How do I keep the past in the past and stop blaming my parents?

>>686200915
Give me an example.

How do you manage patients on clozapine? E.g. how often do you run cloz clinics, and what pathology tests do you request routinely?

>>686201104
Parents used to ignore my desire to become an artist as I grew up. Just ignored me in that sense.

Also, my dad used to always tell me that I'm not good enough( on a regular basis) for shits and giggles even though I used to do good in school. Now, my default view of myself is that I'm a failure.

My gfs mom is on a morphine drip dying of cancer. She was also abused by her stepdad from ages 8 to 14.. In her 20s now struggling with anxiety and depression. Her mom didn't divorce her stepdad until she was 16, while she lived with her aunt and uncle down the street.

She has a grudge understandably, but loves her mom still to an extent. Any advice in a hard time?

>>686201426
Its just 1 evaluation. Most of my clients are sent by the state of Florida. Ive had like 3 that use clozarin.

>>686201825
How old are you?

>>686201866
Get close to her mom now or regret ot for the rest of her life.

>>686202112
Lol, almost 30. I guess it's prolly something stupid compared to the things some anons struggle with in this thread.

>>686201872
What do you mean it's just 1 evaluation? Can you describe your typical caseload in terms of population? Also, do you get many ftd, psp or geriatric cases that requires management of cognitive decline as well as psychiatric features? Thanks.

>>686202469
What did you become instead of an artist?

>>686202674
Did some odd jobs, currently working in a print shop

>>686200718
How Do I get Ambitions for my life?

>>686202251
Oh she is.. She's been over there every day while I'm at work.. It's just heavy on me because I work all day and then I come home and I'm comforting her.. I love her so I do it willingly, but it wears on my heart after basically two months of it.

how do i get rid of my tics, OP?

I never had them until about 3 years ago. I started to have maladaptive daydreaming as a coping mechanism while I was struggling with major depression. I was acting out my daydreams and doing it compulsively, for hours, everyday. now I get cringe attacks, remember of very embarrassing memories and start cursing, shivering and gasping uncontrollably every 30 minutes.

help a brother. i used to have such a promising academic career too.

>>686202865
Do you have your own family?

Why are you pretending to be a psychiatrist?

>>686203609
Nope. Haven't had a relationship since 5th grade (lol). I am seeing a psychologist at the moment. Thing is, I were pretty good at art (and prolly can go far if I put my mind to it) but I seem to have lost my passion for life and for making art. After starting to believe that I'm not good enough I've never been able to have a decent conversation with women because I know I'm not good enough for them. That's why I'm asking how do one turn a clean slate, distance yourself from the past and get the courage to face life again? I have to go anon. Something came up, but I can stay a few more seconds.

>>686204601
If its really that bad o would move to a new spot and start all over again.

>>686200718
Overly basic question:
I'm constantly irritable, have an OK circle of friends, enjoy work (as much as anyone can), but frequently have zero will to get out and be proactive. Prone to just feeling emotionally drained and exhausted, want to put no effort into relationships (friends or romantic). Would rather stay in and get drunk and semi-flirt with people I know via text then jack off.

Basically, I'm guessing I'm depressed, but don't really know what to do about it. I can't really afford to start seeing a professional, so any advice on what to do?

Sorry for the waste of time

>>686203954
>No need to lie to the /b/ros.
I was once a fuck up too.
I was on drugs and alcohol everyday. Eventually i vot caught and i turned my life around

I found out a kid in my school is a furry. What do.

alice its me, ticks
someone was impersonating me
that wasn't me
hopefully you get that
i didn't notice till it was too late and the thread was gone

>>686206165
wtf is you smoking, faggot. i wasn't impersonating you. i have MD and ticks too. also, alice is my favorite book and you are creepily similar to me.

>>686205486
Its not expensive. 20$ the state pays the rest

>>686205955
Leaving now don't answer this>>686206165

>>686203540
What were you depressed about?

