Has this fucked anyone else up? I've experienced it, to quite an extreme degree. It poisoned my psyche, and utterly destroyed my self-esteem and perception of myself. I just had to stop my friend from walking in front of traffic and bashing his head against the wall repeatedly. All because he felt he wasn't good enough for a certain individual he had the utmost fondness and appreciation for.
Fuck the gay scene, fuck it's superficiality and fuck it's shallowness. We're all fucking worthy of love and appreciation, even if we're led to believe otherwise. It's time to stop looking for love in all the wrong places, with all the wrong people. However, I don't think simply looking for a scapegoat is going to accomplish anything. As pervasive as the emphasis of what "beauty" supposedly means within the media.
I hate most of my body and face, but not in a trans way as I wish I was the opposite sex, but in a I wish I had better features and genetics.
Teenage years were hell, early 20s were hell, I've mellowed down and learned that its what I'm born into and the hate isn't so radiant anymore but there are still moments I feel repulsive as shit about most things about my body.