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Feels thread?
Help me fill my folder.
2/?
I feel like there is nothing left to look forward to in life. I hate myself and if I just disappeared I would be ok with that.
i have some spooky greentext stories if you're interested...
>>692071391
3/?
>>692071416
This one is for you the, /b/rother.
>>692071215
Got some aesthetics too if you guys want
fuck
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>>692072876
The tone of these is all over the place, it's from my "depression and suicide folder" and I use the memey stuff to shitpost to my friends while pretending I'm sort of ok but I'm really not.
What about some music for the thread?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AGgfXc-ZToQ
>>692073186
10/?
>>692073183
It's all good, /b/rother. We're all here to feel and these work spectacularly.
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>>692071215
This one used to really get to me
>>692074066
13/?
>>692073511
Thanks, anon. That was beautiful.
>Be me
>21 now
>Parents divorced at about 2
>Never quite cared, they treated me like a trophy more than anything else
>Go to school
>Throughout elementary and middle school I was bullied
>Near end of middle school I start getting into fights
>Win each one I get in
>Known as kid with a quick temper to beat the shit out of anyone
>Carry that on to highschool
>I like the idea of it, I have a small group of friends and they hang out so I can protect them
>They trust me, some I still talk to today
>At highschool people are scared of me
>Some know me, some don't, so I just act the part
>I'm actually really mellow and calm, but I act stupid, psychotic, and suicidal as an act
>Well, not the third part
>Went home ever day and would be laughing
>Get off the bus and then when I get to my room collapse
>Every day I grab my knife
>Hold it to my wrist
>"Come on pussy, you tell people to cut up and down when you see them cutting! DO IT DAMMIT!"
>Never did cut myself obviously
>Every day was the same routine
>In college now and can be the regular, lazy, mellow me
>Still a virgin because nobody cares to know me enough to learn I'm religious
>Every girl I asked out has either stood me up, made an excuse, parents didn't like me, or just straight up rejected me
>Still alone wanting love
>That's all I've ever wanted, just one person who is like me is all I need
>>692073511
https://youtu.be/Pbx6J3kw_PI from a /r9k/ feels music thread
https://youtu.be/3M_Gg1xAHE4 a classic
https://youtu.be/3QQS8fJqXoI from Vsauce
https://youtu.be/pBVVtSqQIkg got this one from Vsauce too
https://youtu.be/F30G87zlRPw Just fucked up a relationship, so this one fucking kills me.
https://youtu.be/WAGAoy5WZWY Same with this one.
>>692071613
Sure
Here's some music if you want https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yFx5HMsfZZ8 Though it's more about never finding a lover if you feel that way
>>692074718
New music is always nice. Thanks anon
If you want more with mine it's just a search for "Yiruma" so you know =)
>>692075389
Honestly? I'm trying to distance myself from the self pity and sadness and stay positive. That relationship made me a better person and I need to embrace that, and continue what she started. It's a nice piece of mind, and I hope everyone here can find the same.
The song you posted reminds me of Tales of Symphonia for some reason.
>>692076343
fucking cried at that
>>692071215
This will make you cry like a little bitch
http://1312484.igenapps.com/go-figure#0
>>692075880
Same here, but it's mostly been that way since I have been socially fucked from the beginning. Math has kept me going strong since it gives me meaning and something to accomplish
Not sure if this thread is open for a post like mine but I don't rightfully care.
Goddamnit.
What does passion and drive feel like? I wish I knew. The only thing that terrifies me is dying poor and alone, but I can't do anything with that.
Today is a bad day.
>>692077123
Putting it into words is almost impossible for me to do. I sometimes feel consumed by it, and dwelling in some form of happiness and determination.
bootin'.
Because I'm chainsmoking at 1 am.
Because I'm too much of a fucking worthless coward to kill myself by conventional means.
>>692077729
That picture...
>I relate way too much to that picture
>Cause fuck humanity
>>692071416
If it sucked for you then it's the hero's struggle. Usually in movies things do get better for a struggling protagonist as long as he perseveres.
Look outside yourself shithead.
