>35
>married
>still dont know what I want to do when I grow up

Currently working at becoming a concept artist. I fucked around with art since a young age, but never put in effort.

Computer certifications at this point. And hope I'm not about to waste 6 months at this place trying to build up my resume

>>687063645
i'm looking forward to killing myself soon if that counts?

Learning to love the grind. The grind is life. No grind, no life.

I don't know why more people don't understand this.

>>687064436
why not now anon?

>>687064717
whats your current hustle anon?

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>>687063645
Write a book or screenplay that gets published
I've already written about a dozen or so short stories that got a bit of good attention

But I guess I don't ever want to be one of those pretentious assholes that sit in coffee shops with bernie stickers on their laptops while sipping a 16$ latte talking about how "explosive" their novel about a tri genderqueer dragon in high school is going to be.

>>687064436
yeah, do it

>>687063771
thats me

>>687063645
30's. YouTubing, Streaming, Musicing, Writing, something creatively. Right now, I cut meat for a living, drinking myself into a stopper when I am not working. About 95% sure my life will end in suicide in a few months.

>>687065057
lol do you realize how pretentious you sound even saying that. i swear /b/ has no self awareness

>>687064932
sitting in a bath right now and it's pretty nice
basically wait until SO dumps me bc i'm a pathetic loser
wait long enough that they're not going to feel guilty about the suicide of a worthless sack of shit
???
profit and/or hang myself

>>687063927
Me too kinda. I decided to go to school a year ago and got back into studying art. I would love to be in on the conceptual level. What is your personality type? Mine is INTP.

>>687063645
Masturbate as much as possible.

>>687065569
>personality type
oh god.

>>687063645
>go to an ivy league school
>make 1 million dollars
>meet an angel
>meet an elf
>build my house with my own hands
>attain enlightenment

>>687065057
>talking about how "explosive" their novel about a tri genderqueer dragon in high school is going to be.
wtf do you write about shitlord?

>>687066184
what?

>>687065238
So I guess the only way to not be pretentious is to stay inside all day eating cheetos and Mtn. Dew never doing anything
got it

>>687063771
lel

>>687066924
About tri gendered pyrofox in college

>>687066956
pretty much
otherwise youre one of those fucking NORMIE FAGGOTS REEEEEEEE

>>687066184
>>687065569
lolkek

>>687067071
that could be cool i guess

>>687063645
>enter jazz compositional contest and win
>become professional kickboxer and then quit and focus on more important things
>discover how to drastically and substantially increase human intelligence
>make modern art paintings and have them value in the thousands
>discover some other cool scientific bullshit that will likely improve humanity as a whole
>write a science fiction books that will be published a sold
>write a few short stories that will be sold
>discover immortality so I don't die (probably not, but fuck it, why not try, right?) before I die and then die a failure because I died trying to discover immortality

>>687066924
>wtf do you write about shitlord?
Mostly character focused stories. Average people in strange situations.
People overcoming things greater than themselves
Humanity as a whole overcoming things greater than they are as individuals.
Characters and interactions often based on people and things I see in reality.

I also write smut.

>>687067507
I actually lied a little and didn't post my actual goals, but modified it so it'd seem like I wasn't typing even though this is an anonymous message board and there'd be no reason to do that unless people were watching what I was doing, which is possible, but seemingly unlikely, or I just like to think that it's unlikely.

>>687063645
Not dying alone in the street.

That's pretty much it.

>>687063645
Become president of my slavic shithole and make it great again.

>>687067767
Then you should always be with at least one person while on the streets

You can od better than that
strive for something meaningful in your life

>>687067507
>>become professional kickboxer and then quit and focus on more important things
why even waste your time in the first place then?

>>687067838
make america great again

>>687067522
oh so mean boring white guy shit

>>687067935
>You can od better than that
always od with friends, kids

Try new things every week until you find something that you are naturally good at then do it for money somehow.

>>687063645
Get fit so I can leave a pretty corpse.

