>in the middle of a depressive episode that's lasted two weeks so far
>no signs of letting up
LITERALLY CANNOT MAKE THIS SHIT UP
>>57656941
>I was banned for starting a thread like this
>fuck my life
>could barely get out of my bed for 3 weeks
>have to explain to my professors and beg to let me turn my work in late
HAHAHAHAHAH
AHAHA
>>57656941
>>57656999
>>57657019
want to watch old movie together? they always cheer me up
*genuinely wants to help you*
>>57656999
>only comfortable with social interaction 4chan
>4chan has acted as a safe haven for years and kept me sane
>try to talk about this
>get banned
HAHA THOSE MODS SUCH JOKERS, YOU GOTTA LOVE 'EM
>tried to commit suicide by od
>wake up in the next morning with a fucking headache and all vomited
HHAHAHAHAH
>>57657227
if you tie a rope to something, make sure it's sturdy and can support your weight
no reason I'd know this of course
>so fucking tired all the time I look like a zombie
>can't concentrate on anything
>Sleep pattern all fucked up
>barely eating
>it just so happens to be exams
I LOVE BEING ALIVE THIS IS AMAZING HAHAH
/r/ the robot-fem""bot"" comparison image
>>57656941
>muh depression
sort your shit out
>be me
>worked the whole day as volunteer
>saturday night alone by myself
>jagermeister drunk
>lurking 4chan
>listening to deftones/crosses
>life's only better if I was dead
hahahahahah my life is a joke, my happiness is a lie! hahahah Why can't I just drop dead?
>/INT/ GF WON'T REPLY
HAHAHA CANT MAKE THIS SHIT UP!!!!
>>57657497
>going out in br
>having to put yourself in bars and club that play shitty sertanejo music or funk
I don't know what you guys fantasize so much about going out, really
I know one of these I'll do it. I've tried before and pussy'd out. But I'll succeed next time.
>>57657568
actually I live in Santos. Today was going on a Charlie Brown JR memory concert by canal 6.
It wasn't sertanejo, nor funk, I was a nostalgia thing, but, I rather be at home. People are strange, as I am.
I dream about suicide since my 16. It's hard what a woman can do to your life...
does anyone else find these threads therapeutic? they always manage to cheer me up, thank you le golden suffering man
>>57657779
It's nice to discuss it with other people that suffer tbqh
I used to do it on r9k before all the depressed people left due to a massive influx of normies
>>57656941
>in the middle of a depressive episode that's lasted nineteen years
>>57657144
this, somebody stream something
>>57657754
>actually I live in Santos. Today was going on a Charlie Brown JR memory concert by canal 6.
>It wasn't sertanejo, nor funk, I was a nostalgia thing, but, I rather be at home. People are strange, as I am.
But you were talking about SATURDAY night, you were generalizing saturdays, it looked like you wanted to go out every saturday
>I dream about suicide since my 16. It's hard what a woman can do to your life...
>wanting to die
>because of a bitch
human trash
>"""Friends"""" put up a snap story where they're all hanging out together
>I wasn't invited
>>57657779
It helped me through some dark times. Even after I tried the whole OD thing.
It's like some place I can be myself, type what I feel and be fine over it.
you helped me a lot 4chan, even /b/ has some kind of guilty about keep me alive the last 6 months.
do you sleep well and wake up at dawn? does your skin get enough sunlight exposure if any
do you try to do something in the morning and turn your computer on only in the afternoon
do you have a girlfriend
HAHAHAHA I'M SO FUCKING DEPRESSED AND ALONE!!!! KILL ME NOW, RIGHT NOW! I AM SO FUCKING DONE WITH THIS EXISTENCE!
I just go between depressed and major depressive episodes.
started drinking only water and working out by doing bodyweight routines + dumbbell as needed. I don't like being around people so I don't want to go to a gym.
don't really feel better, but I don't feel worse. Guess I'll keep at it.
