Sometimes I forget how words mean anything, like down to how my brain processes them and attaches them to emotions. I feel like until I figure that out I'm just operating blindly.

Kill yourself

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>>689683662
Is that going to make me cry?

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>>689683930

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>>689684127

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>>689684255

>>689683777
Nice get. How did you feel when you got it?

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>>689683930

>>689683930
shit dawg

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>>689684326

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>>689684535

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>>689684127
wow, being a car guy this really made me tear up...

>>689684410
I don't know. I've been on 4chan for a while, I think since 2007, and I never understood the gets, and I don't quite care.

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This one left me crying 2 days straight. Yeah I'm a fucking pussy, I know.

Anyone got an update on the tf2 middle eastern kid? Is he dead??

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>>689684639

Heard this on the radio while I was driving. I almost pulled over to cry when the kids were talking about their dad's suicide.

http://www.thisamericanlife.org/radio-archives/episode/557/birds-bees?act=3#play

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>>689684811

>>689684535
Fuck I'm crying. My mom died almost four years ago (I was 15) and I miss her so much.

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>>689684942

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>>689683930
if you don't give every bum you see a stern look of disgust, then you deserve whatever those filthy tramps do to you.

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>>689685089

>>689684760
I know who you're talking about. I think the end of the story was that the kid died and his mother was on his steam for a little bit and thanked the anon who played with him. I could be wrong though, it's been a while.

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>>689685163

>>689684942
FFFFFFUCKING DIRTBAG

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>>689685276

>>689684760
>Anyone got an update
>>689685209
>I know who you're talking about
FUCKING RETARDED

>>689685209
Not the ending I wanted, very unfortunate.. War is an ugly thing

>>689685424
this has to be bait

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>>689685335

>>689683233
i will never feels
ive lived through the worst pain
my brother has survived many many deaths and surgeries
my parents are old as fuck and unhealthy but will live forever.
never lost a friend
its all going to hit at once i know it
KEEP POSTING

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>>689685537

>>689685467
Why would it be bait? That story was probably one of the saddest things I've read
>last on 665 days ago

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>>689685623

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>>689683233
dubs receive feels dump

Here we go boys

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>>689685773

>>689685623
Close- talking about the middle eastern playing tf2 who always yelled "I got your back comrade I will defend this position comrade"
War in the Middle East started and he told the dude that "war is starting might not have power and Internet for awhile,etc etc"ends with the dude saying last on 665 days ago

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>>689685888
oh shit trips ayy

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>>689685944
see>>689685690

>>689685895

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>>689685690
GODFUCKINGDAMNIT

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I just can't seem to shake the feeling that no matter where I go, people dislike me and treat me like a third wheel. All my friends are total douche bags who use me as their personal punching bag, making fun of my social ineptitude and in general being un-supportive pricks. Whenever I'm in a group of up to 4 or more people I always find a way of disappearing into the ether. In these situations I am ignored and whenever I finally say something it's responded dismissively with a shallow one sentence reply. It's to the point where I feel like a human-like android sent to Earth by an alien species to gather data about the native population before making contact.

I don't understand what I'm doing wrong here, I'm neither an aspie nor an autist, I'm not bad looking. I just want to know what is it about me that causes people to be repulsed by my mere presence.

Pic related is how I feel every day.

guess i'm gonna tell my history

>be me, 16
>totally a 6/10, quite fat but pretty funny
>English school meet a girl
>14,blonde, not tall,seems to have a lot of money
>she came and sits right next to me
>panic,hands are sweating,
>palms are sweaty
>After 20 minutes she talks to me
>she says "Hey, you know how to make exercise 2?
> say "sure, let me help you"
>she thanks me and say if we can change phone numbers
>First fucking time some pretty girl tell me this
>we do it
>Later that night se sends me a message
>Start to talk all the night
>She is so nice
>So funny
>so.. me

>started dating out
>she was everything i needed, and everything i was looking for
>9 months of relation
>people could'nt believe how a pretty blond girl 9/10 was dating a boy like me
> everytime i went to her house to go out, i buyed her a Milka chocolate, her favourite
> we lost our virginity each other, lifeisgood.png
>one day we where laying on the couch
>her dad comes in
>not a bad guy, she asks her if they could talk together
>she looks at me and say
>Hum anon, can you leave? i have to speak to my dad.
>Ok, not a problem
>2 hours later she calls me
>"Anon there's something i need to tell you"
>fuck
>"I'm moving.."
>Please no.

>>689686736

>Mad at her, her family, every single one of them
>she was leaving in 3 days
>Didnt talk to her on those days
>The day has come
>she already left the city
>Got a new message
>"Anon, i'm so sorry you're angry at me, as soon i got there i'll call you on skype"
>"I love you, please dont be mad at me"

>But she never got to get there
>Car accident
>All dead
>mfw i could have spent those 3 days with her
>mfw i'm still waiting for her skype call

I love you Delfina.

>>689686652
The fact that you chose wrong friends could be a start

>>689685944
Oh, crap. Totally different person from who I was thinking of, sorry.

>>689686851
I no longer have any contact with them. I have no friends now. Needless to say, loneliness starts to lose it's novelty after about two solid weeks of staring at the walls of a studio apartment.

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>>689686569

>>689686822
Fuck, man.

>>689683233
Is it just a coincidence that chicks with bigger boobs have bigger tits? It's like, they're so big, how can you compete?

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>>689687392

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>>689687630

The only "feels" things that kind of gets to me is, back in 2014 I was working in Alaska for a fishing company, I met an Asian cat named lalee, he was cool as shit funny, and pretty full of life. We got to know one another; and after a little time I knew he was seriously depressed,this dude had mad mental issues. I tried spending time with him and being a good friend to help him out of his rut, things seemed pretty good for awhile, he wasn't drinking as much and wasn't being off to himself as much. The day when he had to leave he said "yo it was nice knowing you, thanks for the help, I'll hit you up when I land back in Cali"bye clearly looked like he didn't want to leave.
"Aight bro see you on the other side"
I got no text.
6 days after he got back he killed himself, stabbed himself in the head apparently.
The story sucks but the fact that the last thing I told this dude was "see you on the other side" really got to me, the fact that I never said bye to a good person, the fact that knowing he was depressed as shit and I told him the most grim farewell, like I knew I wasn't ever going to see him again.. I still text his phone to this day sometimes.. Rest easy lalee

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>>689687770

>>689683777
checked

>>689687171
Do you want to do something?
Do you have some money?
There's nothing to lose anon.

