I've noticed a lot of /fit/ is really insecure.
Anything you want to get off your chest?
Who hurt you? What happened?
Basically this t b h
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>>37584596
holy shit it's true
I was raised in a cult that fucked me up mentally and I'm ugly
>>37584468
Damn, thanks Jackie Chan.
>>37584596
THIS
I have no family or real friends, and I make money doing morally questionable things.
My days melt into each-other, my sleep is erratic and I'm either eating until I feel like I'm going to puke or go days without touching food.
I spend the majority of my time fantasizing about what I want to be, without ever committing myself to the step necessary to get there.
Ultimately I'm completely isolated from the real world, living every moment online or acting out a self-built fantasy.
But damn is shitposting fun.
>>37584468
I was cheated on 2 years ago and I took it out on others. I went through a phases where I basically acted like others were all cucks and all women would cheat on me.
I isolated anyone who tried to get close to me and now I have no friends and now that I want to start dating again I'm scared I'll get hurt again. ......
But that's going to change. I'm not going to let something that happened a long time ago to ruin my life
I will find a girl, I will get friends.
I'll be married with kids. Hang with the buds after a hard week of work on a Friday and spend the weekend with wife and kids
We're all gonna make it
Years of being bullied and mocked thus making me anti-social because of my crippling anxiety.
So I lift to feel superior to other men.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KxGRhd_iWuE
>>37584468
I signed up to fight for my country, the same one that hates my guts and is full of people who treat me like shit
The ideals I fight for are no longer held high by my nation, leaving my lonely and alone to fight the battles of those who would ostracize and hate me. I am unloved and making vain sacrifices for those who hate me; all I have is a relentless pursuit of perfection to put me to sleep.
And maybe, just maybe, I'll be so big that someone will love me
>orergano commento desu
>>37584667
What do for money?
>>37584687
; _ ;
holy fuck
i'm crying
I can't seem to find a way to live that would feel right or good. There is absolutely zero chances I can be happy if I have to spend 8 hours 5 times a week working; the thought alone depresses me. I'm basically waiting for a lottery win to happen but it won't and it's getting too late more and more each passing day
I do not know what to do with life
>>37584692
> tfw getting an education so I can fight for my country as an officer
>>37584687
NICE
>>37584692
There's no robot here you fucking sperg
Got tired of being overweight and not shitposting/helpfully contributing on a regular basis. So now I'm fixing all 3.
>>37584709
habit
Plus, we're all robots at the core
Normal people don't come to 4chan
>>37584728
it's my only social interaction... without it I'm voiceless
>>37584707
Don't go combat arms. Do some pog shit like SIGINT or MI or anything, and have applicable skills to the real world.
The only way you get out of being an officer as a normal person is to have meme level self-marketing skills, else how can you sell "I shot fuckbois in Iraqistan 3.0, hire me as a history major"
Don't plan on making the military your lifestyle unless you get a taste of it for an extended period of time beforehand.
I went to a senior military college for my college, so I knew what I was getting into. Don't get me wrong, the army is fun but I'm unloved regardless. Strangers offer me free sodas and shit at restaurants all the time, but if they knew who I was they wouldn't talk to me. Strange times.
>>37584468
My aunt molested me when I was 7 years old and I'm still working through trusting women.
I spent the first few years of my life trying to convince myself I wasn't the antichrist. (That is, I thought that I was, so I was trying to fight being it.)
I've never really forgiven myself for all the projects I never followed through on and the guilt there is making me too afraid to actually follow through on different projects.
Working through my more recent problems lead me to find even older ones that I never resolved.
I'm fucking 22 years old why am I dealing with shit that happened to me when I was a little kid?
>>37584702
yeah man work a shit, i don't understand why people even bother pursuing careers they're not passionate about. but i value my freedom way more than i value money. so i intend do work part-time and live at bare minimum and do the shit i love for as long as i live p much.
I come for the lulz and shitpost. My life is pretty great at the moment.
>>37584785
>lulz
I was maybe 12 years old when I started telling myself I wasn't good enough. Now I have a decade's worth of experience when it comes to self-hatred and putting myself down. I'm going to learn how to love myself, even if it takes me another 12 years -- or 24 or 48. Two years down... I can look myself in the eye when I pass a mirror now.
>>37584669
Trust is hard, weak, and makes you vulnerable.
But damn do you need it in your life. I believe in you bro, you can do it.
Go out there and kick life's ass until it gives you want you want
>>37584832
This for me as well.
People always talk about being humble, but it seems like there's not enough talk about self-deprecation
>>37584854
trust is hard and makes you vulnerable, but you have to be strong to trust.
distrust is weakness.
I think the only one hurting me is myself. Feels bad man
>>37584832
you're gonna make it, bro.
>>37584468
I'm in a wheelchair and no one wants to be friends with the disabled
>gym
>eat
>sleep
>no social life
>repeat
hard to make friends without friends
>>37584809
Lul
>>37584854
It's so hard to trust though. All I see on 4chan is redpill "women are sluts-FACT" and the narrative is really driven home, how does anyone trust these days?
>>37584920
I'll be your friend, unless you're an asshole
>>37584912
it should feel good that you have the power to stop hurting yourself.
it would suck a lot more if this weren't the case. like if you were being held captive and were subject to torture or some shit.
>>37584928
maybe spending some time off 4chan would help? and talking to people irl without bullshit opinions stemming from self-hatred?
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>>37584912
I read all of your posts and I think that we can make it. So let's do that.
>>37584768
Holy shit I have never felt so close to a 4chan post before.
I was raped by my dad's gf's nephew in a bathroom stall at 7. I consistently judge myself for everything I do that isn't perfect. I'm never satisfied unless I have something to struggle against, even if it's my own happiness. I try to keep everyone at arm's length and feel uncomfortable with any sort of emotion.
When I was 21 I walked into a bathroom where 2 people were fucking and it all came rushing back, I stopped exercising for a year and started getting panic attacks.
I get night terrors occasionally, I'm exhausted often, and I don't believe I'm entitled to human comforts. I devote myself to bettering the world but I don't deserve to live in it.
I'm barely 23 I don't want to be this miserable.
>>37584943
>spend time on 4chan
nigga what
>talking to people irl
I'm in the military, everyone I know is more redpilled than ol' hitler
>>37584854
Thank you bro
>>37584944
Thanks senpai.
We're all gonna make it
>>37584921
do you not have a job?
i had to throw myself into the pack of wolves at work to learn how to socialize.
>>37584468
I don't believe in happiness overcoming all or encouragement doing anything for people because as a child I was disowned by my father, my grandparents adopted me and I regularly overheard my grandfather say how he regretted the decision, my uncle would always tell me, "She's My mother, not yours" if I tried to call her my mother (being adopted, she was), my sisters received pretty much all the affection. And yet I worked hard and was successful and smart as a yungin' so everyone was respectful and nice to my face which to this day has made any sense of genuine positivty leave a bad taste in my mouth and make me suspicious of the person bestowing it
At this point only hatred, sarcasm, self depracation, and cyncism seems normal and right to me anymore
>>37584973
i said spend time off.
oh, idk about military man. i don't even know why you would. all bullshit to me. but you still have control over how you perceive the world, regardless of your surroundings. although a good environment definitely helps.
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>>37584667
I would like to know as well. No shame in sucking dick if that's what it is.
>>37584985
past is past. you are an autonomous adult now.
>>37584928
>how does anyone trust these days?
You'll either A find that someone who proves the others wrong or B just wing it.
So you might get hurt, you might get heartbroken, cheated on, abused.
Stop caring about what a redpilled NEET who says anything he doesn't agree with is cucked thinks and go for what you want.
