ITT: Sum up your daily life with one /co/-related image.
>>82320546
Eleanor Rigsby
>>82320546
London?
>>82320746
I hope you're able to find peace with yourself
OP: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ycfdfinG_P8
ED1: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hXDNGS9V4Us
ED2: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m4DyTjrruVo
PV: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JcVGDV67L-g
EP 1: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o_rz1bluG_k
I spent my entire life working towards getting an engineering job.
I got one.
I'm just as miserable as ever.
I give up.
>>82320565
pretty much this
>>82320883
Seconding, it's a horrible feeling.
>>82320772
If you mean the peace of the grave, yeah, so do I.
I think we all could find a suitable womp.
I use my day job as a front for my friends and family. I'm actually a really popular trap camwhore. Thats where my real money comes from. I tell people my day job is full time but its actually part time. It pays to be pretty with a dick.
>>82320789
it don't matter if u think it don't matter
wat do u want in life, anon
i'm assuming u have some steady dosh flowing
>>82320789
>he fell for the STEM meme
It you dont enjoy your job why bother
>>82321062
i unironically thank you for derailing the thread
>>82321062
This gon be real sad.
>>82320789
Make your money for a few years.
Then travel the world and find what makes you happy.
>>82321062
I'll be the first to ask for a pic.
>>82321062
good for you friend!
Had a bout of depression last night. Second or third this week, I don't know anymore. Still feeling it to some extent.
Life is too long.
I can't even explain why
>finished bachelor back in january
>haha, time to find a job
>do you have 30 years of experience?
>dude i'm only 24
>fuck outta my office
Unemployed but got an internship, pretty cool.
>>82321268
>tfw the entire world fell for the "get a degree" meme
I shoulda stayed at the car dealership
>>82321062
Well?
>>82321062
yo gurl link yo stream pls
>>82321172
>>82321358
>>82321372
He's doing what any sensible person would do and choosing not to camwhore himself in an unrelated thread.
>>82321085
Because I am not going to live in Poverty. Never again.
I've been poor. I know how it feels to think "Well if I eat one meal a day for the next week I can pay this bill." I am not going back to that.
I bought a couch for my apartment today. And not some shitty old craigslist couch full of stains and dust mites. A new couch. And I had it delivered to my apartment.
I sacrificed personal fulfillment for financial stability. I am a real American.
>>82321400
This
Even if only because if he did then people would accuse him of only making the initial post as an excuse to advertise
>>82321268
HR departments are scum of the earth for being allowed to pull that shit
>we want someone with 10 years experience in ________
>_________ has only been out 5 years
>welp can't find anyone domestically time to file more work visas and bring in more asian fuckbois
>>82321150
>I live in Lubbock and am an aspiring artist.
neat, I guess.
>>82321405
You know what anon?
Thats great.
I take back what I said. Keep pushing.
>>82321327
>tfw you got a 4-year degree and a 2-year master's instead of just becoming an electrician
>>82321405
>I sacrificed personal fulfillment for financial stability.
That's a sensible thing to do.
Happiness is just a meme.
>>82321245
Life is a cruel joke. I hate my life.
I've gotten used to myself, which is a step forward, but I feel so powerless and everything feels so hopeless.
>>82321405
I'm real proud of you, son. Keep on trucking.
>>82321268
>Entry level position
>Need 10+ years in Synthetic Fiber development
>Management experience a plus!
>>82321451
God damn anon, I can see why you're such a popular camtrap.
>>82321327
Problem is, if you aren't born business-savvy, a degree is your only other option.
watched a friend die
>>82321268
>not even finished with my degree and already employed part time with a decent wage
>gonna keep working there as soon as I'm done
Computer Science, baby.
>>82321490
You're shitting me?!
>>82320789
>mfw aspiring towards engineering
should i just back out now and switch my major while i still can?
>>82321576
For real man.
Job market is kind of fucked nowadays, especially in the tech center.
People aren't retiring, so Hirers are making their standards SUPER high (why risk a recent college grad when Ted from Johnson and Johnson just got laid off after 20 years of faithful service)
Even in service positions the economy has turned everything on its head. Notice how many middle aged women you see working fast food nowadays?
>>82321518
story?
>>82321590
Have you tried an internship with a company? It can make your resume look better and gives you job experience
>>82321584
>damaged goods
>>82321590
No. Don't. Keep pursuing stem. I am dead serious.
I live in a constant state of emotional numbness, balancing dread of "This is my life now" and the hope of "Well maybe I'll get promoted to a less intense position someday" while pushing it all under the constant overtone of "Holy shit I have to get this done before midyear reviews"
But you know what? I can eat. I'm paying off my student loans. It won't be easy, and you will not be handed a degree, but honestly that's WHY Engineers are so sought after.
i dont think im depressed anymore but im not happy and feeling fulfilled. Essentially i just exist, i don't really do much outside of my routine of being on my laptop talking to the same handful of people and going to college
>>82321624
got in a car crash five months ago, he was driving and i was in the back seat with another friend
>>82321648
no not yet i didnt go to college immediately becuase of some family shit so im still a freshman
>>82321701
Man I feel you.
>>82321584
what's this?
>>82321707
drunk driver?
>it's a "boo-hoo woe is me" thread
Am I the only happy, well-adjusted person on 4chan?
>>82321701
That's how I feel every day, too... until I have a depression episode every three or four days.
>>82321774
yeah
>>82321774
Your kind isn't welcome here.
>>82321724
Do you have any hands-on experience? If you do you can try to get one. If you don't, I'd suggest taking some major classes while focusing on your general education classes
>>82321774
You think you're happy.
But you're not.
You'll see. It will hit you one night. Maybe you'll be lying next to your Significant other and realize you really don't like them that much, or you'll realize you never really loved your dad. Or you remember that one dream you had as a kid that you completely gave up.
It will happen.
Good job, making good money, have a home with a low-rate mortgage at 27, doing so well financially that my parents are asking me for money to cover their bills instead of vice-versa, friends are all envious of my "success"
pic related
>>82321518
That's not really daily life.
>>82321963
>Friends who are mad at you because of your success
Holy shit. I thought this only happened in cartoons.
My friend is a total bum. Lives with his folks. He ALWAYS gives me shit because I don't play video games online (something he does all day) with him.
>>82320546
Anyone who posts anything other than this is a liar.
I got married 3 weeks ago and like my job
>>82321622
>>82321576
>>82321490
What he's talking about is blatant requirement bloat so the company can request H1B visas from the government, but it's also true that people aren't retiring.
I got into my PS development job as a result of an acquisition, and I have job security because I learned how to write in a proprietary scripting language that no one else knows. Getting the same kind of job through normal channels would be absolutely impossible.
>>82321892
yeah. I feel like the reality of life hits everyone as some point, and how they move on and change is different. Some people become bitter self centered douche bags, others close themselves in and sulk, and others use their experience to help others and accept the harshness of reality while still being able to enjoy it's fruits. Unfortunately the majority do the first two much more often.
I can vouch for being a fairly emotionless person who doesn't have much cares or stressers, but recently I lost someone close to me and it really hit hard. You can bottle in your emotions as long as you want but at some point in your life you face a crossroads of what type of person you're gonna be after that happens.
