Too lazy to write it all nicely or tell the whole story or to think too much about it.

Dad pulled me out of the shower and started hitting me.

I saw my dad's erect dick at 5 years. Walked into the bedroom.

remember playing super mario 64 in my old house late at night when i heard someone walking up our stairs, i looked at my mirror that had a view and saw some huge fucking black thing with coal red eyes walking up the stairs, as i saw it its head snapped up to be staring at me. never screamed louder in my life, my dad charged in to find out whats wrong, and never found anything, shit kept turning on and moving by itself in that house so we ended up moving out pretty shortly after.

TL;DR old house was spooky as shit.

>be me
>13 y/o betafag, upper middle class
>bully 9 y/o brother (he already looked like a school shooter back then)
>bullying increases self esteem
>feelsgoodman.doc
>

>>688480766
You probably had a spider on you

>>688481105
I lived in an old farmhouse built in late 1800's. Would always hear voices, dog would bark at nothing we could see, pictures swinging on hooks, doors opening and closing, shit levitating and moving. Fucking creepy shit. I moved out but may parents still live there. I hate visiting and thankfully never seen anything at my new property.

>>688480692
When I was around 7 I started hearing something calling my name. It would happen when I had the water running or was listening to music. I thought it was coming from under a house down the street because it sounded far away.

I had always been afraid of the dark and that never went away. At around 12 I started getting "seeing" things. I'd get really strong images in my head of things that were in my room. There was one that always waited by my bed when I slept. I started making rules on how to survive in the dark.
>don't open your eyes
>crawl don't walk
>never look in mirrors
>talk to God so the demons would become afraid

At 13 I started seeing 3 demons regularly. Eventually I started talking to them. They still scared me but I was lonely and it made me feel special in a way to have things that no one else could have. One of them told me if I listened to him he'd keep the other demons away.

I started actually seeing things around this time. I would wake up and a shadow would be standing over me. Or i'd be walking and look over my shoulder and see one behind me I would immediately shut my eyes and curl up then start praying until I felt brave enough to get away.

At 18 I moved away from my parents. I became a live-in nanny for a family. That is when I first started getting sleep paralysis. You're supposed to only get it when you sleep on your back. I would get it even if I was sitting upright. The parents told me that they thought they had a spirit in their house and they would use white sage to try to get rid of them (they were native).

I stopped talking to the demons because I became to afraid of them but I would still hear things and see things. Eventually I went to a therapist and got diagnosed with psychosis. When I was taking the medicine it made it all go away so I guess it was a just a mental disorder all along. Unfortunately, I can't afford the medicine anymore.

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>>688480692
> be 14
> was playing with a candle in the living room
> i had no toys and wasn't allowed to go outside thats why
> dad comes in from work, sees me
> "don't play with fire idiot, you'll burn the house down"
> "dad its fine its just a candle"
> was dipping matches in wax and held them over the flame
> "you really think you have this under full control huh?"
> "...yes..."
> "well I'll show you how dangerous fire is"
> grabs me and then the candle
> spills wax all over my face
> it burns really bad for a second but cools down quick
> takes my arm and holds the candle under it
> i try to fight back and move my arm
> still burnt me quite a bit
> he pushes me of the chair
> kicks me in the stomach
> "why can't you just not try to fuck me over once you retard"
> leaves, tosses candle in the trash
> back to the crying corner it is

end my life

>>688483150
r u ok?

>>688483309
no i have PTSD, aspergers and heavy paranoia

>>688480692
A few times, when I was 2 or 3, my mom, in fits of rage, picked me up by my hair and shook me violently. Her dad, my grandpa, saw her do it once and told her not to, so she never did again. I remember those times. I remember other stuff, too, but even with being hit, stuff thrown at me, thrown in cold showers in the dark, of all of it, being picked up by my hair and shaken so roughly was the worst.

>>688482999
Inverted 666 checked.

>>688483658
FUCK

>>688483431
You should stop having those. Sounds like your not doing your well being any good by accepting you got all of that.

