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My friends feel like shit tonight, so that made me feel like shit.

>>691397942
i know the feel, its gotten to the point in my life were i cant even talk to anyone without feeling guilty of bringing them down

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>>691397942
atleast you got friends.

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this was me tonight, tried to help someone but she wouldnt let me, little does she know i need her to help me...

>>691398143
I always feel like I could've helped if I had talked to them earlier, but sometimes it's too late. Lost 4 people to suicide so far. Best friends dad, close friend of family, dad, and step-dad.

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>>691398355
also me

>>691398274
Yeah, I know. I'm sorry /b/ro. But what's stopping you from making them?

>>691398611
it fucking sucks man, depression is a bitch its kicked my ass plenty of times but having a friend helped a fuckton, don't blame yourself about not helping earlier its hard to even see when people need help sometimes

>>691398612
i didn't need that...

poor cub :(

>>691398953
That it is. And thank you, a lot /b/ro.

>>691398071
So you're better than all of those others?

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>>691398757
I'm super shy and have had bad social anxiety all my life. I was always the outcast as a kid and got bullied a lot in high school. It's not as bad now but it's still holds me back.

>>691399341
I never get these images that show a brighter picture through the noose.
Wouldn't you just stick your head through, cut the rope, and wear it like a necktie?

>>691399341
I'm sorry. But, maybe try dating sites? Like, look for a women, start dating, and meet some of her friends? I know it's a really shitty idea. I'm just throwing out whatever comes to mind.

>>691399341
take xanax

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>>691399712

Why do you give yourselves self pity?
Why do you think your life is shit?
Why do you do this to yourselves?

Is it stress?
Is it loneliness?
Is it fear?
Are you angry? Sad?
Is it the past?
Is it the future?

Let go of these petty things. Take a deep breath, and move on. So you did something immoral. Fuck it! Move on. So you hate yourself. Fuck it! Make yourself better.

You and your decisions can only mold yourself. So why not be happy?

>>691397031
I'm with you, man
My friends are all out parrying without me, my gf broke up with me, feeling really depressed: life's good

guess i'm gonna tell my history

>be me, 16
>totally a 6/10, quite fat but pretty funny
>English school meet a girl
>14,blonde, not tall,seems to have a lot of money
>she came and sits right next to me
>panic,hands are sweating,
>palms are sweaty
>After 20 minutes she talks to me
>she says "Hey, you know how to make exercise 2?
> say "sure, let me help you"
>she thanks me and say if we can change phone numbers
>First fucking time some pretty girl tell me this
>we do it
>Later that night se sends me a message
>Start to talk all the night
>She is so nice
>So funny
>so.. me
>started dating out
>she was everything i needed, and everything i was looking for
>9 months of relation
>people could'nt believe how a pretty blond girl 9/10 was dating a boy like me
> everytime i went to her house to go out, i buyed her a Milka chocolate, her favourite
> we lost our virginity each other, lifeisgood.png
>one day we where laying on the couch
>her dad comes in
>not a bad guy, she asks her if they could talk together
>she looks at me and say
>Hum anon, can you leave? i have to speak to my dad.
>Ok, not a problem
>2 hours later she calls me
>"Anon there's something i need to tell you"
>fuck
>"I'm moving.."
>Please no.


(1/2)

>>691398274
This. Finishing up college, didn't make one friend(unless I count drug dealers). Feels pretty shit tbh.

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Every time I feel sad I watch shit like this
This one actually made me cry, and that's a fucking rarity
Enjoy anons, hopefully it will help you
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=FL7sh1Ipymk

>>691400077
Fuck off, happyfag

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>>691399962
Damn never saw this before.

So here I am, let me begin by saying I'm fucking obviously retarded.
4 year relationship, recently married. Why? I don't fucking know, she's a terrible person but so am I. Ignored, berated, belittled constantly.
I discover emails 2 weeks ago of her emailing some bozo she went on dates with while we were dating 2 years ago... Sent AFTER I caught her and forgave her, after we got engaged.
Cont?

>>691400169

>Mad at her, her family, every single one of them
>she was leaving in 3 days
>Didnt talk to her on those days
>The day has come
>she already left the city
>Got a new message
>"Anon, i'm so sorry you're angry at me, as soon i got there i'll call you on skype"
>"I love you, please dont be mad at me"
>But she never got to get there
>Car accident
>All dead
>mfw i could have spent those 3 days with her
>mfw i'm still waiting for her skype call

I love you Delfina.

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>>691400368
Keep going anon.

>>691400219
the first two hit me like a truck but it is kinda making me happy

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pls, keep posting... my girlfriend just broke up with me..

>>691399206
He took the place of someone better than him faggot

>>691401195
If they're all better, then how did he win, you imbecile?

>>691401021
That's a really beautiful picture anon. I'm sorry about your girlfriend. I hope you feel better soon.

