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Come on /g/ half of you NEET basement dwelling guys are depressed. Get it off your chest, tell us how you feel.
>>54061715
>tfw no gf
>tfw fell for the lifting will get you girls meme from /fit/
>tfw i have OSX and cant play games.
>>54061733
Kalyx?
>tfw every thread you make that isn't engineered to trigger the lowest common denominator will be bumped off of page 11 to make way for more generals and makiposting
>>54061715
i wish i was dead
Happy with 6 figure salary. Still kind of bored with the new "NSA chilled" internet.
>>54061769
I feel you anon. I'm so lonely, my whole life has been bad. I just want to die. I'm not meant to be here. I wanted to die as a child and now even more. If there is a God fuck him.
>>54061812
God likes being fucked. That is why you feel the way you do.
>>54061769
I wish you were dead
I keep telling myself I'm gonna stop drinking and lie to my parents saying I'm not drinking but I can't stop
>>54061862
>can't stop
Are you drinking right this moment? If not, you've already stopped. If you drink again, note the time and try to always at least widen the gap between drinks.
>>54061862
I've struggled too anon. I've been an addict for years and it's so hard. I want to end it but I can't. You'll get through it man believe me.
>>54061862
Tell them you switched to hookers and blow. Then just keep drinking. Then later when you tell them your just drinking and smoking weed, they will understand.
thanks anons
>tfw meet girl online
>she lives across an ocean
>best friends for years
>she's visiting this summer
Hlep
>>54061760
Lain
>>54061968
get ready to get catfished
How do I make friends at a big uni?
I once had a social life but that is a thing of the past. It's hard being a FOSS dweeb and meet people
>>54062093
Be likable and social
i overslept and missed most of code jam. I was really excited for it.
>>54061715
I fell for AMD and SSD memes
>>54061812
>>54061769
Just do it faggots
>>54061733
>tfw fell for the lifting will get you girls meme from /fit/
This is stupid. Even if you can't get a girlfriend you're still better off working out than sitting at home eating hotpockets.
>>54061715
My life is great, but the state of tech really depresses me.
>normies found the internet, quickly followed by corps and govts
>everything you do online is monitored, logged, and sold
>normies willingly use win10 and fb despite numerous confirmations of botnet
>normies don't care about selling their souls online as long as they get new newest social meme
It sucks. It really really sucks.
I wish we had the old internet back, like back when I was a teen in a basement. BBSes, IRC, warez, spam, and everything in between. The net is so... cushioned, now. Everything is ultra-safe, ultra-polished, and backed by some shadowy megacorp. And I think the worst part is that nobody cares.
>>54063876
Welcome to the club.
I'm forced to use FB for friends, snapchat, etc, but I hate every minute of it.
I never put any up that I wouldn't share anywhere, but it sucks. Saying anything regarding the matter makes you a social pariah
>fell on my head
>got a heavy concussion
>not gotta take pic related
>>54061767
What the actual fuck?
TIL: 4chan boards do only have 10 pages nowadays
I'm getting those feelings again. I don't have the most stable mind to begin with, but with every new job, I slowly go like this:
>coworkers like me at first, quiet, occasionally funny, hard worker
>they start to learn more about me
>find out I'm a huge fucking loser with no friends and no family
>and who would want to spend time with a loser
>can't get out of this constant feeling of dread and desire to just quell my needs, so I just buy things I don't and won't ever need and eat to the point where it hurts my stomach enough that I don't think about my problems
I hate this life, I don't want it. I wake up every morning and wonder why god just doesn't kill me already. I have tons of money made to give to the only person who ever gave a flying fuck about me in this world, my brother, when I die, so why the fuck doesn't god just kill me? I'm not happy, I can't make anyone else happy, and I won't ever be happy.
>>54062078
can someone please post this, I don't have it anywhere
>>54061767
We need a /g/ (an anonymous tech BBS) for smarter, more technical people.
I hate myself for sitting on my ass for the past 10 years and becoming the fat, socially awkward who can't talk to anyone or make any kind of small talks without getting red faced and spaghettied
>>54061968
"Met" girl online while playing a strange game. Didn't even knew she was a woman, we just got along very well and talking all kinda of shit.
Little by little she starts to get Into me always appearing all the time to talk and being super sweet. Start to get attached and return the feeling instead of just talking shit, she is starting to get detached very quickly.
I don't even have a reaction image for this.
>>54066112
>return the feeling
>she is starting to get detached very quickly
How did you do that? A common reason for this is you coming off as needy/beta.
>>54066156
I wouldn't say beta, but needy is possible.
She didn't appear online a lot, but the more we talked, the more she appeared and not even to play, just to talk to me for hours. she would even get worried thinking shit if I didn't reply back rather quickly. She is also kind of needy.
The biggest problem i think is have cut down on talking shit with her, that's when things started to seem more adrift.
>>54061767
>page 11
feels like yesterday
>>54061715
>tell us how you feel.
I don't, that's the whole issue
>tfw 23 and virgin
>>54066396
i'm 26 and a virgin, what's your point?
>tfw gf, apartment, car, career and still not happy
thank god for drugs
>>54066420
>he fell for the normie life meme
>>54061733
>>54063627
Not the guy you're responding to, but I agree with you. That is, unless you could have used that time to work on your career instead.
I stopped playing video games now i do nothing and have almost no real reason to leave the house. What should I do, it makes me depressed.
>>54066456
>What should I do
exercise would probably fix you if you stuck to it. that and your diet.
>>54061715
I'm a German but I wish I would look like a Hallstatt Nordid, it always makes me depressed to see Nodic looking people who aren't aware of the fact that they belong to the master race.
I have a GF and have a good job but I moved to another country and don't have any friends.
It's really fucking difficult to make actual friends again and I'm socially awkward as fuck. I kinda wanna go to some meetup groups, I was thinking about some programming related ones but I don't really program but am pretty interested in it.
Have any of you ever done that kind of meetup thing before? It sounds so awkward.
>>54066411
31 and virgin here. Almost 32.
Getting fatter by the day, have type 1 diabeetus, little to no motivation for anything anymore. Can't even play casual games. All my friends are married or doing their own thing and I barely talk to them anymore. Living with mom because she has no income and she divorced dad with no alimony over a decade ago. Work indoors all day dealing with customers. Plenty of people worse off than me but I still wallow in self pity. Not sure where to go from here other than just keep doing what I've been doing for the forseeable future. Can barely bring myself to smile.
I'm in my 30s. I got a 6 figure job but I'm not really happy or even satisfied.. I'm just bored.
no gf, video games are boring now, programming has lost its luster, all there's left is to save and invest money until I have enough to live off the interest and that will take another 15-20 years.
>>54066531
bro do you even /fit/
>>54066466
im not fat though, im at a good weight
>>54066474
dude, programmers are awkward people, just go, no one cares. i used to go a lot
>>54066546
Yep that's real life alright
Drugs are the answer
>>54066556
Yeah but you don't exercise. You aren't fat but you aren't in shape. Exerting energy and gut bacteria are directly related to mood.
>>54066582
Ok, so what do I do after that?
My life savings are small and I'm pretty much a transparent leech
>>54066600
>Ok, so what do I do after that?
Just focus on improving yourself first. Everything else will follow.
I have enough money for now.
I don't need to go to uni.
I don't need to have a job.
But i have nothing to live for.
Absolutely nothing.
Give me something to do /g/.
Something that will give me a purpose in life.
>>54066675
If you have nothing to do, make money.
More money will make your life easier in the future.
If you don't care about that, making money is just a way to know that you're adding value to the world and making other people's lives better.
should i register on dating sites i'm afraid i might be doxed
>>54066763
unless you care about them selling your information then sure.
Guys, I love having resources but I don't know how to use them.
I got extremely good CPU, fuckload of RAM, massive amount of storage space and I still can't see a fucking reason to have it.
Did I just fall for /g/ memes?
I think most of people on /g/ got this problem. They just can afford wasting money.
>>54066675
Buy a RasPi
>>54066799
>Did I just fall for /g/ memes?
this doesn't really apply to real life man. If you enjoy your purchases then who gives a fuck.
>>54066531
On my way to 33 fatter by the day, not virgin but living with my parents due to being unemployed for 15 months now.
Games do not phase me anymore as well, just serve to get mad.
No woman nor perspectives to get one again.
Always was into making and playing music but even that doesn't so anything for me now. Only a couple of friends and I cant even muster up the will to acknowledge them.
I have no will for anything anymore and can't see my future past one hour in advanced. Spend my waking days browsing this board and that is about it.
Hang in there, you're not alone.
>>54063964
seit wann bekommt man dafür antidepressiva?
Used to be pretty happy with my life. Played drums in a couple of bands and did MMA and kickboxing.
Went from fit to very, very fat when I started university (because I got really, really tired of exercising, I hated other /fit/izens with a passion). Stopped playing drums because lack of time (uni + part time job took most of my time). But still pretty happy, had a couple of gfs.