>>687068159
kek

>>687068086
Damn right
Thankfully for me and everyone like me, white guys are the majority of the paying market.

>>687067984
It ranks lower on importance, but it's still present.

When I die, besides being able to think about my contributions to visual arts, musical arts, literature (possibly philosophy), and science, I'd also like to look back at how I did all of that shit while also having been badass and skilled enough to have been a professional Kickboxer.

>>687068327
you sound like you must be either very young or very mediocre at everything

>>687063645
>Get a dynamite wife or long term girlfriend
>Get my dream job in software
>Get a house
>Raise some kids
>Hope I don't panic too much on my death bed, I don't want to put my loved ones through that

>>687069068
might as well say:
>buy a lottery ticket
>win

>>687069276
Hey, a lot more people have done that than have won the lottery.
Still, in this economy/society, I can see where you're coming from.

>>687069696
You have a point. I was exaggerating to be funny.

>>687069896
Oh... guess I need my humor subroutines checked, lol.

>>687069065
I'm 20 years old.

I've competed in amateur Boxing, Kickboxing, Karate, and MMA competitions.
I believe I could've become professional if I cared enough to dedicate more of my time to fighting, Kickboxing is my favorite.

I'm an excellent pianist, and have played at various coffee shops around areas I've lived.
I'm actually quite popular locally.
I'm aware that my compositions are of a relatively high standard, enough to get signed, but that's not what I want in life.

I've also just wasted a lot of my life, while having the factor of growing up relatively poor in a westernized and developed society, bad parents, etcetera.

I spent some of middle school, and 3 years of high school fucking around.
I did drugs, skipped school, was a general fuck head.
I still pursued my hobbies, but that's honestly bullshit.

My visual arts skills could use some work.

I've gotten high praise for my creative righting throughout school.
I'm a fuckup in school.
I failed high school for 3 years. I managed to catch up and graduate with half assed effort in 2 years, though.

I've also been in and out of depression besides the last few years, and was homelss more than a few times.

I've been completely sober for the last few years, and have identified that contributing to science is what's important to me, along with the other contributions taking a side step but still being prominent.

>>687063645
To own about 15 acres and a cabin in the mountains and retire there.

>>687070758
Amen to that.

>>687070458
>creative righting
stopped reading
post hidden
id blocked

34 smoke more weed build gundam models and buy more cast off figures

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>>687063645
Climb Mt. Logan before 25.

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>>687070805
Like this.....but maybe a bigger cabin.

>>687070905
>build gundam models
any pics of ones youve already built?

>>687070458

> I've received a high degree of praise for my creative writing throughout school.

>>687071254
Yeah, I can get behind that.
I'd bring a library and a lifetime's worth of my favorite booze.
That would be a little lonely sometimes, but I'd enjoy the peace.

Going back to school when I'm about to turn thirty. Trying to rekindle that passion I used to have for chasing dreams. Biggest mistake of my life was getting married. All it has done was hold me back. It's fucking lies, wives aren't there to support you in your endeavors. They want security and stability.

Don't ever marry or at least until you finally found yourself in a place where you truly felt like you've made it and can comfortably say you can settle down.

I've straight up had to tell my wife I'm sick of the bullshit of being heldback by her insecurities and anxiety. I don't know why I'm still with her. I told her I'm starting a new life that I'm in charge of and you can come with but you no longer have the privilege of interfering with my decisions.

to make big cums

>>687071362
Yeah when I get my shit togeter I will post in the relevant area of 4chan but nothing I can post now at work

>>687071857
Once in awhile have company over and drink some beer and grill some steaks.

>>687072067
Me to on that one

>>687065229
get money

>>687072011
how did she hold you back?

>>687072113
Right on. Only problem is that shit's expensive.
If I work hard and invest right, I MIGHT be able to have that in my mid 50s.

>>687063645
Two chicks, at the same time.

>>687072540
I see what you did there.

>>687063645
to crush my enemies, see them driven before me
and hear the lamentation of their women.

