(Cont of above)

Yesterday I felt pretty good, but my grandma wanted to see me so I spent the day with her. I watched the sunset in the car on my way back home.

Today was another shitty day, so I read some more Moby Dick and I ordered a pizza with anchovies on it (as requested). It actually wasn't half bad, but it made my stomach hurt like an hour after eating it. That might have just been the cancer, though kek. I also started writing my death note (idk what else to call it), and I wrote a small note to my friend Elizabeth (she gave me the pity blowjob) giving her instructions on how to notify you guys when I finally kick the bucket (which hopefully won't be for a while, but who knows). I've decided on Tuesdays (~5:00pm) and Fridays (~8:00pm) for my updates, but I might make it like once a week, I'm not sure yet (I'd like to hear your guy's input). It's raining out so I don't think I'll be able to watch the sunset.

>>686000829
>>686000949
Sell some stuff, buy Meth, get wasted, Fuck hooker, kill everyone you hate, steal some car, crash it. Fuck it all go on a rampage. Die while doing stupid shit and happy not while eating dick and reading pizza

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>>686000829
>>686000949
wow shit

There's always a chance the doctor was wrong. You'll probably never be completely healthy again, but don't think of this as the end of the line man. You should try working at a soup kitchen or something for a day. It isn't exactly tons of fun, but when you look back on it it makes you feel good about yourself because you helped people. Also a lot of the people who go to those places are old war veterans with great stories to tell.

also also

whenever i'm sick i kind of just sit around and watch a ton of movies. maybe have a friend over and make some snacks and marathon all the movies you had wanted to watch or something.

I hope you get better /b/ro.

>>686002103
What the fuck you're doing on /b/?

>>686002451
drawthreads

i spend most of my time here on /x/ and /int/

>>686002916
ugh.
my dog had pretty much the same thing. it started somewhere in his neck and then spread through his lymph nodes. It made it hard for him to breathe and walk so we had to put him down.

It sucked ass. He was the best.

>>686000829
okay so. i have caner in my familiy. and i have spendt 2 month trying to understand that folks i love is gonna die. so you know. hope you had a good life.
Anyway ! my suggenstion would be to get some viagra and have a fuck day. i would do this if i were to die sometime soon. i would starte the day of with a shower and then just. viagra and fucking and ending the day with drugs and more fucking.
not classy. but thats kinda whats in me.
så held og lykke min ven. lev stærkt. dø ung.

>>686003234
Aw I'm sorry about your dog. Cancer really sucks, though I think it's worse for the family. I'm in pain a lot of the time, but it's nothing compared to what my Moms going through with her kid dying and all

>>686003480
I have no idea where I'd get viagra, but my sex drive is pretty low these days. That does sound like it would be fun though

Do you still go to school are have you just decided to fuck everything and do what you want and/or you arent healthy enough to be in school and/or you're in treatment most of the time

>>686003823
well why don't you heighten it with natural shit and have the best orgasm ever

>>686004069
I stopped going to school when my treatment started and I was suppose to go back when I was healthy again, but that obviously didn't work out. Now not only am I not in good enough health to go, but I'm dying soon anyway so I'd rather spend my time doing what I want. I am currently on hospice care though, so I'm at home. No treatment has been working so I stopped all of it because it was just painful for me.

>>686004209
What natural stuff would you recommend?

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>>686000829
do you play warframe?

since death is the only possible way to stop playing, it may be the perfect video game for you in these dark times.

>>686004804
I'm never heard of it, but I'll look into it B)

>>686004753
you should learn how to cook

and then cook some good shit

and then eat it

or feed it to your friends and family

>>686003823
well. you could probly go to your doc and tell him you want that from life. and that your sex drive is fucked. You know. and yeah :) fun stuff! depending on where you live you could try some differrent stuff. threesome. or fucking a dude. fun stuff.

>>686000829
Church isn't for everyone, but Christ is. Read the new testament, friend, particularly the gospel of John. Believe and trust in our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, He loves you and offers forgiveness of your sins and eternal life if you can simply accept such a graceful gift.

It's an odd feeling for me to preach the gospel of Christ. I used to be so cynical, so full of disbelief, so anxious, so filled with false pride. Yet, Christ was with me, and when I broke down, and turned to Him, He made me whole again. Truly He is merciful. I'll say a prayer for you OP, the Lord be with you forever and always.