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>>691400219
Holy shit

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>>691401330

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>>691401404

>>691400819
So heartbroken I branch out and make a post on whisper just talking about life not turning out how we expected.
Random 6/10 responds, we hit it off, constant texts for a week, so much in common it's crazy. Never had a new romance flair up like this. I feel that connection in a deep way
Feel appreciated, desired, but goddamn... The wife fucked me over, so everybody gets one. Decide to be upfront, tell her I'm married, but struggling.
Continuing...

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>>691401333
blood doesn't dry bright red.

fake and gay

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>>691401350
ty.. i just hurts bc i know its my fault.. but like everything in life, i shall pass, right? i am.. just.. feling lonely

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>>691401333
This looks like straight up ketchup ....also very autistic. Fake abd Gay.

Why am I still infatuated with someone I can't even talk to anymore. We weren't even dating ever, we were just friends with flirty tendencies. And I see them and all of their flaws and realize how shitty of a person they are. But then I see a picture of them and remember the good things about them and my heart breaks again. This is a vicious cycle.

>>691400219
yeah I watch videos like this too. it really helps me feel better without it feeling like im "trying" to feel better

>>691401475
She has a history, her ex husband cheated on her. We have feels discussion but decided this might make us both happy. I step out on a Friday night, meet her and we hookup. It's fucking fantastic, like we knew each other for years. Spend 4 hours and leave, sneak back in the am for round 2, cloud fucking nine.
Continuing....

>>691399545
>You've had a few experiences, a few girlfriends, maybe even had sex.

ha

>>691400221
No, go fuck yourself.
I (probably) have had just as much problems as you did.
See this?
http://www.news8000.com/news/Fireworks-explosion-inside-vehicle-injures-5-teens/16715520

I was in that. Now I'm older, had a kid, mom flew off, gotta pay child support. Went to jail a couple times. Work a factory job, day in, day out. I come home, and there's not a time in the world that I'm happy to see my daughter's face.

I'm just saying life's a bit rosier once you accept it's hard. You begin to realize that happiness is just around the corner.

im too tired to even cry, ive cried so much the past week and a half

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>>691400219
Jesus the first three are fucking intense
9/10 find anon thank you

>>691402254
This gif unupseted me

>>691401915
Sunday she starts having regrets, feels terrible. Fml... Says she needs time. I'm heartbroken. My wife could have walked out the door and it wouldn't have hurt like hearing her cry on the phone, but she wants to try, it's worth it, we'll make it work.
That night as Im buried in music on my headphones, reflecting on the catastrophe I've sown, my wife comes in the bedroom... She's peed on 3 pregnancy kits.. All positive

>>691402009
Are you in this thread because you are upset that the explosion didn't finish the job?

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>>691402049
What's wrong anon.

Here's something: My junior year of HS, I met a girl who just so happened to be suicidal. It was obvious that this wasn't a fake thing as I could see the scars on her wrists and the emptiness in her eyes. But every time she saw me, she seemed to lighten up and become happier. Now, I didn't figure this out on my own. No, she told me all this herself one day, and it was from that day on that I swore to help her as best as I could. And I did. I helped her become happier and better. She shook off what was making her depressed and she was finally at peace. It was at that time that she confessed a sort of love towards me. I admitted that I liked her too, and so we dated. We dated for 6 months until she revealed to me that she was moving. I decided to try the long distance thing, but two months later and it ended. It ended because I had become her abuser. All the nagging for more that just kissing and for nudes had made the one who saved her into the one she despised more than anyone. We kept in contact, however, until a month ago. She sends me a single text that said: "anon, I never really loved you. Sure, you helped me, but that's all that you were to me. This is goodbye, for good."

>>691400378
>Delfina
She had a beautiful name anon, I'm so sorry for your lost. Hope you are doing ok

>>691398355
OK, that struck a bit too close to home. Why man. Why's I gotta be like this....

>>691402646
I've really fucked myself. The timing is terrible. I'm a pos because tonight I went out and cheated on my pregnant wife because I'm sincerely happy with the other woman. How in the fuck do I keep going? Im going to be a dad but I'm in love with someone else

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Stop being faggots and enjoy your life

>>691398071
Read Outliers by Malcolm Gladwell. Your view of this will change.

>>691398355
jesus fuck anon. Too close to home there.

>>691400077
>"just be happy, retards!"
easier said than done

>>691403275
have her get an abortion. both of you are pieces of shit and this will only end in divorce and child support. skip the child support for years and just leave her. fire first, get the money out of the accounts, find a lawyer ect. Make sure you strike first.

>>691398611
Don't blame yourself for their actions. Everyone around them feels like they could have done something more. We all have our own lives, and there's no sense in dwelling on the things we or others could have done.

