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Feels thread anyone?
>>687432340
3 hours before a meeting that will set how my future 5 years turn out? No thank you, i will have feels later.
>>687432340
I cannot forget my teenage crush even though I haven't seen her for 16 years. SHe gave me her heart but I was so autistic that I evaded, I felt more safe playing Half Life 1 and StarCraft 1.
But I couldn't forget that lost chance.
I live in a suburban town I moved to tree years ago, which is in a very populated region. There is a bar nearby and I think I saw her yesterday with her husband. I'm always believing I'm seeing her everywhere with a nice life. I take the subway and I always believe I saw her here and there.
Meanwhile, I have no money, no career, no job (+20% unemployment here). Nothing. I'm pathetic. And I'm worried of seeing her somewhere.
It's so pathetic to think about someone so much while she forgotten me long ago.
What's got you down OP?
Hi. looking at this picture, is it safe to assume that if I cut my left side it'll be more effective than if I cut my right side?
I wanted to kill myself cutting my arm but it seems not to be viable.
>inb4 stream it
>inb4 don't do it
I still like you guys, but no, I won't stream it and I will do it.
Fighting a depression since 2003, anxiety from birth, very negative memories, I feel like shit, I have no money, job, or career, live with mom, +20% of unemployment in my nation... I don't want to die but I cannot live as this.
>>687433915
If you want to die without making a mess just google up the helium method. I will just jump from a high place to show the world I am no longer afraid. If you decide to do it I will meet you son, all depends on my gf.
We broke up in march but I still think of her everyday and check out her social media. I don't want her back but I also don't want to let go
The girl who said she would marry me and move heaven and earth to make our (unfortunately difficult) relationship work just said she doesn't care about me anymore.
She stopped replying in the middle of our breakup conversation too
>>687434128
Too much hassle. I prefeer the cutting method, I have the tool already. Will do it while listening to music.
Good luck with your gf though.
>>687433915
think of your mom
>>687433915
>>687434312
If there really is no way for anyone to convince you not to, I'll see you in the spirit realm anywhere from 0-70 years from now brother.
Hopefully the way this universe was created will let me meet you one day, and we can have a chat about our physical lives. Chuckling about how glad we are that our being isn't gone forever.
>>687434312
Welp, I wouldnt do cutting. Its messy, unsafe as in a not so certain death, and will solely make you look like a martyr. Man the fuck up or I will come and slap you.
>>687434416
She hates me. When she, my sister and I have a dinner, she tells in her phone "I had a dinner with my daughter" as If I did not exist.
It'll be good to go.
>>687434500
If I lived after death I'd kill myself there again. The point is about disappearing completely. It hurts to think too much.
Good luck with your life though.
oh god pls don't tell me you all are depressed/suicidal about girls?! i had a ton of missed/screwed up opportunities and a shitload of bad memories related to some of them. but they aren't worth the trouble. if they lay you of they aren't even worth your sadness. get mad about them instead. start ignoring them. don't respond anymore. finally you'll get over it.
>>687434642
start a new life somewhere else.
>>687434728
Oh yes, I just dont care about shit and she is the reason I actually go out of bed. I was on the verge of just getting rid of my life before her because it turned out I wasnt smart enough to become a meaningful engineer anyway so why waste human resources on me?
>>687434728
In my case it isn't just about a missed chance. My anxiety, depression and economic situation in my nation made life not viable for me.
If I ever see "the love of my life" really with a husband it'll hurt so much... I don't want to live that. But the women issue is just one more thing to add to my list of pain.
>>687434642
why don't you try to marry a suitable guy?
>>687434728
Yeah but she was supposed to be different..
I actually broke down my walls for this one Anon,
Shit got me something bad.
>>687434767
No money, and I couldn't study due several factors. Meaning, if I leave Spain I won't be hired anywhere else either. That, if I had the money to move...
>>687434642
Hey now, life after death doesn't have to be all that bad. You get to live in your own paradise.
After all, once you're done with your time in the spirit realm, you could always return to earth. Start a new, do it better that time.
I would strongly advise against erasing your consciousness forever, but I don't need to tell you that. The process of doing so is very good at convincing you to do the opposite, but for some reason a few people do it anyway.
If you do decide to press the button, at least check and see when I'm going to die. So you can decide if you want to wait or not.
>>687434934
understood. tbh i never enjoyed life that much too. i pepped it up with drugs instead of doing normal people's stuff like having a gf, going to cinema all that shit. but that's a two edged sword.
>>687434938
yeah, they all seem different at first place. but mostly it turns out like with anyone else.
>>687435133
Did you go to college or some stuff as that?
>>687435194
I just don't fucking understand man..
I just.. dont.
>>687435020
You already seem to handle english pretty well and from here (eastern Europe) people left the country with less and got themselves somewhere to feed their peers.
>>687435265
i have a summa cum laude (or what it's called at your place) in my country and had several high qualified positions at univeritx. so yeah, i'm not the typical NEET guy, if you mean this. i have even often attracted women - i'm just not really 'normal' and couldn't handle it.
>>687435020
Also what's the difference between ser and estar. I'm studying spanish and this shit is really confusing
>>687435516
Yeah, but those people were probably leaving with their families, or were strong, no mind issues and no torturing memories.
Yeah, I'm shit and worthless, and I cannot help it. If only I didn't have the anxiety part...
>>687435610
ser: be (I am stupid)
estar: be (I am in Spain)
>>687435323
i mean, in the beginning it always seems to be the different, it always seems to be the very soecial one. but in the end it's the same shit as always, just in different contexts.
>>687435605
sry for typos, i'm at my tab and keyboard is shit.
>>687435605
Good for you. Wish I could have gotten some sort of degree, but I just couldn't due instabilities and depression. I'm liked by women, physically. But you know, without money... And I couldn't forget my teenage crush, I feel anything I'd get now would be shallow and cynical.
