Ive been having sex with one girl, but i am hopelessly in love with someone else. Not a lot of things feel worse than lying in bed with someone when you want someone else

fag with no friends and nothing to live for.
fucked up my finals because of anxiety and depression.
might as well an hero.

>>687693599
>might as well an hero.
indeed

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>>687693599
You've got something to live for.

How old are you and what's your life like?

>>687693599
yolo amirite

kill yourself

>>687693993
>it gets better
Not that anon but I've heard that all my life and nothing changed

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>>687693993
"It gets better" the worst lie you can tell someone.

>>687692833
Get away from the girl you're sleeping with. Just masturbate son, you'll feel better, even if you don't get the girl you actually love. Been there.

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I know it's a long text but give it a chance, made me cry like a fag

>>687693599
you in any student groups or clubs?

>>687692516

What is that pic OP

>>687694546
a heart

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>>687694139
>>687693857
You fellas stop encouraging him

>>687694230
>>687694407
Well yeah, some people die before it gets better. I'd argue that most of the time that's because of suicide, if not most at least a lot.

There's always a way to fix a problem. If not fix, at least make it smaller. Sometimes the solution IS suicide, but that's very uncommon.

>Be me

>7/10 semi-beta

>some actually cute 9/10 gave me a chance

>she's smart, everyone freaking loves her

>her friends hated me, everyone tried to discourage her but she wouldn't listen

>ask her to go on a second date with me

>nope, she wants to be with Chad now

>Chad has been a complete dick to me for forever

Getting cucked. It's immensely painful.

>>687694864
Try doing the cucking.

Feels great, for a little while.

>meet old girl friend
>we used to play as kids around 13 years ago
>i used to like her because she was so cute and a little shy
>find out she has 2 kids now
>is 24 years old like me, but looks like 40
>married to a dumb thug wannabe
>didn't even recognize her at first

>>687694812
I think life itself is the problem, literally don't see the point in going on and most people realise this as they get older.

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>>687695358

A lot of people don't have a goal or a point that they want to go to in their lives, and that's ok. But you don't need a goal to have meaning, you can live a fantastic life having accomplished nothing. You should keep going because for all we know you only get the time you spend here on Earth once. And we can only hope we get to come back someday.

Pic related is just something to think about, doesn't mean much.

Never been in a relationship, I started seeing a guy who treats me really well and acts super romantic with me, he's polyamory and clearly expained things to me, im ok with this (so I thought), so I stupidly let him take my virginity, he then invites me over to hang out with his actual lover and then tells me that he doesn't love me and probably never will, but he still treats me in a romantic loving way, I just dont know what to do with my life because if I stop things between us ill be lonely again, so ive fallen into a depression

>>687692833
I'm right there with you guys. Just part of life I guess. It hurts but, it is for best in my case

>>687696156
Thank you anon, your posts are really helped me

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>>687696156
This turtle Makes me smile

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>>687696808
Thank you too, that means a lot to me.

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>>687697064
That turtle makes me smile too

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>>687697140
:)

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I don't know if anyone remembers me from a previous thread where I talked about an old internet friend i loved but i lost tracked of, but i finally got in contact with him!

im feeling it bros, it's been a while, but im feeling it

>>687697426
Kudos anon

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>>687697426
I don't know bro give it a try if worse come to worse you wont loose to much right?

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>>687692833
In the same boat man

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>be me
>be 13 yo
>meet petit cute girl
>always awkward A++ grades kid
>be friends with this girl
>she wasnt really cute at that time but i saw shes going to be hot as fuck
>became great friends
>got friendzoned as a true beta
>got used to it, np, had several 1-3 years relationships
>she was always somehow distant when i was in a relationship like she is sad or something
>now we are 27 yo
>a few weeks ago we got drunk (we were drunk together a lot in the past) and she made a move on me
cont?

>>687694451
Now im just sitting here, outside my house in the cold rain (it's winter here) crying like a bitch because of your post while i wait for someone to bring me my keys. Thanks anon, for sharing such an emotional shit.

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>>687697359
You know, that is a really nice metaphor. Don't deal with life's sour lemons, go get yourself some sweet apples.

>>687697426
I do remember you! I'm glad you're talking with him.

>>687697878
sure

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Just so you guys know, none of this matters. You don't matter, and what you do doesn't matter, and that's a good thing.