>>687072540
Based

>>687072540
I would call you out on being a reddit fag if it didn't imply I was as well

>>687065391
This attitude is what will get you dumped you knobskin

>Don't have that attitute
>Don't get dumped
>Don't die

Win

>>687071512
>>687070864
I also find it to a higher quality that which I've read from other amateurs, as well as respected pieces, but it seems as if serious conversation would be more difficult to have, judging by these posts.

>>687063645
>Fucking your mother
>All night
>Every night

>>687071512
i think you mean
>creative righting
>>687070458

>>687070458
i don't think you're making the argument you think you're making

>>687063645
Get my kicks before the whole shithouse goes up in flames

>>687073546
he's not an ambiturner

>>687072866
dubs
i agree
and here is an example of a self-fulfilling prophecy

>>687072444
If I he next 3 years are good to me, I'm hoping to do it then.

>>687065126

There is tons of people like you. The main reason is that you don't have any goals or ambitions.
Sit down EVERY DAY for 30 mins to an hour and meditate - the type of meditation where you look on yourself from other perspective, asking yourself what is your life purpuse, what are you good at in life,... dont it's not about faith in god or whatever but faith in youself.
Just sit down and spend some time for YOUSELF. Observe your thoughts. Dont judge them, just observe like you would observe some other human. Eventualy, you will get all the answer from yourself, they will come out within yourself and believe me you will be surprised and asking yourself how the fuck that happened.
Your mindset will change.
In other hand.. if you wont spend time for yourself, you will probably end like you set yourself you will end.

Good luck.

P.s. in case you escape from your mind and thoughts and become happier person, do me a favour and try to open eyes to at least one human you know or dont know and who have similar problems (anxiety, depression,...)

>>687074050
If the *

>>687063645
No. I buy lottery tickets even though I'm fully aware of how absolutely fucking retarded the odds are, just because being wealthy and comfortable without ever actually having to do fucking anything is the only shot I have of ever being happy. I'm 35. I have had a job and been on my own my entire adult life. I just hate it.

>>687069068
>>Get my dream job in software
Better start dedicating more time to developing your skill every single day.

>>687074320
>I just hate it.
It's never too late to change. Baby steps, bro; they start turning into sprints later on.

>>687073649
lel

>>687073649
I'm kind of just venting, to be honest.

>>687074422
I am, whenever I'm not working on something for school, I'm working on a topcoder problem or project euler problem.
I'm trying to do the project euler problems in many languages but starting with C.
Wish me luck!

>>687075052
>Wish me luck!
>implying you need it

>>687075262
Thanks.

I want to get out of my home situation and find myself.

>>687075888
You just found yourself some trips. Congrats.

>>687076381
Oh shit I just noticed, thanks!

I want to graduate college and meet my future wife in the process. After that Id like to be wealthy but its not as important as having a family. Then I turn around the next day and think about never meeting someone so I might as well focus on being wealthy

>>687077155
how old?

>>687064436
me

if i could have a life where i'm not a massive colossal piece of shit then i guess
>go back to med school
>finish, get into specialty training programme
>travel extensively
>live overseas
>start new fam
>2-3 kids, with my wonderful SO who will still be around somehow
>live a rich and fulfilling life

fuck everything suicide it is.

>>687077661
Am I? 21

>>687077687
>go back to med school
so you were already at med school before?

>>687077687

You still can have all that anon. If you dont have the will power to get it now, you wouldnt get it even if you could turn back time.

>>687078019
still enrolled technically, just a giant failure
got sick, i've had to take 2 years out already

>>687063771
Add one kid and you're me, bro.

>>687078408
with cancer?