>>689687171
Honestly, I've went through the same shit, it's tough, but the only way I got outta that situation was to start hitting up random people I went to school with- good people overall and starting making a new group overall, I can say it is much better, as for a purpose in life- I can't help because I don't even know my purpose

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>>689684994
this one gets me every time man, i just can't deal with people being born with shit like that, and the reality of how right the guy who wrote that is about how his life is gonna be
can't handle it dude.

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>>689683233
Be the change you want to see in the world.

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>>689687999
>them juicy repeating integers

>>689688459
Jesus FUCKINF Christ dude

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>>689688459

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>>689688640

I often read stories where kids are ungrateful and then their parents die in an accident. And it's horrible. But you know what's worse? Watching them die slowly.
Being upset all summer because mom doesn't feel good and can't go camping like before.
Being annoyed by her trips to the doctor.
Being angry when after two years of doctors saying she's just too fat she finally finds one who tells her what's wrong with her.
Being devastated when the answer is cancer.
Being terrified when your single mother loses her job because she can't work on chemo.
Being freaked out by watching your mother's hair fall out.
Being happy when she's done with round one of chemo and starts radiation.
Being grossed out when she has to get a colostomy bag due to complications.
Being shocked when the chemo and radiation did nothing for the cancer.
Being heartbroken seeing your mother in excruciating pain all the time.
Being hopeful that an experimental chemo can help her.
Being a good son; changing the colostomy bag for her, driving her around, pushing her in a wheelchair, massaging her legs to help water that's pooling in them for years.
Being shocked that the experimental chemo didn't help either.
Being furious when the doctors give up and send her home to die, bedridden, eating through a tube and pooping in a bag.
Being shocked that the water that's been accumulating in her legs is rising thanks to the nutrients.
Being scared that she'll drown from the inside unless we let her starve to death.
Being filled with dread the day the doctors won't give her any more nutrient bags.
Being forced to watch your mother die of starvation and cancer stuck in a bed in the living room, unable to eat anything but the rare slushie and the morphine she refused to take for the longest time but which now is all that keeps her sane, and living off food family and friends bring you.
Feeling like the world's biggest fuckup when you spend one day at a friend's house and come home minutes after she finally dies.

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>>689686822
OP here. Something like that happened to my "first love" if I can call her that.

>be a little kid
>ohh interwebs, what the hell should I do here?
>have hi5
>meet local kid girl
>we both kids
>have first "love" experience
>had first kiss
>she had an accident and she, brother, parents die
>breakdown
>try cutting, break a window with fist
>get glass shard, doing it all wrong, not die

14 years passed and here I am

>worst thing is that even if I try now I can't remember her face, just a vague shadow and memory
>worst thing is that I am starting to lose even my recent memories of girls I dated
>worst thing is that my empathy levels are dropping fast last week I got 22/80
>I only live in the present making money and sustaining my hobby
>I only have "friends" if I can do business with them, if no, I don't give a shit about them

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>>689688925

>>689688448
OP here. I became too self centered to do that. Sorry to disappoint anon.

>>689688947
This you?

>>689688975
wow, this happened 3 years ago, and i cant stop thinking about it.

>>689688982
Every dang time this gets me.

>>689689357
Yeah. And I know there's nothing I could have done to prevent it, but I still feel guilty for not being there.

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>>689688982

>>689688448
But what can i do?
I'm just a dude living in a 3x3 m room.
Without education, using a stolen phone to browse 4chan via wifi.
How can i change something?

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>>689689515

>>689689188
Well at least you're honest about it man.

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>>689689398
Still OP here. The most recent breakdown I had was about 5 years ago.

It's quite a long greentext and I have to type it down since I never had it wrote down. If you want I could share it. It was something that changed me like hell.

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>>689689553

>>689684707
That shit fucked me up....

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>>689689662

>>689689484
I understand, that's really sad, but at least your stayed by her side for the majority of the time, when my mom got breast cancer I sort of freaked out and ran away from it until after her surgery; I still feel like a piece of shit coward poor excuse for a son

>>689689662
FUCK. Momdeadbro here. This is awful. I'm angry and sad and UGH.

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>>689689792

>>689689825
I was like 13 when she was diagnosed, so I didn't really have the choice to run away. But my dad's never really been in the picture much and she was everything to me. My grandparents are there and they love me, but I just can't describe what it's like to watch it happen over years and be helpless. She died nearly four years ago and I still can't handle it.

>>689689825
You should kys or atleast do something to help people, i mean she isn't going to comeback bu atleast make your life worth, because right know you're shit.
I can't judge you because i'm coward as you.

>>689689521
It's the little things that matter the most to people. Help someone with their bags in they are struggling or even just ask them how is their day is. Little shit man.

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>>689689912

>>689689662
FUCKING PIEVE OF SHIT

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>>689690152

>>689683930

Shit, i lost

>>689690152
Momdeadbro here:

I see this stuff and sometimes wish I had some kind of ritual for my mom. But I didn't have any power after she died and I've moved around a lot since and I don't really own much at all from that time anymore. Even my dog has died since then. About all I have that was my mother's are her pots and pans, which I'm sorta possessive of but try not to be obsessive about because it would freak out my roommates.

>>689690072
I should reword, I did not physically run away, I just never really showed my support for her, I hid everything and for two months all I was doing was letting the anxiety and fear of losing my mother, eat me from the inside, I didn't visit her in the hospital or anything, I waiting for after the surgery because like I said, I was too big of a coward to look the possibly of death in the face
Luckily she is better and healthy and I've been changing to show her how grateful I am, but it still doesn't make up for the fact that I wasn't there when she needed me; the only fucking time she needed me

>>689688975
Whats your hobby OP?

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>>689690377

>>689689652
Please do so, Mighty OP. Let it out.

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>>689690817

>>689690577
Kind of like my dad, I don't have much of his, other than a few coins he got in Singapore and the folded flag the navy gave me after his funeral, that shit stays in my room

>>689684535

Fuck, nigga. I fucking crying right now for real.

Why you do this to me?

Fuck this feeling.

>>689690652
I get that feeling too. I don't mean to pretend I was the world's best son or her only caretaker. I spent plenty of time screwing around on the computer then and I regret every second of it. I even took advantage of her, using her morphine-induced sleep to play on the computer past her two-hour time limit a day. I still think the limit was a bit low, but now that she's gone I feel awful for not respecting her enough to follow it.

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>>689690917

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>>689690682
Cars in general. Modding and tuning. And I think I realize why...

>of course after modding and tuning I would go out on a empty road and try the limits of the vehicle to see if I did a good job
>maybe one day something will happen
>maybe that's how my story ends
>doing what I like...

