Im just helpless.
I am 20, got off from Highschool with 15.
I got bullied by Muslims, this is no lie there were 95% Muslims in my School, the first day i got there they bullied me with questions like this:
" Why do you walk alone anon don't you have friends?"
"You don't believe in Allah? What?! Are you a faggot?"
And so on.
Since then in didn't go to school, and developed social anxiety.
I was just gaming, and reading Wikipedia in this times.
I learned so much on the Internets, i can't believe it. But that doesn't matter in real life, they want testimony.
They think im stupid and know nothing at all.. they don't even give me a chance to prove myself.
Now my disorder is so big that i can't even go infront the door, and to top it all a refugee camp got opened in my street.
If i try to get out it suddenly all feels like a dream, unreal and weird, it's if you are drunk and dreaming at the same time.
Now i drink, my mother buys it for me.. she's an angel but she suffers under me..my sister too.
I don't know what do do pol, i see all these ads with happy young people like me, studying in Colleges, i want that too.
I don't have friends, none.
I had everything before that fucking school, i had alot of friends, had girlfriends, everything, but that shit school just destroyed me.
Now im to Redpilled to do any of this again, i could have had it all /pol/ ..all.
Im sitting in a big house, have enough money for ever because of my rich grandparrents, but i can't do SHIT with it.
I was so normal, and now i am a neet faggot, wich is redpilled but what does this even mean when in can't do anything with it. When im driving with my mom. just to get relaxed, i see all this normies, and i hate them.
I was like them, but now i hate everyone.
What should i do /pol/ am i doomed for an life of suffering? Watching all these bad things about blue pilled faggots on the Internet?
Should i kill myself? Because i can't see a way out off this.
:(
>>57316834
Move to a whiter place, you apparently have money.
>>57316834
You reap what you sow, germoney
>>57316834
Move to switzerland. Way less shit skins and you speak German.
>>57316834
>"You don't believe in Allah? What?! Are you a faggot?"
>>57316834
We are your friends anon. I suggest taking up a high impact sport though like cage fighting or something. Maybe stick fighting.
Sorry the mudslimes gave you a hard time. Don't worry they'll get theirs
>>57316834
my god I hope a shitskin says that to me on day, I will fucking bite his face off right then and there.
>>57316834
Wow OP truly is a faggot.
Go write your blogs somewhere else.
Jesus you germans really were castrated after ww2
>>57316834
>They think im stupid and know nothing at all.. they don't even give me a chance to prove myself.
Average Arab IQ: 84
Source: https://www.questia.com/library/journal/1P3-2018704731/the-comparison-of-mean-iq-in-muslim-and-non-muslim
>>57316834
>"You don't believe in Allah? What?! Are you a faggot?"
This happened to me also; only difference is they were Christians & it was "God". Three of them assaulted me while I was taking a piss.
Wish I could say I didn't get my ass kicked; but at least they never got the answer or fear they wanted.
Hang on Hans , i knew a guy who didn't go out to the street in 2 years , literally he didn't leave his house for 2 straight years , he had to seek proffesional help. Now he has a girlfriend and isn't afraid anymore of life.
Maybe you could try moving to a different place , also stop drinking ... trust me, that shit will only accelerate and worsen your depression.
>>57316834
Get fit and join the german porn industry.
You'll get to piss and shit on women, a lot probably muslim and also niggers.
I'm basing my advice in internet memes that I don't know if are real. But I'm sure memes don't lie, so you can fully trust me :^)
>>57319347
>implying it wasnt a group of autists who had a grudge with christianity and wanted to smear its name.
My man.
>>57316834
Quit drinking and start meditating.
It may sound strange but meditation can help you in a way a psychiatrist only wishes he could do.
>>57319798
Nope. Just good old red-blooded Christian 'Murican faggots.
The time will come /pol/ that you will see that everything is pointless you do. You will never be happy in this world, this world is hell, we are all dead. We live, we get born again, we live this hell again. It's a never ending circle, all the fun you experience isn't fun. It's just some shit in your brain telling you it is. You are degenerate. People who are having fun aren't they are normal, because they don't know the truth.
They don't know the dark side of life the never ending madness which will eat your soul if you don't do anything what society tells you to, or what you are ment to be to do.
Humans aren't supposed to be to have Internet, or sitting all day long, or eating everything they want't it's all about survival.
Anything other is degenerate. It's all pointless and one day you will see this, im going to end my life now, and hope i don't get reborn again. This is the true hell, and if the Human race doesn't change we will die out - sooner or later.
Bye /pol/ it was a beautiful time here.
Don't nigga, at least die doing some insane radical shit instead of hanging yourself like a pussy
Join Bundeswehr
>>57320306
This is why I converted to NEET.
Fuck it all.
>>57320558
^Also, do this instead.
>mfw muslims bullying whites will just create more Anders Breiviks
>>57320306
Don't do it. Life is of course INHERENTLY meaningless, BUT THIS IS A GOOD THING.
The lack of any divinely ordained meaning to life grants us the freedom of endowing it with our own meaning. While your actions may inevitably fade into the obscurity of the past, your experiences still matter because they are yours! You don't live for anyone or anything other than yourself and what you decide is important. You can still be happy.
I understand a lot of what you say. People going out drinking at bars and wasting their lives and it was never 'fun' for me. But true happiness lies within your own mind. Sit down, meditate, and experience your true self.
>>57316834
No, if you're white, you need to straighten yourself up, find a white girl, have children , and fucking save your God damn race.
You are the product of billions of years of fucking winners who fought the environment and predators to breed. Quit your God damn crying and help us out.
>>57320306
I was in a similar sitation like you when I was 18.
Then I moved there
http://www.lietz-nordsee-internat.de/de/profil/aufnahme.html
and had the best time in my life. Don´t know if they take you with 20, but you could try.
If not there are many options. Go to a doctor, make your Abi at Abendschule, study at Fernuni, read Psalm 23 etc. But don´t kill yourself!
Pull a Breivik. You can do it, OP. I believe in you.
>>57317531
>Germanon
>Move to a whiter country
Brilliant idea there, dipshit.
>>57323261
>Implying Iceland isn't whiter
>>57320306
Man don't do it. If you're still there monitoring your thread, please don't do it. Don't kill yourself.
>>57326022
This.
>can't even go infront the door
Promethazin can help. Write an email to an Neurologe describing your situation. Ask him for a sample-package or a recipe for your first way to him.
You can also call Telefonseelsorge: Rufnummer 0800 - 111 0 111 or 0800 - 111 0 222