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Ok Hey /b/
I have rly bad English but try to understand me, listen up
>Be me
>8 years old
>In All girls orphanage
>Not alot of friends
>Actually none at all
>No reason really
>I was bullied alot though
>Alot of really crappy things happened
>One day
>Finally make a friend
>Alma.
>Alma is literally only friend I have
>We hung out constantly
>She got hate for being my friend
>But she didn't care
>she stuck up for me
>Skip forward
>14 years old
>Her and I are still in the orphanage
> In the adolescent wing now however
>More emotional teenagers
>Age range between 14-17
>Alot of people have depression
>Nowhere nearly as noisy as my old wing
>almost every night there is crying

Cont'd

>>691402999
This doesn't even make sense.
Dating for 6 months? Should be having sex within a few or its over.
And abuser? Lol you sound immature and stupid.
She sounds like a huge bitch

>>691397031
My parents divorced when I was four. Ended up moving in with my mom, even though I preferred my dad. She had a boyfriend who touched me, but I was the only one in the house who acknowledged that was wrong. Over about a year, my mom gradually got into hard drugs. At the end of that year, my "step dad" paid her to leave, keeping me with him.

We moved again, the two of us. Everything went downhill from there. He gradually started molesting me. Ended up locking me in the basement, which was pretty much a shitty apartment. Over the course of about five years, he and his friends did unspeakable things to me. I remember him making me watch pizza regularly in between cartoons, probably to normalize it.

I suffered through that until I was ten when someone tipped off the police. Spent awhile in the hospital after getting freed, even longer in therapy. I ended up moving back in with my dad and his new family. Things were shitty for a while, but I eventually felt somewhat normal.

Then when I was 13, puberty hit and I fell into depression. Probably a mixture of hormones and history. I tried killing myself by slicing my wrists but I failed. I didn't know how to actually do it, so I used the attention grabbing method.

More therapy followed that and I had to go to some hospital because I was dangerous or whatever the fuck. I didn't enjoy it because the workers weren't relatable and I just felt patronized. I got out after several months and everyone just tried to act like I was fine.

High school came and I was pretty popular by association, but I didn't talk to many people. I scores straight As but I didn't mesh well with most teachers. Got drunk one night with a close friend and I kinda snapped. I didn't really like not having control of my own body.

High school ended and I'm pretty much here now. Second year of college just ended, no qt girlfriend, pretty much just trying to figure out how to live with my past. Sorry for the lack of green texts.

Fuck, man... I didn't even realize it was Friday. This shit sucks. I guess another night of drinking until I can't remember how much I hate it!

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>>691403692
>money in the accounts
Abortion is off the table, hence the problem. If I bail I'll never see the kid and that's not what I want. My lack of caring about her doesn't translate to the kid.

>>691404027
My apologies. I didn't go into detail. She was a more reserved person. She wasn't a prude, but she wanted to wait until marriage. I wasn't in it for the sex, but after some time, I wanted it. Yet she kept pushing away. eventually, she she gave in to what I wanted, I was very forceful, almost rape-ish. The farthest we got was oral, but when she did give me the succ, it was as if I was going to kill her with how aggressive I was. I also threatened certain things if I didn't get my way. I made her worry too much about me because I was a POS

>>691401750
Are you me?

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>>691404338
and we're halfway through the year already.

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>>691403907

>Alma and I still really close
>I got really close to the edge alot of times
>Held knives to myself, tried alot of stupid crap
>She guided me away from that
>Literally only person in my life that cared
>She was just as bad
>but I couldn't be there as much
>I tried when I could
>but I'm a shitty friend
(Mind my language)
>I was still bullied but not as much

>Skip forward another 2 years
>Still best friend in whole world
>I get an offer from a Foster home
>I accept
>only issue being that it was in another country
>and I wouldn't be able to see Alma again
>We talk
>She's okay with it

Cont'd

I feel like writing out my story. Maybe it'll help me figure things out. Sorry, my story telling isn't the best. I will be summarizing so ask me questions if you don't understand something.

>be me
>be straight girl
>be a sophomore with one friend
>we'll call her 'W'
>W and I are both in Chinese class together
>she starts talking to a guy in Chinese class
>the first time I looked at him, I didn't really like him
>We'll call him 'D'
>W doesn't talk to me as much, too busy talking to D
>I get jealous, start being kinda mean to D
>after about a month, I actually sort of start to like D
>a bit more time passes, onto winter break
>realize I really only miss D and not W
>can't stop thinking about D
>realize that the hate I felt first lying eyes on him was actually a spark of passion I didn't fully understand
>I developed a crush on D, but try to ignore it
>winter break ends, D tells me he'll be moving to my street and I'm more overjoyed than ever
>we start riding the bus together
>sometimes our knees brush together briefly
>literal electricity
>fast-forward to end of year, and I've made friends
>one is a girly girl, we'll call her 'K'
>I confess to K that I think I have a crush on D
>"Honestly Anon, I don't think you should go for it. I think you'd have your heart broken."
>in my heart, I feel she's right

>last day of school
>D and I won't see each other until next year
>I give him the most awkward hug of my life
>he felt so nice
>K moved to Alaska
>think my crush will dissipate over break
>it only grows stronger
>summer ends, school starts back up
>see D again, heart feels like its on fire
>realize I still have a crush on him
>he joins a community service club and a college success club
>I am uninterested in both, but join so I can be with him longer
Cont

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Goodnight anons.