>>687078408
I dropped out of college after freshman year because I partied and smoked pot way too much so had to move back home. After almost 2 years I just started at a community college and am trying to get back on track. Hard to stay motivated when I just got rejected from the uni my friends are all going to

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>>687063645
Oh so thats how you use those. My goal is to discover something totally new

>>687078546
woooow. went to say 'i wish'. what i mean by that is cancer would be a proper legitimate reason
i went fully crazy, had to defer out and wound up getting diagnosed with bipolar
i can't get anything right in my life anymore. it's all slipping out from under me

>>687078737
sucks to hear about the rejected from uni part but it sounds like you've really made progress
i'm certain you'll get there

>>687066774
>go to an ivy league school
check, the equivalent of in our country
>make 1 million dollars
not yet, I'm about halfway there.
>meet an angel
check, going to marry her this fall
>meet an elf
check, didn't work out in the end (a pity, she was beautiful)
>build my house with my own hands
check, doing it right now
>attain enlightenment
not sure, but probably yes

Still don't know what to do when I grow up tho...

>>687074171
Onee sama
Thank you

>>687079078
you must be from india?

>>687069068
What is your dream job in software? Because I have yet to see one without a darker side.

>>687079189
kek

>>687078449
Add one more and that's me

>>687079598
Take away the wife and kids and 10 years and that's me

>>687079068
Yeah I will get there, just sucks spending another year here with all of my friends gone. And sorry to hear about bipolar. I just battle depression, which is manageable but it leaves me with no motivation for weeks sometimes and kills grades and relationships. Turned very antisocial and stopped doing shit for like a year. Now have no muscle and no social skills. At least I can say Ive seen a bunch of anime and played a bunch of games right? haha Sorry just venting at this point. These sleepless nights make me like this

>>687063645
I want to organize a small group of fighters and go kill shitskins.

>>687079189
kek no, Yuropoor

>>687063645
Die happy.

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>>687079918
vent away, i know the feel mate
hey at least you've got skills to show? i spend my unemployed time (oh yeah, lost job around the time of diagnosis) either sleeping or playing the sims or 4chan

i also lost pretty much all of my friends. of the few that stuck around, either i don't trust them further than i could throw them, or they're fucked themselves and i'm their support
most people don't know how fucked i am.

>>687080360
that last bit sounded so self-indulgent sorry
i just mean i sort of keep my fuck-uppery to myself

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>28
>every day is the same
>single
>only live for music, small amount of cash and sex
>no job
>currently at college doing auto-mechanic shit

>>687080003
ah so you are a pakki immigrant in sweden

Make enough to move out of my gf's

>>687063645
Fuck bitches, get money.

>>687063645
Gonna go fishing tomorrow.

>>687080575
I wish. Slavshit (and not in Sweden).

>>687080509
>28
>Every day is a bit different, used to be boring. Then I stopped giving a shit.
>Not single. Girlfriend of 2 years. She's pretty cool.
>Just got a job programming assembly line robots
>Still in college for comp. eng. and comp. sci. (double major)

I started going to school at 26. Life was awful and boring. Then I dropped a shitload of acid one night and I changed it all around.

>>687080764
are you the guy that wanted to make america great again?

>>687067838
this guy

>>687080774
>Life was awful and boring
thats how i feel right now, everything is losing its value. hopefully school will change my views or im fucked.in the long run

>>687080360
Man that is so much like my life. Made one friend while I was at uni that moved back to his home too, but other side of the country. The ones here make me wonder if I want to keep them in my life much longer sometimes. Always seem to have another agenda and no support. Sometimes even treat me like I have to do shit for them when I get nothing in return

>>687080509
that pic kekd

>>687070458
>creative righting
burst out laughing

>>687080915
No, two different anons. I have no ambition to waste my time on my fellow countryfags.

>>687080994
Welp, you could do what I did: Get mugged at knifepoint on 5 tabs of acid. Gives you a new zest for life. At 25 I was working at Radioshack for about minimum wage, living in the basement of my old English Professor (after dropping out of school), and having a shiny and new failed relationship every 3-4 months.

After that night, I took a car ride from where I live in Boston down to Florida, spent some time travelling alone. Came back, got into a better school, have a great relationship, a 3.8 GPA in my double major, and make 22 an hour at my current internship. Sometimes traumatic shit can be a catalyst.

