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>tfw you will never have her.

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>>688544424
I know that feel

>>688544424
>>688544584

are you guys afraid that u will never have someone that you may wanted to have?
>srry for english btw

>>688544952
We're just worshiping an ethnically Russian woman (born in Soviet Ukraine) and attorney who stood up against the revolutionaries destroying Ukraine's legitimate government. She became Prosecutie General of Crimea (now a part of Russia)

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>Friends are going to festival this weeked
>Bought tickets together, it's cheaper a bit
>They didn't even bother to ask me to come or anything
>Literally, not a single word
>Casually talking about that in front of me, how they can't wait
>This will be bad weeked, I know it

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>>688546484
I feel you my brother...

How do you know you aren't going crazy? Been feeling like I'm losing my mind recently.

>>688545141

That's fucking soul destroying

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>>688546484

>>688547553
because you still think that the problem lies with yourself and that you can fix it.
once you truely start blaming the world is when you descend into madness

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>>688546484
I've been there, anon. It sounds like your relationship with them is doing more harm than good. I've severed my relationship with my friends because of the same type of situation. I feel better off without them... At least I think I am.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dTtFIL6LHLw

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More feels please...

>>688547977
I think the world is out to get me though. I was playing xbox last night and stopped cus I thought the game was trying to play a trick on me.

I was also high, so maybe that played a part, but still.

does anybody have the picture with the gun that says something like:

'with every click, i hope to feel something other than disappointment'

saw it in a thread a few months back but didn't bother to save

>>688549413
highly likely that the drugs had an effect.

let me ask it this way. do you still think that:
'o, if i study harder, get a stable job, save some money, start working out, ect' would help improve your current situation?

>>688545305
So, you're worshipping an ethnic traitor then.

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I am not happy with myself. I have never been. But when I was younger, I didn't care about that much. After all, I had my vidya and friends to play with. I still have both. I just don't enjoy it anymore as I see how meaningless it is.
But I keep playing. It is my way to escape from the reality and forget how much of loser I am in real life.
I am getting sick of everything. I am sick of being single. I am sick of being virgin and having to hear jokes about that from my very own friends. I am sick of being such a pathetic loser, but I can´t break the circle alone. I tried many times, but I just can't do it alone and no one seems to care enough to help me with that.
And longer I stay in this circle of depression and sadness the more empty I feel.

I have nothing to help me keep going.
No interests. No hobbies. No talents. No one to tell me "I love you".I have never heard it from anyone. Hell, I have never even heard anyone saying "I like you, Anon". I can't even imagine anyone being interested in me. Why would they be? I am not the most handsome. I am not smartest. I don't have any special skill. I am just a sarcastical, cynical asshole. I tried to get a girlfiend /b/. I tried to change. No results.

I have nothing. Only thing I have are my friends. But that makes me feel worse. I am getting pissed at them whenever I see how successful their lifes are.
How everyone likes T way more than me even tho he has the same type humor as I do.
How V and his girlfriend make that fucking perfect couple.
How U always gets out of every problem with luck.
How fucking succesfull they are while I am just pathetic virgin without talents or skills.
I am happy for them, sure I am, but in the end it always gets me more depressed.

I have been like this for months now and I feel like dying every day.
I am not suicidal. I don´t think I want to hang myself or anything. I just want to die. Every single day.
Call me beta, call me a faggot. I don't care anymore.

Heh, a feels thread... well i might as well contribute...

>be me
>beta male (Oh how original)
>on 4chan and general internet all day
>decide to make deviantart account
>I litirally have NO friends
>litirally nobody
>so yeah i'm pretty despereate at this point
>find this cringy ass 14 year old
>draws like she's 7
>we... actually get along
>I introduce myself, compliment her art (pfft)
>we exange skype details and adds me to a call
(Yes, I have a Skype account. Now you know how desperate I am for human contact)
>meet another person in the call
>Talk. For. Ages.
>this in incredible
>have I been missing this all my life...?

>>688550857
>suddenly, i get added to a group
>Fucking 5 other people in the group
>about to have heart attack
>I think I'll be happy for once
>fast forward 5 months
>I love everything, depression subsided
>actually have somthing to look forward to when I wake up

>fast forward another month
>signs of bad feelings are starting to rise
>tension between everyone
>now and again little spats start to break out
>I type:
"Calm your tits, not that important..."
>Trigger-Anon is typing...
"Who's tits? How can you be so fuCKINGN INSENSITIV !?!?!?"
>w-wha...?
>I get annihilated by everyone
>turns out I just triggered a group of...
>of...
>attention-seeking tumblrfags
>guy I accidentally insulted is trans-pan-gyne-Idon'tfuckingknow
>get kicked
>everyone hates me
>magical friendship ended in an instant.
>one anon actually likes what I said
>he's a 4chan oldfag, we always got along
>we talk for an hour after the incident
>get even closer than before
>weeks pass, almost forgotten about old group
>get a message from anon-oldfag
>he's just downed a bottle of cyanide pills, and is saying his farewels to me

cont? I'm not the best greentext-er, but I felt I needed to get this out

>>688546484
Holy shit i am having the same problem but we actually were going together then last minute (Just now) they told me they didn't have any room in the car we were travelling in (Most retarded excuse ever) but i feel like shit atm

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>>688550083
thats harsh man...
but don't give up, try to find something you find interesting. I suggest go outdoors, camping and shit. try spending time alone in nature and enjoy it. I do it sometimes, just escape everything, be alone in the woods. it will help you I guarantee you.

btw how old are you bro?

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>>688550141
fixed some of my fukcups.