BE AN INDIVIDUAL
Everyone is just dealing with shit that happened in their formative years. If you were lucky to win the social/physical/and family lottery congratulations, you probably don't have the crippling insecurities that most of /fit/ has.
Here is my story
>Then
As a child I was always craving attention from my mother and eventually, in my adolescent years, craving validation from my peers and terrified of being ostracized. When I entered High School I began playing World of Warcraft and saw that I was receiving more validation
from my merits in the game then I was seeing in real life so I almost exclusively retreated into the fantasy realm. Neglected all friends, schoolwork, hygiene, sports, and any semblance of real life social skills. Lived day to day from freshman through sophomore year through online achievements and socialization. Realized It was taking a significant toll on every aspect of my life (Parents eventually confronted me about my game playing habits) and decided to drop it.
My Junior and Senior year I was almost exclusively dealing with the fallout of my time playing WoW. Had literally no friends, just people I occasionally talked to and hung out with during lunch breaks. My social skills were shit and couldn't meet new people very easily. Had developed a fear of confrontation with strangers or people I don't know well. My grades were total fucking shit so I pretty much expected not to go to University so I never bothered taking the SAT or applying for any colleges.
>Present
>Dealing with all of the fallout of my choices in High School
-From WoW I have a superiority complex about my performance in any subject
-From my social isolation I am recovering from social anxiety so my confidence isn't as good as it could be (This affects friendships and any potential relationships I could have had)
-From my lack of effort in school I never established long term goals until a few years ago
I have no one to blame but myself for my insecurities.
>>37584468
>I've noticed a lot of /fit/ is really insecure.
Influx of /r9k/, /pol/, and reddit immigrants.
>>37584966
You're worthy of love, anon.
Even if you never feel it, you have to at least know it. Sometimes knowing has to be enough.
One day though, you will know it and you will feel it too.
You're gonna make it to that day, and every day after it too.
>>37584928
"All I see on 4chan"
>let me stop u right there
never listen to anything anyone says on this website (except for people who tell you to never listen to anything that is said on this website)
>>37584468
I turned 19 last month and I'm still a virgin
Cant wake up
>>37585055
protip: stop fucking caring about getting laid and just try to live an interesting and fun life.
If you have stories to tell, bitches will flock to you.
>>37584920
>no one wants to be friends with the disabled
Those people wouldn't make good friends.
Anyone who puts a disability before a personality is detestful. They don't see the real package. They just see the wrapping paper.
I would be your friend. I guess we are. /fit/izens no matter what race, gender, political views, religion, background were all still family.
You're gonna make it. We're all gonna make it
Also wheelchair body builders are pretty aesthetic
>>37585068
Getting really tired of hearing that
>>37584671
This, only my lifts are shit so I can't even feel superior.
In fact, I've only gained more reasons to be disappointed with myself since coming here. Can't go back, though.
>>37585068
this, and sex is incredibly disappointing. The only plus to come from sex is knowing 100% that someone wanted your penis inside them. Even without having sex, most people should know that they are bangable, and shouldn't care.
I wasted far too much time caring about sex when I was younger, and that somehow made it more difficult to get sex. I'm not saying just bee yourself :^), but relax. It's not the end of the world.
>>37585069
I don't have a wheelchair
>>37585074
Then stop bitching about it. It's common advice because its true you dumbass child.
>>37585074
Why do you want to get laid so bad anon?
Do you need the physical reinforcement of being attractive or fuckable?
Or do you believe that you are less of a man for not having had sex yet?
Our lives are so painfully short, we cannot waste them regretting everything and lamenting.
>>37585027
>As a child I was always craving attention from my mother
That was me with my dad
I don't need him tho. I'm better off without him
I used to think I was the problem but he was the problem.
Fuck him
I was born in a small village. I was still a child when we were raided by soldiers - foreign soldiers. Torn from my elders I was made to speak their language. With each new post my masters changed along with the words they made me speak. With each change - I changed too. My thoughts, personality, How I saw right and wrong... Words Can Kill.
>>37585087
>its not the end of the world
>my literal face when for years I said that it would end in 2015 and then I watched the giant disco ball rip off come down on new years 2016
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_rcmeMxxGYw
>>37585098
no its not true
>>37585105
number 2 plus from everyone who's done it they say its just out right godly feeling
>>37584694
>>37585004
I sell counterfeit goods through the interwebs.
As a young kid I was chubby and socially retarded, I have never had a friend for more than a year and in middle school I had girls calling me a molester and other such mean shit.
I am pretty much permafucked in the head because I didnt make friends in kindergarten so now I'm trying to make people like me by improving myself.
I am not an unloveable person by any means, but I think I have something fundamentally off about myself that turns people away. Maybe I'm too needy or too awkward.
I've also come to the realization that nothing matters whatsoever, literally there is no meaning to life or anything in this world.
That's whatever, I have a fake coping mechanism for it which is something like "you're getting to be alive so make the best of it" but what is really the point of living for fake happiness?
Don't wanna kill myself though desu
>>37584728
this may have held true 5 years ago. Nowadays, half of my frat lurks on 4chan regularly, and I hear people talking about Big Guy and Vaporwave and shit in chem lecture.
>>37584468
>ex fiancee left me 6 years ago after she miscarried our child
>i tried to fill the void with alcohol and sex with random women
>slowly recovering
>>37584785
Everyone's hiding something under the bliss my friend, but I'm glad you're in a good place.
>>37584687
based shuzo
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bavZbQHbuOk
>>37584468
I was bullied for being middle eastern American and I ended up going through a phase of being self hating towards my self and my family for being middle eastern.
I wanted to join the baseball team but I would be called sandnigger, goatfucker etc
My family isn't even Muslim but no one would listen
I just wanted to be an average American boy who played sports, did well in school and had friends
Oh well. That was then and this is now
>>37585135
ok
Have fun making yourself unfuckable by fixating on your own virginity.
>>37585140
What, like stolen shit?
>>37585167
that really sucks to hear. miscarriages are relatively common though, a lot of couples experience that pain. unfortunate you guys weren't able to work through it. really sorry to hear how it ended
>>37585180
God fucking damn it.
Iranian Christian immigrant to the States here. Sending all my sweet brown lovin' over your way, friend. We'll make it through.
>>37585055
I was avirgin till I was 25. Then all kinds of women started getting interested in me. Don't know what to say except that your time will come.
Actually, I have some advice from my friends who got laid much earlier than me: get weed. There will be some chill, easy girls who will fuck you for some weed. True of any drug but you don't want meth-heads or heroine addicts; stoner girls are classiest druggies.
I'm 24. I'm tired of life. Lifting, reading, and watching some movies are the only things I enjoy anymore. I'm just waiting for my inevitable end, and I don't have the constitution for suicide.
>>37584768
My brother raped me from as early as I can remember until I was 14.
>>37585214
>Iranian Christian
AAAAAAAAAAAA
We are family
>>37585217
Did he get away with it?
>>37585158
>As a young kid I was chubby and socially retarded, I have never had a friend for more than a year and in middle school I had girls calling me a molester and other such mean shit.
>I am pretty much permafucked in the head because I didnt make friends in kindergarten so now I'm trying to make people like me by improving myself.
>I am not an unloveable person by any means, but I think I have something fundamentally off about myself that turns people away. Maybe I'm too needy or too awkward.
>I've also come to the realization that nothing matters whatsoever, literally there is no meaning to life or anything in this world.
Are you me?
Middle school and highschool were brutal, I'm self improving the fuck out of myself now because I've attached practically infinite value to sex and I feel like the only way to have it is to basically trick all the normalfags into thinking I'm one of them, and so far it's working
>>37585215
>Don't know what to say except that your time will come.
I've been hearing that for years
>>37585135
well anon, let's debunk a few myths. Your friends are right, in that sex is a good, healthy thing. It's not the greatest feeling on earth though.
