>I want attention syndrome*

I think it's called snowflake-itis

there is medication that can reduce the problems associated with schizophrenia.

the problem is, schizophrenics sometimes decide they don't want to take it because quantum dot overgod voice from zeta reticuli told them to. and then they get worse.

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there was a guy with schizophrenia in my writing course, and he was a cool bro. he didn't demand attention for it. he didn't start every sentence with "SPEAKING AS A SCHIZOPHRENIC" - unlike the iranian girl who would rant at us because we didn't give a shit about the revolution in Iran.

he took his medication and he wrote some fucking funny screenplays. get over yourself, OP.

>>688780525
>>688781466


I guess I came off looking like I needed attention but all I want is to say how lucky you are

>>688782117
why? you get free visions of hell. i have to risk my life buying possibly toxic drugs from inner city thugs to get the same effect.

>>688779795
so all these diagnoses... did you get them from a real, credited psychologist or did you wake up one day and realize what a boring asshole you were at 19, and seek out some quirkiness to wear like a badge of honor to make yourself interesting to others?

I'm seriously asking

>>688782430

I don't think you read my post I look at everyone here and I am the only different one... everyone else is healthy.. so when I look around I think how lucky everyone else is... that was my point

>>688782644


listen to that dude, he knows life

>>688782807
>everyone else is healthy
>everyone else is normal
>Im different
>Im special

>c-ptsd

Fuck off

>>688782644

I guess I came off looking like I needed attention.

But because my c-ptsd and schizophrenia is so bad I wanted to share abit.

I was diagnosed by psychiatrist.

>>688782807

what did your c-ptsd arise from? what trauma?

>>688782977

No Im not special. If you gave 10 million dollars or health... I woud pick health

ECT's the ticket

>>688779795
Psychiatry is bullshit, anon.

>>688783298

I wanted to get revenge on my father, psychiatrist and case worker so I talked to them about an odd sexual thing I did with a masseuse and I was traumatized

>>688779795
Smoke crack and worship Satan. What are you complaining about, do you want to live forever or something?

>>688779795

PTSD from what?

You served in Iraq? Viet Nam?

No? Did you witness your parents get murdered? Did you uncle make you suck his hairy cock when you were 5? No?

Then youre just an attention seeking little bitch.

>>688783465
The way you type.........you come off.......as a................................................................................................faggot..................................
>>688783806
Yep.

>>688783806

>odd sexual thing with a masseuse

greentext, OP, you know we're waiting

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>>688783576
ect is mainly used as the final desperate treatment series for depression, when nothing else works. (it's either this - or - suicide)

>>688784195
It works really well for OCD.
It got a bad wrap from One Flew Over the Cuckoo's nest, but it's making a comeback (done under sedation now, not awake)

>>688779795

Revel in your time. You see a reality few really do. You experience a connectedness, real or not, that most people's heads would explode at.

>be me
>forget about time and space
>realize there is no reality
>exist in a plane outside of reason
>interact with myself and others in a beautiful dance that defies description
>navigate the neurons of reality as though I were flipping through shirts at a shop
>decide on a construction that satisfies as many things as I can experience at once
>forget I am a robot
>forget that even if I find love, I can only experience it as a construct designed to enslave my mind
>forget I can exist outside of the meat that is me
>realize I am happy, and can experience the love of other meat popsicles without falling prey to understanding they exist in a fleshly plane beyond mine.

>>688784557

NEET.jpg

>>688779795
OP, the only reason that you think you won't ever recover is that you think you won't. PTSD usually goes away in 6 months, and it's a normal reaction, however about 7/100 times it stays for longer. You just have to get over that. You're going to let your past stop you from having a future, that's on you. As for schizophrenia, there are meds that can treat your central nervous system and fix that shit, you've probably just self-diagnosed and haven't even talked to a real fucking doctor. Get the fuck over it, you are not a special fucking snowflake because you've been through some shit.

>>688784135

ok it is hard to talk about but basically

>had abusive father
>grew up with violence and every day getting yelled at
>shitty grades in school bcas of said violence
>all the above make me self destructive

>one day went to asian masseuse
>get massage
>get kinky...
>be in so much pain that I try to do something really kinky
>lick the masseuse's asshole
>shit be on her asshole
:>shit went into my mouth
>talk about it in front of father, psychiatrist, case worker
>forever traumatized

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>>688779795
you see a psych, correct? then you should know there are multiple types of therapies for both. there are also numerous combinations of meds, such as seroquel (or any other antipsychotic) plus a med to help regulate the adrenal circuit in the brain (prazosin) that along with either c.b.t. or d.b.t. can work wonders to re wire the brain.

