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>>688102751
What's wrong OP

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>>688103072
3/?
>>688103209
Eh, just the usual. Get depressed every so often and tend to push through it.
Mostly tends to be caused by my loneliness I think.
Plenty of people find me attractive but I can't seem to find someone I'm compatible with.
Been alone for about 3 years now.

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>>688103734
4/?

>>688103734
Same boat anon. Do you work out?

Well... no feels thread tonight I guess.
Goodnight all.

>>688104447
Well shit. Bumped just in time. And nah. Always been well off when it comes to weight so never really thought about it.
>>688104333
5/?

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>>688104634
Forgot to post pic.

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>>688104634
Op you should start to lift weights, get muscles and get noticed

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>>688104634
6/?
>>688104838
Guess it wouldn't hurt. I'll check it out and post on here in a few months if I make any progress.

>>688105351
Do it anon I believe in you /b/rother. Well my tablet is about to die so I wish you luck anon. Sorry this thread isn't bumping but I hope you do take my advice. I'll be watching the board for your progress. Peace out

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I've been feeling really shitty lately anons. I just finished my first year at uni and things have gotten all fucked up. First semester of uni was great I had a great group of friends and we did everything together. All I did was hang out with them and smoke pot all the time. For some reason the 2nd semester of Uni fucked us all up. My entire friend group completely collapsed and we all kind of split up. For some reason we all just stopped hanging out all together. I have 3 roommates and I have 1 who is my best friend, we are exactly alike and we loved my other two roommates. But then one of them joined a phrat and completely just fell off track. He started drinking all the time and never went to class. The other roommate followed him and just got fucked up all the time. I had one other friend from 1st semester that I hung out with a lot. She was like my best friend from 1st semester too. It was basically me, her and, roommate 1 hanging out all the time, while the other 2 just got fucked up all the time and did nothing all day. I was really sad about drifting from the other 2 roommates because I was close with both of them. Then one day the girl best friend told me she liked me. Then we started dating which and I finally lost my virginity. I was still sad I had lost touch with the other 2 roommates until one day roommate 3 (non phrat one) got drunk on the beach and I had to go and find him and call the paramedics.

cont.

>>688105722
That fucked me up a lot. I really don’t know why. After that I was just angry at how stupid he could be. I saw that he didn’t give a shit about me and what he put me through that night. After that I started missing home a lot and my friends. My friends back home didn’t drink or smoke or anything. For the rest of the year it was basically just going to class smoking with roommate 1, and hanging with gf. And life just seemed so mundane. Not just mine, life itself. People just drop in and out of your life and it sucks. Last week I texted my ex if she wanted to hang out over summer. Me and her have been friends for a while and in a lot of ways she was my best friend for a lot of high school. We had not talked while I was at uni (she is a year younger so she is in high school). We had grown very distant and did not talk a lot. In the same text asking her to hang out I also apologized for being such a shitty friend and that I felt bad we didn’t talk as much and I had not been there for her. She texted me saying that our friendship really in not worth it and we basically should stop pretending to be friends. I cried a fuck ton. I knew she was right but, I did not want to admit that we were not friends. It really was for the best, but it made me feel like shit that people just drop out of your life like that. My circle of friends keep getting smaller and smaller and it sucks.

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>>688105351
7/?
>>688105714
Sounds good, man. Goodnight.

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>>688103734
I hate loneliness. The only thing that can really make me break down. I hope you do find someone bro. Godspeed.

>>688104838
kekaroonis, dat feel when youre shredded but a kv and dead inside

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>>688106422
Posting some pictures. Don't mind me.

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>>688105862
8/?
>>688105722
>>688105802
Sorry to hear that, anon. I lost all my friends out of highschool and realized we were only friends because we all went to the same school. I only keep in touch with a couple people now because we have shared interests but making friends as an adult is much more difficult than in school it seems.

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>>688106695
Forgot to mention something. I do appreciate some of you anons having a fucking heart and helping others when they are at their lowest. Best to you /b/ros.

>Also, shit soaked life anon here

I'm feeling for so many reasons. The anxiety has gotten really bad lately; I can only handle one thing at a time, and only with lots of rest.

I've distanced myself from as many friends and relatives as I can to focus on work. Problem is people in my field don't seem to know I exist, and I can barely handle the little I do now.

My best friend has been trying to contact me for a while now, and I don't have the strength to put my foot down about his fascism. (I'm an AnCom, we'll leave it at that for now, this is feels not /pol/.) It kills me because we used to have a lot of fun, and in a lot of ways we've grown up to like the same music, movies, even Facebook pages.

