>>692036752
>she walks up to me the day before with a little card that has directions to it, bday party is at a mini golf place bit far outside of town
>super psyched
>finally friday
>dad driving me there, we are having a lot of fun in the car, i can feel how relieved and joyful he is that i am finally doing something other than vidya and tv alone at home in my room
>drops me off
>tells me to have lots of fun and give him all the details later, he can't wait to hear about it
>walk up to the entrance
>show the employee person at gate the birthday card invitation
>"sorry kid there's no birthday parties here today"
>throat dries up, hurts to swallow
>feel extremely nauseous and some emotion i cant put my finger on
>completely die on the inside
>realize it was all an elaborate scheme to humiliate me
>try my hardest to not cry
>suppressing my tears as hard as i can
>start walking back home slowly
>stop at a sort of of party store on the way, buy a little funny bday hat and some candy and stuff
>sit on a bench at the park for 3 hours
>go home
>tell dad the girls dad drove my home after party ended
>show him the stuff i bought tell him i got it from there
>make up stories about all the fun we had, tell him she gave me a kiss on the cheek
>dad cries out of happiness as he hugs me
>go to my room
>realize my mom had really actually died
>mom is not coming back

Sorry op. Life shouldn't be that awful to kids.

it's ok OP don't let that weak shit get ya down

This is sad

>>692037591
Yeah. Im not usually bothered by things i read online. But those feelings aren't something a kid should deal with that just wants to be accepted.
Hopefully life got better for you op.

You are growing into a fearless warrior OP. Your training is one of the harder lifes you can pick before you are born but you were aware of the risks. Carry on.

I teared up anon, that sucks man

That shit's fucked dude

>>692036752
>>692036798

You've been hurt OP, and life is like that. There are things in life that are out of our control, and that's fine. There are things out of our control that will cause us suffering, and that's fine. It's fine, and it can get better. Can. There are things in life that are taken for granted that, when given the right perspective, can bring so much joy from so little. Whether it be enjoying your favorite meal, or reading fiction. People are shit, but we should not allow that to impact us. Because we can enjoy life without shitty people. Start working at it. One second, one minute, one hour, one day at a time. You will find joy, just stop looking for it and start appreciating things you do have.

>>692036752
What the fuck OP. I am so sorry. Kids are fucking dicks.

Too much feel bro..

You shouldn't have lied to your dad.

>>692036752
Is it too late to go back and shoot the school up?

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>>692036752
>>692036798
Shit...

>>692038431

lol fuck u tho :^)

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>>692036752
>>692036798

ouch dude

>>692038433
He could always hunt down his old classmates using facebook

Damn man this made me sad

Why the does everyone parents want you to have friends?
My parents never asked me about that, my mom told me many times that friends always lead you to bad things like drugs and shit
Father is an alcoholic, I have not seen him since I was 4
Never had a close friends, mom and sister have been my best friends forever and they will always be

>>692036752
damn, this was intense
if this shit real then I feel so sorry for you

you took it like a champ

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sorry op but i didnt sign no feels permission slip form for this trip

OP have you ever posted this before? I swear I heard it once before.

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op i....i probably would've killed the bitch

>best friend ever was this girl I had known since I was 2
>we were going to the same school in fifth grade
>so excited, it was the best day of my life
>she was not at all excited to see me and kind of ignored me for the first few days
>eventually we became friends but it wasn't the same

I became an insecure wreck from this. This stupid fucking event created a level of insecurity in me that I never got over until I dropped out of college and began doing drugs. I ruined my brain and my life with them, all because of this stupid fucking event that occured back then.

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>>692036752

>>692040352

The ripple effect is a bitch my dude... maybe in the next life.

just being mocked relentlessly by everyone for years on end.

>>692039554
me too, op is a faggot

>My mom was a violent psycho
>she would beat me up for the slightest mistakes
>my Father didn´t leave her for the sake of me and my sister
>he became an alcoholic because of her
>she got amped up one day and leaved
>only few miles away so she could be "there" for us
>my farther was an emotionless wreck at this time
>only "parental" love i had gotten was from my uncle
>uncle died when i was 10 (visited him almost every day for 6 months)
>sometimes my dad´s friends came over for playing cards
>when i was 8 or 9 one of my dad´s friends played a little "game" with me
> took me a few years to realise what kind of game this was (cp worthy)
>my sister developed the same behaviour as my mother
>(she is 6 years older)
> when mom wasn´t ther she would beat me up

i´m now 22, i have never been in a relationship, living at my sisters her boyfriends house (sister became a real good person over the years)
and the man i wanted to kill has been dead for 7 years because a fucking tree took my vengence

for questions just ask them

Isn't this some pasta except in the other one it was a pencil case not a necklace

>>692041888
what would you have done had the tree not beaten you to it? also checked

>>692036752
damn anon I wanna hug you

>>692041888
Well, at least it got a little bit better as you got older

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>be me
>disobedient 14 year old
>parents send me to therapy
>nothing working
>one week before summer break I'm woken up by two strange men
>one is holding some stuff
>the bigger man says in a thick southern US accent "Now son, don't make this harder than it has to be"
>immediately flip my shit and grab my knife
>cut the bigger guy's arm
>they tackle me and my hands and feet are zip tied
>a bag is put over my head and I'm tossed into the back of a car
>I have no idea why I'm being kidnapped and struggle to free myself
>car starts moving and I almost shit myself with fear
>I've seen the shows and these situations never end well
>we arrive at a gas station in the middle of nowhere
>guy says "eat this" and puts an oreo in my mouth
>I spit it at him and he gags me with a small piece of rope
>I struggle more and the bag goes back on

cont?

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>>692040352
when people get to know lots of new friends they just dump you
unless it's some real good friend

also
>be me 15 yr old
>I didn't have really close friends but I had a few to hang out with, or to stay together during the break time at school
>They start ignoring me
>One day after some week from when I realized that they're ignoring me during the break time and shit I make a decision
>I went away from that group and never got back
>I used to stay alone during the break or pretend to be with a fat guy that used to stay in my same zone, he ignored me too btw
>One day during the break I start to speak with a guy that is from Argentina, he doesn't speak really good but we understand each other
>we sit together during class
>we discover that we have lots of stuff in common, (it's been some years and back then pc gaming wasn't so popular around) we had same games and shit
>we became close friends, we start to play together everytime we get back from school, we used to play for hours or we met at someone's house with computers and played for the entire day
>he became my "best friend", I was so surprised that I found someone like me
>he's a good guy, he was black waist in taekwondo but he never fought anyone, some of the classmates used to make fun of him but I always had fists ready, had a fight with one of them too because of that
>2 years goes like this, good times
>summer begins, I go for a month in another country and we say "yeah see ya after, I'm gon get back 3 weeks before school begins so we're gonna have time to play!"
>come back and he's gone, he went to Argentina but I thought that he would be back
>he never got back
>I'm alone now, again
>spend a ENTIRE YEAR alone, sitting alone during class, alone during break, I used to hide in the library sometimes because I hated to be seen alone
>during that year I also broke up with all my other friends so yeah..
>spend the summer alone..
cont, tell me if too boring yknow..