In 20-30 years we will have created artificial super intelligence which will cause extinction or fix all our problems. Before that, every job, from McDonalds workers, to attorneys and doctors will become heavily automated and you will be laid off no matter how good you are at your job.

>>687698037
I am also that friend

>>687697878
continue please

>>687697878
Why do people ask to continue just finish your damn story its infuriating are you really that narcissistic that you need to make sure that someone is reading your greentext?

>>687698037
Yeppers

>>687697878
Go on, anon

>>687698037
Always been that friend

>>687698037
Dambn, that's me

>>687694346
Gg

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>>687697998
Cute little chemistry

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Coming in hot with a mini dump because I'm drunk and missing someone.

>find out my gf is pregnant
>leave good college and work dead end job to provide
>baby dies a few weeks after being born
>stay with gf because she is a link to my daughter
>miss daughter more than anything I could ever imagine
>miss being a dad, I was good at it /b/
>hate it when people tell me about their kids and I can't reply like "yeah, my daughter does.."
>people expect me to move on, act like nothing happened
>I don't tell people about her anymore
>I just miss being able to acknowledge her amazing existence
>whenever I'm on a train or plane or whatever, I pray for a crash so I can die without an heroing
>I miss my daughter /b/

>>687698037
this is crushing. i actually felt pain

married the wrong woman. realizing this after 2 weeks being married

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Options for tonight:
1) Contact various friends on FB, see if they want to hang out. Waste the night waiting for them to reply. They don't.
2) Go out on my own. Stand around some bars watching some shows, drinking some beers, get some food later, lotsa calories I don't need, feel like a total loser on my way home.
3) Stay at home, play video games, feel vaguely wasteful and unhappy the whole time because hey, what if #1 or #2 worked. They work out well like 1 time in 20, after all. Maybe tonight could have been the night. But at least I don't feel like shit and it wasn't a total waste.

Oh, weekend decisions. We meet again.

>>687698969
how the hell does that happen. did you not spend much time together before being married?

>tfw won't be able to start studying until I am 22 years or older
Please kill me right now senpai?

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>>687698683

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>>687699165

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>>687698320
because if no one cares why bother
>>687698289
>i was trying to be with her like 3 times in the past ~14 years, always got friendzoned
>but last time it was different
>she kissed me out of nowhere
>wat
>i was teaching all day, tired as fuck, stinky a bit, didnt shave for 3 weeks
>we made out all night, didnt fuck
>next day she says she doesnt remember anything
>tell her what happened
>'oh lol, sorry'
>confronted her about that night, she said things like 'i was waiting for this for a long time'
>she says dunno, i dont remember
>also states that we are still friends, doesnt want to be with me
>im furious since then
>i was fine with being friends with her, ofc i'd fuck her anytime, but i was honestly fine with it since we could talk about anything
>why the fuck would she do that if we are 'only' friends?

its just annoying as fuck

>>687699156
no earlier this morning i realized i married her sister on accident. she has a nicer ass though.

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>>687699313

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LIVING IN A FIRST WORLD COUNTRY - HOW THE FUCK I AM DEPRESSED?!

>>687694230
Hey who's is charge of your life? You are.. don't blame other people pull your own face out of the mud.. use your own muscle and will power don't wait for someone else to do it for you.. only one way to learn how to pick yourself up and that's to just do it yourself.. gotta be independent before you can be happy with anyone else

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>>687699388

>>687694451
Fuck Anon, that really pulled at my heart. Good things in life.. Why don't they last?

>>687698996
I'd go for 2, doesn't sound like a bad time even if you're alone.

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>>687699576

>>687699328
i must add, i am not a touchy-feely guy and i am really fine with friendship, she stated years ago about that and i accepted it, treated her as a friend ever since

>>687698996
4/ Post in feels threads like every night

>>687698037
I purposely make sure that I'm not that friend. I force myself to try just so that I don't become like this. I've spent so long jumping through fucking hoops just so people remember me; it's exhausting. But the problem is, now if I ever want to tell anyone that I'm sad af and just want to fall asleep and never wake up they will think I'm bullshiting because I always seem so happy. It's just so tiring constantly trying to be someone I'm not just so that people care about me. I take refuge in the fact that none of what happens to me or anyone else actually matters. We're all so insignificant in the grand scheme of things. I'm joining the army soon so at least that way, if I die I'll be remembered as a hero as opposed to a coward that I really am.