Physically, it feels different and more sensory than masturbating, but not much better. It feels nice to have someone like you enough to let you in them in so personal a way, but it's very impersonal nowadays so don't expect to find that itch you have scratched. They're lying if they say it's godly.
>things that are better
>shooting shit
>a hard day's work and accomplishment
>getting paid
>winning something
>working out
Plus, I hate to tell you this, but you have to learn that sex won't give you a feeling of self-satisfaction, at least not when you're wanting to have sex to feel satisfied. It has to come naturally, or it doesn't come at all. Good luck, you'll make it. Just look in the mirror every night and ask yourself, was I a good person today? Did I further my goals today? If you can say yes to those every day, you'll end up further than I ever dreamed I could get in life.
>>37585074
How will having sex solve your problems? Solving your problems will get you sex eventually, fool.
>>37585262
look man all of my "problems" aren't real problems they are just problems by normie standards but since I can't get laid without the normies approval I have to "fix" the "problems" which is what I'm doing
>>37584468
ive been divorced for three years now, my wife is getting married and I have not found a serious relationship in that whole time. I'll never find love because I'm a hunk of shit, I'm stupid and ugly.
>>37584468
Girls used to mock me when I was a kid because I was fat. I wasn't obese, just a little bit chubby. Also, my greedy parents made me shower twice a week. I think they thought I was dirty. I was also hypersensitive, I'd cry when they were laughing at me.
I'd beat the guys who'd mock me but even as a kid I had principles and I never tried to hit these girls.
Now, I'm fairly attractive but I'm too insecure to talk to girls who mire me.
>>37585216
30 here, in the same boat. I really don't want to die but life feels really pointless and empty; I just sit around at home when not at the gym or working.
I don't even have anything to bitch about: steady job, my own house, my own car, decent health. I just can't see the point of doing this for 60 years but I really want to avoid death.
>pic related
I don't even know how it happened. I did well in school and sports. I had friends. I was kind of edgy but also a "leader" all through elementary and middle school. Was considered cool and something of a badass in high school (yes I know that sounds delusional written out but it's true). Sometime during the latter years of high school things started to change. Detachment, isolation, self-loathing, disinterest in almost everything. Went through college the same way and now I'm a friendless NEET. I wish I could point to something, being cheated on, bullied, betrayed, abused etc because then I would have something to actually overcome or confront. I feel empty and I think my long isolation has made me go a bit strange socially.
>>37585291
Shower twice a week? The fuck?
>>37585287
Come on, you've found someone who actually wanted to marry you, that's better than most of us could do. You'll find someone else, eventually.
>>37585287
>because I'm a hunk of shit, I'm stupid and ugly.
You'll never find happiness with that attitude.
Stop sitting in self pity. You're a fucking apex predator
>>37585216
>>37585305
Do you guys think that the problem mankind suffers from is that when it gets easy? I wonder if we grow suicidal because we take life for granted so often, since industrialization has made it simple and easy to live.
Would human depression and suicide disappear like in animals if we were tested constantly on whether we survive?
I'm going to dump stuff that motivates me
>>37585305
>>37585216
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rCfykIs0yF4
listen to this song right now
>>37585230
I'd like to clarify that I wasn't born an Iranian Christian. I converted in 2008 because my paternal grandparents were Christian and their church was cool as fuck. Either way, we're all here for you, buddy :^)
>>37585316
We were a big family and we would run out of hot water.
>>37585311
That happened to me too
>>37585212
thanks bro im still processing it and trying to become a better person
its hard for me to feel emotion towards anything even sadness which is good in a way and im having an easier time being sober
I wish i could talk to her to try and find some closure bro
>>37585040
I can't even love myself, anon. I find peace sometimes though, with every person who stops listening to the echoes of "you can't," I feel alive for just a little bit. I want to be loved by generations to come, even if it's the tiniest measurable contribution, even if nobody remembers my name, it'll be ok, as long as those little moments keep adding up, and there's a little less misery to go around.
We're all gonna make it, bro.
>>37585338
did you read the unabomber's manifesto recently?
>>37585343
Thank you anon. I love discovering new artists and music. It was just what I needed before bed. Bless you.
I love you all
I posted this before about 3 months ago:
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I've felt like this for a while but it's the first time I've had the motivation to put it into words.
I'm 19, have my fair shares of friends, never had a real gf though or anything, and I'm doing alright in my electrical engineering classes. I'm decently smart, but I think I'm overly emotionally stunted or my brain didn't develop completely or something. I never understand how people have deep conversations. I am so bad at talking with others and writing out my thoughts, all my friends and I have very superficial conversations, but I've heard them talk about deep things, their feelings and their thoughts a lot. I can never really do that. Here on 4chan I see people make very detailed posts critiquing movies or books or shows, but I've never been able to do that. In my 6 years of posting on 4chan this is probably the longest and most detailed post, and I can only write this all out because I've been thinking about it since yesterday in anticipation of a thread like this. I just don't understand how everyone can have deep thoughts, and while I'm normally fine with it sometimes it just hits me about how bad it feels.
~~~
Since then I feel like I've gotten better, but the feeling still nags at me a lot. Oh well though
>>37585392
I'm not saying it's a good thing to be teetering on death 24/7, I'm just wondering if animals would also get depressed if we gave them easy lives.
Also fuck terrorists
>>37584692
This >>37584692 is how mercenaries are made.
>yeah, I'll fight for them again
>but this time, the price is going up
>>37585409
I was just curious because that's literally what he says in it and it's been enjoying a revival of sorts.
My facial asymmetry is very noticeable.
And the fact that my anxiety prevents me from driving.
I'm 20 and I don't have my license.
Man, some heavy feels in this thread; I hope a lot to of you are able to make it despite these shortcomings and situations. Hang in there, everyone has a way to make it, even if you're still trying to find what that is.
My feels are tough too, I've been so depressed for so long that I can't feel much or really get much enjoyment out of anything I do, and doing the most basic stuff I need to do to keep myself alive like eating and cleaning myself or my surroundings seems painful and difficult so I'm surprised I even make it to training.
Sleeping is no better, if I can even get to sleep before 4-5am I get about 10 or 11 hours and never feel rested.
Life is hard fellas, but in time things can be better and I can't afford to lose faith or hope.
We're all gonna make it
I love you /fit/
>>37585420
I didn't get mine till I was 25. No rush
>>37585420
"your" anxiety prevents you from nothing.
stop making excuses, stop turning your feeling states into possessions and allowing them to control you.
i'm 25 and don't have my license either. i never really cared about driving... i just take public transportation and walk everywhere. driving where i live is a terrible idea anyway... traffic is insane.
>>37585419
well since I never read it I can't really say. I don't do much reading anymore, probably a bad thing.
Any recommendations by any chance?
>>37585439
Sorry, I should have put it as Driving anxiety.
Man, as soon as I get behind the wheel, I get really paranoid and feel like I'm gonna fuck up and hit something or someone.
>>37585410
My heart isn't in killing as a PMC. I did it for my country and the ideals I thought it stood for, but the more I saw the less I recognized of the America I knew.
Plus, many of them are tryhards. Justifiably so, but still I couldn't fit in since i don't care for money. All I want is what money can't buy, a good person to love as much as she loves me.
>>37584920
You got me famalam, know that I'm lurking here somewhere.
I grew up as a fat kid and was ridiculed mercilessly for it, kids used to follow me around making tuba noises
my mom is bipolar and has fucked with me mentally for years. She can hardly provide for herself and after she kicked my dad and out, she let her house go to utter shit. I came back two years later for college and there was dog shit and hairballs matted into the flooring in every room. Giant stains where her hick tenants had spilled their chew on the concrete in the basement. Fleas plagued the place, the bathroom had black mold. The whole house reeked of a combination of piss and shit.