>>686206388

im talking about something which happened in a different thread and has nothing to do with you

I know a furry, ears and tail every day for a month strait. luckily she stopped a couple weeks ago. scarred me for life

>>686206557
turns out it was a lot of enmeshment while i was growing up. dad started cheating on mom when i was born, he got into alcohol and started physically abusing her and shit. mom got very depressed. she's a doctor so she knew a lot about psychiatry, did everything she can to not deprive me of affection and nurturing when i was a kid. the fact that she had a kid was the only reason she didn't commit suicide, so she put me before everything else. i was codependent my whole life, and since i couldn't be breastfed because of my mom's depression when i was a baby, i have a strong oral fixation. no success was ever enough, i always felt a huge responsibility over my shoulders. always felt like i was far from my potential. i had only perfect expectations from myself, and the grandiose would break and shatter me every time i had even a little shortcoming. i always dated fucked up bipolar, narcissistic girls and never had a healthy relationship.

>>686200718

what are successful methods for coping with anxiety attacks resulting from PTSD?

>>686206904
Is tjis a real thing? I just thought it was /b/tards trying to see how many idiots fwll for it

http://www.strawpoll.me/10128089

>>686207445
How bad is it?

For some wierd reason it keeps kicking me out of thread

>>686200718
When I get stressed I tend to push people away and basically make self fulfilling prophecies that everyone I care about wants to abandon me. How do I stop being that way?

How much do you make

How do I go about becoming a psychiatrist?

>>686200718
Help me!!
So for 6 years I've had a group of people work against me. 3 years ago I thought I was becoming paranoid and when I mentioned it to one of the executives I liason with, he told me they were playing with me to cause me to fail and discredit me. He wouldn't tell me who but for the next 3 years I did very cursory investigation and all signs seem to point to this.

Now I realize while I don't think I'm mentally ill, that's probably what a mentally ill person would say. I was really crushed because when I confronted the people I thought were responsible they didn't confirm it. I expected that but what I didn;t expect was this executive who gave me probably the most shocking thing in my life he doesn't recall it..

wtf?

What should I do? I've given notice and am leaving but I want to make sure I'm ok and this wasn't some sort of episode based on things this person had told me over the years.

What say you?

>>686209137
wat

>>686208628
700 before taxes only work 2 hrs a day monday thru thursday

>>686200718
U ever prescribe desoxyn?

>>686208623
I forgot to mention that I've been suicidal for about 10 years and have extremely anxiety as well as very severe depression.

>>686200718
my girlfriend and I broke up last fall after getting in a fight, she went and pretty much just rebound fucked some dude she went to high school with right after we broke up, we got back together and she got mad at me today because I told her I don't like hearing about her hanging out with that other guy. am I being unreasonable here? I'm not asking much, I just don't want to hear about that shit.

>>686209137
Why do they treat you bad?

Proof w/timestamp

>>686209316
wat wat?

>>686209567
To a certain degree. While you were single you didnt mess around?

>>686209477
hey dude, that's avoidant personality disorder. you really should read Neil Strauss' book The Truth. OP is a fag and is basically trolling, hasn't answerred any questions since the start of the thread. probably not even a psychiatrist either, just some troll. but trust me.

Also, save this document.

http://www.neilstrauss.com/wp-content/uploads/2016/01/TheTruth_ReadingList.pdf

the trauma part in the beginning has all the books you need. good luck mayne.

>>686209959
Thanks anon

>>686209748
actually no. I had just moved and started a new job and was trying to get my own shit sorted out, and I just don't know anyone here so while I did have moments where I just wanted to find someone to hook up with, I never did, and she knows I didn't.

>>686209574
I had a partner that tried to steal my book of business. I caught him (it's against his contract) and blocked him from doing it. People from the company in question tried to pull him in against their contract as well (they like him as he was their guy) and I forced them not too. Another executive threatened to destroy me and cause me to suffer even longer ago. I thought it was because of this but to be honest it's being done maliciously. These are ultra rich people and perhaps this is just a fun game for some of them. The one (destroy you guy) has held his grudge for over 10 years though I apologized for it a few times over the years including at the time of fault 10 years ago. He just would never accept my apology and apparently is a malicious bastard.

I ask because I was ready to kill these people yesterday but instead faced him and told him what I thought with his boss beside me. Of course I knew he'd never admit, but I was worried this person may go after me as he seems to for 10 years.

