>Moved here in 2008, I was 18
I turned 26 this month and feel I lost my youth
I did NOTHING remarkable since I turned 19 except, a shitty engineers degree.
I have ZERO friends here, and probably will never have.
Every night I cry myself to sleep, thinking of what could have been
Miss playing games and/or watching anime with my high school friends (over in my country, they are almost all married now)
I don't even care about being a virgin, that is just too small compared to living in almost complete loneliness
I feel suicidal at least once every fortnight, but care too much about family's feelings
Tried SSRI's and didn't help
I don't belong here, but I don't belong there anymore either....
At this point I feel like I got desensitized, nothing causes me a strong emotion anymore (good or bad)...
i'm going bald too
I can keep going, but it's going to be a waste of time since I'm going to get banned.
I just don't post on /b/...
pic was taken by my best friend with a shitty phone camera circa 2007, guess the country
>>69218840
That's what you get for leaving Philippines
>>69218840
Where is it OP
>>69218840
Stop bring a little bitch. Plenty of men have dealt with worse things than you. Men have survived being stranded in harsh environments, like deserts and cold climates, for hundreds of days and even years. WITH NO HUMAN CONTACT.
And you're whining and crying yourself to sleep over a bit of loneliness in a nice comfy country. Nothing is stopping you from making friends, you're not in a desert or in siberia, you're surrounded by people.
Fucking hell, why are men so weak minded these days? Grow a pair mate.
>>69218900
try again
>>69218942
guess
Happiness is something you have to work at.
>>69219075
I was always emotionally (and mentally) unstable.
This shit just broke me.
Also, when I left my country I was going through some deep depression already.
>>69218840
I can be your friend, no homo.
>>69218840
>I turned 26 this month and feel I lost my youth
lel
>>69219272
thanks, but although Australia is south of Germany, it shares no border (contrary to popular belief).
In all seriousness, online interaction helps me little.
I spend all my free time here and other boards/sites....
>>69219428
If you don't play serious before the 25 deadline, you will be a failure, kid
>>69219235
get a hobby and meet some people, go to the gym
I'm not going to guess the country faggot. If you want to tell me, tell me. Otherwise go to r9k
>>69219526
There is a reason I don't specify the country.
I tried many hobbies, used to go to the gym.
I can never get close to people, is like if my inner self wants to punish me for leaving what I had.
The country is Mexico.
https://www.google.com.au/maps/place/Templo+de+San+Antonio+de+Padua/@21.885265,-102.291512,3a,75y,90t/data=!3m8!1e2!3m6!1s24878980!2e1!3e10!6s%2F%2Flh3.googleusercontent.com%2Fproxy%2FVMiFEHz0XbxXnJlrH6lb1TGT70lhzLt_4ki6AUxvgRy61uTgjcyNigP3-X8i1nwzJmN4T3Ofa2w4YmU6n0wxkkcVCA62JA%3Dw86-h114!7i2448!8i3264!4m2!3m1!1s0x8429ee65abbd28af:0x4980ad55b56d0870!6m1!1e1
>>69220010
Go back to Australia then if you dislike it
>>69220010
Well, its understandable you wouldnt feel like home over here.
>>69219446
You play any vidya? we could play a bit through steam or something.
>>69220268
I play TF2 some times
You sound like me, OP.
Come to my house and play vidya.
>>69219519
well thats just flat out wrong. and what you mean by serious?
>>69218840
You should read "The Way of Men".
>>69220361
I mean, you can't really use your spare time on shit like vidya and animu.
You have to work fulltime, and take care of responsibilities...
>>69220333
Sydney?
>>69220518
Adelaide
>>69220554
fugg
need to sleep, work at 7am
>>69220331
me too, from time to time. really havent in a while. hit me up with your steam id ill add you after work.
>>69220518
taking care of the "important" shit doesnt mean you couldnt focus on hobbies and shit. I work full time, got a gf and 2 cats and my group of boys whom I know and am friends with since age 7. now were all somewhat 26-29 years old, everyone does his thing business ways, sometimes they interfere which is fun and good for networking. but all in all they are still the same airhead muppets who want to get drunk and stoned and play football in the park.
>>69221084
Thanks bro.
I must sleep now.
Have been keeping less than 6 hours for a few months.
Hey OP, even though youve probs gone to bed.
I am point for point in an identical situation as you, except 2 years younger and never tried SSRI's.
The desensitisation is helping me for now.. I just don't feel anything anymore. Not thinking about the future and living day by day is keeping me going I think
>>69218840
>not your blog