>>692078046
I know that feel, Anon.
Everyone would be happier if I weren't here. They just don't realize it yet.
But fuck my worthless species. They don't deserve to be happy.
>>692077729
Lighting one for ya /b/rother. Let's have some unity
>>692071215
Everyone in this thread thinks about themselves too much.
Get over yourselves faggots. People are in pain sometimes. Quit being such a little bitch about it.
>>692076010
Shit nice story man.
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>>692076227
that was quite spoopy man. Thanks
i dont know if im the only one, that doesnt really feel too much, that can express how he "feels" and is good at it. With your fake smiles, fake laughs and fake relationships that the only thing that do is hurt the people that is around you?
Like if you were the one that doesnt really fit with the circle?
I dont care about life, but the death doesnt appeal me either.
>>692079556
You aren't alone. I have no reason to live, but I really don't have a reason to die, either.
Sometimes, I want to do something horrible, so I'll have a good excuse. But I don't.
>Match with a girl on Tinder
>We hit it off immediately
>Talk for a while
>Decide to set up a date for drinks
>"Where are we meeting?"
>Suggest to her an innocuous and popular bar
>No response for a day
>Either deleted her Tinder or unmatched with me
>>692079810
thanks anon, sometimes i think about my family and how could i hurt them with leaving this life, but i renember that i will be dead then....
wish you the best!
>>692071628
the person who made this post clearly does not understand how depression works
it's more like an infinite apathy towards everything, it's precisely because depressed people don't want/give a fuck about all that shit (traveling, adventuring etc) that they want to kill themselves, there is no joy in anything
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>>692080192
Both you anons, I want you guys to know something. It's a philosophy I live by every day of my life. First off, I'm a totally depressed fuck, but I refuse to show it. I'm suicidal, offend everyone I know because it entertains others and it's all in good fun. Every smile I have is painful, every laugh is a cry for attention. But here's what I think: I want to die, I care about nothing, I just want others to never feel what I feel. So why not just live life how I want? And why would I do that?
Cause fuck crying, I've run out of tears
>>692080443
Not quite. If so I'd be depressed according to that definition. I don't give a shit about what it is I do and I'm never entertained by anything, so I act entertained every day hoping I can feel something. It's been forever since I've felt really anything besides boredom and hatred of myself
>>692080665
So have I, but It's more of a "there's nothing for me here, so why bother looking for it" sort of thing.
Kind of like the old saw about looking for a black cat in a dark room that isn't there to begin with.
>>692080871
That hit home
>>692080443
Lifetime depressfag here, can confirm. Great explanation, can never really put the words to it
>>692080665
thank you!
>>692080995
That's not quite an excuse to give up on living as you want. If you honestly don't care about anything like I do besides the ones you care about, then you have nothing to fear. There's no reason to kill yourself or end anything. If anything, it gives you a chance to do anything without fear of feeling any different
>>692081023
I stare at this every night, anon, because I've done it for the last 6 months.
>Wake up at 6 am
>go to work
>get home at 4
>sit around
>stay up till 3am, reflecting, wondering, imagining
>fall asleep
>wake up.
>>692077979
This is legit btw. I still email and talk to the guy. Always seems to genuinely care and listen... like that good buddy I never had
>>692081373
this is exactly how i feel! you are a wise man, wish you the best for you!
>>692081373
Can't speak for anyone else, but my answer is "I'm such a fuck-up, I'd somehow manage to screw it up anyway. So why try?"
>>692072944
After experienced some of the things said in this picture do I finally realize how painfully true they can be.
Though, you should always have that one person who while not always is around. Is there for you when you need him.
I tried to be that person for a few people. I failed miserably.
old, but always a classic feels..
>>692071215
I've spent so much time giving away the best parts of myself to the people in my life, and to strangers, that there isn't an ounce of good left in me.
I've been emotionally drained to the point where all I feel is this inexplicable anger and sorrow.
It's hard for me to sleep because of nightmares, so I just drink until I get tired enough to crash and not remember the nightmares.
I think the alcohol is damaging my nerves because my lower legs are growing more and more numb.
