>want to blow my brains out
>grandparents are still alive
>can't because I don't want to make them sad
>>53748976
Wow, you're a fucking loser
Same
Just do it
>would kill myself
>but I believe in reincarnation so it's not worth the risk of being reborn into some starving niglet or a plant somewhere
>Stared at the abyss
>The abyss stares back
>I wave
>It doesn't wave back
>It was looking at someone behind me
>Awkwardly look at my phone and cry in shame
>every day I sleep for at least 10 hours, and then just lay there for hours after waking up, staring at the wall and wondering how things got this bad
>haven't seen daylight in weeks because I don't get up until it's already dark
>>53749932
Is it one of those threads ? it's been a while
>social anxiety has evolved to such an extent that my mind automatically associates the outside world with pain
>my hands shake while holding the spoon while eating with my mother with whom I still live at 23
>there is no stop to this shit, it extends to my whole body - leg muscles tighten from the bare thought of someone looking at me and the way I walk, causing severe pain and a lot of missteps which only amplify it
>pulse is constantly over 90 bpm, even at rest. The only case where it drops down below 85 is when there's no human being around me
>no job, no friends, never a gf, handless kissless, no driver's license, no future
>think about an heroing every day but I'll never have the balls
>can't even have a simple 10-second conversation with a cashier anymore without wanting to punch myself and wondering what I did wrong
>stay up for 30-36 hours at a time because falling asleep when I'm really tired gives me vivid dreams
>this is my only pleasure, aside from drinking
>>53750430
yeah, once a night just isn't enough
>21 years
>no friends
>no job
>18 years
>LITERALLY spending the best years of my life on a laotian pottery forum
>>53752802
>10-second conversation with a cashier
what?
who the fug talks with the cashier. you just say "thank you" after you have bought your things and that's it.
>>53752940
>the best years of my life
That's basically a meme tho,these are the shittiest years,the best years are childhood or when you're old
>I spent most of my life playing video games alone in the dark
>My family is all dead or don't talk to my mom
>she only has myself, a 22yo retard and uni dropout
>>53752973
based finnish autism
>haven't been outside my home in 2016
>spend 22-23 hours in my bed every day
>haven't talked to a human being in two weeks
LIFE IS GOOD
>>53752802
>>stay up for 30-36 hours at a time because falling asleep when I'm really tired gives me vivid dreams
I'm not alone as it seems.
>>53753055
I just don't get small-talk. It's unnecessary, you don't know them.
>can't make eye contact with anyone
>often forget my point while expressing something to people
>having conversations is such a rare thing that when someone talks to me my voice doesn't come out
>plan phone conversations in paper hours before making them and then fuck it up anyway, and feel like shit the rest of the week
HAHAA YEAAH
>>53749103
lmao just do it nerd
>haven't had a job in nearly a year
>no friends at all
>DWP work coach was a bit nice to me and now I have a massive crush on her and can't stop fantasising about her
>family always call me a faggot loser virgin
this thread
>>53753346
I'm half-spanish myself and i know how fucking annoyingly social you guys are usually. You should go to talk with someone :^)
>>53748976
>want to leave this country and go live as a noone in New Zealand or become a shitty underpaid stand-up comedian
>instead I'm studying in college for something I'm mentally not suited for to please my parents
>>53753400
4chan isn't your family you autistic retard
What attracts so many pathetic failures to this website?
I want /r9k/ to go away.
>"it gets better"
>it doesn't
>>53753415
This just makes it worst for autistic people though.
>>53753443
Anonymity.
>>53753440
>Brussels
I definitely understand why you want to leave the country kek
>>53753443
Humans in this century spend all their day on the internet, whatever the culture, race, social class or country.
Social humans go to Facebook 24/7, those of us who aren't social spend it here.
>>53753442
>implying I'd want to be family with a leaf
>>53753483
you can't stay reclusive forever
to all the people who suffer from social anxiety
you guys should seek help
counseling can help you
>>53748976
>it's 2:08am on a Monday morning
>i'm reading an article about "the evolution of the anime nose"
Does anybody else ever just have those moments where they wonder where everything went so wrong?
>>53753443
ur mum
>>53753443
I was just wondering that if this kind of crippling social anxiety is something caused by the internet age. Shame I didn't go to school for psychology so I could get a research grant and get paid to browse 4chan finding an answer.
