>>694971288
When I opened this thread.

>>694971356
You lost the game

I believe in school health class a teacher told us a statistic that "people who have seriously thought about suicide will contemplate it for their whole lives" maybe it's manifest destiny but I still find myself thinking about it routinely. Most I go without considering is about 4-5 months each summer. When October rolls around I ask myself if I think I'll survive through the winter this time. So yeah, to answer your question, two days ago, silly girlfriend breakup shit, but there you go

>>694971813
That explains alot

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>>694971288
Earlier today. I do everyday tbh.

>>694971288
Today. But the thought of a better tomorrow gives me hope

>>694971813
i take a minimum of two a day. one before breakfeast, and one before going to sleep.

>>694971288
never did because i realized when your a depressed loser the smallest positive things feel 500x better than they do to other people so all i gotta do is get more positive one day and my life will be 500x better than most people's.

>>694971954
>wahh being a tall goodlooking white cis male is soo hard

>>694971813
Cont.
Sometimes it's the thought of how easy it would be to steer into oncoming traffic, sometimes it's more elaborate with letters and videos to my loved ones. I never really buy into the idea though. My mother loves me too much, when she passes I wont have that Anchor any more though.

>>694971288
Right now

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>>694972171
>be me
>not be white, cis, or good looking
brb a min, going to go take a shit while the roommate's still away

Like 6 yrs ago. Cousin and I fooled around and I thought she was pregnant

>>694972171
Are you fucking retarded? Being tall, goodlooking, and white doesn't automatically mean your life is going to be good

The vanity of my insanity in due time
Will shine
Like the night seas under the moon
The haunted corners of familiar rooms
Yet I'm consumed
We're vanishing into thin air
The realization that this shit is my cross to bear
So where
Did I think I could run away to see
The people that decided to leave without asking me
But we
Decide to wait for happier tomorrows
And find someone so they can be distractions from our sorrow

>>694972442
As if anyone lives to age 90 anymore.

>>694972610
yes it does unless you screw it up for yourself which means you deserve it, pleb.

>>694971288
4 seconds ago.

>>694972610
Not even being rich helps, I hear the goldilocks zone is 120k a year.

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Every fucking day, it's a relief when on the odd day that it doesn't squat on my back and shit on everything I do.

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>>694971288
Been thinking for the whole day if i should chug a bottle of bleach.

But, hey, want to see my trips?

>>694972821
Anyone regardless of status, gender, and race can suffer from mental illness, and can fall vistom to external factors that cause the onset of suicidal thought.

>>694971288
This morning.

>>694972821
Also, I'm not a tall, white, goodlooking cis male

last night

>>694973121
If your rich you can probably get away with whatever way you chose to vent out your mental illness and never be punished :-)

>>694972991
I know that feel. Some supplements can help. 5htp, Sun-theanine, and korean red ginseng help momentarily. But it is far from a fix.

>>694971288
15 mins ago when i was having a cigarette outside

>>694973121
Additionally it can even seem like a logical thing to do, and have nothing to do with emotional/mental stability. Realizing the futility of life, how nothing you do has any meaning, can make the drudgery of a long boring life seem like a waste of space.

>>694971288
I used to all the time. When I was in college, I hated the world and the people. I joined the Marine Corps and Im alot better. I feel a sense of belonging.

just now

I think about it when I go to work because the people are the worst.

I'm sad and I have been so long I forgot what happy feels like

>>694972171
gr8 b8 m8

>>694973313
You're a fucking moron. Most times there are no ways to "vent" suicidal thoughts and a depressive mental state.

>>694971288
10 minutes ago

>>694973507
True.

what does it mean if my social life is rotted away, i have no friends and never leave home except for school and don't feel lonely at all but sometimes have dreams i'm with old friends and we're having fun?

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I want a sugar-mama.

Many years ago.
For some reason, if you're depressed for long enough, it makes you (or me at least) kinda immune to strong negative feelings.
Can't feel really happy either. Basically I'm a robot. Beep, boop.
Robots do not contemplate suicide.

>>694973684
Try drugs. Not as a habit, but as a way to open your mind. It worked for that one guy that blew 10k on hookers and drugs before he planned on killing himself, sometimes all you need us a good fuck and a change in perspective.

While tuning my carburetor.

>>694974093
High octane kek

>>694973724
Tall, handsome, rich parents having white frat guys sometimes rape girls or do messed up things a mentally ill person would do but get away with it because there parents use money to bail them out or pay their victims as an example. He was talkin about mental illness anyway not suicidal thoughts, that's why i said that.

last night and the night before and before etc

i usually make a noose and strangle myself right and then pussy out right before everything feels like itll be okay. i literally do it every night just for the feeling that ill be okay and that keeps me going to get on with the next day

>>694973860
Means you're already went off the deep end.
All that's left of you is your empty husk and the echo of emotions once felt.

about 3 minutes ago.