And I might even be able to get over this if I wasn't aching so bad everywhere. Getting out of bed feels like lifting a thousand pounds, and I always think to myself for the rest of the day how much I'd like to go back to not feeling anymore. And I'd even get help, but the last time I tried that I got fucked with by my parents and all the people who think I'm just sad.

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>>688107164

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>>688107542
bump.

>>688107341
No... there is no being when you "are" dead.

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>>688107059
9/?

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>>688108117

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>>688108088
>>688108117
>>688108476

Wrong reply. Sorry, OP.

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>>688108117
10/?
>>688108655
No worries, anon.

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>>688108655
How about the story of Ugly? Wish I had someone/something to give my attention to. Fuck.

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>>688108745
11/?

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tfw when youre crying alone on a sunday night while posting in a feels threadwith 2 other anons. what a life, am i right?

>>688109204
back at you <3

>>688109204
I feel better knowing you're here with me, anon

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>>688109062
12/?
>>688109204
Heh, yea... but you aren't alone, anon. You have us. Even though we are faceless, and sometimes we may not even respond, we are still here and someone will read your story. So feel free to share, man.

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>>688109519
13/?

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>>688109204
Right. It's pretty bad when it's incredibly easy to make someone cry. Alone and crying is a really shitty feeling.

>>688108876
>still this guy.

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>>688104333

>>688109204
Not crying but I'm feeling

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ill start posting some songs im listening too as well, i dont think i can bare to write down my feels

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9fY5WpHrONU

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>>688109704
14/?

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>>688109519
>>688109204
>>688109410
>>688109508


<3 This one if for you guys. I can't stop.

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>>688109932
Rest in pepperonis you great basterd

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from "Daytripper"

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>>688109932
15/?

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mkMVyw-7avI

WORDS WORDS WORDS WORDS WORDS WORDS WORDS WORDS WORDS WORDS WORDS WORDS WORDS WORDS WORDS WORDS WORDS WORDS WORDS WORDS WORDS WORDS WORDS WORDS WORDS WORDS WORDS WORDS WORDS WORDS
This is how vapid and unrelatable all of your "struggles" are.

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>>688110057

i dont know why, but theres something really intimate crying with other people on a sunday night

>>688110604
No there isn't.

>>688110536
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z6EjyL-l60Y

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>>688110381
16/?
>>688110429
This is honestly how I feel most of the time, although, there have been times when things have gotten real bad and I was suicidal.

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>>688110587

>>688110746
Fuck!

>>688102751
Right here op
http://www.streamboobs.com/nicollcherry/

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>>688110746
17/?

>>688102751
I don't know how to put this so I'm just gonna try.. I've been a lurker for yearss. Occasional poster. Anyways, I feel like everyone and everything I've ever been around ever always leaves or dies or just.. I don't know disappears I guess. I forgot how to feel up until recently. I'm scared and kinda annoyed at myself. I've been fucking up since I was 15 in so many ways anons, I'm 23 now. I just want this to be fine and good and stuff ya know. I just want things to be alright. For my friends, my family, and even for y'all anons. I know I don't know y'all but still. I just don't know anymore right now..

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QQPz3uHEceM

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>>688110746
God damn...Fuck man, just, fuck.

>>688111039
>still this anon.

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Long distance relationships are hard man.

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>>688111208
18/?

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>>688111590
Most definitely anon. Care to talk?

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>>688111606
19/?

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>>688110429
I feel this way quite a bit. When I'm at work, I kind of wish someone would walk in and just pull a damn gun on me. I wouldn't fight. I just take my work shirt off and lay it beside me.

>>688111546

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>>688110222
check'd

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>>688112004
Yeah okay, why not. English is not my first language and its 4 am sorry.
I meet her last year when I went on an exchange on Finland, I'm in Argentina, fucking 15,000km away. I love her so much, she's trying to come on November god I hope she can if she doesn't come here Idk what I'm going to do man.
Pic fucking related.
Thanks for reading /b/ro

>>688110381
This is fucking retarded. kys fegit

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>>688112232
"Hey anon. Just wanted to say hi since I haven't seen you all day."

>crying ensued.

>>688109704
This.. Feels familiar..

>>688112533
Have you never met a girl like the cactus? One who needs a relationship but when she's in one she gets paranoid and unhappy, hurting the anon she's with and being even more unhappy because she's hurting him but he doesn't get it and stays with her trying to make her better.
Fuck.
Layla was just like that.