>>688480692
My stepdad used to rape me after he had custody of me after my mother's suicide
I now fap to rape porn and Bernie Sanders rallies

>>688483717
>Bernie Sanders rallies
I feel terrible for you

>>688483717
>and Bernie Sanders rallies
kek

>>688483150
14 years old and still being a stupid enough to play with fire in the house..

Id kick your ass as well

My most horrifying memory was waking up in the middle of the night to get a drink and looking out the window to see what i think was my younger brothers ghost standing next to the pool he drowned in. He was 2 and i was 7, scared the fucking shit out of me

Once when I was 10 I was kidnapped, luckily they found me a week later.

>>688480692
Seeing my moms dad almost fight my drunk father and almost beat each other up. My moms dad would have won though. It was all a big misunderstanding since my dad probably has assburgers and doesn't know always what he says might come off wrong.
And my mom's dad is just a hick that doesn't understand much anything.
Wish I was older when it all happened, would have intervened, I was helpless...

>>688483697
OH REALLY NOW???
i totally didn't know that these things are HARMFULL to me! thank you SO MUCH for helping me out there, i guess ill just stop being depressed and having mental disorders now.. wow! you need to be a psychiatrist with those abilities of yours. while im at it might aswell stop having a broken leg because its really getting in the way don't you think??
i hope you are fucking kidding me and trust me, i would actually beat you bloody if you said this to me in person you fucking retarded scumbag

>>688484807
>getting this triggered over an Internet post

Please kys to make your suffering end, it'll be better that way for you and us

>>688483431
Hang in there; when things get tough just remember you always can count on family to be there for you. <3

>>688483717
>and Bernie Sanders rallies
Top kek

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>me
>10
>at school
>teacher gives me an F
>tell teacher to eat a dick
>teacher grabs ahold of me and looks me dead in the eye
>shit bricks
>all of a sudden teacher gets down and unzips my pants
>"you want me to eat a dick anon?"
>teacher starts deepthroatin me
>cum buckets
>teacher gargles and swallows it
>mfw I'm home schooled
>mfw it's dad

>>688484807
> i would actually beat you bloody if you said this to me in person you fucking retarded scumbag
Thank goodness for the internet :^)

As a side note, if you beat me up, I'd have you sued and spend all your money on frivolous things, probably worsening your condition.

>>688480692
>be 7
>something wakes me up, its just before sunrise, I can see in the almost light from my window
>someone is standing in my bedrooms doorway
>groggy and still mostly asleep say 'daddy?'
>realize my covers are not over me I start to twist around
>hands grab my ankles and I'm on my stomach
>'DAD?' I started to shout but a hand grabbed my head and pushed my face into the pillow
>trying to scream through the pillow I didn't notice my pj bottoms going down and off
>a sudden sharp pain filled m entire lower body
>the hand holding my head pushed harder and I couldn't suck enough air through the pillows stuffing
>I felt myself die
when I woke up I thought my dad had attacked me but it was just a dream
a dream as realistic as real life
I really hate those

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I have two.

>be me, about 10-ish
>walk past toy room to get to stairs
>we live/d in a really expensive house in the eastern suburbs
>toy room has shutters that open to front yard
>walk past door
>see black silhouette of a person running past
>ohshit.avi
>see it again a few times over the course of the next few years
>it doesn't show up on the security camera
>fast forward to when I turned 12
>got dog for Christmas
>no more ghostly silhouette

This one isn't paranormal or anything, I just fucking feared a teacher so much

>be me, 14
>Turkish casual teacher for Maths double period
>we're all rowdy fuckers
>I can see casual is barely keeping his cool
>after class I go up to him and apologise
>beta_af.png
>ask when his birthday is
>I wanted to get him an apology present
>he thought I wanted to fuck
>60-something old man casual teacher thought 14 year old dude wanted to fuck as a way of saying sorry
>he seductively raises an eyebrow
>neckingmyself.m4a
>quickly explain what I meant before he went anywhere with that
>mfw dirty old man casual thinks 14-year-old me was soliciting gay illegal sex as an apology

Violent sexual abuse from my uncle and mother.

