Stepping over myself
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/adv/ didn't help me.
Hello, anons. I feel like I need your help.
I am 19, almost 20 male from Russia. Recently, I've realised, that I am living my life the wrong way.
For years I had inferiority complex and had suffered from mild depression and anxiety during puberty (yes, it was an official psychiatric's diagnosis), at one point I overcame it with changing my lifestyle and socializing, but I assume it came back in a more subtle way: for the last 2 years I suffer from chronic anxiety and procrastination.
Judging objectively, I realise that in fact, I am probably a handsome man. I have finished school with all grades being excellent, my first real kiss with a girl was initiated not by me, but by a girl. Despite all of that, my psychological shortcomings and complexes hold me back from perfecting myself and doing something productive with my life.
I procrastinate and lack motivation, I can't find harmony and develop a sensible life attitude. I started practising nofap, gym with exercise diary and attempting to forge a to-do list to keep my goals more realistic, but it won't solve my core problem, which is my life attitude.
How do I deal with anxiety, how do I cope with violence and stupidity of people, which makes me feel depressed? I want to change myself, to be productive, feel harmonic and spread it to other people. I want to step over my insecurities, to meet any danger or grievance with elusive smile and an uncrushable inner balance. My own self holds me from becoming, whom I want to be, from living my potential to its maximum.
Tell me about your personal experience, if you had any, which could help me solve my problem.
Thanks and have a good day!
you know what to do
>>58904939
Everyone on here is depressed and hides behind layers of irony.
4chan attracts broken people
>>58904992
I've noticed that more people on imageboards also tend to be smarter and prone to creativity.
So it's a double-edged sword, I assume.
>>58904939
do what i do: write manifesto
it keeps me busy and its really fun imo
>>58905092
Introverted people tend to be more intelligent and creative because they spend their free time thinking about stuff like that
>>58905127
Wouldn't call myself introverted atm.
I was for a brief period in childhood, but right now I am something inbetween.
I am capable of easily communicating and initiating a discussion with strangers, in fact, I can somewhat read and predict the dialogue, select appropriate language and gestures to get any message across.
But at the same time I am a home dweller mostly. A home dweller, whom is capable of becoming an attractive speaker in minutes after getting aquainted, but I am not a sociopath and don't abuse that.
>>58905105
Does it distract you from the everyday rush and induce calm and happiness?
>>58904992
When I used to feel down I would take my bike and go take a long ride, often even for two hours.
Now I don't have a bike and have recurrent suicidal thoughts.
>>58905418
yeah i think so
i often take my macbook to park and write there, being outside and fresh air helps clear your mind and focus