I'm having a really hard time in my life, everything is going to shit, and nobody gives a fuck. I'm really thinking about suicide. Could you send me some really fucking sad songs so i can off myself or just cry a lot and get over it? Thanks.
here you go anon
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7kqI5fAlv5E
it's pretty
>>65521020
Thanks man. That's the stuff i'm really looking for. Shit that i will listen while looking through a window and think "today i fucking die" and then i arrive home and cry like a pussy.
here you go:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DlMpdBJLo4o
feel better soon man :)
Holocaust and Kangaroo by Big Star are both insanely desolate and beautiful
>>65520976
What the fuck is wrong with the new Spongebob show? That image is so disturbing.
Pleasantly surprised there are no dumb edgy responses by now. Good job /mu/.
Also, for OP:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uIPGxyGuxDw
Rest of the album is death metal, but this one piece is acoustic.
>>65521173
Horrendous is hipster friendly tho. I'm surprised they aren't /mu/core.
>>65521119
There's a funny story to that image.
My ex-girlfriend started chatting with me, and i asked her how i was doing, and this image fucking pops in my facebook. I answered "yeah, doing fine" and she fucking said "I feel way better now that we broke up, our relationship was really consuming us." I downloaded this spongebob image and never touched it.
3 months later and i'm here.
Listen to the whole thing
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IF6RaCLO7n0
>>65521194
Ha, yeah. Maybe because Anareta is more intense than your average prog-death album? Or maybe just the band name?
>>65521173
I'm not surprised. I know people can be assholes and i'd just ignore them anyway, but in the deep end dude, we're all fucked up. Also, thanks a lot guys. I'm listening to everything, and it's making me feel like a piece of shit (which means way better)
>>65521227
Good god, i'm loving this.
What's up friend-o? If you're having second thoughts you can rant. But I ain't here to stop you if you really want to do this.
Xiu Xiu
>>65521293
All chihuahuas deserve to be shot in the head at point blank
>>65521416
why the fuck
>>65521293
I've had depression before. My best friend and cousin was chatting with me about this trip to Japan that he was planning for us to do. When we saw some really cheap plane tickets, and i told him to rush to his house and buy them (He had a credit card) and so he went...he got fucking ran over by a bus (It was the driver's fault) and died 20 days later on the hospital. Motherfucker was a fighter. Also, he was kinda living with me because my aunt is insane. Literally insane.
Anyway, i've coped with it and every aspect of this shitty life we live in, I've got cheated while mourning the death of my grandfather by my ex-ex-girlfriend and i just realized i'm not happy at all. I have my little moments, some times i laugh about some silly stuff and probably that's the only thing keeping me alive. My ex-girlfriend broke up with me last week, because, in her words, "only sees me as a friend, and not a boyfriend anymore."
I've been through shit. I know how to handle these situations, but i'm so tired of everything. I feel so fucking empty.
>>65521416
My chihuahua is fuckin awesome, sounds like you need to be cured of your autism
Also, sorry about grammar. English is not my native language.
>>65521501
I'm sorry your cousin died that way :/ that must be awful. Life can be super hard, and I've yet to see it get better. I don't think it ever gets "better," but imo it's worth fighting through the bad times so you get those short-lived good times. I hope things go better for you, in life or in death.
>>65521588
Thanks a lot, dude. I don't have balls to kill myself, so don't worry about that. Fuck this life, tho.
>>65520976
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=njKaPEOyIpw
>>65521692
Explain
>>65521416
Jajaja el perro malo
>>65520976
>everything is going to shit, and nobody gives a fuck
here's when you need to realize that NO ONE gives a fuck about you at any point in your life, 'cept for maybe your family and close ones, but they're only there for you to an extent, it's up to you to make shit happen for yourself. Maybe it's because i don't know the context here, but usually depression is manageable if you actually want to get better. 90% of people just give up and keep on wallowing in self pity and "oh woe is me, no one cares"
guess what, no one cares to begin with, so the earlier on that you realize this, the easier it gets for you. This also correlates to insecurities and worrying what people think about you. People are too caught up with their own lives to give a shit at the end of the day. Btw, staying off 4chan can do wonders for you.