Pic related. It's the last car I remapped and tested. It was raining heavily outside, road was slippery, tests ended without events. It was a family car, the same car that I own as my primary project car, stock suspension and unstable as fuck.

>>689690888
Checked. Will start typing.

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>>689691153

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>>689691335

>>689690924
Yeah. For a long time I kept a bunch of mementos, but a lot of it was paper; notes and cards and trinkets she or others had given me. And paper disappears after a few moves. I've moved four times since she's died and will move several more soon, and I just can't keep stuff.

The one thing I do have now that I think of it is a journal she wrote a long letter to me in. I used to read it occasionally and pretend she was telling me the story, but I haven't opened it since I defiled part of the journal with idiocy.

>>689684707

That thread fucked up me like 2 months.

Doing my job or my homework and thinking in that story.

>>689691320
MDB: I'm a car guy too. More of a Jeep guy really, that's what I own and I mod and rock crawl mine. But I'm cool with most cars. For me it's just a fun hobby and sorta runs in the family though. I did inherit a Jeep from my mother though, and man did I love that thing. I wish I still had that one.

>>689691335
This is the only thing I'm grateful about my dad being dead, knowing that I would've been this asshole type of son, and after he passes away, reflecting on all the countless times where I was a piece of shit to someone who never deserved an ounce of disrespect from me.

>>689691514
Poster of that image here. Yeah dude, me too. fucked me up bad. I actually don't the courage to go and read it again because it fucks me up so bad.

>>689691335
These always hit me hard. Which is weird. I've never had that kind of relationship with my dad or anyone else, I've always been overly sentimental really, but I can empathize a ton with this and I'm sorta scared that I'll be the dad here one day.

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>>689684942

Fuuuuuuuuuuuck no.

Stop doing this man.

IS ENOUGH

>>689691493
My father was a decorated officer in the navy, so after he passed away many museums asked my mom for his suit and most of his medals, my brother has a wood carving from what branch(sect??) of the navy he was in and a picture of the submarine he was on during the gulf war, other than that we really have nothing because most the valuable stuff we had to sell (we had a fat ass gold coin along with letters signed by Clinton or his secretary to my father other things) because we went through some tough timesand it's quite depressing now that we don't have anything to really remember him by

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>>689691679
I was a car guy before having a license. I earned money and when I was 17 I bought my first car brand new from the car shop.

>worked hard
>parents try to help
>bought that car couldn't drive it cuz no license
>start learning about it, start simple mods

It's 9 years now since I have that car, it's the same model with the car I posted the pic with the dash just a larger engine (because fuck it). I can't sell it. I have to many memories with her (yes HER, she became the most important thing in my life). Now I own another 2 cars beside that one just because I can't part with her.

Also one of the most important stories of my life till now is related to her so yeah. I'm going to write it down for the deadgfandfamilyguy.

Guys, I'm coming up on my one year anniversary with my girlfriend. She's made me feel like a better person than I ever thought I could be. I love her so much. What value she finds in me, I'll never know. I still consider myself the luckiest guy on earth, every single day.

I want to do something really special for our anniversary. Do you guys have any ideas?

>>689692174
That's rough man.

My journal is about all I've got left of my mother. She wrote at the end that I should write in it, but it never felt right to until one day after getting what I thought was my first girlfriend (15/16 remember). I wrote in the journal some extremely cringe thing about learning what love is and then got dumped by the chick the next week. I haven't opened the journal since, I can't bear to think about what to do about those two pages.

>>689692759
Id honestly fill the two pages and put it in a weather proof container and leave it on her grave

>>689692759
Why not taking her to the beach, or somewhere outdoors but with privacy you know?. Just the 2 of you there, talking and loving each other.

>>689692753
Double suicide

>>689692636
I understand completely. My current Jeep is also a her (doesn't have a name though) and I'm never selling her. I know the people I sold my mother's Jeep to, they're close family friends, and I'm probably going to buy it back someday when I can afford it.

My first car was an Oldsmobile my mother bought me for $500 to drive her around in, but I really don't have such great memories of that car and it was trash, so I sold it a few years ago. My current Jeep I paid for myself, and my last one I inherited. Everything I've ever owned has been at least 15 years old and 200k miles though.

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>>689692599

>>689692599
>>689692877

is it a true story?

>>689693058
>>689692759
Woops wrong post lol

>>689693058
I think you meant this guy
>>689692753

>>689692984
Maybe. I still have crap to do about her, she still doesn't have a headstone years later. I'm across the country for college, but as soon as I can get back and afford it I'm commissioning a headstone. My family has been bickering about whose job it is for too long and it's time for me to man up and address it as her heir (though we were dirt poor, so really I'm just heir to that responsibility).

>>689692753
How old are you?
No disrespect I just need to know

>>689692753
As I was saying, why not taking her to the beach or other place that is outdoors but with you two in privacy?. Not necessesarily camping, just the two of you spending a day together loving each other. Taking her to another country/state works as well, it will make you two bond a lot.

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>>689687171
>>689688233
>>689688255


Is this the real life?

Because i'm diyng right now.

>>689693582
thats the end of my feels dump
goodnight and good luck anons.

>>689693488
Well your whole family can chip in, that's the only moral thing to do- to show support, a death shouldn't separate a family due to money, try to compromise with them, and even if you can only get the cheapest headstone- start there. Because when you get enough money you can try to get a better one (unless people aren't allowed to upgrade headstones)

>>689693541
We're both 20. Young love and all, but I've had girlfriends in the past, but never had a connection like I've had with my current. She's just incredible.

>>689693577
I live in the best state in the world when it comes to day hikes. I think that'd be a lot of fun. Should I get her a gift or anything?

>>689693488
Yeah, sorry for that, my brain is stupid.

>>689694032
Idk why I really asked lol I'm not romantic at all, I would've just made dinner and watched some tv and take her shopping idk why people expect so much honestly.

>>689694032
Washington?
If so you can head to Bridal falls which is like a 16 mile hike (with the fall side trail) round way. Gorgeous peak with a beautiful lake and a side trail for a water fall. Get her a nice necklace or something, if it where me I'd get her something with meaning to the past, something cheesy that makes her think of you.

>>689693806

Please, dont go.

I want to talk with you.


Pleaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaase!

>>689694459
I THOUGGT WA AS WELL LOL

>>689693886
I have no idea as to whether upgrades are allowed, but you're right. I'll see if they will, but I honestly think it would be best just to do it myself. My grandparents and my uncle have each tried to get the other to chip in and do it unsuccessfully, and I doubt that me just joining in as a third person asking for help with it will get anything done. It'll depend on circumstances though.