>>688484807
Someone get this hothead outta here!

>>688484627
why intervene pussy? let the men settle their differences

>>688484807
>i would actually beat you bloody if you said this to me in person you fucking retarded scumbag
No, because you're only a shell of a human being. I mean, all those horrible memories must make having a social life very difficult right? If they're real I imagine you wake up from nightmares in the middle of the night. Someone like you can't do shit in a fight. At the first moment of tension you'll break out crying like a little baby.

My mother hanging my dodo bird, stuffed toy which was my safety idol at the time, out the car window and rolling it up on him on the highway.

The pool one actually spooked me.

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>>688486159
i like how you have no idea about anything at all.

>>>/x/

>>688484591
expand
what did le kidnapping mastermind look like
my guess is a cunning frenchman who looks not too dissimilar to Franck Ribery

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>>688482123
Fuckin LOL!!!!!

>>688482999
Tl;dr anon has schizophrenia

>be 5
>Dad and his girlfriend shopping in Kmart
>"Anon, go pick out a toy."
>fuckyea.danceparty
>run off to do as told, maybe two aisles away
>dicking around looking for perfect toy for maybe 5 mins
>Dad's gf suddenly comes up beside me, tells me to hurry up
>looks really pissed/upset, thought it was at me
>hurry up and grab something
>leave and get in car
>she starts telling me and dad how some weird old dude kept staring at/getting closer to me, was keeping his hands in his pockets, just looking really shady
>she approached him and asked what he was doing
>dude powerwalked away like a white woman passing a homeless guy
>that's when she hurried me up
>"You need to be careful around strangers, anon."
>mfw even tatortot me knew I almost got kidnapped
>mfw I realize several years later what would have happened after the 'napping
>how can you have a face for that

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>>688484807
Wow, all these anons talking this so seriously! I laughed my rse off at the response. You guys are worse than the original poster

>>688485424
Hahhhahahahahahaha

>>688482999
So now, since you're not on the meds? Hearing and/or seeing things, at present?

>>688487407
Is that a hamster?

>>688484807
This reeks of tumblr

>>688489664
Yeah pretty regularly. It's worse when I don't get enough sleep, but I've mostly learned to deal with it now. I can tell reality from hallucinations. It's the paranoia that gets me. Always thinking people are out to get me. I hear "hints" in conversations a lot like they are subtly telling me they are tracking me or know more than they should. I see a lot of "hints" that people I know are following me and that they plant things online or around me to show me that they are tracking me. I KNOW it's not real but it really gives me weird vibes. I don't make friends anymore.

>>688482123
Lost

>>688489953
Damn, that sounds pretty disturbing. Sorry. You know that there are sources (other than deep web) where you can buy legit meds for far cheaper, yeah? Takes a bit of research to find a really good source for a specific medication but they do exist.

>>688490657
I couldn't find it last time I checked. Latuda (Lurasidone) is the one that helped the most.

It can be disturbing, but it can also make life more interesting. I don't really leave my house other than for work so sometimes it can get fun to stay up all night following 'clues' online trying to figure out conspiracies that are happening.

>live in semi expensive apartment with parents when I was 4-5 years old
>wake up one night and go into bathroom
>doll person standing there
>can't move, way to fucking scared
>couldn't yell either, only thing I could really do was whisper
>tells me things (way too long ago so I don't remember what he said)
>ends with, something along the lines of "I'll be seeing you again"
>wake up a ok in bed, morning
>almost a year later, the first Chucky movie comes out
>doll person looked exactly like Chucky
I had dreams for a long time about the Chucky doll dude, sometimes I'd kill it but it keeps coming back.