>>692036798
your mom shouldn't have died. that bitch should've been taken instead.

>>692036798
sounds too harsh to be true.

>>692043665
cont pls

>>692042430
i only had the name of my dad´s friend and in wich town he lived
so when i made my mind up to take revenge (i was 15)
i made my research, checked out where he worked and lived
he had a shitty backdoor in his yard,
so the plan was slip in his house and cut his throat when he sleeps plus a quick exit
i wanted to kill him by myself and make it quick no suffering needed, just for the sake of other kids,
it was in the early summer when i started that planning but i wanted to wait for the winter (darker longer nights more clothing as disguise)
but at the end of august he got killed in an car accident, cops said in the newspaper that he was drunk

it was a relive but somehow it made me angry and even now it makes me angry when i think about the fact that i had sworn myself to kill him without getting caught and then something so simple happens and alls those emotions just remained

>>692043665
Oh no! Did you make it out alive?

>>692043665
Plz cont!

I wish I had an explanation or any words of enouragement, OP. I'm 30, unemployed, living with my older sister, life sucks for me right now. But don't think like this: "I'm gonna end all this", don't say that, don't do that, ever. I don't have an alternative for you either, but please hang in there, OP. I'm trying to, and I hope you can too, I really do, man. I really don't know what to say to make you feel better because no one has done that with me, but don't lose hope, never.

>>692044657
Well not that it really helps but think of it like this: those feelings would still be there if you killed him and you might have been caught too.

>>692043665

>fall asleep after almost 1012 hours of trying to free myself
>wake up to a man dragging me out of the car
>see strange building with tan walls and redish brown roof
>huge gate out front
>everything is still foggy from sleeping
>bag is no longer on head at this point
>big guy picks me up off the ground by my shirt collar while smaller guy talks into a box
>we're buzzed through the gate and it closes with a sickening grinding and slamming noise
>big guy says "welcome to Red River, come meet your family"
>I say "fuck you" as clearly as possible with that rope in my mouth

to be cont

>>692043458
yeah it really did
my childhood was an hollywood worthy piece of shit.
But over the course of time i made many good friends, i got some social problems but i learned to deal with them
emotionally i´m still a wreck and this will probably not change so fast but after all i´m comfortable with my life, it´s clearly not the best but hey, it could be worse

(also i´m an germanfag if there is some ape trying to correct my grammar)

>>692044913
i know that aswell when i´m looking back at this

and thanks Anon i appreciate your words

>>692045413
I'm happy to hear that people can still recover from stuff like that in this time and age!

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>be me 12
>qt 3.14 I starting taking interest in
>emo long hair
>has a girl bf
>doesn't have many friends
>very shy and cries and runs out of the room if put on spot in front of class
>decide I like her and think it's cute
>start hanging out with her more and more
>usually with her one bf (let's call her jessica)
>The girl I like I'll call Bella
>Bella and me start texting on those shitty little blackberry phones with the keyboard
>Ask her out
>She says yes
>My first girlfriend ever and one of my only friends
>We were really different
>I was more out going and she was really shy
>she had lots of problems that I couldn't help her with because I had never had them
>Used to be abused by mom, she would cut herself, constantly sick, couldn't eat most food and can't hold food down very well
>Bella listened to lots of emo music
>I liked rap and punk
>We dated till I was 13 she left in december
>found out she had been cheating on me with Jessica
>Not dating but just kissing and cuddling and acting like a couple (they dated after Bella left me)
>I waited
>Got back with her after they broke up
>By this time I'm 14 and she was bi/genderfluid/weeb
>Don't know why I liked her but I really saw her as more than a sexual being
>I wanted to marry her
>She ended up leaving me again
>This time I was older and cared.
>I don't have friends or anything to talk to about it and get feelings out
>Fell into a depression
>Started cutting
>Tried to tie a cord around my neck and kill myself at 15
>Stayed up late at night thinking about her
>Wanted to marry her and she didn't even care
>I'm 19 now and still miss her. I haven't had a girl since and am too afraid to date again. I haven't moved out or gone to school yet.
>I'm still friendless and depressed
>Had myself looked at and had been prescribed anti-depressents
>I mixed these with weed and beer a lot
>found /b/ in 2009
>loved it
>joined every feels thread, ylyl, rekt, all of it
>tfw 12 year old love fucked up my life
I still miss her

>>692045269
did you die?

>>692045269
>gag is removed and zips ties on feet as well
>hands stay tied behind my back
>I'm led inside by the big man who takes me to a room about 10 by 8 feet
>bars on windows
>"My name is Mr. Allen. You will address me by that name or by sir, understood?"
>"fuck you, cunt"
>I'm then punched in the face
>fairly forceful but not his strongest punch
>"understood?"
>"yyyes"
>"Yes what?"
>"Yes Mr. Allen"
>Sit here while I get your hope buddy"
>A skinny kid with a buzz cut and a red polo shirt walks in
>"Hi, I'm Daniel"
>I ask him what the fuck is going on and freak out
>"just do what you're told and you'll have a much easier time here"
>explains that this place is a military school and that it's to teach us to respect our parents

cont

>>692036752
I'll jump in OP.
> be me 14 about to be 15 sophomore in HS
> normal kid by societal standards
> family lower middle class
> not gonna lie I was super religious
> not a bible thumper, but I follow it closely
> Joined band so thankfully I have a few friends
> mostly just misfits grouping together
> freshman class comes in last week of school to get accustomed to high school
> they can sign up for clubs etc
> No cutie freshman girls w/e
> I finally become good friends with one of the freshman guys over summer band camp
> midway through the call semester I realize
> I have feelings for him
> tfw you're religious and may be gay
> spiritualcrisis.jpg
> family is extremely homophobic
> live in a small town in the Midwest
> news like that spreads quick
> try to ignore my feelings because of you're gay= straight trip to hell
> I start to fall apart but somehow he keeps me going
> before I know it I'm full blow in love
> Getting up to see Anon smile is the best part of my day.
> start sleeping over at each other's house
> nothing sexual cause that would be "gay"
> we cuddle, sleep in same bed, eventually holding hands at movie theatre
> goes to school on day after I don't see him all weekend ( I worked and volunteered a lot)
> he is really shy so I'm surprised he has a bunch of people around him
> weird girl who looks like the ugly knockoff of avril lavienge from sk8r boi era.
> weird lookalikes I assume her friends
> As I walk up I hear
> "Omg I can't believe you and Anon are dating"
> my heart has never dropped so I hard
> part if me knew we weren't dating but I never thought he would date
> still hangs out with me
> has to make time for the "gf" as well
> she knows something going on between us, everyone kind of suspected something
> Parents would kick us out if they knew
I'll cont if anyone wants to hear rest

>>692046103
im sure that all feels real to you, but honestly as an outside observer you sound like a huge pussy

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I was only 12, my house had a murder inside of it, SHE was dead, was I too? i'll never know
it's cold.

