I am lost
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I am a lost man /out/. I have struggled with feeling severely depressed and suicidal and other times very anxious for many years now. I have just a hundred bucks and enough camping gear to survive 40 degree weather. I have a job, however I blew my shoulder out yesturday and won't be able to work any more doing manual labor. So with my previously stated mental condition talking to people type jobs is completely out of the question and now apparently physical jobs are out of the question too. But I have camping gear. So I guess, if anyone has any tips they can offer, I'll be walking across america as it's the last thing I feel that I can do and honestly maintain
>>644606
Pic is apparently upside down world
>>644608
It's Australia
>>644606
Your "mental conditions" and victim complex are 100% self inflicted. There are plenty of other entry level jobs you qualify for that you could take and would provide steady income for someone your age. You are not lost. Your are disillusioned by media and social media and whatever other outside sources you are letting effect you. You expect you should have all these great things by now but dont. And as a result you have alienated yourself and become reclusive. This is not the answer. Develop a plan and move forward.
You know what you need to do to improve your mental/physical/financial state. It is what runs through our minds every day. If I just did "x" every day or took "x" class or pursued "x" job I would be on my way to real improvement. The difference between average people and successful people is that they actually do "x" while the average Joe is content dreaming about what it might be like if he did "x".
It will be hard at first. You will want to give up every minute. But then something amazing starts to happen. You realize it's helping you and making you happy. You start taking pride in what you do and it gives you a sense of purpose. Whether it's accounting or making wooden spoons, working on cars to hanging line for the cable companies. Then you start getting good at it and developing it as a skill, interest and profession. Along with this comes better compensation.
"I'm a great believer in luck, and I find the harder i work the more I have of it"
Go make some luck.
>>644617
Yeah thanka captain americ I totally understand and comprehend that. I have worked my goddamn ass off through my life and never had anything easy. I know about tearing apart mental barriers. I have a harder head than anyone youll meet and out right I am powerless to depression. I am no coward. I am not lazy. This is a trance state sort of depression.
>>644621
Well good luck walking across America then you hard headed son of a bitch.
Don't die, or become homeless. All though the three (walking across america, homelessness and dying) are pretty synonymous.
Good luck and godspeed.
>>644624
Yeah the half hearted goal is to die somehow
>>644617
fuck where did you get this picture? american living in schleswig, germany here and I have never seen that beast.
>>644606
>>644643
/thread
>>644606
How do you get from Australia to the USA with only 100 dollars?
>>644685
sorry to derail thread but just found the webpage for this image...can't make this shit up. car was driven by a man who called himself god's rambo as he smuggled goods into bosnia from germany in the early 90s.
>>644770
Yeah that camaro has a crazy history
>>644754
wew lad
>>644801
U fookin wot M8?
The only purpose in life is to be happy without having other people suffer to attain it.
If you feel like this is an impossible achievement i can't blame you for giivng up.
>>644621
Try shrooms while out... or dont.
Maybe it will help, or maybe turn you into an insane person.
>Shrooms helped me deal and overcome my fathers death
i wish you the very best mate. never forget that the worst times, especially mentally, are nothing but a survival contest. never stop the fight.
The way you speak about depression, how you are powerless over it, how it basically is there despite working hard, how you assume no one can understand... that's all very normal. I know it's not easy to accept right now, but I really do understand how you feel.
Depression is confusing to people who do not have it. They assume you can control it, that you can do happy things and be happy. That just isn't the case. Depression is when you have everything you need to be happy, and still can't be happy. It is an illness, one that there is no easy cure for.
The problem many depressed people have is that even when they make positive changes, they still remain depressed. That's because it truly syarts, and ends within yourself. Your situation may make you sad, but it is inside you that makes you depressed.
It may be the hardest step, but talk to someone. I promise you even one therapy session will help. They do not judge, and they can help. Even an antidepressant can help short term. It is not easy to fix, but medication can help "break through" the wall of depression. The goal is not to fix you with medicine, it's to get you past that wall so that you can work on yourself without medication.
Driftin across the country is not the right idea. It is a dark, cold, and lonely path, one that you should not take with your state of mind. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
There are jobs out there, and even with a bad shoulder, there are jobs you can do. Don't let an injury decide your future.
Step one is to admit you need help. It will suck to admit it, but after you do finally accept that, you will be able to start getting better.
You can do this.
>>644606
> no manual labor
Should have gone to college.
Note to all " I wanna be homeless" types:
Stay in school.