>>687435723
I suppose.
Am I foolish for believing?
>>687435717
i ask again. can't you marry a nice guy and find a new meaning?
>>687436038
I'm not gay.
And even if you meant women, who would eveer want to marry a guy in his '30 with no money and career? I know I have my strong points but even so I'm kind of worthless.
>>687435878
yeah i had to deal with similiar shit duribg my studies. made it parallel to my first rehab, wasn't that easy.
and yeah, it's almost a curse if women like you but you still can't succeed, if it is bc of no money or just bc you can never open up. i understand this well.
Am I the only one here who faps to hebe and feels horrible about it? If certain people knew that would just add up to the list of reasons why I'm pathetic. But she's probably with her husband now, I'm sure it was her yesterday (or so says my brain), so why should I care. Gonna die this year anyway. Why do I care?
>>687435903
i live like 'always hope for the best but expect the worst'. hope this helps a little.
When gf
>>687436119
sry i thought you were this >>687433915 and >>687434642
for women it's mostly easier therefor my question.
![[HorribleSubs] GATE - 14 [1080p].mkv_20160530_055044.184.jpg](https://i.imgur.com/UyxANyz.jpg "[HorribleSubs] GATE - 14 [1080p].mkv 20160530 055044.184")
She's with other guy now.
>>687436313
Yeah that used to be my motto.
I suppose there's a lesson here, just because you did everything right doesn't mean you succeed.
I should probably give the engagement ring back.
>>687436446
I'm those two. Why you tought I was a woman?
>http://vocaroo.com/i/s1MHUVvM1cVO
>>687436561
ohhh, i get it - your mother ignored you totally when you both are present. sorry, i misunderstood that first.
so you live in spain. that's EU - you can move quite freely in europe - sure that you won't find other opportunities? even a better welfare-system, like the tons of african migrants do it at the moment.
>>687435637
Do what you think it's right, anon, but in my opinion it would be good you'd seek help, find love or escape from it and you'll find that once you get out of this state there's so much more to life. For what it's worth you already helped someone a little :)
>>687436816
I helped? Who?
Feels bad man. I got a gf but now I cant help but compare how different she is from my past ex. It's like the more I hang out with her the more I miss my previous ex. I really hope this changes because I highly doubt I'm getting back with my old ex and she's a really great girl I just can't help but feel like she's not my usualu type...
>>687436816
Anyway, I'm 31y
I have a huge feeling of loss and melancholy. I picture my teenage crush as having a nice life. I'm sure it was her yesterday... I think i have no more time to have hope.
>>687435133
Sounds fine if your life works put economically and you enjoy it. Can't you find someone to mess around and chat when doing those sort of things?
>>687433915
That sounds horrible and im saving this as a reminder. Get a job with other people around you, whatever it is so you at least have personal experience with working. It doesnt even need to be everyday if you are anxious.
>>687436546
>just because you did everything right doesn't mean you succeed.
that's sad but true. you don't even know why it didn't work?
why are we worried about which gunman gets the high score?
lets all join together and get the most kills right here in this thread!
do it!
kill yourself!!
KILL YOURSELF.
>>687437100
i often did earlier, met several girls who i knew online before. but now i don't even care anymore. i'm so fed up with this whole get to know each other shit etc. last one fucked me up a little bit too, tbh.
>>687433329
The girl I like is talking about her crush to me. And now I know I don't stand a chance. So, I got friendzoned.
There's loads of other stuff but that would be boring for you guys
>>687437100
Had a work in 2008, when I thought I was healing the economic crisis wiped us out of the factory, and then I isolated myself. Now I don't think even if I won the lottery I'd go on living. I'm still old, lonely and the love of my life's probably with a guy, happy, away from me. I'm sure she was the girl I saw yesterday, I always believe I see her everywhere but this time maybe she was. That's how life mocks at me. She had to come to my suburban town to have a coffee in the bar below my home.
>>687436615
you sound like a trap
STOP TALKING ABOUT IT AND DO IT
>>687437317
Why dont you try finding friends instead of dates? Gender not important.
>>687437328
Ouch. That's gotta hurt. Did things seem to be going anywhere before this?
>>687437328
Not boring for me, keep going.
FUCKING
KILL
YOUR
SELF
>>687436920
Me. With the spanish.
>>687436920
That's really not true though. Anything is possible nowadays especially if you're not living in some 3rd world country. Picturing the love of my life with someone else other than me after we broke up is still shaterring my heart but that's just life I guess. People come and people go, you just gotta do the most of it for youself.
>>687437109
Nope, she just stopped making time for me and when I said that I was getting pretty upset because of it (today) she apparently decided that she's happy with how she is and doesn't care about me.
HANGING IS QUICK AND PAINLESS
LOOK IT UP
>>687437469
i have friends. that's not really the problem. just not in the mood of meeting with them mostly. i'm not interested in others so much anymore. i'm in my 30ies, in earlier years we were always together, binge drinking, drugs etc. it's getting boring.
>>687437489
Yes she was really close to me and we would flirt all the time. She then suddenly switched gears and fell for this paki son of a bitch Farooq
>>687437430
That's been a while ago. I'm sure you can get some random job that suits you temporarily if you look on craigslist or classifieds.
And then once you have a schedule like everyone else, maybe you can say hi to her, if she even exists. I can't tell if you genuinely saw her or not. In that case, you're better off meeting a random person to chat with at the bar and calling it a day.
Here i am shitposting instead of sleeping and going to school. Don't shitpost like me. Be a model citizen.
>>687437585
oh.. yeah, shit like this can happen. how long was your relationship?
>>687437522
My parents always wanted to have me aborted so that's one.
