>>687923616
What's up anon?

>>687923616
What's wrong anon? I'm with you in this you have nothing to hide

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>>687923616

smoke a bowl man, eat a big meal, get some sleep, and do something different tomorrow.

>>687923810
When I talk to people, they walk away. When I text people, they don't respond. I actually tested this the other day. I was hanging out with a group of friends and we were walking through the neighborhood. I was in the back, and just started walking the other direction. No one noticed, and no one cared. I ended up just leaving. This happens a lot. No one cares about me

>>687924252
I wish I could just not wake up tomorrow

>>687924252
kek no one even cares about this thread

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>>687923616
Bro stick around, if you can't take the pain from whatever is hurting you maybe you should just rob a store and go to the brothel and drink some brandy or vodka, that helps. I hope i helped you bro, don't kill yourself

>>687924213
Eh thats good

>>687924252
Ah, I remember my friend once tried that. Just walking together, talking, he just stops in place to see if anyone notices. I think I got one or two steps before looking for him.

>>687924252
its all in your head, but i believe that it must be true now, however you are going to have to leave them and first figure out the sadness which will be hard and i couldnt help but once you figure that out you will have a chance at someone new

>>687925943
Sounds nice to have friends like that

>>687923616
This image made me wonder is anyone has had jerked it on the moon. It would be kewl I reckon, the jizz shot would be sweet as. Scrotum Jelly in Space.

>>687924252
No one cares about anyone bro, thats why you should be nice to the people tgat do care. Man i had the exact same thing as you, in the end you don't need anybody other than yourself, nothing means anything and if people don't give you time of day, don't worry man we are all aware that people waste their existence on pointless things and people and none of them give a shit. Its weird but fuck it bro do what you want and be great by getting money, and fucking sluts with your money

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>>687923616
>>687924252
>>687924585

>687923736
>this guy

Nah man, don't do that. We may not know you and vice versa, but we still care about you. We have all been through shit and made us want to think that way. I've come to /b/, told my story, and got comfort from those I don't even know. They have shared their insight since they have been down the same road before and understand your feeling. Please, don't kill yourself man. I know it doesn't mean much coming from some faggot over the internet but do know one thing: We are here for you /b/ro.

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>>687928924

>>687923616
Things could get better, don't give up hope

>>687923616
I have my story I've shared numerous times, but can't get over the dog I lost

>>687929095
>could

>>687929170
Let it out my dude

I still furiously masterbating to my exs nudes. We broke up last October. ..

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>>687929170
I've lost a few dogs in my life, do you mind sharing your story one more time?

>>687929170
so this is the story of my dog cooper, a fantastic dog that passed long before he deserved.
>23 years old i decide to buy a dog
>decide on a golden retriever and go to a breeder
>all the puppys seem generic
>except one
>one was unable to use his back legs and kind of “swam” to move around
>his legs functioned he just hadn’t learned to use them yet
>I want to be the one to help this dog
>best personality imaginable
>never hyper just wanted to be pet
>he didn’t like fetch, he liked catch
>We called him cooper ellsbury (redsox fan)
>he just liked to hold his tennis ball and would sleep with them
>at family parties when all the dogs are together being loud and getting into trouble cooper just relaxes and looks for love
>4 years go by and I could not ask for a better dog
>he’s acting weird and not eating so i bring him to the vet
>cancer
>has 3 tumors
>procedure costs $3000
> i don’t hesitate and pay the bill and pray he comes out healthy
>cooper takes well to the surgery and as usual is very relaxed to the vet
>healthy for a year
>age 5 cooper has more tumors
>$5000 in total bills and I don’t hesitate
>tumors are removed and I am just happy to spend another minute with my best friend
>he never fully heals, periodically more tumors appear and I pay whatever the price
>age 6 cooper has fallen into a very unhealthy state

>>687929354
It's ok, you'll find someone else

I can't let go of my past and it's causing crippling depression and anxiety. I hate myself and I hate people, I'm just afraid of everyone

>>687924213
this

>>687929225
Not much in life is guaranteed but living without hope is no way to live at all

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laugh with me anon

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>>687929437
>$14000 in total vet bills was really adding up and I couldn’t afford any more
>I have to put my best friend to sleep
>at 6 years old I had to kill him
>shaved patches all over him from surgerys and shots
>shaved him to look like a lion
>he fucking fought, he was the epitome of a dog
>I watch as the doctor puts him to sleep
>have to bury him
>bury him with his tennis balls
>I’m sorry cooper i wish I could afford the procedures more…
>i miss you and hope there is some sort of after life because you fucking deserve it
>rest in peace cooper, you were my best friend and i miss you every day

>>687923759
cute

>>687925111
:(

My mom died a few years ago so this hit me

>>687929523
I have a new gf lmao...