>>65521293
>>65521692
lol what is wrong with you
>>65521227
>SAAAYYYYY
>>65521501
Don't ever let a female get you so down you think about suicide. Check the pic related.
>>65521842
All these things you said, i'm pretty aware of them.
I'm well versed in being kicked in the balls by people. Well, some of them legitimately care, believe it or not. I've had many friends who stayed all night with me crying like a fucking baby. I put some context in >>65521501
I'm just tired man.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CPbWMvQwroo
>>65521946
If things only were so simple as a "breakup' in my life...
>>65521989
Pay close attention to #6.
>>65522051
He is right in almost everything, really. I'm 25 now, and everytime i felt angry and did stupid shit (pick up random woman for casual sex, drinking and partying hardcore, told my ex-ex everything that made her a horrible person, and told her to fuck off) i ended up regretting more than just staying home.
>>65520976
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hYThBBhxrTw
sorry it's not going the way you want it to, anon. do you mind if i ask what's going on?
>>65520976
life is just a beautiful game anon.don't push reset yet.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R5DJENl__ZE
>>65522238
Well, >>65521501
>>65522312
yeah, i read it after i posted it. sorry about everything keeping you down, man. maybe take a day or two off of work to sit down and think, you know? take some time for yourself.
>>65520976
Wallowing in self pity isn't good for the soul so here's something uplifting that still makes me cry. It's probably the most bittersweet thing I've ever heard.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=pA5nji5xJBw
>>65521966
yeah i posted it before i read >>65521501 (woops)
Still though, it gets worse before it gets easier. For me, I had developed depression at around 13 or 14 and it took cancer taking away my ability to walk at 17 and then having to train myself to walk again to realize where i was at in this world. But at that point i had missed out on my young-adult years, lacking social skills and only learning how to drive at the age of 21. I'm really only just getting on my feet now and have finished a trade so that I can actually make a good paying career, and i'm as happy as a guy could be who's gone through all that shit. I've had multiple opportunities to leave the hospital in my wheel chair and drown myself in the pond outside, but there's just something that keeps pushing you through, and every now and then I'll still feel like a huge bag of shit and that I'd be better off dead. I'll still get up monday morning to go to work and look forward to that 40 oz of liquor on the weekends and i look forward to little shit like that gets me by. There's no single ultimate feeling of joy or completeness in our lives. It's a collection of small things, no matter how small we keep always do end up keep fighting to survive. You might be tired but you're a warrior just like your friend, battling different demons but demons nonetheless. Fight the good fight brother.
Med student here. I'm FIVE YEARS behind the rest of my classmates. That means people the same age as me are already finishing their specialty, while I'm stuck in this eternal shithole called med school. I think about dropping out every single day of the semester. Whenever something slightly shitty happens, like a bad grade, or a classmate talking shit about me/my age/how retarded I am behind my back, I immediately plunge into a depressive and suicidal state. The only thing that makes me feel a tiny bit better is music and anime. I can understand your feelings of hopelessness and I have no moral authority to tell you not to kill yourself, since I myself think about sleeping and never waking up again very frequently. In fact, I have a test tomorrow and all I've done these last 6 hours is browsing 4chan. I mean, how much of a piece of shit does one have to be to do that? We never seem to learn from our mistakes, no matter how hard it hits us. What I can tell you is that looking for help is half the way to recovery. I recommend you to go to a psychiatrist and start medication immediately. Suicidal thoughts are a very alarming symptom and are not to be underestimated. I've tried to kill myself 4 times and here I am, slowly but steadily passing the courses. There are even days I feel grateful for failing those suicide attempts.
tl;dr 1) good days are waiting for you, they will definitely happen, trust me on this one. But before that, 2) reach out for professional help! It is very hard to come up with a solution by yourself
>>65522428
This is the best thing i've ever read about life. Thanks for everything dude. Shit like that makes me believe there's a fucking great reward after we beat this life. It's really a cycle.
