-Feels thread-
I am not the kinda person who cries about spoiled milk.
>yesterday I learned 6 hours straight for my math exam.
>in the end I failed miserably, I even cried.
>already live with the thought of fail school.
>depressed.
>>690047957
>I learned 6 hours straight
so you flunked English as well I take it?
>>690048178
Thanks for the cheering words bro, I appreciate that
>>690048264
that idiot!
its a yellow dress
>>690048282
happy to help
>>690047957
i had this problem in highschool. factofothematter is not every is academically talented but you're told that higher test scores = higher intelligence.
in reality, academics is just sport. curiosity and reason are what makes you an intelligent person.
just keep doing what you do op. you're fine.
>>690048410
This is making me feel feels I didnt know I could feel
>>690048264
What a fucking bro
>>690048614
>academics is just sport
A rigged sport now too. Corrupt from the first grade all the way to graduation from university.
Thanks guys for the cheering words :)
>>690048410
i dont remember when i felt this sad
>>690047957
Look at the positives, my friend:
>It's only a math exam
>You did actually try and put in correct effort
>School is only the beginning
>>690047957
You did good. In the "real" world nobody cares too much about grades and scores, but your willingness to learn and improve. Clearly, given the right motivation you're more than capable of doing that. So, keep it up and well done
>>690049258
>you did actually try and put in correct effort
another flunking English student
>>690049572
This.
I score very high-even for my district-but it means nothing because I seldom put the effort in to even complete such tests. I wish I had your drive, anon.>>690047957
>>690047957
dont worry OP if all else fails learning how to fix old cars/trucks is fairly simple and you can make good money out of it, thats what i plan to do with my life
>>690050213
Try to get through it. Especially since you know it doesn't mean a whole lot. It's a piece of paper to "prove" you're "worthy". Finish it, forget it and move on with your life. Find some kind of a work you truly enjoy and learn on the way. One piece of paper doesn't stop you nor will it necessary help you, but unfortunately this how our world works. Play along. I'm sure it will work out. At the very least, decently
>>690050176
>>690048841
Something you'll never be/have
>>690050969
>>690052075
cried alot. ive read this a good dozen times in the past but the more i develop as a man the harder it seems to hit me. especially because my girlfriend looks alot like her except with eyes green as grass
>Religious family
>Am only decent/non-asshole person in family
>Grandma's hopes and dreams about carrying on being religious on me
>Balding
>Asshole brother smarter than me
>Buys 25K Chrysler with dad's money
>Dad wants me to get a car but I know he'll use his savings
>Don't cause I'm not a shit son
>Weigh 155, 5'11"
>Binge eat once a day, barely eat other time do to anxiety
>Anxiety, I was literally confused last week when I had nothing to worry about
>18
>Decide to develop personality last year of school
>No gf
>Like girl, 6.5/10 if you asked people
>I like her face for no apparent reason
>Don't even try, year's over and know it will never happen. She's religious in another way too
>Failed Physics final today
>Finally hit lowest of my lows till now and be sad about my life for once
>End up on 4chan at 3:30am Pacific
>>690052974
Stay tough anon, I am with you.
>>690052974
you live in cali?
>>690053190
British Columbia, Canada
>>690052974
I feel for you man
>trying to sleep all night
>insomnia, cant get to sleep, weed and fapping dont help
>up all night til 6am
>remember got a voicemail from a job yesterday and never listened
>listen to voicemail, they want me to call them back, now i have to stay up til like 930
>all of a sudden tired af, fighting to keep my eyes open, 4chan cant even hold my attention
>>690052974
Don't fret about small problems. To you, they're not so, but I'll ask you something impossible. That is, trust me. You'll get over it in time and move on with your life. There's a high chance you'll become very successful since clearly, you're concerned with the mistakes you've made. Nothing more to ask from you at the moment. Keep going
>>690053420
Go to sleep. Good way to deal with insomnia is to do or think about something challenging. Also, forget the clock if possible. It only makes falling asleep harder due to anxiety and everything else related to it. Stay strong
>Almost a wizard
>No job/savings/assets
>Depression since childhood
What do?
>>690053168
You have no idea, the school I go to is full of pussies that whine and bitch about everything. I've never actually shared this entire post's worth of content with anyone and maintain a reputation of being the guy that isn't bothered by anything. Really they've just never had any hard decision in their lives or unfortunate circumstances.