>>687929737
Im not the kind of guy to cry, but boy this one got me. I'm so sorry, friend

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Back in my day these were called Baww threads.
And this was out most popular Baww meme.
>pic related

>>687929737
The only upside I see is that you are clearly good with dogs... and there are plenty of dogs out there that would benefit from having you. I sense you will find another furry friend and have happy days ahead.

"See you space cowboy"

>>687930095
he was amazing, I should have spent more, I should have made sure my best friend is safe... I feel horrible letting him go...

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>>687929737

And this is most definitely a Baawwww thread

>>687929583
Be strong, u can overcome anything bro and conquer it with your mind

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>>687923943
Fuck off yea?

>>687930368
he wasn't a normal dog, he was different , I have no fact to tell you otherwise, he was just so different... idk, it's hard to type how I feel about my best friend...

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saved it from a older post.

South park was right

If you can feel like shit, then you were happy at some point in life.
You can't keep that feeling alive forever, the reasons that create it may die.
But as always, death makes way for a new, the void fills itself in ways we don't always see or feel immediately

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>>687930732

>>687925111
Feels

>>687929583
Try your damnedest to find something new to look forward to or enjoy. Music, film, art, new friends, all of the above, whatever. Just do it, and while you're at it take stock in the things and people in your life that are there now. Learn to appreciate the things you take for granted. Life is a never ending series of ups and downs, if you're on a down now then another up will be coming soon. I know because I've lost everything recently, my house, my business, my livelihood. I felt like strapping on an exit bag and I almost did it. But I started thinking about the stuff I wrote about a few sentences ago and I sucked it up and stuck it to and shit is just starting to get better. I got a good job, my family gave me and my daughter a place to live until I get back on my feet, I'm starting to see light at the end of the tunnel. Don't ever give up, it's the coward's way out. You are going to be ok, I promise.

>>687931654
I agree entirely.

I don't feel anything thats why I'm ending it soon enough

>>687932168
everyone feels something

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>>687929737
I'm sorry for you loss, anon. I cried so much when I lost my first dog, I hope they both are in a better place.
My dog had cancer and tumors as well but after the first two the vet said she wouldn't get better so eventually she just to sick and couldn't walk and was in a lot of pain so we had to put her down. may they both Rest in Piece.

>>687932241
I don't care about anything anymore, I'm not even sad

The saved post made me wanna
Usually just a lurker
You got me posting
So fuck it , I'll "write "

What's wrong ?
"She's gone"
Said the man bathed fresh dawn
Gentle crackle as he tries to swallow
His Adams Apple.

A shame really that you stayed sleeping
Upon the inter laced webs
Perpetually sucking up the dregs
The others find while creeping

Gentle now
Lest we startle the sow

>>687929930
i feel you bro. my dad died a few years ago too

guess i'm gonna tell my history

>be me, 16
>totally a 6/10, quite fat but pretty funny
>English school meet a girl
>14,blonde, not tall,seems to have a lot of money
>she came and sits right next to me
>panic,hands are sweating,
>palms are sweaty
>After 20 minutes she talks to me
>she says "Hey, you know how to make exercise 2?
> say "sure, let me help you"
>she thanks me and say if we can change phone numbers
>First fucking time some pretty girl tell me this
>we do it
>Later that night se sends me a message
>Start to talk all the night
>She is so nice
>So funny
>so.. me

>started dating out
>she was everything i needed, and everything i was looking for
>9 months of relation
>people could'nt believe how a pretty blond girl 9/10 was dating a boy like me
> everytime i went to her house to go out, i buyed her a Milka chocolate, her favourite
> we lost our virginity each other, lifeisgood.png
>one day we where laying on the couch
>her dad comes in
>not a bad guy, she asks her if they could talk together
>she looks at me and say
>Hum anon, can you leave? i have to speak to my dad.
>Ok, not a problem
>2 hours later she calls me
>"Anon there's something i need to tell you"
>fuck
>"I'm moving.."
>Please no.

>>687932248
I'm sorry to hear about your dogs, but Cooper was different, I on paper could afford his vet bills, I should have spent every penny, he was an amazing dog

I made a thread on here earlier about tonight being the first night of sobriety after more than five years of drinking every night. I just took my first pull of the night. Fuck it all.

