my envy reaches scary levels. I would shoot a teen couple dead because they have the happiness I can't achieve

I'm convinced that people around me can read my thoughts or spence what I'm thinking or feeling to an extent, that certain people can communicate telepathically. It's gotten to the point now where I have or believe I can hear there voices in my head. It depresses me and I get especially anxious around my family. I can't hold a job down and I drink to forget or not feel so shredded by it.

>>687537623
Your certainly in need of a legitimate mental evaluation. These are common signs of schizophrenia and related disorders.

>>687536922
Envy is, of course, a natural feeling we will all experience throughout our lives. The great level of intensity that yours has is obviously unusual. This kind of extreme nature to feelings like this are indicative of a personality disorder. And of course, if you legitimately feel prepared to hurt yourself or others, you should check yourself into a mental health facility where you can be helped immediately. These kinds of problems don't cure themselves.

Yeah I'm working on it cheers mate

I live in the UK whats the best few options I have for dealing with type 1 bipolar all i got is some bs meds, i heard meditation is good?

Just forced my sister to fuck me, and I got it on vid, /b/:

http://2u2.pl/forced

I've been getting dreams about bestiality, being fucked by packs of wolves, ranches of horses, a whole pound of dogs, you name it. It's been disturbing me, I've had these dreams consistent for the two weeks, maybe 5 times a week. I'm also in deep denial about being gay, sometimes even convincing myself I'm not gay and I'm trying to find something special about me when it gets real bad. I know for a fact I wasn't gay at some point in my life which is why I guess I do this.

Help?

>>687537623
Scream in thoughts. The ones who got startled were really reading your mind.

>>687540912
lucky!

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>>687536287
I seem to be only motivated for myself I also have an extensive amount of faking human interaction for my own selfish gains I am also smart enough to recognize these traits. I also find myself unable to not be doing something why am I like this.

>>687536287
I'm getting back together with "the woman of my life" after half a decade of back and forth and half a decade of distance yet hell for both of us. I don't doubt that we want this and can make it work, but there is one problem on my side; I haven't really lived for the past 6 years. It feels like I need a phase of just living it out, experience other women, freeing myself; because if not, then I will forever have lost that part of life which I sort of was denied when everything fell apart. However, at the same time, I feel like I cannot delay to start living a life with the only woman I have met on this planet whom with I could envision a real life and future. When I look at other women, they are nothing, compared to her.

>>687539446
Yes medication is good. Also, always remember the mental aspect to this - consciously trying to stabilize the way you feel helps tremendously.

>>687540912
Okay, so you say that you know for a fact you haven't always been gay. Of course only you know you, but I hear this a lot from patients who come from hyper-conservative backgrounds who have just literally been forced to suppress those kinds of thoughts for their entire lives. Because of that, when they are old enough to consciously think about sex and things of that nature, they already assume they are straight. So I would challenge you to question that notion.

Furthermore, dreams of that nature are always super disturbing (at least for people who are not consciously aroused be that) so let me just first say, this is not indicative of suppressed sexual thoughts towards animals. In fact, sense you are disturbed by it in the day, it means that bestiality is something you associate with 'bad' to put it simply. It is possible that your continued suppression of legitimate homosexuality has shown up in your dreams, with other males symbolized as animals because you think of that as bad.

Now, on the flip side, the dreams could be unrelated to homosexuality. Animal dreams are common (not always sexual of course though) so my connection there was based solely on the fact that you mentioned homosexuality in your post.

>>687540912
>>687536287
Please answer, I legitimately don't want these dreams.

>>687536287
Every night I go to bed I have to imagine shooting myself in the head with a gun before I can sleep. With my eyes closed I imagine putting the 1911 in my mouth the top of the barrel resting coldly on my mouth while my tongue tastes the tip of the barrel. I pull the trigger and my jaw breaks as pistol kicks in my hand and blood begins choking me running into my sinus and lungs. Does this mean I'm secretly gay?