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>>691404769
>A few months past
>I have an iPod touch
>First electronic Device I actually owned
>Her and I talk on facebook and skype everday
>Go to school now
>Can't speak english for crap
>Bullied because of it
>Skype Alma at the end of each day
>when I get home
>She tells me about her day
>I tell her about mine
>That kind of things
>this goes on for about a year
>I message her and skype her still
>Shes been low however
>hasn't been talking as much
>Seems worse than usual
>I try to talk to her about it
>she tells me its nothing
>I dont believe her but theres nothing I can do
>One day I message her
>That day I had gotten into Honour rolls
>Wanted to tell her all about it
>She didn't respond
>figured she was busy or lost computer
>priveleges
>A week passes by
>Leave her messages each day
>Still hasn't read them
>Delivered
>Not read.
>2 weeks
>Nothing
>1 Month
>still nothing
> still leaving her messages
Cont'd

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>>691406249
>Get a letter in the mail
>It's from Alma
>The letter is so pretty
>Hearts everywhere and cute drawings
>I remember how much I love her
>I opened the letter
>It's a long note paper
>Tears are dried into the paper
>It opens with
>" Hey Anna, I'm sorry"
> Heart drops
>tears form in my eyes
>I keep reading
>She tells me about how she couldn't keep
>doing this
>That she had fought the fears for so long
>Tells me she is sorry
>Alot more than this but it doesn't matter here
(sorry!)
>Bottom line is
>It's a suicide note
>I put the letter down
>I remember just losing it
>I didn't leave my room for days
>My eyes burnt from crying
>Send a message to her
>keep doing it
>every day
>not sure why
> I guess somehow I had hoped she'd read it
>Sent her every day messages
>Telling her my day
>Maybe Ghost Alma could see it
> who knows?
>This was 5 months ago
>Still sending her messages
>Still hoping she sees them
>I Miss you Alma
>I'm sorry I was such a bad friend.

>>691403692
Have the kid, appreciate your wife. Chances are your fling wouldn't turn into anything more successful. Remember those early weeks and months with the woman who's now your wife? How do they compare with what you have now? Don't get caught in an endless search for novelty. Have the kid, start a family, take responsibility for marrying her and knocking her up. Be a man.

>>691407064
holy shit anon that was beautiful thank you for sharing

>>691407163
Cuck

>>691407064
That really bummed me out.
Thank you.

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>>691407556
Sorry :(
Have a good day ?
<3

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>>691405855
It's not how it ends, it's the road through it all that matters

>>691407902
>have a good day
I'm not the person that typed what you apologized too, but that made me cry more than your story. It hurts when the only place I can find people actually being decent is on a site where we all call each others faggots. I hope you find happiness anon.

>>691407902
You have a good day too buddy.

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>>691407427
Thankyou :D
not really Beatiful but
>I tell her really boring things :P
>Literally last message I sent her was this
>" Ugh, j'ai un examen de mathematiques lundi, pourrait vraiment utiliser des super pouvoirs en ce moment, Avoir super-pensée!
Dieu sait qui n'existe pas mais bon homme, une fille peut prier.
Quoi qu'il en soit Je t'aime et tu me manques, Anna"
Which is basically me whining about Math exams on monday

>>691406077
>not doing so good in any of my classes, mostly C's and D's
>can't motivate myself to do any homework or focus on class
>mother constantly calls me a failure
>start to develop depression
>start becoming addicted to video games because it's the only thing I enjoy, besides...
>doing community service with D
I didn't mention this in the last post, but D is a funny sort of guy. Him and I share a very similar sense of humor and we would make each other laugh every day. Probably had at least 20 inside jokes no one else understood.
>he and I start developing a very close friendship
>we talk about everything, every day, all the time
>we go to school together on the bus, I walk home with him every day
>our legs sometimes rest against each other on the bus, feels magical
>we even tell each other secrets others share to us
>he's the only person who makes me happy at this point
>other friends (most of which are just D's friends) pretty much ignore me or disregard my comments
>D starts to hang out with them a bit more, sits next to them at club meetings sometimes
>sometimes when he's with them, they ignore him a bit, and he seems lonely
>I knew how he felt
>fast-forward a bit
>he wants to run as treasurer for our community service club, urges me to run as secretary
>I know I'd hate it, but I do it for him
>him and I end up winning the election
>we have to go to a huge community service convention to be initiated
Cont

>>691408264
>The world is amazing if you look in the right
>places
>In every hurricane there is an area of peace

>>691397031
My wife passed away three years ago, leaving me with four kids. I'm usually just meh whatever about it because I don't want to make others uncomfortable, but I posted in a thread earlier because it was asking about being a single dad, and I figured I could let of some steam. At the very least, I hoped to possibly give some other /b/ro reassurance. So I posted and then took a break to check on my kids, and the thread was pruned when I got back. Not a major feels moment, but it bummed me out.