>>687932248
FUCK man you got me

>>687932726
continue please.

>>687932473
you're lying. You know it, I know it. tell the truth.

>>687932726
god damn bro i feel

>>687932726
My life at 15 ,
Think it's why I'm married now. ..

Couldn't let this one get away

>>687923616
Fuck you anon If I was gonna go kill myself and I thought about it legit a few times. The last thing I'd be doing is shit posting

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>>687929737
Im so sorry man. Bless up. Stay strong.

>>687933327
thanks bud, I wish I didn't always think about it...

>>687932930
I failed out of college, lost all my friends. I re enrolled at a shittier university, I tried hard in the begining, but after 2 years i dont care anymore. Still don't have any friends or any reason to live. If i was sad about everything, I couldn't function. I half ass all my classes now and get b's and c's but I'm probably gonna an hero before i graduate

>>687933309
shit, I came her to laugh at you cunts, not cry

>>687932168
If u don't care, don't bother with killing urself its no fun, use that numness to ur advantage, like impress some people with a crazy stunt or something

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>Super fucking picky
>Tell myself I'll never go for a girl unless she fits my obnoxiously high standards
>Must be into my super niche tastes in music, movies, anime, and even niche as fuck shit like guro
>Must be a channer, but not an obnoxious kind that you would find on /soc/ or anything, like legitimately ingrained in her own boards and have an understanding of chan cultures
>Need to be really fucking cute as well
>Need to not be a total slut
>Need to be equally witty and funny as I am
>"Haha, I'll never find anyone like that. I refuse to settle for less though. Sucks, but it's hard for me to get interested romantically in people."
>Actually find a girl in some random thread out of the blue after adding her in a game who meets these standards
>qt Japanese halfie who moved to America when she was 14
>We get along REALLY well
>She's 22 and never dated anyone
>lolwut why how
>She's lived with cancer since she was a teen and doesn't interact with people outside of her family much due to her condition
>Realize I've met my dream girl and she'll probably be gone from me by next year

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>>687931646
i remember that thread

>>687932726
here's what happened next.

>Could'nt talk, i was so shocked about it.
>started to cry like a little bitch
>dont know why but i was mad at her
>why would she do that?
>she was leaving in 3 days
>she wanted to go out
>I declined, i tought that maybe it would be easier that way
>The day comes
>she send me a message
>" Anon, I think you are angry, I'm sorry"
>"As soon i got there i'll call you on skype"
>ask "ok."
>mfw she never got there
>car accident
>mfw my last words to her where "ok"
>mfw I'm still waiting for her skype call.

Thanks.

>>687933309
fuck you anon. fuck you this made me break down, I hate 3 cats that probably won't make it another year.

>>687933639
Think of a single moment in your future anon. It doesn't matter how big or small that moment is, whether it's you sitting on the shitter or watching anime or hugging your gf or w/e. Picture that moment in your head. If you're still alive in that moment, then it's not time to an hero yet.

>>687933756
Doing crazy shit is part of the reason i failed out of university in the first place. Although I actually almost lost my virginty because of the things i did. I don't feel enthusiastic enough to do anything crazy anymore.

>>687933983
oh man, i'm so sorry for you.

>>687934060
I... I'm sorry anon

>>687933983
what a dick.

>>687934162
Were you painting "Bad wolf" everywhere?

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>>687931654
Damn man. That show may be full of absolute shit, but there is some gold in it.

>>687932248
>>687933309
Fuck man. Already had 2248 saved.
>contribute

>>687934143
I'm almost 21, I'll be graduating from a mediocre state university with a ridiculous amount of debt and no friends and my second choice major. But thats not what bothers me as much. What bothers me is that i once attended a prestigious university on almost a full scholarship. I was rushing and pretty much guarenteed a spot in a fraternity. Not any fraternity but one with its own damn mansion that had a fucking chef and maid. Girls actually liked me there too. I almost lost my viriginty but then something terrible happened. I eventually had a nervous breakdown and dropped out, now I'm where I'm at now.

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This just happened tonight,

>talk to cute babe
>she claims to have bf
>Frequently flirts with me, comes over at midnight to netflix and chill etc.
>never see her "bf"
>this continues for a few weeks
>comes over tonight
>get excited for booty call
>try to copsomedome
>"that would be fun if i was single"

>>687933639
basically you've never felt close to anyone ever

I came so close to tears everything ITT. Trying to feel everything. But alas I remain as ever hollow. Will i ever cry again?