>Be me
>My dad passed away 2 days ago
>He lives in another state, hadn't seen or talked to him in 4 and a half years
>Parents divorced when I was 2, seen my dad about 5 times in my life
>I could have fucking called him at ANY time, I chose not to
>Get news
All he ever did was care about my sister and I. He didn't really succeed in life but he had so many qualities that tons of kids/people wish their dads had.
He loved me so much and I was his only son, I'm 18 and have fucking done nothing in life. Nothing. I'm miserable, no friends around, handholdless virgin, no job, no license, dropped out of school.
My mom and my sister hardly even give a shit. The day after he died my sister went to a fucking concert with her friends and got high, my mom is acting like nothing happened.
I don't know what to do now, obviously I broke down when I heard that he died but it still hasn't hit me yet.
I'm being torn up and at least won't be able to hardly function until I go to his funeral and "make amends".
Sorry if this is hard to read, I don't write stories often.
>>690050176
Jesus, that's some facebook aunt tier dogfuckery there anon.
Summer is truly here.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oBHTvk0kEOk
Thread theme, please cry with me /b/ros
>>690053832
Of course, but you've already realized this. Some people need to make hard decisions and some don't. Unfortunately this is "fair", but at the same time teaches you way more than they'll ever learn until they face similar difficulties (maybe never). Try to find the positive side of it and understand you're, in a sense, ahead of them
>>690053346
shit dog me too, i live in the okanagan.
>>690053965
Get a job, any job to start. I promise you, you'll at least have people to talk and feel like you have a purpose
>>690054288
Be prepared for the entire metro vancouver region to try to move there once they cash out of west hong kong
>>690053965
Alright, I can tell you few things, albeit not enough to satisfy your needs, but anyways.
First of all, grief hits you when you last expect it. Sudden outbursts and such. For many, it's shock at first and can take months to "hit in". Don't be afraid. It's perfectly normal. Whatever you feel - anger, sadness, etc - try to find some ways to express it. It's alright and hurts a hell of a lot (I've been there). It's all good, but try to remain relatively rational how to manage your feelings. It is hard, I'm not going to lie and you're quite young. It's a lot for you to deal with. There are people who can help you, this is one way and nothing to be ashamed of.
It's a huge loss, difficult to manage, but don't bury your feelings.Talk with family or anybody. It may seem trivial, but as they say, a shared problem is half the problem. Talk and be honest about your feelings. I truly wish you the best and am very sorry about your loss
My thoughts, heart and mind are with you. It's never easy to forget somebody who has to go through difficulties like this
Please, try to stay strong
>>690054760
Those are some of the kindest words someone has said to me. Thank you very much. That does make me feel better.
Tomorrow (today) I'm gonna try to re-connect with a lot of my old friends. I guess that is a step in the right direction in any circumstance.
All I really wanna do is talk to people. That's all I ever really want to do, so I will do that.
Again, thank you very much anon.
Well thanks for the thread, goodnight anons.
>>690055071
I'm glad my words carry any weight. Anyways, being honest with friends is the best way to determine if they're true friends or not. If they try to distance themselves from difficult discussions and have little or no explanation why, well, it says a lot about them. I'm certain there's somebody in your circle of friends or family who listen you with the utmost of humbleness and perhaps even provide you with perspectives you haven't yet discovered
In any case, I wish you the best and keep going. Life is hard, but there are a lot of people who think about you even if it doesn't seem obvious. I don't know you, but I very much wish you the best. Please keep going. There's much more strength in you than you realize (this is normal, takes time to find it). You're great as you are. Being true to yourself is the greatest "truth" (personal). Find it
Good luck!
This happened to me 3 years ago
>Be me, an edgy 16 year old
>Play Xbox because I haven't discovered PC yet, not really.
>decide to play minecraft, because, what else will I do
>I had a few games, Black Ops 2 and Minecraft were by far my favourite
>I made many friends, deleted many friends, that's just how it works.
>I made one friend, edgy 16 year old like me at the time, he changed his gamertag, but he was known as "T-Reks"
>Well, anyway T-Reks and I became friends, pretty good friends and we decided to play some minecraft
>damngood.jpg
Well, anyway, I made a world, on survival mode, peaceful, because I was a noob, T-Reks asked to join ,I said sure, why not.
>We played for a week straight until this new kid started joining the server
>Kids name was Adam1922 I'll just refer to him as Adam
> Well, We played on the world every day for at least an hour and Adam would join every other day or so and just work in his corner of the map
I ask T-Reks who he is, T-Reks tells me he's some kid that just added him one day
>whatever.gif
>Adam started playing every day, this is a month in
>Adam for the first time ever, plugged in his mic
>He sounded like he had autism, not making a joke.