>>687437577
I admire you for your strengh to go on.
If at least I hadn't lost my 2008 job... I've even accepted I'm worthless in regards to money and career, but still with that job I was happy.
>>687437522
Are these pictures getting worse, or what? Lol
>>687437841
what's two? And three?
Tell me more anon
>>687437940
I've got a folder full and I just pick whatever fits
>>687437785
If she was flirting with you but ended up with another guy the signs aren't good mayng. But then again if she did have feelings maybe you can ask what happened I know it'll be hard but if you know what you did wrong it'll really help in the future
>>687437745
Oh well i dunno what 30 year olds do. Maybe you can exercise and buy lunch at your local vegan shop.
>>687434208
Hey man, I broke up in March too. I thought I had gotten over it a few weeks ago, but I ocasionally still find myself thinking about her, yet I'm glad we broke up for she was holding me down. But hey, at least I don't cry myself to sleep anymore
Love is just weird man
>>687437967
My grandmother and her stepdaughter attacked my mother when she was pregnant with me so that she would have a miscarriage
>>687438033
Kek nice dubs, yet again. >>687437522
>>687437829
Too late. I'm 31yo.
I'll search for a job again, for one last time, but here in Spain it's +20% of unemployment. But I'm gonna try once last time. Just because /b/ was kind to me. If It works and I feel better then I'll come here to help others as well.
>>687438114
>tfw dubs predicts your self esteem
>>687437838
Two years.
I guess I'm lucky that it didn't happen later after 4+ years or something.
>>687438058
I told her I loved her once but she said that she thought I was attractive but isn't into relationships nor anything serious
>>687433915
If you don't want to die and don't have anything to live for, just leave. The worst that can happen is that your mindset doesn't change.
I was listen to this for hours :( wanna die bros.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1KbauuM9EhY
>>687438143
Shit man maybe move to Sweden they accept all the Muslims that say they are in a crisis. Not sure how you could qualify. Or some other highly english speaking country. Don't give up, it sounds tough.
As my depression consumes more and more of my life, and consequently drives more and more people away, I have had to come to terms that I may have already been loved for the last time.
Mfw gf but she doesn't want to have sex because it brings back bad memories from her ex. A double fucking whammy I was out.
>>687438278
I like gaming and music, but I cannot rely on both alone anymore. Memories torture me. The thought of picturing the love of my life with someone else doing couple stuff kills me. The thought of being worthless and pathetic.
Trying to get a desperate dead end job without prospects of improving just to play videogames is way too pathetic.
Indeed, it's better if I just leave.
>>687438086
At least you're alive, right?
Looks like the odds were against you the whole time, and you were able to type this post.
The best part? You're indebted to no one with this life, since it was mere chance you're still alive.
Pay your debt to fortune op, go do something with your life other than end it. However long or slowly it may take.
>>687437872
there's honestly so much you can do. Buy yourself something nice, take drugs and go out and forget about it one night, a thing I realized is that human interactions are golden and keeping it in and isolating it's only making it worse. Hell, even try and go to uni, it's amazing how it can keep you busy
>>687438396
Throw yourself in a lake
>>687438398
:(
Good luck /bro/
>>687437967
I have to live with my grandmother (Children don't move out of their parent' s house when they grow old they just gradually 'inherit' them) and I love her ,she doesn't have anyone else(no contacts no body visits her and nobody likes her anymore). But its hard to knowing that she tried to kill me.
>>687438600
>he does it again
>>687438524
What a bitch
Handle your shit
Move away
Leave social media
Learn to forge weld
Become man
>>687438206
yeah, that's some weird shit, i've to admit. it probably not even bc of you peronally, she just got tired of the routine.
but now do what i said in my first post: remember that she acts like an asshole. ignore her. don't respond to her. get mad at her instead of feeling sorry.
she will probably try sometime to contact you - but don't react.
>>687438082
I didn't cry for her but I still think about her every single day and there are moments where I just feel her absence and I feel like there's nowhere to go and I miss her so much.
>>687432340
I was too autistic to strike up a conversation in the early semesters, now she is taken and i blew it
Broke up with this girl 2 years ago. We rarely agreed on anything at all so it was pretty much constant arguments everyday. We broke up on bad terms and have hated each other ever since but over time my hate has completely disappeared and now it's just a facade to keep up appearances. I've wanted to talk to her again but that just isn't likely to happen I think it would bring closure but also unnecessary feels, I see her in my college almost everyday during the two years and it seemed like we were strangers. We're now both in relationships but I don't feel like I did before. I want to let go but apart of me still clings to the past. Despite everything and I've always thought I was going to make it work somehow. I just wish it didn't end that way.
My mum is in a dead relationship, yet she remains with the guy. I assume because she is so fimiliar of being accompanied with cunts that it doesn't seem unhealthy. They fight in patterns, a one way verbal fight as the guy doesn't add anything or genuinely listen to what she says, he just sits on the Lounge watching tv telling her to go away in impulses when he has had enough. The dude is disloyal, I lost all respect I had for him when my mum broke up with him last year over him having an active dating account (which he was using) when they were dating. I don't want to get into much detail, but the dude is a cunt; and is vividly a poisonous person by his actions and speech. He doesn't pay rent, even when my mother earns minimum wage and pays for a house. My mother is a beautiful woman, and I don't want to see her have more everlasting rage from another male. But I don't have any right to tell her how to live her life. I'm tired of knowing this sleeve ball with crawl into my mums bed each night, no matter what circumstance. I'm not sure how much longer I can sit in my room playing guitar when they fight, and give my mum hugs to show I care for her
>>687437872
Sounds like an easy decision. Go wherever you can find a job. You seem satisfied with completing work.