I come back and clean more or less all of it, stain the bar (the fucker had carpet on it and i had to remove it, thanks 1970), retiled a part of the basement, retiled and put in a new toilet in the small bathroom, cleaned the shit out of the veranda. Bought a new vacuum, curtains and handle all the groundskeeping.
What's my thanks?
My mom consistently calls me a narcissistic/ ungrateful/ pothead/ faggot (i'm gay)/ selfish/ abusive/ uncaring/ lazy/ piece of shit son
(mix or match any of the above)
And then claims I don't love her and threatens to kick me out if i so much as turn down the heater or air conditioner to save money.
>Have stories about shit relationship with mom
>>37584468
Gf and I are heading off to college over 500 miles apart, and this summer we're staying in different states. We're gonna try long distance, but desu senpai idk how it's gonna work out. The anxiety of getting told that I'm not worth the effort is bugging me.
I was raised to fail by my parents
They literally did not want me to succeed, it really fucked me up
Good night /fit/
Tomorrow is a new day. A new chance.
Ily all. Sweet dreams
My parents were and still authoritative/ old school as hell. Lots of yelling, not between each other, but at me and my siblings.
Dad is type-A as fuck, but can't delegate well, and is a shit teacher. He is almost always in a bad mood now, and I don't like being around the guy.
Growing up with super strict parents can make you timid, anxious, and prevents any sort of inner strength from developing, since you never get to take charge on any project, choose the movie, what chores to do, or give any sort of idea without getting screamed at.
Just woke up from a dream about her again, it's been 4 years. Havent been interested in her or talked to her since we broke up, had other girlfriends that were nicer and better for me, but always have dreams about her. How do I make them stop?
>>37585466
I'm 25 and just got my license 3 months ago. What you're feeling is normal. However, in the words of the person helping me learn to drive, "you'll just have to get over that." Just start driving and openly weep doing it if you have to. The point is you just have to do it. I took the test 3 times and it fucking sucked but getting it that 3rd time felt incredible.
>>37584468
I am trying to get /fit/ to reorganize myself, sort of bring order to fucked up chaos that is my daily life..but I am really confused with everything, I feel like I am dieting wrong, my routine is shit etc. I guess this is the same for all absolute beginners.
I wish my cousin from Ukraine lived near me...he is /fit/ as fuck and a complete bro to me since childhood, he come to visit really rarely and when he did he would talk about nutrition and fitness, some of that shit I still remember and started to apply now that I am trying to get /fit/.
>>37585455
"genre fiction" that is actually good: gene wolfe, the wizard knight, the book of the new sun. difficult and can seem needlessly obtuse but actually not. deep layered narratives with a lot of shit going on under the surface that you won't realize until much later or not at all until a reread. don't look up summaries.
historical fiction: I, Claudius, Count Belisarius
generic "literature": silas marner, just amazingly well written, widely considered boring by people forced to read it for high school english class
>>37585404
nigga you ever smoke marijuana before?
try it out. You'd be surprise how many random potheads actually know what the fuck they're talking about, and will try really hard to get you to understand something complex. especially in a school/university setting.
>>37585503
but you can also grow out of the anxiety and take advantage of the ungodly level of discipline you were conditioned to develop to improve yourself.
>>37585140
Absolutely nothing wrong with that
>>37585543
friend listen
please for i am from the ukraine
it is not too late
get in contact with your cousin
you lift over skype
get uge
I believe in you, cosmic comrade
go lift and be free
>>37585562
I'll look into some of these, thanks friend.
>>37585311
It happened to me too
>>37585571
I was improved as hell. In highschool, I played football (220 bench, 300 squat), but only lifted because my mom kicked me out of the house. I let myself go since then. I'm 5'11, 240 lbs. People keep on saying I have the ideal power lifter's body.
>>37585409
>I'm just wondering if animals would also get depressed if we gave them easy lives.
Ever owned a suicidal pet?
>>37585627
hatchi the dog
>>37585627
no pets ever
I imagine if we had a dog on the level of intelligence of a human it would get depression as well.
The reason I thought this is that when I was in life or death situations I wasn't suicidal, instinct kept me alive. When life is hard I was less likely to kill myself, which felt backward.
>>37585409
You come home to a dog who gets fed all day and he loves the shit out of you and excited to go play around in the yard for the sake of it.
Maybe the problem is being chained to these boring fucking jobs that leave no fulfillment. Work day in day out to ensure we can live day in day out to ensure we can take a vacation once in a while, or come home to our dogs and our toys.
I always feel like an embodiment of failure.
Did shit in school, can never hold down a job and was unemployed for a year, then got a job and lost it within a week. I was given all the cards a person needs and still shit the bed. Was born a runt and am built like a bitch to this day, and then my younger brother is only 15 and is 6'2 and built like a fucking tank. Always worried that I'm physically hideous in the face and I'll never amount to anything even if I try, because even when I do try I still fail. I always fail.
I've been lifting for about 4 months now and I still feel like it's all for naught, like I'll just give up anyway because I'm not doing it right or I'll be disappointed because I'll never end up as the man I want to be.
I want to change, but yet again I never know how to go about it.
>>37585659
then why do you work any more than you need to to a.) survive, obviously and b.) afford the gym, some drinks, and maybe some clothes here and there?
i mean... money is overrated. everything that has made me happy has been affordable with a part-time job.
I'm short.
It shouldn't bother me. I know it's a meme. But it really does.
Also Uni is coming to an end and my friend group is collapsing in front of my eyes. I spend more time working (job, internship, volunteer for resume purposes) than I do with my friends. Getting everyone together just to hang has become a white house security level of coordination and preplanning. Balancing all this with a girl who I seriously think might be wife material has been a nightmare. If two of my friends weren't my roommates it would probably have been weeks since I last saw any of my friends
>>37585696
it's okay, us short people have easier graves to dig
>>37585696
Welcome to the true adult life, my friend. It'll always be that way unless you strike it rich.
>>37585477
Why do we so often come to the aid of those who abuse us?
My alcoholic dad used to beat the shit out of me whenever he'd get in a bad mood, but when I moved out and he was crying in the hallway asking if I was really leaving I felt like shit and considered staying.
Even tried to comfort him via email later and he got fucking smug and insulted my friend who'd died drunk driving.
Fuck parents, man. Familial ties are just a god damn meme everyone's playing along with.
>>37585696
Brah, best advice I can give is to do things with one or two friends, instead of with the whole group. If you can, its better to chill with a mate than none. Besides, you can get more value for time with more common events and smaller groups than rare events with lots of people
>>37584468
>Be 3, had a good relationship with mother and not so good one with dad, wasn't bad either
>Mom gets in an accident, getting burned over 90% of her body (only not her face, underarms, feet and beginning of cales so you dont see it under clothes)
>She has to revalidate for 2,5 years so I couldn't stay home for some reason, my dad had his company and my older brother to look over (he is 2 years older)
>Didn't see my parents or brother much, maybe once a month
>Stayed with grandma for a few months, then with my uncle for a few months etc.
>Brother was allowed to stay home, I wasn't even thou I was a very reasonable, silent and good kid.
>Moved in with parents and brother at 6, mom was still nice but very cold and my dad was just cold and absent
>Be 7, started getting molested by neighbour girl who was 16. Felt really confusing, fun and wrong. Threathened me all the time to not tell anyone (This is literally the first time I'm typing/telling this to anyone)
>This kept going on for 2 years, I started to underperform in class
>Had average grades but the year before that they wanted to let me skip a year because I was 'smart'
>Dad still was cold and distant except that he would yell at me everytime I saw him because I underperformed
>Started eating ALOT, got obese over the years
>Luckily had my uncle who was more of a dad to me than my father ever was
>Be 11, was over at uncles house and he wanted to bbq, his gf was quickly going to the store to get some stuff
>He lights up his gas bbq and explodes infront of my eyes
>Held him in my arms while he died
>Parents didn't know how to deal with this so just kept distant and cold, I just wanted some love and connection
>Suppressed emotions because I thought my parents already had enough on their minds and cba to deal with my shit
>Be 11, brother started becoming a drug addict (alcohol and speed at that age, went on to be a heroin addict at 15, still is one. Tried to kill himself last sunday for the 2nd time)
Cont
>every girl I've met.jpeg
How come they don't want me man?