>We would talk to Adam every day and ask him questions
>Adam decided to tell us he liked this one girl at his school, we talked him into giving us her kik
>T-Reks sent her dick pics pretending to be Adam
>Adam gets on the next day
>He doesnt sound like he normally does, I ask him what's wrong
>Crying.jpg
>Adam got his ass kicked by the girls boyfriend at school
>T-Reks laughs and starts calling Adam names like "faggot, retard, autismo"
>Adam just laughed along with him
>A week passed and T-Reks and I would make fun of Adam every day, Adam rolled with the punches
>One day, we went over to see what Adam was building while he wasn't on
>Adam had built a house, inside was a empty, but outback behind his actually nice house, there was a "grave" with a sign attached, it said "I love you dad"
cont.
>>690059772
cont.
>T-Reks and I destroy the house and save the game
>Adam gets on the after we do it and plays for a bit, until we here him say he’s going back to his house
>We hear Adam yell "Why did you guys destroy my house!!? I didn't do anything to you!"
>T-Reks started calling him a faggot and saying "well, if you love your daddy so much, why don’t you get him to build you a new one?" then I laughed with him at Adam
>Crying.jpg
>we call Adam a crybaby faggot, telling him that we hope he drinks bleach.
>Adam cries some more, then we decided to find his character and kill him over and over again
>Adam starts talking to us
>"Why would you do this to me? I thought we were friends?"
>We were never your fucking friends Adam, get the fuck over it you fucking pussy fuck you, you autistic faggot
> Adam says more
> "This is why I don't play with people, this is why I told my mom I didn’t want to get minecraft or any games. I came on here and thought you two were my friends, my only friends. I don’t have friends in real life, no one likes me, no one wants me around. All they do is call me autistic and retarded and useless, no girls at my school like me, they think I'm a freak, no one likes me, no one even gives me a chance"
>"This was all I had, ever since my dad died, I came on here to get away from everything, my dad died, then my mom had to get another job, so I couldn’t see her anymore, then I finally tricked a girl into being my friend. Her boyfriend beat me up and I had to go to the hospital, my mom had to take out a loan to pay for my broken ribs. I waited at home every day for you to get on so I could play with you, my only two friends in my life, why does nobody like me. Why don’t you like me. Why..."
>Adam cried fro 5 more minutes while T-Reks laughed at him.
>Adam went offline
>Checked Adam's friend list
cont.
>>690059850
>It was just me and T-Reks
>Adam would always say thank you for letting him play with us before he logged off
>Adam never said anything rude back to us
I found out a week later through Adam's facebook page, which was easy to find because his name was on his bio, that he had killed himself and wrote a letter.
>in short "I can't stand this world anymore, I can't be a burden to anyone anymore and I can't do anything right. I can't live without my dad anymore, and I can't live off of my mom anymore, I just want it to end"
>I couldn't cry, I couldn't do anything but stare
>I deleted T-Reks as a friend and got rid of the rest of my Xbox friends. The last thing I did on Minecraft was rebuild Adam's house and fixed his "grave" with the addition of a new one beside it... his.
I know it’s just a game, but the sign says "R.I.P Adam: You were a true friend. I love you", I put the world onto a USB which is inside a wooden box on my dresser as of today, the world is in a file titled "Adam", i sold my xbox with Adam as the only friend on my account. I'm sorry Adam, I'm so so sorry.
My mom passed away a few years back. I have never been the same ever since. The past seven years I have dealt with severe depression and suicidal tendencies. I am unable to love others without fear of losing them which ultimately leads to them leaving me.
I miss my mom seeing as she was the only person who understood me and took care of me because my dad wasn't there.
I have her cap hung on my wall. I never allow anyone to wear it, let alone touch it.
This song makes me think of all the times she helped cheer me up when I was down and all the times she walked in on me attempting suicide.
I wish I had been a better son.
I wish I wasn't out and getting arrested.
Most importantly I wish I told her that I loved her more.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y3F3AcnGFWw
>>690060503
Implying I wouldn't throw my car in the middle of the street if it was a matter of experiencing the last moments of my fathers life.
>>690048264
I actually live over the road from that cemetery, but didn't know that happened there
>>690047957
Only 6 hours?
One day before the exam?
Are you really that retarded?
Some kids in germany learn half a year for their final exam
You have never been to college, do you?
>>690060869
You can't change anything of the past.
But you can move on, show her that if she had lived longer, she would have experienced you being the best you possible.
Wouldn't her last wish be that you found purpose and happiness?