>>687438215
Naw man. She's not worth your time then. If she said that I have a feeling she was stringing you along and was just waiting for someone better to come along. I was in a similar situation once except it was because she said her parents didn't let her date yet or go out with me. Bitch that didn't fucking stop you from fucking around with the band geek during the bus ride to a school trip. Man sometimes you just got to let it go and realize you don't have to care about them since its a pointless endeavor and she won't return the sentiments
>>687438705
Tides change, if she loves you back then it's safe to say she regrets that decision.
Would you say you're generally happy with your life?
>>687438735
*she
>>687438960
I don't know I'm just destined to be a cuck but I never even wanted to fuck her. I just like her. I wanted to lice with her. Every single day I pressed on thinking about her . now its just that the colors of life are gone. There is no use in doing anything
>>687438915
+ a pretty song for you guys on a lonely night such as this
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=1Sj3UuF35XA
>>687438804
I wouldn't feel so shit if I at least got some closure you know?
I'm >>687434215 btw
I guess at least.. I have...a job..kinda?
And I just remembered that I have a gift I bought her arriving in the mail soon.
>>687438953
In my tweenties it was but as I said I'm 31 now and that isn't enough. :(
It's better if I just die. No more memories from my past, no more comparisons of me with other people, no more fear, no more anxiety.
>>687438906
You should talk about what happened. It's doubtful she'll hate you so much that you cant meet with her at all. I wish I had been able to explain to a friend what happened between us, and it bothered me for a long time that I haven't. After 3 years I feel like there is too much of a separation between the friendship we had and the ability to talk with her normally, since we grew apart and we kind of drifted away since I was bad at being friends.
>>687435565
Im lierally crying right now
>>687439182
Feels man. Why do anything if the whole point of it was because of her right? Well bc its not for her anymore its for you. I don't doubt for a second that if you were to hit the gym and make serious gains she'd think twice about what she did. Except now you can flip the switch and realize you're better off without her. It'll be tough man I'm not going to lie but after a while you can slowly fill the void she left one piece at a time
Ok anons. Here goes. This happened exactly 1 month ago.
>been with gf for five years.
>we were planning a trip for our 6 year anniversary (which in 3 months away)
>also planning to get our own place after our trip.
>fucking happy as fuck.png
>finalize our plans for our summer trip.
>life continues as normal
>suddenly.jpeg
>gf shows up to my doorstep early in the morning
>needed some of her stuff from my car
>wierd but ok.
>after grabbing her stuff she turns to me
>"anon... I think we need to break up"
>wat.mp3
>says she isn't happy anymore, doesn't feel the same.
>wtf is going on, try talking to her.
>tell her I love her, how much I absolutely care about her and need her.
>just shakes her head and says she can't talk.
>she gets in her car.
>I ask if we can talk about this. I'm confused and asking for answers.
>starts her car and drives off.
>absolutly destroyed.webm
...unfortunately there's more. Cont?
Who needs that one woman anyway? There are billions of them and they don't really have to effect your life in any way.
Find a passion, like woodworking or learn electronics. Or help the Kurds in Syria. Backpack across Europe. Who gives a fuck, just don't sit there in squalor and piss unemployed and think about your shitty memories and what used to be. What happened is already gone, it will never return and it doesn't need to affect your present or future.
Seeing others worth so much while you worth so little... It hurts now. I used to not give a shit but now it hurts.
http://vocaroo.com/i/s1cmnBgEOVLX
>>687439537
It happened to me when I was 15yo.
It never happened to me again. I'm 31yo.
Still mourning that missed chance while she probably is married. I'm sure it was yesterday her in that bar...
>>687439537
Keep going man. I know them feels.
>>687432340
You could be a character in her story, like a vendor in iron forge or something
>>687432340
hahaha, fuck you just got friendzoned so hard i think i broke my ribs. Fuck my life and fuck me.
>>687439777
lol my first trips here ever. And it was while tlaking about her.
>>687439116
>*she
I thought people calling you she were meming.
>>687439281
You honestly sound a lot like me and im 20. Except you're worse off. Do you feel like you can be independent enough to find a job? Because honestly if you find a job and stick with it, living somewhere shitty, at least you can be happy with that consistensy and after several years, not be bothered by your past. It's worked for me sort of. I've failed college classes for the past few years and had a summer job. Lately, it helped me most to have a few very good friends, but at the very least you'll have more, *friendly*, human interaction with a job. Since you're 31, you can think of it as you'e genuinely capable of moving somewhere and getting a shitty job and apartment. You'll be forced to live for yourself because you're be completely dependent on yourself and i doubt you'll kill yourself random. Although if you do, so be it. Meanwhile, you can stop browsing /b/ (because you would be poor now, no computer unless library) and start meditating every day for 15-30 minutes. The rest of the day just spend time outside or exercise and be content that you survive with a job and survive with hopefully diminishing anxiety.
>>687439918
You should tell her about the trips
Since no one really cares about my personal shit, how about historical feels?
It doesn't seem like much if you don't know anything about WWI, but the Willy-Nicky telegrams get me in the gut every time.
These two guys who have known each other before they even understood what it meant to be destined for the throne are trying so hard to stop their people from going to war... and they fail. The world is dragged into a war unlike anything it has ever seen before. A mechanical horror without honor or dignity.
>>687439272
yeah, she is a huge asshole to not even break up correctly. so you have to end it for yourself.
the gift is a good thing. it will give you opportunity to show strength. she will probably try to contact you after she received it. even if it's hard af - you have to ignore her then. if she messages you, the best thing would be to reply shortly and indifferently. kind of. keep it, i don't care. and nothing else!
>>687439281
Oh and take valerian root if you cant sleep consistently. You shouldn't need the whole dose (plus you want it to last longer). It helps with anxiety and sedates you to go to sleep. It's not habit forming..