Then I started doing my masters. Got a psycho gf who basically wrecked chaos and havoc in my personal life, she moved in with me and it ended up with her fucking my landlord behind my back (in my own bed) and got me thrown out of the apartment over night. Got seriously depressed, had to start working full time as a programmer in order to support myself, did my job at day time and tried (but failed) to do my master in evenings and in weekends. Got completely exhausted and after using four years on what should have taken two I finally completed. Started in a new job as an embedded developer, the boss was horrible and I quit after 6 months.
Did however start doing a PhD, and now a year into my PhD I'm actually feeling quite happy again. Still obese as fuck, no gf, shitty diet, shitty backstabbing friends and my salary is shit, but I still managed to scrape enough together to buy an apartment and I do a lot of exiting things at work and get to travel *a lot* because of conferences and shit. Started playing drums again, and I'm now playing regularly every week in a band.
I still eat shit and I'm broke all the time and tired/exhausted half the time, but meh. At least I love my job.
>>54066813
He clearly enjoys the act of buying and owning them more than actually using them. He should collect figs or something, at least he won't be wasting potential.
>>54066813
how can I enjoy 64GBs of RAM?
It's just a number. I don't even know how to utilize more than 4GBs, yet alone 64GBs.
How can I enjoy wasting money on resources I don't need?
I think /g/ made me a good goy. I'm buying shit I don't need for money I shouldn't spend, especially in my age. I should be saving money for my new house after I leave my parent's basement.
I think I'm gonna off myself.
>>54066838
Oh, and I picked up tinkering with some entry-level arduino shit and minor soldering stuff as a hobby, which is fun to do. So far I've made an IR transceiver, and I'm currently borrowing a SDR and bought two cheap walkie talkies which I've taken apart and try to turn into two radio transceivers. Pretty entry level shit, but I suddenly found programming fun again.
>>54066849
>what is bitcoin mining
nigga there is always a use
>>54066799
Oh,,, I have 3TB that are close to full but i agree about the ram thing. I never gamed so idk why i got 16GB
Wife and 3 kids
Making 6 figures
House, car, boat.
Still depresed.
Can't win
Don't bother tryin.
Trust me, NEETs, the basement dwelling life is actually pretty good...
> be me
> live a NEET lifestyle 2 years after HS graduation
> have "my own business" in the meantime, barely making anything but at least I can pretend not to be NEET to non-family (senpai knows)
> go to uni after the two years (pressure from family)
> work part time as a sysadmin-assistant or whatever towards the end of my degree
> graduate
> work as a sysadmin
> get a GF (my 2nd one in total, wife of my friend from school set us up)
Sounds good, right? No more NEET life... Yea, but
> work 45 hrs per week
> come home to a GF that takes like 95% of my time outside of work
> can't even spend time j u s t with her, because we
> visit her family in a town an hour away
> visit her friends there or in other places
> go on trips, vacations with mostly her friends, sister, my aforementioned friend and his wife...
Do you really want this shit? And she's pushing marriage and a baby on me pretty hard because she is a middle school teacher and that's pretty much all she thinks about now.
Fuck life.
>>54066882
how many sharks do you have though?
>>54066867
how am I supposed to mine bitcoins with lots or RAM?
it's also purely a waste of power and money if you don't own ASIC miners.
>>54066882
You say "wife and 3 kids" like it was a good thing
>>54066838
this is some normalfag shit.
A phd in what?
>>54066873
hwy do you have so much storage space?
Why do you store shit you already watched? Are you seriously going to watch it again and again?
I hate that I haven't killed myself yet.
>>54066920
Computer science, or "informatics" as it's called here in Euroland.
>>54066924
>hwy do you have so much storage space
I have 20 TB anon, about 8 free, it's not hard.
> Are you seriously going to watch it again and again
Yet it's crazy when people throw away books or music.
>>54066946
>crazy
Is it?
Data hoarding is a mental illness.
technology alienates me from my family
the do not believe that i have any hobbies besides "my computer"
>>54066930
>computers in the future doesn't have internet
>>54066941
>old computer still has a working uplink
This tickles my autism
I've just felt completely suppressed for the last few weeks. I haven't felt a high in a long time.
>>54066967
>the do not believe that i have any hobbies besides "my computer"
Well, do you?
>>54066962
I'm sure you only have one of everything.
>>54066980
I've read several e-books on cookery and cuisine, but no one ever sees me cook.
I know a lot about MMA and trained for a year, but my family doesn't remember whenever I bring it up.
>>54066900
>2 years after HS graduation
calm down son life hasn't even started.
>>54066799
Get into machine learning
>>54066900
Dude, if you're uncomfortable with this life, tell her.
You can always move away. Even after marriage, it's hard but possible.
But there's no escape once you have a baby.
Don't do it.
>met a girl on Tinder about 3 weeks ago
>finally agree to meet for drinks yesterday
>she cancelled the day before
>she's now on holiday for another 2 weeks
>>54066946
>Yet it's crazy when people throw away books or music.
How is crazy you dumb retard?
The less stupid shit you own the more money you got, either from not buying stuff or selling shit you already own.
The more money you have the more you can achieve.
>>54067030
I already got a job where I learn a lot about networking, servers and IT in general.
>>54067048
Throwing away books and music does not make you gain money, apart from selling, and I'd rather not sell what I own and like (not the guy you're replying to, by the way).
>>54066900
>she wants a baby
ABORT (the relationship, not the baby)
>>54066900
>and a baby
You gotta get out of this dude
This isn't a joke anymore. You are DONE if you continue.
>>54066946
>Yet it's crazy when people throw away books or music.
Is this really considered crazy? I throw away old books all the time, stuff I either didn't like when I read it or books that I've read too many times.
I've also thrown away almost all my old CDs, except some I consider collectibles. Why would I keep around hundreds of CDs when I can just play from my media centre. I don't even think I have a CD/DVD/BluRay player at all anymore.
>>54066924
1 is filled with pics and stuff
1 is filled with media, about 200gb is doujinshi, 500gb is anime, 300 gb is other stuff
otherone is os drive and additional space for random stuff like documents, music projects, etc
>>54066900
>baby
this kills the neet
>>54061715
depression isn't technology.
>>54067065
I didn't say anything about throwing away physical books and physical mediums with music. I'm talking about throwing away virtual shit you don't need that was downloaded from torrents and other free sources.
Obviously I'm completely ignoring situations where you bought music, movies or software, because WHO THE FUCK DOES THAT LMAO.
With only exception to online games that can be immediately redownloaded from steam or origin.
>>54067015
Well it continues, now it's been over 6.
>>54067037
> no escape once you have a baby.
I know. I am seeing it every day on the friend I mentioned. He got married, she pushed for it, then pushed for a baby, they have a 10 month old now. He hates everything about both of them, avoids their apartment like plague (and it's a nice one that his somewhat wealthy family paid for) and overall does everything in his power to not have to be home. Despises weekends too.
I don't wanna get there. God I wish there was contraception for men to make sure she doesn't "forget" to take the pill...
>>54067097
And I did the same when I got my drives. But you didn't just throw out all the content you ever had. You only gave it up when you found a better way of storing it. All my media is kept in the same amount of space as a shoebox. I can't see how that makes me a hoarder.
>>54065523
There have been such things, if you're not on any of them you don't belong in any of them.
>>54067141
>pushed for a baby, they have a 10 month old now. He hates everything about both of them
> God I wish there was contraception for men to make sure she doesn't "forget" to take the pill...
>breeder-tier problems
>being this cucked by womyn
(^:
>>54066900
WE'RE NOT JOKING YOU FUCKING FAGGOT.
TALK TO HER, LET HER KNOW YOU *DON'T* WANT A BABY.
>>54067141
Don't, dude. Don't, just don't.
If you never want to have a baby in your life, get a vasectomy. That will fertilize you, although you may not want that.
Use a condom every time, or make it clear to her that you think it's way too early and that you still want to enjoy life.
You've seen how it goes once you have a baby. Right now, you can still move away and forget everything. Once the baby's here, you'll be stuck for 18 years.
>>54067144
Well, for books I don't read e-books. I hate reading on computer screens and I can't afford a Kindle right now.
As for music, I mostly stream which is good enough for most cases. I'm an audiophile when it comes to playing music (as in making music), but for just listening to music the quality of streamed music from Spotify and Wimp is good enough for me. Only in rare cases, where the band I'm looking for isn't on any of the services, do I torrent shit.
It's the same for movies, I threw away all my old DVDs and I do download movies and series I watch, but I don't keep it laying around on the disk. Why would I, I could always re-download it if I want to watch it again.
>>54061715
I just feel indifferent towards everything. Yet somehow this is a bad feeling.
>>54067176
Or 30 years if your kid finds out about 4chan
>>54067141
>I wish there was contraception for men to make sure she doesn't "forget" to take the pill.
Yes get a vasectomy.
>>54066675
>purpose
You asked it yourself http://pastebin.com/raw/S6rMHQi7
>>54067141
>I wish there was contraception for men
There is you fucking faggot
>condoms
>vasectomy
>pills
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Male_contraceptive
>/g/ "depression" thread
>4/5 of it is normalfag bullshit
Makes sense
>>54066849
Le ramdisk meem
You can also shitpost on pretty much most threads of every board
The only thing left is doing some volunteer computing, even then you won't max out 64 GB's unless you have like 90 threads
>>54063627
Maybe. But "working out", read the traditional "lifting things up and down" is mostly done for aesthetics reasons. And when it comes to aesthetics, the face is the only thing that matters.