>be me in 6th grade, 4'11, small and skinny fag.
>didn't have many friends because I was quiet and didn't like sports
>had a few friends that I hung out with, kind of geeky
>we would meet up during recess behind the playground by a dumpster and play cards and shit
>other than that I talked to nobody
>hated all my teachers and was never academically gifted
>one day I was really tired because I got about 3 hours of sleep the night before
>told my mom I didn't want to go to school because I was so sleepy
>she made me go to school anyway
>tired as fuck and falling asleep in class, can barely keep my eyes open
>math class right before lunch and shit is so boring I put my head down and fall asleep
>nobody notices me as usual until suddenly in my subconscious I hear yelling
>my bitch teacher was ranting about something irrelevant and started raising her voice which woke me up
>I was in the middle of having a nightmare involving clowns, and I woke up screaming at the top of my lungs and fell backwards out of my chair
>expected kids to be laughing but they just looked shocked
>hit my head on the floor when I fell out of my desk, was bleeding and had a concussion
>threw up on the floor immediately and was still somehow not fully conscious
>started blabbering about my nightmare which involved clowns
>teacher tries to help me up off the floor as classmates stare at me with horror
>covered in vomit and murmuring "clowns...clowns are coming"
>stare dead into the eyes of all my terrified classmates who have never heard so much as a word out of me
>Teacher drags me out class and takes me to the office where I go to the nurse
>get sent home and cry to my mom about how fucking embarrassed I was
>transfer schools after that

but there's more....

>>688491651
cont.
>about a year later, going to a different middle school
>average amount of friends, more social and generally happy
>almost completely forgot about the incident
>went to the dollar store with my mom one day and see this kid I don't recognize
>he comes up to me kind of nervously
>I ask him what he wants and he hesitates
>kid says that he was one of the few who witnessed my incident
>says that after I left everyone at my old school was talking about me
>people thought I was schizophrenic and started rumors that I watch clown porn 24/7, also told me that the classroom still smells like vomit to him
>fuckmylife.jpg
>leave store with my mom
>mom asks me who it was and I tell her I didn’t know who it was
>still embarrassed to this day and praying none of my friends ever find out

>>688490922
Haha. Sounds kind of fun, actually. Your own, personal game of Clue. Search ioplist. You might run across a source there or someone who knows of one.

>>688491701
30 20mg is still $250 on the canadian pharmacy but i'll check it out maybe there is a cheaper one out there.

>>688491701
Would you cunts get a room already? You're fucking this thread with your bs>>688491841

>>688492085
relax. it's a slow thread. this conversation is keeping it from dying.

>>688484807
I kinda felt sorry for you at first after you said you had PTSD. But seriously, just fucking kill yourself. Sarcasm is cancer in real life and even more so when you attempt to use it on the internet.

>>688484807
Easy bro, I think anon was suggesting that you have already done the hard work of recovery which is accepting what happened, and that you deserve to enjoy the rewards of a happier and fuller existence. I think anon was suggesting that it should be possible - with counseling and time - to reach that place. Frankly I would have said the same thing anon. God bless.

>>688487818
Do us all a favor and kill yourself

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>>688492085
Oh sorry, didn't realize that my text was blocking your view of the rest of the text.

>>688484936
OH REALLY NOW???
How about I just go eat a bag of dicks?? Are you some kind of psycologiegist too?! I think you should check yourself before you wreck yourself m9

>>688488819
summernigger

Dad made me watch the Exorcist with him when I was 6yrs old.

>>688492557
>psycologiegist
>psycologiegist
>psycologiegist

>>688489128
spooky

>>688484546
rip

>>688485424
kek'd

>>688492768
Sie-Cho-La-Jizz
what are you not getting, ye mad full blown beetard.

>>688484807
tumblr's leaking again

>>688480692
losing virginity to grandpa

>>688480692
clowns rnt just a horror memory from childhood

>>688484807
Fuck you faggo

>>688482999
>I can't afford the medicine anymore
Too strong a punchline to be a believable story, but a good story nonetheless, thanks Anon.

>>688493115
Okay. You got what you fucking wanted. Jesus, I'll admit it.
My jimmies are rustled.
Is this what you wanted, you sick mongoloid?
you ruslted them so bad they cannot forgive.
R.I.P

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>>688482999
We are still here for you.