>>82322021
Not mad, envious. They think I have it made. And to be fair, from an outside perspective, I kinda do. I have a job in a field I'm good at that allows me to work from home, I build equity instead of paying rent, I live alone, I've got more than enough cash to support my lifestyle comfortably.
Meanwhile I drink and smoke the sheer apathy away because life is so fucking boring
>>82321701
"Just existing without suffering" is the new American dream. Anything more than that is unrealistic to expect.
>>82321405
I just married into STEM money. Wasn't even a compromise; I love my wife.
I'm actually good at art, but it stopped making me happy a long time ago and I'm not sure what to do. Fuck the possibility of finding this out while poor though. Always choose money if you can.
Teaching French in a ghetto is hell
>>82322510
what city?
>>82322546La Plata, Argentina
>>82322603what are ghettos like there
>>82322152
>They think I have it made.
Nigga, you DO have it made.
>>82322678
Full of Peruvians.
t. a Peruvian
>>82321518
I'm sorry to hear that friend.
>>82322154
but its not living at that point its just not dying
and you dont kill yourself maybe some small part of you still hopes for a better tomorrow
and then it doesnt come and its the same cycle endlessly
>>82322816
peruvian pan flute bands everywhere?
doesn't seem all that bad unless they're aggressive with their CD marketing
>>82322078Congrats
>>82322852
Motherfucker I'd love to travel the world kung fu style going on adventures and eating exotic foods. Hell I'd love to walk the Appalachian trail for a few months.
But the fact of the matter is that I need to do my job. I need to pay my bills and rent. And I need to be a little cog in the machinery of modern society.
>>82322678
they are called "villas", and are filled with houses made from bricks (no cement) and tin roofs. The best houses I've been to have electricy, but lack water and gas. Families tend to be numerous, with great-grandparents being 40 years old, and 13 years old mothers.
Most people there are ill tempered, violent and uneducated folk. That doesn't mean that they are all criminals, but walking through a villa, you can bet there's at least 40 people that are eyeing you to beat your shit, but only 5 of them actually want to rob you, the rest just like beating people they consider to be better than them.
They are extremely defensive, and think that just because they have a rough life, you can't call them fot their bullshit. They pledge to be correct and pure citizens, but went they are caught stealing, they go apeshit for daring to question their means of survival, when our goverment has given them A LOT of opportunities and social plans to progress.
>>82322603
It's always weird to see other platenses in here. I know your struggle, comrade.
>>82323055
Are you coming to bed, dear?
>>82322933
I know anon i knowi just wish it didnt make me feel so numb
>>82322986
i hope you have good luck and are safe in your teachings of the french language, argentinanon
>>82323120
There are entire genres of literature, music, and film devoted to this feeling.
It's part of being human.
It's the entire foundation of the cultural phenomenon of the Mid Life Crisis"
>>82322792
and yet I'm no more happy or fulfilled than my worse-off friends.
My daily life eh
Well here you go
Honestly tempted into using my savings to buy various goods I wanted for myself, gorge on them for a month or two and then see whether that'll be the push necessary to be more active in my life
or else.
>>82323224
then what makes you happy?
I am a angry bus driver.
>>82321405
You made us proud anon.
It's homework time
I feel like I got left behind.
>>82322493
>>82322972
How much you got?
>>82324442
EVERY
TIME
Can someone provide me with an appropriate image?
>Land a job with the government's postal facility when I was 20 because I applied on a whim
>Minimum wage is $11 here, that job paid almost 3x that, at $29/hour, great benefits
>Leave after a few months because the job is braindead and literally boring, you just sort boxes and letters for 8 hours a day with Paljeet and other immigrants who can barely speak a word of English
>Decide to follow my other interest, and actually put my diploma to use, which is being in the restaurant industry
>The pay is just a couple dollars above minimum
>Whatever, have fun doing my job because I love it
>Over the past year and a half, I've been deciding on leaving this job because the work politics became so retarded over time, to the point where I'm getting discriminated upon
>Can't decide whether to just take their shit and power through because I sincerely love what I do, or do I just go back to the job and be braindead but rich
>mfw everytime they tell me that they're cutting my hours because "I live with my parents so Joe Blow over there who gets disability checks and lives alone needs more hours than I do."
Fucking bullshit. If the restaurant didn't have the backing of the city's best law firm, I would've sued their asses a long time ago.
>>82323436
Winning in fighting games brings me temporary happiness, but having a full-time job I usually find that I don't want to jump into more stressful activities after working all day.
So mostly drugs.
>>82321892
I think you're just projecting.
Escapism, amirite?
>>82324691
You fucking idiot
>>82324691
>leaving a repetitive menial job that pays well
I hate you
>>82324691
>Drop a good paying job because it's boring
>Get shit job because it's "fun"
I think I have an image.
>>82324717
you're a fucking beauty
>>82321892
>Maybe you'll be lying next to your Significant other and realize you really don't like them that much
be so lucky for the first part to happen
>or you'll realize you never really loved your dad.
Bit l8 m8. I'm not happy, but I'm honestly not that bothered anymore for some reason. The worst shit is happening to family too, I just can't find it in me to bother since it's not going to make much difference. Someone's health deteriorates, you cry, well there's still dying aren't they? Might as well cut that middle part out and have a fap.
>>82321405
Love the one you're with.
I spent years perfecting my work and handling the excess of new tasks my boss threw at me because I didn't have any option but to accept them. Now I have enough money and indifference that I'm ready to turn down the next unreasonable four month detour I'm expected to take. And I'm the only person in work who ever took these extra burdens.
>>82321478
We are practically powerless. Take heart. Even the strongest, most dedicated individuals had only a very fleeting impact on the world.
I mean, it can even be a little perverted fun.
Gandhi, in the end, felt he was a failure because of the seperation of India and Pakistan - he knew where it would lead. Gandhi!
If you can finish a day without harming yourself or others, that's already MUCH better than many other people in the world. Positive stuff is gravy.
>>82321485
...Without irony... that's deep.
>>82321518
...I am sorry, bro.
>>82321584
...Seriously?
>>82321590
No, don't! Real skills are something you can't fake. People will always needs plumbers, electricians and programmers.
>>82320789
Super villian origin
>>82321666
At least you can walk around naked whenever you want.
>>82321892
...If you THINK you are happy, doesn't that mean that you ARE?
Also, "it will happen" - ha. So you think that all people are the same.
>>82321648
>>82320789
I just graduated and am waiting to start a.l government gig. My plan is to funnel my 70k a year paycheck into funding artists for comics I write and producers for songs I write in order to start a career and eventually work my way up to owning an arts and sciences company.
Is this logical?
>>82320789
The truth is a Job or Career doesn't automatically equate to Happiness.
Going in only enables you to do things you like. What you need to do is like more things then see if you're happier for not wasting your time doing things you don't like.
>>82325861
Work your job for 25 years, save hard and often. When you have north of 1 million, put it into an interest earning account and stay in work another 15 years. Retire with a pension and put that money to work.
>>82321892
>Everybody must be as miserable as me! Surely I'm not an anomaly compared to society at large!