>>686210360
Oh shit now ya did it, if grudge guy ends up dead you'll be questioned.

>>686210654
I never threatened him, it was an internal conflict I had to mull over weeks as I was so upset when I learned what I think is the truth. I'm also aware I could be wrong so I wouldn't want to harm the innocent.

It's just after 6years of this shit, I think I have a suspicious mind and I want to be sure there isn't some problem with me and I'm of sound mind. I think I am but I think crazy people think that too.

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>>686211050
K-keep up the good work, Psychologist-kun!

Alright OP I'm 28 going on 29 single childless male. Still live at home for a few reasons other than financial that don't exist anymore. Looking for a house currently but picky. So I live with my mom, step dad, and teenage half brother. For pretty much my entire life my mom has been a controlling and stubborn, generally condescending, bitch to all of us, but me especially. My social life has suffered immensely at her hands because I don't feel like even encountering the bitching that occurs if I go and do what I want when I want not on her dime. I feel like it's only getting worse as I get older. Maybe I'm just more tired of it though. On the other hand though, in as hateful of ways as it was, she's also helped me financially and made sure I stayed on track in life to get a good education and job. I never truly knew what was wrong with her until I found narcissistic parent syndrome and it fit her to a T. I've told her several times the thing she does that make me not want to even talk to her anymore. I a rarely do unless I have to because everything is answered with a hateful condescending tone & sometimes argument. I've even suggested we go to therapy and she says it's all me not her. I'd like to mend my relationship with her and quit holding this grudge that she's ruined my teens and 20s but nothing seems to work other than going along to get along. I have no diagnosed medical history myself though I could say with certainty I have moderate to high generalized and social anxiety because of her, and probably ride the fence of risky BPD type behaviors too because it keeps me destressed enough to not murder someone. Advice?

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>>686211317
Keep on keeping on

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>>686211653
I already sent you an email. Please don't mess up this thread any more than we already have; it's not ours.

>>686211686
*thumbs up*

>>686202674
fuck you answering questions with questions you bell end. If you're who you say you are you are too slow at offering worthwhile help and therefore a fail

>>686212391
I cant really answer because i personally dont know you. I realized it since the beginning. Im sorry anons.the best i can do is just give advice

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>>686212619
*sighs and rubs her head* You have to feel the empathy! What do you have, compassion fatigue? Or just no clinical experience?

/b/tards respond well to requests for info; don't try to just go it alone, ask them questions, try to connect with them, give some of your own experience with the same problems.

I went to a gender specialist and was diagnosed with mild gid. I am an avid crossdresser and have been taking herbal hormones. The specialist wants to put me on proper hormones but I was reading about addicition and espeically porn addiction and found I mirror what I had read. Everything started ok in the beginning but now I watch sissy porn exclusively, wear panties 24/7 and only masturbate while dressed, watching sissy porn and getting high.

I was wondering if being gid and/or a sissy could be caused by the build up of deltafosb or if this wouldn't be the case.

Not true. Avoid the things that made your past shitty reauires awareness. Leave it to a pseudo-deep hermetic meme to get people to forget this basic fact of life, though.

>>686211565
read The Drama of the Gifted Child by Alice Miller. it's about development psychology. a person's heterosexual relationships with partners are very similar to their relationships with opposite sex parents. that's probably why you have social anxiety. you didn't have a secure attachment with your mother while growing up, she wanted you to depend on her so she could substitute the love she never had as a child. she wanted to control you, manipulate you to feel loved and respected. welcome to the club, homie.

also read my other post, same applies to you. very good resources on that link, just look through the list on the PDF >>686209959

>>686212955
stop taking herbal hormones you idiot

>>686213104
That's the crazy thing tho is my grandparents though strict were very loving and easy to talk to people. Everything said is a personal attack to her intelligence and authority and there is nothing she doesn't know best even if truly can't argue why she's right. I don't know where she got it from.

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are there two psychologists in the thread
also i would like to apologize to the op of this thread for posting something irrelevant in order to try and get my message to Alice.

>>686213506
have a disposable email? im on a similar road, we could maybe help each other.