>>688783806
you were traumatized by TALKING about it? or the sexual thing itself? are you a femanon?

>>688784996
I was jokingly going to guess she shat on you from your other post. Wow. I'm laughing my ass off.

>>688784996

why talk about it though?

When I first tried anal with my gf I got some shit on my dick. Didnt even mention it to her, just went to the bathroom after I was done.

>>688784996
yea, having a hard time here -- you have PTSD just from talking about an awkward sexual experience? eggshell plaintiff?

>>688785241
I am male

Yeah talking about it not the act itself

>>688779795
Do more psychedelics. Probably need to up the dosage since most antiptsd pharms are ssri based.

>>688785433

I was brought up in a traditional conservative home so I felt guilty

but more importantly they locked me up in a mental institution so I wanted to shock them by tellling them this story but it backfired... not a day goes by that I don't regret it

try metacognitive training

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>>688784870
you're either uneducated or parroting someone uneducated. ptsd has as a common feature of being long lasting and life altering. there is no time span, there are working therapies however that can work in a very few individuals (usually the "edges of the curve" on analisys) for whom these treatments are this effective.

>>688785069
Lol 'heroine'

>>688785069

I am already on prazosin but it helps me with emotional flashbacks not depression, boredom, disturbing thoughts etc

I am also on zoloft which makes me not able to climax even if I masturbated for 10 mins...
I am also on clozapine but I am still in pain

Just tell me something OP. Are you a namefag on another board?

>>688779795
how about get a presciption for one of the many drugs that can help your ailments Chlorpromazine Chlorprothixene Levomepromazine Mesoridazine Periciazine
Promazine Droperidol Flupentixol Fluphenazine Haloperidol Pimozide Prochlorperazine Thioproperazine Trifluoperazine Zuclopenthixol
Thioridazine Loxapine Molindone Perphenazine
Thiothixene and a fuck ton more that are atypial antipsychotics

>>688781024
Because it has a shit ton of side affects dude. Some of them even make you grow tits. I'd rather be batshit insane than have mantits wouldn't you

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>>688779795
me 2 anon...good luck

I should add that I Was brought up in a traditional muslim family that is why I got scarred and traumatized

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>>688784557
I dig it

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>>688786210
if i may, without seeming rude, perhaps writing down your concerns and bringing it to your psych might help. i know that many people i've worked with have been under the impression that "paternal medicine" is the only format. paternal meaning you do as the doc says or nothing. modern psychology has advanced to the "recovery model" or a more maternal form of medicine. if this psych doesn't listen or gives you flack, fire him and get one with whom you can speak.

>>688785782
That is litterally the worst possible idea a person could suggest, you do know that, though psychedelics haven't been shown to cause mental illness, they are proven to bring forth conditions you were already going to get and make any current condition worse correct?

This is weak ass bait.

>>688787110
What's a trip if you're already crazy?

>>688779795
That's because you weren't given a correct diagnosis. It's like treating someone for asthma when they really have heart failure

if you really are scitzophrenic i feel for you man, i went and thew myself into a drug induced psychosis once and was beeing followed by shadow people, was being threatened by the voices in my head and though everyone i ever talked to had a secret plan to kill me, even the guy on my phone background wanted to kill me in my eyes.

I see they couldn't fix all the whining.

>>688787723
Did you ever get better.
>an antidepressant gave me some kind of latent psychosis also

>>688787258
youll still trip as a normal person, but it WILL be a bad one, and it will make the condition worse, its not a good idea to do something that can challenge the mind like a trip does if you are mentally sideways.

>>688787097

I live in Canada and until recently I was under CTO which means involuntary treatment. Meaning I have o take medication and see psychiatrist or else lock me up and forcefully inject me.

So my current psyvhiatrist doesn't care but she is gov't-selected so I don';t think I could fire her.. I guess I could ask for a change but it is gov't so it is hard to switch psychiatrists

>>688788015
yeah, it went away after I roughed through the stimulant effects of the drug i was on and got some sleep, though a benzo or an anti-psych would have helped. my issue was 5 days awake and a fuck ton off adderall so stimulant psychosis from drug abuse was my issue.