Now give me a single valid reason to "work out" if you don't get the aesthetics gains out of it because your face is painfully average or below average.
There's absolutely none.
>>54067226
>coitus interruptus
>tfw gf and still miserable
>>54067237
You feel good afterwards
>will never find a cute bf who appreciates free and open source software, plays vidya with me and listens to electronic music
As cliche as it may sound, this makes me very sad
And this >>54063876
>>54067237
>dat pic
He can work out as hard as he likes, he is still a skinny, nerdy jew in the end.
>tfw gf, friends but shit dead-end retail job with no future.
I shouldn't have dropped out of college.
Honestly, i'll trade my gf and friends for a six figure job. GFs are easy to get once you know how to do it as long as you're not an autist, and friends while they're most difficult to make, it's not impossible also.
Feel me /g/, i have no future, no future at all ;_;
>>54067275
No, fuck you
>can't even afford to be NEET
My second highest desire is to become a NEET.
It's second only to death.
Then again, I'm useless in every measurable way so it's only fitting.
People like me should me exterminated on birth.
>>54066968
It isn't supposed to have an uplink, the dystopia has taken over and something as free as the internet doesn't exist
Anyways, old computers with working uplinks aren't rare, you still see anons posting from mid 90's boxes, there's even the IRIX/Amiga/BeOS/MacOS fags who won't let the stuff die and even daily drive it
>>54067257
I've been lifting for two years now. Ugly ass face, no chin, and no surgeon want to fix that shit because "it's not bad enough". I don't feel good afterwards. I don't feel anything. I just did what i had to do. The only thing i'm expecting to feel is soreness. Stop spreading that fucking meme like it applies to everyone.
>>54067261
Exactly.
>>54067236
>volunteer computing
lmao
no anon, the only thing left is selling this stupid fucking shit and going full minimalism
I'm gonna get a single thinkpad with only options that I really need. No gaymur gpus, no gaymur ssd drives, limited storage space that meets my minimal needs. This is the only way of stopping this growing autism.
>>54061715
I'm in 4th semester right now, so not a NEET, but i don't want to go to uni anymore. And i don't even know why i'm even doing this - to get a decent job? I can't imagine any job, that isn't shitty. So i might as well drop out of uni, right?
I just can't imagine any way of life that doesn't suck, even if i would win the lottery or something i still wouldn't feel better. And yeah i want to kill myself, but i don't want to make my mom sad. Yup - That's the only reason.
So yeah... I don't think my life will ever be somewhat good, but i hope that yours will be. I love you all.
>>54067299
>I don't feel anything
>like it applies to everyone.
It should apply to everyone with normal, functioning brain. You're clearly too depressed. Maybe you need some happiness in pill form.
>>54067097
>I can just play from my media centre
data hoarder detected, get help for your mental illness
>>54067283
Feel me you fucking faggot
>>54067412
On the contrary, my brain is functioning perfectly. It acknowledged the fact that lifting weights won't really improve my looks because my face is bringing these gains down. Since it acknowledged that, it also acknowledged that there's no reason to drop dopamine after a workout.
I struggle with panic disorder that threatens to become full blown agoraphobia if I don't start seeing a shrink soon.
And crippling depression and loneliness.
>>54067294
>old computers with working uplinks aren't rare,
They're not, but the fact that he paid some ancient ISP (that would still exist) to keep his shitty DSL uplink running is not very likely.
>>54067422
I don't hoard, see >>54067183
>>54067484
Do you even /g/? You wouldn't need that, do you think people connect their old machines through dial up?
If all of you know why you are depressed why can't you just change that.
>>54067499
How autistic are you? The whole premise of the cartoon is that the Internet doesn't exist anymore and that's why it would be very unlikely that he had a uplink for a computer he hadn't used, judging by the cartoon, for quite some time.
>>54067502
Because the world is bigger than us.
>>54067502
>implying I have the power to overthrow the current system and implement a communist utopia where money isn't an issue
>>54061769
>>54061812
can you guys email me [email protected]
>tfw careers are a shill
>tfw the matrix is real
>tfw i took off my tin foil hat but still hate this society
>>54067563
Come up with a better system that's feasible and I'll support you. And I'm sure others will as well. Get enough support and you'll have the power.
After realizing how shitty I have been feeling for most of my life I finally got diagnosed with clinical depression. I really hope my life turns upside down soon.
>24, almost 25
>Never had a girlfriend
>Got kicked out of uni because I wasn't able to continually motivate myself, even though I find my subject interesting
>Few friends only
>>54061812
>>54061831
I'm too afraid of hell, so i continue living in this hell instead
>>54067542
It is the premise, but if you actually check it the computer has to have a working connection, since it receives a 404 response, though that probably was a slip by the author
>>54067613
You're currently living in a world where 1% owns more than half of the wealth in the world, and I'm fairly sure 80-90% of the world thinks this is very unfair. Yet nothing happens.
So please explain how "enough support" will give me the power to change this.
>>54067640
I don't think those people are really happy though. There are plenty of people here making 6 figures who are truly depressed.
And I don't think the 1% owning shit is what's making you feel depressed.
>>54067617
Did you start on meds yet? Have you noticed any changes? I'm pretty sure I have some sort of depression myself, my life isn't as fucked up as your though.
>>54067639
>if you actually check it the computer has to have a working connection, since it receives a 404 response
Yes, this is the thing that tickles my autism. It should not have a working connection, since it is unlikely that
1) such connections would still exist if the internet doesn't exist
2) the aged guy depicted would pay his internet bill for so long
3) the ISP providing these dinosaurs their connection would make enough revenue from nostalgic people to survive
4) the large ASes that make up the internet still existing, they're just "forgotten"
>>54067663
I have my first appointment with my psychiatrist in April so I don't know yet.
Finishing uni in less than two weeks, and starting a job immediately after. I'm not sure how well this will be going, the project I'm going to work on is complicated as shit and t b h I'm a shit developer. But at least I don't have to worry about money. I'm gonna miss the chill environment of university, there were always some cool people to hang out with during free time.
>>54067682
*May, whoops
>>54063989
if you think that way you'll never have friend, or be happy,
You have to smile to keep them buddy
>>54067661
>I don't think those people are really happy though. There are plenty of people here making 6 figures who are truly depressed.
It basically boils down to Maslow's model. Most people ITT have issues regarding self-esteem and self-realisation/actualisation. I'm depressed because I'm buried in debt and the last day before every single fucking pay day I can't even afford food.
I don't need a qt3.14 average looking korean gf or an expensive gaming rig or even a fancy six figure job or to look like some mix between brad pitt and zyzz or have a lot of friends so I don't feel lonley.... I just don't want to struggle to make ends meet so I could for example afford taking a vacation for the first time in 12 years.
>And I don't think the 1% owning shit is what's making you feel depressed.
No, but I'm just trying to point out that even if I got five billion people to hold hands and sing cumbayah, it isn't going to change anything.
>>54063989
There's no such thing as a God, dummy. Just off yourself, don't be lazy.
>>54067667
>3) the ISP providing these dinosaurs their connection would make enough revenue from nostalgic people to survive
You don't need any kind of special network to get old machines online
>>54067712
Ah, good luck then.
>>54067237
A better haircut, different frames or contacts and shaving off that chinstrap would help though.
>>54067259
>tfw you will never find a gf like this
Kill me.
>>54067742
For fuck's sake. You need an uplink technology, correct?
WWW is an application for the internet (it's even incorrectly referred to as "the internet" in those cartoons), correct?
The cartoon clearly states that the internet doesn't exist anymore, correct?
So assuming he gets a HTTP 404 because there is actually something that replies, there must exist at least some sort of web server at the other end. In order for him to have an end-to-end connection to that web server, he needs to have a network connection. In order to have that network connection, he needs some sort of uplink technology, correct?
Now, since the internet doesn't exist anymore, it is unlikely that there would be some shadow-internet that still exists with the infrastructure and servers and routers because that all consumes power and power costs money. And even if it did, he would still need some sort of uplink to it.
Do you really think you can just take an ethernet cord and stretch it to your closest IXP and everything would just work? The internet is basically made up of a bunch of autonomous networks, each using their own technology. ISPs are the consumer-facing end-points.
>>54067820
Holy shit have you forgot to take your pills you sperg? It's just a plot hole you idiot. The idea of the comic is simple to discern if you aren't completely retarded.
>>54067587
f-for what, anon?
>tfw graduated from University with a CS degree
>tfw still a useless NEET that can't get a job
What is wrong with me? ;-;
>>54067046
all girls cancel a lot, it's a test to see if you get butthurt and they also have an infinite stream of guys talking to them on their iphone
>>54063989
>no family
that isn't a problem, there are millions of reasons for not having one, like you were adopted / your parents were shit, etc and that says positive things. You were in a shitty position but not now you're here with a place to live, job and money
>>54067237
>acne
fix diet
>hair
better haircut
>glasses
get contacts
>>54067856
Nice backpedalling. First make a huge point about how people connect old computers to the internet today and then say "it doesn't matter it's just a comic"
>>54061733
Feel for this meme too :(.