>>687439552
/thread
>>687439537
go on.
>>687439775
i died
>>687440188
Thanks anon, I'll take your advice I think.
Stay excellent /b/ro
She forgot about me but I coulnd't. Now we both will die without ever being together.
>>687438705
Op are you still there?
There are unanswered questions
>>687439396
faggot
>>687440741
I was waiting for a reply. So what is it that you want to ask?
>>687439343
I want too but a lot of stuff was said during our early break up. Things which forced me out of my friendship group, things which weren't true, her ex best friend has even apologised to me about it, idk man I've never been the same since, I'm pretty sure she still resents me after everything that happened.
>>687440844
Would you say you're happy with your life?
>>687439537
Cont.
>after she leaves I'm absolutely destroyed.
>I frantically try calling her/texting her asking if we can talk for the rest of the day.
>finally responds later that night saying there's nothing to talk about.
>wtf is my life
>I'm stricken with sorrow.
>heartbroken as fuck
>a misery filled week goes by, honestly I don't remember much of it. It was kind of a numb blur to me.
>I try calling her again to see if we can talk.
>she agrees to meet up to talk.
>holy fuck is this my chance? I thought to myself.
>day of the meeting
>nervous as fuck, the meet up time was 6pm.
>I texted to confirm the time/place.
>6pm comes, she's not answering any calls/texts.
>stands me up for 3 hours.
>wtf but whatever I really need to talk to her.
>we finally meet and have a talk.
Ok anons... fuck it
>I pour out myour heart to her, everything I had, all of the feelings I had for her. I expressed how much I cared, how much she meant to me.... I would do anything to make her happy... fuck anons... she's the one.
I'll cont.
>>687435565
.......feels
>>687440974
Yes I guess I can press. I was suicidal a while back but I've changed. I just need to spend some time with my /b/rothers once in a while.
>>687440704
same to you - it was my pleasure, if i could help you a little bit.
remember - if she recognizes your weakness, you only can lose.
stay strong and win, /b/ro.
>>687441145
That's sweet, glad to hear things are going well.
Anything besides your almost non-existence that's got you down?
>>687440975
Is your name Todd?
>>687441443
Well, the girl I liked isn't interested in me anymore and likes a shitskin even though I once told her I loved her and she said that she wasn't into relationships.
She told me I'm not allowed to die, and to stop fighting. But I'm already deep in it. I can't leave or I'll die, and I can't stay cause I'll die. I'm fucked either way. And I want her to end it so she doesn't have to watch me.
Live by the sword, die by the sword.
My story of asking out a girl in primary school.
>Be me, 11 years old.
>Beta as fuck
>Meet a girl in my new class (just moved to a new school after my mum decided that my principal and teacher were total dicks)
>9/10 qt3.14, mostly Irish, too
>Decide to go the long way and wait to ask her out
>Have fun with her at school, hang out a lot more, it seems she is starting to like me
>fuckyes.gif
>She already has a boyfriend though, just find out despite knowing the dude for 5 years already
>shutdown.png
>Still decide to go through with my plan, though
Fuck, how stupid was I?
>Get her email, talk to her a lot
>Start playing Roblox with her (sister dragged me into it, turns out crush was interested in it)
>Hold off a little longer, decide to get a little closer
>Finally, time to strike!
>Back out like a stupid nigger
>Decide to ask her out over email, type out a massive love letter
>Talk to her at school, full commitment to this, ask whether or not I may get an answer, she says two weeks
>Tard self doesn't realize that the term is over in two weeks, spend the next two weeks in anticipation, keep nagging at her
>Term ends, think I'll get an answer on email, thinks her computer probably broke
>Next term starts, she isn't at school
>mfw she moves schools because of me
>>687441764
what.
>>687440975
>leaves out of no where
>"there is nothing to talk about"
god I hate bitches
>>687441880
Fuck! Thats sad
>>687441971
this is why im bi i still like women but fuck me man dating guys is SO MUCH FUCKING EASIER.
>>687441613
Gosh dang women, they're unpredictable.
How old are you and how important is she to you?
How do you guys deal with the fact you are worthless in comparison to the other people? That you have weird fetishes? That you are weak?
Of course I'm talking just in case you are.
I'm interested in opinions from +25yo people.
>>687441904
Don't mix with gangs dude. Turns out people don't mind shooting someone over cocaine.
I love you Raquel. I'll never forget you even though If you met me you'd find me pathetic.
>>687440975
Here we go again...
So I tell her everything.
>but as I am talking to her... I notice.
>I notice the most gut wrenching and soul crushing thing.
>as I talk and as I get more and more emotional and passionite... I see... I see she cares less and less.
>she folds her arms... she shifts around uncomfortably... she's looking around.
>swear to God, at one point she even took out her phone as is checking the time
>oh my god...she doesn't give a single fuck.
>I pour everything that I had out to her. I gave her everything that I could... I gave her my all... for 5 years.
>after I finish she looks at me.
>says she just doesn't feel the same about me anymore. Says she's not sure why. she says she doesnt want any hard feeling between us, says I'm still one of her best friends (we have known/been friends for 8years)
>tells me to go home.
>it all sinks in
>words can't even properly describe how I felt In that moment.
It was then anons... that I had to do one of the hardest things I've ever done in my life... I gathered all the strength I had in me... and I uttered the words I knew I had to say... it fucking kill me to say it... it physically hurt to say...
>"if you are to take anything over these past 5 years as the truth... please... please take this as the absolute truth... I love you, I love you so fucking much. I would do anything and I would give you all I could to make you happy. And as someone who feels that way, someone who's loved you for 5 years... I hope you find whatever it is that is going to make you happy... I hope you find your happiness..."
>again she just looks at me... and tells me to go home.