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>>688786980
just become a trap bro, you've already got the whole "mental illnes" part covered

On a serious note though, I used to be mildly schizophrenic, and it was also somehow linked with having nightmares every night. It just stopped after I learned to fight off the monsters in my dreams (no for real they were actual fucked up looking terrifying monsters). For me the "voices" never really said anything audible though, it was more of a noise.

Maybe you should look into this, I don't know what your case is like, so I can't really help you more

>>688785770
snap out of it? not that hard. just the mind is a powerful thing. just fuckin stop

>>688788797
someone doesnt understand mental illness does he?

>>688787723

I don't hear voices or see things thankfully but when I have an emotional flashback I get under the blanket cover myself and turn lights off, tv off, laptop off cuz I think they are recording me.

Then outside around people I think people know I have had a shitty life and they are giving me a hard time.

It is a shit life

>>688779795
OP you say everyone here is healthy or better off than you. The form of epilepsy I have can be easily triggered from lack of sleep or intense stress. My father suffers from bad insomnia and now I suffer from it as well. So I have epilepsy that when I don't get enough sleep, I have episodes and now combine that with insomnia. I take both heavy medication and have a device in my chest that is wired to my brain which is basically a pace maker for the brain. I was diagnosed at 10 years old. I'm almost 24. Fuck off OP with trying to come off as a teenage wannabe emo kid who wants attention.

>>688788469
I had seratonin syndrome and I went to the ER for it and stupidly told them i was suicidal. They sent me to a crazy house for 3 days and put me on resperdol even after I told them I was only like this after I took the Zoloft. They lied to me and told me it was a "sedative". Fucking doctors should have just put me on a benzo. I mean you can't give someone who isn't psychotic antipsychotics that can probably make someone psychotic. I couldn't get a boner for like 2 weeks after only taking like 3 of those pills, and a lot of my hair fell out probably mostly from stress but I'm sure it didn't help

>>688788671
That was me not OP

>>688779795
Take some Ecstasy shits proven to cure that ptsd

>>688789241
ahhahaha faggit your life doesn't mean shit

>>688789241
actually, they can give you that, its called off label use, some anti-psychotics also function as anti-depressants.

>>688789770
take mdma instead, you never know what they put x in nowadays

>>688789216
>>688789216

I didn't say everyone.. I said most.

Most ppl are better than me in health department

>>688790153
If I knew where to get it I would.

>>688789770
he cant combine that with his actual medication, it COULD KILL HIM, will you fucking people stop suggesting OP to take illegal drugs, i mean, i like E and Acid just as much as the next guy, but for fucks sake its not always the answer.

>>688790433
just kys stupid faggit

go for a long walk on a short pier

>>688788671

I'm not op,


I have nightmares every fucking night. Terrible terrible nightmares that repeats themselves over and over with fucking brutal stuff. It's getting to my head wtf should i do

>>688779795
I'm sorry OP. I can't imagine how it must be

>>688786980
as someone whos dealt with having them my whole life shit like this hurts so fucking bad to read

>>688789216
What types of seizures do you have? Just curious.

As for OP I feel ya. Mental shit sucks, been having a pretty severe bout of anxiety for the past two and a half months. I keep getting this feeling like deja vu only more intense. It seems as if my brain is trying to remember something that never really happened. Also everything looks different as if Im seeing the world through someone else's eyes. Sometimes everything looks too small or just seems off. Like the world is in 2D or something. I also feel like sometimes I'm the only one that exists, like the room I'm in or whatever im looking at is all there is in the whole universe.
It may not be schizophrenia but damn it sucks balls. I feel for ya OP, hope ya can get some help.

>>688790386
>>688789216
Dude seriously... I really don't understand what you want. Attention? Well congratz you're getting it. Maybe instead of making it seem like we should all shed a tear for you, ask how other people deal with it. Let me tell you this. If you can operate a computer, get to this website, create a post, and write a sob story, then maybe you are not as "horrible in the health department" than you think you are.