Got ripped. No girl in sight. :(.
>>54067861
Nothing's wrong with you, you're just a loser like a lot of people ITT.
>>54066836
Das ein Schädel-Hirn-Trauma je nach stärke depressiv machen kann ist ziemlich normal
>>54067864
This. Girls make appointments just for the sake of boosting their own self-esteem.
Compare it to hooking up with someone when out clubbing. Sure you might go home together and exchange phone numbers, but it's just a game to feel better about yourselves 90% of the time.
>>54066474
Go with it nigger, they're sphagettibenders too also they'll welcome someone interested in the field
>>54061715
>1st year of CS
>realize I hate programming, never wrote a line of code at home
>>54068008
get the fuck off this board now
>>54067861
Corporate culture. Learn to comply and play ball because a lot of people are afraid of the socially awkward would be serial killer or mass murderer the ends up on the news or winds up shooting up the place.
>>54062093
Go to the leaderboard and search for group activities and stuff. Cooking with strangers is nice. Also remember to go out.
>>54068026
But I can barely even get an interview. Can they sense my social awkwardness from my resume alone?
>>54068144
do you even have any skills? just getting a CS degree isnt enough my man
>>54068144
Yes they can. You might as well kill yourself if you haven't figured out how to land a job by the time you're out of university.
>>54061769
kek
>>54066982
I'm so easily triggered by that kind of things. I wanna cry every time.
I'm nigger.
>>54066420
fuck her?
>>54067402
My only hope is pretty much this: one day machine intelligence is finally developed,it rapidly solves all our (objectively small and stupid) human problems. We get to live in an utopian society where we do not depend on wageslaving to survive, where there are no illnesses, no crimes, no need for wars and politics because post-scarcity and humans don't control the infrastructure anymore anyway. Humanity will probably split into thousands of self-interested groups pursuing their own ideas of ideal lifestyle. All the present wreck of the world will be quickly forgotten, like a bad dream.
I hope that will happen some day, so I continue to live. I have came to the same conclusion again and again: the world is too complex now, humans just can't control it anymore. Some more advanced form of intelligence is needed to fix all the wreck we have created. It is not impossible, after all...
>>54068152
yes, I even have a github with a bunch of projects.
>>54061715
Hey anons,
I work in Application Security in international company, have a computer science degree, have multiple certifications, already published talks in security.. still taking my masters (last year) in Information security, I'm 23 yo and have already 2 years of work experience the field that love and been offered to work in major companies. Have a girlfriend, reasonable socialife (coffee everyweek with friends) and workout everyweek.
Why do why only feel emptiness? Anxiety? And void? Why can't I sleep?
>>54068310
You are a narcissist.
>>54068310
I wish I had your life anon. Sadly I can't help you.
>>54066396
>>54066411
>>54066531
>tfw never have to alimony
Honestly I'm kind of scared of a real woman taking almost everything away from me.
>>54068310
Go rape a prostitute or something
>>54068328
>narcissist
I just afraid of letting people down.. I can't quit..
>>54068310
Because security is a superficial meme field. You security researchers are basically extorting money from IT companies (make a virus then make an antivirus. Write a stupid unsecured program, then backdoor it, then fix the security hole etc). Both black and white hats and whatever color of hat is fashionable now.
You aren't dumb. You could go into bioinformatics or AI/ML or become a developer. You choose to become a meme h@cker instead.
Okay fine.
>Been depressed going on 13 years now
>Been getting worse and worse
>No job
>No life
>No education
>No girlfriend
>No prostpects
>No hobbies
>Basically I play video games, masturbate and watch movies/listen to music
>I spend all my time in a wasteland closet sized bedroom because I'm too anxious and afraid to leave it
>Started thinking about killing myself recently
>Decided at that point I needed to see somebody
>Seen 3 different shrinks, no real help
>Taken about 4 different meds, no real help
>A good day is one where I don't feel like ending my life for a period of more than one hour straight
>I can't see a way out of this
>Constantly trying to talk myself into ending it
It's only going down hill and I don't know why I bother staying alive
>>54068443
Even before I went to college I was already I don't want to sound cheesy but yeah, dumping db and defacing websites was my hobby.. I founded that very good and rewarding.. If you want to work in security you have to be a white/grey hat.. Black hat forget it. Can be more rewarding but its riskier..
You have a nice point, security is fashion and marketing now.
Any of you nerds tried nofap ?
I didn't do it intentionally but didn't fap for a week and all kinds of weird feelings started happening, some good some bad.
>no job
>no family
>no friends
>no gf
>no education
>almost 30
>fell for /fit meme. Fit as fuck tonnes of energy.
No idea what to do. This year I have achieve nothing so far other than increasing my fitness.
It feels like im wasting my life. Things will just get harder from here.
No idea how to
>>54068563
Fapping takes up about 5 hours my day currently so for the first time ever I'm going to try a no fap next week.
I'm guessing it'll be harder than stopping smoking.
>>54068612
>Fapping takes up about 5 hours my day currently
..h..how is that even possible ?
>>54068563
If you are a fap addict it's a good idea to stop. Else it will have no effect (been on nofap for two weeks, literally the only thing I got was an always urge to fap).
>>54068610
Read some books bro
No matter how much money or attention from people I get the emptiness that I don't have a delicate feminine big butt fuccboi in my arm doesn't go away
>>54068610
Ditch /fit/, go to /lit/ and /sci/ or /diy/
>>54068639
>>54068612
>>54068563
I've cut down massively on the amount I fap. I used to fap every night after smoking weed but now haven't smoked for about 3 weeks and fap once a week only.
Don't really have the urge to fap, but pop boners all the time at work and definitely feel more motivated to find real sex rather than fapping. Fapping feels like cheating now.
>>54068646
Readers are some of the most depressed people on earth. Only writers are more depressed than them.
>>54068634
It's possible when you need 2 & 1/2 hours to cum and you watch multiple full scenes.
>>54068526
My point is more deep than that. You see, humanity is ridden with problems. These problems can only be solved by applying science and engineering.
Only a small part of the population does science and engineering. There is this whole burden of FIRE economy - lawyers, financiers, accountants, rentiers etcetera. They don't push progress forward, instead they just leech off productive people (scientists, engineers, programmers and workers).
You chose to be a leech too. You could develop cool stuff that helps people. Instead you chose to become a digital lockpicker into a career. idk I wouldn't like to end like this. There is a cool example of hacker becoming brilliant dev though: http://www.bloomberg.com/features/2015-george-hotz-self-driving-car/ but it's an outlier.
If there were less progress inhibition leechers, who knows what the life looked like now? Maybe we could live in a post-scarcity utopia by now..
>>54068695
>humanity is ridden with problems. These problems can only be solved by applying science and engineering.
lol
>>54068730
There is no political solution, anon.
>be trans
>pretty mixed between androgynous/feminine features and some masculine ones
>really insecure about appearance; don't want to look like a super obvious faggot
>people always tell me I look great, I never know if it's true or if they're just trying to be patronising
send help
I never asked for any of this lgbt nonsense; I just want to be a normal girl, fuck.
>>54068813
>I never asked for any of this lgbt nonsense; I just want to be a normal girl, fuck.
And I want to be young, fuck.
>>54068813
>people always tell me I look great, I never know if it's true or if they're just trying to be patronising
They mean it.
>>54068760
Politics solves some problems but in aggregate it creates more problems.
>>54068813
I wonder if it's just so common that everyone wants to be a girl or if just all of those people happen to be on /g/ (me included)
>>54066900
Looks like she just wanted a provider. If you're unhappy, end the relationship before it's too late.
>>54068022
Programming is monkey tier bullshit.
Real god-tier is math, physics, mechanical and electric engineers.
>>54068828
I don't know. I feel like there's also a lot of people who then go and refer to me with male pronouns, which I guess means that I'm not doing well enough for them to see me as a girl? I don't know. I think I look pretty girly, but I have a really terrible voice and shit.
>>54068845
I think it's the fact that people who are trans tend to spend their early lives on the net because they're drawn to the fact that you can just *be* the gender of you see yourself as.
So trans people end up either as rabid SJW faggots if their internet residence winds them up on tumblr or some other hugbox shithole, or they wind up here eventually.
>>54065523
#installgentoo on irc.installgentoo.com
>>54068925
>Programming is monkey tier bullshit.
There are too many kinds of programming for that to hold true.
>>54068813
Just accept that you're a man goddamn
>>54068813
you arent a girl, you're mentally ill, seek help
>>54068993
>>54069010
It doesn't work that way, bud. I'd rather die than be a man, and I don't want to die. And (if it were theoretically possible, which it isn't), forcibly making my brain be okay with being in a male body would be effectively killing *me*, so that's not an option. I would sooner kill myself than allow my brain to be raped like that.
The bright side is that estrogen does indeed feel incredible, and I guess I'm not the worst looking trans person out there at least... It still feels absolutely terrible that I have to put up with this shit when most people don't, though, not gonna lie.
>>54061999
pls fuck of to your shit chan normie faggot chan. I bet you are not virgin.
REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
>>54067402
>So i might as well drop out of uni, right
Do you want to become a white nigger?