>>688550857
>>688550996
continue man

>>688546841
Ouch

>>688550996
Cont anon... Get it all out

>>688549957
Yes

>>688551346
Nearly 20

>>688551212
oh man, that sounds fucking terrible. I mean, fuck...
>>688548303
I have to see them nearly every day. I just can't break it this simply

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>>688550996
Man, life sucks

>>688552058
where are you from man?

>>688552228
''I have to see them nearly every day. I just can't break it this simply'' It's like talking to myself i feel exactly the same... I've been friends with these guys for years and feel like i can't just break it this simply...

>>688552397
Central Europe, Czech republic, to be specific

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What's on your mind, anon?

>>688552510
I guess we both just gotta take it and try to make it somehow.
At this point, I don't even care.
Honestly, I hope the worst isn't over yet. Let it come, let's see how down can I go

>>688552735
Fuck i just got turned down, anon.

>>688551728
>>688551859
>>688552369
>>688551728

Alrighty /b/ros

>have no idea what to do
>contacts list empty again
>steam friendlist empty
>no messages
>back to the old cycle of checking empty inboxes
>stay on deviantart anyway
Just so this doesn't get too boring, let's fast-forward another few months.
>a normalfag from the group messages me
>I think the name was 'KittyDresstop' or something like that, they were all furfags
>apologieses for sarting on me
>forgive her, she's 10 as I leared from when we first met
>get along again, I don't want to, but hey what choice do I have
>basically re-introduces me to a few normies
>not the triggerfag, thank fuck
>things are alright again
>someone else joins the grou-
>holy fuck
>is that Jake? (Anon-Oldfag)
>question him prefusely
>explains he was too much of a pussy
>too ashamed to text me again

Comment too long, will cont shortly...

>>688552751
Can't agree with you on that one tho... There is a girl involved in all of this you see so i really hope this is how bad it gets... How old are you anon?

>>688552735
I should be fasting rn

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>>688552963
Ah, that shit always hurts.
You know there are more people out there, right?
And remember that there's more to life than just women... trust me on that one.

So, wanna talk about it?

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>>688553113
And why aren't you, anon?
An ex-muslim?

>>688553037
Don't question your skills, this is a good story

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>>688551897
good, then you are still on the sane part of the spectrum

have a motivating pic related

This just happened but it's making me sick... I've asked this girl that i think i like (it's really complicated) to prom and she said yeah sure and we were going with my friend and his girlfriend but the girl i was going with is gonna go with another guy and she never told me until it was to late

i need more friends

>>688553072
19, turning 20 soon. You, mate?

I can relate.
>Been there. Done that
Are you friends with the girl? How long do you know her?

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>>688543815
WARGA CZY TO TY???

>>688553214
Its been going on for awhile, typical cat and mouse chase, decided to finally admit how i felt and i got friendzoned, what about you anon?

>>688553309
Cause I'm not strong enough, I keep going to porn threads here

>>688553785
I am 18 and yes we became friends and we have been friends for a while but i feel like there is more than that it's so confusing

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>>688553876
Just dealing with the regular anxiety and depression.
I have nothing better to do with my time so I figure I might come in here and help / listen to some other anons.
It gives me that bit of satisfaction, y'know?

>>688553699
The same happened to me this year. FUCK HER. It is such a selfish thing to do and soured my year.

Not only did I later realize just how manipulative she was, but also how much of a trashy bitch she is. She's the crazy type who will recite Bible versus out loud and then go skip out on school to get high. IF FOR SOME REASON YOU'RE READING THIS, BURN IN HELL YOU CUNT.

But seriously /b/ro, that's a fucking terrible thing to do. She doesn't deserve you ever.

>>688553876
Not the anon you are talking to but i feel you... Same thing happened to me (too many times)

I miss someone a lot. The idea of them, anyway. They've changed so much over the past year or two that I have no idea who they are anymore. Having a decent conversation with them is a chore

>>688553037
>Over the fucking moon that jake's alive
>he's my best friend out of the group
>he always has been...
>I'm a little suprised that Kitty just wants to act like nothing's happened
>can't REALLYYY blame her, being only 10 and all
Yet again, for counter-bordem, fast forward. There's a lot to get through.
>still on deviantart
>find a seemingly nice person, can never be too sure now
>art's 8/10
>furfag, but that's nice I guess
>I can remember the name clearly to this day
>KitzySweetart
I honestly don't fucking care at this point. Go stalk her, spam her, whatever. Life's meaningless at the moment.
>talk to her
>yes her again, alot of females.
>we talk for a while
>compliment art
>she compliments mine (I tried a little drawing)
>I honestly can't explain how fast I fell in love
>and shockingly, she did too.
>add her to group
>quite patheticly, life is 10/10 again
(For the next 6 months anyway)
>bla bla, time goes by
>everyone getting along
>and eventually... I confess feelings.

shall I cont again?
not much more to go now.. heh

>>688548758
Fuck...

>>688553785
Sorry didn't answer your second question we've been friends for like 2 years now

>>688554266
Ever thought about getting help?

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>>688554069
Well anon, fasting is all about discipline and self control is it not?
If it's getting too much, maybe you should leave /b/ for a bit.
What's there to do here anyway?

>>688554279
This means so so much, thank you. I am sorry to hear that you had to go trough the same thing

Earlier today I thought about how I'd feel if my dad died. Instead of sadness it was a massive does of relief, like he really is just a burden on me emotionally and cripples my sense of self.
I kinda feel like a shit person, but I get the feeling I'll be a stronger human being whenever he's gone.
Having him linger around is really noxious to the spirit.

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>>688554418
I'm seeing a psychiatrist, and on prescribed SSRIs.
Frankly, it doesn't help much, but I have no reason to kill myself just yet so I'm just carrying on with my life in hopes that it'll all go away one day.
Who knows. Maybe it will.