And the best part is I don't care that I'm doing this to myself. I just hope that I wear myself down to the point of a heart attack, maybe a stroke, and I won't have to deal with it anymore.
>>692081579
You try because no matter what if anything changes you succeeded. If nothing changed, then you can always try again.
>Unless it's parachuting or basejumping
>>692081654
If I could actually do that one day, my advice would be "wait till 28. Then just kill yourself. Anything that happens after that point isn't worth sticking around for, and being alive past that point is a massive mistake."
>>692071613
do it anon
>>692081922
You have clearly never met me.
I am, without question or reservation; the most worthless, disgusting, fugly piece of shit ever to pollute this planet with his presence.
I WON'T succeed. That's not something I do. And we all know the definition of insanity.
>>692082223
You can fuck me tho bb
>>692081654
If I talked to my kid self I'd just tell him some advice:
>Don't be so weird
>Lose some weight, but if you don't you will anyway at about 13
>Don't be a pussy, actually pick fights with people, you always won
>Well, not against M, don't fight him, he'll beat your ass to heaven
>Don't be scared to swear
>God does exist
>When you find 4chan, go to /b/ immediately
>And for fuck sake ask H out, she loves you and you won't see her after a while
>And yes, that weird but cute stalkerish love
>See ya kid, and piss people off while you're young enough nobody is watching what you do
>>692082423
Yeah. If you ever saw me, you wouldn't say that.
I couldn't get laid if I were a trillionaire.
>>692082223
Yeah, definition of insanity is trying the same thing over and over again expecting different results...
So why not go insane? It's way better than nothing
>>692082223
why dont you give it a shot, you never know, maybe you can get far, fuck, i see pieces of shit of people getting rich everyday,and they are dumb as fuck. Why not you?. I dont know, if you dont really care, then give it a shot, is not like you are gonna loose a lot.
>>692082694
show me pls ;-; it's honestly probably not as bad as you think and I've had some ugly fucks hit on me
>>692082742
Hey, anon..
..why do you think we always come back to this place?
Well seeing that there's feels I got a few stories, back story to this. I got my grandpa a chair for him about 6 years ago with my own money. Transferred the money over to my grandparents so they could get my grandpa a chair
>2 years back
>2013
>went to El Salvador to see my grandparents
>ecstatic about the whole thing
>my grandpa hasn't been doing well
>might be the last time I ever see him
>see my grandpa
>now blind but not deaf
>he hears my voice and starts crying
>hasn't seen me in years
>over the next month we spent time together just looking out side
>last day there
>my dad brings my entire family to the beach
>gets a duo to sing an old folk Spanish song
>song triggers old memories and my grandpa sings along smiling
>we all look at him and start tearing up as we realize that he's reliving old memories and is truly happy
>we leave El Salvador the next day
>say goodbye to my grandpa, tell him I love him and give him a kiss
Febuary 2014
>my mom gets a call that my grandpa is not doing well
>sick at the time
>couldn't go but I wanted to
>mom leaves for El Salvador
>3 days go by and my dad gets a call from my mom
February 19th, 2014 my grandpa passed away. Ruined everybody but especially me, I only met him 4 times in my entire life so far. I couldn't go to his funeral because bronchitis was killing me, I cried like a little baby. Haven't gone to El Salvador since but I have to just to say goodbye to my grandpa one last time, I hope the chair I got him is still there in the same spot by the door to the backyard. I miss him so much.
>>692082940
Yeah I know I screwed up the dates and years but it was hard to want to remember that.
Is anyone there to just talk? My posts here usually get buried, and I've been sad for a while and I don't know who I can talk to irl
>>692082831
No one deserves to have my visage burned into the backs of their retinas.
A sex-crazed syphilitic Barbary ape with irritable bowel syndrome would be an upgrade by comparison.
>>692083460
wanna talk on steam http://steamcommunity.com/id/lifeispink/
>>692083460
Yo man, what's up.
Lets talk. Anything you wanna talk about?