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>>688482999
We are still here for you.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2-QsJJyiVHs

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>>688491841
Anyway, yeah that's pretty steep. The fact that meds people actually need are so outrageously expensive, is infuriating. Hopefully you're able to find them cheaper. Are there no generics or?

>>688493473
One of them did kind of look like this you gave me a fright :(

>>688493646
Yeah I only read your first post before replying. I feel sorry for you now Anon. Ain't there any kind of organisation that can help fund your treatment, associations and the like ? I'm not an American so I wouldn't know.

>>688493806
If that rustled you jimmies then I suggest you don't click on the youtube vid link a few posts above this one.

>>688480692
>be me
>18 F
>went traveling in Bangkok
>found a secluded hot spring
>thought no one around will go naked
>naked and loving life
>feelzgoodman.jpg
>10 men randomly come out of no where
>raped for what felt like forever
>screams just made it worse
>thai men just laughed and passed me around
>couldn't ring home
>was stuck in that filthy country for weeks
>finally have enough to go home
>dont go home due to the embarrassment
>still living in asia
>just adopted a new pet to make me feel better
>Everytime I come home
>Always trip on step and fall to the floor
>To walk the dinosaur
>.....
>.....


STILL GET CHILLS TO THIS DAY

>>688493876
I am part alaska native. I used to get healthcare for free in alaska. I don't live there anymore though. A state nearby might be able to, but it says that they just treat general health for alaska natives there for free. It's a long drive too but I'm still looking into it.

>>688493527
MY JIMMIES ARE RUSTLED

>>688480692
your mother

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Being anal raped by some man at the park. I was running away from some black kids that wanted to steal my toy, and then someone tackled me. Then my pants came down and there was a horrible pain in my ass. I laid there crying for a while and nobody came and helped me. I eventually got up, I saw an adult and went over to try and explain why happened but 5 year old me did not fully understand. Eventually some cops walked by and the guy bolted, one of them chased after him and the other came to talk to me. I remember telling him I had to fart, and it felt like I sharted and when I eventually checked there was no brown stain and I did not understand. Needless to say they never caught that fucker and I don't trust cops to do their jobs either. Fuck people man.

>>688493876
Different anon here. The answer to that and
>>688493660
Is a resounding No.
And no one actually cares about the mentally ill here. Cops actually shoot to kill around 80 times more when they know ahead of time you have a mental illness. Beyond that theres basic health insurance but the fact you have standing medical condition that won't go away and requires expensive medicine means your premium will just be massive.

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>>688493806
I have some experience with it. They tend to look like this. I once took 60mg of yohimbine which started a 24 hour psychotic episode with voices/chants, borderline hallucinations/powerful imagination etc

They are still here. They wanted me to 'assure' you that they are VERY real and are annoyed at your recent lack of faith.

>>688494052
I also saw you're learning to live with it. I'm no psychologist but could it dedramatize the symptoms and actually attenuate them ?
I know that my nightmares are very frequent and I used to hate them, but now I'm trying to write about them. It helps.

>>688493983
Tits or gtfo. I didn't even get past >18 F.

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>>688494294
sorry to hear that man

>>688494362
I actually haven't been talking to God as much as I should. I have recently been trying a bit more but this reminded me I need to keep up on it.

>>688489953
You should be locked the fuck away and never be allowed out

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>>688493983

Nobody has every failed as hard at anything as you have at that post

>>688493983
Tits or gtfo

>>688494380
Schizophrenia gets worse with age. You can "treat" it with calm of mind exercises like writing, art, hobbies, etc. but eventually you'll start having episodes again. Thats when you REALLY need those pills you can't afford. Brightside? If you aren't taking them now you won't have a built up resistance then.

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>>688494484
Took several years of drug abuse to accept it, my parents still don't know and it has been 23 years. I'd say I am fine at this point, good job, nice house, great wife, decent life.

>>688481105
The black thing with glowing red eyes is actually common.