>>37585484
End it amiably bro. Only LDR I know that worked was a 2 hour drive and they spent every weekend together and she transferred to our school and moved in with him after 2 years.
Both of you agree that it sucks but the reality is it'll just be too overwhelming and you'll drift apart, leaving one or the other bitter when one cheats.
Don't let that hang over your head man, it's a new horizon, leave her as a good memory.
My mom insults me for fun.
When I was a kid I couldn't really process it, I just thought she was angry a lot. I tried to not cause any trouble or fights because I thought she was actually angry at me for specific things. She would tell me I was going to fail out of school. She would make me do random tasks while I was trying to do homework, for instance moving some extra couch she had from the basement to the attic and back, then yell at me later for not having my homework done while I was doing my homework. She would tell me that I was unattractive and make any woman miserable. When my friends once mentioned to her that a girl had a crush on me, she respond with "Why?"
She toned it down for awhile but after I finished college she started up again. She'd call me up and ask me what I was doing, and then use it to insult me. Working out at the gym? Women hate that, plus you'll always be skinny. Hanging out with my friends on my birthday before moving? Why bother, you'll never see them again! Girlfriend getting a PHD? You're a failure for not having a higher degree. Phone's dead while I'm out on a Friday night? Tons of angry voicemails about how I'm avoiding her. Visiting my friend to try out the Vive? You're a loser who only plays video games.
Finally blocked her number. I'll never get closure for why she did what she did, but I do plan to get over it. Only thing left to do is to explain the situation to the rest of my family, but I don't think they'll be surprised.
I was born into a broke ass abusive household. My mom left my dad when I was 3 or 4 and became really bitter towards men. She instilled misandry into my sister and after hearing her rants about men I hated myself. My sister used to molest and rape me when I was 4 and she stopped when I was 5. She'd also beat the shit out of me, hurt herself, then tell my mom I attacked her so I'd get punished. On top of that she'd torment me mentally and emotionally. My only friends have been severely mentally disabled.
When I was six my grandmother died. She was the closest thing I've had to a mother and when she died I got severely depressed and started thinking about suicide every day. It was around this time I was molested by both my babysitter and by my mom's boyfriend's daughter. When I got to first grade I was a head and shoulders above everyone else, so kids called me fat. My first grade teacher would make fun of me for not knowing anything. And I didn't, I was too busy daydreaming or reading to do my homework, I just wanted to escape.
From 7-9 I would read voraciously. After third grade my mom took us out of school to homeschool us. But really I just sat in my house waiting to die. Rarely leaving to go to some stupid shit with a homeschool group. At this point my self esteem was non existent, I hated myself, and I hated everyone. I was very angry all the time. from 12 to 14 I was so depressed I saw everything in black and gray.
Eating was the only thing that could make me feel something, so I ate and I ate and I became a fat fuck. I lost some weight, and at 15 I got a girlfriend, but she wasn't in to me. She used me, abused me, and threw me way when she found someone better. I made the mistake of being a caring, doting boyfriend. After that I lost more weight, and got a job at 16. Now I'm 18, trying to deal with the shit that all these people and life threw on my plate.
>>37585694
I currently a grad student and this shitty path leads to a professorship teaching what I love, inspiring bright young minds to think and believe in themselves, and having summers off.
A short slug is worth it. But if this fails I'm gonna move into a van and sling code when I get hungry. Money and materialism isn't worth a life.
>>37585802
Break free, anon. Don't let them hold you back. Don't talk to them. Go somewhere else.
>>37585693
Try something you have a vague interest in on a whim.
>>37585854
fair enough. as long as you're on the path to doing what you love, you're in a good spot.
>>37585800
Bro, you should get some real therapy. That shit is fucked up, and I've seen some shit.
>>37585751
Was 12 in last greentext not 11 (23 now)
>Family situation worsened alot
>Mother constantly depressed, cold, silent and would often hit the bottle
>Dad started to barade me on every little thing I did wrong and never complemented me on anything
>Never had a hug from either of them or heard the words I love you since I was 3. Even when I would say them.
>Constantly argueing over what they could do for my brother
>I suffered in silence because my problems shouldn't be theirs I thought. They had enough on their mind.
>Look out for brother, trying to protect him however I could.
>By the time I was 16 I saved my borther from OD'ing 2 times
>Escaped in wow, was pretty good at it (got gladiator multiple times fuck yh)
>Family situation got tenser and tenser, still managed to get my highschool degree but decided to go work after that instead of getting a college degree
>Decided to lose all the weight, was 142 kg at that moment (81 kg 10% bf now, fuck yeah)
>8 months into working got fired, dad barraded me like he does everyday.
>Sick of it, started barrading him for once, he slaps me. I threw him over the table and broke his nose.
>Kicks me out of the house, my brother who had been stealing, lieing, using, OD'ing and causing stress at home was still allowed to live their.
>Completely on my own now luckily I have some good friends and gained good social skills by losing weight
Not a virgin but I can't seem to get close to someone from the opposite gender. Also have severe intimicy issues because of flabby belly, and gyno/loose skin chest. Afraid girls reject me asap I take my clothes of. This wasn't the case when i was skinnyfat but now I feel like a cheat. Look fucking good in clothes so have a few girls interested in me even thou I can't open up.
But hey atleast I got gladiator and lost my virginity at 7 right guys?
Sorry for the shitty english
Both my father and my brother studied engineering in the best uni of the country, that shit was too hard for me so I went to the second best uni to study engineering too. My brother was the firstborn so he always had a lot of advantages, my parents didn't even try to hide the fact that he was the favorite son and my sister is really young so I was the classic middle ignored son (don't misunderstand me, I love my brother and we're good friends but my parents kinda ignored me)
2 years ago they gave us a basic homegym (but srsly it was for his birthday) and he dropped the training ar the fourth month but I kept training and lifting. I was a chubby all my life so it was pretty cool to see the man in the mirror. One day after lifting that shit I turned around and I saw my dad, holy shit bros, the look on his face, he was proud as fuck of the middle son. That was the hook for me. Nowadays I just lift because is pretty fun and I want to better myself and to defend my girl, I was her hero when I beat the shit out of a thief that tried to rob her the other day.
Keep lifting my dudes, we're all gonna make it.
I read all your stories.
/fit/ I feel for you. Across the stars I will remember you all, and this website.
Good night /fit/, I hope you all make it to where you deserve to be.
>>37585862
I can't really not talk to them as I still live with my mom and sister. But I love myself now and I'm making huge progress in dealing with all this shit. One of my biggest problems is that I get incredibly sad for no reason, it feels like I have pins and needles in my heart and it takes everything I have not to kill myself.
>>37585771
Fuck, I've considered this. You're probably right, fuck, I know you're right, I should probably end things before it turns bad.
>>37585889
Good night my brother. May only success and good things come your way.
>>37585889
good night bro have some nice dreams for us
I'm only racist because i know non whites are superior to me
>>37584669
>all women would cheat
Sadly that's true
>>37585338
I wonder if cavemen committed suicide often.
>>37585878
Yeah I probably need therapy. What always threw me off is that she'd be nice for awhile, just long enough for me to think "Maybe the fighting is done for real this time." If she were just straight up about it I'd have made the break a lot quicker.