>>692083460
I am here anon
>>692083586
You honestly probably don't look as bad as you think you do. The self loathing types tend to lean towards hating their image.
>>692081433
Sooo I just, what... send this random guy an email and say "hey just wanted to tell you about my shitty life"?
That's cool and all but... really? What's the catch?
i found this comic, here in a thread like this about 2 years ago. I wish that helps you like me
>>692083586
pls bae, anyways undertail is a pretty good time waster if you're a neet
>>692083938
Heyo OC tomo.
>Lil' Smug?
Hey guys, it's Lurk. been a while since I've had the pleasure of stopping by one of these threads. Everyone hanging in there alright?
>>692078551
I cried
This reminded me of how my dad used to call me
>>692084069
>Avatar fagging in a feels thread
I disagree.
Mom son thread?
More like MOM DAUGHTER THREAD
>>692083938
Seriously? BAE?
For fuck's sake. Fine. From a couple years ago. Usually, I avoid all photographs like one of those tribesmen who thinks it's going to steal a piece of their soul.
>>692084360
sit the fuck down, faggot.
>>692084427
You actually look alright, man.
Chin up, you're a handsome fella.
>>692084427
I don't know why you think your ugly. You got them eyes /b/ro
>>692084427
you're not bad you could probably land an ok looking girl if you cleaned yourself up and didn't look like you wanted to mug someone
>>692084427
you look great! im not lying
femanon reporting !
>>692084427
I'm not that weird anime anon, but if that's really you you're fine as hell dude.
Why do you think you're unattractive?
Post more please, I really like your face.
>>692083371
Next story though.
Loved some girl for 7 years, we made small talk but I was very bitch to want to actually get to know her. Finally get to talk to her after getting some courage from my good friend Brian, and we start talking. I knew I had a slim chance but at the same time I got carried away with the fact that it could happen. As time went by she started to talk to my best friend and then she started to like him, and when they started dating I fell into a slump. Should've let go so many years ago but I kept the dream going. Her boyfriend was being a dick about it and was trying to be alpha but failed after I shut him down with some real edgy shit because he pissed me off. Got her mad but we reconciled after, got other shit on my mind and I basically went into tumblr girl mode for a while. She knows I loved her because I told her and she knew I always did. Remember one day I was in a bad slump and she asked me why I felt this way and I straight up told her it was because of her. Got my shit together though, met some great people that helped me without even knowing. Haven't talked to her for a while, she doesn't seem interested to talk to me at all anymore despite us being the best of friends.
>>692071473
LE 9GAG ARMY ARRIVED! HAHA! fucking nob i reck you nob fucking nob you got no aim nob nob i hate you nob you are a retarded nob kill yourself nob
I can't stop myself I don't care if it's just for sex
>>692084821
you give me cancer. literally kill yourself
>>692083640
I'm just constantly tired, sad, and disappointed. My prom date sucked a dudes dick at the dance and nobody told me until like two months after. I still think all the time about my ex girlfriend even though she dumped me, fucked me over, and gave a speech at a school retreat about how shitty of a person I was. My sister makes fun of me for everything, now she's starting to make jokes about how worried my parents were/are about my self esteem. My Mom tells me regularly about how much of an asshole I've become. My best friend since second grade told me the other day that I wasn't there for him when he needed me and that he's resented me for the past three years. I just feel like I'm a shit person that people don't respect. I feel like everything I do is meaningless and that everyone in my life would kinda be happier if I weren't there.
>>692072064
Cute doggo
>>692085148
I'm sure you've done good in your life, just reflect on those actions and act upon them more. Be the person you want to be and love yourself for it.
Gotta stay in motion, man. And object that stays still will always stay still. Just keep moving for the people who will have the grace of meeting you in the future.
>>692083769
No catch just a good ol boy who cares maybe a little too much about other people. If your lonely or whatever after the thread 404s send him a hello. Or save the pic for a rainy day and email him then like I did
>>692074358
I was like you. Almost to a T. But I have come to the conclusion that I'm ment to be alone. It makes it hurt less.