>>>687933309
I love you Dante, you´re the best cat ever. Please never die my man.

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>>687935108
have you ever loved a girl? i am in that place now and tears are like a fucking waterfall man

>>687935097
pretty much, I dont think my "best friends" even like me. They don't text me, we live far away, I visit them, but they don't really want to see me. I think I get the hint they are avoiding me. I feel like they just feel obligated to see me cause they knew me since we were kids.

>>687935463
I have loved and lost and loved again. Women are horrible sometimes. Just know. Everyday youll think of her a little less until one day you wont think of her at all. Not great advice. Theres always sleep. When you wake up youll either feel better or worse but its better then suffering.

>>687935786
I think you read into your friends too heavily

>>687925111
Mom is an in game character who sends you stuff, probably not their mom

>Be me, 15-16 (at the time)
>Lunch
>Hanging out with the last of my friends (the others left) at the old tree at school where we always went
>None of us have much left to say, both depressed
>Looked through the heat haze
>Someone coming towards us... A gril?
>She walks up & sits down next to me
>getting curious, no one ever comes here
>She is board, no one to talk to, like us
>her name was Ashley, been at school forever but never really knew her, no one really liked her
>We start to talk, just ordinary talk
>having fun talking to her for the first time, who knew she could such an interesting person
>She really lights up our little tree area, friend & I feel happy for another friend
>Lunch is over *sad face*
>She adds me on messenger later at night, starts to talk again, feeling way better
>Really enjoying each others company
>I go to sleep & said to myself
>I really like this girl :)

continue?

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I don't really see my life going anywhere but ill keep saving my money and keep trying. On another note, I was woken up the other morning with a call from my ex and she said she needed a jump to her car. Like a nice dude, I obliged, took her siustger to school and did it. We chill sometimes, go to movies, smoke weed etc, but I of course still like her a lot. Told me she was going to New York with some Antonio guy after her birthday. It really just hit me hard. Her family loves me, they've even asked why we aren't together (never knew we had a thing) and I mean I can get over being without her but every time I forget about it and try to move on from her she calls me up one day and is just "Hey lets chill". I hate it but I love it. I love being myself around her, even if shes not the most easy to like person. Everything I ever do is fake. A fake smile, fake personality to make fake friends, but when i'm around her I just feel real. I act how I want and say what I want and she smiles and laughs and just retorts with something equally ridiculous and natural. It fucking kills me, we've been through a lot and she just throws all her money on tickets for this schmuck? I want to go, but I know it's for the best I never talk to her at all. But every time I try she just brings me back in. I now it's just a girl, and she isn't the prettiest, or even really the nicest girl, but I remember a time when she wouldn't leave my side for a second. She taught me a lot and I just really enjoy her company to boot but it's fucking killing me to know it was only that rush of me being that first boy. Nothing to her now but that guy she used to care about. I don't really NEED her in my life, but I remember times when she said she really needed me in hers. And nobody has ever said that. Why the fuck do people have to change?

>>687936763
Keep going

>>687936763
Always cont.

>>687936763
please

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>>687934861
So what, now you're a depressed little pussy because you're not as great as you once were? What kind of excuse is that? At least you were able to taste the good life, that's more than what most get. At this point it seems like it's more a problem of effort though. Everyone is hit with setbacks, you just have to be willing to put in the effort to overcome those setbacks and prove that you deserve what you want. If not, than maybe you should an hero. Life will only give you as much as you can seize with force.

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>>68792

My dog passed away last night and I don't know what to do.

>Be me
>Be 17 years old
>Driving home from a party with a friend
>He pretty drunk
>Suddenly he takes out a fucking gun out of his backpack
>Starts playing around with it
>Tell him to stop
>He wont
>Points the thing at me
>Stop the car in front of a 711
>I struggle with him for the gun, telling him to quit
>Gun goes off
>I accidentally shot him in the chest
>It was an accident
>Drive as fast as I can to a hospital trying to tell him Im sorry
>He cant even talk at this point
>Look into his eyes as I see how life fades away from them
>He died on the way to the hospital
>It was an accident
>It could have been me
>We were only 18
>He could have been married, have children
>A wasted life
>It was an accident

>>687937208
No one blames the warrior who becomes too old to hold his sword, and no one blames the warrior who no longer finds a reason to raise his shield.
Why are you blaming this man? Granted I didn't read his story, but why? Maybe he's just tired right now, yeah? Maybe he needs a break, maybe he'll pick up that sword again tomorrow, or next week, or next year. Eventually he'll have to, but don't be too hard on him for being a pussy right now.