Save money.
Don't be a homo.
Make a carreer before making babbies.
Save money.
Buy the best gear you can afford.
Be self-sufficeint before hopping a train to nowhere.
Get councilling.
Don't do drugs.
Stop fapping to idealized porn.
Eat your veggies.
And do what your parents said!
(and don' be a homo)
Perhaps seek treatment? Get on disability temporarily (it's fairly easy even with mental conditions) and get your mental health sorted out, then try to apply for jobs that are least demanding for you that would provoke your anxiety. Other than that, I don't think your walk across America will accomplish much, I could see it exacerbating your problem. Get treatment.
>>644892
Depression is forever. You can fight it, and I do, but it's always there. A dark ember, a fucking brain worm of sadness.
I have a house and a dog and a girl who loves me. And every night I sit up for hours hoping to die in a car crash the next day. Life is pain forever with depression, and no amount of money or love or fame or hobo hiking trips will fix anything.
Do whatever you want, OP. You know we are here forever.
>>644918
> fuck me
Kill me now.
>>644617
You honestly think its easy for someone with a mental condition to "get over it" just because you tell them to do so? NIGGUH! they tell themselves that EVERY FUCKING DAY. if it worked they wouldn't be having those issues.
God damn you're such a fucking little cunt aren't you? if you think you're helping, you need to go see a professional because you've got deep seeded mental issues yourself. Maybe daddy issues, or appearance ?
>>644936
No, anon is right.
Anybody wit "issues in thier tissues" is just being a self-involved little pity partier.
Find God, find a girl and ruin her life.
You'll feel better about yourself when you can start fucking people over and laughing about it!
Until then, you're just a sap that no one will ever love or even like.
Do yourself in or learn to hate others harder than you hate yorself.
This is how sociopaths are made.
>>644941
This is the stupidest 4chan post I have read in my 7 years of browsing.
>>644945
> and yet true
Stop thinking. The minute you do that, your depression will vanish.
>>644945
As though sociopaths aren't as fucked up as OP and he isn't are mass murderer waiting to happen?
>>644606
Hey, amigo. Maybe you can loom into finding community of homesteaders that will welcome you in? I suffer from anxiety and I have a few medical conditions that would make manual labor out of the question and a few sped ed classes in high school so college doesn't seem like an a acceptable option. (If you have adhd or were terrible at math you got placed in sped ed) So I got really into homesteading and living life much like the old folks here. By the standards of the world you're poor, but I see it as being rich with freedom. Grow and can your garden. Barter with people. Help people out. Receive help. Raise rabbits for meat. So on and so forth.
Or just fap on chaturbait nightly for enough money to stay alive.
Either or.
Best of luck.
Get a paper route delivering newspapers or become a pizza delivery boy... you can do THAT...
>>644971
This.
Start meditating and living in the moment.
>>644936
I'm not saying to get over it, but to press on. We all have our problems and you having whatever dosent make you a special snowflake. But you letting it keep you down is pitiful. If you want to play the victim go ahead but when there are people with down syndrome who hold better jobs than you and people with arms that play guitars with their fucking feet better than you can with hands, it's time to suck it up and stop being a pathetic pity grabbing bitch.
Do what you want, stay angry. My life goes on and so does yours. I choose to not make mine difficult for myself, even when things get hard.
Glhf, kiddo.
>>644948
Not true in any way shape or form.
>>645584
I think that, although you may be right, you're missing the whole idea about what depression is.
The thing is, your solution WILL work for someone that is sad. If you're super sad and really down, you're righr, just pull yourself up and snap out of it. You can get better just by changing your attitude.
True depression is different. I'm talking about clinical depression. With true depression, it really is beyond your control. You can do all kinds of positive things, but depression still looms. It truly can be a matter of "chemical imbalance". A matter of lack of seratonin, something physically wrong. It's not much different than type 1 diabetes. You can just choose to not be a diabetic, you just are.
Fortunately chronic depression is treatable. You need to understand it's more than just being sad. It is something that CAN be treated without medication, although medication has been proven to be effective. Therapy and counseling can help improve the way your brain works, can help rationalize and develop thoughts appropriately, so that you can work around depression and be happy.
Like another anon said, it is a lifelong affliction, however you do NOT have to suffer from it for life. You absolutely can fix it. Many people have been in your shoes, and many of them are now happy. Unfortunately many of them are also dead.
You are not weak, you do not have to take the easy way out. You can feel better. I promise you sc/out/ that you can do this.