Hospital got hit pretty hard yesterday...
Mixed with "I told you about the stairs".
This is what my professional life is. Not even my boss remembers about stairs.
>>82325908
Cant I just gradually phase my science career into my art career over time instead of doing one for 40 years and then the rest for 20 then dying?
Managing the liquor department by myself today
>>82326272
Is there a chimpout where you are or something?
>>82326254
Nope, the two don't blend. Trust me.
>>82325583
Not everything is about money. Being miserable most of your day can be lethal to you if you only have yourself to take care of.
>>82326177
What is this from?
You're all so lost and weak
>>82326904
Space Runaway Ideon: Be Invoked. Do NOT watch if you are feeling down, this one is hard on the Tomino scale.
>>82326904
Ideon. It's by Yoshiyuki "Kill-'em-all" Tomino.
>>82326770
Kek, this should be the official banner for /co/
money isn't everything...
>>82320746
Stop being a queer you faggot.
>>82326944
>We're all so lost and weak
ftfy
I'm about to graduate but I still haven't turned in all of my assignments, and I barely have time and I might fail two classes. I'm going to be $100,000 in college debt and I'm also broke. I constantly have to keep talking my friend out of suicide even though she makes me feel like absolute shit sometimes, but I'm worried she might end her life tomorrow, and I can't live with that.
When does the pain end /co/? Does it get better when you're older?
>>82327045
Can I have some, then?
>>82327355
Look at it this way.
You don't live in the fucking Middle East.
>>82327355
>Does it get better when you're older?
26yo here.
No, it doesn't. In fact, you feel worse because now you're a loser AND old.
>>82326410
Details please?
Frankly it seemed so normal its almost cliche, every one in comics has a "real" job. They even have a name for it. I dont see why I cant basically do what I do now, except with more money and less free time. Wouldnt I be able to fund my career?
>>82321774
WHY FIGHT IT ANON
YOU'RE JUST AS CRAZY AS THE REST OF US
>>82324033
Happy Birthday anon!
>go to college
>go home
>repeat until dead
I should get a job or an internship or something
how do you get those?
Damn, you guys are sad.
I am 42, I am autistic, on welfare with no prospect of a real job, I deliver news papers to supplement my income, the woman I love lives on another continent, I have a chronic rheumatic disease, and I still don't have my shit together.
And you know what? I'm laughing. I am laughing like Democritos. And I think you should be laughing, too. Life has neither purpose nor goal. So laugh like the Jewish atheist who danced in the synagogue, and sang joyfully: "Man is dust and will return to dust." Because if man was gold and became dust, it would be sad, but dust at the start and dust at the end, and a little booze in the middle - isn't that worth dancing?
Don't cry too long, my brothers. Sometimes happiness is no more than sitting in the sun.
>>82328097
If you want Anon I can help you make a resume and look for openings in your area! Here are my email and skype so I can help you!
[email protected]
Skype: DanDashly1
>>82328321
>Local anon contacts strange resume man, found cut into 32 pieces next day
>>82327355
what's the chance chance your friend's just being an attention drain. I know far too many people who will yap on about how they're gonna kill themselves for real but just want people to crowd around them and praise them.
It's not an uncommon phenomena.
>>82328455
>thinking Dan Dashly would hurt anyone
>>82328317
Happiness is temporary, people are too fickle to enjoy any one thing for too long and 90% of their lives are spent looking for things that make them happy, the other 10% actually being happy, 80% of that 10% of is usually spent in childhood if one is lucky. The closest thing to a lasting form of happiness you can actually achieve in this life is to stop looking for it and lowering your standards so much that everything in the world makes you smile.But even that grows old eventually
I hope one day we genetically engineer a people that don't have to put up with these stupid outdated survival mechanisms which only ever lead to depression in modern civilization. Though, chances are if we do manage to genetically alter people, some greedy cunts too insecure to give up their human greed and suffering will just make everyone require even more to be happy and be more gullible so they buy into the whole "it gets better if you work hard! it gets better if you buy this! it gets better if you keep on living!" slave ethic.
>>82328509
I've had that theory for a while, but at the same time there's evidence that she's been this way for a while
>>82321774
I hate your kind
>>82328846
How old are you? Because I remember a time I spoke with such certainty about other people's feelings.
>>82321774
>happy and well adjusted
>feels the need to point it out on 4chan
>purposefully doing it in comparison to people who admit they're not
It's okay to talk about it, you know.
>>82329359
Old enough to have seen it happen to too many people. It's simple human nature, we need something to keep us going, to keep us fighting. Every fulfilled desire must be replaced with more, and the satisfaction of fulfillment temporary, otherwise why not just stop there? There are studies showing this. People enjoy the idea of what they want to could have much more than they do actually having it, same goes for memory, everyone remembers things better than they really were. Hell, this thread is just a testament to that. Once you realize it's true all the "oh my life is so unsatisfying, I spent it all building up to this single amazing career and now it feels hollow and I want something else" becomes as predictable as the "it'll be really great once I get what I want! it gets better!" from kids becomes depressing.
The only people not subject to this are genetic anomalies who usually end up NEETS hated by the rest of society.
>>82328317
>Life has neither purpose nor goal.
Lifeless to those, the definition for what life is
I can explain.
one day...
>>82321216
This
Fucking this
Someone post smug anime girls.
It would be a shitload more /co/ related than this thread.
>>82321584
Smug?
>I'm so worried about social interactions that I can't even muster up the courage to go to my old job to get my W-2 even though I'll get a sweet return if I do
>>82321584
We've all been there
>>82321774
You've never hit a low point in your life? Fun fact: It's more common for people to come to terms with the fact that their life than it is for people to somehow align all of the planets in the sky and be happy.
>>82321774
If you're happy and well-adjusted then you're either extremely lucky or just a humongous dipshit too oblivious to realize how messed up your life is. Judging by the self-awareness exhibited in your post I'm betting on the latter.
>>82325291
so competitiveness? you should join a club/class/klan that advocates that but irl.
drugs are bad mmmk unless you're the rare types that can do it in moderation
>>82321268
>graduating within the next weeks from animation school
>have an internship from a company that really wants me because my friend who works there now recommended me
>all the work they get is steady so I won't have to be a nomad like most animation people
>still have terror from thinking I'll fuck up projects for them and there won't be any excuse because I'm graduated and a REAL adult
Come the fuck on brain, why are you just fabricating things to be anxious about? I got enough going on as is
I identify with Reginald in general a lot more than I'm comfortable with
>>82328455
LOL
Charlie Brown is me
>>82324442
I'm thankful none of my relatives does this, sounds like a common problem around here.
>>82331789
You got a pretty sweet setup. I just graduated and only a few people I know have shit lined up.
Meanwhile I'm stuck bashing out models and begging people to hire me before the money runs out and I have to work a service job
>>82331855
No, he's me.
>>82320746
Go meet a nice boy, anon.
>>82331920
Whatever
Yup
>>82324442
THIS SHIT PISSES ME OFF TO NO END!
>>82326904
Ideon. Pretty much with there with Victory Gundam as one of Tomino's most depressing series.