>>688554352
Keep going, I'm reading

>>688552735
>>688553214
>>688553309
>>688554266
>>688554538
>>688554748

>avatarfagging

>>688554810
same

>>688554352
>>688554810
me too. don't stop here anon

>>688554070
Allright, you might not want to hear this, but if she has never hinted ANYTHING to you or have never shown ANY interest in you besides being friends ofc, then you are sadly not getting anywhere.
I have my painful experiences. I know how you feel, I was in the same situation few years ago. You think you have a decent chace, you will go for it and you'll probably fail.
Then what? It will NEVER be the same between you two.
Sure, go for it, but remember, that she probably won't feel about rejecting you or anything.
I know ho it feels to see her every day. Her smile and all that. How it's hard not to stare. How one word can make your day thousand times better. But maybe, this is as good as it gets. It was for me.

>been there, done that

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>tfw school costs about 11k per semester at 11% interest

>>688554748
Do whatever you want but the most retarded thing you can do is killing yourself... Cry, scream, drive to another country, buy ice-cream for all your money and be homeless... ANYTHING but suicide!

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Well, here´s a short version of my story:
>Was in a 3 year psychosis without knowing
>Still very functional, working, doing stuff
>A lot of drugs
>Things started to dissolve (reality, etc)
>Finally got help
>Put on Zyprexa for about a year
>Off it now, feeling lots better
>Feels like I´ve been through hell and back
>Shit can get better

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>>688554882
And what?

>>688554908
The sad thing is that you're 100% right... And it feels like you understand exactly how i feel and probably the first person to do so

>>688554352
>find out she's norwegian
>I'll hide age, not underage, but I think I've given away enough info about her now already
>regularly talk and facecam
(I'm an ugly fuck, but she likes me somehow)
>I am MADLY in love, I can't even begin to describe it
>she feels the same way
>I was always told, make sure the other person loves you more than you love them
>I wish I'd taken that advice
>it burnt out too fast
>we were together for about... 3 or 4 months
>5th of October 2014
>remember it like it was yesterday
>she has to 'talk' to me.
I was told it's never a good sign.
>oh boy you can guess what happens next...

gonna cont, one sec

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>>688555066
I'm sure I'll hold out for a bit longer.
I have no genuine reason to kill myself, anyway. It's just the thought of not having to deal with anything seems comforting, but I realise that these problems won't be here forever.

>>688554748
Suicide isnt the best option anon, hell its the cowards way out, fucking believe in yourself youre stronger than the shit in your head ! You and only you can get your life back on track and if its off the rails? Build new ones, sure itll be hard but itll be worth it. >You got this

>>688554352
yes do

>>688555475
That's the spirit /b/ro

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>>688555653
>>688555783
Thanks, anons.
It means a lot.

>>688555333
I am sorry, mate. It's hard, I know. I don't wish anyone to be in this situation, it's not really pleasant experience.
It took me almost two months to get my shit together and I think it was one of the most melancholic times I have ever had. But on the other hand, it helped me to realize thing or two.

But hey, I wish you well. Try your chances. Go for her. Maybe you'll make it. Be succesfull where many of us weren't

>>688555426
Go on

>>688554748
Killing yourself wont solve shit and i am pretty sure i am not the first person telling you so... However think about like really think about it? I mean how can you even think about it as an option? That's like the most stupid way to die, the most coward way... Just don't do it cause if you do it, all your problems will still be there maybe not for you to carry and instead of just you and your weak ass having these problems you will make others lives miserable instead..

>>688550083
Where u from bro?
You just sound jelly instead of doing something about it. Everybody can cry. The first thing you do when you are born is you cry like a bitch.

>>688543815
The only good part of my life is when I go to sleep. My dreams are filled with excitement, people and colors. The sad part is when I wake up.

>>688556136
Well thx to your words and your help i actually feel a little better and i know more about what i should do, thank you so much for that

>>688556526
As I said, yes, I am jealous on my friends but I have failed in attemps to change so many times I don't even know what to do anymore.

Sorry guys I'm not a great story teller but here it goes

>Be me 17
>Meet girl called yennifer
>Love her more than anything else
>She becomes my gf
>I feel euphoric everytime I see her
>Seriously the best feeling I ever had, also stronger.
>Lose virginity to her
>Fuckyeahdeeznuts.jpg
>She breaks up 3 monthes later
>Majorly depressed
>Later falsely accused me of rape
>Start to doubt myself even more and despise my own sexuality

Fast forward a year

>Got out of my depression somewhat
>Get LDR gf about 300 miles away, but it's kool since we see eachother reguarly
>Relationship goes well for 2 years
>Kinda coming close to what I felt for my ex
>Just feeling really comfertable with her
>She restored my faith in women
>she dumped me out of nowhere 3 weeks or so ago.


I've lost all faith, drank everyday since and tried to OD on my sleeping pills.

Last night while shitfaced I realized I never really loved LDR gf, she just reminded me of Yen, she just filled the void and that some borderline skank left there 3 and a half years ago.
Worst part is that I still love Yen, god I still fucking do.

So ho-ho! back into major depression I go!

>>688556136
And i would love to talk to you a little bit more it's feels like you're a version of me that has already been through all of this already

>>688556818
Yeah.
Oh, and never tell her how you feel. She'll get scared of. Just hang out with her, just two of you. All that other stuff will come eventually

>>688555426
>she breaks up with me
>pic related
>I say it's fine
>apologise for not being good enough
>beta intensifies
>can't do anything
>can't even bring myself to play skyrim
>can barely get myself out of bed
>continue talking to good 'ol jakey
>hardly ever talk to her
>group isn't the same anymore
>I leave
>don't talk to anyone for weeks
Month passes
>I cannot for the life of me remember how it started
>but me and her start fighting
>arguing about something
>pretty heated, death threats and cancer puns are thrown
>fucking whore
>get cancer
>nobody loves you
.
.
.
>continue not talking to anyone
>start letting cat maul my hand
>too much of a pussy to cut myself, but the pain is nice.
>for the next few months, I just play videogames with jake
>get message from kitzy
>she wants to apologise
>tell her to deepthroat a cactus
>tells me I'm acting like a 10 year old
>alright alright, we settle our diffirences
>pic related again

not over, i'll be back in a bit
If this thread 404's when i get back... well
Could you suggest where else I should cont...?