Sorry for the wait. Short conclusion after this
>>687441541
No haha
>>687442122
Don't compare yourself, build yourself homie. You're a work in progress up until you stop working.
>>687442429
Good, I wish i had your strengh. Have you got any bad memory hurting you now or an anxiety disorder?
>>687442341
Just get it all out man.
>>687442099
I turned 18 this month. She has been a huge part of my life since as long as I can remember. I had flirted with her a lot and told her of my love. I always worked hard for her.
She always told me that she was saving herself up for marriage and isn't into the whole live thing. Then for some reason she fell for a family friend. We are still friends but now I know I don't have a chance. I always thought she'd marry me.
Now there aren't any colours in life. I don't gave any motivation. I can't even imagine myself with someone else.
By the way I've loved her since I got in high school and now I'm about to start my last year and all my dreams have been destroyed.
How could I have missed the chance of being with you. Cute, blonde, blue eyes, tender. But I was so autistic I let you go. Later on you probably forgot me. Now you're with someone else. I cannot let the anxiety about this thought go.
>>687442341
i bet she met someone else. you were way too friendly - but i know this shit from when i was younger.
>>687442341
I'm sorry /b/ro. It is pretty fucked up what she did and you deserve much better. Good luck with everything, we are here when you need us.
tfw there was someone who truly loved you and would've done anything for you but you let them go anyway because you were young and stupid.
>>687442301
did you confute me with anyone else?!
>>687443038
me
>>687432910
How old are you? Location?
>>687442594
Yeah. I've been struggling with night terrors. I went through a violent time and I still see that shit. I can't do crowds that well anymore. But I don't wanna give up on betterment.
You know what it feels like when other people let you down? What if what you feel now is how it feels thinking you let yourself down. You can still be good. People who are content being shitty don't agonize over it, they blame everything else. If you think you're weak that in of itself means you could be strong.
Don't dismiss your own potential homie, even if someone else does or has.
>>687443075
Naw, you asked me what. I was just clarifying.
>>687442726
Damn, I don't know the *whole* story so I don't know if she's salvageable. If the shitskin is an actual asshole and that's not just your point of view you can bet she'll come to her senses if she's smart. There's always hope, but it's not a bad idea to give up either, sometimes there's just no way to make it work.
You've heard it said to yourself and others hundreds of times, but if things don't work out. You'll get over it, it never ever seems true at the time, but it's true 100% of the time.
>>687443297
Hadn't thought about this dude:
> People who are content being shitty don't agonize over it, they blame everything else. If you think you're weak that in of itself means you could be strong.
I also work out, when most people in my situation are usually fat and such...
I wish I can believe your words, they look convincing. Thanks I guess.
>>687442341
if she really cut it off like that after 5 years that shits gonna hurt nigga but you better off out of it, imagine moving in together or having kids, just kill her family and sleep well
>>687443378
oh, that were you! i didn't know what you meant in first place, so thx. gangbanger?
>>687442341
After everything is said and done... I'm left feeling empty, confused, and depressed as fuck.Not a day has gone by since everything that I don't think of her.
But as it turns out... just 2 days ago I found out why she broke up with me.
>she said she didn't know why she wasnt happy anymore
>said she just doesn't feel the same.
>one of my friends, who's also mutual friends with my ex and many of her friends, found out.
>turns out... she was seeing someone else a month before we broke up.
>turns out it was one of her coworkers that I know
>turns out she's now in a relationship with that drunken druggie piece of shit.
>turns out that after 5 years, she couldn't even be fucking honest with me or give me the time of day to talk about it.
>now I'm consumed with a mixture of sorrow and rage.
Fucked up thing is though... as much as she fucking dragged me through the dirt. For as much as she doesn't give a shit about me... I still fucking care about her. I care so much it hurts. Now I'm just trying to move on, and have nothing to do with her anymore. Because I've realized, the person I loved, is someone entirely different now. The person I used to know is just a ghost.
Fuck man... thanks for listening... God damn
>>687443603
brooooo...u need to go smash that druggie cunt...put him in the ground
>>687443431
I guess I'll just be that friend to her.
Anyway way thanks for the help /b/ro I'll try to move on
>>687442086
Yeah, really hurt my self esteem for a while
>>687443603
Man don't listen to>>687443717
He's not worth it and neither is she, you won't gain anything.
>>687443603
that is true faggot she is not the person you thought, u need to treat it like shes dead, and that person is gone, go to a graveyard and put some flowers on a random persons grave, say a few words tehn get wated that night have a good cry wake up and move on with your life, it'll take time but it will work out
dont let her faggotry make u paranoid about all women, i finally got myself a good one, there is someon out ther for everyone
>>687443603
i knew it! please try at least to ignore her from now on. let your feelings die and show this piece of shit what she did. don't be friendly, don't show her that you care. please.
>>687443793
Godspeed
>>687443983
/b/rofist
>>687443576
Yeah. Started rolling with these guys looking to feel tough. I got family out of it. But we got older and bigger and a few boys started slinging coke. It started out as "let's go beat this dudes ass!" and now I don't feel safe without a gun. Losing family was a wake up call. My homie went missing two and a half weeks ago. He was robbing though, so he coulda pissed off anyone. His blood doesn't even care, have that "it's what happens attitude.
I don't wanna die for them, but they're family you know? Plus, I can't just say I'm done, not without leaving state.
>>687443467
Don't believe words man. If You test yourself, you Will surprise yourself. You're your own worst critic, but that means any progress is monumental. I believe in you, and I ain't never met you.
Keep working. Don't worry about what others are doing unless it drives you. You will get better homie.
>>687443603
Fuck me anon that's heartbreaking to read. Fucking women man none of them have a heart. I know this. I hope YOU find your happiness bro you deserve it way more than that creature.