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sorry lads, but im done for the night... dont have the energy...

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>>688112117
20/?
>>688112763
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>>688112941
Mine was Emma...

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>>688112485
Jesus dude. That smile. I hope you do get to see her again, anon.

>>688112598

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RCQV7FYlwlE

>>688112941
I know the feel. My ex was like that too. I miss her so much still. I told her that I wouldn't ever let her be alone and she said the same to me. Now I'm lonely and scared. I don't want to admit to being alone, but I don't want to be alone. I miss her.

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>>688113128
21/?

>>688112485
No problem /b/to I understand. It's cool. The best way I found to not get disappointed is just wait and see, and still live and love. Honestly I got to see my first love, she lived in Philly I live in Texas. I was lucky enough to see the woman I love, still do. Even though I haven't seen her in years and we've been broken up since I was 15 and her 14. We've known each other since we were 11. When we broke up. She left, stopped talking to me, left entirely, and I went on a self destructive path. As of recently Ive been trying to stop or slow down. I'm 23 BTW now. I just recently got in touch with her. Anyways what I'm saying is just enjoy her, ya know? Even if you aren't together.
Hope that helps /b/ro.

>>688103734
Same boat, anon. Force yourself to keep going

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>>688113132
Thanks man

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>>688113132
I'm glad you anons are here when others need to get something off their chest. I'm done for the night. Best to you /b/ros.

birthday's coming up in a few days. strongly considering killing myself.

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>>688113720
22/?
>>688114020
I will, anon. I'll always have a faint hope that things will get better... One day.
>>688114092
Goodnight, anon.

>>688114179
I know that feel anon, alcohol will bandage it.

>>688110229
this one hits me in the heart and more than that give such a nostalgia

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>>688114015
Hope you get back in touch with her, i see my first love every once in a while, its nice. Yeah it helps, thanks man, also there's a 6 hours time difference which sucks.

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>>688112485
ehhhh....

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My life is a complete mess I never go outside I never go out with my irl friends no one even talks to me online I feel sad all the time I literally do nothing to get my life back on track I'm just a reck and I just hope that I can be happy I just want people to talk to but everyone ends up fucking leaving me nothing is worth it at this point

Been through therapy last year, switched to my dream subject at uni.
Finals are coming up and I'm depressed since 2 months again
>today is really bad
I should be going now, but just want to stay home and cry myself to sleep again
I can't bear seeing these people

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>>688114332
23/?
>>688114179
The world is your oyster then, anon. This one is for you. It has helped me a couple times. Bought a motorcycle when I was feeling like ending it all. Ended up being one of the best decisions in my life.

>>68811071
I love you, anon.

>be 18, meet girl a year younger than me
>become friends, slightly crushing on her
>move out on my own without telling my mom where I'm going
>femanon is still friends with me but I'm working full time to pay for shitty apartment
>slowly lose contact with her
>after half a year of shitty apartment and shitty job decide to join Marine Corps
>whatcouldgowrong.jpg
>ship out to bootcamp in July last year
>13 weeks of hell, survive the bullshit
>get 10 days leave, go back home but don't see femanon
>go through a month of MCT, M203 M240 and grenades are fun
>get to 29 Palms in late November for MOS school
>get stuck in MAT platoon (Marines Awaiting Training) because too many of us and too few classes available
>Basically sit in smoke pit all fucking day, occasional working party
>get back in touch with femanon, friendship returns, chat all the time
>Christmas leave block take 17 days leave and go down to see her
>romance happens, we fuck, dating like perfect couple
>go back to 29 Palms
>skype her every day
>End of January she tells me she fell for someone else
>Blocks me on fb
>pick up class, 3 months go by and I graduate
>Now in permanent duty station
>Still miss her every night

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>>688102751
>wake up at 2PM
>bored
>dealer at a party last night told me he has speed for like $5 a pop
>decide to buy a bunch of speed and play golf
>go about five pops
>come home
>realize I never really liked speed, makes me vomit/dry-heave
>go play golf a little drunk and come back
>my brother went to the community pool to hang out with his girlfriend and friends
>and here I am
>doing drugs to compensate for the fact that I'm sad and lonely

I'm having an existential crisis again. I know I have literally nothing to be upset about. In fact, I should be happy, but I'm alone and it's sad. Is this how everyone feels or is it just me? Is this the real life or is this just fantasy? Caught in a landslide, no escape from reality.