>>694974208
Depression and having suicidal thoughts are both forms of mental illness. Any other mental illness that doesn't relate to suicide should have no merit in this discussion.

>>694974093
i get this

it happens all the time

>it's not your main vehicle
>you bought it to "be fun"
>it doesn't add any happiness
>you have to fuck around with archaic technology just to run to impress your nonexistent friends that were supposed to be interested in your "fun" car
>you could just not fix it and drive your main car, fixing it is futile
>everything is futile and pointless
>why not fucking kill myself

>>694972726
as if the average age doesn't rise (except you live in a third or second world country like america)

>>694972048
Same, wake up in the morning wondering if I should just leave everything behind and roadtrip before firing up, go to bed wondering what the point of life is and why I haven't done it yet.

>>694974245
You're probably not seeing the end of this year if you keep that up.
That kind of behavior ends with you going through with it if.

>>694974445
I could agree if I thought suicidal thoughts were a form of mental illness.

>>694974272
but i'm only 21...

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>>694971288

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Last night.

But ending up self harming instead. The usual.

>>694971954
Same. Probably half dozen times today.

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>>694971288
All day every day for the last two years. Literally only thing keeping me going is my dog, hes 2....so long road ahead till I can. Its fine though, the one thing its done for me is I don't fear death any more. Just went skydiving few weeks ago, didn't feel an ounce of fear, actually the opposite if you know what I mean.

>>694971356
Kek

>>694974652
I'm not sure if it is in the medical sense, but wanting to kill yourself is not something a mentally healthy person should deal with. Wanting to commit suicide simply to escape from the drudgery of life, after realizing the futility in our existence would not be a mental health issue in my eyes

>>694974684
Look, I've lost someone close to me who did basically this. What you're doing there is training yourself to see this as normal behavior more and more until you override your inhibitions.

So, if you don't want to go through with it I'd advice you to find another outlet for your anxieties.

>>694974577
thats the idea mate, fuck my life

>>694973010

You suck at everything just die already
- life

>>694972442
lol what is this graph supposed to prove? Nothing in 200 years matters what we do with our lives, so make it think it's worth it. Someone always has it worse, and better.

It's been on the plate since I was 9

>>694975073
was meant for youv >>694975114

Well shit.
In that case I wish you well.

>>694974652
Cont.
I'll state my thoughts because I'm sure someone will disagree or file a b8 compl8nt

While suicide goes against survival which seems to be a living things main goal. There's still the programmed cell death that occurs even in normal healthy cells. I don't see it as a mental illness, but a byproduct of life's design.

>>694971288
Right now. I think ill get high instead.

>>694975073
im aware i have some problems but i dont see an endgame for me. the other day i tried some oxycontin (3 pills) and that was the first time i felt like everything was okay in my life. i dont plan on doing oxys again though because the feeling after you wake up from an oxy high is shit and i have a natrural towards most drugs ie i cant get high off weed or coke so i just dabble in physcodellics most of the time

Yesterday afternoon.

>>694974684
Well, I have no solution for you my friend because I am the same.
For at least 5 years. And I'm 27 now.

>>694973936

I get sex whenever I want it's not doing it for me anymore.

The closest I get to normal is watching bob Ross paint.

Everytime I kick my dog, and he stares back at me with his big sad eyes, he's thinking to himself - damn, I wish I was born like that. A human.

Even a fucking dog would want to be a 40 year old virgin with a micropenis. Even a dog. And yet you faggots would rather be sunlight dancing in the dust one warms summers morning. Fucking fairies.

>>694975246
Biological cell death has nothing to do with a sentient beings drive to commit suicide. You are either retarded, or you're not making your point clearly.

>>694971288
Maybe a few days ago. Sometimes I obsess over distracting noises at home when I'm trying to study and make myself feel hopeless. Much better now that I've broken up with my shitty bf.

>>694975645
That's because that dog lacks the mental means to kill itself or you for that matter.

However, no matter how I feel, at least I can tell myself, I am not you.

>>694975645

When a dog is running around without a care in the world, big stupid smile on his face, just so happy in the moment with literally no concerns at all, it really looks at a human and envies being one. As if it even cares or knows what tribulations people go through. You're a fucking idiot.

>kick my dog

Possibly thimble-dicked troll tho