Self diagnosed depressed social anxiety bro here. I cry because my life sucks, mom doesn't follow my grocery list, girls dont like me because im beta, and i think i need to kill myself to feel better.
>>692077278
Got me
>>692085965
my nigga
>>692084684
I think I'm unattractive because despite efforts to the contrary, I do own a mirror.
Still like the face? Doubt it.
>>692080089
38/?
OP here. I had take care of something... I'm back now though. Hope everything is going well.
>>692071416
That's not a good analogy.
>>692085765
Thanks, man. And I'm trying to keep moving and whatnot, I'm going to as many parties and get togethers as I can this summer. It's awkward a lot of times because I'm a pretty antisocial person and don't really know how to fit in, so there's a lot of awkward small talk and trying to blend into crowds, but I guess I'm becoming better at being social through it so that's good. Also gonna work at a soup kitchen once I enroll in college this fall so it'll be fun actively doing good for people
>>692086482
I do still like it. You're a handsome person anon, I really mean it.
I will say though, unhappiness shows.
You are good looking, but you don't look happy.
I'm so full of sadness I don't know what to do. I just want to get a job and move on with my life, but I hate myself so much how am I gonna convince anyone I'm useful at all. I have a really supportive S.O. But I mostly just feel like I'm dragging him down into my little pit of self pity. Someone please kill me
>>692086734
That's good! See? You already seem like a wonderful person to me, just have to learn from past mistakes so you won't make them again.
Got any hobbies? Maybe you could meet people through those.
>>692084360
Stop. Please.
>>692071416
Doug Stanhope. I just heard this shit today. I think it's a sign.
>>692078846
Depression makes it near impossible to think of other people. It's a very selfish mental disorder.
> used to be depressed
> got really bad one day
> was going to off itself before BFF walked down stairs to its room
> he saved its life
> it joined the army
> still lack empathy for anyone or anything
> still thinks its depressed but can't feel anything
>>692086995
Why not go on a roadtrip or something. Take a few days off work and go camping together for a bit.
>>692086939
Generally speaking, it's because I'm NOT.
I was diagnosed once, but that ended with a 72-hour psych hold. Last time I go anywhere near a mental health professional.
>>692084247
not avatar
>>692087685
That may have been for your own good, if you're a threat to yourself they have to.
A doctor can be the best route to feeling better anon.
Do you drink?
>tfw got dumped by a stupid reason
>tfw i just act like i'm ok with it
>tfw i'm dying inside and i still miss him
>>692087122
43/?
>>692087038
Thanks, anon. That brought a smile to my face.
>>692084958
SOME ARE MEANTO LOVE BE
PEOPLE TO FALL IN BUT NOT TOGETHER
>>692087728
>Named
Sure you are.
>>692087895
Need to talk about it, man?
>>692087318
I still havent given up hope but it gets harder every day to hold on. I keep hoping that someone will toss me the right lifeline and I will know it when I see it.
This is my time to shine
>>692073186
OH FUCK
GOD DAMNIT
shes literally all i think about anon
>>692087685
They did that shit to me too. It made me go fucking crazy, thinking about killing myself made me hurt less then they put you in a place with no way to hurt yourself
/b/rothers, let me teach you to be alpha.
Ask me questions.
>>692088021
who are you assuming the person you replied to is?
>>692088182
When you want to ask someone out what do you say?
>>692088182
I don't want to be alpha, I want to be happy.
Putting on some macho mask and pretending to enjoy things that I don't isn't going to make me happy.
>>692088211
To the person I had originally responded to, of course. You're not him? My apologies.
How is your night?
>>692088021
>Need to talk about it, man?
Yeah, i'm just being a stupid piece of shit that think internet relationship will work out and think my ex will be loyal to me as i'm loyal to him.
He took my happiness like taking a candy from a baby, i thought i can have it all but no, he took it away and probably enjoy it with someone else right now. It hurt so bad it feel good.
>>692076599
Holy fuck that was spooky
>>692086482
better looking than me tbh. ive been single all my life. you got potential
>>692087808
Not lately.
Worst things that generally pass through my bloodstream these days are caffeine and nicotine.