>>688557071
I wouldn't mind, but frankly, time's pressing hard and I'll have to go soon

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>>688557163
This was the (Pic related) I was meant to use, whoops

>>688556968
Just do mental exercises. Happiness is a state of mind. If you can't do that (and believe me everyone can) then you are too feeble-minded. Good luck fella.

My friends out of fucking nowhere started ignoring me some time back like I never existed even I used to hang out with them like every second day. Usually them and I went out all three to eat or just fuck around etc but now theyre just like I was some stranger trying to get into their group. I have lots of other friends but that still makes me pissed as fuck and upset for knowing the other guy since 2006 and the second one I concidered my best friend for a few years. Now those two just are with eachother going to bars and roadtrips etc and I'm all left out. Hope that made sence since Im drunk af

>>688557266
Isn't there a way we can talk other times? After this thread gets deleted and you disappear with it?

>>688557653
welp, you could add me on let's say steam. I am online most of my freetime.

id: /amatheurffs

>>688557163
Is this cringe?

>>688557940
For sure!

>>688558069
Nah it's a feels thread but i guess you're retarded or can't read... Maybe both, anyhow you can always fuck off

>>688558069
This is my poor excuse for a greentext.
I understand it's shit, you don't need to rub it in.

>>688556895
You kept saying "I have nothing. I have nothing." You have a dream of somebody saying I like/love you. You have friends. You have vidya. You have a goal, to stop being single. To stop being pathetic. You keep counting what you don't have but don't pay attention to what you have. I'll tell you one more thing that you have. A fucking chance. A chance in this pathetic short life of ours to have some experiences, whatever they may be.

>>688546484
Happens to me all the time

>be in school
>No1 gives a fuck about me
>Im just used as "friend" when my classmates are Alone
>My old "best friend" only uses me to talk about his shit and his girlfriend
>My parents only care about my brother's grades and for the shit grades that he has he receives anything (me having good grades I don't receive nothing)
>I spend most of my life thinking about getting home to fap and in 4chan

>>688556968
I don't even try anymore to find a women, I'm ok with hanging around with my neckbeard friends. Probably I will stay virigin forever.

Im going to bed, night anon, i hope you get through all of your troubles in life.

>>688557482
Mental exercises?

>>688556895
Oh yeah and the reason why I asked "from?" was because you sound like a friend of mine. He has the same exact mentality.

>>688546484
where you from anon ?

>>688558808
Meditation, for example. Or visualizing.

>>688556968
another person complaining ive never even had a gf i hate people who complain about past relationships what about the people who have never even had that awesome feel in the first place

>>688559410
Or do a shit ton of lsd

>>688558808
Yeah. What people tend to do in these situations is act defensively instead of learning from mistakes. Your defense mechanism was pinning it on girls instead of perhaps your gullability. Now I'm not saying you shouldn't trust anyone, I just want to show you the fact that your state of mind is tracebale to what you decided. In other words if you underatand the whole situation properly and analyze your mistakes then you should be able to learn and build upon them. It's always easier to destroy and harder to create. That includes you. You can make yourself better or destroy yourself. Choice is yours.

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>Be me. 21. Virgin. Beta af
>Get dragged into a facebook group for a party of an exchange student from the Netherlands who came to anoncountry for a year
>me and my best friend Gabby get really excited for the party because it is being hosted by our really good mutual friend Alice (Note: i loved Gabby since we first met when we were 13 year olds)
>Get ready for the party. Buy weed, because i either drink too much or not enough.
>Party day. Everybody comes (9 people total). I soon realised i was the only guy out of the whole bunch
>watdo.jpeg I'm beta as fuck.
>after 8 hours of me non-stop blazin while the grills were drinking: Gabby finds me and brings me over to the lake near the house.
>--anon, we have to talk
>--okay?
>--i think... i like... Alice? *hiccups* -WHAT am i supposed to do anon? I mean i like her as a friend and i feel like she just kissed me because she was drunk, but im also drunk and i don't know what's right and....
>she starts crying so i hug her. After a few minutes she calms down and says:
>--im so glad you're always here for me anon, it must be hard for you to deal with people like me *hiccup*.... -have you ever been so confused?
>tmw i'm bisexual just like Gabby and have had these problems a few years back. so i say:
>--well yeah, i've had a similair problem with Luke and Ellen. You remember that, right?
>--yeah anon... i also remember that you once liked me
>mfw she said that. i reply:
>--yeah, i liked you since the day i met you and shortly after i fell in love
>*Gabby sighs* -i liked you too
>i fall apart
>i hug Gabby as hard as i can, she does so aswell. We keep hugging for a few minutes until we start looking at each other's eyes
>this is the moment anon, this is the moment you beta piece of shit
>i almost start reaching in for a kiss
>2 girls run up to us and start shaking me -anon! do you stil have any weed? -We want to sell some to Alice's brother in exchange for some vodka!