She would act crazy sometimes, but looking back she's too smart. She did everything on purpose. When she was younger, before the web was around, she'd join political organizations, some she agreed with and some she didn't, just to troll them and get them to fight within themselves.
>>37585897
I'm glad you're making progress. When you do get the opportunity to move out, don't hesitate to REALLY break free.
>>37584596
Fuck... this hits home.
>>37585800
>>37585802
>>37585880
We can do this guys. We can be better than our parents. We don't have to let the wounds they left us with bleed us to death.
I ran away when I was 17 and finally had real friends for the first time in my life, get out as soon as you can.
It'll always be with you, but some days you forget it. It gets better sometimes. Then you only remember it some days. When you're busy building your new life it blends into a background hum of self doubt that's more manageable.
>>37584669
>he thinks the wife will let him hang with his bros
lol
>>37585991
>>37586012
Thanks
>>37585741
My father told me once: life's greatest tragedy is that we can choose our friends but we can't choose our family.
>>37584468
All around my I see my friends and peers being happy and finding relationships and most night I just sit in my fucking room being miserable. Lifting is the only thing that gets me through my day. Girls think I'm a fucking joke and im sick of it.
>>37585880
good that you got outa there anon, life is gonna be a fuckin grind for you. but i believe you can do it. You made it this far.
>be me
>be 8
>be home schooled because yanked from elementry because i got in fights alot
>it wasnt even fighting, just me getting beat up alot
>reality was i was violently bullied but parents thought it was my fault
>fast forward 8 years
>be 5'6 and skrawny all my life because of starvation "punishments"
>always considered the bad kid when in reality i was sickly alot
>believed it myself after years of brutal conditioning
>told im a worthless piece of shit consantly
>get beatings often
>some people have collections of cars, toya or baseball cards, i have collection of scars and objects ive been hit with
>sometimes they experiment to see what obect works best
>belt, wire, electrical cords, coat hangers, pipes, wood, branches, etc
>siblings are angels who can do no wrong
>siblings go out of their way to get me in trouble and fuck with me
>often come home to find dog shit, glass, dirt in my bed
>get beaten for that too because "obviously i did that"
>one night after a walk i was greeted to twobyfour beating because i "left the gate open" and the horse got out
>find out later it wasnt me and my sister left it open cause she doesnt give a fuck and they never check her on her shit
>they both have cars, i dont because they dont think im "responsible" enough for it
>get fed up
>apply to jobs everywhere
>every, fuckin, where
>land a job at the local McD's because low standards
>bravado over, autistic and terrified as fuck because shit social skills and abuse
>make a ton of mistakes but alot of coworkers very friendly
>get food, actually eat now, blow the fuck up, grow 5 inches in one summer
>foggy haze on my mind lifted from years of starvation, suddenly gifted intelectually
>wtf is going on
>18th birthday comes and goes, notice everything getting smaller
>get measured a few months later, 6'3
>SIX FUCKING THREE
>im now bigger and taller than my parents
>find out later that year that i'm actually adopted
>they never had the guts to tell me
I still feel small inside.
>>37586079
Just change your state of mind.
I used to be like this, but then started thinking that all girls wanted me. It quickly turned around and I lost my virginity, fucked around then got a gf who I've had for 10months
>>37586160
If only it were so easy
>>37586160
Thanks brah
>>37584468
I have a small dick and want to fuck a single mother addicted to meth.
Also, I regularly want to blast up the office I work in, and kidnap, rape and then kill the cunt of a boss on top.
>>37586159
>adopting a kid just to beat the fuck out out of him his entire life
It's a cold world
>>37584468
Been with girl for five years, then she started acting like we were married.
So end of sex, she's got fat, house started looking like pigpen.
For half a year I tried to talk about us but every try ended with her crying. So one afternoon I told her to move out.
It's been year ago. I was regular chubby guy in a longtime relationship.
Since then I lift everyday, run every evening just to hurt myself.
I don't cry after her, I just lost any empathy for other people.
My 21 year old cat died last week and I didn't even frown.
I tinder mainly for the reason to eat in restaurant and fuck, in the morning I move over or tell them to move over, then head to work and... I don't know if you can call it a living.
I'm starting to feel like The Savage in Brave New World
>>37586175
Took me maybe 6months of thinking like that consistently
>>37586193
God speed brah
>>37586159
>>37586159
That sucks man . Dont let that shit get to you , and find some real homies that will grow up with you and share the lifting heavy ass weight ambition.
This is my life expirience, and i would not change anything.
I was born in some backwater shitty Slavic village, i have many needs as child, but my parents offered me very little beside school education. I could not sense my sexual or social needs until 18 years old, when i fell in love, it failed badly. Luckily, i was great art drawing, studying all the great masters... drawing and drawing, until i got so fucking good i was accepted by art school, scholarship was payed. Imagine that, village boy in big town. First few years was terrible, i had to learn almost eveything, including "how to make friends and influence people". I got my charms now, but i still like to draw, and think a lot... but it feels good i could relay on my intelligence...
21, no motivation to study or work, I don't put any value in money, all I spend is on food and that's because I'm lifting. I used to eat basically nothing when I was a skelly. Haven't even held hands with a girl.Not that it matters. I know that even if I did get a gf, I wouldn't change and I doubt she'd help much since girls don't like needy and desperate men. I feel like working 5 days a week would make me commit suicide.
Fugggg :DDDDD good thread
>who hurt you?
Who didn't hahahaha
>>37585180
>"average american"
>>37584692
amen
>>37584468
Got made fun of as a kid for being fat
Developed a fat fetish as my brain's way of dealing with it, especially get off on femdom/humiliation/stuffing
Constantly feel disgusted with myself because of my fetish
Most of my relationships with women were shitty
I've squandered a lot of good opportunities in high school and college
Speaking of college I dropped out
Haven't had a job in years
Shit's slowly improving since I returned to the gym a couple months ago but there's a lot of self sabotage that happens now and again probably because I'm afraid of actually making it
>>37584920
Can you defend yourself against someone who may rape you?
If not, I'll be your fwend.
I'm just desperate for someone to touch my doodle :(
>>37584468
>I'm a bitter looser.
>I hate my dead end job.
>I have little confidence and no thrust for anyone.
>I have almost no friend (only one I don't even see once every few weeks)
>I hate women, I never give them attention
>I have adipomastia
>Bading
>wide hips
>>37585404
You just simply have a low EQ.
Im sure that you can impove it just like your IQ.
I have a big group of friends who I've known since like 5th grade and who do care about me but they will never go out of their way to hang out with me or talk to me. I have to go out of my way to message them in order to hang out.
Right now I just finished up community college and am transferring to a university in the Fall, which I'm totally pumped for since I will be dorming and it's an awesome area with a big party scene and very outdoorsy, a great break from LA where I've lived all my life. Unfortunately that isn't happening until August 15th so I have 2 months I need to get through. Currently I spend most of my time in my room and I only leave to lift or to buy food/shop for cloths.
I really wish I had different friends who would hit me up and just like go fucking eat or something. Seriously that's all I want, just a friend who wants to talk and eat. My "friends" right now don't do shit all day and try to find something to do at night, usually doing something we've all done before because they don't like to get too far out of their comfort zone.
I can't just sit home and play video games all day like I used to as a teen; I have such a burning desire to go out and have adventures, live my life (which I know will happen once I leave for school). I literally trying to figure out what I could do all day for the next 2 months to not die of boredom. I don't want to keep playing video games all day but jesus man there's just nothing else for me to do. Maybe I should work but I would leave work less than 2 months in
>>37584468
I'm
>>>37585486
I have a fear of the homosexuals. I think they have germs and might transmit their disease to me. How do I fix this?