>>687694346
no

>>687692516
>tranny drug addict
>drugs is why college dropout
But somehow I still find the time to be happyish.

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>>687694346
I dont like you sir

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Girl I asked to prom told me no.
Went with myself.

>>687694346
immunity cat bitch

>>687699821
thats whats wrong, you think you have to be a try hard to have people like you or around you. They all just see you as a try hard, if you have to fake your personality you don't see how people fake it to you

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>>687692516
My dog is going to die in a few months from a genetic condition. She is only 2 and half years old.

Pic related.

>>687694864
Sorry, man.

>>687692516
>TFW your town's theater was flooded out two years ago
>TFW it's still closed
>TFW you've never been in a theater since then

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>>687700008
>>687694346

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How to mend loneliness?

I've got a decent career and other things going for me, but I can't find a "real" connection to anyone. I've lost friends over the years and nobody has ever been in in love with me (although I've fallen for someone before).

I just hate having nobody to talk to. Nobody who likes me, you know.

>>687694346
eat your balls

>>687698683
I did this and she looked at me weird and giggled, like it was funny. We eventually drifted apart around this Christmas and she didn't talk to me again until after I moved away in March. I still care about her. She's my best friend. I think she thought I was using her, she wasn't my friend because I liked her, I liked her because she was my friend.

>>687698037
Ain't that the truth.

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>>687692516
Here is another picture of my dog. She has to lie down all the time, or fluid gets in her lungs. Eventually, she will drown becauwe of her heart.

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>>687699625
you're right, goddammit. I'm going out. I should always just ask, "What would Toshiro Mifune do?" He'd go out and drink and cut people up and not wear any pants and by god I can accomplish at least one of these things.

>>687700073
I guess that's true. I spent a pretty long time being myself and being alone as a result. I don't know which is worse, having to be someone I'm not just to have friends or being myself and just kind of shuffling through life by myself.

>>687697064
That's a nice turtle, anon. Thank you.

>>687701050
creepy

>>687694346
u meanie

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>>687692516

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vgeoWlqM4i8

>>687694230
nothing changed because you didn't change it loser. get off your ass

>>687694346
pls no

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>>687699328
>because if no one cares why bother?
Well your story wasn't even that long it would have been much faster to just write it all out and you won't have to make us fucking wait for your slow ass to type the rest

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>>687692516
>>687701050
>>687700197

There is no treatment for my dog's condition, and I'm going to have to witness her dying slowly in pain. I feel like shit. I know some fucked up people have a fetish for this shit, but you can go fuck yourself. It's terrible that I will witness the life leave from a being I considered my closest friend.

>>687699511
You're absolutely right but I don't see a point in even trying anymore I honestly don't care enough to get off my ass and change

>>687701136
I'm already not wearing pants!

>>687701502
sorry for taking your precious time

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>>687694346
Enjoy "Woman Smiles While Peeing Face, You Fuck"

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>>687701351
>>687701502
Use nicer words

like this guy: >>687699511

im 19 and in a 2 relationship with a totally faithful and honest girl. but of course every seemingly perfect relationship has its issues. shes a super devout christian, so no sex until marriage. her faith also causes her to frown upon me swearing or wanting to drink (like one beer with my dad or friends). she wants to get married at 22 and settle down and have kids by 25-26. i just feel like im throwing my life away. i dont get to have that "college experience". im not religious so all the shit she believes in doesnt apply to me. but again, shes a perfect girlfriend. pretty, smart, knows where shes going in life, etc.

also, she started reconnecting with an ex boyfriend that she dated for like a month before we started dating. she talks to him more than she talks to me. she texts him first all the time, but he doesnt seem too into talking to her. shes going to his high school graduation tomorrow and i tell her all the time i dont like the guy. only because they had some kind of relationship in the past (which i know im over-exaggerating about, but it still bothers me for some reason).

am i fucked?

>>687694346
thank mr skeltal

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Arnabstream Sword playlist

Conan The Barbarian (starts after the rock)
Conan the Destroyer
The Count of Monte Cristo
four feathers
Centurion
The three musketeers
Rob Roy
300
Braveheart
The 13th Warrior
Kingdom of Heaven
Alatriste
The mask of zorro
Pathfinder
Last samurai
Highlander 1 and 3
Gladiator
Lord of the rings 1-3 + hobbit 1-3
Kill Bill 1-2
Crouching tiger hidden dragon

>>687701875
Yes.
She'll probably have sex with me then leave you "You deserve better" then fall pregnant

>>687694346
lol

>>687702011
It went away one day and I haven't felt anything ever since.