TO BE CONTINUED

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I have absolutely no motivation to do anything anymore besides get up out of bed, get on 4chan, talk to girls, and listen to Mad Season. I used to feel young (19yo), so full of youth and life and innocence, now it's all gone. I'm starting to feel less and less each day and it scares the hell out of me. I can't form meaningful relationships because I get bored of people and I'm not satisfying sexually. I'm going to school this fall for a major I don't want to study but I don't want to study anything. Everything sounds bland and I think regardless of what I choose, I won't be happy. All the while, pumping happy pills and puffing cigarettes that never help. That's my story.

>>688559626
Did LSD a lot, but to maintain a state of mind you have to practice it daily, which you can´t with LSD. I felt that after a couple of months the after effects of the LSD went off and I picked up meditation and used that as a way to train my mind. Worked pretty nice

>>688557163
If thread 404s there will probably be another feels thread.

CONTINUATION FROM >>688560315

>i look at Gabby, she says - go, i'll be fine.
>ffs, i go with the girls, sell the weed, get the vodka, come back - Gabby is nowhere to be found
>well, anon, yet another typical party. Keep drinking as much as i have left, go swimming in the lake with the others
>at certain points notice that Gabby and Alice keep walking away somewhere
>go to sleep at 06:00
>wake up at 09:00
>Gabby and Alice are both passed out in the sauna laying on the ground
>lel. Wait a minute. look closer. Both of them have very obvious kiss marks on their necks. goddamit.
>Sophie is walking around outside, walk up to her:
>--hey anon, how'd you sleep?
>--apart from the loud music in the background, pretty well. Hey, did you what Gabby and Alice were doing tonight, i don't seem to recall any interaction with them.
>--oh, i think they someone's bottle of vodka, got very drunk, walked around and made out for like an hour
>--oh... okay.
>so, my two best friends, one who is a very deep romantic interest of mine (Gabby), the other - a sexual interest (Alice), have both made out yesterday. Both of them were my BEST friends
>the concept of being a beta male just dawned on me
>tmw you've been DoubleBestFriend-Zoned but also Lesbian-Zoned
>fuck my life
>go back home, go to sleep. Sleep for 17 hours straight
>wake up, muscles dead, unlock phone, Gabby wrote something
>--hey anon
>--sup, how you doin?
>--i'm still hungover :(
>--yeah, well that's what happens when you drink too much
>--yeah... i also don't remember much of what happened. What did i do?
>i pause for a moment. can't bring myself to write her truth about her and Alice
>--nothing much Gabby, pretty much the usual - lots of drinking, crying and crazyness
>--why did i cry anon?
>burst into tears like the beta fuck i am. decide to finish up with the chat:
>--you know, just you being yourself...
>--was i annoying you anon?

TO BE CONTINUED

CONTINUATION FROM >>688560527

>god no she would never annoy me, she is the perfect lady, i loved her for so long nothing could separate us at this moment
>--no Gabby, you didn't. You just needed some closure and i provided it to you :)
>--awww, im so sorry i was so needy... i'm really thankful anon
>i sure fucking hope so
>--you know i'll always be by your side Gabby
>--so will I, anon :)
>end of conversation. what a "great" emotional way to start the summer...
>fast forward to today - the party was 4 days ago. I still haven't had a shower.
>didn't eat for the last 4 days. The only things that sustained my "health" were a bottle of vodka and a few pieces of chocolate
>body is weak, sleep up to 14 hours per night. each day spent drinking and watching youtube, occasionally chatting with Gabby in order to maintain a small level of sanity
>My mother called me today. Said -anon, would you like to go to a concert with me tommorow?
>--sure mom, we'll talk later
>--okay, love you, bye.
>put the phone down, start to cry
>go to store, buy more vodka and some cigarettes
>my body is dying, hopefully i will be dead by the end of this week
>chatted with my bro, he's sitting at home, sick.
>good, won't be around when i want to kill myself
>currently trying to figure out what kind of "goodbye" letter to writre to each family member
>Already wrote one for my mother and Gabby, haven't sent it yet though
>plan for this week - Go to concert together with mother tomorrow to have our last time together. Go to celebrate friend's birthday on saturday. Get really drunk on sunday.
>Hopefully, if i survive untill monday, then i will have reached the end.

Goodnight /b/, have a good life.

>>688552735
I suck at life

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>>688560515
im sure he'll continue, i screencapped this thread anyhoo

>>688559864
Very well said. But how do you go about repairing what's been damaged? How do you build off your mistakes to better yourself when you keep making the same ones?

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>>688560730

>>688560730
You´re surviving, right? Then you win life. Media portrays success in a twisted way. As long as you do what you want to and survive, you´re a-ok.

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pic related
I have never had an intimate contact with a human being.
I have a total of 1 friend who kind of gives a shit about me.
At least I'm doing ok in my university but that's what happens when you literally have nothing else to do than study.
I don't even know what i'm feeling anymore, I'm not even sure I feel anything else except anger and dissappointment lately.

>>688552222
>checked

>>688559864
I have learned from it, raised standards and analized it thouroughly. But eventhough I learned from it all, I still feel like it's not worth it anymore and started to hate women in general...

I think the worst part of these feels thread and stories is...
Well, nobody will actually ever know how they feel, no matter how
well they tell the story, it's a bit impossible to ever grasp how bad or intense it is.

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Anons, my crippling depression is starting to come back and it's making me want to smoke, what do?

>>688546484
Know these feels all too well.

Trapped in a world where you slowly die as you try to gain freedom but only obstacles pop up and hurt you once more.

>>688560725
share your last moments with us and stream it

>>688560786
If you did it twice that means that you didn't learn from the first one. Now that it hit you again you might consider learning from it perhaps? Moreover, what you learn and decide to do in future situations similar to this one will be the way you built yourself. Every time you learn something and decide how to act upon it in the future defines your character. Wouldn't you agree?

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Currently juggling retaking the last part of my university degree while trying to pay rent.