>>691409094
I wanna read what you have to say about being a single dad, if you don't mind sharing?

>>691400378
Why should we believe you anon

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these threads give me even the slightest bit of hope, love you /b/ros

>>691408820
>there's a dance at the convention
>I buy a pretty dress so D might find me attractive
>D looks at my breasts often, so I wear a dress with lots of cleavage
>fast-forward to dance
>he sees me, briefly looks at tits
>"You look nice anon."
>literally the most beautiful I've ever felt

>at the dance
>a slow dancing song comes on
>desperately want to ask D, too afraid of rejection
>can't do it
>still had fun

>time passes, being a secretary is kinda fun
>feel like depression is getting better because D is always making me feel great with his joking around and always encouraging me to improve


>he ended up getting asked to prom
>it was platonic though
>still insanely jealous

>trying to get over D, wanting to get over D, can't get over D
>realize I'm in love with D
>I feel like he doesn't love me back
>I finish Junior year with a 2.3 GPA and a few failed classes
>Summer break approaches, D will be gone all Summer
>we hug again as a goodbye

>>691401618
You fucking bastard.

>>691409781
thanks but I all ready have this one...

>>691410581
>myfuckinworld
Didn't expext that response

>>691410726
why was that?

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I knew a girl several years ago,
a week or so before she went on vacation I told her I loved her and she said she loved me back, then an accident happened and she died during her vacation.

I think of her all the time, it hasn't gotten easier I've just learned to live with it, from time to time i'll listen to a sad song, see a feels thread or smell a scent that reminds me of her and then I break down and cry,
whenever life gets hard I think about her and it gives me the strength too pull through, it gives me the strengths to carry on, I don't know what happens after you die but I hope she's in a better place away from all the pain and sorrow this world has, I wonder where you are.

I hold on to the hope that maybe one day I'll see here again, and we can laugh once more and hold each others hands and have the kiss we never got, then I can tell her what I did here on earth and she can tell me what happened after she died and give me a tour around heaven.
I dream about her every night and I dread waking up from a perfect dream to the haunting reality that she isn't coming back.

Abbi, I love you, I wish my voice could reach you, wherever you are...

sorry guys, I guess I just needed to vent, thanks to anyone who read it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6ljegvS94qE

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Fx19JzunsI&index=3&list=PLQZirZPMm33U1OraOOp0kTeUVd3ilgYv8

>>691407064
That picture can be inspiring too, because it translates to every aspect of life. Everything is impermanent. Every story ends. That's why it's important to take them for the reality they are, and learn what you can from it. Sometimes the story sucks, and sometimes it's great, and no matter what, there's a last page, and a different story begins.

>>691409531
It's not a bad gig, but I find myself doubting my parenting decisions because I was accustomed to my wife being here and the two of us challenging each other or backing each other up. Money isn't an issue in my case, but family time requires adhering to a strict schedule. I usually wake up at seven to get my kids clothes for the day, then wake up my younger two and feed them quickly before showering together. Then I get them dressed and wake up my older two. Cook breakfast for the three of us while they get ready for the day, then I take them wherever they need to go. My oldest is my eight year old son, then my give year old daughter, then twin boys who are three. Parenting is mostly a balance of necessities at this point, but I'm fairly sure I'll get to learn a lot about childhood drama in the upcoming years. I could probably give better insight if anyone is more specific on what they'd like to know. Otherwise it's kinda like asking me to teach you math in a single post.

anyone aqround

>>691411689
Yeah

>>691411689
Lurking, also bawling

>>691411352
damn, your kids may not see it now but you really are a hero to your kids, most people would break down under that kind of stress,

how do you balance a work life with your kids, do your parents watch them or do you have them go to a daycare?