>>82331920
We all are a little Charlie Brown inside, that's why we relate to him so bad.
>>82332315
GOTTA CHECK THAT SOCIAL MEDIA, BRAH
>>82323343
Why is the kid irish?
This is me now.
>>82332189
This too
>>82328321
>Dan Dashly
Aren't you an unemployed NEET who tried making videos that no-one ever watched?
>>82325986
>mfw I found my glasses after losing them for a month and a half
Now I can drive and read better.
About life in general.
>>82333142
dan dashly is a fucking service to /co/ and you should respect him
>>82320546I get by with a little help from my friends.
>a year away from 30
>born terminally ill
>hopefully getting an organ transplant in the next few months
>never had a job
>only ever completed high school
>transplant may let me live another 5 to 10 years
>have to learn how to socialize and make friends
>have to learn how to be independent
>have to drive and get my license after 15 years of a learner's permit and maybe 5 hours of driving experience overall
>will always be stuck to my parents due to my circumstances
>may live in a little house by myself but it'd still be on my parents' property
>genetics and circumstances too fucked up to complete simple biological imperative of having kids
>even if I get married, we'll never have a 10-year anniversary
>most interaction I've had is with my cat
Well, at least I managed to lose my virginity 10 years ago.
Life is great, guys!
>>82332752
"I never liked you"
>>82320546
I need an image that shows I'm happy right now but terrified of the future.
>>82325778
close second
love that show
>>82321451
6/10 i can still tell you're a boy
>>82333716
... that pic was taken in China or Japan, wasn't it?
>>82321584
is she frowning or is there a veil or something on her face
Can't tell if she has a small smile or if that's her nose.
>>82334814
She's frowning. That's her nose. She's just been molested.
>tfw most of friends are dating
>tfw everyones off living their own life and im doing nothing meaningful
>tfw in love with someone who is a pretentious asshole to me who i want strangle a lot
im fuckin lonelyi need a new life
>>82321451
Well give me a ascot call me Fred Jones! Goddamn!
>>82321268
Internships often turn into real jobs. It's basically the only way to get into museums nowadays.
I'm pretty much apathetic towards most things. The average emotional response to things when there is a response at all is a general sort of cynicism.
I'm pretty sure it's due to a fucked up childhood that was subjected to a divorce and a few varyingly terrible father figures, one of whom was a junkie, combined with moving around a lot making it hard for me to make personal connections.
Also, does anyone know the sauce of this? I know I'm not the only one looking for it and I'd love to read some Roman comics.
>>82336732
It's a kids book about the Roman Legions. Bretty good stuff, read it when I was in elementary school
>>82336818
found it http://www.amazon.com/Roman-Army-Legendary-Soldiers-Booklist/dp/0802788963
>>82322510
Fuck, I'm getting a history degree in Baltimore and I really hope I don't end up teaching here
> Bullied in school because I stuttered like Porky Pig.
> Pretty much wasted my childhood being a socially awkwatd faggot who never did anything except join band in High School.
> Finally got tired of feeling like shit so I'm doing something about it.
> Quit drinking
> Going to gym regularly
> Taking a black weeabo girl to a con with me next month, she wants to experience it.
> This is the first time in 26 years that I actually feel like I'm living.
The infinite dark abyss of the universe as the last particle is snuffed out of existence farther into the future than physically comprehensible is forever ingrained in the back of my mind at every waking moment of the day and every restless dream of the night.
All that is will fade into nothing.
>>82337144
Thanos pls go
>>82337144
gnarly
>>82320755
This.
>>82320546
got fit and rearranged my life so I don't seem like such a failure.
I still feel like everyone is judging me and waiting for me fuck up so they can laugh at me.
my "friends" aren't the same as when I was among my fellow outcasts.
nobody's figured this out yet
>>82337739
fuck, that wasn't it
it's hard finding the right g-g pic when looking at only thumbnails
>>82322152
have you cultivated outside interests? these things break the monotony of daily life and make things worth living. There are whole boards to this. I recommend fitness, cooking, guns, or martial arts.
>>82320546
>being a chef
>drink unhealthy amount of coffe in the morning
>place is full the whole day
>gotta work with 2 people less
>spend 5 hours trying to not piss
>turns ends
>unleash the yellow tsunami
>>82328004
I love those comics
>>82338175
Define "unhealthy amount".
Is it DD Punisher "good start" tier?
>>82321268
>studying arts cause even if I study something usefull I will be unnemployed
I´m becoming a barman after this if I cant make good conections with the teachersthey like me anyways
>>82338280
6 americanos
2 espresso
and half americano i drank with one of my waitress
>>82334845
oh.
>>82333142
I'm a news photographer but yeah I used to make comic reviews now that I'm all moved into my new apartment I'm gonna start again.
>>82338488
At least you're drinking socially.
I work security and largely find myself refilling my thermos at every opportunity until the coffee machine at the loading dock stops production in the afternoon and then I have a daily epic shit.
I'm working 7-4 this week so I'll be super relying on that shit past Monday.
Here's the best image I got.
I'm taking a break from cleaning my kitchen. I need boxes and a meal plan to sort my kitchen inventory before I move.
>>82338988
i can drink more when i get home but when i'm making mise n place i try to drink what i can really
but the thing i couldn't take a piss in my turn couse 2 folks din't go to work so i was orchestra man this day
>tfw hooking up with an ex is more fun than ever
Life's ok sometimes
>>82331920
shut up boco
>>82324717
>shaggy isn't old enough to post on 4chan
>>82321485
This applies to me so much it hurts
I want out of this world
>>82339693
Haha I hate myself
I honestly just don't understand.
I feel that I have a pretty good life. Is it that uncommon?
Not just in this thread, but even the people that I mean in person are constantly moaning about the terrible things in their lives, none of which has ever happened to me or anyone in my family. Really, the only negative things that affect me are the feeling that I'm the only one not dealing with that shit and the struggle to not be bored.
>>82321774
What made you think 4chan was a place for happy, well-adjusted people? They're here of course, but most of 4chan's user base wouldn't use the site if they were happy, well-adjusted people.
>>82340345
You might be watching the wrong anime.
There's at least a half-dozen in my collection that are "feel-good".
You space out those heavy psychological drama ones and watch a palette cleanser between.
People gotta listen to songs other than Blue Monday, man.
>>82336732
Man, I don't even have a good reason for my apathy. I had a great childhood, I have loving parents, and I've never been truly poor. After a move when I was a teenager I just never attempted to make friends and now that I'm in my twenties I'm afraid to try since I haven't had a true friend in over a decade outside of a few casual acquaintances. The only thing that keeps me from descending into a deep depression is immersing myself with escapist media but I still know it;s just a crutch that's only going to make things worse. I just stopped caring about everything else and can rarely drum up any enthusiasm for shit outside of those hobbies.
I'm no longer sad depressed but I'm still extremely unmotivated and unable to push myself to do what's important. At this point I've completely acknowledged this flaw and don't blame anyone but myself for where I am in life, even kinda accepting where I am and being content with it. Yet in the back of my mind I hate myself for not doing better. I think every day that everything will fall the fuck apart and I'll really be in the shit.
