> start lifting 18 months ago
> try cure crippling depression
> 8 weeks ago feel lick I am sick
> doesn't go away, looks like depressions back
> 8 weeks it gets worse and worse
> Just got back from a walk looking for a place to kill myself
> Told my mom my pin number for my bank account
> actually want to die really badly and feel life is hopeless
Well /fit/ looks like gym didn't save me. I am really fucked right about now & see no reason to live on in this hopeless life. I didn't make it.
>>37690012
Go to the ER and get some chill pills and neetbux.
>>37690012
This level of self pity tho
>>37690012
FUCK YOU, YOU DID MAKE IT. YOU ARE HERE TODAY, AND YOU ARE AN AWESOME PERSON FOR DOING SO. YOU GOTTA LOVE YOURSELF FOR BEING YOU ANON, ITS THE ONLY WAY.
>>37690012
Stay with us for the lulz. Domt take life too seriously. Good night anon youre gorgeous
>>37690012
Do it faggot
whats the point in killing urself m8. Its an awful waste dont ya think. You're not gonna get this chance again. It's like flushing a billion dollars down the toilet.
It will pass anon I promise. You got out of it once you can do it again. If a warrior wins one great battle he might nervous about the next encounter, but in his heart knows he will not run from it.
Get some professional help anon, don't be ashamed or embarrassed about it. Lots of very happy and successful people have been where you are right now. Don't give up, just get some help and you'll feel better.
>>37690012
Stay alive, Its a prank on god bro.
>>37690012
Don't do it - you've still got options. Psychotherapy has helped me a lot. It hasn't "cured" me, but it has made my life a lot easier.
Also lifting and running.
If you want to kill yourself and you're in favor of gun control, please shoot some of the senators that got paid by the NRA first. Those fucks don't give a shit since they aren't in the danger zone.
>>37690937
Don't worry libshit, we're gonna put this whole gun control thing and your whole fucking ideology to bed real fucking soon. You scum have been permitted to run unchecked for too long.
>>37691120
Sorry can't hear you over the screams of dead children.
I feel you so much OP.
>binsanely depressed
>try every holistic solution there is
>try various depression meds for a few years
>at best they don't help, at worse they make things worse
>now on antipsychotics
>the side effects are horrible, make my problems worse
>psychiatrist puts me on some new one for schozophrenia that says it can make depression, bipolar, and suicidal thoughts worse
>wonder why the fuck I'm even going to these shit head doctors that have no idea what they're doing
>even worse is they told me they won't even consider medical Marijuana because it "might make certain symptoms worse"
I want to say don't give up, but honestly it'd just be hypocritical as fuck coming from me. The only reason I haven't killed myself yet is because of how much it would hurt my gf and family. Good luck OP, I hope you find a solution that isn't a shotgun lobotomy.
>>37691120
so its ok that a kid can buy a gun but not cigarett, porn, lotterie ticket, alcool and all that shit, cmon man, use your brain for a minute your not helping your cause...
>>37692133
what the fuck are you on antipsychotic for
Try jogging in the park, I know it sorta slows down my depression
>>37690012you just need to realise that anyway you will be dead for eternity soon enough so why not try life for a sec
>>37691159
So you're pro life then?
>>37692829
pro antimass shooting
>>37692850
Do you think it's interesting these shootings almost always occur in gun free zones
>>37692813
Doctor said it can help hybrid bipolar and depression. Idk I'm just trying whatever they say at this point.
>>37692863
what extacly is it you call a gun free zone ?
>>37692133
>anti pyschotics
>anti depression
>LIKELY anti anxiety etc
>But no weed young man! That could be dangerous!
Are US doctors having a fucking laugh after their patients leave?
>>37692866
idk man personally for that i weouldnt take what they give to people hearing voices
>>37690012
go to the nearest hospital, tell them you want to be admitted due to strong suicidal thoughts, and a social worker will help you out.
at this point, you need a controlled environment, op. good luck.
>>37690012
What's wrong with your life, OP? I'll give you some advices. Writing it down is also cathartic.
>>37690012
Man, what ive learned from life is that you must look for the reasons you're feeling bad in yourself to fix yourself. For example when I was looking for a gf after some failed attempts and dates I learned from interspective thinking what I was looking for was valadation. Look out for things that make you happy and do them, meet new people and try new things, I too have wanted to kill myself at times but have looked at the reasons why and have ajusted aspects in my life that put pressure on them. You've got one shot at life look for someone that will love you for being you not for the sake of having a gf. Do the things you want to do not because it's what you think will make the world view you different but because you want to. Goodluck man just remember that from experiance personaly the people that put on the best social media images of themselves are often the most fucked up but just don't seem that way. Everyone has personal demons it's how we deal with them that defies us as man.
>>37690835
This
>>37690835
god dosent exist your existance is pointless
>>37692897
Yeah it smelled like bullshit to me but I am limited in my options here. I know he gets kickbacks from pharma so that probably factors in too. Can't make money off of weed is my guess.