>>687694451
Read that last night, amazing green text

>>687701831
I like you anon
You seem gentle and say good things.
You seem like the person who notices and encourages those like
>>687698037

>>687702025
youd have to marry her first, bud. did you read my post?

>>687694346
Ffs

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>>687702397
I like you too, anon.

>>687702780
I think I needed that more than I realized, tonight.. Damn, it's strange how that works.

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>>687695337
HAHAHAHAHAHA see now that's the shit that makes me wanna live...

feeling like a complete fuckin failure but then seeing people I know somehow do wayyyy worse...

>>687694346
no steve

>>687694346
k

>>687694346
Fuck off mang

I'm tired, confused and lonely. That makes me frustrated

>>687703284
Dammit anon, this one got me.

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>>687701875
leave her, then tell her, "I'm leaving you for the same reason your ex bf left you...

1) you're basically unfaithful
2) you push your hypocritical religious beliefs that make no sense (explain why) too far... hypocritical because while you're with me, you're trying to talk to this guy you used to be with who wants nothing to do with you...

Than go to college and get TONS of pussy...

You don't seem beta, bro. Just do it.

>>687702221
I JUST SENT this pic to my gf minus the rotting body shit (the wolf is obviously sleeping)

>>687694346
This shit again

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>>687703284

>Long distance relationship
>Going strong for about a year now
>Legitimately happy with her
>But
>Always a but
>She has epilepsy
>Artery in her brain that could just rupture at any time
>AVM
>Big chance she could be dead before I meet her
Fuck

>>687694346
shiet dawg

>>687694346
Bbbg

>>687694346
Mkay

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>>687697064
That's pretty adorable

>>687694346
Steve!

>>687704386
youre a fuckin bro. are you alright with talking about this a little more before i do anything? mostly venting about more dumb shit

>>687694346
lel

She flew 4000 miles to see her friends today.

We were going to meet up while she visited, and it seemed like we were meant to be, everything just "clicked".

Then she blocked me from her life. She's here a whole week, and I'm afraid I'll never see her once.

I'm just confused, and let down. I finally met someone who mattered, and who I thought I mattered too.

That's life I guess.

>>687698692
Your baby girl wouldn't want you to be so sad, anon. I'm sure wherever she is, she's watching over you. I don't blame you for missing her, because if I were in your shoes, I would feel the same. Please, be strong for your girlfriend, and your little girl

>>687705329
Welcome to the real world lad. At least you're not a virgin I presume? Because I'm in a similar situation but I am one.

>>687694346
shit

>>687694812

>Sometimes the solution is suicide

Only for you, furfag.

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>be me
>have first gf at 14
>she breaks up with me because of rumors and won't tell me what the rumors are so I can defend myself against them
>have next gf at 19
>breaks up with me because I'm going to college and she isn't (wtf)
>have next gf at 21
>stay with gf still I'm 28, basically because I think I can never do better than this land-whale
>get common-sense knocked in to me and leave land-whale behind
>29, get second land-whale gf
>she leaves me at 31 because her friends are jealous and tell her to leave me
>get current gf 9 months later
>leave pics of us at her CVS kiosk (she was 28 living at home and working at CVS) and she has to see me with 6/10 gf who is 9/10 intelligence and 9/10 successfullness (she makes crazy money because she isn't a quasi-autist like me
>hear from friend/mole in store she is super mad
>move to nyc to be with her
>get dope apt
>5 years later, still with her and still happy
>not sure why she loves my stupid ass, since she's not a land-whale or ugly or stupid or any of the things that used to attract girls to me
>thank god everyday I don't have to fuck land-whales anymore since my gf gives INSANE blow jobs in return for my love to eat pussy (and boy do I love eating pussy)

>>687700640
This hit way too close to home

>>687705221
Um... well... I don't see why not...

You know of someplace where I can be anonymous and chat at the same time?

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Seeying the way she looks at him feels like being stabbed in the chest

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Im dead inside tbh
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mlPljLRyrB8

>>687705329
I feel you, anon. Went through the same but the other way around. Went to see her (not that much distance, though), met only once and then never heard from her again.