>>686200718
I just recently met a really amazing girl. I'm kind of sick of relationships and would like to become friends with her. She already has a boyfriend anyways. I'm struggling keeping my mindset on us as friends, and I'm unsure of how to interact with her as a friend rather than as a potential partner.

>>686200718
Am I normal if I get all my sex from here?
http://adultfriendfinder.com/go/g1165272-ppc?page_id=695

>>686213727
Oh yeah how so? That was a very verrrry brief version...

>>686213891
i feel you man. you should watch this video, and listen really close

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GdnYedTpToA

>>686213296
Why? I like it keeps the balls functional (??) while I grown breasts and feminize myself.

>>686214053
watching now. Thanks buddy. Any other advice while I watch?

>>686214244
that aint how it works dude estrogen is estrogen is estrogen. its identical to the pills

>>686214005
yeah i am the anon from the following posts, IDs are gone and shit's getting confused
>>686203540
>>686207244
>>686209959
>>686213104

Okay so I was diagnosed with BPD recently and have been diagnosed with anxiety for a few years now. Any good method of keeping my mood in chech and maybe helping with the anxiety?

I just want to be someone I can be proud of.

>>686214323
yup. she's not special and YOLO that shit. you won't ever get another chance to live, man. fuck her if she doesn't like you, whether as a friend or a partner. imagine yourself as your father. not as your father, but let me rephrase it this way. imagine yourself as your son. be your own father. now answer your question, how would you feel to see your son stressing over this? what would you recommend? give yourself the love you didn't get enough of, remind yourself that world is your sandbox and is there for your enjoyment. the ongoing life is a mere decoration. get hobbies and shit. draw, compose music, get your energy out of your system. create, man. create. if you don't create, you will obsess.

>>686200718
really, how unhealthy is it being on here (on the internet in general) for extended periods every day?
sometimes I feel like im wasting my life, other times I feel happy and privileged that I can communicate with people around the world or really look up whatever I want in seconds and its not so bad to indulge in it

>>686214448
So your mother spoiled and affectionately catered to you all she could...we are definitely not on the same page bro. I may have been monetarily spoiled a bit, but when I had a problem it was do as she says or you're an idiot even though I know you're not an idiot. Then as I got older it basically became if you don't do as I say you're an idiot. Even if it wasn't said her condescending lashing out on me for any choice I made against her beliefs very much said it. I've been spit on slapped in the face and had shit thrown at me more times than I can count. Cussed out on at least a weekly basis.

>>686215095
>imagine yourself as your father...how would you feel to see your son stressing over this? what would you recommend?
Thats actually one of the more powerful things I've read. Thanks man, its exactly what I needed to hear. Go for it, who cares if she does or does not like me as a friend/partner, there's more people than just her, and more to live for that just her.

>>686215381
read this

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hikikomori

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>>686215392
yeah, abandonment and enmeshment are two sides of the same coin.

pic related: attachment and corresponding parenting styles

>>686215580
it's all good homie, glad to be of help. what do you think about the video btw?

>>686216852
It didn't apply exactly to my situation, but i got some good take aways from it: the feeling i have for her isn't unique. It will happen again. Don't be afraid of ground zero.

being under 18, having being kicked out of my house after my mom dying - why can't i seem to have any effort to have friends or get a girlfriend

A couple years back I was forced to go to multiple psychiatrists and therapists as a condition of my juvenile probation.

I was also taking whatever drug I could get my hands on at the time daily (normally weed or spice, sometimes xanies and opiates, lsd on occasion as well as dxm and coke frequently later on.)

I was diagnosed as something different by each one, prescribed different medications by each, and when I was inevitably institutionalized and forced sober for several months the diagnosis' just kept coming. From anti social, to borderline, from schizotypal to paranoid schizophrenia. OCD, bi polar, manic depression to generalized anxiety. Cont...