>>687936342
Even if, thats not enough of a reason to keep living. I was going to end it this semester. I was fully prepared. I spent almost all of my money over the semester, I figured I didn't need it where i was going. I bought 2 charcoal grills, a bunch of tape and alcohol, and i checked into a super 8 motel. I was going to seal a bathroom, light the grills, and drink till I passed out. The reason I stopped was because I read a news article about a women doing this in her apartment complex and the carbon monoxide leaking through the walls and poisioning others. She even survived since the police showed up.I decided to try livng for 1 more semester, than do the same thing at my own place where no one else can get hurt.

I'd suggest any anons that are feeling down read some quotes by Bukowski. There's a great wealth of wisdom in his writing. It's easy to associate with his mindset. Sometimes he comes off as angst-ridden, but considering the life he lived it isn't surprising that he's cynical and solitary.

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>>687934861
read below
>>687937208
>At least you were able to taste the good life
can confirm, I had a taste of the good life for several months, now life is shit.
Was a promising young cook, I had an Internship under a 2 time James Beard award winning chef, fucked it up because I did drugs and drank during my whole internship.
But you know what, I ate foie gras every fucking night for dinner, drank the best liquor and had the time of my life.
Appreciate the good times

>>687937208
Your shitty mentality is what tends to get the vast majority down. The closer mankind lives together the more we grow apart from one another.

>>687937788
Hey man, I don't know your full story here, and it's your right to keep it private.
But if what you've glossed over is more or less it minus the details, don't do that shit.
It's been said a thousand times in a thousand baww threads, but if you really want to die, work for a year, just get any shit job, flip burgers at McDicks for all I care, save up every penny you can for a whole year then disappear.
If you genuinely have nothing, then there's nothing stopping you from leaving it behind.
Go to Africa and fight a lion,
Go to South America and explore the jungle. Try to find some Nazi gold or some shit.
Go to some shit hole militia run country and try to overthrow a dictator and take his throne.
If you want to die at least do something cool. Don't go out like a bitch.
99.99% chance you'll die trying to kill Col. Nigger and his nigglet army, but if you succeed? Holy shit, you'd be a legend.
Doo eet faggot.

>>687936763
>Next day
>Start hanging with Ashley again
>Recess comes
>All of the friends (the ones who left) get curious of new friend, start to hang with us again, go figure
>Doesn't bother me too much, just glad that everyones back
>Lunch time, another guy had been giving Ashley a hard time, it was her ex
>*chills run through my body*
>Ashley starts to talk about how her old relationship with him was like
>Ashley was an abuse victim, got molested pretty much everyday, even worse that it was her first bf
>Felt really bad for her
>Ashley starts to cry
>Try making it better, but nothing can make old memories better
>Go home on a low note
>Later that night I talk to her again
>I try to comfort her as she is feeling really down
>I tell her that she can hang with us at the tree if she wants to
>Ashley starts to feel better, she is really glad that at least someone is there
>We both go to sleep, getting late
>Cant wait to talk to Ashley tomorrow :)

next part coming anons

Just going to quote Bukowski for inspiration.

“Love is a form of prejudice. You love what you need, you love what makes you feel good, you love what is convenient. How can you say you love one person when there are ten thousand people in the world that you would love more if you ever met them? But you'll never meet them. All right, so we do the best we can. Granted. But we must still realize that love is just the result of a chance encounter. Most people make too much of it. On these grounds a good fuck is not to be entirely scorned. But that's the result of a chance meeting too. You're damned right. Drink up. We'll have another.”

“For those who believe in God, most of the big questions are answered. But for those of us who can't readily accept the God formula, the big answers don't remain stone-written. We adjust to new conditions and discoveries. We are pliable. Love need not be a command nor faith a dictum. I am my own god. We are here to unlearn the teachings of the church, state, and our educational system. We are here to drink beer. We are here to kill war. We are here to laugh at the odds and live our lives so well that Death will tremble to take us.”

“If you're going to try, go all the way. Otherwise, don't even start. This could mean losing girlfriends, wives, relatives and maybe even your mind. It could mean not eating for three or four days. It could mean freezing on a park bench. It could mean jail. It could mean derision. It could mean mockery--isolation. Isolation is the gift. All the others are a test of your endurance, of how much you really want to do it. And, you'll do it, despite rejection and the worst odds. And it will be better than anything else you can imagine. If you're going to try, go all the way. There is no other feeling like that. You will be alone with the gods, and the nights will flame with fire. You will ride life straight to perfect laughter. It's the only good fight there is.”