>>691397031

Story Time

>growing up I was abused
>Dad would get drunk every night
>once every 2-3 nights
>Dad would be the shit out of me or my sister
>Tried to protect her when I could
>Mom died of cancer when I was 9
>Dad took it hard
>Hence his alcoholism
>Every morning he would swear up and down
>that he was sorry
>Yet he would get drunk again
>and he would her one of us
>One day
>I come home from school
(I tutor for an 1.5 Hours after school)
> Dad is Absolutely shtifaced
>My sister has locked herself in the bathroom
>Come home to dad pounding on the door
>I tell him to fuck off
>He shoves me
>I tell him to leave the house or I'll call the cops
> He pushes me over
>Starts beating the fuck out of me
>He's much bigger than me
>I'm a small framed person
>I finally get a slip on him and run out the door
>wasn't even thinking
>I just ran
>Nose is bleeding
>can't feel my face
>Can't even see out left eye
>I finally stop at the end of the street
>Realize my sister was still in there

its 9 am, just woke up
finally raining a bit so the air can cool down
and here i am, again, thinking about texting my ex for 3 weeks now
no idea if i should, no idea if she'd respond and i should just do it but no idea what's keeping me from doing it

>>691411689
yes
listening to music as a distraction
will sleep soon though

>>691412043
what happened anon?

>>691410488

Forgot to mention
>I write in his yearbook about how I felt like he lifted me through my depression


>summer is ending, gotta make some posters for community service club
>all 'officers' (D and I are officers) have to meet up to make the posters, going to meet at a park
>D gets to the park earlier than me
>when I get there and see him from afar, I feel my heart rate increase as I run towards him
>he does the same
>we hug for a few seconds
>I briefly think "maybe he does like me"
>but I still feel it isn't true, and that breaks me
>one month into school and I'm pretty much failing every class
>mother starts calling me a loser, says I'll have to be a whore to make it in life
>I start self-harming again
>eventually lose motivation to be club secretary
>start spending less time with D even though I still love him
>I want to tell him how I feel
>I want him to comfort me
>but I'm too scarred to
>cry myself to sleep every night because I feel like I'm goingvto grow up and be a complete loser
>lose motivation to even get out of bed or shower
>end up deciding to jump off a bridge

don't die on me

i was molested by my father when i was 12 years old. ever since, ive found myself in abusive relationships, one after the other. abusive emotionally, physically, and sexually. its gotten to the point that im convinced that i subconciously choose people who are bad for me on purpose. and now that im actually in a stable, caring, good relationship, im constantly uncomfortable.

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>>691400077
That's not why we come here. To be happy. To just be cheery. These threads are almost the only place on here that I feel real humanity coming from those around me. I'm not miserable but I can relate to a lot of the pain in these stories and pictures. And it helps a lot to know I'm not the only one who has hurt that way or at least not have it as bad as such

>>691412507
Did he stick it in ya?

>>691412355
time happened
i want to get back in touch with her, but my last text was more or less a "pls respond you still there?" type of message

>>691411974
Cont'd
>I run in through the door
>Dad is in the bathroom
>Don't even hear screaming like before
>dad is yelling
>calling her a little cunt
>things like that
>I hear a banging sound
>I go in the bathroom
>Dad is pounding her head on the floor
>Blood pooling
>I run to the phone and call the police
>hit dad with the first thing I find
>knocks him out
>sister is rushed to hospital
>Dad is arrested
>I ride in the ambulance with my sister
>She's passed out
A few hours later
>Her brain is swelled
>they say it's bleeding too
>Have nowhere to stay so I sleep on lounge chair
>that they have in her room
>days pass
>She dies

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>>691412679
hear, hear

>>691411972
I'm a pediatrician and the medical center I work for has a pretty nice daycare for children of employees. My twins usually go there and only have complaints that aren't exactly on solid ground. My older two have classes during the school year and stay with one of my siblings or my parents until I get off work. With summer here, it's a mashup between daycare, babysitting, and going to play with their friends. I'm off work today though, so I don't have any plans. My oldest is sick though, so I'll probably be at home and lurking here from time to time.

>>691412776
>I could have prevented it
>I was too much of a fucking coward
>To stop him
>Instead I ran like a fucking bitch
>because of me she is dead
>I miss her so much
>I wish things had gone differently
>I miss her cute smile
>I miss her exciting voice
>because even if every hour in that house was
>dark, she could always make the light shine
>bright.

>>691412371
>looking at a pro suicide thread on /b/
>a few anons suggest that people planning to kill themselves should travel instead
>I decide to travel instead

>I plan one final day with D and my sort-of friends at a board game store
>we all just hang out and talked, but I mostly talked to D, like always
>nothing special, just had some fun
>the next day, I took a bus to Los Angeles, which is about 1,100 miles away from my original location
>was 17 at the time, so I was a run away
>I wrote in a note I left behind "tell my friends I'm sorry" but I really meant "Tell D I'm sorry for leaving him."

>>691413206
story?

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>>691412774
if she dont answer that....then something bad happened , or she just loss the interest :/
happened to me ...and here i´m... 3 months and still want to message her but i know she not answering...

>>691413206
I forgot to mention
>At the time
>My sister was 13
>I was 16
>I am now 22

>>691413312
Just told it

>>691413386
i guess
but after almost 2 years i thought i should just outright try again

>>691413206
What happened to your scumbag dad? His ass getting rammed by nignogs? Has he tried to reach out to you since? For some reason I find it cathartic when dipshits like him get all sorry and get ignored.