You get kicked in the balls, your balls grow harder, you stand up and you get kicked harder.
Well, those balls will not get harder on their own.
>>65522428
>we keep always do end up keep
i derped a bit there but you get the gist of it lmao
>>65522478
Thanks so much, dude. Shit, i feel like crying. So many feels here. By medical assistance you mean therapy?
>>65522551
Glad I could help my man.
>>>/r9k/
>>65522478
>good days are waiting for you, they will definitely happen
Lying's a sin, anon.
>>65522478
it gets better dood, keep working you'll be making bank soon
Literally anything by Elliott Smith
The saddest album is probably his s/t
sad songs are good for you, they make you feel less lonely, because someone else is just as sad as you
my three favourites when I was at the lowest point in my life were these
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GNr4JtaOQS0
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oeHNkg0L9Jw
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kt4OytOuCQM
>>65522693
>Could you send me some really fucking sad songs
>not mu
fuck off
>>65522655
Yes. Suicidal thoughts, changes in sleeping and eating patterns, feeling like a literal shit (asthenia/anhedonia) for more than two weeks, are some of the symptoms associated with depression. Two symptoms are enough to diagnose depression and strongly indicates that the problem has a biochemical component. If you have access to a psychiatrist, GO. He will explain to you in further detail what pill(s) you'll start with after he interviews you and gets to know your psychopathology in greater detail. Depression treatment effects kick in after 2 to 4 weeks, so don't be impatient when a few days after starting medication you don't feel any substantial changes. You'll probably feel cynical about continuing the treatment, but if you hang in there for at least 2 weeks, you'll start feeling a change.
>>65522693
I am speaking from experience. Even if I'm 5 fucking years behind my peers, I will never ever forget that day I passed the hardest course in the curriculum. Good days do come. One of the things that keeps me alive is the expectation for other good days to come. They are certainly rare, but when they do come, you never forget that happiness you feel, even if it's temporary.
>>65523039
I see... Thanks mate. I'll definitively try.
>>65522858
Exactly. Thanks man. Raw songs
Instead of committing suicide just use drugs instead. In a way, it is suicide, but a much more fun and interesting method than just jumping in front of a train or something.
>>65521946
this image is full of so much truth and bullshit at the same i love it
>>65521416
i kek'd, but thas fukked up mayne to be honest with you family
>>65523173
There you go
Shit I'm about to do drugs in place of suicide rn mayne
>>65524455
Do you have any drug experience? What will you take?
It's very relevant to the music I would recommend.
>>65520976
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=whGI5poBmfE
I'm in a similar place. I'm starring into nothing and everything at the same time.
I flunked out of Senior year of High School because I just didn't care/got super anxious off a medication so I hardly went.
And now I have a chance to redo Senior year and get everything I didn't get at a new school.
>young pussy
>good friends
>people around me that don't know I was really into drugs/a complete loner the year prior
>prom and shit
Or, I could just say fuck it and go trip around the country and live in LA with my best friend (live near Boston now), not go to school, have a proper Human experience and learn things out in the world/resolve unrest within myself.
So fucking torn.
I wanna think another school year with all new people would be cool And I'd actually feel like a real person. But in the back of my mind I know they'll just hate me And I'll be smoking cigarettes in the bathroom like old times.
been listening to To Be Kind a lot to get over it.
Teen Suicide - Give Me Back To The SKy
>>65521416
All rat dogs need to be put down
Every day I want to punt them
>>65524941
Man I wish I could punch my younger self, you remind me of him.
>>65524941
Go start your life in LA
Kids will think you're weird if they find out you got held back or w/e
>>65524941
don't do the latter, it might be cool first off, but in the long run, once you're done living as a fucking gypsy then you'll actually realize that you need to get your shit together and get a job or have a family. Even if you don't have a family you'll still want to be comfortable and somewhat normal. Remember that we're naive in what we think we want when we're young.