>>687928633
damn that one hit home

>>687937208
A lot of terrible shit happened, I'll probably green text it some day but I'm really tired now its late as fuck. I'll tell you the TL:DR version. I was beta as fuck in high school no friends gf ect. In college I turn things around. I was litterally taking a 10/10 girl to her room, I sharted, completely destroyed my confidence. Other terrible shit happens to me, I litteraly go insane, hear voices, drop out.

>>687938773
You know Anon.
I've gotten to an age where I believe I'm actually okay with living that life.
I'm in love with a woman who I spent two years with, but circumstances, not each other, drove us apart, we still talk every day... fall asleep on the phone.
She's not "ready for a relationship" etc etc, excuses. She says she loves me, says she wants me but just isn't ready.
She left you see... ended up having a miscarriage and got cheated on by some piece of shit
I had him "dealt with", not killed... but he'll never contact her again.
She's my one and only, I've been married once before, fucked loads of girls growing up, been in plenty of relationships.
I've never felt this way before. Never in my life.
I could go till the day I die, hoping that the next day she'll come back, and I'll sit on my death bed and curse God or whoever the fuck that I didn't have one more day to try and make things right.

I know that feel. All too fucking well.

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>>687939203
di...did you just sh-shi-shit yourself, anon?
hehehe, you are disgusting

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>>687939203

Holy fuck, what a shitty situation

>>687938064
I feel like having a taste of the good life, makes going back to my shitty life worse, now I know that it really can be much better, but I'll never be able to do it again.

I'm trying to be supportive of depressed bros, but sharting yourself when you're about to get laid is pretty damn funny. I mean don't hang onto the fact that your diet was bad and you shit yourself. Just hang onto the fact that the 10/10 was gonna fuck you. It is better than most get so you've got the personality or looks to try again.

>>687939906
>but I'll never be able to do it again.
true, you will always be chasing the dragon

>>687939906
Instead of trying to learn to enjoy what you can or do have you're going to mope over what you don't? Some people are happy despite having much less. Find something that makes you happy. I mean fuck everyone here has internet access so you just 1 up'd most of brazil and africa.

>>687932248
Dude i want to hug my dog so much right now

>>687940183
My personality is pretty much gone now, I'm not as happy and outgoing as I was, I'm on antidepressents now, but they don't help. I barely can show any emotion anymore. I feel like a zombie

>>687940644
Then get off antidepressants. Start going for walks around town. You might not feel like it, but do it anyways. It releases endorphins. Force yourself to find something to appreciate on the walk. Just one thing a day. Wildlife, scenery, etc. Eventually you won't have to force yourself. Think about that thing and when you get home write about it or draw a picture of it. I don't give a shit if it is quality or not. You're doing it for yourself not for anyone else.

>>687938513
part 3

>More & more of the days go by
>Im starting to get really close to her, really close
>I haven't been this close to anyone in a long time
>We have a lot of laughs & a lot of fun, we even roast her ex on the way, just flat out report him, gets into deep shit
>Term 3 ends & the 2 week holidays start, everyones happy
>Everything is going so well, now I get to talk to her like everyday!
>First day into 2 week holiday
>She asks me to draw a portrait of her (also knows that I'm in art class)
>She sends me pic & I start to draw
>Send her results
>Ashley is amazed, she thanks me so much
>Every time she speaks, I get warm feels all through my veins
>beginning of shit storm
>Holidays go by, both of us are really busy, no time to hang on
>Getting anxious that i won't be able to hang out in holidays, exams are next term & I don't want to do anything that term but study
>Time flies & we're already on week 2
>Just watching JLU (justice league unlimited), its all I can do at the moment
>Monday, mum later tells me that I'm leaving & going to another school, I start to cry when mum leaves the room
>Didn't tell Ashley, didn't want her to hear bad news, the final week of holidays are going by, & I'm rotting away in my room, nobody cares
>Come to first day of school, tell the guys & Ashley that I'm leaving next week
>All the guys get pretty sad, Ashley gets pretty sad, everyones mood just goes to sad.
>Go home, go back to rotting away, listening to the same song
>Final days go by, & I end up leaving, no has every talked to me every since, except for the depressed guy in the beginning, is the only reason why I'm alive
>After a very depressed end of year, things go from worse to shit
>Ashley used all of us, didn't even like any of us, not as a friend, or someone close.
>Fuck...

>>687941823
>What a bitch.