>>54068845
I want body of a little girl, but don't want to have sex at all. Like being children with no sexuality and no filthy thoughts.
btw pretty masculine 20yo male
>>54068931
Speaking as someone who refers to trans people by their birth gender for me it's just that I don't think of someone who was a woman and became a man as the gender they want to be. They'll always be what they were born as in my mind. It's got nothing to do with how convincing they are. In fact I saw a documentary where a woman who became a man went and hung out with a bunch of other blokes and they didn't figure it out. She was more buff and manly than I am, had children of her own and I still think of her as a woman.
Some people just won't do the pronoun thing anon, it's not out of disrespect, they just don't do it.
Also you should definitely see a psychologist. You may be genuinely mentally ill if you think you were born as the wrong gender.
>>54069062
it would suck to get into a relationship with a trans, thinking they're a normal girl.
I hope you guys tell everyone ahead of time. if not, you're fucked in the head.
>>54069177
post more mara.
>>54068845
Would you like to be someone who don't have to take decisions, who just have to be cute all day long, wear cute clothes, have great sex, and have someone else do the hard decisions, and be a productive member of society at your place ?
That's what being a girl is.
No wonder why so much people want to be one: it's a rational choice.
>>54069310
Yeah i don't get it why there are people who like being a man. But i don't care about having sex, i just want to have someone to cuddle, but that will never happen anyways, since i'm not cute.
>>54069207
>Some people just won't do the pronoun thing anon, it's not out of disrespect, they just don't do it.
If, theoretically speaking (and not trying to say I am), I was that convincing and there was no way you could sitinguish, as in the example you cited, what makes me NOT a woman?
I hope you realise that, on a physical level, the hormones running through you define your perception of the world, in the way of whichever's gender hormones you have in you. And, if you say chromosomes, I know you know that there's women out there with a Y chromosome, born as women due to genetic defect, and I doubt you call *them* men.
If you can't see someone that is a woman in every observable way as a woman, then what the fuck does being a woman even mean to you? I can't see a reason why you would refer to such a person by their birth sex OTHER than disrespect desu senpai. I'm not just saying this to call you names; I actually want to hear from you how can it be that two people, such as a normal man and a trans man in your example, can be classified differently despite being indistinguishable.
>Also you should definitely see a psychologist. You may be genuinely mentally ill if you think you were born as the wrong gender.
No shit I'm mentally ill. It's called gender identity disorder by modern medicine. The officially sanctioned most effective treatment is hormone replacement therapy followed by pursuit of life as the target gender. I hope that you're aware of that, just sayin.
>>54069213
>I hope you guys tell everyone ahead of time.
I do. I'm not delusional as to how what I am is perceived. At least i'm not into guys so I don't have to deal with the drama of how the idea of being with someone with a dick makes otherwise logical guys insecure. I don't want to be with someone who is vapid enough to dislike me for aspects of my life that I have no control over, anyway.
>>54068310
>>54068526
>dumping db and defacing websites was my hobby
Found your problem right here. You turned your hobby into a job/career. People like to force this life choice down everyone's throats but in my opinion that's not always a good thing. What you like will stop being fun and end up a chore and then eventually you just hate it altogether. I've seen this quite a few times including myself.
>Why do why only feel emptiness? Anxiety? And void? Why can't I sleep?
It's why you're feeling that emptiness is because you've been doing it(since high school?) for so long. Turning a hoppy into a job/career just isn't for everyone really, its why I keep my work life, home life, school life and, hoppies all separate from each other to the point where I don't want to even think about either one while doing the other. It's probably good for building up credits, reputation, job apps, ect. but that shit is a killer on the mental health. Moot was kind of the same way, when he made 4chan. It started out being fun but then it became a real job just trying to manage and maintain the site. He mentioned once that he barly had any time to even look or browse the site HE made. That shit was taking a toll on him.
testing captcha clover
>>54069456
>at least i'm not in the guys
too bad, you're going to be made to take this dick gurl
>>54061733
Thanks for removing /popular/ bro. Greatest boards of all the times.
>>54066112
she liked who you were. not who you are now that you want to fuck her pussy. understand this phenomenon and your women problems will be over.
>>54066420
>>54066474
>>54066838
>>54066900
>>54066882
>>54067253
>>54067275
how's the sex feels like?
;_;
>>54069576
this, she probably dreamed you of being the attentive caring and loving daddy she never had and when she saw you just want some pussy (which is only normal) she was obvious crushed
>>54069636
Are you underage?
>>54069683
no ;_; 20 yo
I have wasted so much money this year in bars just to avoid going home.
Gonna stop that garbage
>>54069456
>being with someone with a dick makes otherwise logical guys insecure. I don't want to be with someone who is vapid enough to dislike me for aspects of my life that I have no control over, anyway.
Okay so you claim guys wouldn't want to be with a guy not because they're heterosexual, but because it would make them insecure?
Grow the fuck up you damaged tranny sack of shit.
>>54068097
This
Groups are great for making friends
>hot girl wants d
>i dont even want to bone cuz i know it wont last
>confused as to why she does considering im a loser with no real friends
>cant trust anyone other than my brother and cant even trust him on some shit
>literally hate life right now
If i told you faggots the whole story you probably wouldnt believe me. no one else has. I feel more alone than i ever have but i dont want anyone to know because they will just think i did it to myself and/or had it coming. And maybe i did.
>>54069732
>Okay so you claim guys wouldn't want to be with a guy not because they're heterosexual, but because it would make them insecure?
>see pretty girl with pretty feminine features
>like said feminine features, and go to hook up with her
>learn that she also has a penis
>somehow you're all of a sudden gay for having been attracted to said feminine features
Yes, insecure is indeed the word I was looking for.
>>54069781
Holy shit you actually believe it, you weren't just shitposting.
So what you're saying is that if I have a dick and balls, but I put on a dress I'm a woman?
You're fucking delusional to boot.
You need to spend less time on tumblr in your hugbox and more time in the real world where your asinine opinions are met with real discussion and not a sounding board of congratulations and comforting reassurance.
>Been a NEET for long
>Decide to step it up and stop being a pussy
>Go back to school
>Meet people, meet girl
>Ignore girl, math comes first
>Years later
>Still a trashy NEET
>Girl gets my number somehow
>Talks to me
>I went back to pussy mode so now it's harder to just ask her out
God fucking dammit.
>>54069780
Go ahead anon. Even if nobody believes you it can't hurt to put it down on paper, it helps sort out your thoughts and put shit in order. You might even re-evaluate your priorities on your own.
>>54068285
Beautifully well-said...
>>54069833
She doesn't want the D anon, if she did she would have asked you out when you weren't NEET and spineless.
I think maybe you're just starved for affection and really want this girl to be into you.
>>54067858
To talk.
>>54069828
>So what you're saying is that if I have a dick and balls, but I put on a dress I'm a woman?
That's literally not what I said at all. I think you're massively uninformed as to how this works. It's literally not the same as "just putting on a dress".
Hormones literally give you the features of the gender, the way it naturally works through puberty. I don't think you understand that I actually have boobs and shit that are as real as any other woman's, which obviously are features that are biologically attractive to heterosexual men. That's literally how it works; if anyone is being delusional it's you.
>>54069877
Then why the fuck did she get my number
She was kinda shy too so it wouldn't surprise me if she expected me to do the asking out like usual
Like really I was hardly the only one convinced she was into me. Right now she doesn't even know what I'm doing with my life.
>>54069781
No. It makes them rightfully not interested in a man who believes they're a woman. The difference between you and a drag queen is the jaw line and some leg hair, remember that.
>>54069456
Way to be dismissive of a conversation you started.
>used to like technology
>don't like technology anymore
>lost all sense of purpose in life
>>54069945
It's likely she had a breakup, moved city, or got fired from her job and wanted some emotional comfort.
If she's giving the right signals by all means ignore what I say and just ask her out, but if you're doubting it then it's not there, you've made it up.
>>54068944
The problem is, that's not a BBS. General-purpose IRC channels are even worse in message quality than (image|bulletin)boards because they are so rapid-fire. (And moot was probably right about userscripts, BTW.)
>>54067151
I haven't looked for new ones in a while but every one of those I've known today is either catatonic or outright dead.
>>54069940
You aren't a woman if you were born a man. You're a man who removed his penis and took hormones to look like a woman. Stating facts does not make me delusional. Like the fact that without plastic surgery you will have a man face for the rest of your life, and your body will always be that of a man.
>>54069983
>the things I like define me
don't so this.
>>54069940
>literally literally literally literally
just stop.
you don't have a real vagina. that is what heterosexual men want to fuck. that is why they are not sexually attracted to you. anything else is just a convoluted bunch of rationalizations.
>>54061715
pretty good. but i;m not a NEET autismo
>/prog/ was cast into abyss for this
Saged, reported, called the cops.
>>54068813
>people always tell me I look great, I never know if it's true or if they're just trying to be patronising
Probably a bit of both. Nobody tells someone who's genuinely ugly that they look good (Because most people aren't actually oblivious to their physical appearance), but I often tell people who look insecure that they look good just so they get a bit of a confidence boost.
>>54069940
>Hormones literally give you the features of the gender
Insofar as a pig resembles a farm, sure.