>>692088988
one jumped and the other stayed
both died
>Be me
>8 years old
>Todays my birthday, wake up to see some pokemon cards, good start
>Had inventations ready from the night before
>go to school amd hand them out to everyone i know and even my class
>Go through the day happy
>go home amd party was ready at 4 or 5
>realizes only one of my best friends came and wait for more people
>continue party with me, my friend, and twin (twin had next to none friends)
>only lasts for an hour before we just stop
>wonder where everyone was
>next day. everyone acts like nothing happened
>feelsbadman
>>692089070
Try taking 5-HTP. They sell it at rite aid, it's supposed to help promote a better mood.
I took it for a while before I started drinking and it really seemed to help a lot.
If you don't want to go to a professional that's a good start.
>>692088811
I'm sorry that you relationship didn't work out for the best, there are plenty more opportunities out there for you.
I see no reason to cry over someone who did this to you, no reason to beat yourself up over it. Why not get back out there?
>>692074066
I printed this out the other day. It's really depressing how much of it's already filled out, I should probably just scrap the thing.
>>692088434
This is so true. I just lost the girl I love because I fucked up. I can't let go and I know I won't move on. There is a hole inside and part of me has died because of this. I can't live without her. I'm trying but I can't.
>>692072588
>average guy. give myself a 6/10.
>smart, artistic, jack of all trades type.
>only downside is I have no friends, girlfriend. Never really have.
>family has a history of severe depression
>going to parties, i blend in to the couch and people dont give a shit that I am there. I even try drugs i wouldnt usually do to get along. doesnt work.
>dad comes in to my room, "hey anon! what are you doing this weekend?"
>"nothing really. why?"
>"you should hang out with some of your friends! i bet they aren't doing anything."
>"no, they are actually busy this weekend.." fully knowing that they are partying, fucking, and having a blast.
>"well, you can even bring them here if you want. Just let me know."
>"thanks dad."
>10 minutes pass. Come down and see he's been crying with my mom next to him.
>"hey, i just got a text to hang out, is it okay?", suddenly, happiness in his eye.
>take the car and sit in a parking lot at 3am.
>contemplate driving on the opposite side of the road until I eject from the windshield.
been going on for a while now.
>pic is exactly my feels.
>>692089219
48/48
This is the last one in my folder. I'll be lurking now.
Best wishes to all you anons.
>>692089828
Aaaand I forgot to post the pic :/
>>692089707
really short back story to this quote from bob ross.
Jane Ross, his wife, died of cancer and this is what he said a few days after her death in his next session.
>>692089320
>Why not get back out there?
This is my first breakup. i'm scared that i'll get hurt like this again.
>>692089319
Generally, I have had bad experiences with psychoactives.
They tried to put me on Ritalin as a kid. It was like this. Besides. I'm not worth the effort.
Dear friend,
I hope you're doing alright. I know that I said we could never talk again, but just know that I didn't want to have to say that.
I still miss you sometimes. Hopefully our paths cross again someday.
This video still gets me every time, damn you.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EOAcRKZxjy4
>>692090251
I've felt things similar to this. You need to stay strong, and keep searching for someone who won't treat you like this. Or learn to love being single.
Either way, just try to stay happy. Wasn't your fault, life just does that sort of thing sometimes.
>>692089509
Are you super shy or something?
Have a job someplace?
>>692086890
literally cannot stop the tears
>>692090186
wow that made me more sad
>>692090313
It's very different from Ritalin or anything prescription, I assure you it's very safe. The only danger is if you take t and drink, it can cause siezures.
People who self medicate for depression tend to lean towards that and it can be very helpful.
You most certainly are worth the effort. If you won't look for ways to feel better for yourself do it for the people who care.
>>692090508
I think of myself as a pretty outgoing guy. I'm more outgoing than my older brother.
As for a job, I work as an Accounting Assistant. Doing projects for the controller and other things.
forgot to add my job to the story. It sounds nice, but it really is kinda shitty. I'm already thinking that I'm 21 and am condemned to this shitspace of a cubical.