>>686217411

It wasn't until I stopped taking all drugs (including the anti depressants they had me on last) that I started to think they had no clue what the fuck they were talking about. I was clean for 3 years but after several months I was having thought loops including flash backs of every thing anyone had said to me that day and correlating them to some sort of conspiracy that I just couldn't figure out. It was hard for me to pay attention to people rather than just stare into there eyes and wonder what they were planning. I developed my old nervous ticks again, and secluded myself from everyone but my girlfriend who I constantly fought and broke up with but would always take back. I maintained and still maintain a steady job, but began self medicating with benzos which worked wonders but I was well aware of the danger so I would use them in bursts and to this day I alternate between stents of benzos all day, and alcohol after work.

After a while in counseling I started being honest with my symptoms rather than just telling them what they wanted to hear but always withheld something, and only revealing my shitty childhood to one therapist who after seeing me for a year of being sober concluded "you just can't fix being an asshole man" which helped give me a since of normality in a way.

I have unknown mental illnesses in my family history and drug abuse issues, but could all this be a part of childhood trauma more than anything else? Any advise?

In a very short space of time, I was rejected by two different guys I was hooking up with (not relationship, but I did end up catching feelings for one of them), both ended up leaving me for the same girl both times. It damaged my self worth and self esteem in a huge way and even tho this was in february i'm still trying (and failing) to claw back what I have left of myself. How do I separate my self esteem from the number of people that think I'm desirable and how do I stop myself from hating her?

>>686217230
Ever heard of the 16 personalities test? The one that has the four letters like INFJ or ESTP?

The first letter of that test is either I for Introversion of E for Extroversion. Knowing which type you are, or rather which side you lean towards, can assist in knowing how to care for yourself.

Introverts like being alone, obviously. Its not that they dislike social interaction. In fact, they can enjoy it a lot. They just need the alone time to recharge. They feel tired out from socializing. There's nothing wrong with not wanting friends or a girlfriend.

>>686212619
yeah well....I can see how psychiatrists make a lot of money, drag it out, keep them on the hook, although you may not really be one.

>>686217902
can you post tits?

>>686218027
nah. it's not that.

I hate being alone and every moment I am I feel sick. I just come back from social interaction, and talking to the girl "i could like" feeling "is this me"..

I had a problem for about 4 months where I thought I was transgender, really fucked my head and perceptions up.

>>686214344
I heard it was safer and still allowed for functioning of my clitty as I do like to stroke it tenderly.

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>>686200718
it is ok that I regularly go into feels threads and enjoy a good cry every now and then?
Its just nice to feel something in private sometimes thats not my dick

>>686218715
those are some nice tits indeed.

What are the odds of finding a psychiatrist that will prescribe benzos to an addict? Gabapentin not cutting it. Dread leaving the house. Often too tense to take a proper piss at home and it's almost impossible in public if the bathroom isn't empty. I'm too anxious to even get the point across about how bad it is at appointments.

>>686200718

I'll try to make it short

>be me 7 months ago.
>go out with some girl met on Tinder, Shit is sweet and nice. I enjoy it.
>fast forward 4 months, meet girl at university. Fall madly in love with her
>dump the Tinder girl
>feel like an asshole since it's the first time in my life I leave a girl
>work really hard to get the girl of my dream I met at Uni
>get her. She's gonna be my wife, mother of my kids, etc.
>She's litteraly my soulmate. we are on the same level on about everything. same job (teacher), etc, etc,
>Do fucked up shit with her. she's perfect for me. Even did a threesome with her and her girl friend.
>Madly in love with her. never felt this way for a girl and i'va been with ~30+ girls in my life (i'm 25)
>yesterday she turns around and dumps me.

what the fuck should I do? She was my soulmate.
I gave her the speech where all I want is for her to be happy and if she's happy without me i'll be fine.
but I'm just destroyed

>>686219144
Fucking same here anon

I'm an anxious paranoid mess but can't get benzos due to past drug abuse.

I've resorted to alcohol, but that isn't really feasible in the long term

>>686205765
How do you deal with the inherent hypocrisy in subscribing to a metanarrative of salvation through becoming a psychiatrist? Why do you feel like you need a title and position for people to trust you on an anonymous imageboard? Are you seeking validation by doing this? Why do you think you have the right to tell people what drugs to use when you self-medicated? Do you still self-medicate? Do you think that psych meds are less damaging than "drugs and alcohol?" Why do you allow yourself to call yourself a fuck-up? I think you may need some professional help, anon.