>>691411020
I dunno. Just didn't

>>691413552
oh sorry, am drunk and didn't see it was a response, my bad bro.

>>691413610
I haven't heard from him or seen him since
The police told me that he was being tried for murder however, I wasn't a witness in the trial

>>691413808
is ok friend

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>>691400015
God I'm crying.

>>691397031
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pMErlY2CIs0
Thread theme song
designed to make you feel shitty

>>691413572
send a final message saying what you feel, if she responds well , try to be friends, if not... just get over ot... it's easy to say and hard to do i know...but keep going :L

>>691414540
nah that would be more than overkill
i want to reinitiate contact thats all for now

>>691413229
>I write down three phone numbers, just in case I decide to return.
>mom
>dad
>D

>fast-forward to now
>I'm 18
>traveling to LA turned out to be a semi-good decision, even though I'm pretty much living in a shithole
>everyday I think of D
>I have multiple dreams of him and I just cuddling
>try having sex with some guy to get D out of my head
>it doesn't work
>feel like I hurt D by leaving him
>worry that he feels alone
>can't stop wondering about him
>too scarred to contact him

And this is where I'm currently at /b/. I don't feel like I described our relationship very well. We were very strongly bonded friends. I have his number and I really want to reconnect with him but I just don't know what to say.

>>691412507
My father-in-law was molested as a young boy. Great dude, love him to death but he has serious anger issues and it often derails relationships or leads him to say shit to his loved ones he regrets later. Do what you can to get identify the problems you have and get help for them. They will not go away on their own and you could be allowing them to destroy you without realizing the extent of the damage

>>691414653
good luck anon

>>691414677
Better hurry before he moves on

>>691400077
>Move on.
Move onto what? What is there to move on/towards?

>>691404720
seems like just yesterday 2015 ended

>>691412507
I know how you feel. I posted my story a bit earlier, but I think posters skipped over it because it's longish. The closest thing I had to a girlfriend was a close friend who I always spent time with. I always felt a need to please people I didn't like, rather than those close to me.

>>691415317
>>691404720
really hard to believe that a year ago i was texting daily with a girl
met up with her and for the first time in my life went to a another city on my own to visit a girl

>>691415092
I'd be happy if he moved on. I want him to be happy.

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I saw this video about this guy who tried to kill himself as a teen but ultimately decided he had enough hope left for one more day. I've spent a lot of time considering the world without me or even the process and although never attempted it, the hope for tomorrow did feel so familiar to think about. If that's where you're at right now and it sounds familiar to you too, I beg of you to use that hope to make it out of the pit you're in. It will not be easy but it is NOT hopeless

>Be me, 14
>Always wanted a dog
>Family is pretty broke so we could never afford one
>Finally convince my mom that it would help me with sadness and anxiety
>"Ok but you have to take care of it"
>Agree with no hesitation
>Her friend has a new litter of dogs that she is giving away
>Mom decides to scoop one up
>Eagerly awaiting new dog, it was a wiener dog poodle mix
>Mom finally comes home
>Dog is pretty ugly, slightly disappointed
>She is shy and scared at first, meeting new family
>Name her Lulu
>First night I am in bed trying to sleep
>Dog walks into my room and jumps on my bed
>Try to urge her to sleep in the bed we bought her
>She refuses to move, eventually just let her sleep in my bed
>Every night I try to lay her down in her bed but she always ends up coming in my room
>Eventually just give up and accept that my bed is her bed too
>I'm the one who gives her walks, feeds her, plays with her mostly
>She sees me as her dominate owner
>She gets most excited when I come home from school
>I eventually fall in love with this dog
>She senses when I am happy, sad, angry, depressed, etc.
>Didn't have any friends, so Lulu was by far my best friend
>I would tell her about my days, tell her when I had good news and days where I wasn't feeling great
>Even though she was a dog, Lulu was a better shoulder to lean on than anyone has been to me
>Be 17
>Been chasing this girl at school for about a year
>We end up dating for a little bit
>She ends up cheating on me after a few months (would go in depth but that is a story for another feels thread)
>Kept my feelings bottled for a few days, don't have any close friends to talk to
>Come home from school one day
>No one is home
>Go into my room
>Eventually start crying
>First it was about being cheated on, then everything shitty in my life starts to hit me at once
>Father left before I even turned one, no friends at school.

1/2

>>691400015
i never asked for these feels

>>691404144
That's pretty heavy, bro. What do you do to relieve stress? Lift, study, smoke?

>>691397031
>"You can't hold onto yourself. You don't have to try not to hold onto yourself, it can't be done, and that is salvation."
This inspires me more than any person could know. The knowledge, the finality of death is so potent and desireable.
There is no meaning of life, we inject our own meaning into life.