The only problem is that it's work experience related. I feel like I suck at it because I was always to miserable to put any effort into it, and now If I try to pass the course I won't be able to take work on to pay for the roof over my head. Or I can not be homeless and totally fail the course with thousands of pounds worth of debt hanging off me and the disgusting stench of failure.

Spice that up with isolation and a sudden lack of being able to smoke bud to make myself feel better makes me a sad young bloke.

God life is awful sometimes.

>>688546484
Festivals are the definition of over-hyped shit fest filled with people who try way too hard to make it the time of their lives so they can blather endlessly about it to people who don't care.
You dodged a bullet.

>>688560725
hold on a second

>>688560450
It sounds like you have a lot going for you. You're young, just 19 so you're a kid and your life hasn't really started yet. You want to better yourself, or you wouldn't be going to school. Even if its for something you don't want to major in, you still have time to find something you might enjoy for a career. Enjoy your youth. Take the chances you have and make something out of it that you can be proud of. Appreciate what you have. There are so many people out there that have it much worse.

>>688560725
your story is not sad at all... this girl actually loves you... why would you kill yourself?

>>688561524
smoke

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alright ive had everyone tell me im the crazy wrong delusional one and im sick of it so here you go. ive heard it all so call me whatever you like. ever since i was a horny teen ive had the biggest erg for a gf ive tried and failed many times now that im in collage it has not gotten better i finaly came to terms that im a sub and want a domming mommy gf thank you mom for that, so already its hard to find the right girl becasue they all want dom men wich i find appalling but dont get me started on that. i hate anyone with a gf with a passion and have taken the liberty of getting what i need by other means smelling girls chairs stealing my only friends sisters panties. ext. everyone thinks thier better then me when they talk about thier succes and thier gf my friends get pissed when i bring this shit up so im venting.

if you can make sense of what i said by all means call me a fag a dumb ass i dont care it felt good to get it out

>>688548758
just fuck me up

>>688561581
i don't feel like doing it.
if i were to stream, there would be people whou would try to convince me to not commit suicide.
it's kind of too late for that now.
yesterday called my boss and told him to go fuck himself, so i currently have no job and wouldn't even know how to find a new one.
Also, i hope my last moments will be me being really drunk or high, haven't decided yet, so i suppose streaming my actions would be impossible

>>688561649
Yes, i do agree, and once again well said.

>>688560725
>have threesome

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>>688550083
Are you me? Im in the exact same place, minus the Virgin jokes atleast. But oh boy, i genuinely want to fucking kill myself.

>>688562329
it makes a few sence .. but its not wrong been dominated by a girl.. i am a sadomasochist and i enjoy the domination game... but there where plenty times that i had to pretend that i am a normie...

>>688561410
Considering the trade-off it might as well not be worth it. But understand that your hate for women is somewhat justified only in your case. To explain what I mean is imagine playing in the casino, you bet as much money you decided to bet on red. You did that bet to double your earnings, did you not? But if you lost that bet 2 a couple of times in a row it would make you hate it that much more. What I'm saying is that you might have just had a stroke of bad luck. As much as you can't conclude that black wins 100% of the time from 3 loses, you can't conclude that every woman is the same from 3 loses (hypothetical). I am sorry that it happened though, hope you get better bro.

>>688562642
won't be happening
i guess i'll die being a virgin like i always thought it would be

>>688545141
Holy shit

>>688561976
Thanks, Anon, that actually means a lot, I posted on this thread half expecting nobody to read it

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>>688552735
Suicide. Pretty much.

>>688562968
>sex with brother then anhero as he cums

Found out my gf of 3 years, love of my life cheated on me recently. Prior to that had a huge falling out with family.
It's really tough not to pull the trigger sometimes.

>>688560450
19 here too, same. I study hard not because I'm motivated but because that's the only thing I'm good at and it makes my parents happy knowing that their son is doing well in the University. I have a few friends but we hang out just because we've known each others for over 10 years and because they have it way worse than me. We don't even discuss nothing anymore. I'm a kissless dateless virgin not because I'm bad looking or awkward but because I'm extremely bad at showing my emotions or reacting adequately to intimate situations. I just feel uncomfortable in them. The only thing I really enjoy in life are video games but even they disappoint me lately. I lost my ranks in Cs, I can't do shit in hearthstone anymore and since I'm from a poor country and pirate games even that is hard now with the new denuvo anti cracking system in the newest games. Overall I've lost my drive and the only thing keeping me from falling apart is my respect towards my parents. Sorry for posting this shit, I just need to let it out since I'm bad at sharing irl and there's nobody there to listen anyway.

>>688563630
stop whining atleast you had a gf fuck im tired of you people

>>688552735
Way too many for me to comprehend, I just want out.

>be me
>be 23
>never had gf
>feelsbadman

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Every day I find myself laughing and smiling with no real sense of satisfactions. I can't tell if the voices I hear are intrusive thoughts of my own volition and control, or if I just delude myself with that idea and the voices aren't in my control at all. I'm a failure I've always been a failure no matter how hard I've tried. Figure I should end it now just to get death out of the way, but I lack constitution for suicide.

>>688545141
I don't even know what to say...

>>688564356
I'd say go out and find someone, but seeing as I'm that poster, I'd suggest slutting around. Women love confidence, even if you have none fake it.

>>688564826
Bro try meditation or something. Never give up. It's nit worth quitting you might not get another chance to get all of the exp that this life has to offer. Rage, rage against the dying of the light.

>>688558598
You're me in high-school, a pro tip: it doesn't get better

>>688546484
I know this feel. Ditch them and keep talking to people until you met a bunch of fags you can actually relate to. However don't just fucking give up. KEEP TALKING. It took me years to find true friends but I can call them all my brothers now without batting an eye.