>>692089509
Sounds kinda like how it was when I was younger.
My Dad was an abusive drunk though. And my Mom ended up leaving him when I was 15 so my dad would take out his anger on me and my little brother.
>>692088460
Every day I beg god to kill me first, my mother is the only person who truly mayters to me.
>>692083903
Thanks /b/ro really great comic!
feels threads on /b/ is like the only place i see people actually being caring and i'm not sure if i should be happy because people are finally getting along or sad because the only reason everyone is getting along is because of their mutual perpetual state of crippling depression
>>692091008
no parent wants to outlive their child
>>692091008
you matter to me anon
>>692091404
Why not both, anon?
>>692090988
shit just gets harder man.
but if it makes you feel better,
check em'
>>692091404
we all retain a sense of humility as well as the ability to change ourselves from the painful experience
>>692091690
Haha no worries, anon. I'm actually living by myself now and much happier than back then.
Even been talking to this cute chick for a week or so. But she has started acting odd. Talks to me all day while I'm at work. Suddenly won't talk to me anymore when I get off work. Ignores my messages, ect. This is the 3rd day she's done it and I'm not sure how to feel about that.
>>692077729
this is fucking gay
>>692092113
maybe shes working. Never know when texting someone. Keep on the righteous path, mah man.
I don't know if this story counts lads but here i go.
I was surfing through the face of /b/ threat, when i came around a girl who had a hard time in /r9k/ she was being plus she is really pretty. I instantly felt like this chick is someone i could spend the rest of my life with( here is some back ground some chick broke my heart while i was fighting against depression and suicidal thoughs.) I only rated her then the next day i saw her in another faces of /b/ thread. She was there being kind and cute again. I tild her that ive develop a crush on her and that we will never meet in real life. She just said thank you. What id did next was kind of creepy but i saved one of her pics. Whenever i feel down or like im about to give up i just tell myself " Do it for her". I dont know if she is actually a guy pretending to be a chick or that i eill ever meet her it just gives me hope to know that there is someone out there for all of us. If yout reading this anon chick from faces of /b/ i just want to say thank you and that you are great and beautiful. <3 Dont lose hope /b/ros Pic related its her
>>692079942
that not right. It should be my own voice telling me that
>>692092379
Eh. If she had a job maybe. But thanks for the words /b/rother.
>>692092478
Sorry lads my english isnt very good
>>692073568
this one always hits me hard
>>692092542
anything for someone who has my back, even if I don't know them that much.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DYw9UrsFJa4
>>692092438
shit hit me hard as fuck.
>>692080871
2:36 when i read this, heh...
>>692090949
Best bet is just hang out at bars and just start talking to people. Maybe chill there with a coworker or some shit.
About the job, i can really only recommend traveling for a bit. Save up, take some time off and see a bit of the world.
>>692092864
I wore flannel quite a bit when I lived with my abusive father.
Huh.
>>692093083
My brother knows that I'm suffering from depression. I usually end up piss drunk by the time we even reach the bar and cant really handle it. his girlfriend usually ends up escorting me back to his place to pass out.
I appreciate the advice anon. I'll try to keep at it.
>be 3
>get new puppy
>pup is a trouble maker
>train him
>pup started protecting me when little
>pup would take me to parents when there was danger by pulling me by shirt
>fast forward
>me 12, dog 9
>vet says he won't live for another year so we should euthanize him
>family refuses
>fast forward again
>me 15, dog 12
>vet strongly urges us to euthanize him
>says we got lucky
>fast forward one last time
>me 18
>dog 15
>dog starts getting slower
>stays asleep around 18+ hours a day
>stops eating
>can't walk up stairs from being too weak
>have to carry him up to go outside
>dog won't go back down stairs
>call vet to come to our house to euthanize
>come home from school
>vet arrives couple hours later
>dog dies while looking at me as I hold him in my arms
I finally understand.
I love you.