Don't worry about people loving you or not, you have to love yourself first, this goes for everyone at any time. Find purpose, keep yourself busy with meaningful stuff, do it slowly, one thing at a time, one day at a time, and you will find a brighter existence.
>>690061558
I know. I live in the past a lot but I'd kill to be with my mom once more.
I just wish I got to say goodbye.
>>690061737
Yeah.
I don't know you mother, nor do I know anything about you, but given the choice, don't you think she would trade all the moments in the world that would allow you to say goodbye to each other, for you to have meaningful life?
You didn't say goodbye to each other, so don't pretend she is done influencing your life, you have to keep fighting and keep remembering what she taught you.
>>690061737
Living your life to the fullest is the best your mother could ask for. If you have faith, you'll meet her eventually. Don't throw your life away. Do what you must do, live your life and know you'll see her. This must give you some strength
After all, you're still here. Well done! Please, keep going. I'm sure your mother will be proud
I apologize for talking for her. It's indecent, but hopefully you'll forgive me
> Be me 23
> skinny dude
> start waking up breathless every day
> always tired
> been going on for a while
> fast forward today
> Decide to fap
> legs jelly
> arms spaghetti
> breathless
> exhausted
> the penny drops
> mfw I realise I am this unfit
So how was your day /b/.
>>690062903
Sounds almost like diabetus, aids, or some other kind of affliction.
>>690062903
And don't pretend you don't know what you have to do to get fit.
>>690048264
>that beak
jesus christ
how fucking jewish are the anglos these days
>>690047957
>>yesterday I learned 6 hours straight for my math exam.
No wonder. I'm from germany as well (I suppose >>690061456 as well?) and we prepare atleast few months before a math exam. 6 hours are not cutting it. Learning math is more like a marathon than a sprint.
Math takes effort, practise problems and you need to see the pattern and apply the necessary technique to a specific problem. This expertise is just gained from practise, practise and repetetion.
repetition*
>>690063176
Oh I know. I dug this hole, I shouldn't expect to not have to work to get out.
>>690062903
Well, my day has been as good as it can be (no further details, sorry). Thank you for asking
How about you? How has your day been? Are you physically healthy?
ok, please bear with me this is difficult
>be me
>got fired a couple months ago
>having a hard time finding a new job due to social anxiety
>start collecting neetbux and browsing all day
>start smoking alot
>sitting on the toilet taking a shit
>look down
>theres no fucking toilet paper
>i mean, not a single square
>so im weight all the different options in my mind, do i do the ole crabwalk or try using something in the bathroom?
>im very frustrated at this point, literally shaking
>i start begging allah for help, but i guess he wasn't listening
>just when im at the end of my rope i remember i have another roll under the sink
>i open it (small appartment broom) and what do i see?
>sitting right there in the cabinet was my cat who i hadn't been able to find for 30 minutes before that
>how the heck did she get in there without me opening the door?
>then i rememebered that i already took out shit-tickets and put them on the back of the toilet
>all that frustration and they were right behind me
Thanks for listening /b/ i really needed to get that off my chest, don't know what i would do without you guys i loveyou
>>690047957
so much faggotry in here grow up keklord
if you would just learn and workout, wash yourself and wear decent clothings 90% of you would not be such sperglords
>>690063926
Average on both counts. I could stand to go for a proper checkup, has been a while.
My dad is dead. And my dog is dead. But somehow, I miss my dog much more than my dad.
What the fuck is wrong with me??
>>690064256
It's always a good idea to rule out most physical health issues. It gives you a better idea what's causing whatever issues you may have (due to stress, etc). These are relatively treatable. If you do struggle, look for professional help. I can guarantee they can help you and relive some of the burden you're carrying. As I've said, there's no point suffering needlessly. Some people are more anxious than others when, to be honest, it isn't necessary.
Let's make it clear. Few medications won't change your "personality". You'll be you as you've always been, but not suffering about things others take naturally.
I do advocate professional help, but it's up to you. I'm only sharing my opinions
>>690064404
you are obviously gay and won't admit it
>>690059896
the feel nigga
>>690061456
>>690063684
Als Student an der Universität zu Köln... i approve this.
>>690064404
Nothing. I cannot tell for sure, but animals generally won't carry anything against you, whereas people do. As long as you've taken care for your dog it's perfectly normal to feel more attachment to him or her than your father who may or may haven not judged you one way or another.
Don't feel bad about it. Simply, remember them both. Put electronic candles and light them every day as a remembrance. I don't want to be harsh, but they're gone. All you can do is respect them both as much as possible
Talking to them (as silly as it may seem) is okay. Try to be open. Neither of them is no longer there to judge you.