>>37585880
Good luck, you already have a good outlook on things.
Maybe take a bit more time to be with yourself and give yourself the love you need, then try to get into a relationship.
Intimacy is hard for everyone, but I'm sure you'll find someone you will be comfortable with!
>>37587002
By learning what "germs" and "diseases" are.
You fear things you dont understand because you are uneducated.
>>37584920
Bullshit. Being in a wheelchair doesnt do that, being a generally unplesant person does that.
same fuckin story every time:
>meet cute girl through mutual friends
>hang out with friends
>she is super down to earth and fun
>hit it off
>get number
>never text her or ask her to hang out because too afraid
>she posts her new boyfriend on snapchat
she lives like 2 and a half hours away and doesn't come home often so it wouldnt have worked.
>that's what I tell myself
>22 yr old kissless virgin
>pic related
at least my 5x5 squat set seemed lighter today. Ready to step it up in weight
>>37585883
This was inspirational af.
>gf of 6 years
>madly in love
>share the exact same hobbies, interests
>tells me how she can't wait to have kids, marriage and move in together
>book a holiday to orlando (live in uk)
>plan on proposing to her on holiday
>just so happy with everything
>find out she's been cheating on me for 2 months
>drop her like a sack of shit and block all contact
>take her half of the holiday money and keep it (just under two grand)
>this happened january
>she tried to get back in contact for months
>finally cave in and meet up with her
>she tells me she still loves me
>go to her house and fuck
>feels weird, not sure how it's goanna pan out
>next day find out she is now dating the dude she cheated on me with and i've effectively helped her cheat on him
>told her to jump off a bridge, genuinely hopes she kills herself
>she's still dating the dude she cheated on me with
>now haven't spoken to her in 3 months
>haven't glanced at her facebook or whatever since then
>been in a threesome since then
>fucked plenty of girls
>been on plenty of dates
>now got a new girlfriend
>i will never, ever be as happy with a girl as I was with her but my life now is better outside of that
weird
man, this thread makes me feel extra shitty about how little I have done with an easy life. But I guess that just chronic depression for you, making even the easiest life seem like garbage.
>>37584468
sexual abuse starting in the early 2000's stretching until 2008
>>37587356
Damn how? Who? Did you get revenge? Justice?
>>37587382
>Damn how? Who? Did you get revenge? Justice?
done to me by other students in school and covered up by a catholic priest. no justice, no revenge. years of medication that basically made me into a zombie though. I just got a job overseas, and i plan on never returning to this country
>>37587347
I am 22 years old, and after reading this thread, I noticed that I don't have real clear goals in my life.
Only goals now are:
>Lose extra 8 kg (already lost 8 kg of weight)
>Get a master degree in analytical chemistry.
I should spent less time behind my computer and work towards my future.
>>37585562
>>37585455
Different anon, but I recommend The Magus by John Fowles, it helped me pull myself out of some pretty deep shit, and it's incredibly well layered, quite complex, and written specifically for people in the situation I found myself in at that time - depressed, anxious, dreaming of love and adventure but socially retarded, suicidal and arrogant. Wanting to do great things, to revolutionize anything at all, but being too lazy, too sedentary to even live your life. Fowles takes it all apart step by step, for me it worked like a sort of introspection, like I was forced to reexamine my life and realise where and how I was wrong, only to come to a sort of stoic conclusion that I really can't express without spoiling and ruining the whole book for you (if you do read the book, after finishing it, think back on the greek resistance).
The author is such a cheeky fucker, but you won't understand it the first time you read it, maybe not even the second. It's coded in such a way that only those meant to understand it ever will, it's amazing.
I wish you the best of luck, and remember brehs, we're all gonna make it.
>>37584468
How can I stop being insecure and caring what people think?
I wish that I could cuddle all of you until you felt better. <3
Well, the girl that left me for somebody else can't stop twitting about how happy she is and how much she likes to have sex, so...
>>37587507
N-no homo right?
I have bitch tits. My posture is always shitty slouching because I developed bitch tits halfway through high school and I've been subconsciously trying to hide them for 10+ years. They are the first area of my body to put on fat, so I'm assuming they'll be the last to lose it when I finally get there.
>>37587507
>>37587522
We're all friends here
>>37584468
>Anything you want to get off your chest?
2pl8s...
>>37587522
Nah. I mean, unless you want it. then maybe homo.
>>37584468
My older sister, she's 8 years older than me and has done some horrible things to me emotional and physically. The first thing I remember was she told me I was adopted prompting me to try and seek out my "real" parents causing my mom to cry for days until she said it was a lie. She's given me gifts only to take them away and repurpose them for someone else saying she bought it for me and she can take it away from me. Always made fun of me with regards of how I interact with women generally insults my manhood and etc. To put things in perspective my father NEVER taught me anything when it comes to women everything I know is through trial and error. When I'd eventually screw up she'd be there to kick me when I was down needless to say that doesn't really help the confidence. She'd always grab my butt and make fun of me saying I have a woman's ass and insult me more. This lead to me being really introverted, never telling anyone anything because I was afraid to be ridiculed especially in high school. I had low self-esteem then like it was really bad, now I ignore my sister but damage has been done and I'm slowly working through it. Hold me bros
>>37587394
Which country, want me to write Trump to nuke it?
>>37587406
That'lll be hard anon. We're your brothers and some how the pull of kinship will bring you back here. Just keep it in moderation. We're all gonna make it.
>>37587574
Holy fuck anon are you me? The exact same thing happened to me, even down to the age difference and girly butt remarks. But don't worry anon, I've made it through and so will you, but I can;t tell you how. It has to come from the inside, you have to live through it otherwise it'll just be latin runes on a Khmer coconut recycling forum. Just think of it this way - you are you, you are free and nobody can hurt you unless you let them. Leave the shame and fear behind you and you'll make it, brah, we all will.
>>37584596
GOD DAMMIT
my gf left me, her reasoning was because she needed to find her self. i know she just wanted to find someone better. we dated for 2 years. so ever since ive been going to the gym, taking care of my self and studying. ive been with many other girls and they have all told me how i am such a perfect guy. smart, funny, good looking but it means nothing to me. I never feel good enough.
i have pectus and feel like a freak
I hate this fucking world, too many god damn fuckers in it.
Too many thoughts and different societies all wrapped up together in this fucking place called AMERICA.
Everyone has their own god damn opinion on every god damn thing,
and you may be saying 'Well what makes you so different?'.
Because I have something only me and V have; SELF AWARENESS.
Call it exortenstiolism or whatever the fuck you want.
We know what we are to this world, and what everyone else is.
We learn more than what caused the civil war and how to simplify quadratics in school.
We've been watching you people and we know what you think and how you act.
All talk and no action.
People who are said to be brave or courageous are usually just STUPID,
then they say later that they did it on purpose cause they're brave,
when they did it on fucking accident.
God everything is so corrupt and so filled with opinions and points of view,
and peoples own little agendas and schedules.
This isn't a world any more.
It's H.O.E and no one knows it.
Self awareness is a wonderful thing.
>>37587599
Good. Let that fuel you. The moment you settle for being good enough for yourself, is when you lose.
Your peoblem is you need to stop thinking everyone is better than you.
You think she left to find someone better? Good! Now you can find someone better.
I work full time three days a week at a decent paying job and have a beautiful loving wife. We typically go on three vacations a year just to use up our vacation time and when we're home, we have sex, play video games and cook together.
I'm doing pretty okay.
>>37587632
Thanks man, i haven't told anyone how ive felt about this before. thats sort of what i needed to hear. thank you dude.
>>37587593
I can't keep moderation with /fit/, I keep sticking on it for too long (3 to 4 hours a day).
I read a lot of great advice here and can post my feels time to time, but I need to cut the amount of web browsing in my life.