>>688494380
Had to look up "attenuate". It helps me not feel like there are so many demons when I ignore those thoughts. But it does express in other ways like hearing things a lot or sometimes I see my door handle moving like someone is trying to get in but I've looked and no one is. The other morning and saw a man walk into my apartment I thought it was the maintenance man but I couldn't say anything to him. He looked at me then backed away. I ended up contacting my apartment complex just to make sure it was a hallucination because I really thought someone walked in. They said no one had unlocked my door that day. I worry more about looking crazy to people than about actually being crazy. I don't lose touch with reality at all I just see things and hear things that aren't there.

>>688493983
>going to a anon board and telling everyone your a girl

>>688494746
It's psychosis not schizophrenia. Similar but schizophrenia is worse.

>>688494746
Oh well. Good luck I guess. Isn't there any way to make it less serious? Aren't the meds supposed to reestablish proper balance in the brain's chemistry?

>>688494484
By the way that face is perfect for your response.

>>688494773
glad to hear that

>>688494620
Not him but similar. You can eventually learn to differentiate between hallucination and reality quite easily. The hallucinations have a "feeling" even when its just sound or visual that lets you know the difference and once you do its like knowing you're dreaming and can just force yourself awake. Hell thats how a lot of serious schizophrenic artists live and get inspiration. Seriously, it can just happen in the car and suddenly the skies red and some corpse is riding shotgun talking about string theory and you just go "ha! No." And sort of "wake up" to reality without missing a beat. You don't even lose time. I almost enjoy it for breaking up the monotony.

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>>688493527
This is what mine looked like. The third I could never see clearly enough to know what he looks like.

>>688493527
What the fuck I've seen this, only from torso up but the ear-ear smile fucked me up. It appeared once and I told it to get out and I opened my eyes because that fucker was too spooky, then I saw it again and like a flash of lightning it was gone.

>>688494958
Oh man... Do everything you can to get your hands on the proper medication then, move to Canada or back to Alaska I don't know but you can't keep on living in the uncertainty of your perception of reality forever. That's the way you become properly mad I guess.

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>>688495198
If I ever had 100% proof that I met that guy I would kill him in the most horrible of ways, and if convicted I would have no rugrats.

I thought i was being chased so i Took a Fork and walked to my Best friend

>>688495530
>rugrats

>>688495460
I was invited by Mensa to come take a proctored test since my IQ is around what would qualify. I have been practicing mind puzzles then I'll probably go try it. If I can get in I can apply to Mercer for health insurance

>>688495083
Well yes and no. There's "treatments" like therapy and aforementioned activities. The former helps with the struggle and the later occupies the mind so you're more focused. The issue with meds is they're aimed using a normal brain chemistry point of view and you're working with a brain thats chemically altered from birth via adjusted to whatever chemicals are or aren't present in the right or wrong amounts.
This is also why chemical depression (non-emotional and therefore only treatable with pills) only has a 7% cure rate.

>>688494514
You die as you live. They appear as angels to some.

>>688480814
Have you gotten off to that memory often?

>>688494658
>Nobody
>EVERY

fuuuu... bro get that noose and get crazy like a juicy goose - hang yourself.

>be me age 6
>christmas morning all family there
>me the show off jacks off dog
>dog does funny dance
>akward silence dad knocks me out
>sent to my room crying christmas morning
>hear a noise get to open presents?
>no dog scratching on door

shit's getting too real on here. gotta blast

>>688495627
I just want to know what would have become of me had that never happened, but alas that is a pipe dream. It makes me so very angry.

>>688495887
He wanted you to finish what you started.