>>686005098
I'm actually pretty good at cooking. It's a little hard because I have trouble standing and moving around a lot for long periods of time, but I make cookies and stuff for my friends and family sometimes.

>>686005201
Perhaps. I don't know if he'd even be able to prescribe me anything though

>>686005567
where are you from my freind ?

>>686005554
Thank you B)

I had a Bible when I was in the hospital and I skimmed it a few times. I'm not really sure if religion in general is for me though

>>686005915
New England

Go innawoods, do peyote, hunt skinwalkers.

>>686000829
Have you tried eating horse apples. I hear they actually cure cancer. Worked for a buddy of mine.

>>686004753
well by doing some research, maka, honry goat weed, and some other stuff too, but be very very careful, im not sure if it would be good for you since its strong. Try doing a little research on how too do better orgasams, also try fucking a girl you like before you go.

>>686005988
I'm not a super religious guy but I'll pray for you my dude


I don't know if anything happens when we die, but I hope something does.

Preferably something cool that also isn't literally hell.

>>686006102
Oh, I've never heard of that. I'll look into it, though I think I'm too far gone for it to help.

>>686006163
Alrighty thanks! I actually got a blowjob from this qt girl at a support group I use to go to. I still talk to her, but we've decided on just being friends.

>>686006253
Thanks! Yeah, I think a lot about what happens after death. I'm an atheist, but lately I've been trying to believe in something, just to help me cope.

>>686000829
Do what ever you fucking want to. It's not like you have anything to lose.

>>686006570
That's fair. I have this weird fear of being remembered for nothing/shitty things, so I've been trying to do good things for other people.

>>686000829

Have some Alan Watts. He puts a pretty flowery spin on reality. In this one he explains the nothingness after death. Don't confuse it with reincarnation, he is not selling that idea, though it sort of sounds that way.

This could help in a sort of religious without religion.

https://youtu.be/C_ik2XrYMqs

>>686007077
Thanks! I'll watch it

>>686005988
It's not so much a matter of whether religion is for you or not. Religion in the generic, new age, syncretistic sense isn't really for anyone.

Christ, faith that if you trust in Christ he will save you, blind, illogical, childlike faith, is for you and for all. I mentioned the gospel of John specifically because it illustrates the promise of Jesus Christ, that God became incarnate in the flesh and was crucified and resurrected to save us from our sins. If you take a leap of faith, such mercy transcends simple religion. That God, seeing our wretched plight, died for us and was resurrected, freely gave us the gift of salvation. To die trusting in Christ, beyond hope, beyond logic, is to be saved. To die cynically is to die in despair, to vanish, to disappear. I love you, stranger, enough not to sugarcoat it. Christ offers you everything, and demands only what children freely give, faith and trust.

Hey man.
Please keep up with the posts.
It's fantastic to hear your stories and day to day business. It must be so difficult for you, but thank you so so much for sharing this challenging time with us.
I get why you are here! Speaking out loud / typing it out is a great way to clear your mind and get things off your chest.

I will keep an eye out for your posts.
I hope someone archives this :)

Stay safe, and be sure to spread your love with who ever you can!
You are doing some great stuff. Enjoying the simple things in life is what it's all about.

Best wishes,
Kind regards,
Much love,
James (UK)

>>686006559
Whole milk and horse apple smoothie 3 times a day if you want to live. Trust me.

>>686006736
Well thats good, it shows your a good person. You'll leave behind a good memory, which is all we can hope for at the end of it all

>>686007216
I suppose that's fair, perhaps I'll look more into the Bible and stuff

>>686007336
Thank you! Yeah, typing out what I do really does help. It'd be nice if someone archives this so that I can be remembered or something, but I don't wanna push it. I appreciate the kind message

>>686007431
Milk and apples sounds a little gross, but I'll look into it. No harm in trying

>>686007077
Alan Watts sounds so smart and elegant, but will you trust him to save you on your deathbed?

Christ, my friend, Jesus Christ wishes to save you if you'll let Him.

I was like you once. I sought meaning in empty words. Alan Watts is nothing, knows nothing, he can't save you.