Will I stoically accept however far down I drop from here or will it be fucking over for me? Whatever happens I know I have the power right fucking now to create a higher chance at a happier outcome in life but I can't fucking do it. Why am I so unwilling to try? Why is it so hard to try or apply myself? I distract myself with little interests and hobbies to forget about such worries to the point where I'm afraid to go to sleep where I know I'll be trapped with my guilt ridden thoughts, where time seems to speed up when my eyes close and life jumps hours closer to my possible downfall.
I stopped being sad and self pitying at myself but now I'm just mad and frustrated of how much of a shit I can be. Christ, what's wrong with me? I wish at times death could just come to me and take me to an abrupt, soon end to stop this frustration but what fairness is that to the people in life who give a fuck about me while it's in my power to do better and improve myself. I need to kill this mentality but after this post I'm gonna stop dwelling on it and forget it until my mind settles on the realization again. Sometimes I just wanna cry again. Or scream.
When was the last time you had a nice cathartic moment? I feel I'm too muddled with apathy to have those moments anymore and I miss it. I just want to bawl into someone's arms but I can't find the tears. I don't even feel this pic is appropriate. I wish every one of you anons on /co/ the very best and want you to know that anonymously posting about cartoons with you guys is one of my few solaces.
I love my job but I hate the whole you have to interact with people part
>>82342618
another one that hits home
>>82341382
become an alcoholic like me.
problem solved
Were's my not depressed /co/mards at?
>>82325943
Yeah, "society at large" is just like a breakfast cereal commercial and everyone is actually happy!If most people showed how they really felt they would lose their job, family and friends
>be 20 years old
>living in a one horse town in northern British Columbia
>Didnt have a job for a good year after high school
>during that time, went to the local community college for to become Electrician
>failed
>year later or so
>finally got a job in at the Canadian Tire in the next town. Have to drive an hour/hour and a half just to haul bags of soil and manure around for minimum wage
>second week on the job, get my foot crunched by a pallet jack
>awaiting my foot to be healed so I can go back to work(hopefully this monday)
>cant figure out how to file a claim with WorkBC, so I'm probably just going to pay for it myself because I dont want to ask my mom
>dont want to ask mom because I always think she's being passive aggresive and patronizing(telling me real simple shit that she KNOWS I know.)
>obviously just doing it to be supportive, but my mind is a pathetic and spiteful thing
>trying to write a book
>cant come up with anything or I get bogged down in the details and abandon it for months on end
>try to make video game
>same thing
>doing an online course for C++
>doing okay, still worried sick I'm going to fail and have my 120bucks go to waste
>so i just sit here on my computer because I live in a town that has nothing going on it and no friends
>Mom always says I should go out somewhere
>goddamit, you wanted to live in the middle of bumfuck nowhere, where can i go in the middle of bumfuck nowhere
>Ive hiked all the trails
>Im sure my brother in law thinks im just the most pathetic pansy out there and is just as condescending
Well, Im going to move to Calgary sometime this year and move in with my sister's friend. For now, looking for a job in the tech field, maybe with whatever Alberta's equivalent is of BC Hydro.
Im scared you guys.
I cant do anything right.
What ever deity may exist and hear me, please help. Maybe I can go to a gym in Calgary and transform myself from a fat fuck into a healthy individual who's actually worthy of having a girlfriend.
>>82335860
>tfw my closest friends are fucking losers too
>>82321405
Well.
Ok.
That's depressing.
>>82325908
>implying most pensions wont get raided
>implying the economy won't crash making your saved money and pathetically small investments worthless.
I'm guessing you got your advice from a boomer...
>>82343848
believe in yourself, anon!
also, read the /fit/ sticky and lurk the qtddtot(questions that don't deserve their own thread) thread.
i can possibly answer any /fit/ related questions if you're serious.
>>82343848
>>82344091
shit wrong image
I wish I could find a good picture to go with 'I know I can easily accomplish my dream if I just try but I'm terrified because my dream provides me no stability and no guarantee of a good future'.
>>82344091
well thanks.
I just want a cozy job to support myself while i try to break into film. I also want to start believing in myself
also, Ive looked at the sticky, im just to embarrassed to go to the shitty gym in my town because I know everyone will stare at me, judging my ugly wide faced block headed ass for existing.
I just think that everyone thinks lowly of me. I think that if they knew what a r9k fag was they would think that described me to a T.
I dont piss in jugs or screech like a frog, but I just dont want to hang out with peope in my town because there is literally nothing to do but hike, hunt and drink yourself into blackout.
and nobody is interested in the things i am. I want to talk about history, nobody gets what im saying. I want to talk about movies, the conversation doesnt go beyond "it was fun!"(because everyone I know has simplistic taste in entertainment. not trying to be a cunt, but the fact my mom and her boyfriend found the ridiculous six fun to watch grates me)
so im sitting here with boardgames noone wants to play, movies noone wants me to share with them, and nothing to do other than to go down the street to my brother's townhouse and get drunk with him. and his idea of a good night is to do so many shots of alcohol he cant remember anything the next day while dancing to whatever is popular on the radio while his nasty little native buddies giggle
im just so fucking alone.
>>82344246
>im just to embarrassed to go to the shitty gym in my town because I know everyone will stare at me, judging my ugly wide faced block headed ass for existing.
believe me, anon. they don't care. if anything, they will be delighted that they see that you're improving yourself and probably will help if you look like you need it. just don't do the obvious stupid shit in the gym and no one will care (i.e. bad form, overdoing weight with no spotter, having a protein shake by your side at all times, "crossfit" exercises that you saw looked cool on facebook etc.)
>found the ridiculous six fun to watch grates mei also found it hilarious. i didn't exactly take it seriously.
also, don't get into this habit of being incredibly self-centered. reach out to people, maybe your brother? you'll feel better about yourself and in the process have fun/help someone else. escalating your ego while your depression worsens is the stupidest thing you can do for yourself in your situation (i can speak from experience). it's a downwards spiral.
google if there is a film club in your city or something of that sort (any hobby/classes really). lifting seriously forces you to be energetic and happy. if you don't love yourself how can you expect someone else to?
>family tragedy 15 months ago
>not surprisingly still affected by it
>want to live a more out going life, at least be physically outgoing so I can enjoy my life
>too tired from work, bad sleep schedule, and residual grief, or I'm having a low-day and I'm just not able to hold back the feelings
I want off this ride, and it's within my power to do it. I just need the right moment, the right circumstances...Right?
>>82344472
>if you don't love yourself how can you expect someone else to?
good point. I was just thinking that maybe if I wasnt fat, had a job and lived somewhere that was more than a gas station, a chinese restraunt, a tiny grocer and a bunch of townhouses id like myself more.
Also,
>also, don't get into this habit of being incredibly self-centered. reach out to people, maybe your brother? you'll feel better about yourself and in the process have fun/help someone else. escalating your ego while your depression worsens is the stupidest thing you can do for yourself in your situation (i can speak from experience). it's a downwards spiral.
Didnt really look at that. perhaps i should hang out with people more often.
i shouldnt wait for the pieces to fall in place, ill start trying to be more outgoing.