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the feel in this pic is pretty strong for me, but i dont know how strong it will be for people who arent losers

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>>691416264
another one that fits that description

why do people go back to their exes when they outright now theyre not giving theim what they want?

there's this girl i had something with, she went back to her ex yet didn't stop telling me what feelings i made her feel, how much she misses the sex with us and that she is once again disappointed about her sex life with the guy

>>691415681
>Hardest I've probably ever cried
>Lulu hears me in my room
>She come in and jumps on my bed and starts licking my arm
>Realize that she has been the closest companion I've ever had
>Hug her and sobbing right into her
>Eventually cry myself to sleep, she lays right next to me the whole time
>Be 20
>Moved out of house, got my own place
>Took Lulu with me since I couldn't stand to live alone without her, and since I took care of her most
>Meet new girlfriend
>Every time I bring her over Lulu barks like crazy at her when she first comes in
>Every time she tries to hug me to touch me Lulu barks
>She never does this with anyone else
>find out girlfriend has been cheating on me with some frat douche for a whole month
>Fucked him 3/4 times a night when I wasn't with her
>Devastated, actually loved this girl (again, story for a different time)
>Laying in bed, Lulu right next to me
>realize Lulu sensed this girl was a cheating bitch the entire time and I never saw it
>Lulu was looking out for my best interests
>Like she always has
>Lulu truly is my best friend
>a year later, currently laying down on my bed with my laptop typing this, with Lulu right next to me
>She has never left my side

Thank you for everything, Lulu. You are not only the greatest dog, but the greatest friend an anon can ask for.

>>691415925
Like I said in my earlier post, I volunteer with abused kids to help take the edge off. I remember feeling like no one who was helping me knew what the abuse was like, so I like to think I can prevent other abused kids from knowing that feeling.

I just wish someone would truly love me

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>>691416458
I was worried this story would end with a dead doggo, instead everything turned out pretty good.

>>691416779
probably ,we all thougt that...

>>691416458
I have the same attachment to my dog, anon. Dogs don't care if you are ugly, make mistakes, what your popularity is at school, how many friends you have, how much money you make. To them you are perfect and are always happy to see you.

>>691400219
Horry shet. Tried to be edgy, but lost the challenge in first 3 minutes. Thx anon

>Be me age 17
>Confronted by local violent teens.
>Apperently a girl said I raped her.
>I don't know who she is, and never met her before.
>I was kicked in the nuts, that 3 years later still hurts.

How can I trust women, How can I know that I can save myself from a lynch I didn't know occured.

Or how can I trust anyone for that matter?

I found out that the girl that I love has a new boyfriend she knows that I love her so fucking weekend

>>691417723
Women get turned down when they find that a man is in love with 'em.

>>691418302
*turned off

>>691418302
if women it turned off. What value then does the love yet ??

>>691398070
Right in the feel, fug it's literally about me and my gf

>>691419606
I meant before you're in a relationship.
Wait until you fuck.

>Be me, 19
>Never had girlfriend, virgin, only had one kiss in my life up until this point
>Friend goes to a local university
>Drive up to see him one night
>As I'm coming home I stop at local starbucks
>Waiting for my drink
>guy calls out my coffee
>go to grab it, a girl comes up to take it
>Apparently she ordered the exact same thing
>We share a laugh about it and start conversing
>She goes to the same university as friend
>We take a table and start hitting it off
>She is super friendly, pretty cute, has a great smile
>We end up staying there till store closes
>As we are leaving we exchange numbers, she wants to hang out some more
>few weeks go by, we end up dating
>After dating for a month we make it official
>Girl is everything I needed in my life
>Don't lonely any more
>We call each other almost everyday, talk about our days, tell each other how much we miss each other even though we see each other at least 3 times a week
>Lose virginity to girl
>As months go by I fall in love with her
>Life seems to be going so well
>We are together for almost 2 years, I am 21 and she is 20
>She always tells me how she has had a dream of getting married young
>Her parents got married in college and she has always admired that
>start to think about it
>I don't see myself dating anyone else, and I am madly in love with her and am not getting any younger
>decide that I actually want to marry her
>I want to propose to her on our 2 year anniversary
>I take out all the money from my savings, pick up as many extra shifts as I can from work to buy her a ring
>She has showed me wedding rings that she really likes before, so I have an idea of what she wants
>Actually get her a pretty good ring, $1300 dollars
>Never made a purchase that big before, other than paying rent
>Our two year anniversary is coming up in just 2 weeks, I already have a plan on how I am going to propose

cont.

>>691400378
Where you from, /b/ro?

>>691420313
Continue pls

I miss my fucking ex so much. Just motorcycled home from a party and I'm drunk as shit. The rising sun reminds me of when I used to bike home after having an amazing night with her. I don't want to say I love her but I miss her so much