>>687541902
This kind of behavior, consciously doing things that are not natural to you just to survive in the social world, can mean a range of things. For one, you might just be a unique kind of person who doesn't find a lot of joy in the cultural norms of your country. This is present in everyone to some degree. Now if this kind of feeling is extreme and extensive, this could mean you have some kind of mental problem that should be addressed. Almost always when this is coupled with constantly doing something, mental restlessness, this is indicative of OCD. But of course, this is only based off of what you have told me. I would recommend following up on this with a doctor. Good luck to you.

>>687544053
I knew I wasn't gay for a good time, when I watched porn, I always paid attention to the girl rather than the guy. Something just clicked and the guy started to look more appealing. You might be right but it just bothers me how little my experience coincides with others.

And as for the bestiality dreams, that is actually one of my biggest fetishes, from way before I would consider myself gay. What happens usually is I wake up, masturbate (I've actually made my dick sore doing this), then I mull about before I fall back asleep. I definitely associate bestiality with 'bad' but I also want to do it so much too.

Also, sorry about >>687544131 I just get really bad when I think about this.

>>687541221
Yeah there a bunch of stuff that goes on up there that coincides with the real world, little inklings that happen and I pick up on it probably come down to me looking for it rather than any thing else the way I've fabricated it though is pretty flawless

>>687536287
What do you think of MDMA therapy?

I feel self loathing because I didn't go to my grandparents funerals. I think my family hates me now.

I almost never saw them and they were insignificant to my life.

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Probably gonna kill people in the future, will be high/overdosed on speed in 45 minutes.


Analyse me doc.

>>687542737
Okay, so from what I understand, you are trying to find out which is more valuable - having a fun, stress free period of living - or - settling down with someone you love -

I hear people with similar problems from time to time, and what I say is always the same - what is of more value to you, love or fun? Now listen, this answer clearly changes throughout our lives, depending on age, maturity and all that. And you know what, either answer it completely fine, natural, and fantastic. We as humans need both of these to feel accomplished.

So, in your situation where you feel as if that living-phase hasn't quite happened, but love is at the door, you must ask yourself - do I really see myself with this person for the rest of my life? Do I want to sacrifice this whole other side of life for her?
Some people say yes, some people say no, and their is no automatically correct answer. Thats the problem with these things, there is no chemical imbalance that I can prescribe some drugs for. This problem is 100% human life. So it all comes down to you, my friend.

One more thing though - I would definitely try to see if a compromise wouldn't be a good solution; does living with her HAVE TO mean to mean not living that kind of free life? Of course you cant spend your life with her going out to strip clubs, but i'm sure she would love to live it up with you too, as a couple. And hey, a lot of the time, that makes experiences all the more valuable.

If you are indeed ready for her, go for it. If you don't, you'll end up feeling totally void of any kind of fulfillment, lost in a shitty strip club.

That is the unprofessional way of saying follow you heart. Good luck.

im overly emotional and can't control my thoughts. I lie in bed not able to fall asleep because I can't stop thinking of things. I tend to overthink everything I do. Whenever I think about the girl I'm in love with, I can't stop for hours and hours and just make myself sad. This usually ruins my mood for the whole day and possibly longer.

Any ideas about any of that stuff?

>>687547123
This kind of hyper-emotional thinking and restlessness is often just personality, but there is a big difference between being romantic and being ill. What kinds of things do you think about when you are sad? Are there any recurring thoughts you experience during these times?

>>687547669
I think of her. Then I think of me not having her. Then it makes me sad. Then I usually just listen to sad music. Then I just think about her while I'm sad. Sometimes I almost start to cry. I just think about how great she is and how bad I want her.

Also when I'm not thinking of her I just get random thoughts, never reoccurring.

>>687547669
I think of her. Then I think of me not having her. Then it makes me sad. Then I usually just listen to sad music. Then I just think about her while I'm sad. Sometimes I almost start to cry. I just think about how great she is and how bad I want her.

Also when I'm not thinking of her I just get random thoughts, never reoccurring. Just pure nonsense most of the time.

>>687547669
Sorry for double post

>>687536287
If my girl of 4.5 years wants some time and space to think about things should I hope our relationship will hold up through it? I want it to and I don't know what she wants. It's driving me crazy though. I love her still and she says she loves me but we've been fighting too much and she isn't sure we're right together anymore.
Feelings can change though right?
Relationships hold up through breaks right?