>>692046818
yea I know what you mean. I do feel like a pussy about it too and I hate myself at times. I don't think I'll ever kill myself though. I still like life, just hate being alone.

>Grew up in middle class family
>Parents, sister, and i
>Parents always super loving and nice
>Sister 2 years older than me
>Ever since I could remember she would always put me down
>Grew up thinking everyone is like this, it kept progressing and I kept getting more distaste for the world
>By middle school I couldn't look people my age in the eye
>Got the shit bullied out of me because of my weight and awkwardness (another symptom of my underlying depression)
>By high school I'm completely silent and can't hold a basic conversation
>I know the world and people aren't as bad as I perceive them, but I can't help myself from believing it.

I don't know If there is anything I can do to repair myself. I'm always completely silent and always on the defensive, worried what others would say or do to me. Others have no problem with this shit while I constantly ponder what's wrong with me.

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but nobody cared, they were gone, I was gone, SHE was gone, and I was scared.

>>692036798
Your mum is dead, but we are here for you fgt <3

>>692046459
>Daniel explained to me how it all worked
>basically a caste system with 6 levels plus a 7th that's the worst
>you earn good boy points and level up
>new privs are earned
>example: level 3 and above wear watches and don't have to walk in lines

Long story short I went through 2 years of hell and have no contact with my parents. My GF just called me into the other room and she thinks our super old cat is dying. Sorry anons, this will have to wait.

>>692047458
There's something wrong with everyone.

Some project.

Others turn it inwards.

You'll do fine.

>>692047458
you could beat up your sister

Ok sorry, I don't know how to free text, I'm a newfag or whatever. Ok so this day changed my life. Ok, 8th grade, I was invited to one of the bully's birthday party. His birthday was right before mine. I'm the kid that would get bullied and not do shit about it. Go to his party. Give him 10 bucks. Have a pretty good time, not gonna lie. He blows his candles then his other friends which are also bullies just yell birthday hits. The birthday boy just says wait its his birthday too and points to me. Complete fucking lie but no one believed me. Ok in these situations, I usually just take the punches but I was getting punched by so many people that I just freaked out. I ignored all punches and just targeted the birthday boy. I beat the shit out of him and realized its not really hard to just fight. Break out of beta cocoon. I'm pretty happy that day came.

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SHE was my sister, working on a library, all my room had was a chair and a noose, that's all my visitors ever used in my house
why

>>692046720
Sure.

>>692048051
Ill be here waiting

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https://youtu.be/YDXZFds2DaY
this will tell you all about it

Give us her fb. Fuck her up

>>692048051
I will wait

>>692036752
Fuck anon I hope this is just a dream... Makes me feel bad man

>>692036798
It must be hard af to lose your mom/dad while young, i feel for you mate

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I was born black.

>>692041888
>be on /b/
>noone checking those trips he got

Fucking fags

>>692049861
holy shit anon! you can see numbers! congrats!

Respect man. You're a better person than she could ever dream to be.

>>692048143
Good for you man

>>692036752
At the age of 6 I was born without a face

>green
;~;

>>692049473
Well why the hell would you go and do a thing like that?

>>692049961
NIGGERRRR!!!

>>692050618
k

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>6th grade
>hate this wigger fat, shaved headed kid
>walking outside before class meeting everyone
>he starts slap boxing me from behind
>throw punch, connects well
>walk away
>he punches me in the side of the head harder
>act like nothing happened
>bruise forms, teacher question me about it, tell her
>she gives me ice and says that since I started it, I need to stay away from the kid and tell her if he bullies me again

>lunch time
>waiting in line
>kid skips me in line with his 7th grader negro buddy, they laugh
>I hit the black kid so hard in the head, his head hits the concrete wall
>black kids throws the weakest 1-2 punch ive ever taken
>security is there immidiately
>he punches the security guard
>at the principals office
>she lets me go with a warning
>my teacher is there, shes got my back
>I get sent back to class
>black kid gets sent to am alternative disciplinary school
>wigger is removed from classes to the portables with the slow kids, I hardly ever see him again
>mfw 2 fights in 1 day and not even detention

The 90s were great

>>692036798
Oh fuck. I'm sorry, OP.

>>692036752
>>692036798
Fuck OP, that's brutal. I'm so sorry. I hope that vile cunt slowly dies from AIDS.

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Okay I will contribute

> Be very insecure 6 year old
> Mom works full time
> Dad is a jobless alcoholic
> Never got any attention besides the bullying at school and when my drunk father was in the mood
> Only saw mom an hour a day because of her nightshifts
> 1 job for 3 people to feed is tight, especially when dad is drinking a lot of booze
> Mom got divorced, kicked hin out of the house
> Dad was homeless for a couple years and even lived/slept in our basement
A couple years later
> Be 14 years old
> Still have no friends or other nice things life
> Dad has a house and we do fun things together, he is always very proud of me
> Dad has very dark humor
> One day he said "I have cancer"
> Thought this was a joke
> Fuckitwasnot.jpg
> Had to take care of dad for over a year, shit became worse
> He would call me crying in the middle of the night and say he was dying
> His house was full of alcohol, shit, piss, vomit and liquid food (don't know the name but it is something medical)
> Needles to say he was really dying, he looked like a skeleton and he was always sleeping when I would visit
> Finally convince my mom to help me take care of him
> Buy all sorts of cleaning supplies, food, clothing
> was a fucking beautiful day man, sun was shining
> enter his house with all the stuff
> walk into his living room and see him lay there
> no way he wasn't dead as a fish

MFW my only joy in my life ever was my alcoholic dad who I have never seen sober and died exactly at the point when I thought I had it together

Cont?