Also also
>liking anything Adam Sandler or Rob Schneider
shit taste desu sampai~
>>82321774
if you were truly well adjusted you would leave and never look back
>>82343848
You're fucking yourself up.
True or not, it doesn't matter, you can't keep blaming yourself for everything, you'll be dead inside, jaded, and have a victim complex that makes you into a piece of shit beyond what you'd ever expect. It starts small, my friend.
Tell you what, this helped me:
https://youtu.be/rpfIdjYb7Xk
Give it a try, and some thoughts.
Give yourself a chance or you'll never get one.
>maybe I'll go try something new today
>>82344582
right, ill downlaod this to an mp3. maybe take it on a hike with me.
thanks.
and yes, i know im hard on myself. but if i dont hate myself, how can i grow to be better?
>>82321268
>mfw I got turned down for a cashier job because I was too ugly
![e5c738b82f1359465d5e2fcaca34242a[1].jpg](https://i.imgur.com/pXAxOfD.jpg "e5c738b82f1359465d5e2fcaca34242a[1]")
>>82338988
I had the opportunity to work as a night shift security 2 years ago while finishing my degree. It was pretty cool, I spent the whole night drinking tea, smoking cigarettes and studying for my exams. Sure I was tired in the morning but it was manageable. I'm sad it only lasted 2 months
Sometimes I sit awake at night and quietly feel very bad
>>82322078
>married
You'll regret it, sooner rather than later.
>>82328317
>on welfare
No wonder you're happy.
>>82326177
Crimea, Syria or where?
>>82345584
why
3 years to go.
I've cultivated a personality on an online forum where everyone thinks I'm a girl, I've been keeping it up for years just to feel validated, I know some of the people on that forum better than IRL acquaintances and all this time I've been living a lie to them, except it's not fully a lie because I tell them all about my life just swapping genders around. It's gotten to the point that sometimes I think I honestly forget as I type that I'm not a woman and I ask myself if maybe that deep down I want to be one but I'm so fucking mannish that I never will be.
This has consumed my life, I spend so long online these days that I fail to complete vital work, I have something due on monday that I haven't even begun, I'm pretty sure I can complete it but why did I leave it this late? I spent all of today telling myself to do it but I didn't want to get out of bed.
Sometimes I wish there was something wrong with me so I had an excuse for my failings, like diagnosed mental illness or a physical condition I could point to as an explanation for all my failings but the truth of the matter is just that, I'm a failure.
I'm too scared for suicide.
>Had to try and remember how old I was today
Fuck this, I'm ending it tomorrow.
>>82346382
>buying booze
>cashier asks for id
>give it, he just stares at my id for like 10 seconds for some reason
>so you're like what, 24, 25?
>22
>wait, 23 actually
>he gives me an awkward look
>feel like he thinks that my id was fake
the place was crowded too haha
>>82321405
You make me proud anon.
>>82321405
>I sacrificed personal fulfillment for financial stability.
So it's either be happy but regret it, or be stable but regret it because you're not happy. Hell of a choice, lads, hell of a choice.
>>82321405
You made the right choice.
>>82344634
Criticism=/=hate
You can criticize without hate. You need to...well for lack of better phrasing you need to relax. The stress is going to age you twice as fast. I've got anxiety issues and all sorts of little back-of-the-head things.
Trust me, hating yourself is a vicious circle. Seeing what can be improved, and working on that fairly and justly so? That's how you do it, at least how you start.
Rome wasn't built in a day, give yourself time to do this. We can do this anon, we can beat our self doubt and anxiety!
It won't get better unless we make it better. I believe in you, wanting to improve is a great and vital part of this.
>>82320565
yep
>>82320900
We'll find a cure one day.
>>82320795
Were you running late or did you have the day off?
>>82321242
That's not /co/-related, but a good one nonetheless.
>>82346349
Don't worry anon. Every girl on the internet is actually a man.
>>82346769
No one ever said life's fair.
And happiness only comes in small doses anyway.
>>82346769
How do you regret being happy?
>>82321268
>go to college
>drop out
>go to tech school
>drop out
>move back in with parents
>find $36k overnight desk job in a lab within four monthsBut was it worth it?
>>82336901
you better move the fuck away after you receive that degree
>>82347109
>No one ever said life's fair.
A lot of people claim life is fair. It's basically the driving philosophy of conservatism.
>>82321405
better pursue a passion with the time you get off. The job market is a fickle fickle bitch you're lucky to find stability. try something that interests you
>>82320700I've read this comic tons of times.I still don't understand what was so funny about it.
>>82321348
Have the Truth Zones been published? In print I mean
>>82321451
I was pretty sure I was heterosexual anon why you do this to me
>>82326952
My God, it's Evangelion on steroids.
>>82326177
"Bring your daughter to work day wasn't probably a good idea."
>>82347135
I should clarify: be happy for a short while, then regret once the price comes.
>>82347109
And so one should strive to achieve happiness, as opposed to stagnant stability where one simply is.
>>82347384
the ending is what inspired eoe.
>>82321405
Dude, work a year to get some
savings, then go look for another position, There's a lot of variety in engineering, and I have friends who had shitty experiences their first time out who jumped around a couple places and tok them a few tries to find a job that balanced pay and quality of life better.
Not /co/ related, but I'm a middle school teacher.
>had been on the fence about coming back to work at the same school next year because of issues with administration
>planning period yesterday
>see one of my homeroom students walk by my door
>"Oh hey kid, I forgot to tell you happy birthday yesterday!"
>notice he has his backpack
>"Are you leaving early?"
>"Yeah, I just got punched in the face."
What the fuck kind of students bully a kid on his birthday. There is no justice at this school.
>>82347353
it represents their relationship
batman laughs because he's never seen it from that point of view before
my life is like the ending to psg
confusing and stupid
>>82347903
With no chance for a season 2?
>>82347733
teenagers at that specific age are very very hormonal and tragically going through puberty or it was just a prank bro, relax.
>>82347935
>implying psg won't get season 2
i mean FLCL got a season 2
>>82347964
Announced 15 years later, I don;t think I can make it another 15 years for PSG.
>>82347955
I teach sixth grade. I've had to break up three fights in my classroom this semester. This same kid has his fucking breakfast stolen on his birthday the day before, and I know his family can't afford for him to eat it at home regularly. These kids don't respect anyone, teachers, administration or each other, and the good kids who just want to actually particopate in school get stuck in the same classes as these shits, and teachers don't have a lot of options to deal with it.
>>82342995
Or move to a "green" state and smoke yourself into a coma.
>>82348009
Kids are cruel anon, half the time their parents are just as awful and the education system are pansies who let kids walk over them with just a 'says you're sorry to kid you bullied, see you look the bully apologized and feels sorry you guys should be friends :^)'
>>82348009
Call a parent teacher conference and tell the bitch parents like you see it.
Worse comes to worse, just start complaining to the administration about this kind of behavior. Shouldn't be tolerated, ever.
Wow what a miserable thread. You poor fucks.
I worry about people I don't even know.
>>82327426
This is actually really good advice. I have a couple buddies who served over there. As far as living conditions go, and quality of life, EVWRYWHERE sucks, but living in the United States is the least sucks of them all. Be grateful for the human lottery you won of being born in the US (I know not everyone here is American)
>>82348950
This is a good post.