>>687700640
> suddenly
Hahaha no they never even showed any interest in me. I have so many 'friends' a shame really that only one has time to hang out with me. If it wasn't for him, video games and masturbating, I'd be long gone.

>>687698692
so sorry man, it's horrible
what did she die of ?

>>687706856
I'd hang out with you, anon. And I'm not even a full-blown autist or anything.

>>687694346
my mum never did anything wrong. Shes my everything

>>687707019
Have another daughter.

>>687694346
wow dude

everything is about how you look

>38
>5'7"
>Ginger
>Receeding.
>no job
>live with mom and disabled sister
>mom relies on me for spelling words because she never went to high school
>never had a girlfriend
>2 friends over the otherside of the country

there's always someone better

>>687705646
Not a virgin, had my fair share at university.

What made this girl special is that of the dozen or women I've had relationships with, I never connected nearly as well as this one.

Makes the sting that much worse honestly.

>>687698107
/b/ro I just finished watching the matrix...

>>687706253
password is abc123

https://niltalk.com/r/WnOlD

>in high school
>6/10 mix between beta and alpha, i'm funny I guess so alphas know me
>crushing hard on this 9/10 qt that is really outgoing, nice, knows what to say etc, kinda good friends with her
>two alphas also like her, so i'm rushed to ask her out before they do
>i don't want to ask too quickly bc she'll say no, but she won't be single for long
>i can't read women for shit, so i'm pretty sure that she's just nice to me out of pity, like jenny to forrest gump
>what do

>>687698107
But someone will have to program that AI, so we computer science fags will be living the dream. Check mate, anon.

>>687694346
fuk

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I just visited my childhood home. The guy that bought it after us evaded taxes or something and moved out of the country, and nobody has lived there since. It's a very melancholic feeling seeing all your childhood memories and treasures now overgrown with weeds and forgotten.

>>687694346
cuck

>>687698037
More than likely I'll always be.

>>687694346

>>687708091
you are beta at this stage in life. 9/10 is out of your league until they realize whats important in life and you are more attractive late 20s early 30s

>>687707040
Thanks dude I'd even have an autistic friend as long as he took the initiative to call me once in a while. The problem is I always am the one to ask people if they wanna hang and most of them make some bullshit excuse instead of straight up telling me they don't want me around. Hell some of them study in other countries and were back for the holidays and only one of them called me. I was surprise to hear that everyone was back, they were even more surprised when I showed to their party. Oh well no time for pricks gonna hit the hay.

>>687708091
I don't know you, but if it were me, I wouldn't do it. I'm extremely sensitive to failure, but if you're the kinda guy that's like "fuck it, yolo" then go for it.

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>TFW have gf that I love dearly and she loves me more than I understand, even though I only have 1 friens
>TFW really smart (I don't like to brag, but it's apparently true.
>TFW still young enough to do whatever I want
>TFW I want to die and don't even know why

>>687709637
It's because you're smart enough to realize nothing really matters and everything ends sooner or later.

>>687708091
well you can either have a chance for her to say yes or never asking her out which means that you have no balls

>>687701616
Put her down before she is in pain. I know it sucks, we just had to put the the dog I grew up with a few weeks ago. I haven't cried that hard since I was a child.

>>687709637
you have it good mang, try to set some sort of goal every month to better yourself in tiny ways, if/when you succeed you'll feel much better

>>687693599
We have weirdly similar lives makes me even more sad that someone out there feels the way I do

might've posted this the other day
am still confused about her

>meet girl online
>text for a month back n forth
>decide to meet up
>very pretty girl
>same kind of humor
>spends 3 days at my house
>we have a lot of fun, go to the movies, friends party, sex
>continue to meet up for the next 5 months
>just before christmas tells me she cant do it anymore
>gets back together with her ex
>3 months pass without any form of contact
>slowly start texting again
>i get "i've missed you in my life" messages
>last week
>some more of those kind of texts
>ask her if she'*s happy
>she says overall yes

that was about 2 months ago
during those she texted me more of those "i've missed stuff with you" texts

yesterday and the day before that we were discussing that matte because i'm fed up with having to deal with it

she told me that
>she thinks about us whenever her relationship is at some negative point
>she misses the sex we had, the feeling i gave her


told her that she was still insecure, that she was using me as a safe haven
she agreed, yet always took the chance to tell me over and over that she "made the right decision" and "just has to life with her choice"

while it's clear she's all like "no idea what i want", she still thinks about me even after 6 months
and i still don't really know why she chose her ex, instead of me, if she is still thinking about me a lot

talked to a good girl friend of mine today about this, showed her the messages
she agreed that that girl's pretty naive and doesn't know what she wants

ugly fag with "friends" who just don't care about me ("I'm that friend") and nothing to live for.
fucked up my life because of ugliness and depression.
might as well an hero.