>summer of 6th grade
>pretty chill, days consisted of playing video games and swimming like any other kid
>dad has always been a smoker
>starts getting really sick
>dad has cancer
>dies in like the middle of july
>my dad and I were close, doesn't hit me too hard
>like a month later my mom tells me she has cancer
>ohfuck.jpg
>go through the first semester of 7th grade practically forgetting
>shit gets pretty bad around november
>mom has anywhere from 3 weeks to 3 months to live
>hospice care in home
>Christmas was one of the last days she could function properly
>day before new years my grandma dies
>few days after new years my mom dies
>go through the rest of middle school like practically a fucking loser, living with older brother
>finally graduate
>come to the harsh realization that my parents are dead
>was practically in shock for all those years, is just now feeling what should've been felt years ago

>>692041888
Trips checked
And what were the 'games' your dad's friend played? If it doesn't hurt you too much to retell.

>>692052125
Okay fuck it I'm gonna continue right now


But wait, it gets worse

> Family of my dad rips his house empty and take everything of value the day after he died
> They cried like idiots at the funeral, mind you those people are normally very distant and don't care about anything but money
> Promised to keep contact but never even got a christmas card
> Dad wanted a grave but they burned him to ashed because $$$
> Wanted to keep the ashes but mom said they threw it away (not sure how its called, sorry i am not a native speaker)
> Felt really sad because I have nothing of my dad except for a paper where he had written his phone number on
> 5 years later we get a message saying if we wanted to take the urn or keep it at the gaveyard
> Can not tell you how angry I was hearing he had a place I could have visited
> Mom says she told me (mom is crazy too)
> Dad has place in our house but is feels very spooky and weird things have happend since
> Family of dad sent me a letter of two sentences, after 8 years of no contact, with 100 dollar in it

Protip: People are crazy

>>692048051
Sue you're fucking parents. You can get money for this bullshit; it's child abuse.

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Something similar happened to me too. A few times actually. I'm pretty naive, I guess.

It's made me paranoid and untrusting.

>>692036798
That bitch..I'm sorry op....

>>692036752
>>692036798
Someone screencap this, goddamn OP I'm so sorry

>>692051354
kek but this is a sad thred u faggot

>>692053221
the word you were looking for is scattering, they scattered the ashes

>>692048143
Ha teach those faggots

>>692048423
Alright cont.
> everything begins to slowly decline
> his gf is mad that they aren't spending time together
> his parents are mad because they think I'm corrupting him.
> I want to ask him to dump her, but I could never do that
> never want to be the person who says it's either them or me
> my senior prom finally rolls around
> I was supposed to go with a girl
> I end up telling her months before that I decided to skip
> I go spend my prom night with anon
> tell myself I'll make a move tonight
> try to kiss him but he is oblivious
> ends up his gf wanted to stop by
> mfw I'm done with this shit
> go on craigslist and find a hot college guy
> block anons number and force myself to move on
> can't keep giving 100% to someone only to every get 50% back
> calls me from other phones because he thinks his is broken
> 3 years later
> still honestly love him
> gf turned out to be a drug dealer
> met him last month
> told me he still thinks about us
> wreck all over again
> thought I was done with this
> I'm considering asking him on a date but I'm afraid to put myself out there for him again

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>>692046818
Nice.

>>692036752
>>692036798
Don't worry bro we got your back. We all call each other faggots once in a while, but 4chan binds us together and we form a great camaraderie.

May you have a wonderful life man

>>692055308
Nah I'd move on. If you have other guys you'll realize it's not worth stressing over one so much.

>>692048051
Cat had better die before this thread 404s.

>>692045269
Did Bane get you, CIA?

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>>692036798
dem feels

>>692047458
Literally me except I can talk to people with similar tastes as me (I don't say close friends because I don't trust other people with deep shit) and I explode from time to time.

>>692036752
Not going to bother greentexting it but for pretty much my entire childhood my mother was an alcoholic and a druggy. Dad didn't stick around after I was born. Mom never cared for me or my sisters, never worked a real job, just got by on child support and welfare. I raised my sisters because she wouldn't.

Mom got kicked off welfare when I was 17 and I became the primary provider of the house for almost three years. When she finally got her life together and started making enough money to support herself and my sisters I just walked out of their life. I spent almost 4 years out of contact with them until I actually called her earlier tonight.

>Grew up extremely poor with an alcoholic mother and abusive father
>Mom was 19 when she had me and had no life skills, couldn't get her shit together.
>Was diddled by Blood Fathers friends at a party he had once, shit was fucked up
>Was regularly molested by my older cousins
>Fast forward, im poor in middle school, have no friends, move a lot.
>Get bullied, get in fights nearly endlessly
>One day my fucking idiot parents (Mother and Step-dad at this point) decide it's a good idea to move halfway across the country to some hell hole known as Winnipeg.
>At this point i'm around 16-17 and really dont give a single fuck about life.
>Get really into drugs, attempt to overdose on acid, most have almost succeeded because i don't remember that day.
>Shit aint working so I try and just fucking hang myself when I'm sober.
>Apparently this is a wake up call for parents that i'm really fucked up and they send me back home, to live with grandma.
>Ut ooohhhh, grandma has cancer!
>Highschool is over, i didn't finish, i'm not going back.
>Time to start working full time and self sustaining or just really actually killing myself and fucking getting it over with.
>Been working and living wherever I can since I was around 19.
>No longer an addict but booze frequently.
>No house, no wife, no kids. no accomplishments to speak of.
>Am a waste of space.

Hopefully that makes some of you feel better about yourselves. I mean you might be doing better than me anyway.

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Gtg guys. Thanks for all the feels!

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>>692057392
Is that you LSA?

>Born with Spina Bifida
>Father was busted as a drug traffic king pin
>Raised by a single mother (on welfare)
>Moved around alot, never really made friends
>Mom went to college when I was 5, pretty much raised myself for the next 4 years.
>Mom had trouble getting job because shit degree she works to shit jobs see her late at night.
>Schooling goes well, no friends, no family, no cable, pretty much just do school work all 5th grade accepted to honors programs
> We move to West Virginia for no fucking reason. (Better Job prospects?)
>Their education system is god awful, two years behind where I'm at.
> Teen ager Spina Bifida comes back, fucks up my spine when I grow.
> In wheel chair in and out of hospital from 12-19

I'm 30 now, life's alright.

>>692057890
You fucking people.

>>692057575
How old are you now?

>>692036752
If that storie's true I feel for you man. I find it hard to believe that people would go out of their way to be so cruel, I've only seen shit like that on TV.