>>57657877
>school finishes
>ask friends as we're leaving if they wanted to hang out in the city, they decline, homework etc
>later that day mum drives me into city to get a haircut
>drive past the cinema and see all my "friends" are walking in together
thanks for dredging up that memory anon
>absolutely bored out of my mind
>literally nothing brings joy or fun anymore
fucking HILARIOUS AHAHAHAHA
>>57657974
maybe try being more likeable
>>57657876
Yeah, we kind of romanticize the whole "saturday" thing. But, "because of a bitch", you should know life is more than sex, or dates, or love. Sometimes the whole 'woman' thing isn't about it. Some girls have some influence in our life that we didn't even notice when everything is OK, and doing well. I loved her in a way, not that way you're familiar with, but deeper, as we we're friends after all.
But some scars are left, and with it, some traumas. The traumas the whole thing left me with, was enough to change the things I see the world, I see life. And live with yourself being so different than the world and social you live for is brutal! People hardly like you, you don't trust anyone as you should to, or, you don't like anyone anymore, as you should to.
Forget about this "bitch thing" "human trash", anão, life is bigger than this.
>>57658036
desu my group of friends were always excluding someone for some reason. experiencing it myself made me sensitive to when it was someone else's turn and i'd stick up for them
>>57658085
what city
>>57657974
>I haven't had a single friend in over 10 years
>>57656941
>BORN IN SOUTH CAROLINA
>BECOME AN OFFICE CLERK, MAKE 31K A YEAR
>>57656941
HA I'm feeling really really happy for the first time in two weeks
Pretty soon I'll moodswing back down to sadmode but goddamn life is awesome
>>57658199
get yourself diagnosed as bipolar and get drugged up my m8
>>57657967
your oc? saved
>>57658230
I'm scared of having a mental illness and getting drugs from shrinks so I'd rather pretend to be fine lad :3
>>57657019
fuck iktf
>>57658062
if life is bigger than this, why is a girl everything to you?
Kek, admit it, my friend, you're just a pussy slave, and there's nothing wrong with admitting it
to be frank, I know it's lame, but the only thing that's been holding me together recently is a competitive video game. In order to play at my top potential, I must have a good sleep schedule and diet.
for the first time I feel like the depression is waning off
>>57658351
until you get btfo
>>57658350
I want a gf just to have someone to be close to.
I had a gf once in my entire life(I'm almost 26), and it just felt different to have someone there for you.
I miss holding her in bed tbqh
>spend like ~eight years terrified of seeing a psychologist
>exist in a fugue-like state
>genuinely hate everything you do besides running
>break leg
Just lmao
Hope this cheers you up
>>57658475
Do upper body lifts and machines senpai.
>>57658350
she wasn't my girlfriend and she died! She was my best friend, she was the one who listened to my me, ignored my flaws and helped me to be more than everything around us!
If you can't get a girlfriend, stop be jealous from who got it! LIFE IS MORE THAN THIS STUPID FAGGOT!
Do you think it's easy to live feeling you're incapable of 'revenge' someone who truly loved you? You can change shit, and if you can change anything around you, I must tell you, people won't like you, because you're somehow different!
>>57658485
Why are brits so effeminate?
>>57658627
life is bigger, my friend, life is bigger
>>57658485
Who are you, where do you live, and are you the only Australian who posts these vids?
>>57658485
how could this cheer me up? It just makes me wish I had more. Desire is the root of all evil suffering
does anyone else browse okcupid just to see the women that would never date them?
>>57658475
Hi prussian
>>57659055
kek. sadly that isn't me OHMSS
>have had depression since grade 8
>I'm now a fat 20 year old college dropout that's still depressed
>work late hours at gas station on weekends
>want to blow my head off every time I see people my age enjoying their youth come in
CANNOT make this shit up
>>57659808
>work late hours at papa johns on weekdays
>want to blow my head off every time I see people younger than me enjoying the youth I never had
It only gets worse.
One of the few happy memories I have in my life is going to the batting cages with my dad as a kid.
He usually left me sitting outside the house waiting for him to show up after he said he would, but he actually showed up that time.
Didn't show up again after that.
Some people aren't mean to be happy, are they?