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>>687546168
DO it anon I wish I was you. Make sure you play music when you do it!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uyyEmXS3BrE

>>687544735
>>687536287
I really can't go to sleep without thinking about shooting myself first. I don't think its healthy but not sure since it puts me to sleep rather quickly.

Hey mate, im from the other thread, and i want to say, this one looks extremely profesional and people seems to trust this thread more than Alice's ones, just wanted to congratulate you.
Cheers mate.

>>687544939
If bestiality is an actual fetish of yours, then it makes perfect sense that it shows up in your dreams. You being disturbed by it probably just a sign of culture, its generally not accepted, and so you know that 'it is bad' but you like it. So I guess what I would say is, if you aren't hurting anybody or yourself by liking animals, try to un-demonize it in yourself. I just wouldn't feel right trying to make things that come naturally to you, go away. That, my friend, is how a lot of mental problems happen. This is what I always say, to everyone who has something about themselves that they do not like - its natural for you to be that way, it is a product of popular culture to hate it.

Now listen, there are indeed some things that come natural to us that we as a society have to try to stop. When a person feels naturally like cutting themselves, we have to stop it. But when a person, for whatever reason, has a fetish that is not hurting anybody, fuck it right? Not the most professional way of saying it, but you get the idea.

About your homosexuality, I would still urge you to reconsider whether or not this is something that literally just happened or something suppressed. If you are young teen, people often report homosexual feelings during puberty that eventually go away. This is a natural thing that occurs due to the fluctuating chemical levels and hormone levels happening in your body. The ironic and problematic part about that is, puberty is also the age that a lot of puberty will realize their true sexual orientation. So a lot of teens are left wondering if this is a phase, or really them.

I guess the only thing I can recommend is thinking about what it was about women that turned you on? What was it really? Culture, the inborn desire just to fit in, does A LOT to a person's mind. When you start to shake that off, things can get confusing. Just follow your heart and you will be fine

I've completely lost interest in everything I used to love doing. I don't hang out with my friends much anymore because I deliberately ignore them when they call. I only do shit on my own time when I feel like it. If I'm not at work then I'm at home just laying in bed watching tv. Half of the time I'm just zoned out. Don't really give a shit about much anymore.

When ever I do hang out with my friends I have a great time. But most of the time when I call I just ignore my phone. Maybe call them back the next day and make up some stupid excuse why I missed their call.

Not a lot gives me joy anymore. And most days I'm drinking. I'll have a few shots in the morning before I even eat anything.

I'm always afraid of what people think of me, after a few bad experience on mdma.Mmy social anxiety started to increase. I always fear that people are talking about me, whenever someone speaks i kind of listen in to their conversations and assume what they're saying is about me. After getting myself a girl friend the anxiety has lessened but i can still feel bouts of it sometimes. If i see or meet someone unexpectedly i start to feel anxious and sweat, which makes me feel that the person is judging me more,

>>687548172
When these thoughts are coupled with clinical depression and suicidal thoughts, a strong personality disorder is almost always the case. But longing for a companion alone is not indicative of that. If you experience any of these other thoughts, I would consider reaching out to a doctor.

>>687536287
A licenced therapist knows he's not supposed to give advice or opinions.
- from a REAL therapistfag

>>687549826
I'm definitely not suicidal, but not sure if I'm depressed, I mean I feel a deep sadness but I'm not one to self diagnose. Never have been, recently just got diagnosed with ADHD even though I've been dealing with it my whole life. Just thought it was normal I guess

Sometimes I want to kill myself but most of the time I feel nothing no emotion no nothing

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>>687546168
Guess the doctor is out

>>687546168
Listen, not OP, but assuming that this isn't a stupid prank, there is obviously nothing I can do to stop you. But what I can say is that posting about it online makes me think you like attention. Feeling lonely, /b/ro?

>>687536287
Was diagnosed with Plinegrat Subduction and MDD. How to refute that so that it's not on my record... trying to join the military here.

>>687550489
Nothing to lose been here for 7 or so years.

WIll probably take more speed and cut loose in the morning.

How do you treat non-abusing pedophillia?
Are you the with bible thumpers who only reason to caseration?
Or are you more logical and attempt to change the mental state of the patient?
Or do you realize they are not a threat to anyone, and only look at MTV and sears cataloges for stimuli?