>>692055308
you might as well give it a go

>>692058646
27

Just a life story I guess
>from 5-10 I worked with my father and mother on a construction site often without water on a hot summer day oh well
>my brother and sister are abused and I am the golden child by my father
>Brother almost choked out
>Sister choked out and almost killed by my father
>Police arrest my father twice
>Fast forward a bit I stop talking to my father forever and still haven't talked to him
>Brother and sister haven't as well
>He hasn't paid any child support or helped my mother at all.
>mother worked 18 hour days 7 days a week by the way
>6am-4pm 4:30pm-10 and on weekends another job.
>My mother now has a brain tumor but is living. non Cancerous.
>I feel as if it is my duty to support her and help her as my dead beat father couldn't.
>I look at my father as what not to do.
>Grandparents wonder where they went wrong with him.
>Grandparents are great btw as is my mother.
Any questions or anything post em

>>692046103
Dude I had something like that with a girl, but kinda worse. Stop being a little pussy (orry but thats the way you sound) grow a pair and keep living, that bitch wasnt the love of your life, you are better without her and you dont need anyone to be ok.

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>>692036798

>>692037863
That sounds like LGBTQ+ talk to me.

>Be me 15
>Walk home from school excited because I had a good day
>Get home and go to room to browse the internet
>Dad calls me out in the living room
>He sits me down on the couch
>Anon about 6 weeks ago a body was found in a ditch
>A detective called me and asked for dental records to identify the body
>Dad's eyes are tearing up
>It was your brother
>I sit there in shock as if I had just been punched in the gut
>Did the only person in my life who was there for me when I had to deal with shit die?
>Continue to stare at wall for a few minutes
>I get up,hug my dad, and proceed to my room
>Sit in room and think about what happened
>Why did he die?
>How did he die?
>It should have been me.
>2 months later find out he tried to get in a casino with a hotel key and layed down in the ditch he died in according to witnesses
>Did my mom inadvertently get my brother killed?
>The years of mental torture got to him
>Should've been mom not him.

>>692049861
>>692050618
Fucking summerfags man, GTFO PLEASE

Alright, I've got a story about "Playing Doctor" !

>inb4 fuck off / go to a wincest thread

------

>Be me, 8, sister is 4
>Both scared of doctors, as many kids are
>Start "Playing Doctor" where one of us is the doctor, giving each other shots, dental work and other unpleasant treatments
>Learn about how our grandfather was in a soviet concentration camp in Korea back in the 50's
>imagination_material.exe
>Start playing where one of us is a prisoner in a death camp, while the other is a doctor similar to Mengele, performing horrific experiments, amputations, general torture for shits n' giggles
>Parents never really paid attention to us playing "Doctor Deathcamp"
>years pass, we get older
>no one ever explains what "playing doctor" means among normal children
>fast-forward to 7th grade health class
>Teacher says we will be learning about sexual development and how kids "play doctor"
>without thinking i blurt out "hey me and my sister did that all the time"
>mfw i realize people now think me and my sister touched eachother
>try to explain what we really did
>mfw i find out that playing "deathcamp doctor torture" is even more awkward to explain than if we actually HAD touched eachother
>never really spoke up in that class ever again

>>692036752
>Be three
>Parents are druggies
>They sell me, probably for drug money
>End up in a cult of sorts in the middle of nowhere
>Handful of pedos grooming young boys
>First few years are hazy
>Most early memories are me fighting off advances
>Learned quickly that I shouldn't do that
>Eventually settle in as much as I can
>Make friends with other boys
>Always being recorded doing lewd things
>Sometimes with boys, sometimes girls
>Sometimes men
>Get frequent visits from outsider men
>Treated nicely besides the sexual parts
>Gradually get completely broken
>Forced to watch/help while other boys are tortured
>Forced to do things with younger kids
>Our captors treated it all like some cheesy porno
>Lose a few friends who decided to end it
>I tried the same
>By the time I was ten, I wasn't much more than their personal toy

I can cont, though I'm sure I'll get more questions about authenticity and sexuality than I'd like.

>>692060920
man that must've been a tough day

>>692036752
Be 18 haven't talked to mother in a year since her bf kicked me from her house and got own place which she furnished (hate her for ruining life) technically she tried hard to raise me but stupid decisions made childhood hell
>tell her don't want to talk to her drunk when she calls one night crying
>don't speak to her for couple months later
>cops turn up to house one day
>turns out she killed herself because her only family hated and ignored her (me)
>cry for months
>still to this day I blame myself, would give anything for her back and to hug her saying sorry
>not a single family member or friend
>mother is all I had and I'm the reason she left forever

>>692052516
that's horrible. It is true that some people get fucked over by life.

>be me, 12
>parents got a divorce ,my dad told me to lie about wanting to live with him
>Dad uses me to get back at my mom for cheating
>one day he drives me and my brother to my moms apartment so we can get some "games", it was his idea
>makes us knock at the door while he hids a few feet away
>mom answers not expecting her children, smiles
>dad immediately jumps to confront my mom, tries to get it
>my brother and i have no idea whats going on, but slip past to get some video games and go back to the truck
>dad starts tearing up the apartment, Future step dad is in the bedroom with the door locked
>dad destroys the cheaply made door
>step dad jumps out of the second story window, no shoes or shirt
>he hides in the construction yard adjacent to the apartments
>dad starts searching for him, cussing up a storm (very religious man)
>cant find him, gets back in the truck, start running away
>neighbors thought they heard a murder so they called the cops
>just a few blocks from the house we get pulled over
>dad starts shaking and pops a breath mint for some stupid ass reason
>somehow my dad talked his way out of it
>cops let us go, absolutely no charges filed

thats just one indecent of many that fucked me up as a person

>>692061238
Cont if true wow how are you not fucked up for life if fake still a interesting story.

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you make me cry :'v

>>692061238
Was this all repressed and then recovered through hypnosis or similar therapy?

>>692061247
damn anon, that must be heavy. it's not like you're the one that killed her, it was her own decision, try not to feel too guilty.

I got a story for ya bois. Keep this thread alive while I type it

>>692060184
I don't get it, how did he die from laying down in a ditch? Was it below freezing out and he fell asleep in it or something?

>be young
>tough shit happened
>life has become harder ever since and will only get harder as the people you love age and die and chances are you haven't even started the worst time in your life

Bump forma all the ongoing feels

>>692036752
>>692036798
I cry

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>>692062817
>believing life only gets worse
>not killed yourself already

>>692039125
That's a truly sad story. I can see how that would break you.

>>692036752
hey at least you didn't shoot the school up.
good on you.