I know it's going to be hard, but I need to fix my life. It's always been easy and that's not what it is supposed to be I believe.
Progress is always slow, but when you get the goal you desire, it feels great.
I have really big hips and they make me scared of having sex
>>37587610
Know what else you are? A spoiled little bitch. Do you think youre the only one who knows that? Or feels that way? No, the fuck you arent.
Ive often pondered what the reason was for our issue and my conclusion is simple: lack of purpose. Humanity as itself has lacked any new goal.
The greatest of which stares down at us every day and every night. And i know why its unreachable. A piece of paper, of legislation, blocks the way. One. Single. Document. Forged with all the same good intentions as the roads to hell.
If only we can get it torn down, the spark could ignight a new fire in humanity. But alas ita unlikely..
>>37587595
Lifting has been a good outlet for my repressed feelings, since starting I feel better and I'm generally in a better mood. I also have taken up meditation, like I said earlier I ignore my sister and avoid interacting with her unless I have to. Getting all this off my chest has made me feel way better. I've got problems to work through but this by far was one of the biggest ones effecting my psyche. We can all make bros
>>37587652
Don't worry mate. Not everybody is perfect.
My insecurity is that I have tits, because of my fatness. I am losing some weight, but still got them. But I don't let it bother me when I have sex.
>>37587652
Dont worry about it. If girll, hips are extremely sexy for any male with even moderate testosterone.
If hetro male then train your larger musclea to bang harder and faster.
If homo male youre pretty golded and are in the same boat as the females
>>37587648
I feel you bro but you gotta put more time in what matters and come see us from time to time.
We're always here
>>37587688
Yeah, I know. I should visit this place like a couple of times a week, not everyday.
I still got a notebook lying around somewhere, gonna write my goals properly and start writing what I want in life.
Also, Thanks for responding to my posts mate, I appreciate it.
>>37587718
Having a plan is A1
Its easier to get from point A to point B, C, D if you have a map. Wandering aimlessly is fine too but too often you'll end up walking in circles
>>37587734
Ah, have thought about that a little bit.
For next year I need to do a orientation internship and a graduation internship.
Point A: Orientation intership
Point B: Finish internship
Point C: Graduation internship
Point D: Finish Graduation internship
Point E: Going for a Master degree.
Is that what you mean with having a plan?
>>37584468
Bullied in school for being a fat cunt, shit made me miss out on teenage love and gave me body dismorphia so now I'm never happy no matter how fit I get. whatever though, what's done is done.
>>37587765
Big goals. Yes. Those are your main mission objectives. Keep that plan somewhere safe. Focus on each point before moving on to accomplish the next.
Your master plan can always be tweeked but make sure you stick to it and DOCUMENT any changes you make so if you change back, you know where you came from, etc.
>>37587805
Thanks for the advice, will work on that!
Trust issues because my first girlfriend fucked my brother
Trust issues cause the next one wouldn't tell me she wasn't happy with the relationship
Trust issues because next one dumped me for a guy she was fucking the whole time
Neglected by parents but I still can't fend for myself
Plenty of bullying and all that bs through most of school life, ended up a dropout for family/gf issues I couldn't wrap my head around
Parents think I'm a lost cause even though I'm the most successful out of the whole family for the last 3 generations
Don't have the social skills to find a woman
Getting fit, somewhat attractive, well paid job, don't pay rent because I live at work, no bills at all to pay so all of my $700 a week is for me but I save most of it so I can buy a house or something in a few years
Scared of commitment, scared of getting close to people though I'm incredibly insecure about being a good friend which drives people away
Can talk to people okay but when it comes to think about making friends or meeting people I have no idea what to do
Getting with a woman will be difficult because of my selfishly high standards I've set, not like any woman has expressed interest in me anyway but I try to keep them as acquaintances at least
Haven't felt any form of physical affection in 6 years, have trouble crying so that hasn't happened in a good while, it's good for you so I try a lot.
0 sense of self but I'm trying to work on it
Suddenly only family member I trust is having medical problems and may die soon, I promised him I'd write a song and I want it done before he passes, but I may not be fast enough and it's hard to write more because of the context
Dad killed himself last month
Next month I'm taking a 6 hour trip to meet with a friend I met online so I can have coffee with them, might get a hug we'll see
I've accepted the idea of being a bachelor all my life
I don't even know why I'm typing all this, everyone around me has had a worse time in life.
>>37587775
If you had experienced those things you'd still be unhappy now.
I'm actually happy and satisfied in life, and I'm not quite sure what the turning point was.
Maybe it was finally feeling comfortable around other people, and being good enough at faking social interaction that it became second nature. People actively seek out my company now.
Maybe it was after sleeping with beautiful young woman after beautiful young woman.
Maybe it was the first time I did a one handed pull up or a muscle up on rings (I had already had abs and still felt shit).
Maybe finding a job I love that pays a shit ton.
Likely it's all of the above, but yeah, been actually happy for years now. It genuinely felt weird at first, like someone was going to take it all away from me at any time, and sure there have been bad points, but I don't care really, I move on, I can still improve, it'll all be alright.
>>37587394
Murder all of them Anon, and enjoy Valhalla for ever.
>>37587870
Not really
You guys power through! Don't let shitty people that couldn't take responsibility for their.lives turn you into one of them. Learn from their mistakes and accept them as they are. This doesn't mean forgiving and forgetting what shit stains they are, it's so you can move on and.build your life the way you want it.
Acknowledge that all this shit will make you stronger and you will win at life by overcoming it.
Love yourselves. You are in control.
I'm giving you all a big hug and hope that we.ll be strong enough to make it.
If things are really dark and you feel like you can't escape, talking to a decent psychologist can help, at least you know there's one person out there that wishes to help you help yourself.
>>37585055
Lost itt at 24th Bday
Looking back I should have already sold it to a prostitute earlier, because it really made a difference. It made me feel more of a man after I had sex. Dealing with girls became easier after that.
Set yourself a deadline: If you don't lose it for say age 21, then go see a whore.
>>37585209
Not him, but no. Counterfeit means a fake copy, not stolen. So basically he's a 1-man China.
>>37587997
I've been debating in my mind going to a hooker and telling her I've never gotten laid and bringing a same day std test (that will obviously come back 100% clean) so that I can do it raw
I wanna do it right
They are all on birth control so combined with them knowing I'm telling the truth (a hooker is so highly trained she will know if you've done it or not) combined with same day std test proof that I don't see why they'd say no to it
I am really paranoid about aids and shit though
I dunno, I just hope things go well for me this year so I don't have to make that call
>>37587980
Wise words Anon.
>>37587997
Truth, lost mine at 22 to an honest to goodness cute ass girl i didnt even know was a prostitute/heroin addict.
She was young, couldnt have been older than 21. She said she would fuck my brains out and jesus she did, after she shot up and everything at a resteraunt bathroom. She was crazy cute and rode my dick but was really affectionate. I kissed her and she kissed back even grabbed my face to kiss me. I learned later why that was a bad idea but i was stupid at the time and hey it was my first.
I wore a condom but took it off before i finished and busted a fat one deep in her.
Still to this day its the best sex i ever had.
And i still wonder wtf happened to her.
>>37588025
Where the hell did you take that hookers are well trained? Wtf lol
>>37588047
The brothel nearby has a ton of Slavic girls who I'm pretty sure have been trained since child.
There's one Albanian girl who can give a handjob with her vagina muscles they're so well developed.
>>37584920
You're part of /fit/, we're all bro's here.
>>37588025
>a hooker is so highly trained she will know if you've done it or not
>>37588058
Fucking WHERE is this place, i need to visit
>>37585127
underrated poast
>>37588076
Boston, you need to be introduced for the first time though.
>>37585127
>>37588100
Boston...so all black i take it?