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>be me
>go through years of depression and drug addiction
>try to anhero
>fail
>get better, get clean, fix my life up
>take therapy and see a psych regularly
>get an ssri for anxiety/depression
>can't nut
>think it's probably for the best because i'm a pervert, but not a creepy pervert, like a consensual only and i watch "normal" porn pervert, just have a really high sex drive
>mention this to my psych
>actually is okay to be a pervert since i'm not like addicted to porn or anything, have no strange fetishes and no dangerous thoughts

>still can't nut
>mfw

>>687694346
:(

My problem is the following.I go out on a date with girls, we later have a relationship that is going perfectly fine, but then, I lose interest to her(about 3-4 months).It's not the sex either, it's just that I completely lose interest to her and I start liking another chick and the circle continues.I actually envy those that can have a nice normal relationship with a girl they fancy

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>>687710570
>ugly
Lad that doesn't matter. In my eyes I'm a chubby manlet with bad skin„ but i still have had a gf for 3 years that is attractive even by normie standards

>>687710702
How long have you been on it? Sometimes the side effects start to go away after awhile. Also taking wellbutrin in addition to ssri helps.

>>687694346

>>687694346
not risking it

>>687711674
Take your own advice.

>>687711754
Okay

>>687694346
Safe.

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>>687711306
Over a year.
If I go off it for like 2 days I nut a fucking pool, but i need to go back on it asap or i start feeling pretty not okay.

>>687711280
I believe that if most 'ugly' people really committed themselves, they would actually be okay. There are very few people who would still be unattractive if they were in shape, had clear skin, fashionable, good haircut, etc

>>687699948
stay based anon

>>687694346
maaaaaannnnn

>>687692516
>be me
>can do nothing right in father's eyes

>>687694346

>>687694346
Dhhdhejejjrjrjj

>>687711964
>Buy good clothes
>Have good hair
>heal your skin
>girls still often say to you "you are not very beautiful" (when they aren't too mean)

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>>687694346

>>687700825
Welcome to my world anon.
>21 years of age.
>never in serious debt.
>make 19$ an hour.
>currently paying off first house.

>manic depression while i work.
>sad depression when i try to sleep.

When does it end?

>>687694451
I'm crying like a little bitch.....

>>687694346
m , m

I broke up about a week ago but I feel a lot better, I don't know if it's healthy or if I'm just better off alone. At least we're staying friends, though all out mutuals seem to think I'm the devil

>>687694346
no plz

>>687694346
b

>>687694346
fuck off steve

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>be me, about 4 years ago
>holyfuckhasitreallybeenthatlong.jpg
>meet this girl online
>don't know why but like her from the very first time
>tfw she lives 1000 kms away so I never felt like trying anything
>couple of years forward
>I move really close to her city because of college
>meet her for the first time, nervous as fuck but end up having an awesome time together
>shesfuckingperfect.jpg
>grow a pair and confess my feelings to her
>mfw she doesn't feel the same
>keep being friends anyway and we're both okay with it
>depression starts hitting harder for unrelated reasons
>end up being an asshole and getting mad at her for not liking me
>we stop talking around one year ago
>tfw I still miss her and would like to apologize but I know it's better for the both of us to not talk again

>>687692833
you fucking nigger, then stop. what prevents you from doing so?

I got out of the mental hospital a couple weeks ago. Turns out the last three years of my life have been an extended psychotic break. My psychiatrist said I'm only *almost* schizophrenic. Bipolar.

Also schizoid.

I'm not sure how I feel about it.

>>687700197
>>687701616
sorry to hear that. but are you sure it wouldn't be better to let her go before she's in pain?

I've been diagnosed with clinical depression and bipolar disorder.
I have to refer myself to a psychologist and the stress of knowing I have these just makes things worse.

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>>687694346

In fear happiness. Period.

>>687694346
bitch

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here boys
quick "daw" break from all these cold feels