>>689694032
Not sure what state you're in, but if you have a nice park with nature trails (the less crowded the better) I high recommend hiking them this week in search of a good picnic spot and then bringing her to that spot for a picnic. I always wanted to do that in one spot I found. Water and hills make nice places for picnics. You'll know the place when you see it.

>>689684707
Jesus Christ that hit me hard

>>689694032
Well, yeah, maybe something she can wear everyday, like a hoodie of yours or something, or crafting her something along with something that you can buy (I don't something that you know she wants). Hikes are good, but I meant is just staying in a single place not necesseraly walking a lot (that's why I suggested beach)
Like this nigga suggested>>689694459 He knows what's up

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>>689690888
Ok anon, here it goes. Before getting in the actual story I am going to describe how I see myself in the current day so you can see I am not an oversensitive sissy with selfdiagnosed mental ills.

>graduated 2 uni's
>engineering and high level teaching
>own a small local business on my own
>tall, fit, quite normal looking
>I try to act normal, laugh, be pleasant in general and managing to do it fine
>dead inside, lost empathy, lost the will to try to have friends, etc.

So yeah, what they tell you, and what you see in the threads about getting better is a lie. Once the brain is damaged by varous events you can never go back, you will never get better, you just live with it, you just try... you never succeed but try and that's the only thing that's better. When you stop trying, you lost it all. I am still trying, and hope I won't get too soon to stop.

Well here it goes:
>the story starts with this girl
>was a winter night, I was 18 and hanging out in the neighborhood with some pals doing funs and giggles
>a new girl was there and she was cute
>start doing funs and giggles with her, you know jokes and shit, making fun of one another and shit
>she was younger than me
>went home, open up PC see a new frend request on Yahoo! Messenger (good 'ol days) it was her
>she was cool and nice
>I was thinking that I was 18, can't even think of dating some underaged girl because wtf?
>so we became best friends, was helping her, she was just cute, I just felt like a big brother to her
That was 7 years ago.
>fast forward to the summer of that year
>hanging out a lot with her
>we were practically inseparable
>I was still like a big brother to her and she wanted more (I didn't know that at the time being)
>One day we were sitting on some bench and she was sitting on my lap.
>Turns around facing me and started playing in my hair
>I only thought that was cute and played along
>Suddenly she leans to me and kisses me
Cont.

>>689683233
I have a sensory processing disorder that makes skin contact extremely uncomfortable. There's a handful of people I can handle touching me, but none of them have been around for months.
All I want is a real hug, but I know it would make my skin crawl.

>>689689652
share it with /b/

>>689684696
Being a "car guy" has nothing to do with it you fucking faggot, it's a racing game...

>>689694525
you can take control of the situation I.e tell both to pitch in 25% ea and you throw 50%(since it seems they want to be cheap people)
Like come on, they have to know she needs a properly marked grave.that actually makes me pretty upset

>>689694751
It does, on some levels you can't understand being a pleb lol.

>>689694722
He already did
Look>>689694657 and btw Continue, Mighty anon

I fell in love with a girl when I was young. When I moved I tried to forget her, but every time I hear her voice or see her face I fall in love again. It's funny because before I could kind of not let it bother me, just sit and deal with it while still talking to her, but recently I just have this feeling in the pit of my stomach of want. I haven't wanted anybody like this in my entire life.
I dream of ways we could be happy together, but alas that's likely just my fantasy.
I really miss her, and i wish I wasn't such a pussy when I had the chance to try and be with her.

>>689684994
First time someone on /b/ has ever actually hit me in the feels

>>689685276
Jesus fucking christ

i'm basically in the shittiest part of my life right now.

i found out one of my closest friends was hit by a car and killed instantly, and i was too afraid to go to her funeral since i don't really deal well with the death of people close to me. so not only do i feel like an asshole, but i regret not paying my respects to her. i'll never see her again and the reality of that is only just now setting in.

the rest of my life is pretty shitty, too.

my mom died a few years ago, and since i'm still living with my family, we all chipped in money for her funeral costs, and not only was it difficult to deal with her death due to her being the kindest soul on this planet, but it basically bankrupt us (profiting from death shouldn't be a thing but here we are), since a lot of that money came out of everyone's emergency funds.

we're barely making rent nowadays (brother gets disability pay, uncle has old-age pension, i'm making jack-diddly-shit because i'm an unemployed high-school dropout and not disabled) and our house is filled with every kind of pest imaginable. roaches, mice, ants, spiders, you name it, we've got it.

luckily my girlfriend lets me crash at her house every second week so i don't have to stay there too long, so i just spend time with her and browse the web on my laptop, but while i'm out here i can't find a job, since i'm three cities away from home and they're moving soon, so finding a job here would be meaningless.

i just want to be at the part of my life where i have a stable-paying job, move in with my girlfriend, have a dog or cat or something and feel purpose in my life instead of wanting to die constantly but y'know how life is lmao

>>689694824
Yeah. It was pretty messed up overall, she's actually in my grandmother's plot because we'd refused to prepare for her death (accepting defeat sort of), so originally the stone was my uncle's job, and then he got busy and my grandparents were going to do it, but he told them to wait and he would help, and then by the time he did something they were too broke to do it, and on and on.

>>689695435
I know how you feel.

>>689684203
>Is this about anal sex

>>689695435
>roaches
Fuck those insect niggers.

That aside, I can only imagine the weight on your shoulders.

>>689694459
Yep. Washington is awesome. Is it Bridal Veils Falls? I've been to Goldbar before, it really is a lovely area. I'll see if she's interested. Really, really solid idea. Thanks man.

>>689694603
She already's claimed about three of my hoodies... I'll think of something by then. I've got about a week and a half until our anniversary.

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>>689694657
Cont.
>I mean why would she kiss me
>I was nothing to her more than a very good friend
>I was in shock (because of my retarded brain)
>Ask her why she did that
>She said because she loved me, and she never saw me as a brother (damn I was retarded)
>Still in shock, denied that for a couple of days until I started to accept her as my girlfriend
>She always ended our dates or conversations with "I love you" so naturally but I could never say that to her, I was only "kisses, bye" or some shitty cringe like that
>we were happy but for me that wasn't enough

And that's the point in my life I was most high, and things from there started to go downhill.