>>692062609
> be me, around 11 years old
> have a huge crush on a girl in my class
> finally gets courage to ask her out
> puts a note in her desk during recess, saying that I like her and if she wants to go out with me
> never got a response from her
> a guy in my class that I thought was my friend said out loud during class:
> HEY FEMANON YOU HAVEN'T ANSWERED ANONS NOTE IN YOUR DESK YET
> she says "the answer is NO"
> completely humiliated, whole class laughs at me
> this kept following me until middle school
> everyone made fun of me saying how beta I was for not asking her out face to face and shit

I'm almost 19 now and I believe this is the reason I never had a gf. I've been in love or had an interest in a girl several times before but thanks to this situation I've been too afraid to make a move. Because of constant fear of failure and humiliation if I do something retarded and stupid again...

Btw the girl I asked out is still a good friend of mine and she said she was sorry for what happened then and I don't have feelings for her anymore though

>>692039125
Do you find it hard to think when you look a stranger in the eyes?

>>692063736
Not that sad if you think about it but it had a huge impact on my social life

>>692044657
Calm down, Sasuke.

>>692063736

>Btw the girl I asked out is still a good friend of mine and I don't have feelings for her anymore though

who the hell are you kidding..

>>692064441
True. Still not madly in love with her anymore though

>>692057575
Res system hits like a truck?

>>692036798
You are loved.

>>692039125
Spotted Norman Bates.

>>692036752
Teared up, good job fagot. But seriously, kids can be some of the cruelest assholes in this life. But life goes on. Learn from it, and never become it. Make damn sure your kids grow up right.

>>692048143
At least you admit your newfaggedness. That is commendable. To green text you just put a ">" infront of whatever you're typing.

>Like this

>>692061238
>Pedo cult ends up getting busted when I'm 10
>Playing outside when it happened
>Most of it feels like a dream, pretty hazy
>Get rushed to a police car by an older guy
>Covered up because I was naked, hot as fuck though
>Watch through the window as the scene unfolds
>End up breaking down in the back of the car
>Can't really describe my feelings
>I knew the guys were evil and I just felt liberated
>Car eventually moves but I'm out of it
>Next thing I remember was being with a man in the backseat
>He patted my back and told me I could take my time
>I eventually go inside with him
>Lengthy process begins
>Get questioned, medical care, cleaned, dressed
>Feel guilty about some stuff I was forced to do
>Tell them anyways
>This process lasts for what feels like months
>Eventually learn about the men, the other boys, my parents

The guys ended up in prison, from what I know. My dad killed himself to avoid punishment, my mom was arrested.

>Shortly after, I start therapy
>Split between a few facilities with other boys
>Get taught how to behave properly
>Deal with what I was forced to endure
>Never forget it
>Feel alone throughout it all
>Somehow get the go ahead to be released
>End up being adopted by a big Christian family
>Expect to be touched for the first few weeks
>Don't know why else they would want me
>Start homeschooling, still go to therapy
>I don't really fit in
>Brother my age was understanding
>Showered, slept, and sometimes cuddled nude
>Didn't feel dirty because I did it with other boys
>Deep down, I think I enjoyed it
>During all of the the abuse, it was the only affection I felt
>Eventually settled down because of him

Will cont again. And to the guy who asked, I remember most of by myself. The early instances were recovered in therapy, not that I wanted them to be.

>>692043683
plz cont

>>692043683
cont. plox

>>692043683
Continue pls

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bump

This entire thread makes me want to end it.

>>692065819
jesus dude

>>692048051
you better have pre written this shit faggot

>>692048051
Anon pls tell me your cat is dead already

>>692036752
>>692036798
Im really sorry op, that story actually mare me tear up, i hope things get better for you

>be me
>white upper middle class
>lots of great opportunities
>finish cs degree
>get job with ibm
>have great girlfriend
>nice house and car
>lifes good

>>692045413
At least you're in Germoney and not getting robbed at gunpoint by Hispanics and shot by blacks like us in the USA.

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>>692067804

>>692065819
>About 13 at this time
>I love my new family but have anxiety around others
>Never really deal with it
>Hit puberty when I'm almost 14
>Go into an emo phase
>Mostly fueled by hormones
>Also by the fact that I was learning I'd never be normal
>Be by myself in my room most of the time
>Still homeschooled so it's not an issue
>This phase eventually passes
>Graduate at 16 because I didn't really have anything to to distract me
>Fuck around for a year until I go to college
>Still feel isolated, but I do well
>Start getting letters at this time
>From my mom, sent almost daily
>All of them telling me she's dying
>I'm a bad son for not visiting her
>Don't reply
>Stop opening them after awhile
>She died about six months after the letters start
>Feel nothing
>Continue college and make friends for the first time in years
>Start volunteering with young boys because it makes me happy
>Seeing them happy makes me think maybe life's worth it
>Also start looking at shota/loli
>Not attracted to them, but seeing them enjoy sex helps me imagine I felt the same
>Life is pretty good now
>Still live with the mark of my childhood
>Know if I ever really tell others about everything, a normal relationship wouldn't be possible
>Thought about ending it but I like to think I took that abuse so I could be compassionate to others
>Still don't know if I'll ever make a difference in the world
>But I know if I can help one person out of the hole I found myself in, it'll all be worth it

My life so far has been pretty good, caring and loving parents, some friends that I have made thanks to internet and stuff, always got what I wanted. Nevertheless I feel empty, I just don't seem to fit anywhere else but in my own bedroom. I dont know what's wrong with me, some people would live to have everything so easy like I do. But I don't care about shit in life

>>692036752
>>692036798
THIS IS A COPYPASTA YOU DUMB FAGGOTS

How do people fall in love so easily? I'm 19 and I've never felt "love" or lust.

>>692068581
No shit. He said share childhood stories that broke you. I imagine he meant share ones that have have you feels. Most just shared their own, though.

>>692068759
Love is a drug. Those that fall in love crave it and when they break up, they lose their steady fix of oxytocin and other things. Breakups are essentially withdrawals

>>692068759
Thankfully, my parents are strict but loving, and I don't fall in love, but I have friends I enjoy being with. Sorry to ask the anons here ;v

>>692069003
Thanks for clarifying :v

>>692068182

you're right he's getting cucked and beheaded by mudslimes

>>692068370
You'd be amazed what the right person will accept brother. My life wasn't that fucked up, but despite the things that have happened, I am married to a beautiful woman, and have children of my own. If you can take down your own walls, you might find the spiritual liberation you seek. I can tell my story if anybody wants, it isn't as fucked up as this guys, but maybe somebody will be interested.