So there is this girl I really like and she likes me too but the problem is her "best friend" likes her but she doesn't like him. Whenever we try to be together he says he's going to kill himself so we can't be together because he's basically guilt tripping her. The worst part it she tried to force herself to like him but she couldn't and he made her cut ties with me so now I'm sad as shit. What do

>>688112485
Be glad you have someone, /b/ro.

>>688114555
Thanks /b/ro. Things may get weird here soon. Shes gonna be coming here sometime the end of this month or the beginning of next month. She barely got ahold of me a couple of months ago. Drastically changed but still love her. Honestly can't wait to see her. She's coming with her ex or something or another idk. Idk but from what I know he's a good guy so it's cool I guess. I guess I'm just a bit jealous heh. I'll try to get over it. Ya I understand that lol, definitely a pain man haha. I appreciate that though thanks!

>>688112485
good luck hermano

>>688112485
How does it feel to be loved?

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>>688114882
24/?

>>688107444
wow no one even checked my trips

>>688114969
>End of January she tells me she fell for someone else
>Blocks me on fb
What a bitch. Much sorry, marinebro. Still, you have the rest of your life. Once you're out of the military, you should try going through life like me: Abusing tons of substances. It's worked so far. I don't care about dying alone and unloved now!

>>688115253
>>688115388
Yeah I guess you're right, but it's a different kind of pain than being alone, haven't seen her in 5 months and she's the only thing that wakes me up in the morning.

>>688113128
Mine was dasha

>>688115678
I already get drunk underage every fucking weekend. Only reason I'm not drunk right now is I have to be up and in uniform in 6 hours

>>688108655
What episode is that?

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>>688115519
25/?

>>688114179
>Buy some bud
>Get blazed
>Wack off while blazed
>Come down
>Get drunk
>Spill your guts to someone, anyone
>Or if you have no one
>To yourself
>Shower
>Go to sleep

That helped me, anon. Hope it helps you.

>>688115857
See, that's why I decided not to join the Marines. I'm too much of a weirdo, wouldn't fit with my lifestyle. I'd probably be kicked out and I'm not a big fan of the government. I respect you guys, though. I hear it's tough.

>>688113128
Also the person I always tried getting close to, was her. Yet, I was the same way kinda.

>>688116145
Not as tough as people make it out to be. College would probably have been harder emotionally

>>688114179
You need some prozac bro, just talk to your local doc. Helps a little

>>688114555
Checkd

>>688115117
Tell a doctor/police officer about it. Then he becomes their responsibility and his actions aren't in your control anyways

>>688115673
This is a feels thread we don't give a fuck about trips

>>688112941
Dash was like this. Still is from what I guess.

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The only thing keeping me alive is my mother but as soon as she passes I'm going to kill myself.

>>688116251
Eh, you go through a lot of changes. I never really drank or anything before college, now I rail lines of coke off my steering wheel doing 120 down the highway while fucked up on acid.

The biggest change was when I started going after the first girl who actually gave a shit about me. I wasted my whole first year drinking my ass off trying to pry her off her boyfriend, whom she complained about all the fucking time. Ended up with her sleeping with my friend and going back to her pussy boyfriend, completely ignores me now.

I stuck my neck out for the bitch and everything, man. It just proved to me that love isn't real. To be honest, I don't think I'll fall in love ever again.

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>>688115943
26/?

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Feels

>>688104838
jesus christ dude i'm legit about to cry

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=at3NeJfimY0

Will Give Feels #noSCAM

Y'all have a good one. Goodnight, and much love.

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>>688117079
27/27
>>688117258
Goodnight, anon. I also need to sleep.
I have to work in 8 or so hours. OP signing out.
I hope all you anons start to have better days.

>>688116464
From my experience, people care more about gets than content. Really it was more about bumping my post, which as you can see it does talk about feels.

>>688115901
After he beats the brains I think I don't know which number

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Why can't I cry guys. I haven't cried since I was like 16.
I remember I used to cry when my friends parents wouldn't let them come over "are you crying anon" "yeah. Cause now I'm gonna be alone all weekend"
>tfw I was alone almost as much as I am now in gradeschool

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>>688118740
Their will never be another cartoon as real as Courage.

>>688110536
fuck you


that is all

>>688119666
Checked

>>688119846
see
>>688116464

>>688119917
Can't I post feels and check trips, I mesn damn

>>688107542
FUCKING THIS. LISTEN, ALL YE LONELY.