>>54069780
Come on faggot, tell us
>>54069945
Anon let me get this straight. You had this girl in your life, and then you didn't? Did I get that right or did I miss something?
Okay now that we established that, what do you think is the worst outcome of asking her on a date? She says no and you stop talking? Fine, life goes on, you can clearly live without her. She says no and you keep talking? You gain another friend. She says yes and it fails and goes horribly and she never talks to you again? See point 1. She says yes and it goes well and you see her again? Kudos you dated a woman.
None of those are a bad thing anon. They just are a thing that happens in life.
>>54061715
I am not NEET buy am mildly depressed.
>>54069780
She's probably playing a prank on you, and everyone's going to laugh at you and post the video online.
OK, lets see if there is anyone more fucked up than me...
ill go with be me format because its fastest
>be me 10 years ago, have decent job(enough money to have a nice place rented, all crapexpensive PCs, projectorslatest smartphones, travel here and there etc...),gf, was gamer but had discipline to not let go of my social life but when I got chance(be free and alone for a week) I would get sloppy as a pig in shithole,total mess of apartment, lines of coke, H or whatever I would findand played some game for 2-3 days without sleeping
> bought Diablo 3, more as jok,wasn't a fan of Blizz crap(so not WOW case, i was more in line with Arcanum, Torment,Fallout1,2, Witcher and the like faggot).
>got soo hooked up by that stupid game(IDK why, i honestly didnt even like to play it), i didnt even notice I lost my job and gf while playing, i didnt even notice i was over a year in unpaid rented apartment (owners were literally afraid of me, i was a good guy, paid always on time, and all of a sudden payments stopped and I looked like unshaved raccoon with mad look in my eyes(im not your average nerd, im kinda beefy )...
>i was totally unaware of the situation i was in, got hooked on heroin in the process, had a shitload of expensive electro crap that I sold slowly to have enough for smokes, really strong coffee with loads of sugar and H(i had some really good connection so H was really cheap for me,(read:as if i bought K and not just for my use), also , never needles, nose or smoking
>anyway, father came for me,pull me out of that apartment , now im living in his garage(he has different senpai that hates me, my 2 halfsis+stepmo would kill me if they could)
>last 5 years of my life I wake up around 15:00h, make coffee, take 16mg subutex and sit in front of PC for around 18h-20h/day(and i dont even know what to do with it anymore)
>im 36y/o with spine of 120 y/o Jap lady,live in fathers garage,didnt wash for 4 months, and i know it is from therapy but im not depressed at all
>>54068695
My team manages security of a web application with millions of users, so you can think that I'm passive to society, we keep things in order in that little universe
>>54070099
>You aren't a woman if you were born a man. You're a man
I'm not who you are replying to but that's an oversimplification. Both genes and hormones play a role in determining who someone is, so a man who's lost his testicles and is taking female hormones isn't quite a man because thanks to the altered body chemistry he won't behave or look quite like a man. However, clearly he isn't a woman, either, lacking the reproductive organs, the DNA, the brain structure, etc. The obvious answer ,at least to me, is to think of the transgendered as neither men nor women but their own thing, like "the third sex" in some Asian societies. I doubt many of them would be on board with this idea, though.
>>54070350
You got a Y chromosome. You're male.
>>54070350
I still kinda see it like a victim of severe head trauma - you are who you were when you got your head smashed in, but you just act erratically and have no mental filters.
Gary Busey is a perfect example.
Attend a demoparty, they are niche enough to not attract the non-tech crowd too much. Maybe artists, mostly programmers, not many SJWs.
>>54069961
>The difference between you and a drag queen is the jaw line and some leg hair, remember that.
HRT actually doesn't really do jack for body hair. Figures you don't know that much about what it does and doesn't do.
>Way to be dismissive of a conversation you started.
I just feel like most people aren't pricks with a stick up their ass about this like you seem to be, with your "oh, even if they are 100% indistinguishable, I'm still going to say there's a difference when I can't even spot one".
>>54070153
Good. I don't want heterosexual men to fuck me. But if you read further up, the whole reason the conversation started was from someone stating that it's wrong for someone who otherwise looks completely not like a trans person to not be up front about it. The entire conversation was about trans people who ARE attractive to heterosexual men.
>>54070218
Do you think that cis women got their tits in some way that is magically different from how I did? Considering that the features came about exactly the same way as they do in any other women (from exposure to estrogen/lack of testosterone), I'm not really sure what the difference you're trying to make is.
>>54070185
Yeah; that's kinda what I mean; I don't think it feels particularly good to be on the receiving end of that, since ultimately that ultimately would mean that I appear to look not good enough to need encouragement. Feels like I'm being babied, sometimes.
>>54061715
>TFW my dad recommend to go to a for profit school, and cause me to be in 50k debt
>TFW when I got layoff my first job I got after gradulation
>>54070265
Yeah I left a big chunk of story out of the subject
If you were friends with a girl and then learned through some other people (then started kinda seeing a few painfully obvious signals), and then ignored her, wouldn't you feel like a dick?
Cause that's what I did. Not because I disliked her, but quite the opposite. I just felt that it was at the worst time possible and so I ignored her.
Guess what happened: She went from a pretty smart girl that was doing excellent to get really poor scores. I got popular, people treated me like a king, undeservedly so. And now that I'm at the point where I start regretting things, like having done that to her, she gets my number from a friend and talks to me like it was nothing. Ages later. I didn't even know her whereabouts.
However anon, I thought of something. Whether or not she likes me, whatever the case might be, even if I'm completely wrong about this (which I severely doubt), why should I give her the cold shoulder again? If I'm told I'm annoying or to be mistaken, that's fine. Because I can then just move on with my life instead.
You know what I'm going to talk to her. It's stupid to keep thinking like this. It's been a week fucking running around in circles with this fucking subject.
>>54070343
I'm 27 and I've never moved out, never held a job for more than 3 months, consider suicide on an hourly basis and have never even kissed a woman.
I might not be worse, but I'm just as bad.
>>54070463
Shit, talking about leaving chunks, I meant
>then learned through some other people that she liked you
>>54070423
>I appear to look not good enough to need encouragement
You may need to just work on your confidence, and body language. Someone can look great, but if they're slumping over, awkwardly moving around, or constantly messing with their clothes/checking to see if they look okay, etc. it's quite obvious that they're not confident in their appearance. Sometimes the only change needed is to just act more confident in yourself.
As far as being babied, that's just how people treat women in general. Not sure that's ever going to go away.
>>54070350
are you one of those transfluids or whatyoumaycallem?
From all the bullshit that internet did to ruin all these new generations of young people, most hilarious is ponybros and children who are not he or she but xe or whatever, or kins, dragonkin,catkin and that bullshit.
I said that to every goth before: look at the pic when you were a fucking goth, do you feel ashamed now while somewhat grown up.
They all are, same with these new crapers , they should check in 10 years crap they wrote on internet.
There is just one thing good with getting old, you smell bullshit from a getgo(its not my line but its golden)
>>54070423
>"oh, even if they are 100% indistinguishable, I'm still going to say there's a difference when I can't even spot one".
that's the thing, though. if hrt + surgery could transform a male to a female with 100% accuracy, no one would be having this conversation. but no mtf looks "100% like a woman", even with clothes on.
>>54070402
I can't say I agree with you on head trauma. When you look at cases like https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Phineas_Gage (he's be most famous, more severe one) the survivor is a different man. It's like Windows 10 to Windows 7: a new version derived from the previous one but distinct from it because it behaves in a consistently different way.
>>54070423
>HRT actually doesn't really do jack for body hair
Didn't say it did. The implication was that you would shave instead of somehow combine strawman and ad hominem arguments into one giant sign that reads "damaged goods".
>I just feel like most people aren't pricks
I didn't even start the insults here. You did. After you couldn't handle the reality that most people simply won't treat you as a real woman, but they won't treat you like you're still a man either. Also more strawmen. You really like making shit up in that damaged head of yours don't you.
>Do you think that cis women
Stop right there. Having the parts does not make the whole. Imagine a jigsaw with 3 missing corners and a giant hole where some lazy kid couldn't be bothered putting the clouds together because there's a hundred white pieces and he had to leave kindergarten. Then that puzzle stands up and claims to be a finished picture. That's trannies.
>Good. I don't want heterosexual men to fuck me
Nope. Flagrant misrepresentation of the facts here. Again you've convinced yourself that the discussion that is happening is completely different to what is actually being said. You're the one making accusations that straight men should fuck other men and not think of it as gay just because the other man has tits.
>Feels like I'm being babied, sometimes.
That's your problem then. People aren't nice to those they consider not worth their time. If someone is nice enough to complement you on your appearance take it as it is and stop reading so much into it and you won't judge everything that happens to you so harshly.
>went out on a limb and moved to Midwest to be with gf of 4 years
>very happy but did poorly in school; never went to college
>been programming for 5 years, but can't find any jobs out here that want someone unproven
>feel a nagging sense in the back of my mind that I will never follow my passions because I can't afford to take risks anymore
>staring down the face of $2200 in CC debt that is stable, but brings me down to pennies every pay period
>my wage slave job is part time, they have hung me out to dry for 3 months about possible full time which I've already given up on
This is one part get-it-out, and one part advice searching.