I know because I did. I was there. My next step was the same as you, to give up, to disappear. I didnt. I stayed strong.
I'm happier than I ever have been now. I own a home, have a cool wofe with a baby on the way, and a cool ass fat dog. 5 years ago I was ready to die, today I can't wait for tomorrow.
You can do this.
>>645592
>>
Significant typo here, meant to say:
You CAN'T just choose to be a diabetic, you just are.
How long does it take to drown ?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M_azCIe_0Kk
life is still worth living, my dog has made me understand that, love is nice
>>645593
If you drink a12 pack of coke a day and are a fat lazy fuck then you are choosing diabetes
>>645586
The power or your rebuttal is...
Well, it's nothing, underwhelming... maybe.
Sick people should be locked up and lobotomized for thier own safety and the safety of others. Reread this thread, there are some FUCKED UP PEOPLE and they don't "just get better", 90% of the time thier psychosis gets worse!
That's why sick people kill thier parents and eat them.
>>644606
OP, I am a 100% serious about this advice: buy a bottle of Magnesium Oxide - 400 mg and start taking 2 tablets daily. It turns out that severe lack of magnesium can cause depression. Take it for at least a month before you decide that it doesn't work.
I thought this advice was total garbage, until I got a gastrointestinal condition that stopped me from absorbing magnesium, then I found out that hypomagnesium-induced depression is real. The best source of magnesium is green, leafy vegetables, which most of us don't get enough of in our diets.
Pro-tip: I'm about to become a pharmacist is a couple of months.
>>645983
I said type 1 diabetes. You're thinking of type 2 diabetes. There's a big difference.
You don't get type 1 diabetes from drinking coke. You get it because you're born with it.
People hear "diabetes" and they think it's a choice because someone is fat. Diabetes isn't just a disease of obesity. Most type 1 diabetics are not heavy at all since they are extremely restricted on what they can eat.
This is now a schleswig- thread.
>>648179
No one is born with diabetes you mong
>>648191
Alahu ackbar m8. Happy jihad!
>>648202
Not that Anon, but there have been children with type 1 diabetes put on insulin pumps at 10 days of age. Type 1 and type 2 diabetes are significantly different; type 2 is generally diet/activity based, type 1 can be autoimmune or just due to a lack of significant numbers of beta cells in the pancreas. So you can be born with type 1 diabetes, you educated /b/tard.
>>648202
Type 1 is considered juvenile onset diabetes. You generally develop symptoms as a child. It's not based on your diet, or your weight.
You should educate yourself before posting.
>>648242
Listen sperg, the point is that it's developed at an early age. Call it "born with it" or whatever, you develop it young with no way to avoid it.
>>648350
If you break your arm at ten are you really born with a broken arm?
>>644606
Considering the same thing.
Where are you starting from?
I'd assume the west coast.
I'm leaving from NY.
Maybe I'll see you in the middle.
>>648366
You sir are an idiot.
Getting an injury is not the same as being born with a pancreas that does not produce enough insulin.
The symptoms sometimes don't develop until childhood because a child's body does not require as much insulin, and the pancreas can keep up with production.
That doesn't mean the pancreas is fine, then gets injured and is bad. The pancreas was always bad, the child just didn't show symptoms.
Symptoms do not = disease. You can be symptom free and still have AIDS, you can be symptom free and be a child diabetic.
>>648978
If I lose my hair at 65 was I born bald?
If I'm a gay faggot with AIDS was I born with AIDS?
>>644770
danish guy driving supplies from Germany to Bosnia. There's plans for a movie maybe next year!
>>648980
I was going to respond but you would just say something like
>oh were you born with that iPhone lodged up your ass
>>648242
They are one and the same: BORN with a dysfunctional pancreas that produces less insulin than it should, which produces diabetic SYMPTOMS when the growing body's need for insulin outstrips the ability of the (dysfunctional from birth) pancreas to produce said insulin.
Maybe you should just remove yourself from the gene pool before someone inherits (is born with) your stupidity and then gets beaten up (the later-occurring symptom) for saying something stupid to someone who has less patience than I.
>>649091
Jokes on you m8, I have 3 kids.
>mfw I was born with 3 kids
>>649113
That's a shame. Quickly, now: tie them to the couch, douse everything with kero, and set your home ablaze! It's the only whey.
>>645592
Don't try to reason with the unreasonable, just smile, nod and say "oh yes that's very nice dear"
>>649163
°nods politely° that's very nice dear