Find good memories and talk about it. Whether it be silently in your mind or out loud. It doesn't matter. Simply talk. Share you problems and grief you would when one or the other would be alive
I'm sorry for speculation your relationship with your dog or father. One way or another there's absolutely nothing wrong with how you feel
>>690064879
Nah, you're not wrong. It's a fairly reasonable next step, all things considered. Just need to go do it, and stop thinking about it instead.
>>690064132
Why the fuck do you have a picture of Heidelberg in there
>>690065998
Indeed, but don't feel bad about in any way. Under anxiety or depression it's incredibly difficult to take the "first step". As long as you want to do it, it's all good. Try to hold on to that feeling and hopefully one day you'll do it
It's hard, I know, but your greatest source of energy is suffering. It's difficult, but once you can say "fu*k it". things will move along. I don't recommend to let this go this far. If possible, seek help sooner rather than later. It's incredibly painful (mentally) to pull yourself together once you're in the hole. I hope this provides some kind of an encouragement
Stay strong and find strength in the least unlikely places. Turn suffering around and use it as a source of energy rather than spending it on things what will lead you nowhere (i.e. self-pity, etc)
>be me
>getting ready for prom, have date
>also be really into cars, like fucking autistically obsessed
>worry about not being able to dance right
>take her out to lunch a couple times
>one day she doesn't want to go out to lunch with me
>I ask her the next week if she wants to go to lunch
>"no, anon, I have to babysit my friends"
>ok
>does the same shit next week
>one day I lose my shit
>tweet indirectly that I would rather work on cars than go to prom but since I already bought tickets fuck it
>it all falls apart
>cars destroyed me
>be now
>graduated a week ago
>own 5 cars
>still virgin
>its kind of a good sadness
I keep having nightmares about my ex. Its killed my sex drive. I dont even want to sleep with the girl im dating now. Feels bad.
Don't die on me, thread. Not now.
>>690068173
Is the author of this known?
>>690068545
I don't know actually. I just found it in another feels thread a while ago.
>>690067283
Don't be sad. Fuck that bitch do what makes you happy. When I went to my prom it was one of the worst days.
>>690067283
Yeah prom definitely isn't worth it. My date decided to ditch me with her stupid friend and never even let me dance with her or anything. Then she decided to fall for my friend too. $400 down the drain and the only girl I ever had strong feelings for broke my heart. Don't really look for relatonships anymore and honestly I hate seeing people all lovey dovey.
>>690069002
My experience was similar only difference is that I didn't ask the girl I like to be my date. But when I asked her to dance she said her feet were hurting few minutes later she was dancing again.
>>690069957
That really sucks.That's why I hate being in highschool. I'm 16 and all of the people I know only care about themselves. They never take other people's feelings into account. Can't wait to get out of my shitty highschool and never see most of my "friends" again. Only got one more year left and took my senior pics today
>>690059896
That's... That's actually really depressing...
>>690048520
I also learned for my math exam. Because my shitty teacher did not teach me the stuff. Therefore i learned it myself
>>690070377
Nice don't worry too much about it focus on the people that focus on you. I just graduated high school people that I think were my friends were just fake friends
>>690071153
>blames it on the teacher
I feel like I should just be like this with the girls I like because most of the time I will get rejected
Am I the only one here
>>690072445
There are plenty of fish in the sea,
but there are none for me.
Select all the images with french fries.
>>690072765
No, you're not, but it's incredibly difficult to accept this within the cultural framework.It's most likely true in the larger picture, but within the framework nobody cares. If you want to succeed, put up a good face
>>690073236
Are you me. I feel like their is no one for me
>>690050969
>>690051490
Just had to call animal control for a stray dog that's been at our house for a few days. He was injured, possibly hit by car. Wasn't getting better. Very sweet dog, I haven't cried in three years but god damn if this hasn't made me do it.
>no goals
>not sure how to greentext
>>690073936
You are doing it
>>690047957
Talk to your instructor and tell them that you know you failed, and you hate that you did, and that you want to do better, what can i do better?
You aren't the first student who has failed one of their exams, and the fact that you are talking to them and asking their advice ... that shows you care. They will now know that -you- care, and for a teacher, that is a huge plus in their eyes.
Talk to them. Tell them. I don't want to fail; I want to do better. And then you try as hard as you can not to let them down, or let yourself down. Be honest in your effort.
This will work!
>>690073624
Pic related, it's the dog.