>>53753568
If not Internet I'd be a normal human being.
>>53753712
ofcause. Internet is better than real realiy. If we hadn't Internet = we'd have to socialize.
>>53753696
me
what's the link for that article? sounds interesting
>>53753440
>I'm a no one in New Zealand
>I hate myself
Who here /stupid/? I'm so dumb like holy shit I'm a retard.
>>53753765
It's not really that interesting. The articles on the website are quite short though, which is good if you're a NEET who can't hold his attention on anything.
http://myanimelist.net/featured/1232
>>53753826
No brain
>>53753872
Yes exactly thank you. My stipules are withering too.
>>53753568
That's a good point
>>53753677
so can valium
or booze
or cocaine
>>53752802
its annoying when customers small talk with cashier when we have to deal with next customers
>>53753863
that's still pretty cool, just gave me another reason to like lgoh more than other anime
>live a mediocre life
>not happy with it but not unhappy either
if my life was an ice cream flavor it would literally be vanilla
>>53752986
Don't lie to yourself, m8 ;^)
ITT: We make no changes to our worthless lives while still complaining about them, myself included.
>tfw no gf
>I've never been to a party
>I've never had sex
>I've never even made good grades
>>53753478
Not gonna lie; being told "it gets better is bullshit" was some of the most helpful news I'd ever been told.
>>53753729
Probably, I'd be the same.
>>53752802
have you ever tried astral projection?
>>53754492
I don't really have the will for that. I can't even manage lucid dreaming (although I sometimes get sleep paralysis).
>>53749932
Literally me lmao
>>53754577
you are one step from getting astral-projected anyways. it'll come to you even if you don't want it.
>>53752973
"Thank you"? Why would you ever say more than "hi" to a cashier?
>>53754762
>it'll come to you even if you don't want it.
Guys, just be yourselves ;)
>>53756062
I'd rather these people didn't.
>>53756062
Is /int/ usually this pathetic?
>>>/r9k/
You guys should enjoy the neet life desu
>be me 2 years ago
>complete neet
>for some really strange reason I somehow get a 7/10 girl to hang out with me
>we do
>one week later we fug
>no condoms, she is not on birth control
>be so horny that Idgaf, fuck her really hard
>pull out before I cum
>yeeeeeeees
>2 days later, happy as fuck, finally lost the V-card
>Suddenly it hits me
>No condoms
>She isn't on birth control
>what if she is pregnant
>literally spend the entire week in panic, if she is prego my whole life is ruined
>cry like a bitch the entire time
>I just want to return to the neet life
>Completely devasted, get random panic attacks when thinking of her being pregnant
>2 weeks later I ask her to do a prego test
>she does
>Its negative
>cut all ties with her, return to being a neet
Yes I'm a loser, but I wouldn't want to be anything else
>>53758231
What's the big deal? You could've just have her abort it or dehydrate herself to miscarry.
>>53758604
>she says no
fugged
>>53749932
Haha,just woke up from a 15 hour nap lads
>>53758646
Tell her you'll kill yourself if she insists. In the event that she doesn't give in leave a suicide note that you jumped off of a bridge and then move elsewhere.
>>53758784
I was 17 back then and I was still visiting school lad, running away was no option
>>53758784
Oh of course, what a reasonable and realistic solution, how did I miss it.
why shitskins are taking over: the thread
>I lock my self in my room and do drugs all night
>I haven't seen sunlight in weeks
>the only pleasure I get is from hallucinations
>I've done a plethora of drugs but never alcohol
>>53759106
Or you could introduce her to antinatalism by explaining that it's incredibly selfish to force a person into a world of pain and suffering.
>go to an IOP group for people with crippling mental illness
>still the most autistic one there
>Graduated college when i wanted to drop out the entire time purely because I knew my family would be depressed if I dropped out like everyone else
>24 year old Virgin in 2 hours
>>53759242
But I want to kill myself too meight
>>53748976
>Live with Parents
>They ignore 50% of everything I say to them
>Developing a stutter because of the constant humiliation
>Don't confront them about it because I'm such a burden to them
>>53759426
>Too scared to buy drugs is the only thing that saved me from becoming an addict
post more goldface elements, i lost my folder