>was hanging out and flirting with other girls (because I am a fucking alpha asshole, that's what I was considering myself that time)
>she was never mad at me, yet she always found out what I was doing with other girls
>coming to think of it, she was the greatest, because even if she was underaged she show'd more maturity than me
>I was still being an asshole
>half year passed, and shit as hard to her because of me being an asshole
>I am sure that she spent the nights crying alone but now she began crying to me to stop being an asshole
>always laughed at her while she was crying telling her I don't give a fuck if she's gone I have girls, I have sex, I don't give a fuck about love

And that's when karma hit me back hard.

>I lost her, but at that time I didn't give a fuck
>I was a fucking alpha ffs (I cringe writing this)
>She was still trying from time to time to talk to me
>I was still being an asshole and then she completely stopped trying.

I was still not giving a fuck because why should I. At that time I was starting to like parkour and started doing it too. Training with friends daily until one day I fell from ~2m and broke my arm like fuck. Well fuck it, shit happens.

>in hospital operation
>get sent home
>mid autumn
>can't go outside because it's hard as fuck to get dressed
Cont.

>>689696002
Bridal Veils/Lake Serene. If you guys have the stamina to do it (Its quite a long hike) Hike early, pack a lunch and head on up. Absolutely amazing trip. We've been having great weather too, so it shouldn't be hard to find a nice day.

>>689696288
That's a pretty good Idea for the two lovebirds. Besides, if they don't have the stamina, it will build it up and it will help them to fuck like rabbits (or even more wildly if they already do).

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>>689695856
for real though, bill gates should've invested money into making a cockroach-killing ray along with a mosquito-killing ray

fuck roaches man

but i'm trying to hang in there. it's all i can really do at this point. honestly without my girlfriend at my side i would've just given up at this point, but she's been incredibly helpful and loving and gives me just the tiniest sliver of hope that i might make it out of what feels like a bad dream.

one of the worst parts about this is i'm in a perpetual state of getting fucked by life. i can't get a job because i didn't finish high school (i was the only person willing to sacrifice my time to help out my dying mom) and i can't get an equivalent diploma because i have no money.

even fuckin' mcdonalds doesn't want me. it's depressing. i just wanna be able to live somewhere that isn't my house, even if it's in the shittiest apartment in the world. i just can't stand all the pests. nothing worse than waking up to the sound of mice fighting and like 2 cockroaches crawling on you.

>>689696527
Yeah I ended up going with a couple of friends and wasn't nearly as prepared as I should have been. Was my first real hike and I ended up doing alright with it, but was nearly dead tired by the time it was over. I need to start doing my trails though. Hard to find time, but the last 'real' one I did was back in January on Mount Si. Expected the winter would chase off people. It didn't. Was really nice in the snow though.

>>689696748
Again, you can always go with the beach :P. With the gift thingie, try to craft her something nice, and yeah I know you're not that romantic, but that's why pinterest is for, to give you ideas. My gf once gifted me a deck of 50 poker cards, and each one of them had a reason of why she loved me so much. Needless to say, I had to punch a wall to regain my manliness.

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Cont.
>social interactions get cut off
>all I do is just sit inside on interwebs or tv
>feel lonely as fuck but that was about it
>after 1 month I go to get some xray to get my cast off and they give me the bad news.
>"Your fracture is not healed, not healed at all, we don't know what's wrong, but it's in exactly the same state as post op"
>WTF?
>they sent me to some therapy not to get my tendons stuck and shit
>nice therapist guy, I think he saw something wrong and told me to go to his gf who is a psychologist
>What? Why?
>he tells me that he thinks that it's going to help me
>okay fuck it, went to the guy's gf
>do some tests, talk with her and then she tells me the 2nd fucking bad news
>anon, you are suffering from severe depression
>watdafak.jpeg
>here you need to take this pills to fix yourself
>nope. I don't want drugs, fuck it, I am alpha, are there other solutions?
>yes. hypnosis. I agree and then we start.
>one month later I was fixed, my cast was off, my tendons were ok and my bone was perfect.
>start trying to get back my old life but it wasn't the same
>I was just my own shadow
>my friends were now few but chill and ok
>girls were few, maybe 2-3 and I was starting to realize my mistakes
>fuck it, imma be a better person now, past is past
>trying, just trying to be better but I don't think I was doing it.
>I need to get my life straight, and start a small local business

And here is the moment that hits me like a fucking punch right in the throat. It's long but please bear with me.

>I was transporting shit from a close town to my town to fill my stocks
>One particular day I was kept with shit in that town and it was getting late
>Fuck fuck fuck I need to get back or I will have a shitload to do 2morrow because the next day I had to go back to that town and get some more shit
>It was night by now and it was a long 4 hours drive until I got to my town
>I was really in a hurry passing all the cars and riding like a maniac

Cont.

>>689691335
I wish I had half as many opportunities to see my dad
It isnt very interesting but if anyone wants to know I'd be happy to share as to why I don't get to see him

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>>689697094
I'm not the same dude as the one with the GF, I'm just a lonely anon. Also the trail is a lot shorter than I thought. 8.2 not 16. Im retarded. Still a wonderful hike though.

>>689693150
Was that the guy that got the /b/ army after his ex

>>689689521
there will always be living being more underpriviilaged then u helpthem ... if u cant deserving people lend water to birds .. food to dog .. help anyone u find .. dont hurt anyone

>>689696627
>>689696627
>2 cockroaches crawling on you.

That shit is fucking disgusting. Honestly, I'm going to torch your house.

In all seriousness, I can sympathize with the tight relationship you have with your girlfriend, but don't let her be the reason why you haven't given up. When she's gone, you'll have wished you were more independent in terms of the perspective you hold regarding your circumstances

Again, I understand that she's your crutch, but you need to stand upright on your own accord even when it's very difficult for you to do so at times. All I'm saying is that you shouldn't lean on her too much, because with her inevitable departure, you will fall.

Don't a damn thing last forever, Anon. You need to hold your head upright because you know this shitty situation is changeable with hard work. Hold your head up for your blood; your family, not some gash whose long term involvement in your life is uncertain.

That ain't the way you want to hear it, but I'll be the first fucker here to say it.

>>689697302
Oh, my bad man. Still, sounds fun, not an american tho, so I don't know :P. Well, you have us so you don't feel as loney. Hey if you one day want to talk some shit, want my email?

>>689697834
I appreciate the offer, but I'm not really a big talker. Thanks though anon.

>>689696627
Sadly the only thing I can think about that might help you economically is joining the armed forces or something y'know.

>>689684942
lost

Can I post a good feel?

>>689697938
Always, man. Well I'll leave it anyway if you ever change your mind [email protected]

>>689698193
Go ahead, mane.

>>689698165
the guy was really close with his sister, like she would stand up for him and give him food when he was hungry. when they grew up she was murdered.