Albert Camus, the absurdist, found Christ before he died against all odds. Most likely, he realized that, faced with the absurd, illogical prospect of death, he realized that salvation can only come from the equally absurd promise of eternal life through faith in Christ Jesus. Christ is the way, the truth and the door, only through Him can you come to the Father.

>>686007885
Horse apples/hedge apples don't work. It's like the whole snake oil stuff. There really is nothing to lose, but you'll still be wasting plenty of precious time.

>>686008177
Yeahhh. And also I'm pretty sure it'd be too late for me anyway

>>686007885
No prons dude.
I'll pop up and say hello if I catch your threads again.
Which country are you from?
James

>>686008779
America

>>686007885
I am glad to hear that you are receptive to the gospel of Christ, thereby it would seem you certainly shall be saved. Read what you can from the Bible, John is a good place to start, but reading the Bible isn't what saves you; it certainly helps, though.

John 3:16 says it all, "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life."

>>686000829
Hey, dominic, my name is Taylor. I wanted to say that all these posts kind of brings me to tears, as ive lost a grandparent to cancer before and it was really tough. So, my suggestion would be to spend as much tkme as possible outside. Take long walks, maybe travel, and just enjoy the breeze of nature. Theres something about it that feels healing, almost overpowering. Stay positive :) ill hopefully keep in touch with you next update. Jist remeber the guy from iowa, thats me! Much love, brother!

op get a iphone 5-5c and get http://www.amazon.com/DBPOWER-2-4GHz-Chanel-Quadcopter-Camera/dp/B016BMBRW0?ie=UTF8&psc=1&redirect=true&ref_=oh_aui_detailpage_o03_s00
and http://www.amazon.com/IncrediSonic-Glasses-M700-Bluetooth-Controller/dp/B0186V81VO?ie=UTF8&psc=1&redirect=true&ref_=oh_aui_detailpage_o04_s00

or some better helmet, watcha drone fly live hd viewing, master it before you go.

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Go live a life.
Like go out drinking
ask girls out fuck it
Smoke some weed
Take some LSD

>>686009129
I'm sorry about your grandparent, cancer is shitty. I try to spend as much time outside as possible. It's quite relaxing. I'll def remember you! Thank you!

>>686000829
ask for forgiveness and acept death.

Hey. I don't know you at all, but I feel for you. Make sure to give your family a fill of you before you go. They'll miss you. I'm not a religious person, but if that stuff is real, I wish you a good afterlife. I apologize if I seem the least bit blunt, but I am not too much of an emotional person. Just make the best you can out of it. Maybe listen to some music. Also, try a Hawaiian pizza, I think they're great. Best of luck anon.

>>686009353
Woah, that's pretty cool! I'll add it to my wishlist B)

>>686009377
I'm currently trying to find a weed dealer in my area so I'll most likely smoke some weed before I die, but I don't think I can mix LSD with my pain meds. Same goes for alcohol

Actually having cancer in nothing in comparison to living in the third world country. Stop complaining like lil bitch.
> I went to the church

What a pussy

>>686009656
Thanks! I've been spending a lot of time with my family and friends for that reason. Hawaiian pizza is actually my favorite pizza B)

>>686009938
> actually having cancer is nothing in comparison to living in a third world country
You're comparing cancer to living in Africa?

>>686009938
I am quite aware that people have it worse than me, and I am not complaining. I was also advised to do so, and theres no real harm in it considering I'll be dead soon anyway

>>686008857
Damn. American health care is a bastard.

>>686010259
Eastern Europe, Africa etc.

>>686010421
Yeah, everything was pretty expensive. Insurance covered a lot of it, but there was still a lot of out of pocket money. Thats one of the reasons I stopped treatment. We were paying them to make me feel like shit and not even have it work towards making me healthy again.

you should get some lsd and weed

>>686000829
antineoplastons look it up maybe its your last shot but supposedly this Dr.burzinsky dude works wonders on people with no chance goodluck

>>686010905
I'll look into it, thanks

>>686010619
In Eastern Europe cancer treatment like chemo etc is 100% covered by social healthcare system.

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>>686000829
Hey man if you wann play some Games tell me your steam or sth, you really got dem feels going for me :'(
>Pic unrelated do

Bruh its gramps-cancer dude. Maybe you should just get a bunch of paint and paint your stree one fucking color just cause. Well, §orry you're going to kick the bucket soon.