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> be me, 7
> had visions
> occurred randomly at normal times of day (at school doing math lessons, ect
> would space out hard core seeing images like they were things i actually experienced
> people dead or alive, getting surgically ripped apart, tortured, or sometimes used like someone was just curious what would happen.
> sometimes they were several fragment images played one after another, sometimes a couple minutes worth of one thing happening but in an instant.
> i had experienced first and 3rd person views, saw words written in different languages in letters held close, sometimes i saw them written on walls in ash
> 2 or 3 times every couple months this would happen for a couple years
> much later in life i went to seek professional council, and it was indicated i might have had minor depression, but nothing that explained that occurrence. my closest guess before that was maybe paranoid schizo
> there were a couple generations back in the family that were suggested nazi army related but nothing anyone wanted to talk about.
> glad that only lasted a couple years, since that shit was unsettling

>>688495285

Nah, that doesn't happen... Right?

I mean, do they at the very least look real? Or is it outta some campy 80s horror movie?

>>688496277
Maybe psychotic depression? You get psychosis when you're depressed. It is most common if you had a bipolar parent.

>>688495746
Get to it then. Plus it'll give you focus.
But seriously at first I thought you were telling a pretty story. If you're smart about it you could write a rather good novel I think.

>>688496408
When I see things I usually know they aren't real they don't look like everything else it's like a really strong thought. Like if you imagine a red ball sitting in the middle of your floor. You can see it in your mind but not with your eyes. If you increase that "vision" by 100 that's what a hallucination is typically like. You don't see it but your mind does. Usually it doesn't last very long.

>>688496230
Kek

>>688496579
Thank you, I always wanted to write something

>>688496714
Me too, but I'm afraid I'll underachieve it again and it would devastate me because it's a dream. It's work but you seem clever enough to make something good.

>>688480692

>be me, 5y/o with older brothers (8&9 years older)
>living in a small village near 2 sites of a forest
>parents were working everyweekend nights in own bowling-center (eu-fag)
>so brothers regulary babysitted me on those days
>obviously pissed, they played many pranks on me
>one little prank: both dress as scream-horror-guy with knives and masks and so on
>when they showed me the movie, they ran into the room with the dress
>almost shit myself
>"little prank"

wanna hear more?

>>688481105
red eyes black dragon

>>688480692
Was about 5 or 6 - my mum had a New guy and this guy brought his daughter with him. She was about 13 or 12 I think.

One day she told me to Close my eyes and lay on the bed. She was trying to put my dick in her vag. I think my dick was limp.

Was scared as shit at this time. But now I like this memory. Still See her now and then and thinking about if she would do it again. I will Not resist this time neither

>>688496408
I'm the schizo not the psychosis anon and mines pretty bad. They're pretty damn real. Like physical sensation, i will get hot and start sweating in hell even though imm shoveling my driveway in -20 winter, type real. It took me a bit but theres this sort of "feeling" it has. Best way to describe it is if you ever felt faux leather and italian leather next to each other you have all this insanely crazy fine texture and detail in one that you can see the other try to mimic and it just falls a bit short in all aspects.
For the longes time i actually let it happen rather than "wake up" cause i was working office accounting in a shitty place that meant i was stuck in a 5x8' closet with a desk and 2 fullsize filing cabinets full of paper work for 8-12 hours a day, no windows, and like i said earlier seeing shit like cats turning inside out then rightside in as they walked or the walls talking through text that just sort of appeared on them broke that monotony. Didn't know till i got talking to a therapist for serious depression and eventually schizophrenia that just letting it happen actually makes the condition worse.

>>688497276
I was hoping for spooky stories. These just make me sad.

>>688497477
Have you ever lost touch with reality? Like you couldn't get out? What was it like?

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>be me little kid around 4 years old
>just me and my parents at this point in a small suburban area
>have a neighbor named Maurice
>nice old man who apparently used to be rich as fuck
>has 3 kids but they are all fucking degenerates thag spend more time fighting over inheritance than visiting him
>dude is lonely as fuck
>for about a year my parents invite him over for dinner every Sunday
>think of him as an extra grandpa
>one day after dinner I was talking with him while walking to his house across the street
>He drops right on the sidewalk
>I think he is just playing (used to do funny shit around me a lot/ quarter behind the ear ect.)
>then I walk closer and the dude is foaming from the mouth, eyes rolling back into his head
>He starts clutching at me and making this moaning sound
>allmywat.jpg
>He dies right there in front of me while I'm paralyzed with fear
>Later that same night I can't sleep
>keep thinking of his face
>then I swear I can hear him moaning again from outside my window
>as soon as I look over my bedroom door fucking SLAMS open
>house wasn't built on a slant/lock wasn't bad so no reason for it to do that
>parents come in and find me screaming
>terrified for a good year