>>692069488
do it dude

>>692057575
I have house, kids, job etc but am jelly of you because I always wanted to drop acid but never did.

>>692069488
Just pump it out, the thread is bout to rip and some other story is always welcome

>>692036752
I got one OP, my writeing skills are not the best and I wrote this down quick.
>Be me, raised by single mom
>Only child
>Life is hard, my ma works herself ragged so we have enough
>I played alone with what I had, watch allot of TV, mom had to work and didn't have time. It was lonely.
>I watch myself most days until I got to go to school. I started a year late, I was 7.
>I didn't know how to talk to people
>only talked to mom or went outside when we went to the store
>I had a hard time at school, even from a young age
>The other kids didn't like me much.
>I wanted friends, like the other kids.
>I told this to my mom, she tried her best to help me but it didn't work out.
>Fast forward, I'm 16, still no fiends. but I begin to notice girls in a sexual way.
>It's a smaller town, I've gained the reputation as the weirdo, loner.
>Other guys pick on me but it's okay, I got used to it
>Try my best to ignore it and read books(only use a computer at school).
>A new girl moves into town, shes really shy, awkward. I see a chance.
>I sit with her and talk with her about the things I read or saw on TV.
>She thinks I'm a genies because I can recite facts and blurbs from memory
>It makes me feel really good, we become fast friends.
>People call her names, make fun of her because she's odd, but mostly because she hangs out with me.
>We spend more and more time together at my house, she never wants to go home.
>Stays at my house some nights, my mom doesn't care, she's happy I have a friend.
>We sit close together on the sofa and watch TV
Cont

>>692070625
>We do most things together.
>One night, I got brave, I decided I would cuddle up to her, I just wanted to be close.
>As I do, she goes tense, she began to cry, told me no, please. Not to touch her.
>After awhile she calms down, she is silent for a long time
>She tells me her step-dad touches her, makes her do things to him.
>That her mom died and she just has him
>She tells me not to tell anyone, that he will hurt her
>I don't know what to do
>Months go on this way, between my house and school.
>She stays at my house two or three days a week and weekends.
>Her step dad starts to get angry that she won't come home.
>She begs my mom to not let him take her, won't tell my mom what is really going on
>I tell my mom
>She is shocked, calls the police
>The step dad is arrested,my good friend, my only friends, sees what I did as a betrayal
>Everyone will know what he did to her now
>The state takes her away.
>I don't see or hear from her.
>4 or so years pass
>I got a job, small amount of money
>I get a car and an outdated computer
>I want to go to college and I do, after a few months off school saving money.
>My mom dies, I knew she was sick but didn't understand the extent of it
>She had leukemia, one day she was fine, then she was gone
>I load up everything I own two weeks latter and leave
>I move for school, I bust my ass but it's worth it.
>While in school, 2009 I make a Facebook account
>While searching one night I find her
>She is so different, she's a woman now, a few tattoos, piercing, a real scene look
>We get in touch and talk like the old days, I'm so happy.
>I want to see her again, we make plans to get together when I get out for summer
>I go four state over to see her.
>She is so amazing, I want to take her on a date but she says no
cont

>>692070789
>Instead she invites me into her apartment and we watch a movie, we sat close together like years before
>She feels more effectionant, touches me more. My leg and shoulder.
>When the movie ends she gets onto her knees and tells me she is going to sucks my dick.
>I did not expect this, I was so ashaimed with myself.
>I felt like I was less than nothing after I came
>She told me to stay the night and I did
>We didn't have sex but we cuddled together.
>I wake up in the morning and she just goes crazy, she was waiting for me to wake up
>She screems as loud as she can, all I ever wanted from her sex
>That I never caired for her, it was all an act to get me to trust her
>She hits me and I take it as she yells, I don't know what to do.
>She forces me out the door.
>I stay stay in town for days trying to get a hold of her
>She wont awenser me
>I leave for home.
>I eventual get my degree
>I get another girlfriend
>Another job, better money
>My life is pretty good. I have a nice girlfriend, a nice apartment. We talk of moving into a home, we want to start a family
>2013, my childhood friend killed herself.
>She cut her wrist, fell asleep and never woke up.
>I didn't hear about it until months later.
>She didn't have anyone. The state took her body.
>I have a family now, a girlfriend I need to marry and one girl of my own.
>I think about her sometimes, all the time.
>My best fiend Samantha
Fin

> be ten years old
> living with cousins on a sheep and horse ranch in Montana
> awoken early
> still dark
> strange noises
> screaming
> walk out and investigate
> See uncle with big knife
> dead lambs everywhere
> terrified
> scream, grab a young lamb, and run
> tracked down about a mile from the ranch
> banished from ranch
> lamb slaughtered
.....if only I could save just one........

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>>692070625
If this is true, you are outstanding at how you coped with this!

If not...............I fucking called it!

>>692036752

wow. That's sad. Kids don't really understand how harmful it can be to be this mean to people. Someone I know's mom just died recently. Its never a good thing.

https://discord.gg/012OE9ge1GbmdqbZD

come tell us about it on the /b/ chat.

>be me
>16 then (20 now)
>local family friends want me to baby sit their 7yr old son and 3yr old daughter
>offer me 10$ an hour
>fuckingrichaf.jpg
>3yr old already asleep but 7yrold is a bitch
>fag punched me and refused to sleep for an hour or 2
>he finally went to sleep but beta family doesnt have a tv so im extremely bored
>i sneak into the fathers office to use his computer
>get extremely horny and the parents wont be back in another 2 hours
>go on omegle to find camwhores
>after swimming through the dicks i find 3 naked people
>2 women and a man
>holyfuck
>its the parents im babysitting for with some slut getting it on in a hotel room and letting omegle users watch
>luckily i didnt show my face and this shit was actually hot
>boner harder than diamonds
>they like me and keep me on
>best fap ever
>about cum buckets and the mom im babysitting for is getting dicked and licked with her face right in the camera
>fuck yes
>faggot 7yrold comes in the room
>his face is in full view of the camera
>"mommy"
>his mom shrieks and i turn of the computer
>i yell at the kid telling him go back to bed
>he cries and runs away
>i leave the house before they come home with no pay
>mfw the fap was worth it

>>692069670
Well, I guess I can then, I won't greenest because this isn't pretyped.
My life is a chain reaction of bad decisions and fucked up events all set off by the events of one day. I grew up a child of privilege with a loving family. If privileged beginnings indicated destiny, by rights I'd be a millionaire, unfortunately that isn't the way it played out. One day when I was about 8 yo I was molested and beaten by our cleaning lady. She would up striking my head on a toilet, not sure if she wanted to kill me or just shut me up. I woke up in the hospital feeling tremendous guilt and shame, and wasn't initially able to explain to anyone why that should be. Had it not been for the support of an unbelievably understanding cop, that spic cunt would probably still be free, and still molesting kids. Fortunately I was able to help the policy send her to jail. I dreamt of murdering her on her release day, unfortunately her shitty diet took care of that for me. After a lot of therapy I was able to go back to school, and everything seemed ok until I hit 15.