>>688790433
>make bitcoin wallet online
>go to local bitcoin atm
>deposit money into your account
>wear gloves for redundant safety
>download tor browser
>go to pwoah7foa6au2pul.onion
>make account
>look for an mdma seller with trust rating of 5 or higher
>compare prices
>order
>buy one of those digital scales
>measure 0.2 grams once your shit comes
>put in a tablespoon of water
>swallow quickly because it tastes like shit
>put on some music, I recommend techno
>go out into the world look at pretty stuff, and feel the excess serotonin in your brain converting into a false sense of appreciation for the world's beauty or whatever

I'm spoonfeeding you right now, if you can't even manage to do this step by step you really should end it
>>688790658
Do you have recurring themes? What does your mind feel like when you're inside the nightmares?

>>688790658
go to a doctor, you may have a condition known as night-terrors, and they will do tests (like a night stay at hospital monitoring your sleep, you could be prescribed something to help (usually a benzo)

>>688791110
Petite mal seizures. I've had grand mal before but petite mal symptoms are hard to explain. They fill like "time skips" where you'll be walking from point A to point B where is a few seconds ahead and then all of a sudden you're there. Not knowing how you got there and what you were planning on doing when you got there. I also get these twitches regardless if I'm taking medication. The device I had put it in me cost 150k this time around. Since we can afford good insurance we didn't have to pay as much. I'll have to get a new device every 4-5 years.

>>688791637
*walking from point A to point B where point B is...

>>688791232
what the fuck did i just say 3 posts up, Op is on a alpha 1 blocker, An ssri and an atypical anti-psychotic, IF HE TAKES MDMA HE WILL DIE, STOP BEING FUCKING RETARDED AND SUGGESTING PEOPLE TO DO SOMETHING THAT WILL FATALLY REACT WITH HIS MEDICATION YOU UNINTELLIGENT LITTLE FUCKING TWAT.

>>688792068
FUCKING DESTROYED

The pictur in https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OSjSCCe8Ioo

Yeah guys...psychedelics are not for people with currently open customer support tickets for unresolved psychotic features, lol

>>688792068
I didn't read that, and even if I had I was just answering his question. It could have been someone other than OP asking. If he wants to do mdma that's his decision

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all of you would be picked off by natural selection if the world worked the way it was originally meant to.

i have been awake for the last 3 days, been swimming in amphetamine and psychedelics for the last 10 years and feel like a fucking champ. go work out and stop complaining.

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>>688792383
did you just reply that to your own post?

>>688791637
Hmm does it sometimes feel similar to when you wake up somewhere and momently have no idea where you are and what time it is. I ask because something that happens to me sometimes when I'm exhausted. I also get very dizzy and have to hold on to something. A couple people have seen this happen to me and said my eyes kind of roll back in my head for a second.
I used to think they were panic attacks but after a while I kind of just accepted it as a part of being tired or malnourished. I would just panic after they happened.
Also seems to happen with rapid motion like when I'm watching smoke or flames on the grill at work.

>>688792746
no, im still trying to figure out if that anon is agreeing with me, or is insulting me.

>>688791232
> too busy being an adult in the real world to go through all those steps
> screen shot anyways

>>688779795
http://www.scp-wiki.net/scp-series

>>6887930237
agreeing with you
that is if you are the one recommending to OP not to take MDMA

>>688792697
well arent you a special little butterfly.

>>688793067
dude what all you need to do is spend about 20 minutes online, take a walk, operate an atm for 30 seconds, go home and wait for like 4 days.
>>688793023
hey it happens. people on 4chan can be such autists

>>688793237
(the one who posted that ^)
i fucked up that post link

>>688784062
>The way you type.........you come off.......as a................................................................................................faggot..................................
Ah, the irony

>>688792971
The dizziness does happen every now and then where I'll wake up in bed and the room is spinning and I can't make it stop. The waking up somewhere, no I don't experience that. However, I have extremely realistic dreams. To the point where I'm actually scared to fall asleep at times. It's gotten bad enough to the point that over the years I've trained myself that whenever something bad in a dream is going to happen, I close my eyes as hard as I can and open them. This usually wakes me up immediately but over the past year or so, it's becoming harder and harder to wake up from stuff. The meds and stuff I take take it's toll. I miss the times as a kid where I was excited for sleeping and dreaming.

>>688793428
i have no idea how that even fucking happened
>>688792746

>>688793557
see this is exactly what I meant by "people on 4chan can be such autists"
what's wrong with you guys

>>688792068
If he takes it and does die what are we really missing out on

>>688791228

I am sharing as it is.. it is you who thinks otherwise... I am just sharing my pain

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>>688793692
OP's Schizophrenia must be spreading to other anons.