>>686219293
see >>686214053

>>686200718
How do I stop having such a flat affect all the time? "

>>686218956
Be glad you can actually feel anything. All I've wanted to do is cry for a couple weeks now and I can't get it out.

>>686218956
I do it all the time

Is this the one I asked for an opinion on the Mathew De grood case? It was finalized today. Shifty NCR but I suppose its expected

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>>686200718
I dont know what I exactly want to do with my life. I have a few ideas im interested in which is a nice start but I have doubts.
Im more worried that im not progressing like some other people. Im 21, going to school but live with my parents and still a kissless virgin (mainly because I still live at home and have no privacy). I also want to get the hell out of my town but then there are days where I could see myself living here forever and not totally hating it because its safe but not being really happy. Overall my life isnt even that bad so when I complain about these things I feel like an even bigger piece of shit

Its the going back and forth with being ok with it and it really bothering me that worries me too. Is it bad to feel this way or is it worse to bury it down and suck it up? Even thinking it outloud I sound like im bi polar

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>>686209959

For me I was actually hiding transexuality. I always assumed cross dressing was what I wanted but I never wanted to cross dress like a faggot because I'm not. Turns out I just have a neurological disorder and a chromesome to brain mismatch. I had avoidant personality as a result. Once I figured it out and started on hormones and switched "genders" I felt 100% better . im not saying this is the case for anyone else, but it is worth addressing. I never did because I just assumed "well I like girls...so this must be that im a straight guy"

my boyfriend has a problem holding grudges.. how can he get past it and how can I help?

>>686220542
Talk things out with him and give your opinion. Be honest and tell him what you think about his attitude of it gets too out of hand. Its only going to fester and get worse the more it's swept under the rug or passed off expecting to bblow over.

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>>686200718
So i dont like talking about this but YOLO!
I have been depressed for about 5 years now
all i can see is manipulation around me, in the media, ads, tv, magazines, and how <---all that effects those around me.
the constant fear psycho-ops on the masses, blah blah blah
music talks to me...like at me at points.
There are times i get manic " is the best i can say??" and recieve messages/instrutions are all variations
i really try to logically think it out, try to understand that i'm just probably identifying with the overall messages of the music.
But every. single. time. i hear new music, it bring up a new message, something that the "crowd, thats what i call them lol, is trying to tell me.
My vision, how i percieve the world, seems to have changed over the years.
I cant really pin it, but i know something has been altered..
will continue in a sec

any ideas so far doc?!?

>>686219544
it actually helped.
thanks a lot anon

I was already a little on that path but it just confirms it.

>>686216680
So which square best suits you?

>>686221185
You may have a touch of schizophrenia.. I don't want to jump too quickly to that conclusion but go to any local hospital and ask for mental health resources. It's a whole lot easier than people think to get very discreet help

>>686221519
preoccupied(love addict)

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>>686221185
on the vision thing, everything seems to vibrate kinda.
you know when you start at a lightbulb and you get that afterimage? I get that with alot of things.
objects seem to have this alien outline on them, its kinda like the color scheme on the game "borderlands" how everything has a distinct outer edge, but my vision is like this filter is cut down to like 15%
In low light situations, thing move, very much and very oddly...
my constant state, how i feel all the time, is numb, buzzing, dislocated feeling. The buzzing is odd, it will hypnotize me at point, where ill zoneout and just experience the feeling of being in this mindset.

It seems so tame when i type it out, but i feel like everything is coming to a head, and ima lose it soon. Its really stressing me out..

I'm obese and I have zero will to do anything except the bare minimum to keep myself alive and progressing in my degree.
How do I change that?

>>686200718

I'm not really good with asking questions, so I will state something about my psyche and see if it raises questions.

About the only reason I don't commit suicide is because I consider it an act of love. And since I endlessly hate myself, it is clearly an act of love I don't deserve.

>>686221877
I am the same. Ever tinkered the thought of banging your mum since she was so obsessed with pleasing you?

>>686221953
Dude... Please for the love of those around you and anyone who associates with you. Find help outside of a message board

>>686222252
no. sick, dude.