>>687432340
omg lol, thats pathetic
>>687443908
Yea im Trying to not care... trying to not be friendly... for fucks sake she tries texting me every couple of days like we are still friends... but i ignore her... im just taking it day by day.
>>687443896
Thanks /b/ro
Trying to not let this experience change me into someone I'm not
>>687444755
thats the way to do it mate, maintain your integrity, i've had women bring me down whether on purpose or just because.
always stay true to who you are and you will find someone
>>687444511
Thanks /b/ro... I'm trying... ive been trying everyday since to find some form of happiness. Trying to not let this horrible experience change the man I know I am.
>>687443603
I lived the same shit a year and half ago. I did exactly what you did but i'm still talking with her, still seeing each other and hoping to get with her again even if she is just a stupid bitch.
>>687445224
Why do you want to be back with her?
I love every single one of you who's mourning over a missed chance or want to be with someone that has someone else.
Wish we all could meet face to face, so we didn't have to deal with lonilness at least.
>>687446290
Maybe in the spirit realm, brother.
>>687444680
that's great. the stronger you are the more it'll hurt her bc she knows that she loses her influence on you. idk why bu women somehow care about this shit and so you pay back. stay strong, OP.
>>687446290
I feel you... can take solace in knowing that someone is listening or someone understands whatever the fuck life has thrown at you...
>>687444509
yeah, i get that. it's a bloody one way. but tbh - leaving the state sounds like a reasonable option to me.
>>687446842
Indeed, friend.
We should thank internet a bit for this. Without it we'd feel even worse. Poor souls from the past that couldn't count with it.
>>687432910
TFW you know the feel :(
The girl I love, told me she has no feeling for me. Even after all the things we've done together, kissed, cuddled, I thought she started to develop something for me. But I was wrong.
It hurts to live. And I don't really want to keep going on. I can't forget her, I will never forget her. But my mind is torturing me. What should I do? Help me.
>>687447216
We're you in a relationship with this girl or just dating?
>>687447216
cmon bro, how old are u ?
>>687443603
Make an example out of him. Go to jail, it doesnt matter, its worth the satisfaction and the closure, butchering that fucker.
>>687447171
:(
>>687447216
You'll forget her when you find someone better. Just don't do what I did (isolating yourself) nor becoming a loser because later on you'll regret it a lot when you find out you are more likeable than you think.
If you isolate yoursef that's how you'll never forget her. That's why after 16 years I couldn't forget someone I let go. Please, don't make my mistake.
https://join.skype.com/ggCqg0EvfYXm
26 atm, married 2 kids (too soon).
love my kids, the best thing that has ever happened to me! but i feel like I'm suffocating... I dont find my wife attractive anymore. i want to sleep rather than to fuck her. Maybe I just wimping, but i cant leave her, think of what my children would think of me. its been less than a year sense we got married... What should i do /b/ros? Im fucking 26 years old, I shouldnt be at home watching kids and eating dinner at 4o'clock... I should be in a ditch with a ho at coachella or something...
>>687447829
At least you aren't alone.
>>687445984
Because i'm an asshole that is this in love with the old image i have of her.
>>687446290
Love you too mate
>>687447171
Our chicks are probably having sex games with someone else now :(
>>687448089
That about the image we create ourselves in our heads fucking sucks. We know they are kind of a lie but we still clinch to them.
>>687447829
that's the reason i never wanted a family. now i'm 35 and still didn't change my mind.
can you go to a hooker for some relief?
>>687447991
so its better to be with someone you dont love, rather than beeing alone? atleast when im alone i can do what i want, see who i want etc.
Now I eat, sleep and go to work, every single day... There is no time for just beeing ME!
>>687447704
Fuck anon. It's easier said than done. At this point I'm too broken to see anyone. She was my everything, only thing that made me happy. I'm almost down the bottle, and I still think of her.
>>687448288
>>687447829
I Live in a small town in Scandinavia, there is not much to go around, the town is so small, there is'nt any hookers here...
>>687448297
Ok, I take what I said back.
You can be happy at your own as long as you don't have splinters in your heart about the past.
I'm sorry, I guess I should have been more empathetic. Hope things work out for you. Why don't you guys divorce?
>>687448426
You are right. Try to rely on gaming or music or whatever makes you happy to wait before you met the real one.
Don't try alcohol dude, it'll just kill the chance of getting that future person waiting for you.
>>687435516
Romanian faggot
>>687448194
We always know when we lie to ourselves but we still do it.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aNYjOVo5IEw
nowadays I don't even feel sad anymore or anything, just empty inside
>>687448194
We always know when we lie to ourselves but we still do it because it's the easier thing to do.
>>687448889
It's better for feel empty than pain and anxiety. Wish I could be as you. Just turn off my humanity.
>>687448556
oh, there you are. i live some 1000 kms below you, in middle-eu.
is your region so isolated? no bigger towns in reach?
https://join.skype.com/PleOnBR6bLbc
>>687433915
What country?
>>687433915
Just join the army, that's what I'm doing. If your life is completely worthless and you don't care if you die then just join the army.
>>687449022
tbh I liked it better when I felt the pain, made me feel like things still matter
>>687449340
This
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J1IdKeZU8hs
Stay strong brothers
>>687449218
I thought about it you know?
>>687448630
Thanx man, i dont know about a divorce. she loves me, i dont know... its just so had you know.
And the one thing thats keeping me bak for sure is my kids. i grew up without a dad, and it sucked!
A girl I've had a crush on for two years just told me she has a new boyfriend
It's okay though
>>687449687
Ain't easy being european these days heh?
>>687449218
I thought about it but I'm 170cm/5.6
In Spain I think you have to be over 175cm to join the army.
Besides I'm 31yo
>>687449872
Nope.