>>54070350
In a way, you're not wrong in putting it that way, and that's probably the most rational way I've seen someone who is neutral in this whole shitstorm put it.
Obviously, being trans, I just want to be like any other normal woman, and as a result my brain and body chemistry at this point does function more in parallel to that of another woman's than to that of another man's, due to the medications I'm on. But, I can't deny that you're not wrong, that there are some effects that growing up with male body chemistry would have resulted in, so ultimately, I've just had a bit of both that most "normal" humans don't have.
So of course it's a complicated situation. But ultimately calling me a man like any other still isn't accurate. In a society where we only function as if there are two possible labels, it makes more sense to be labelled as a woman, though. At least, medically and legally I am, though.
>>54070502
>As far as being babied, that's just how people treat women in general. Not sure that's ever going to go away.
I hate that I never can tell between if people are treating me a certain way that men wouldn't be treated because I'm trans or because I'm a woman.
>>54070534
Well, as >>54070350 said, it's a complicated situation. But if it looks like a fish and acts like a fish, it logically probably makes more sense to call it a fish than anything else, is what I'm saying.
>>54070538
You're really clutching at straws here with flimsy arguments that are just variations of one another.
The fact remains he's still the same man yes? He didn't just poof out of existence and get replaced by the new one did he? This isn't some magical universe where his mind just disappears and is swapped with a different one.
>>54070591
If it floats on water it's a witch. Burn it.
>>54070503
I'm "cis" aka normal. I'm just pissed at SJWs and identity politicking college kids in general and familiar with phenomena like https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hijra_(South_Asia). Put two and two together, and you've got a humane, you could say traditional (albeit not in the West), alternative to the usual transgender politics.
>>54061715
Not tech related
>>>/r9k/
Kill yourselves.
>>54070463
>If you were friends with a girl and then learned through some other people (then started kinda seeing a few painfully obvious signals), and then ignored her, wouldn't you feel like a dick?
Oh I did exactly that. I know what that feels like. You run through scenarios in your head about how you'd do things differently, and that one time when she looked at you real long and lingering and you should have kissed her etc. etc. etc. Then you realise she doesn't even think about you, but that's not a bad thing, it's just a fact of life that people forget those whom they do not hang around.
>I just felt that it was at the worst time possible and so I ignored her.
I thought she didn't like me. I thought it was impossible. So I ignored the signs when they were clear as day and pretended that nothing was wrong.
>she gets my number from a friend and talks to me like it was nothing
If she was still hung up on you it would come up in conversation the moment you talked about relationships/romance/sex or any previous shared social experiences.
>why should I give her the cold shoulder again
Don't. I just said don't ask her out if she's not interested at all.
>You know what I'm going to talk to her
Do. You can always do with more friends, especially ones that actually appreciate you.
>>54070467
well, how do you get money?
I get my substitute drugs free from my Country, i dont eat a lot, im as expensive to my father as much as electricity for PC, internet(around 50$ a month), my real mother is sending me tobacco and food..
so i cost to live around 100$ a month, 50 father, 50 mother and around 200$ my government, in pills that keep my addiction in check(but , fuck them, I payed taxes when i worked and when I had a firm, government was one that made me bankrupt so fuck them, let they return now a little)
As far as gfs go, you should kinda get over it , even with hooker, you cant evolve as person until you pass that crap, you just need to be aggressive(not hit anyone), you are probably very passive so gf is probably out of the question, but get hooker and get it over with, you will build up that sex is something more than it is(trust me, porns and all the crap you see online is fake as..fake,really fake, no one normal is act like that, but on the other hand , they do because they are bombed by media that they should act like that, try to ignore all that)
Also, if you are very sensitive, go to mental institution, there is ward for emotionally weak people(no shame in that), its mixed open ward so you mingle with women who are also shy or whatnot as you..
Also, drugs are underestimated , they really rule(i know this sound adolescent but dont take meth or crack and you are golden for as much years as this life is worth living long)
>spent an hour at work trying to figure out why refurbished Mac won't boot
>have 12 I need to set up and not much time
>have a cd but there's no cd tray, just metal panels and no buttons except power (it's one of the old tower ones)
>try to boot into recovery, nothing
>try to install from internet, nothing
>try random keys on boot
>press F12
>cd tray out of nowhere
>mfw
>>54067046
that's called a shit-test. think of it in freudian father terms. children always try to pull horseshit with their parents to see what they can get away with. women frequently do the same when enclosed in a relationship/potential relationship. you're supposed to never let them pass a single shit-test.
>>54066474
I went to a js meetup with a buddy of mine and it was surprisingly not awkward at all. They had lots of food and the talks that they had at the even were well done. No one gave a shit that we had never been there before and were just interested in getting to know us.
>>54070136
>the things that make me enjoy life make life worth living
>this is wrong somehow
Your opinion is so retarded that I forgot this isn't /r9k/ for a sec.
>>54069860
Now that I've said it, what do we do about it?
I'm not just some armchair philosopher, I'm also a quite decent programmer..
>>54070583
First thing is get rid of the debt. It compounds your self doubt and makes you take stock of your life in reverse order by starting with what's wrong.
Second is finish your quals. You've been doing it 5 years at whatever level, so you know you can do it.
>>54070668
>I'm just pissed at SJWs and identity politicking college kids in general and familiar with phenomena like https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hijra_(South_Asia). Put two and two together, and you've got a humane,
I'm not sure if you read the page you linked, but the described treatment of said people is anything but humane.
While I agree that SJWs and transdender politics/identity politics in general are absolutely bullshit as they are now, because it's mostly SJWs trying to exercise power over other people just for the sake of it, I can't deny the fact that it's a complex issue that does require work to be done about it.
While, as I said earlier, I agree with you that technically trans people are complicated to physically classify as to what exactly they are, I think that legally instituting such a system in which they're exorcised to their own class would only serve to encourage people who look down upon trans people as "those other weird people", as opposed to just being more accepting of trans people being a thing and integrating them into the existing system better.
you all should see therapists or go to /r9k/ or something. /g/ isn't some bar for you to unload all of your interests and emotional baggage on us. if you have other interests or other problems or whatever, go branch out. visit other boards or seek other ways to deal with them than by making /g/ about your shit.
stop being such self-absorbed faggots.
>>54061715
>NEET
Yes
>Basement dwelling
No
My situation has improved a lot since last year, but I still want HIM back.
Also my CPU cooler died yesterday and I need to survive with this shitty self-build solution until I get a replacement.
>>54070720
Autismbux
I think I'm slightly more realistic than you, because you seem to have some pretty jaded opinions.
>>54062078
>>54064002
Here ya go.
>>54070809
>people enjoying the thread
>people confessing and giving advice
>can simply avoid thread
>"/g/ isn't some bar for you to unload all of your interests and emotional baggage ON US"
>"stop being such self-absorbed faggots"
The irony is tearing my screen apart. Lol, what a self-centered faggot on a high horse. Sorry for bothering you with my emotions, anon. Will not happen again, I promise.
>>54069062
>It doesn't work that way, bud. I'd rather die than be a man, and I don't want to die
Hard to understand that. I'm a male and I wouldn't care much if I lived as a female. Or as a male. It wouldn't affect my life much.
Why should gender matter so much?
>>54070891
Because when you define yourself by it you want it to be as unique as possible.
>>54070776
>>54067980
>>54066568
I know I should just deal with it and go, even if it's a pleb meetup they'll probably be stoked that someone is taking an interest in whatever project they are working on but fuck me it's hard to make that first step.
>>54063964
>citalopram
u depressed nigga
>>54069310
>No wonder why so much people want to be one: it's a rational choice.
This. Being born with the wrong gender sounds like a forced meme or some kind of autism. Truth is, our society loves women too much, they literally live their lives on easy mode. No wonder some people want piece of this pie.
There was a tranny on another chan that said that she(he) wants to be cute & be loved, that's why (she)he wants to be a women. Wouldn't it be fair just to love both genders equally instead of creating these bizarre parallel universes for males and females where they wear different clothes, spoke differently, learn differently, live differently, are being loved differently etc.
>>54070891
>why should gender matter so much :^) ?
From /r9k/ to tumblr on the technology board, thread took a weird turn, shit's getting out of control.
>>54070834
I also want to be this dedicated as this dude
>>54063964
>Taking antidepressants for a concussion
It's actually worse that you lie about it.
>>54066531
i wonder, if 30 is the wizard age, what happens if you lose your virginity after that age
OP here. My reason? Here we goooo~
>Always been weird
>No friends since I was a kid
>Intrusive violent thoughts of murder and suicide
>Molested as a young child, I have come to terms with it now but back then it made me confused and want to die as a young child
>Every "friend" I've had is a shit bag and it never works out
>Lonely
>no gf
>just want to die mostly because I don't belong here
>I don't care about people, lack of empathy
>I am going to eventually murder people and do sick things in my future as I see it
>I am a sexual deviant
>I've been a sexual predator since I was young as I have touched girls without second thought and damaged some of them
>I've given two girls concussions and I don't feel bad about hurting them at all
There is probably more but that is just me. This is the most honest I have ever been in my life. Thank you anons for being in this thread. I will make more.