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God it's crushing when you post your troubles and it gets ignored.


Welp. Life strikes again.

>>688565219
confidence why confidence then ill find a girl who wants me to be the one who wears the pants and be the dom yuk

>>688565669
i just did the same thing

My problem is that I'm way to sceptical and cynical to life, this has presented me from:
> having friends
> having a gf
> losing my virginity
> having goals in life
> being enthusiastic
And overall being happy.
I'm just a grumpy fuck who wants nothing to do with noone himself included.

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I'm going to see her tomorrow but I don't know what to do or say to impress her/get her attention.
My friends always tell me I should go for it but I'm way too nervous to talk to her.
Friends always say I'm good-looking, nice, funny, smart, etc...
Best friend of mine is getting pissed that I haven't talked to her yet.

Sorry for the faggotry, but I don't know how to start a conversation with her. Can someone please help?

I needed to get this off my chest.

>>688565669
Yeah I never get replies in threads like this, I know my problems aren't as big as other people's but being acknowledged does raise my mood.

How can i be happy? Tips

>>688565688
Don't be anyone but you, but be confident in you, fake confidence and eventually it will be real. How you carry yourself will attract women, eye contact is a huge thing even if all you want to do is look at their boobs.
Being fake will just get you fake ho's.. but if you're only looking to fuck, than you can go as far as making up an entire new person for the night. A buddy of mines code name is "Rusty Shackleford" .. still picks up chick's under that name.. and I don't know how because every time I hear him introduce himself I instantly think of dale gribble.. apparently chick's aren't huge into king of the hill, but don't quote me on that.

>>688566031
Well what is she interested in, what does she do for a living, how do you know her, are there any changes in her life right now. Think about these questions and just use the things you know about her to talk to her.

>>688562329
i.. im sorry anon

>>688566149
Ah it'll raise anybodies mood really. always good to see someone giving you some due consideration.

I'll raise this next glass to you anon! for the lost and forgotten eh?

>>688566763
Cheers mate, I'm going to sleep at the moment but I'll have a beer for your wellbeing tomorrow.

>>688558069
Fuck off. This is a feels thread. It commends respect.

>>688567038
Ah have a good night mate! Hope it goes well for you tomorrow!

>>688565669
Ah man, I think this situation is 'feels' all by itself.
I might as well go to bed, I hope I don't wake up.

I don't know /b/. We've seen some shit. My life is going well right now but we all know that doesn't last long. Best I can do is to hope it will go well for you too.

Life is vast, anons. There is much to see. Just try to enjoy it because there are still things to enjoy.

>>688567708
Hahah I'd have to agree mate. Struggle on. The grind is all we have.

>>688564826
Go to a fucking doctor and talk to him about the voices, you might be a schizophrenic, which would explain the voices, unhappyness, and lack of satisfaction where there should be some

>>688564324
I'll listen to you, anon, no worries

>>688564826
the voices are your friends if they tell you to do something do it

>>688567964
Thanks anon feels better being acknowledged, in the end it's just my fault: I have no self confidence but try to act like I don't give a shit in front of people. What I get is being perceived as an edgy, boring loner. I'm off to bed now, thanks for caring enough to reply. Made me feel better.

>>688568615
No problem, anon

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>>688562329
i never got any opinions usually i get shat on for my views or called edge

>>688566205
there is no tutorial for how to be happy. if you are sad no matter what happens you will remain said. if you are happy no matter what happens you will remain happy. and here i am feeling neither sad or happy..

Anyone else here that is "normal" but depressed without a real reason? I've had gfs, have friends, no money struggles and I am young and at least not ugly af but every year when summer comes around I feel like a stone. It's really hard to describe but I don't feel anything and can't be bothered by anything, sometimes burst out in tears with no apparent reason. It's fucking hard to get out of bed and function like a normal person. I'm sure no one knows what's going on as I always seem to be in a "good" mood and joking.
There is a girl I like that is really into me but I don't want to go on with her because I already feel less every day and I don't want to be cold again to people I love without even noticing it.

I don't feel lonely or desperately need a girlfriend. I just feel like something is reaching out to me and borrowing my feelings for a few months and only leaving a wrack. I hoped that this year will be different but I already feel it slowly coming back and there is nothing I can do except waiting for it to leave.

I want to kill myself, but not because I'm sad. I want to kill myself because I'm tired and I just want to go to sleep.

>>688569874
>>688569504
we are on the same boat anon..

>be me
>living a good life
>got a gf and friends that care
>realize that i don't car
>realize i don't want this
>realize i want nothing
>realize nothing is worth anything

shit nothing is worth anything? why even bother? it's just 70-80 years of entertaining ourself? why even bother?

>be me 25
>horrible self destruction habits
>just spent my whole paycheck on drugs, alcohol booze and whores
>probably eating ramen till rest of month
>considering suicide again
no idea what to do with myself

>>688551576
good shit

>>688570330
thats a fact... in 80 years all our problems will be dust... the universe is way too big to care for us

>>688569874
That's seasonal depression man, it's a bitch, go to the doctor about it

>>688570213
At least nice to know that there are others feeling the same way
>>688570677
I've thought about that too but I don't really want to take pills or something

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I don't even have a good reason to be sad.
I have a good life, loving family and a few close friends. But I still feel so sad, and it bothers me seeing all the happy couples walking around like I'm missing out.

I've tried to convince myself I don't need someone, but I keep thinking it would be nice. Is it really worth it guys? Or is it just for some and not for others?