>>687449029
Its about 75km to the nearest town, and about 200km to the next big town...
the town i live next to is not that big its about 5000ppl. but its like the "everyone knows everyone" situation.
And myselfe, Im a insurance salesman, so alot of people know who i am... its not like i could go out to the bar and cheat on my wife, she would know in 5min!
>>687450065
ok, you are really fuked then when it comes to alternatives.
2 options remaining - stick to it or break up. sorry, i think that's it then.
it's been 531 days since she broke up with me and not a single day has elapsed since where i don't think of her
>>687450420
5840 days here.
Though in my case it was more about a missed chance. I cannot even get to hate her because we never hung out.
>>687448889
/LiS/ general is leaking again I see
>>687450757
damn. in my case, after we broke up, we were still friends for another good 5-6 months but after that all that remained was an occasional fleeting skype conversation, but even those are fading. it's like she's progressively forgetting more and more about me day by day while i lay awake thinking about her at night
Why do you faggot always make these moan and whine threads? Are you all that beta?
>>687451102
Best of luck to you. It sucks to think about someone that will never be with you again. If you think over it recurringly, things she may doing with someone else, it hurts a lot. I understand you. Hope things get better to you.
>>687451102
I'm 31, maybe if you are much younger you can rely on the exicement about the future unlike me.
>>687451255
thanks /b/ro.
it just hurts how i go out of my way so she'll even talk to me but she never does. i've stopped trying for the most part but i know she'll be in my thoughts for years to come
>>687451661
i assume that's what happens lol
>>687451661
piss off 12yo nigger.
>>687451661
Maybe someday someone else will do that to her and then she'll think of you again, mourning over the fact she lost you. u never know... Perhaps she'll end up with an asshole.
>>687452063
ew, she's ugly. im not that desperate.
>>687452369
you're gay
>>687452063
guess you can keep her.
>>687448630
Music doesn't help anymore. But literally every song reminds me of her somehow. I can't game either. I get bored after few minutes, it's not fun. I don't want to drink, but that's the only thing that let's me sleep now.
I'm in such a weird fucked up place right now.
The girl I was seeing broke things off with me last week. It was on relatively good terms even though I wasn't particularly happy about it.
Went to a party last night. One of my friends hooked up with her. They didn't fuck but they were making out and shit. I didn't realize how mad I was gonna get until it happened. I was fucking pissed.
I don't even know what to do anymore I feel like I've been stabbed in the back.
Surely you can't do that shit after a week? That's next level fucked up surely I'm right to be angry?
>>687452979
It's closing in on a year and a half for me and i still get angry over shit like that, so you're good
I'm dying inside. Everyday I'm dying. I'm not even depressed anymore, thanks to magnesium and sport. I'm just empty and powerless. I'm that handsome and fit guy who hasn't a girlfriend. Everyone thinks I'm gay. They really fucking think I'm homosexual.
But that's false. It's like I'm wearing a lead mask. Outside, and when I'm with people, I CAN'T feel anything. For real. I don't have any emotions, nothing. I can't feel love, I can't be horny or anything else. My social anxiety turned me into a monster. Even though by looking at me you may find me confident and alpha, I'm just insecure. I just act like a robot.
But when day's over, and I'm alone in my house, alone in my bed, alone in the dark, emotions come back. And I feel love, I feel everything and I hate myself for being like I am. I have everything but my mind is so deeply fucked that I'm literally trapped. But there's something I'm sure about : I'll be free in less that one year. If nothing changes, and I don't know why it would, I'll kill myself.
I don't know what to do, please help me.
>>687453288
Get a life faggot
First of all, I'm so sorry, everyone that's posted here.
Secondly, here's the story of my life, funny/happy parts omitted when they're irrelevant. Pic unrelated.
>be me, about five-ish? Idk
>major crush on a girl back in kindergarten, and a minor crush on another
>make cringy little love letter cards for both
>show parents
>parents laugh
>traumatic experience, I no longer trust them with information about who I like
>a few years pass
>major crush sorta fizzled away, my young mind couldn't really comprehend it though
>minor crush developed into major crush, she got major crush on me
>she got really clingy and I started running away when she started chasing me
>but that's arbitrary
>I go off to England for about 1 1/2 years
>frequently email her and a guy I thought was my friend
>make friends in England
>leave England
>return to the land of shitposts
>haven't been in touch with friends from England since then
>come back to all my "friends"
>new guy infiltrated friendship group, issued orders to the rest to betray me and run away from me
>become loner for three months
>go to my friends in the grade below
>turns out crush left school because of bullies
>find and confront bullies
>young me actually had his badarse moments
>far better friends since I was actually meant to be in their grade
>NYE party at lifetime best friend's house with crush
>totally unforgettable night
>we poured so much effort into Sonic Colours DS
>I notice even more than usual that lifetime best friend, crush and I are very similar to the trio of Harry, Ron and Hermione (where I'm Harry, because everyone knew me for skipping a year)
>consider that it might all turn out like the books and crush might get together with best friend
>dismiss that thought
>make my return to the grade that betrayed me
>develop crush on another girl
>I was a cringy fuck when I was hitting on her
>trauma of the experience means I can now no longer feel comfortable talking to girls around their friends
Cont:
>>687453388
What a wonderful advice, I didn't think about it !
>>687453152
Yeah cool I was just making sure my friends weren't comforting me and telling me how fucked up it was just to shut me up or anything.
It's bad though.
The guy who did it is apparently fucking devastated, he's sent me a massive text message apologizing and shit but I don't know if I'm gonna forgive him.
The girl hasn't said anything. When I walked out of the party afterwards I completely blanked her and apparently she looked really hurt, but I haven't heard a single thing from her.
>>687453604
go on....
>>687453898
Kek you dickhead
>>687453288
Does free will even exist ?