America, though it's riddled with lots of shitty ghettos and people, is a good place to live compared to other countries.
I don't live in Japland, but from what I've seen, it's terrible to live there. Sure, there's cool stuff there (like a giant replica gundam statue), but there's lots more negatives, it largely outweighs the positives.
Any time I've asked my family for help in the past few years, it's been met with indifference or hostility. Any time they see me without a smile plastered on my face it's "oh what's wrong now you sadsack", everything is my fault, I'm selfish, etc.
They have no time or patience for me but have been doting over my sister non-stop for two years since she got a husband and are there for her at a moment's notice for absolutely anything.
>>82343072
I know this feel.
Pic related, my Scottish great-grandfather in his WWI getup.
>>82344091
I seriously thought those were women.
>>82345579
Yeah, one of my coworkers switched to night shift so he could go back to school. About all he does is walk around the museum a couple times a night and then study while listening to music in the camera room.
And then on 12-8 niggas just sleep.
>Its a /r9k/ thread
My name actually is Chris.
>>82321062
Seriously I'm one of you gimmie a name breh.
>>82344091
That's so /fit/.
>>82349503
Go outside Chris
![The Amazing World of Gumball - 238 - The Plan.mkv_snapshot_01.56_[2016.01.06_03.12.23].jpg](https://i.imgur.com/N9aN1Re.jpg "The Amazing World of Gumball - 238 - The Plan.mkv snapshot 01.56 [2016.01.06 03.12.23]")
I live on the internet and I love it
>>82321774
Happy bro here
I'd be happier if I was fitter though, I need to do that
Down to a t.
>>82347101
>Every girl on the internet is actually a man.
That's not true. Once my mom reached her 40's she started pretending to be a teenage girl in MMOs.
I had a panic attack for my first time not to long ago.
>>82350037
>my first time
Just guessing here, you are a teenager who feels a bit proud of haing had a panic attack
If so, study something, or get a job, and get your head of silly things like self-pitty
Or maybe I'm just talking to myself
Are some of these responses suppose to make me laugh, and potentially, feel happier?
>>82347101
Says you, everyone assumes I'm a dude until I say otherwise on the internet.
>>82350187
Panic attacks are a real thing. I started having serious anxiety issues in college and beat myself up over it because I thought I was weak and being a coward. It wasn't until I found out my dad had the same problem when he was my age that I actually reaches out and got some help for it.
It ain't easy.
I haven't seen my mom for about a month now, she's taking care of my grandfather who has a brain tumor. Hes at the point to where he cant speak and has to wear diapers, but he wont go to the hospital for chemo because it such an agressive tumor that it wouldnt matter anyway. So he just decide to go out ob his own terms un the comfort of his house. She's made up her mind that she's not coming back until he passes and thats what gets me. My trucks battery died in the middle of a busy road leading to a four-way intersection, I couldn't get out because the fear of being hit and making things for my family worse over powered trying to push the truck to the side. So I sat there, eventually a cop came and pushed me off the road, decent enough guy, didn't right me a ticket at least. And know I have no means of transportation, due to the fact that it was actually my AC that went out and not my battery so I'll have to drop about 3 grand to fix it. And as I was sitting there in the truck, listening to the multidue of horns and the angry faces and guesters, all I could think about is when my mom would be back. Because, here is where it gets me, is that I know as soon as she comes back I'll never get to see my grandfather agin.
Sometimes we just have days and then sometimes we have really shitty days, let it be known that no matter who you are, somebody will always be able to relate to you.
>>82320883
Oh, I thought he had telepathy.
>>82350281
I know exactly how you feel.
I started having anxiety problems in college a few years ago. I thought I was just being a neurotic loser and felt super pathetic all the time.
then I finally saw a psychiatrist as got diagnosed with an anxiety disorder and got onto some medication. It's a little hit and miss, but i'm better now than I was last year.
keep on kepin' on, man.
>>82321062
This is surprisingly true.
Risk of being recognized in real life was enough to get me to stop.
>>82350281
>Panic attacks are a real thing
never said otherwise, jsut don't dwell on it too much
>>82350316
Jesus dude, talk about a double-edged sword. Hope you make it.
>>82350252
Don't worry, even when you say you're a girl we know that deep down you're a dude.
Internet: the place where everyone, from 4chan to tumblr, wants to be the little girl.
>>82321451
I've always told myself that if I were to ever date a guy, and not just have sex with 'em, they'd have to be at least this passable.
Fuck being in a city environment where they get harassed to a point of hiding. I want to find me a nice trap, no bullshit. Girl's suck with that whole, "only guys are allowed to look desperate, that's why no self-reapecting woman would ever talk to a guy first" mentality and it'd be nice to have someone who understands that I'm a person before anything else.
>>82320546
Because my friends are fucking hipsters.
>>82321405
>>82346769
Wait. . .
Does this mean, you can be happy while being poor?
Or that by doing only things that make you happy you become poor?
>>82321584
How much more rare is this to be the flip side, if at all?
By that, I mean the youngest son gets molested by the mother and the siblings just play along out of fear because dad is abusive or something?
>obviously my experience
>>82350316
That hit a little to close, nothing but feels for ya brother.
>>82349289
I only posted that because of the "fuckin owned" and being a badass but yeah come to think about I do know this feeling too.
But my family came from Palestine and Germany
I bet your great grand dad killed an old uncle of mine
>>82350799
Probably as common as the other type, but less talked about.
Some people believe only men can be paedophiles.
>>82320746
Stop being such a fag and go be gay.
>>82350316
Damn dude.
>>82349017
sometimes family ain't worth shit anon
my suggestion to you is to avoid them as much as possible and dont let their words get to you if you have any just hang out with friends more if you can it makes it easier
and don't be mad at your sister if shes not doing anything too garner their attention its not her fault if they're horrible people
>>82339693
Haha I hate myslef
>>82339693
Haha I hate myself
>>82350316
Thanks for sharing, we're all gonna make it brah.
>>82350281
>parents either with or have a family history of anxiety/depressive disorders think it's ok to have children who will suffer just as much if not more than them
Completely irresponsible. And some people say you're selfish for not having children.
I'm never breeding. Every day is a fucking struggle and nothing in my life is actually all that bad (decent living quarters, OK but boring as shit and unfulfilling job, incredibly stable relationship, no friends but not hated). My sister and I got unlucky with a double-whammy of depression and alcoholism being on both sides of the family.
>>82339693
If I truly hate myself, will good luck and rad times include all my dreams of getting hit by a truck or finding the strength to kill myself coming true, or will I just end up with the normie version of good luck where I stumble upon material wealth more often? Would the true acceptance of self hate be in the expression of it, or keeping it to yourself and making yourself suffer like you deserve?
On another note, would the lack of good luck + self hatred mean I just get the opposite of that? As in the world always tries to give me "good" things and lures me into more of this life so that I may heal and value myself for whenthe world inevitably flips everything on it's head again causing me ineffable regret and suffering
>>82339693
Haha I hate myself
>>82350372
Last time I tried medication, I wished I was dead so I never had to stand upright again. But now I'm so anxious I can't even go and ask for more medication.
