're just afraid of intimacy and disappointing people.
>>24095888
you have to be the one you want.
I'm not asking you to like yourself
just be the ideal person you dream of
that's the only option you have left
>>24097261
Maybe you're right; I just really didn't like being dragged out to social events and a little of what this anon said >>24097277
>>24097269
i cant go through rejection again
I don't need friends, I got you guys.
>>24096597
haha holy shit, when I made friends on mmos i started to stalk them too. i had a lot of autism back then.
>>24097369
You just have to accept whatever you chose. Just know that the longer you wait the harder it will get.
I've got a few good friends, we don't talk all the time but when we do it's like nothing has changed. I have a few girls I talk to online as well but they are usually busy.
But basically I consider you all my main friends.
>>24095888
You can't have them back. Once you leave them behind or they leave you behind a feeling of connection is lost and you slowly become detached from each other.
You're only sensible solution is to grit your teeth while you do your best to hold back the tears and look for new friends elsewhere.
>>24097729
but i want the connection back, we were so close we had so much fun together i cant just let them go mentaly, and i cant go crawling back to then online
wow, you guys are lucky.
>>24097921
I know anon-kun, it sucks but we just gotta accept it and move on. Losing friends is part of life just like making them you know. Going back for them can result in more pain/shock then you'd want to deal with and you'd still end up losing them again in the end. I know because I've lost many friends as well due to various factors.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gnIZ7RMuLpU
>>24097277
This is absolutely right, at least in my case. I've been aware of this since I was 13 or so, whenever someone gets too close (which usually happens after 1 or 2 years of knowing them and doing shit with them) I just feel the urge to cut them off. Friendship after friendship, always the same thing.
Nowadays I don't even try to get friends in the first place, though. I know it won't lead anywhere.
>>24098145
im only 18, this is the first time this has happend to me, i cant control myself and my impulses, ive been suicidal for years and being with that group was one of the first times in my life where i legitimately felt like i was worth something
>>24095888
My best friend left me because I was a giant insufferable asshole, I know the feeling well OP
>>24098996
I'm sorry to hear that anon. I hope things change for you soon. I lost many friends after incidents I'd rather not discuss and I've thought of ending my pathetic existence as well.
But you have to have hope. Things can and do get better. The solution to losing friends is unfortunately to make new ones. You don't even have to make them IRL. The internet is always here for you.
Anyway you are one of my beloved anons and I'm very happy to chat with you. You make 4chan alive and I'm glad you visit here. I'd feel emptier if you ever left for good so please don't die. I'm busy most of the time but I visit 4chan every now and then. I'll always be here if you can find me roaming the /g/ or /r9k/ boards.
Stop moping you losers, at least we have each other. I swear to god I would have killed myself years ago had I never found this dum sekrit klub. I love you all :3
>>24099560
>:3
Do you have to be such a fag about it?
>>24099560
same here anon, you disgusting waste of oxygen. I love you too :3
>>24099604
Yeah yeah we love you too anon-kun.
Friends always seem to stop giving a shit about you once they have a gf. It's sad but it wouldn't be consistent if women didn't ruin literally everything in life.
>>24099688
>say you love me
>next thread you'll be calling me a faggot
I'm in an abusive relationship with Anonymous
Telling your friends you love them: Yay or nay?
>>24099852
nay, not something even close friends could really say to each other. It belongs in serious relationships.
>>24099817
This is unfortunately true. If your friend gets a girlfriend you are most likely going to have little communication with them or no communication at all. Growing up fucking sucks.
>>24095888
I do too desu senpai.
I had like 3 really good friends in HS but now we've drifted away. I don't think I really even have a reason to still live here in this shitty city; might as well run away and live out my life of being a bartender in Canada.
what are friends like
>>24100048
They suck, I don't think they ever actually liked me
>>24100048
The power of friendship is great. You can't overcome evil in any other way.
>>24100048
Friends are like cats. You give them attention and they stick around like parasites. Eventually you have to cut off the toxic ones (potheads/druggies).
The difference is you can't keep them around like you can cats, they don't need you for food/shelter and will naturally leave you behind to pursue a relationship or something.
I lost all my friends after high school and one even got murdered by drug dealers. I still visit his grave sometimes. All I have now are the 4 cats my mom adopted when I was like 16. They are the best companions I've ever had. Even though they do scratch and meow like no tomorrow I still love them with all my soul.
Anyway in the end you will come to the conclusion that you don't need friends after you keep losing and making them. You are then free to live without them or put up with their shit. As for me fuck people, my 4 cats give me enough love to not hang myself so I'm fine being alone with them.