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>>687940552
Thanks for the advice, I'm kinda doing some of this stuff already. I wasn't really expecting anything positive. I guess 4chan's changed a lot since i was last on it during high school. Goodnight

>>687924252
I know that feel my brother. Nobody ever texts or calls me first, in order to interact with people I call "friends" I have to call or text first to arrange things. At which point my friends all treat me like I'm some sort of tremendous liability and end up either ignoring me or bitching me out. When I hang out with a large group of people of up to 5 or more I end up disappearing. They all talk among themselves but when I bring something up people just look at me weird and ignore me.

I don't know what I'm doing wrong. I'm neither an aspie nor an autist, I'm not bad looking, I just don't understand what people immediately find weird about me whenever I enter a room.

>>687943225
Fuck this one

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My life in a greentext

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>>687944023 (You)
Are you me?

>>687944155
there are people like that for me, but I'm never interested.
It's typically fat blob women who are desperate. You don't want a desperate chick,

Let me let you in on a secret. Women like this get boring, tedious and downright awful.
It's a sign, an early red flag, of co-dependence.

I'll take my girlfriend, a girl who could call me or not, she likes to, and loves spending time with me, but won't be earth shattered (I hope) if she doesn't hear from me one day, because I'll be there tomorrow and she knows it.
That's real love, Anon.
Don't go for the glitz and the Notebook bullshit, that's unhealthy as fuck.
Chill.

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>>687944542
I'm socially withdrawn to the point of feeling like some sort of human-like android sent to Earth by some advanced alien civilization to gather information about the native population before making first contact.

I quite literally feel like this guy. Except nobody likes me and I have no true friends.

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>>687944542
Another picture to describe my condition.

Goebbels didn't get laid until age 39 which is honestly the same path I'm trending down at the moment.

Please don't die! I need some sort of interaction today if only on the internet.

>>687945687
i love you anon, have a good day

I wish I could be the man my parents wanted me to be.

Instead, I'm a disappointment.

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>>687945912
I know that feel anon.
I'm posting my rarest Wojak just for you!

>>687946213
Thanks anon.

Femanon here

>Always been a really shy girl, nobody paid any attention to me in high school. Not even my parents
>Never talk to anyone because I'm a social recluse.
>Difference is that nobody liked me anyways rather than choosing to be that way.
>However one day that would all change when I went away to college
>In the distance I see what seems to be guy approaching me on the first day of Freshman Orientation.
>Started talking to me about my interests, for once someone is being nice to me.
>Never told me his name but that was part of the intrigue.
>Always told me how beautiful I was whenever we talked.
>Many weeks passed by
>Extends an offer to take me to coffee after classes end
>Was tired because 7:00 classes made me get up early
>Anyways, I went there with him, he bought me coffee and said he was interested in a relationship.
>So excited right now but tat the same time confused. Why would he like me?
>Jerk runs through my head a few times but he seems like a nice enough guy.
>On and on he went an eventually a week later we were full out into each other
>He was the only guy who ever liked me it felt so nice
>Now I felt like I was happy for the first time in years
>Courses started to get stressful over the next few weeks, as if foreshadowing something.
>Except him, he was always there to comfort me when I needed it
>Never would I expect him to do what he did however
>Anna, her name, it still haunts me to this day, he cheated on me and cut all contact.

Felt really bad /b/, that's why I'm here.

Now read the first letter of every line to find out his name.

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>>687950528

Got the cancer in my knee.
Take out knee.
Cancer is gone.
Go get a CTScan.
What do you know. It's in my lungs now.

Fuck this gay ass earth.

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>>687930607
Beautiful

It's okay to be sad

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>>687950621
Stop eating meat and refined sugar.
Look up Bob Beck

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>>687930607
Isn't that guy a pedo?

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>>687951016

My life ain't going anywhere, I don't know what I want. Is it possible that I may never be happy? Will I be better off dead? At what point do I cut my losses by ending it all?

>>687951047
My younger self did not envision me at all. I wonder i I can be saved, or if I am doomed an existence of aimless drifting.

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>tfw your boyfriend seem like he doesn't want to talk to you anymore and you don't know what you did wrong

Why you do this to me, my love?

>>687951016
Same. I would do it, but my motivation and energy is sapped.
I am smart enough but I lack the will.
I care but I don't want them to be dragged down by me.
I can be nice. But I take the easy option too often.
I'm cheerful, which is what throws them off. I have no doubts that I'll kill myself one day and I know that the first thing everyone thinks will be "He always laughed the loudest".
I love her but again, why drag her down to my level. It's easier to push away as opposed to bettering myself so that I become something positive within her life.
Who am I? I wish I knew. Which is a real shame because I can only answer that question in the long run.