>>37692904
I'm pretty not into the idea as well but like I said above I'm limited on options. I found a "doctor" whose whole business is prescribing Marijuana though so I'm going to try that and just seek my own solutions oUT of pocket. It certainly can't be worse than these pills they're cramming down my throat.
>>37693008
you should really change doctor
>>37690061
Just keep buzzing about, anon.
>>37693021
This is my fourth one actually. Only got one more on the list of local psychs that take my insurance. No wonder so much mental illness festers untreated in America, seriously.
>>37690012
Can you beat my high score?
>35 years old
>live with parents
>kissless, sexless, handholdless virgin
>was sexually abused and beaten by two different relatives growing up
>every single year of childhood was fucked up because i was weird and fat
>got older and /fit/ and it didn't make a difference because I'm 6'6" and socially awkward so I scare everyone who would deign to talk to me
>whenever I get anywhere with any job Chad comes and cucks me out of everything I've done and no one listens to me because I'm weird
>ready to sudoku as soon as my folks kick the bucket
>needless to be said, I have no friends
>>37692993
It's just a prank, bro
>>37690012
You're going to make it Nick.
>>37690012
I have a 4 inch erect penis and still haven't killed myself.
>>37690937
It's funny because the existence of shit lords like you calling fior violence as a solution to your problems due to your lack of maturity making it impossible for you to accept being wrong is a better argument for gun control than anything you could possibly say.
Funny how it's always the libshit manchildren calling for the people who disagree with them to be killed.
>>37692866
You ever stop to think you are depressed because of the medicines you take? Doctors put me on antidepressants for 9 years man, I was put on lithium and told I was bi-polar.
You have just got to give yourself time off them. I'm 6 months off lexapro and lamictal, i was on those for 4 years. I think the hardest thing to get used to is you don't feel stimulated, and you get that feeling with antidepressants or at least I did.
I don't know man, you can't let them just tell you that you are fucking psycho. Even real schizophrenics dont take that shit because it fucking sucks.
>>37693272
I've been deeply depressed since I was four and didn't start meds until I was nineteen, so that's unlikely. But yeah I'm realizing why so many people refuse treatment; it fucking sucks. At this point I'm just about done.
>>37690012
Major depressive and /fit/ luker here - last institutionalization was in Feb-March after two failed Russian Roulette pulls.
I was in a dual-diag facility this time, and there were four other suicidal major depressives, a rare thing for such a place, at least in my seven times in such a place. We did a brain-dump about our crippling, pitiful suicidal depression:
>psychotherapy does not work
>pills do not work for major depression
>exercise and diet moderately work
>routine (bedtime/risetime/mealtime etc) is the most effective, but it's not permanent
>yoga/meditation/mindfullness/walking/running only work if you actually enjoy them
Sadly, there is on thing that works: suicide. Of the five, three of us are still alive. I wish you the best but what you have will never, ever leave - know that and accept it.
>>37690012
m80, don't actually kill yourself
>>37690012
Try vitamin b12 been a lifesaver for me, the methylcobalimin form if you can find it
>>37690012
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>>37692133
this is gonna be you soon pham iff you dont stop taking prescription drugs
>>37692993
>not believing in God
Check yourself into a hospital. I was going to kill myself, but I didn't want to go to a hospital because I was embarrassed.
Three police officers and a pair of handcuffs was all it took :)
dont kill yourself anon.
i love you
and i might never get the chance to meet you if you are dead.
>>37692822
Insightful post.
KILLING YOURSELF IS AN IRONIC MEME PLEASE DONT
>>37692829
Fucking sick burn m8, the problem isn't guns the problem is bad fucking immigration. We have groups of people who are very different ideologically all living under the same roof. Multi cultural societies are a fucking sham and this is what it leads to. Stupid liberals need to gtfo of the country if they don't like our way of life. There's 3 simple fucking words in the Constitution and they aren't all that hard to understand...
SHALL NOT INFRINGE
Livestream yourself doing it
>>37690012
> been lifting for 2 years to help with my depression
>still look like shit
>not going to make it
>still been depressed every day
I feel the same
Not OP, but you guys are seriously some of the most chill people I've seen on the internet. Fucking love you guys.
Fuck it man just go ahead and do it. Were all gonna die someday. Why put up with this hellish rat race everyone seems to hold so dear.
>>37693885
Which well-regulated militia are you in?
>>37693168
shit man that is depressing
I know that feel. I just started "being more active" in hopes of cure too.
For me it started to get increasingly worse for the last 5 years and things I enjoyed last year are collecting dust today. No ammount of money can cure it. If I really wanted I could buy anything but NOTHING brings me joy anymore.
I don't want to try any drugs because I know where it all ends so just ending it all now where I'm mostly intact is the best choice.