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>>689697226
Cont.
>It was that one last truck that fucked me up
>Slow'd down in the back of the truck because other cars were on the other opposite lane and I couldn't overtake
>Lane free'd up and I was starting to pass the truck
>Shit going well until I managed to get to the half of the overtake and my car stopped accelerating, it was simply running constantly even if my pedal was all the way down

I loved techy stuff so I had some camera installed with a software that could detect cars and lanes in traffic and warn me about shit in general with augmented reality

>suddenly my dashboard starts beeping and tells me I am in the wrong lane.
>ok fuck it
>suddenly my dashboard beeps again telling me there is an impact with vehicle in about 20s
>whatthefuck?
>when I looked closely, there was another truck comming on the opposite lane (where I was right now) with shitty headlights that you could barely see
>fuck fuck fuck fuck, the countdown started on my display warning me that that vehicle is getting so fucking close to me and I need to get out.
>honked the horn, nothing, the truck on my right was not slowing down so I can complete the overtake
>there were 2 other cars behind me couldn't brake because I thought that an impact from behind is much worse than a impact with a god damn truck at 130km/h.
>by now the countdown 'till impact reached 10 seconds left.
>okay fuck it, this is how I die
>trying to settle my thoughts because in a few seconds I will be dead, but that's fine, what the fuck could hapen more than dying, right?
>I calmed myself down while the dash was beeping like crazy (like a radar you know)
>At the mark of 3 seconds it was programmed to override the sound and beep through the speakers and not the buzzer
>Music stops
>Only beeps now meaning I had only 3 seconds
>take the hands off the wheel
>closed my eyes

That's when I heard the sound that I hate most today. A large bang, combined with the metal bending, plastic crushing and tires screeching.
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>>689697707
my family's actually pretty fucking awful tho

pretty sure uncle has some sort of mental illness, he's constantly yelling at people and blaming them for god knows what, then crying any time anyone even says anything even remotely rude to him, oldest brother's basically just a douche, slightly older brother is alright, but has anger issues, so he's quick to get violent.

my life is pretty much my girlfriend and what friends i have left (they don't really invite me anywhere anymore since i'm generally too poor to do anything exciting so i'm kind of the burden of the group lol), but i'm trying to make it more than that.

thanks though, anon.

>>689698013
i don't think even the military would take me, actually. i've been diagnosed with major depressive disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, and avoidant personality disorder. i'm pretty good at hiding all but the MDD, but i'm pretty sure having even one of those on my medical record is grounds for discharge.

i used to have a volunteer job at a university (quit because i had a full-time paying job), then i had a job as a porn store clerk (which was the 'full-time' paying job, but it was under minimum wage and the bosses were doing some illegal shit i wasn't cool with), but now i can't find jack shit.

i've just gotta keep my chin up high and hope that luck is on my side.

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>>689698385
im not confused about it
i cried, which is why i posted "lost"

>>689698841
everyday, now that summer is up i don't se my friends because i dont go to classes anymore and that kills me inside, knowing that none thinks about me apart from u guys. /b/ keeps me alive in some way

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>>689685129
You must be fun at parties.

>>689699081
>i don't see my friends
That's weird, you're talking to them

>>689698758
Well, unless you're schizophrenic, it would be really hard for them to detect that, believe me I've researched that a little bit and they won't notice. And sometimes (it also depends on the person) discipline and organisation is what you need. The bad thing is, you would most probably get shipped, and that would fuck you up even more. But hey, as you said, gotta keep your chin up. Godspeed you magnificent son of a bitch.

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/b/ your memories will never be forgotten

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>>689699228
i am... i am

>>689698758
With whatever mental issues they may have, and as tough as living with them must be, I hope you still love them unconditionally.

>what friends i have left
Forget them. If your presence is determined by your monetary value, then these are not friends, but mere acquaintances, if even that. I'm sure you know that, though.

One piece of advice I can give is to plan, plan, plan. Once you get your ideas down on paper in detail and execute them, you'll start to gain momentum, and eventually it'll be easier to keep going rather than give up.

Take a few minutes and just envision where you are, and where you want to be. Plan each step with contingencies and be ready to constantly make adjustments and bend with circumstantial shifts. Be patient, and realistic.

For sure, step one is finding you some work. Then, figuring out how to get your education going. Save money, move in with your girl, get your dog, and be happy, bro.

>>689699548
When everyone else has fucked off we'll be here. No matter if we call you a faggot or try to cheer you up we're always going to be here

Good feel because threads like this make me think of my best friend and how much I appreciate his existence every day. Part one

>Be me
>Freshman year in hs
>Meet guy in Algebra II class
>Pretty dank dude
>Wants to be an engineer
>Goes on about this 4chan
>Give him a Naruto wristband that meant a lot to me then because was narutard
>Best friend leaves me
>Not many friends
>Quickly make friends with channer

>Sophomore year
>Dude is now in my PE class and English class
>Get closer
>Every Friday we walk a mile around the school and down a river
>Guy and I talk about most random shit
>One day that dude is popping his neck in class
>That dude begins choking
>That dude keeps calm and stops
>Only I noticed
>That dude lives another day

>Junior year
>Guy in a history class of mine and an Engish class
>My house is foreclosed on
>Most all friends I've made turn on me because I literally break down
>That dude doesn't
>That dude's family isn't in a good financial situation either
>That dude sympathizes
>He's the only one to
>One day we get into a car wreck
>He has a vintage corvette
>Car ruined
>First thing he cares about to ask is if I'm ok
>Convince myself I have feelings for him that year

>Senior year
>That dude and I have English and History together
>Tell that dude my feelings
>That dude doesn't reciprocate
>That dude takes me to prom
>Realize I don't have feelings for that dude
>Realize I've never had a friend like this because emotionally stunted
>That dude understands
>That dude and I have chill friendship that isn't weird
>Be happy as hell when he's accepted to a top engineering college
>College is in a different town
>That dude moves

>>689699836
God bless you faggots, you are all the best

>>689698553
Waiting thanks for posting too.

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>>689698553
And that's when the brain makes you do shit man... The brain is the most powerful force the human race ever seen...