>>687550596
Better to just end it now than to let it be done by a bunch of dune-coons in fucking sand land.

>>687541894
Trust me, the first thing I do when I wake up from these dreams is beat my dick like it fucked my mom.

>>687550711
What makes you want to hurt people? I understand you might be feeling angry, but what about harming people is so attractive in your mind? I get it, anger has a tendency to translate into violence. BUT, you obviously have the time and ability to sit and think about this in depth, so ask yourself, what the fuck am I doing hurting people?

>>687551130
It excites me, Feels like a hunt, Im not really sure, I would say id tell yuo at some point but i'll probably not come back.

>>687536287
Does your name start with an "O"?

>>687550881
>implying you weren't just trolled

Learn Google faggot

How 2 git pusssey?

>>687552248
Talk to a woman that attracts you and you feel you have a big chance with.

>>687550805
Normal is not real. It is culture, the culture of wherever you were raised. In most cultures, or at least Western ones, pedophilia is demonized. This is a good thing in my eyes, and most people's eyes, because we want to keep children safe and understand that they cannot consent to sexual activity. When we talk about homosexuality, it is similar to pedophilia in the sense that it is not something the person chose to be, not considered normal and a lot of people despise it. But the difference is, homosexuality is compatible with our culture, so if you are a tolerant person, you will be able to accept homosexuality into your society. Pedophilia is different for a couple reasons, primarily being that is involves, well, rape. Children cannot consent. But you say specifically non-abusing. Now the reason this cannot and will not be accepted in the Western world is that is just is not compatible with the way we think. Think about it, pedophilia is striking our love and respect of children, of innocence, of the concept of personal rights. Homosexuality strikes at religion primarily, and most people anymore don't really give a shit that 'Jesus wouldn't like it'

So listen, I understand that non-abusing pedophiles aren't necessarily some 'crazy threat to be murdered on the spot'. I know that you have not chosen to be this way and are the victim of some pre/post natal problem in development. But that does not change the fact that you will never be accepted into society as normal people. For the sake of your own long term happiness, I would suggest not feeding this fetish in any way at all. I try to look at these things objectively, because there are a lot of hypocrisies and such in this area and I want to avoid being that kind of person, but at the end of the day, there are some things that we just cannot accept into society. With a healthy motivation to shake that kind of feeling, these people can change for the better.

>>687546437
Lol'd at the end.

You're not really hitting the nail on the head, but I haven't given a lot to go on and I'm grateful that you're trying.

I'm more interested in your opinion as to how important this is for a human being. I can mindfuck myself any way I want, but that doesn't mean it's sustainable.

Some sort of short-term compromise is the most likely alternative I have.

>>687552132
Yes, actually it does. Why?

I'm so emotional and not able to make any connections with any women. If I want to talk to a girl I have to pretend to be some chill laid back guy so I don't look like a total mess. I honestly hate it because that's not what I am. What should I do?

>>687553846
Does it end with an "a"?

I never seem to be able to concentrate... My mind wanders from one thing to another, and I zone out frequently. I also don't seem to think deeply in order to solve a problem all that often, and people show me or tell me what I should have done, which is usually the most obvious thing that I somehow never thought of.

>>687536287
Bump

I'm a great test taker, always get 90+ without studying. But for some reason I can never sit down and do hw, which causes my grades to suffer. Any advice?

>>687553787
The kind of care-free living that your talking about, just having fun, is there in part because it seems like a fantastic way to exercise the freedoms of adulthood. But i'd say the concept of free-living is, while attractive to us, not really vital to us. This woman that is hitting on your instinctual desire for a partner is, at the end of the day, always going to be more valuable to the human experience than that free-life. That kind of thing gets boring after awhile as it is not an inherent human desire, like a partner is. I would urge you not to settle down too quickly, as most of us actually have not found
the one' in our 20's (not sure how old you are though, obviously), but companionship will serve you the best in the long run.

Any tips for finding a therapist? Don't know anyone who goes to one for reccomendations, and the last thing I want to do is talk about the same problems to different therapists trying to find the right one.