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>>688784557
you've clearly leveled up quite a bit

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>>688793692
What else did you expect from /b/?

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these last 10 posts or so

>>688784996
Kek

>>688793835
us, nothing in reality. But i dont want someone to take a drug thats for the most part safe, thinking they are going to have a good time, and end up dying as a result of a fatal mix of long-lasting medications.

>>688793625
I didn't mean it as you wake up somewhere, just it feels like that. Or maybe thats only happened to me on occasion haha.
Yeah I've been having very intense, realistic dreams too for the past two months or so along with this anxiety shit. Like very emotionally charged and bizarre, especially if i take a nap when I'm sleep deprived. I even wake up sometimes with a buzzing sensation in my head haha.
What are the side effects of that medicine??

>>688782430
But imagine having to live through that every single day of your life. Shit'd suck, dude.

>>688794644
I take this Lamictal and have a VNS device. drowsiness, tremor, blurred vision, skin rash, nausea, ataxia, vomiting, diplopia, insomnia, rhinitis, dizziness, headache, abdominal pain, and fever. Other side effects include: dyspepsia, dysmenorrhea, vaginitis, abnormal gait, pain, constipation, pruritus, bronchitis, weakness, and emotional lability. I know one side effect of Lamictal is delayed ejaculation or something like that. Basically it's very hard and something impossible for me to finish. It's really depressing not being able to finish during sex or even by yourself. Find it ironic that the medication I take causes insomnia and lack of sleep intensifies the symptoms of my epilepsy. The world keeps on spinning.

>c-ptsd and schizophrenia

from what you've written so far it sounds like you have Schizotypal Personality Disorder. i don't think you can get a "trauma induced schizophrenia", but Schizotypal is pretty much what it is. guess what i found to be an effective and almost instant cure? confronting your main fear. in my case it was about talking to people who i thought knew all my secrets. a change of scenery also helps, if that's not an option for you then at least make steps to plan it.

>>688795118
It is a nightmare and you can't fucking wak eup

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>>688784996
Okay, listen to me guy:
Having an abusive father is one thing, and having a weird asian sex massage is another thing. I see how abusive father could have made you obsessed with certain activities and characteristics of life. Possibly to the degree of getting flashbacks. But I see no connection between that and a strange asian sex massage. Unless your dick gets hard for sex and then suddenly goes flaccid for no medical reason - but that's an exception.

Also this is a really good time to do some self-reflection. Because clearly you could talk about to your therapist about how you killed all the dinosaurs. It clearly doesn't matter what you speak of. So the healing process isn't in the discussion, instead it is in accepting these events, understanding their connection to whatever behaviour, and ceasing that behaviour so normal life may go on.

Right now you're not doing that. Right now you're just thinking that those events had incredible importance. Let me just underline this one more time; You got traumatized for sucking diarrhea out of a hooker's ass.

>>688784019
Do you cut yourself with those edges?

>>688796102

You sound like psychiatrists. Mean, no empathy and psychopathic response to human emotions

I got traumatized the instant I finished talking about it...

and now I have emotional flashbacks where I get so embarassed and paranoid for some reason I jet off towards my apartment, hide under a blanket and turn off tv, laptop, lights cuz I think they are recording me.

Where that shame come from?/

of course from that incident at psychiatrist's office

I have unresolved trauma and I am stuck

>>688779795
If you're really schizo show us a paper to prove it

>>688795243
>Vaginitis
Sounds fun

>>688797547

diagnosis isn't given out on written paper

I could take a pic of my medication with date to prove it

>>688779795
serious question, don't they make trigger dogs for skitzos? like when you go full blast, they can kinda be a "warning" to people around you.

>>688798428
Uhm, yes it is, anon. My schizo diagnosis is on paper

>>688779795
half the cure of mental illness is you have to believe there is one.
I saw brain scans of people with schizophrenia vs healthy brains and there is visible difference.
with treatment the scans show visible improvement.

>>688796933
No, you don't have unresolved trauma. You are what's called an "emotional child".