>when I opened my eyes after that noise there was nothing, and when I say nothing I really mean it. It was all black, but I knew I opened my eyes
>I couldn't feel any pain, I wasn't numb, I was just fine, just like any other person would feel everyday.
>My eyes were starting to adapt and I saw where I was. I could see now the silhouette of my dashboars, you could identify through the cracked windshield that you are in a wreck
>WTF man, this is what happens after death?
>muster the courage to step out of the car
>got out with difficulty because door was partially stuck
>got out of the car and looked around
>it was dark as hell but I could identify that I am standing on a field, an open field and I could see what's left of a car, and a starry sky, nothing else, no road where I was, etc.
>Okay, I need to calm down
>sat down in front of the car on the dirt
>light up a cig
>start smoking and that's when my brain failed to continue normally
>thousand of questions flooded my mind in that moment, questions like

"Is this the end?"
"Did I do whatever my purpose was in this world and that's it?"

>and many more, but only one question was the one that broke me that moment

"Are you happy with what you did until now and are you ready to leave?"

>FUCK NO! FUCK NO!!!!!!!!
>started to hit the ground with rage
>I am not ready to die yet
>close my eyes, I said to myself fuck this is a bad dream, I will open my eyes and I am going to be home, sleeping, this is a fucking nightmare!
>I hoped as hard as I can to be a dream
>opened my eyes
>nope.jpeg
>still there
>still a field
>still a wrecked car
>still me under a dark starry sky

Fuck, what the fuck now. I was raging, panicking and feeling like shit at the same time.

Decide to try out shit. Get in the car, put my hand on the ignition, no keys there, try to find me phone, nowhere in sight.

Cont.

>>689687392
For a split second i wanted to say "i love you" randomly, but for some reason i'm afraid of how it will sound.

>>689687630
fuuck this hit me hard

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>>689691335
Closest to home anything has ever hit. I'm done with this thread.

Part two of the tale of that one dude and I

>First year of college
>That dude goes to engineering school
>That dude lives hours away
>Don't see that dude much
>Socially stunted
>Can't make friends
>Miss that dude

>That dude almost dies
>That dude was stuck on tracks at red light
>Train was coming
>Only by the grace of God did he survive
>Car in front of him sees his problem
>Pulls ahead
>That dude seconds from death
>That dude lives

>That dude and I don't speak much
>Engineering takes away time
>Pre med takes away time
>We text sometimes

>Second year of college
>That dude and I talk even less
>Both of us are stressed
>Most talks are us venting

>We tell each other thing we can't tell others
>Our families have adopted the other person at this point

>Midnight one night
>My partner breaks up with me
>I'm sobbing uncontrollably
>Call up that dude
>He had class at 8 am
>Stays up with me for two hours
>Helps me get more stable
>Only goes to bed after I'm doing better

>Now
>Summer
>That dude about to get job
>That dude and I spending our remaining time together as much as possible
>Today I went to his Grandma's house with him
>We played Life is Strange and Beginner's Guide till 10PM
>Neither sets of parents care

Tomorrow we're going to finish up the game. It's nice, just being like this. It feels the same as always. But I go through threads like this and I get sad, thinking of that one dude and how he could be gone the next minute

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>>689700384
Try to turn on lights in the car, nothing. Blindly search under the seats found the keys. Put them in the ignition and hoped as hard to be still dreaming...

>turned the key in the ignition and guess what
>nothing... fucking nothing
>my last hope of this being a dream was fucking ruined
>I started begging for a second chance
>I just need a second chance to get back to whatever shit I did
>PLEASE GIVE ME A SECOND CHANCE I started shouting
>in a rage moment I hit the dashboard as hard as I could with the fists and that was the moment when everything lighted up. All the dashboard icons everything
>after a few second only errors were "check engine", "lighting error", "break failure" and "parking sensors error"

I can't believe it, I was given a second chance, when I turned the key all the way up the engine started and not far from where the wreckage of the car was was the road where I previously was. I could see it because one of the headlights was still working.

Got home, jumped in bed and still hope that this was a dream.

When I woke up the next morning and looked outside there were quite a few neighbors looking at the car and what state was in. Ok shit, it was not a dream... it really happened.

(I will explain what really happened in the accident in a side story after I finish the main story, since it's a mood breaker)

>Now I had my list well done
>I was given a second chance just to fix myself and be a better me

Woohoo now this just sounds like a plan! I am going to do it, I AM GOING TO BE A BETTER ME!

Except it wasn't what I expected and shit is still going downhill. Now I'm going to turn back to the girl I was talking about in the first posts.

>>689684942
>trying this hard to be edgy

>>689683930
Aww that's just nice really

>>689684696
>he... He doesn't understand or care for gets

I lost. I'm bawling like a child here. All those gets man! Those fucking gets!!

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>>689701307
Cont.
You know, I was an asshole to the first girl that actually said she loved me, and she said it sincerely, not like others do. In my head that's what I had to fix first!

>ask her if we can talk, if she would let me
>she did, and I apologize for everything
>she says she forgives me (my ass, those were just words)
>I ask if she could give me one more chance to get back everything I lost because of me. I was ready to change.
>She tells me that she just broke up with a guy that she was trying to replace me with and we can do it
>She tells me that that guy managed to replace me, and she is afraid that she can't be to me like she was before

That was my 2nd biggest mistake (the first was making her leave). I said to her exactly this words: "Well, we can try, and if you ever want to go back to that guy, you can leave me, no questions asked, that's what I can give you after all I've done".
I realize that I was an idiot saying that, I couldn't fight for what I loved and what loved me. I was the biggest idiot ever.

Not to say that in about 2 months she left me for that guy. I talked to her and I said you can go, that was our deal, I talked to him and asked to take good care of her, I told him that I respect him because he could hive her whatever I couldn't and I wish them the best. I was smiling while talking to them, inside I was dying.

It was the biggest pain I ever felt. But I did what what right, no? Nope... of course no, but that what I thought then. Business is starting to be shit. I was starting to get poor, couldn't afford shit now and one night I decided I failed.

>I failed the 2nd chance I got
>why even bother, now I am really ready to go die
>got in the car and drove outside of town and stopped on the edge of a high as fuck cliff, nothing down except rocks and shit.
>prepared the car, disabled the airbags, hardwired the main fuses so the current won't get cut and maybe catch fire on impact
>last thoughts now and I'll do it

Cont.

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>May 4th
>Son is 8.5 months old
>First Star Wars day, gotta make it cool
>Stop at toy store and get him a Chewbacca
pic related
>Come into the house
>Mommy is holding him, asks what's in the bag
>Out it comes
>He lights up like a lightsaber
>Happier than Han Solo after the Kessel Run
>Grabs Chewie and pulls him right over
>They're about the same size
>Hugs him, checks him out, doesn't even put him in his mouth
>mylittlejedi.jpeg
>Spend an hour playing with Chewie, flying him around like an X-Wing
>Look at the clock
>Look at Mommy
>Time's up
>Wookie hugs for my little skywalker
>Tell him "I love you, son."
>Look at ex
>"I love you."
>Looks at me
>"I know."
>sadsmile.exe
>Kiss him goodbye
>Door closes behind me
>Sit on the steps of my old house
>Tears
>Only 167 hours until next time
I love you, Brandon. May the Force be with you, son. Always.