>Best online friend is girl I like
>dozens of people want to hang out with me all the time but I still prioritize her because closest to her
>watch shows together and play games every day
>she's rejected me twice and watched me dissapear for weeks to be with someone else, but she was always still there ready for when I came back
>realize long distance sucked and it was dumb to bark up that tree
>back to hanging out with her, accept we're just friends
>watching shows and games together
>can't get over it
>what if I get replaced one day by someone she actually likes
>I'd deserve it
>no social outlets to find anyone
>not in college, graduated
>still being an shit over online girl I've only met IRL once
It's rough fellas..

Tonight has been a pretty bad one for me. I've been pretty depressed for the last several years, and I've repeatedly tried to kill myself since I was twelve (18 now). My parents divorced when I was young, and since I didn't know what had been going on, I chose to live with my mother.
Awful decision.
I chose to live with her because my father had always been busy with work so I never really developed a relationship with him. My mother was always the one there for me, and I felt attached to her. It wasn't much longer until I found out she was a heroin addict, but I didn't know it was heroin at the time
Cont?

I feel so socially removed from everyone. Nobody ever takes the initiate to text me first. I keep on telling myself that if they wanted me to be with them they would ask first. Alas, the loneliness becomes too much to bear on certain days and sitting on my ass playing video games loses its novelty. At which point I text my "friends" and we all go somewhere in town. This usually ends up with them either bitching me out or belittling me. I once walked the opposite direction from them whilst walking through town and nobody noticed nor did anybody care that I had left. My social seclusion also manifests itself in my interactions with large groups of people of up to 5 or more. In these kind of engagements I end up disappearing into the crowd and whenever I actually say something it is either ignored or responded to with a very brief comment. People neither talk to me nor wish to get to no me. Its to the point where I don't understand what I'm doing wrong. I'm neither an aspie nor an autist. Aas far as I know I don't appear to be creepy, not into anime and that sort of thing, I'm not bad looking either. My only desire is to know what quality I have about myself that makes every human being in the general vicinity instantly repulsed by my presence.

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>>688122312
Pic related is how I feel

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>>688102751
>tfw been told I'm attractive without my glasses but due to the fact that most of my childhood was spent alone I have no social skills to augment my looks and ambitions.

Was feeling good for a time, I saw my Ex with her guy that replaced me, she still hates me, didn't want to talk. I keep saying it doesn't bother me but it does. With everything else going on in my life, you'd think she'd be pretty insignificant but shes all I can really think about at the moment.

I guess I just got used to her just being there for me. Shes made me question whether or not i'm a good person.

>>688112941
fuck that was me

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(i would greentext but im on my phone and its 4 in tbe morning)i mostly lurk on 4chan or post when i want funny shit to happen on kahoot or spam someones kik that i dont like. now, i dont open up often to other people let alone strangers on the internet...anywanys onto spewing.

i am a quiet person 9/10 times, im kinda hard to get to know but when you get there you cant get rid of me haha. so anyways in the summer between my 8th and 9th grade year i lost my house and nearly my mom to a tornado. the only place we could go was yo texas to my moms boyfriends house, fucking sucks btw. i settle in and make a couple friends and everything is going great, then i met her. kaitlyn...

cont..

>>688117524
Your chart is too short.

It seems to only go up to like 77... it needs another 100 or so on there for future expansion. Don't want it to go obsolete too soon, do you? :P

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>>688125926
NOBODY CARES
NOBODY CARES
NOBODY CARES

>>688125926
Continue anon.

>>688125926
Go ahead man

>>688121640
I've been there

and I've been replaced

It's hard to keep it all together sometimes. We still talk, when it suits her. I cling to our relationship because my time spent with her was the happiest I'd ever been. It was the only time I've ever felt like somebody liked me for who I am inside.

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>>688116670

ay buddy im not sure what to tell you but can you tell why your so sad not proding hopefully

>>688124355
yeah. this. I'm never going to see this girl again, and I missed all my chances to make anything happen.
I think about her all day, every day. I even dream about her like 2-3 times a week. I don't even like her very much. wtf is wrong with me.

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>>688112949
My mother forgot my birthday this year. No friends surprising me with anything. Only gift I got was a "Happy Birthday" from my father in passing. Went to work and then spent the rest of the day crying in my room.

Couldn't have wished a more horrible day on my worst enemy

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>>688104333
jesus, my gf is almost 20 weeks
if i lose her ill have successfully lost everything close to me
that pictures a nightmare..

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:(

>>688127744
I'm sorry anon, happy late birthday!!!