>>54070980
Didn't you know? Feminists don't want equality, they want superiority.
>>54071008
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BcQD2Z89vfU
Also here's a song to go with this thread
>>54070990
You lose the powers but get to keep the dental and pension as a congratulations.
>>54070797
>the described treatment of said people is anything but humane.
Their treatment is par for South Asian societies. A Western nation, on the other hand, could implement the same thing to be humane but its own standards.
>being more accepting of trans people being a thing and integrating them into the existing system better
I simply don't see a system of "encouragement" happening that doesn't produce identity politics we have today, especially with the precedent set.
>>54070716
Well, at least it went good. I just went ahead and asked her out and she was cool with it.
Remind me again why the fuck did it take me a week to do this
>>54070980
>they literally live life on easy mode
Lol, they sure do, especially when it comes to relationships with other people, integration in groups, making friends, expectations from them, responsibility and the list goes on.
And feminists have the nerve to tell us it's the opposite and ask for more, this is rage inducing.
>>54071015
I know, that's why I'm a plain old Humanist.
Modern feminism is misandry.
>>54070831
probably, i know i dont know but as I say, therapy makes me get over myself and actually live with myself
But, i know i tried everything worth trying while alive.
So thats either my illusion that makes me deal with myself easier or truth, i honestly dont give a shit.
What the fuck is autismbux, welfare?
>>54071008
See a therapist and volunteer for psychiatric evaluation and incarceration before you do real harm to somebody, including yourself.
>>54071045
>Remind me again why the fuck did it take me a week to do this
Because you over anlyse things far too much.
>>54071074
Oh anon I'm far beyond that, I've taken so many medications and seen many doctors but they don't truly know how sick I actually am. I'm a lost cause and that's the way it is. I've been in psych hospitals twice and probably going back anytime. But thank you anon.
>>54071008
/r9k/: the post
>>54067633
Don't worry anon, hell isn't even biblical. The clergy just stole the idea from pagan mythology and incorporated it on their own. Much like Easter and Christmas.
>>54070980
>Wouldn't it be fair just to love both genders equally
No, because, biologically, men are less valuable than women.
>>54071065
>What the fuck is autismbux, welfare?
Yeah.
I often fail to complete required forms and my payments go into arrears. I can't even manage to get money from the government properly.
>>54071008
http://personality-testing.info/tests/LSRP.php
See if this explains it.
>>54071123
If they don't know how sick you are that means you probably weren't 100% honest with them. I know I wasn't, and it's why the treatment never worked.
What are you most afraid of then saying? Do you think they'll actually say it? Look up some cases of people with similar problems to what you're describing.
It's terrifying, but the key is to be honest about it.
>>54071137
>No, because, biologically, men are less valuable
Economically and intellectually they are more valuable. This question depends on how we think about ourselves.
If we are mere animals then we may very well continue playing these ancient biological mating strategies.
If we are sentient individuals, we have to value each other equally.
>>54068563
I can't stop for more than a day or two. I wish I could, and try to all the time, but the urge too strong. I wish I never started in the first place.
>>54071115
You're right. I have to get rid of this habit
>>54071155
You score for primary psychopathy was higher than 69.77% of people who have taken this test.
You score for secondary psychopathy was higher than 20.5% of people who have taken this test.
How bad is it? (not the psycho anon btw)
>>54071196
>Economically and intellectually they are more valuable.
True, but
>how we think about ourselves
remains from the time we were animals. Human nature is a stubborn thing. It can be twisted (see: feminism) but not purged. I doubt we'll learn
>to value each other equally.
>>54071196
>Economically and intellectually they are more valuable.
only if you look at 'men' as a whole. an individual man, however, is worth much less than an individual woman.
>>54071231
Depends. If you're unhappy or you make other people unhappy that you don't want to, go see a psychiatrist for an evaluation. It's not as scary as you think.
>>54069099
>lain
>normie
Yeah sure
>>54071155
Uh oh
>>54071287
I'm unhappy myself, but I'm not good with the idea of hurting others, especially if their life can be destroyed because of it. But tb.h I find myself sometimes lacking empathy for others, and I am selfish. I think you are right with your suggestion, hope I'm not diagnosed with any weird illness.
>>54071298
See >>54071287. In your case you probably should go.
>>54071164
I guess I will be honest with them. I need help, at least I've realized that. Thank you anon.
>>54067299
> I don't feel good afterwards. I don't feel anything. I just did what i had to do. The only thing i'm expecting to feel is soreness.
I felt the same way when it came to lifting. Then on a whim I tried out running and believe me when I say that running feels so much better than lifting weights.
Especially running in the morning when there's almost no traffic (in my city at least) and the sun is just coming out. God damn that's what I wake up for.
Good luck. I hope you find your happy medium between exercise and enjoyment.
>>54071294
I want to be a %%FETISH_NAME%%
(^:
>>54071229
Approaching it like that you're setting yourself up to analyse even more.
You might want to see somebody about it, they cna help give a better perspective. The key is in acceptance.
>>54063964
I've the same but 15mg.
>>54071298
I can't really say this surprises me.
>>54071493
I think I was on 25's at one point. Didn't really do much, but these newest ones are great.
Venting, Part I
>go to small, expensive prep school with younger brother
>been there since I was literally 3 y/o
>make many good friends who I had known for the literal majority of my life
>never been a good student, grades not great
>work with drama group in school, sound and lighting
>always the scapegoat for drama issues
>work for my dad one summer, get a shitty $200 compaq laptop
>somehow end up programming, working on IBM System/370 emulations as hobbies
>grades start to plummet
>younger brother starts to play vidya, eventually introduces me to it
>join online gaming groups with brother, strike up friendships with a few people
>grades continue to plummet
>school IT guy (somehow employed by Google too) offers me Google internship recommendation if I pass my classes
>fail algebra 1 and latin 1 because I never did homework and I didn't understand latin at all
>parents and school both agree that I need to leave
>no one pays attention to the fact that it will socially holocaust me
>recommended to go to a small high school 20 minutes out of town
>now have 0 friends, absolutely depressed for the first year
>eventually start working with new school's drama program, still sound and light guy
>gain two friends and many acquaintances, befriend some sympathetic teachers
>have crush on one of two core friends
>games start to surpass shit laptop's capabilities, can no longer game with friends
>grades still not great, but classes are easier and I have some more freedom of choice here
>almost fail most required classes, excel in optional, irrelevant ones
>apply to one college
>barely graduate from high school
>not accepted (unsurprisingly)
>>54071657
>tfw bump limit
Part II
>buy thinkpad with i7, install CentOS, do programming things
>brother now spends ~100% of his free time gaming on his PC, even though I helped get him a PS3, the Metal Gear Legacy collection (both of which he really had asked for quite a bit)
>one of two core friends and most acquaintances leave for college, all but one prep friends leave
>public school friend is still around, but is looking to go to culinary school
>he's in a long-running relationship with an cute weeb girl
>I'm both jealous and happy for him
>prep friend is still around, but is looking to go to some liberal arts college
>prep friend comes over and watches netflix, but she's lesbian
>I want to take some time off from education, maybe get a job
>nope, thrust directly in to 2/10 community college by parents, have to commute 30 mins to get there
>start hoarding scitech textbook PDFs because I find CS and other fields fascinating, even though I don't have the math background to understand 80% of the PDFs
>feel bad about pirating them, but I have no money and I hate the publishing racket, so I can defer the bad feelings
>father will not hesitate to kick me out if I stop going to 2/10CC
>no money
>no job
>can't start one unless I want to risk getting kicked out
>programming projects are drying up as I find fewer and fewer things I want to make, and as the things I want to make have higher and higher theoretical requirements
>>54071869
Sounds like you really need to talk to your parents and explain where you're at in your life, and the doubts and troubles you're experiencing.
It would alleviate a lot of the pressure involved with your study, and they might be able to help you decide on a path that you really enjoy.
It's scary to make yourself vulnerable like that, but it's only momentary. The world won't blow up if you tell them these things.
Seems like this thread is almost at it's limit.... Another one soon?
>>54071925
I've tried, but my dad is dead-set in the following two beliefs:
1. If I stop going to a school, I will never pick education back up again
2. A college education is an absolute requirement for modern success
With these two priors in mind, any option that isn't dedication to a school is a non-starter for him. Then comes his apparent fear that my brother or I will end up living with them until we're 30, and he would rather kick us out than have to deal with that.
For me, the worst is that he minored in computer science (because his college didn't have a major in it yet), but he has been in management so long that his actual technical knowledge has atrophied away. I have nobody I can really talk shop with, or bounce ideas off, but he believes himself as capable as Knuth. Plus, with my brother actually playing games all the time, and my old tendency to do the same, its hard to convince him that anything I do on a computer isn't a game.
And to top it all off, he is very unreceptive to these kind of talks within the family, unless he's doing the talking. He's always too busy, or he's had a tough day at work, or its too late at night. He views conversations like this as wars, and the proponents of them as aggressors.
Thanks for responding by the way. I didn't intend to get on a soapbox and preach.
>>54070834
What a fucking legend