>>65524941
>I flunked out of Senior year of High School because I just didn't care/got super anxious off a medication so I hardly went.
that feel when
>Depression since like the third grade
>I remember I was in the cafeteria crying one day in 2nd or 3rd grade and the school counselor came up to talk to me
>the conversation ended in them telling me that maybe the reason I'm not happy is that I like being miserable
>I haven't hung out with any friends in a month
>I basically don't even have friends, I'm always last choice for plans
>when I do talk to people everything seems to be going fine but I'm probably just too socially inept to realize how much I'm fucking up
>been thinking about killing myself every day for years now, I don't even know when I started
>my sense of time is so distorted as a result of all this
>also I'm a gay kissless handholdless virgin
Sorry for your loss OP. You've probably already listened to/heard of Deathconciousness by Have a Nice Life but it's an album that really helps me when I'm feeling down. Read the little book that goes along with it, pic related is the first page.
>>65526792
>>Depression since like the third grade
I know this feel. I don't remember ever being happy.
>>65525181
Both Waste Yrself and I Will Be My Own Hell are incredible albums. Try them op.
>>65527068
Yeah
Sometimes when good things happen to me I wish they happened to someone who could actually enjoy them instead
I don't even like listening to music, I just listen to drown out my own thoughts, I need new material; if I listen to the same album too much I can hear my thoughts slowly coming back to me, so my tastes always need to expand
Here's a shit ton of songs I racked up for you.
>The Beatles - Hey Jude
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A_MjCqQoLLA
>My Eyes Adored You - Frankie Valli
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xqz9eyakGqY
>Fallen Angel - Frankie Valli
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S_KRcBXdJds
>Who Loves You - Frankie Valli and the Four Seasons
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ObG9bBJFcIM
>Cry For Me - Jersey Boys Soundtrack
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KJvXGe2GRDo
>Imagine - John Lennon
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DVg2EJvvlF8
>Rag Doll - The Four Seasons
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kJY83Ehuq1Y
>Hurt - Nine Inch Nails
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=prDoGmY5kj8
>>65520976
idk op but that image. reminds of me "Like a Sundae - Black Moth Super Rainbow" so if ur feel like pic related. give it a listen senpai
I'd highly recommend some Leonard Cohen, particularly pic related
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SQe88ybEIe8
I know what it's like to be overwhelmed and depressed, OP, but try to keep in mind that something better is coming to you in the future; whatever you do, don't kill yourself - I'm certain that, if anything, the others in this thread care and are invested in you and your struggles
>shitty blog thread
Yeah I don't know what I was expecting when I opened this thread, but I guess it's not that surprising. Thanks for the on-topic recs anyways.
there's an album coming to mind but I have completely forgotten the artist and album name. The album art is just a field with some bushes and it looks super dry, its pretty similar to >>65521020, but it's just one older guy singing about his problems, and other troubled people. FUCK its killing me I forgot its name
>>65527797
fuck your anime
>>65524941
>expecting good times to come out of highschool
That's where you fucked up
Go, get your work done, and move onto your adult life
>>65527868
I think the title had a girls name in it, it wasnt for emma by bon iver but I swear the title was similar
>>65520976
if you can muster up the courage for self-termination, you have my utmost respect
>>65528286
>>65527868
FUCKING REMEMBERED
sun kil moon-benji
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UtndQzCUEY4
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xw7uTZ06Bow
any mgmt fans?
>>65527797
youre an idiot
>>65521020
I approve
>>65521227
That crappy compression really isn't doing it justice.
>>65521020
In 2013 I had more than 3000 scrobbles of just this guy.
The more music I listen to the shittier I feel, but I guess it also helped me feel better in the end.
I can literally track my mental health based on how many average plays I have on lastfm.