>>692093970
GODDAMNIT ANON
WHY YOU GOTTA DO THIS TO ME
I'M ALL DRIED UP MAN
I CAN'T EXPECTORANT PETRONUM MORE TEARS INTO MY EYES
I LOVE YOU TOO MAN
GOODNIGHT
I WON'T SEE YOU IN THE MORNING
>>692093970
love you too /b/ro
>>692089171
I had one birthday party in my life. I turned 11.
Five people showed not including my mother, sister and I. My mother encouraged them all to make fun of me in the worst ways (claiming I'd never be smart enough to pass school, claiming nobody else showed up because I couldn't read or write worth a damn, etc).
I left upset and sat in the woods for eight hours. They had a great time... Ate the cake, opened, played with, and broke the gifts my father mailed to me from out of state. One of them took home a nice pocket knife he sent me ($80... My mother said he could have it).
Got home and my mother said oh, he's back, time for everyone to leave. Left me home while she drove everyone home, stopping at McDonalds on the way. I ate some shitty old dinner rolls I found, went to bed, and never did tell my father that my mother gave his $120 worth of gifts and $50 cash to my friends for being dicks until I stormed out the door.
>background
>biological mother and father split up when mom got sick (I was about 3)
>mom in coma for five years so I really didn't get to know her
>mom wakes up a paraplegic
>fast forward about about ten years
>takes care of mom every weekend, though I hated it
>mom calls me every weekday to tell me what she ate for dinner and that she loves me
>gets annoyed that she calls me everyday so I usually ignored her calls
>she begged me to call her sometime
>I didn't
>in my Eastern Civ. Class March 13 this year
>gets called down to office
>"ms.Anon your father and stepmother are here"
>lolwat.jpg
>goes to truck
>dad gets out of the truck and hugs me, he's been crying
>"anon, your mother died last night in her sleep."
I fucked up. I never let her knew how much I loved her. I never called her. God, I regret so much. I wish I could hear her voice one more time.
>>692094512
Honestly I would murder your mother in her sleep anon. Then anhero if caught
>>692094674
She knows.
If anything in this universe is just, she knows.
>>692095170
Thank you, Anon.
>>692082694
You're probably not even that bad. Just post your face and we'll be the judge of that
>>692094512
That shit is fucked up
>>692094865
Considered it tbh but until I was 18 I was convinced I was just a fuckup who deserves to be treated that way. Figured if everyone including my mother thought I was worthless They must be right... it wasn't until later on that I realized she was the reason I acted like a damn fool all the time (self-fulfilling prophecy of sorts). Never did good in school because she told me I was dumb, even when I knew all the answers. Never tried to make friends because she said I'd never have any, and any time I did have friends (rarely) she thought they must be highly defective (or "desperate with poor intelligence") to think I was worth being friends with.
My stepfather once tossed e through an aquarium and I almost lost a finger. I was forced to lie to the doctors if I wanted to visit the hospital, otherwose id just "wait it out" a home while it healed. Later realized she did this because she knew if she sent me to school they'd be arrested.
>>692071628
the person who posted this needs to understsnd that depression is literally a mental illness
autistic people dont wantto be autistic nor can they just stop being autistic
>45
>wife died of skin cancer at 39
>only thing keeping me going is vodka
Posted a couple times, how are you all?
>>692095980
Like I need a drink
>>692095980
Share us your wisdom, you old fuck
Time to vent? Okay.
It sucks to be black. I wanna appreciate my race, but I can't. I was just listening to the Chicago Police scanner and felt burnned by all the shit going on IN ONE SINGLE NIGHT. I just want the homies to wisen up, but we all can't wish it happen, can we. I don't want to off myself, but I can't hope too much either. It pains me, to see intelligent (blacks who have a brain) people getting shafted, still being called out to the so-called thugs that are burning cities to the ground, creating battlefields in our own country, or worse, even though there are other blacks that are trying to be successful and purposeful and amount to their commumities and people of other races. Fuck, man. I know it's not good to brood and complain, but I really needed to just speak out tonight.
>>692095980
Hi /b/ro.
I'm staring at a pistol rn. Of course, I won't do it; my dog needs me.
You should think about dropping your pistol and getting a dog.
<3