>>687065126
Is this cinnamontoastken?

>>687080360
>>687081040
And if there is hope for me there is hope for you anon. As long as the world doesnt go to shit in the next few years Im sure we will both at least be on track to a happy and/or life

>>687081040
sucks man
idk what to tell you. i'm already 24 and i have no solution. i though shit would get better but it doesn't.
similar thing, all my friends have graduated and moved on. and i'm just a pile of shit doing nothing with my life.
i'm just so tired all the time. tired of studying. tired of trying to keep shitty relationships afloat. tired of living an empty and pointless life.

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>>687081441
>living in the basement of my old English Professor

>get good at blacksmithing
>grow my business enough to earn £100k a year
>various fitness goals
>acquire 10/10 sexy bad girl russian wife
>join mil and become a PTI

>>687074171
Thanks

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>>687081632
>>687081441

>>687081545
thanks man. i sure hope so

>>687074171
This is something I guess but I like >>687081441
better.

>>687074320
Your shitty way of thinking is the reason you're not getting anywhere. Your "Fuck it" attitude gets you nowhere but further in the hole you've dug for yourself. God forbid you make yourself uncomfortable and try something scary.

>>687079918
This sounds exactly like me

>>687081632
See that's why I mentioned it. To contrast it based on where I am now. I can see you have difficulty with context and reading comprehension.

>>687074171
any advice on where/how to start?

>>687082018
i think he was pointing out that that is a strange dynamic

>>687082019
Just sit in a quiet room with some relaxing music, or just something ambient. Close your eyes, sit with good posture, and just think for a while.

>>687081626
>>687081732
These still same anon? Dont give up yet, Im 21 and already having similar thoughts about it never getting better. But there is always room for change. And moving and starting over can be better than you think. Im hoping to meet a girl when I go to uni, having people from all over helps. Even a /b/tard like us can get a cute girl. We just gotta hit the gym and be confident. Idk how I will ever be confident but Im determined to start trying to be at least

>>687074171
>>687082179
Also, lets listen to this guy to help get us there

>>687081328
i dont think he ever realized his mistake
poor sod

>>687082125
i try not to be alone with my thoughts as much as possible. they're not nice.

>>687082179
yep same anon.
at 21 i think i could have kept that light aflame. now i just think it's too late for me. i just can't see myself getting my life together again.
it's ok though
if i do wind up caving, i'll defs stream it

>>687082018
i think youre a faggot that doesnt have very good reading compehension or inferential thinking yourself

>>687081656
how do you sell 100K worth of swords?

>>687081929
>>687079918
me too
fugggg

>21
>3rd year of medschool
>awating for bunch of more years of books

>>687082743
I feel like we wouldnt be having this conversation if you had given up. Im a random anon and I have faith in you. 24 is still young. You can start over completely and not be behing in life still. Move somewhere, choose a new career, go someplace new to meet someone new. Change something. Thats what Im trying to do. Cheesy af but I just watched Toradora and the whole time they talk about having to keep moving forward and it hit me that thats my problem is I like to idle too much. Im at the point where I ruin all possible relationships with girls because I say how I feel and what I want straight up, but I know someone will feel the same eventually. Being straight up about everything in life has made me feel way better. Still a long ways to go but just dont give up anon

>>687081929
>>687082855
These anons and any others that feel the same too, just keep moving forward and making changes until you find where you belong. And be straight up with most things, being uncertain just adds to the stress and makes things more difficult. Why waste time wondering about a girl liking you when she might not want the same things as you so it wouldnt work anyway.

>>687083181
i want to pack up and leave. i think it would be good
unfortunately with no job i have no money. and deciding to leave means admitting that i'm not doing uni anymore

>>687083727
Do like I am. Im getting my gpa up and saving money, then I can go anywhere. Suffer through it for a bit to be able to have the freedom to go where you want

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to write a novel that is read in the future. also to make a famous meme! (pic related, it's my meme).