>>82321405
Are you me? I feel the same way. Shit. I am making dosh cash (6 figs) but am miserable. I just want to travel and see the world.
I'm sick and tired of my daily life. I should be happy, I have got everything going for me, my studies are going okay, I have a well-paying summer internship and good job prospects. My family loves me and I have managed to repair my relationship with my father and mother after they had a divorce.
Yet, I still feel completely unfulfilled. I feel like I was running around aimlessly and focusing on small unimportant things that have no payoff at all. I don't see myself doing anything other than just sitting at an office desk and wishing the day would be over. It doesn't help that my better family relationship has made me realize just how shitty all my friends are, that I only saw them as nice because they would talk to me. Now I realize how selfish and ignorant they all are and nothing I say even matters to them.
Worst of all, is that I believe I am stuck in this situation. I don't have the willpower to drag myself out of this lifestyle,as I am too afraid that I will mess something up and I will end up living in a non-stable life. I really wish I could make up my mind what I want.
Oh, and I wanted to thank everyone who has posted on this thread. This is sappy, but just the mere fact that we can talk about our depression I think is an amazing thing, and requires courage. No matter how bad your life is, know that you are not the only one, because you decided to at least admit it.
>>82356166
I am not going to tell you to "buck up" or some shit because that is crap. I will only say, I understand where you are coming from.
>>82341034
You grew up sheltered. That's what happened.
>>82320675
>I wish I was
what a gay retard. it's in the subjunctive case, meaning it should be "I wish I were"
;^(
>>82346919
>>82344634
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>>82343848
Made me think of this
https://youtu.be/4hzjuf686oA
>>82347109
Life is fair. It's humans who never are satisfied with anything.
>>82350799
arguably more common. you hear about female school teachers sleeping with their students at least once a month. With the accepted statistic that >95% of sexual assaults go unreported that leaves young boys with an extreme lead on young girls (((In the US))) on being victims of sexual misconduct.
as for incest, there are FAR more single mothers than single fathers and the US, AND mothers are reported to be and convicted for abusing children far more than are fathers.
>>82322083
>proprietary scripting language that no one else knows
whats that language senpai?
>>82358630
I'll bet it's COBOL.
Get /fit/.
Get /k/.
>>82321774
Well I'm not exactly well adjusted but I am happy and making dosh.
I'm living the life.
>>82350316
I feel you bro. My mother pretty much went to live with both my grandfather and grandmother when they were dying as well, luckily none of them stayed alive for more than 3 weeks.Both of them were during my birthday though, so I spent them alone due to no other family.
>>82330277
Well then, explain
>>82321150
what do you do when you don't have a Thing You Want? What am I supposed to work toward?
>>82339693
Haha I hate myself
>>82360415
Why did you capitalise The First Letters of those Three Words?
>>82360415
I deal with this question everyday.
I really don't want anything out of life, so what is my motivation?
Strive for just satisfying your basic needs, and stop thinking to much, don't think.
>>82321774
This, came in only to collect amusing gifs.
Jesus you faggots are pathetic.
>>82360849
Sorry we can't all be sunshine and happiness, Chad-senpai.
>>82360717
because there are things that I want but there is no Thing That I Want
>>82339693
Haha I hate myself
>>82350316
Watching a family member deteriorate slowly like that is the worst. My great-aunt passed away last year after long suffering from dementia and it was horrible watching her look the same, but just be unable to do anything that made her, y'know, HER, even being unable to eat or use the bathroom eventually.
My great-uncle, now a widower, is in a nice nursing home and we visited him a few months ago. and we saw that he has a little nightstand by his bed with her picture and a few items that belonged to her. It's the first thing he sees in the morning and the last thing he says goodnight to when he falls asleep. In some ways, I think he's happier now that just has their happy memories left.
>>82320784
F I N D S
A
W A Y
>>82339693
haha I hate myself
>>82321150
>Aquaman bleeding out in the bottom right corner in the left picture
>>82339693
Nah' fuck you.
>>82350316
>>82361259
>deteriorating slowly
Nah, you know what's really horrifying? deteriorating rapidly. My grandfather was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer and died less than 3 weeks later.
I flew in a few days after the diagnosis and instantly noted that he looked like he'd aged about 20 years since I'd last seen him (which had been maybe 4 months prior to that) He looked worse than I'd ever seen him in my life. 3 days later my mom showed me a picture from the day I landed. He'd deteriorated so much in those 3 days the picture looked great in comparison.
>mfw I had boxing club initiation at 5 in the morning today
>mfw owned the running portion
>mfw right leg cramped up during leg lifts portion
>mfw embarrassed myself in front of boxing club veteran
>mfw leg cramped up again during crunches portion
>mfw had to sit out and stretch like a pussy
>mfw during boxing drills, form was not that good
>mfw veteran gave me advice about improving core with exercises so leg won't cramp up again
>mfw afterwards ate kick ass omlette and drank lots of alcohol
>mfw veteran told us part of boxing club was to get good grades
>mfw im now Clark Kent, no longer normal anon
It was alright
>>82361259
>>82350316
Now imagine working in a nursing home or a hospital and watching that happen several dozen times. I no longer desire longevity.
>>82361422
Pancreatic cancer is the fucking worst. A friend of my family had her husband diagnosed with it and he was gone in two months. By the time doctors know it's going on, it's already too late to do anything but make them comfortable and get the family in to say goodbye.
>>82361452
>I no longer desire longevity.
Both my maternal and paternal grandparents either lived into, or are currently in their 90's.
But now I've got a whole fucking laundry list of family histories on my medical records that I'll need to continually check up on when I get older.
>>82361475
It was the scariest thing ever. They had a farewell party for him at his workplace and none of his coworkers could stop crying.
Imagining it from THEIR perspective makes it sound even worse. Here he was, wheelchair-bound, unable to eat by himself, barely hanging onto consciousness. The last time they had seen him was maybe a week and a half prior, and he had been fully functional, able to walk, able to do his job.
>>82361452
I don't want longevity because I have no clue what I'd do with all that time. I'm not even 30 and I'm already bored of life; the idea of reaching my 500s, or 2000s or 7'000,000s just utterly frightens and confuses me.
>>82321217
Literally fucking me
>>82321217
>>82363388
once you become aware of the fact thatwe see Beartato from many different angles but Reginald is always shown from a profile viewit becomes hard to forget
>>82327032
Make it so.
>>82333662
"Oh, I'm gonna try with a little help from my friends..."
>>82326873
Holy fuck that's terrifying.
>>82361259
>>82361259
I wish I didn't know that feel, but I do.
My father passed away just last summer from a bout of melanoma they should've gotten out easily, but it came back at least three times. Quite literally, he was walking around absolutely fine and then bedridden and dead within a week. I stayed in the room beside him, his moans of agony keeping me awake while my mother sat by him and cried every night. Having to listen as my father die from some bullshit, painful disease and being taken from a family that genuinely cared for him will always haunt me.
>>82320546
After coming to terms with my own mediocrity I now feel the relief of accepting who I really am, and the disappointment of who I really am.
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