How do I get rid of internalized homophobia?
I don't want to hate myself for it. I want to stop being disgusted. My therapist couldn't do shit about it because I really don't know why I think that way. I can't even formulate any reasons, it's just like a feeling.
>>5945879
Be more confident about yourself. Find activities you like.
Maybe a shit advice, but fap to your imagination. I got rid of culpability when I fapped to my friends instead to porn found on the internet.
>>5945879
I was kind of repulsed by the whole thing in the start, I was bi in deep denial and I knew about it very well.
What helped me was shit like webcomics that is not porn, but just males who are being cute and romantic. That would be a good start, but a lot are cringefests.
Nothing wrong with being repulsed by your degenerate impulses. Don't listen to idiot liberals, following your dick over your mind is retarded.
>HUUR DURR I LIKE JUNK FOOD, BETTER EMBRACE IT AT THE EXPENSE OF MY HEALTH AND WELL BEING
>>5945904
I never like porn/hentai. I usually stuck to non-explicit drawings or at most something like pic related.
Whenever I try to imagine something gay my imagination just kindof shuts down, faces of others turn blank and any explicitly male features just disappear so I'm stuck trying to sex something like a mannequinn in my mind which is really unnerving to me. Did anyone have a similar experience at some point or am I just becoming clinically insane?
>>5945942
obv b8, but the whole point of this thread is that it's unhealthy for me to *not* embrace it, wether it's "wrong" (which it isn't) or not.
Also why are you even on this board?
>>5945879
It's a long road but you gotta be patient. 9 months ago I couldn't even say the word "gay" and now I'm comfortable calling myself gay. It's been a long road so I can't say there's any one solution but one thing that helped me was making gay friends and going to gay bars and stuff like that.
>>5946089
That's rather odd. When I find a guy attractive, I have absolutely no problem to imagine him in lewd situations.
Try stories, they are what gets me on the most.
>>5946089
>but the whole point of this thread is that it's unhealthy for me to *not* embrace it, wether it's "wrong" (which it isn't) or not.
Given the huge amount of hypersexual gay men running around with HIV looking for their next poz convert, he's not wrong in that you have to be very careful with how you 'embrace' it.
Read some gay romance or something to ease yourself into it while keeping your values in tact, don't do what most of my gay friends did which was to become extremely promiscuous fags who let their dicks lead them around like a leash, picked up strangers in gay bars for bareback sex and then end up 35 years old having never experienced a relationship that wasn't based around cum.
>>5946089
>but the whole point of this thread is that it's unhealthy for me to *not* embrace it
That's bullshit. One of the biggest problems people have is identifying with impulses they have no control over. I'm not saying pretend you aren't gay, but you don't owe this side of you anything. There will never be a moment in time where playing in another man's butthole will be a better decision than say, reading a book, or helping out another human being.
>>5946343
This really isn't about being able to whore-out and to like getting barebacked by some guy while on e. I'd much rather have a steady relationship and sex with emotional content.
>>5946381
If you really think a human can live a happy life without sexuality of any kind, you're deluded. Just take a trip to /r9k/ or /b/ and see what not having a sexual relationship with another person (no matter the gender) for extended periods of time does to people. Any related study, etc. will show you without a doubt that the probability of suicide, self-harm, clinical depression, etc. will skyrocket among almost all people who repress their sexuality.
Again, this is about not hating myself for being attracted to other men, not being fine with being the stereotype of a gay whore.
>>5946456
>If you really think a human can live a happy life without sexuality of any kind, you're deluded.
Just more bullshit. Those guys have way more issues than not having sex, all the sex in the world won't fix them.
Like I said, stop identifying with impulses and emotions you have no control over, the fact that you like men is no more important than liking orange juice.
>>5946518
But why not just get comfortable with drinking orange juice, drink some and be happy that you fullfilled your impulses?
>>5946573
Well op is obviously too stupid to do that.
You sound a little like me, OP. I similarly have a hard time imagining doing lewd things to other boys, but I do like porn and hentai.
Anways, stop focusing on it. Just move on with your life. The more you brood on your homosex, the worse the feels will get. Once it is out of your mind one day and it just integrates as part of who you are, you'll wake up one day and realize it is dumb and pointless to hate yourself over it.
This is how it went for me, at least.