Sometimes it's just good to not be a little bitch, even in the modern world where being a bitch is the norm; the whole asian sex massage episode probably proves that you're creating this shit as you go - you are finding more and more to be traumatized about. This will continue until your psychiatrist decides that enough is enough, and medicates you so that you'll walk and talk like a retard.

I think your problem is that you believe life is about being happy all the time, and so a dip in the deep end is like the world's coming to an end. What makes this even worse is that you're treated like a baby, giving you the illusion that these events had some major importance. You sucking the shit out of a hooker is disgusting, unnecesary and pointless story that doesn't need to be shared. It doesn't even end with a "that's why I see anuses everywhere", it just is a disgusting and irrelevant story.

You are -as you said- a schizophrenic. This mental illness exgarrates and twists a lot of the feelings, memories and thoughts you have. Your emotional flashbacks are sign of somekind of psychosis, paranoid hallucinations... I don't think you are getting enough anti-psychotic medication.

>>688799269

well they have diagnosed me.

but I have symptoms bcas of my abusive father. I live alone but I am still affected by his behavior.

My mom wants to have a relationship but I can't stand my dad. So my mom gets stuck in the middle. She takes my dad;s side out of fear so I have to be nice to my mom or else my dad could hurt her

Anything can be cured with Jesus.

>>688799580
"dont be a bitch"
kek alpha cure for the mental illness.
walk a mile in peoples shoes before you judge them /b/tardation

>>688800177
Dubs that means Jesus is on your side.

I have Tourettes syndrome and that makes shit suck like crazy too, my point is you're not fucking special get over it

I think if everyone in this thread stopped arguing and just prayed for OP his life would turn around and he would wake up tomorrow like a new man. Come on guys. Will your join me in prayer?

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>>688800494
LIVING ON A PRAAAAYER

>>688799580

You sound like a psychopath exactly psychopathic like most psychiatrists

You can't relate bcas you are a psychopath

>>688800494
In Nomine Dei Nostri Satanas, Luciferi Excelsi.
In the Name of Satan, Ruler of the Earth, True God, Almighty and Ineffable, Who hast created man to reflect in Thine own image and likeness, I invite the Forces of Darkness to bestow their infernal power upon me. Open the Gates of Hell to come forth to greet me as your Brother/Sister and friend.

>>688801031
Thank you. Finally someone who understands. Now who is willing to make the required sacrifices to help OP?

>>688782117
Im not lucky. Im an autistic alcoholic virgin and chronic, obsessive masturbator. We are all special snowflakes faggot. No one cares about your imaginary friends or where daddy touched you. Life is fucking hard. Deal with it or die.

>>688779795
Just smoke weed.

>>688784996
>self destructive
prove it faggot

Someone stole your happy and made you sad and now you want them to undo it? Na Na Na

>>688801005
>>688800177
No. I've had a rough life myself, and I totally can relate to peoples problems. But from experience I can tell that it isn't necesarily the right thing to do, because self-loathing and hating the past doesn't get results.

Let me give you a story, which hopefully will give you some insight into the many why's of my thinking.

In 2008 I had a friend. He was a bit tubby guy who was good student, great at mathematics, etc. He came from a rich family and everything seemed to be perfect. Over the years this friend of mine got addicted to drugs. He was like a posterboy for "gateway drug" campaign, he started with cannabis and went all the way to heroin without missing a drug. When he was told to seek help, he did exactly just that. He visited a psychiatrist atleast twice a week, and yet he kept getting worse. Eventually I noticed that he began to change. He started to talk about shit that didn't really have any importance in day-to-day life, infact it was all he ever talked about. A year later he got his scizo meds and with the ultra violent junkies everything seemed to go all the way to hell.

What stopped things from slipping any futher was an incident where he tried to commit suicide (for the 15th time by this point), and his roommate stole all his meds and drugs. Now, turns out he didn't actually die, but was able to call an ambulance. When released from the hospital his roommates beat him to pulp and ripped off his rastas, just incase he had been snitching(?). He had to move away from his own flat, so he wouldn't get killed.

He had this great idea: He'd move together with his hippie friends. So, they rented an old house with them and promised he would do no more drugs - except the good kind, a lot of the good kind. Of course, they didn't live ever happily after. He fucked his roommates girlfriend, did loads of heroin, smoked or sold atleast $10 000 worth of cannabis that belonged to his roommate, etc.

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My psychosis is on plenty of papers. I'm sure that would be the case for other mental problems