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>>692071019
Clarice?

>>692036752
This happened
http://1312484.igenapps.com/go-figure#0

>>692071252
>I'll take things that didn't happen for $500, Alex.
Take your bullshit elsewhere, we're having feels asshole.

>>692071380
> lambs
> so heavy.......so heavy

>>692070789
>>692070625
>>692070897
Sorry guys, I was reading it back and it dosen;t sound the best, I've been drinking. I hope someone gets someti=hing out of it

>be me
>Middle class USA family in Ohio
>Parents who are still together and a brother make up my family, along with two doggos
>Litetally had every opertunity possible but always screwed it up

>i always the nerdy awkward kid
>Had normal life in elementary school
>Became aware of my awkwardness in 6th grade
>i was the Nerd stereotype. Used big words, that no one knew about, got good grades, played videya, etc.
>Became reclusive and quiet
>Eventually made "friends"
>"Friends" mostly saw me as secondary friends.
>Tried to hang out with the main group but I they always pushed me away when tried to talk to them more
>Lots of jokes fly around friend group. I'm mostly the butt of the jokes.
>Take it like the beta I am
>Eventually get tired of it and leave them at beginning of freshmen year
>Join marching band
>Still awkward and nerdy, but I was far from being the most awkward and nerdy
>I was finally one of the normal people
>Made friends. Even people I weren't friends with were friendly to me
>All ends on Halloween of that year
>My former favorite holiday
>Make death threat to the flute players in our band
>Intend it as a joke
>They took it seriously because I'm terrible at making sarcasm sound like sarcasm
>Get suspended for 3 days
>Mental breakdown
>I was the goody two shoes smart kid and now I'm a criminal and bully
>It wasn't that bad but I'm just a pussy that it killed me inside.
>Lost all drive to do well in school
>Grades go to shit
>No good friends in highschool. Period. None.
>Become loner
>Attempt suicide multiple times
>End up in mental institution
>Broke out with the help of some weird kid obsessed with communism
>Went home and never went back to institution
>Never got his phone number or email
>Now I'm a Communist who has no job living on the edge of town in a practically abandoned apartment building. One chair and a mattress, thats it
Cont

>>692071379
damn

>>692071379
It was at 15 that I discovered that not only had she victimized my brother too, but that he'd turned to heroin as a coping mechanism. You haven't lived until you've gotten that kind of confession from a man with a needle hangING from his arm. My once promising life turned upside down that day. I thought I could cope, but the nightmares started. Every night I was 8 again, and she was there. I would stop sleeping. I went to doctors and shrinks, they all told me to chew on some root and try to get natural sleep. I guess nobody will give a 15 yo sleeping pills. By age 16 I started using, in my case it was various pain medications, in an effort to sleep. Self medication makes you not see you're an addict. Miraculously enough I would manage to graduate highschool with a decent GPA and go to college at 18. My college career would last about six months when the pills caught up with me.

>>692060920
Wait, playing doctor is a sexual thing? I thought that that was actual games, like when people 'play house' or whatever?

>>692071164
didnt have the best time growing up but my life is okay now. the bad times are few and between than before, I'm happy. I hope you could read it okay, had a few drinks so far.

>>692072150
Parents are ashamed of me but they still love me so they pay my rent. Would be willing to pay for college but I can't do it. It's too stressful. Can't find a job because I have fits of despair where I just cry and hide from other people. No one will hire me because whenever I something wrong I have a tendency to run away and hide for hours.
Writing this on borrowed laptop at McDonalds so I can't answer questions.
Apparently I'm really smart but just mentally scarred. Ran out if anxiety, depression, and ADD meds about a week ago. I think I might be going deaf and the fries I just ate are the only thing I've eaten in about 3 days, I think. Probably going to die soon. Hopefully I get hit by a car or something. Bye 4chan. If I live long enough I'll post tomorrow.

>>692072490
Interestingly enough, the pills caught up with me, but not in the form people normally think of. College took me to a new city, and in a new city I didn't have my dealers, so I had to find others. New dealers meant people I couldn't trust, but I was too addicted to know that. One night I went to the hood to score to Vikoden a friend told me about. Apparently my friend is a piss poor judge of character, because his dealer didn't give me the pills. What he did do was stab me in the throat and steal my wallet. I woke up in the hospital completely mute, although ironically after feeling like I'd had the best sleep of my life. The hospital would discover my addiction, and that led me to going to rehab when the Dr told me I had the liver of a 75 yr old man. And that is where my life began to turn around, although dating somebody while mute is a whole new class of akward.

>>692061247
bro dont feel bad.
my alcoholic dad uses the same guilt trip technique.
He storms in the house in an alcoholic rage and gets butt hurt and emotional when confronted.
I think you did the right thing.

>>692073147
If you have to kill yourself that's life, what I do is exercise like run/swim/bike/whatever for a few hours and then wank 2-3 times then chill on /b/ or read literature and drink a coffee. That's my formula for survival. Pretty much no friends so I have to make myself happy.

>>692041888
I feel you bro. My sister and i were raped as kids, abusive mother and bullied as a kid. I guess you learn and move on. I'm Mexican living in the United States and i fucking love this country because it has helped me so much. Don't give up hope dude as long as there's a place with opportunities you can have a good life

>>692036752
>be 19
>great life
>parents never got along but meh
>maa takes a lot of care of dad
>maa is the glue that holds the family together
>love maa more than life
>dad cheats on maa for 2 years
>dad has no fixed work timings so no doubt
>maa is broken inside
>maa lost 12 pounds
>maa decides to stay with dad cuz kids
>can't tell anyone cuz stigma
>sister in other state for job
>can't tell sister cuz too emotionally fragile
>the bitch he cheated on maa with now threatens to accuse dad of rape
>bitch cusses my entire family on a daily basis
>hate to see maa this way
>parents fighting all the time with every fight ending in threats to leave home
>hate dad's fucking guts but don't have the courage to tell him that
>maa is very weak now
>if maa dies I will fucking kill that bitch and my dad
>life is sad

>>692071861
Ouch dude.
Rip in peace Samantha, my condolences my brother. That made me feel :'( I hope life is good dude