>>687924252
You always have your /b/ros , comon fag
4CHAN IS LOVE
4CHAN IS LIFE

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I'm falling into this weird pit of despair and it just feels like life is pointless. My wife doesn't give two shits about me, I'm slowly falling in love my my best friend at work, but she's married and would never. Tried killing myself about a month ago, and I just keep looking at the scars, fucking looking at the scars wondering why I didn't go all the way.

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>>687952069
>4CHAN IS LOVE
>4CHAN IS LIFE
Cringy summerfag please go.

>>687952134
I love you, dont try to kill yourself again

>>687952234
You dipshit

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>>687952134
Only death can set you free.

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>>687952134
Hmm yes but tell me anon. If you stare at death in the face do you cry and cower or do you have a grin on your face and smash his teeth in and march on reminding yourself that its all a joke but your in on it?

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>>687952329
Please go and stay gone

>tfw you realize you want to date yourself in girl form
>tfw you realize you'll never fall in love because of it

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>>687952408
Ok, im gone byeeeeeeee

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>>687952443
>narcissism to a currently absurd degree
You better start looking online for look a likes then if your that hot for yourself. Hell dress as the other gender take dirty pics and jerk off to them!

>>687950631
>>687951016
These hit home really hard

gf of 2 years left me to focus on school, we we're both crazy about each other, how can I be just friends with her, it's impossible every conversation post brake up pains me to my core. So I disappeared out of her life one day, try to not think about her much. almost a year after she left me I thought I was over her, but then I started feeling like a fucking idiot jerk for cutting contact, and that we might've been able to get back together if I talked to her more. I start thinking about her more frequently and I realized that I am not over her, I started having dreams about her, one where we got back together and I never felt so happy in a very long time. Waking up after that felt soul crushing, I kept sleeping to cope and ended up a half hour late to class. I really can't stand myself sometimes, I fuck myself over a lot. anyway, a few days after that dream I woke up to a text from her that read "I miss you" I didn't want to get my hopes up but it gave me some crazy butterflies, I text her back "I miss you too" and we continue having a catch up type conversation, which is starting to drive me crazy, I can't take knowing that we probably won't be together again, maybe we could have if I wasn't so fucking distant, I just can't handle the pain of being just friends with her, it doesn't feel right. She sends me pictures of her and her prom date which crush me. She asks about my lovelife I tell her I haven't been with anyone since her, to scared to ask her the same question so I don't and change the subject. I disappear once again, starting the same cycle of forgetting and moving on.

Sorry for shitty formatting, just had to spew all this out

Just wanted to stop by to let you guys know that it gets better. Really. Please believe that. I know things are hard right now but good things are just around the corner anons. You just have to hang in there. You can make it. I know you can.

>>687933639
I failed out of college this semester and I thought about killing myself but Im not sure how

>>687954151
lol, not the end of the world dude

>>687925111
fuck you fuck you fuck you

My friends suddenly stopped talking to me about a year ago and it left a trauma in me. That went on for a few months then everything went back to normal with them but the trauma that left in me didnt really vanished after everything was cool again it just turned into a depression and axiety issues over time, now i feel like i cant act normal around them i just panic and make things wierd,

feels shitty, it might not be a big deal but i guess im just very sensitive and insecure

>>687957523
eh, focus less on them and more on yourself. expand your group of friends. show them you don't need them and they'll want you around more.
get to the gym, you'll probably meet some way cooler people whilst better yourself everyday.

>>687957743
that's exactly what im doing and ive seen some improvement in me but i still feel like i cant get out of this black hole of depression ive fallen into. im holding to the idea that this will change over time as i do some progress in my life like going to the gym and stuff, i really hope i can make it. thanks anon

>>687924252
my brother to get through that you will need to experience pain in its most raw and intense way, you need to let that feeling run through you and truly live it. after that you will feel like youve been detoxified, but first you gotta accept the situation, think about it and let the sadness and pain run in you, try spending more time alone, doing stuff you like and you will start to realize that you dont need NOBODY to be happy, you just need yourself and if that means that you need to forget about them theres nothing to consider because you will always be your FIRST priority and you have to do anything you can to make yourself happy and to reach a state of inner-peace, thats how i feel it.

good luck bro, going thru something similar here and i realize that this is not the end of the world and that time will make everything allright, hang on!

>>687930250
That ending got me kek...