>>689684707
Shed a tear at the last paragraph, even though I can't relate.

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>>689683930

>>689702615
Well that was fucking sad. At least you're a good father and love your son.

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>>689702432
Cont.
>Okay, I'm ready, but now I need to salute one last time my friends on /b/
>got my phone out, make a thread telling my intentions and I decided that when the thread 404'd I'll let off the hand break and go with it.
>a lot of people were saying to kill myself
>duuh that's the plan, if you want me to do it just 404 the thread
>some other anons started chatting with me
>I was replying
>After writing the story I said earlier, they started joking around
>We were making some guessing games
>by now I am laughing
>one of them, before the thread 404'd said to me that there are a lot of persons that care about me, and that many of them I haven't even met yet and to be safe
>thread 404'd and I started the engine
>and ...
>backed up, well I still have my 2nd chance, why won't I make the most of it?

Yes, /b/ saved me, thank you all!

But it's not any better, I just kinda' got used to it.

Started another company with another profile, work like a maniac, have a few girls that were ok, but after a while we didn't click anymore. Most of the girls came to me, only one I pursued and got her, but didn't work out.

I decided that a girl in my life would be a big nonsense because I lost my touch with my sensible side. I need to learn that again and it would be a bother for me and for her at the same time.

I just work now. I do whatever I can to live. I invest all my money in cars and tech I don't quite need (for example, I am watching /b/ on a 40 inch 4k monitor, do I really need that shit? - Nope).

The only "friends" I have are the people coming to our weekly meets to a car organization I started in my town. The other friends are a guy that now has a gf and I can't relate to, and a weeb, weeb but a nice guy. I started watching some anime because of him and that's ok, one more connection point with him.

And that's it guys, I would write a big

>THE END

but the life goes on for me.

Thank you!

>>689702615
Fuuucckkk dude.

These threads make me want to never let my wife out of sight. I used to have nightmares of losing her that would fuck me up for days.

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>>689691335
FUCK.

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>>689691335
right in the feels.

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>>689703718
Star Wars dad here.
Let her know every day how much you love her, and treat her that way. You don't want to know what it's like to have someone you care about that much and lose them, or to have things go that you didn't say or didn't do. Don't hold anything back, /b/ro, love her fully, completely, and constantly.

>>689703936
Absolutely m8. Every morning I get off work and see her off before she goes to the bakery where she works. I can't get enough of her.

>>689688448
>that pic

dude i mean no offense, but it takes one hell of an asshole to not do what that guy does. this isnt something extra nice or special, everybody would protect the wheelchairbound cripple from the rain.

>>689704097
Good man. Never forget it.

>>689689515

Was gonna post this.

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Every goddamn night.

My ex fucked my old best friend after we broke up
>2 years ago
I always try hitting her up just saying "hey"
Never replies I say fuck it never going to speak to her again
See her sister at a store
She needs a ride so I offer her one
>go back to my place and we get to
Talking
She says she has always had the hots for me as feeling were mutual
She tells me her sister fucked that kid like two weeks ago when I offered her to go out to dinner she didn't because she went to a party instead and fuucked him .. So I drop her sister off at her house ( lives with sister btw my ex) the ex sees
Calls me 3 times why are you with my sister bla bla bla I hang up last night her sissy was sending me dirty pics , we are going to fuck after I get out of work .. Can't wait
>feels good knowing my ex is jelly

My gf has schiziod personality disorder and acts cold and emotionless. Her parents asking if we are considering we marry and my parents begging me get rid of her for fear of her snapping one day and hurting me... I also feel so.... Alone even when with her cuz she acts like she doesnt care about me and it hurts bad man.

>I want you to understand that 99% of our relationship problems were caused by you. I wont throw all of your mistakes in your face, though. And im not upset with you, I just wish you understood that no matter how much I love you, I also have my limits, (just like everyone else, including you) which you pushed so far past I felt like I was constantly in agonising pain. Also causing my pain was the imbalance in our relationship. I was ready to completely devote myself to you and our marriage for the rest of my life, always put in 150% effort into our relationship, and would have gone to the moon and back to make sure you were happy. You, however, wouldnt budge half an inch to make sure I was happy, did nothing to show you were devoted to me, and put in -150% effort into our relationship. Leaving me to carry the burden of making sure we were both happy, while you put in literally no effort was selfish and unfair of you. Two people have to work together, not one person dumping the entire load of the relationship onto the other.

>One of the memories of us thats really engraved into me was the day I went to your apartment (and you told me I was a creep/fucking psychopath/nutjob). That day stuck with me, it was the first time I got cold feet about us. I just feel that I need to tell you this: If you ever showed up at my house in a state of distress, I would have (immediatley) opened the door, and asked you to come in. I would have given you a hug, made you a cup of tea, put a blanket around you and told you I loved you and that you were safe with me. I would have invited you into my room, taken off your shirt and your pants, and I would have rubbed your stomach and told you that I loved you until you fell asleep. Thats one (of the many) examples of the imbalance in our relationship. I was unconditionally loving, and I felt that you were conditionally loving.

i dindu nuffin

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My story of asking out a girl in primary school.


>Be me, 11 years old.
>Beta as fuck
>Meet a girl in my new class (just moved to a new school after my mum decided that my principal and teacher were total dicks)
>9/10 qt3.14, mostly Irish, too
>Decide to go the long way and wait to ask her out
>Have fun with her at school, hang out a lot more, it seems she is starting to like me
>fuckyes.gif
>She already has a boyfriend though, just find out despite knowing the dude for 5 years already
>shutdown.png
>Still decide to go through with my plan, though
Fuck, how stupid was I?
>Get her email, talk to her a lot
>Start playing Roblox with her (sister dragged me into it, turns out crush was interested in it)
>Hold off a little longer, decide to get a little closer
>Finally, time to strike!
>Back out like a stupid nigger
>Decide to ask her out over email, type out a massive love letter
>Talk to her at school, full commitment to this, ask whether or not I may get an answer, she says two weeks
>Tard self doesn't realize that the term is over in two weeks, spend the next two weeks in anticipation, keep nagging at her
>Term ends, think I'll get an answer on email, thinks her computer probably broke
>Next term starts, she isn't at school
>mfw she moves schools because of me

Every day I dialed your number I just never made the call