Here's my feels

>fall for new girl at work at first sight
>work through my awkwardness and ask her out
>find out she has boyfriend
>after a while decide to start dating another girl to try and get over her
>original girl's bf acts like douche and they break up
>haven't talked with original girl in a while because we no longer work together so oblivious to this change
>original girl asks me if I'm going to this event
>tell her yeah. go to event w/girlfriend and expect her there with her BF
>she's waiting for me at the door
>see's my GF and face drops
>not sure what is going on. try to enjoy night with GF but check up on original girl
>time passes and break up with current GF for reasons relating to the relationship itself
>learn the details of what happened w/original girl much later
>in meantime I am just alone and all I do is work... finally have a breakdown
>all I do is get up, go to work, and leave late at night every single day
>no meaning to what I am doing
>decide to get out of the city because no reason to stay I believe
>pining after original girl part of what I want to escape. Sad when I think about her being with someone else
>later find out she's single and tell her I want to be with her
>won't hear of it. We live in different cities now. won't even consider it because she came to the city in the first place for the original BF.
>ask about the night she looked sad. confirms she had feelings for me.
>feel motivated. ask if we are in the same city somehow would she consider it. Sounds like a yes.
>start working to find a job back in the city we met...more motivated than I have been in a year.
>Leave things alone a week. want to have some regular contact so text her. short reply. Leave it alone til end of weekend and try again.
>Get reply "we are just friends. we are only ever going to be friends"
>force myself to not contact her anymore (failing at times but sticking with it now)

This situation just really makes me sad.

>be me
>spend all my time alone in my room
>no lights on
>the only light is my computer screen
>feel alone
>everyone around me makes me feel more alone
>everyone trying to help makes me feel more alone
>my antidepressants make me feel isolated
>I no longer wish to live
>too much of a pussy to end it
>I hate myself
>I hate life
......
What do?

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I'm 22 yo student of the university. Still virgin and no gf. I don't have much friends, only few good ones. I'm quite asocial person (soooo autistic, yeah I know). I want finally meat a girl who would love me and my emotional problems will disapear and think I would be a better person.

>>688558069
yea its cringe, ignore the autists

>>688548758
>went banana and hit mom
you went faggot,should've hit harder

>>688571564
nah, its shit, it never lives up to your expectation.

I sent her "You're welcome beautiful" after two years I worked up the courage and she says "What are you doing?". Later sends a screenshot of her and my friends getting matched.

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>>688557163
Sorry forgot the pic
>>688557359
i aint this guy

b&

>>688560967
seconded

>>688571838
Should've fucking killed her.

>>688561301
considering your lack of (you)s nobody cares about you here

>>688569204
faggot out of /10
>iphone

fuck fuck fuck you i hate all of you

>>688572935
You need to be 18 to use 4Chan

>>688573342
this is 4chan faggot

The sum of all feels.
We are sharing our destiny with other primates. Dominance-hierarches is the root of so much suffering, pain and misunderstandings among us humans aswell. It's too bad really. It cannot be excused, it can't be denied either.

my best friend is a murderer and he is very paranoid of that. I couldn't care for less for the fact that he kills people out of whatever reason.I just want to be his friend again, but i am not a millionaire nor a murderer.

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>>688571564
It is worth it , anon. Dont listen to this beta faggots who cant get girls for shit

my wife thinks of me a fly but stays with me out of pity, we have no children. She already came out saying she is in love with someone else.

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>Well Hello anons is Harry Caray and welcome to another feels bread
>We all come here to share some feels and polish things off with a tall cool Budweiser
>Suffering the crisis of consciousness is the bane of existence, but why?
>Babe Ruth said it was sweet fuzzy pussy that made the sun rise every morning
>I once stared at the sun for over an hour
>All I felt was pain deep in my brain
>I figure that's what triggered my deep deep depression
>We ask ourselves questions like - Would you eat the moon if it were made of cheese?
>The point of such a question is to recognize the failure of words to accurately describe the universe
>Further to realize that words are incapable of description for all that ever was
>And to realize the basic fact that how you see reality is based on one huge lie - that we know what is going on
>So you get depressed
>People wonder why I think these things, >Curiosity I guess. Heck! I'm curious like a cat. I have a couple of friends that call me whiskers.
>My point being is your perspective is broken and you were supposed to realize that your consciousness IS the universe
>That you are you is an illusion
>You are the pinnacle of creation
>This is possibly heaven
>CUBS WIN! CUBS WIN!

>>688574874
thats hot i wish i had a gf who thought of me a s a fly

no bottomkek, no…..no feels today

so what is the point of this thread? why does everyone say nice thing to each other for no reward?

>>688575366
How's summer?

>>688575101
thanks, right i still see her naked from time to time.

>>688574874
Thinks of you as a fly? Think you can save it?

>>688545141
damn... I'm at a loss for words here but you've earned your (You)

>>688548758
damn...

>>688545141
you have a good dad anon

>>688546326
at that angle you should be able to see the lightsaber in the first 2 panels

>>688575473
its alright i guess

>>688575762
sometimes i stand up to her, i tell her i think of her as a bee at those times, only then she doesn't look at me with pity.. I don't know if only there was a way i could be more than a fly to her..

>>688548758
mother is a bitch

>>688575503
i want a woman who will degrade me and tell me she pitys me casue im so usless and she can be my mommy gf

>>688576225
Hm. Well it's tough to rekindle love. Was there something you both used to love to do?

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>>688552222

>>688576370
dude, she is fucking another person!

stop posting your lame high school stories.
literally saw 4 guys sucking each other's cocks about how their prom date was a bitch
focus on posting pics and not in turning the thread into a cringe thread

>>688576554
well atleast he had a gf at one point he should not whine about that

>>688576448
you know we used to crack each other up with jokes and laugh a lot. That's pretty much that..

>>688548758
Holy shit i'm tearing reminds me a bit of me