>>688497634
All the time when i was young. Like i said it took a bit to realize it had a different sort of flavor or feeling from actual reality.
It was kinda weird in that one sec i'd be sitting bed the next i'm on some rock in the middle of empty space or my classmates are all rotting corpses or the trees are all on fire but that wasn't till age 10ish or so and i knew enough not to just start screaming and remain calm.
Doesn't help that mom was rez born so she did herbal and spiritual everything to try and help before sending me off to an actual doctor around age 19. Apparently it runs in my family which coincidentally has given rise to my tribes medicine men almost every generation minus me.
It doesn't happen as often since i actively keep my mind occupied with things like reading, games, or work.

not a childhood memory, and mor eof a funny coincidence, but when I first watched somebody playing Silent Hills, there is a moment near the end of the playthrough where the screen flashes red;
I have a lamp in my living room that is on 42/7, has been for years, curtains always drawn
at the very millisecond the screen flashes red, a bug must have hit the bulb of the lamp, because the room flashes red simultaneously
scared the crap out of me

>>688484807
is this liam you faggot?

>be 16
>pull an all nighter with friends
>weed/alcohol in excess
>4am, let's go to IHOP
>head out with friend and friends boyfriend
>IHOP filled with drunk bar crawlers not ready to go home
>friends boyfriend is calling a weed hookup
>"hey anon, can you save the table for us? We're gonna go pick up the weed and be right back"
>noproblem.jpg, at least they paid before they left
>chill with my coffee, try not to fall asleep
>drunk guy walks up
>"Hey beautiful, what are you doing here all alone? Come with me, I'll keep you company."
>me "no thanks, buddy you're drunk. Why don't you go back with your friends over there"
>he gets belligerent
> "you listen to me you fucking whore...
>grabs me and lifts me up from the table and proceeds to scream at me
>busboy comes running out
>essentially rescues me and kicks out dude
>call my mom to pick me up
>dude stands outside in the parking lot and stares at me while I wait
>cry the whole 45 minutes it takes for her to get there
>give the busboy $50 for his chivalry
>come to find out friend forgot I was at IHOP and pretty much abandoned me there

>>688484546
>my younger brothers ghost


Seeking attention this bad

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>>688484807
Shut the fuck up nerd

I was 7 and my mother's current husband (my stepfather) was a raging alcoholic in a fit of drunken anger picks up 7 year old me by the neck and throws me across the living room into the sofa I attempt to run across it to the freedom of a lockable bathroom and he grabbed me by the ankle which caused me fall over the side of the sofa and snap my left femur, my mother worked 14 hour shifts to support me my two younger brothers and her alchaholic husband wait two days for her to get a day off to tell her my leg hurts and be taken to the hospital. To afraid to say what had actually happened I lied about it, after I get home have a filthy drunk man wake me up in the middle of the night with threats of death if I talk as he chokes me almost to the point of my blacking out. Pattern repeats until I'm 16 resulting in two broken clavicals, some broken ribs a shattered elbow that required surgery completely destroyed right ankle several broken toes and fingers and sever emotional trauma, in his final night of drunken rage I get pissed with his lazy ass cussing me out as he sat in a chair and proceeded to get biligerent take a meat tenderizer and bust him in the mouth one good time resulting in him losing a few teeth and a broken nose and him calling the cops on me, after I explaining years of trauma I get a 6 month probation and he isn't allowed within 500 yards of my family, pretty normal now still have some anxiety about physical contact but everything seems normal

>>688485935
Why did nobody abuse me?
I know I was cute enough.

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>>688500522
Good for you, showing that cunt who's who!

>>688499680
Who is Liam?