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Im a piece of shit fuck up who cant hold a job, and im going to live in this small ass town and live in poverty until i whither away and am forgotten. Fuck i needed to get that off my chest.

>>685919054
I feel the same way. I live in a big city though and haven't finished college.

Bumping.

Need a good cry.

>>685918484
Do you mind me asking why you attempted an hero?

two of my best friends killed themselves last year and then i got hit by a car

>>685919749
I'm just so full of sadness. I just want to die 24/7. I always feel like a waste of space, time and air. No matter how many times my friends family and significant other tells me how much they care about me or want me around, I just don't feel it. It feels as though they are putting up with me and I don't want to live like that. If I'm going to be honest, I'm probably going to attempt to do it later on this year.

>>685919054
there's always social security anon.

>>685920089
I get it.

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>>685918484

Retry you filthy jew.

>>685919054
Listen to some Vaporwave
>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ea_UOPzuyZU
Get shit off your chest but go and face reality whenever you feel weak and inferior. It will strengthen you and mostly don't treasure your ego but greed to prosperity, neglect your ego and pride.
Do some meditation to straighten yourself once in a while.

>>685920089
don't do it, honestly it is probably the worst thing you can possible do to a person. my best friend from childhood killed himself last year and i still break down crying pretty regularly. while it might be true that the world will keep turning without you, you'll have forever taken a piece of the people that surround you

>>685920466
and by to a person i mean to the people who say they care about you, which im sure is not a lie

>>685920466
Agreed. Stay chill, OP.

You got this, fam.

>>685920577
>>685920466

Oh shit.

>>685920577
best thing you can do is try and find help to get better – depression is not permanent. in the meantime, find a way to cope, be it art, sports, drugs (keep it safe though, weed is probably the limit), etc

>>685920089
Observe with couth
some people don't talk about the hardship they go through
till you meet your moment of truth

>>685919054
Big cities are overrated anyway.

>>685918484
You weren't alive at Hitlers time, or else he would have gassed you. Try again (and stream it).

What's something you guys are afraid of?

In terms of life and what's out there?

>>685921073
Greed, Ego and Pride

I'm freaking out about my ATAR for you Aus fags here. I'm averaging about a 75-85 for all my subjects and sigh man with my shit school, I AM FREAKING THE FUCK OUT.
Help me, /b/.

>>685921073
war

>>685921009
I think that's what OP's friend was going for.

In all the times he could've been born in, he was born in the time where shit is easy and you can do anything you want with a click of a button.

If you were born a Jew at that time you are unlucky.

Basically telling him, hey just be happy you weren't born a during that time period

>>685921378
The possibility of a World War 3 you mean?

>>685921232
Elaborate

>>685921468
i guess its just the concept of war is just terrifying, a bunch of people getting fucked just because their nations are quarreling with one another

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>>685920089
I feel you. I don't understand why people like me if they do and I feel like a liability. Like people are only being kind to me out of pity and I hate it. But please, Don't do it. People love you even if you don't think they do

>>685921073
Nothing.

Like sure I have an extreme fear of heights, but in terms of "life" and "whats out there", what do you have to be afraid of?

>>685921616
Safe. I hate the idea of everything going back suddenly.

You're just sitting there thinking to yourself or maybe playing a video game. Doing something!

Then suddenly. Darkness. You won't even know it went black, but it did.

Now you're in the void. Dead as you can be.

for people who suffer from depression – do you seek help, like psychologists or therapists, etc? if so, does it work? if you don't, why not?

>>685921488
You subject to Inferiority and sadness when you compare yourself to others where your Pride takes place, You Anger from a conditioned view when others doesn't see fit morally or Immorally , You suffer because you lust for these views of practice when your greed manifests. Let go of ones craving and you suffer less irregardless how others view yourself and one ownself

>>685921397
I mean he should kill himself, if it wasn't obvious enough. If he doesn't, then Mein Führer will at his second coming.

>>685921941
I had very severe post-partum depression after having my son. It was bordering on p-p psychosis. It was pretty gnarly. I sought help after struggling for over a year. Tried meds but hated how they made me feel so I decided I had to do this myself, but I didn't know how. So I did a few weeks of counselling to kinda teach me how to deal with things by myself. I found it worked. I still have bad days of course, but I'm pretty content now.

>>685921941
Its my belief that therapists are for people who either need help in trying to admit to their problems, or for showing those who cant find the problems.

Only reason I don't go, aside from money, is that I know what my problems are.

>>685922210
good to hear that you're doing better now! take it easy
>>685922277
i feel like therapists help with more than just identifying problems, they also help you cope with them and try to slowly get rid of them. but i guess it depends on how experienced/skilled the therapist is

Has anyone tried to an hero?

If so, what happened afterwards?

>>685922652
Thanks love

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>>685921073
love. Its scary to think that someone could actually mean that much to you. The amount of control they have over your life and emotions is scary.

>>685921941
No help. My depression stems from other issues. No psychologist can make me likable or fix the fuck up of a man I am. It gets to the point where you accept hopelessness. Everyone has their own problems and life is pretty contingent anyway. So psychologist or drugs are going to be able to help fix a broken mann or make the world less instrumental, so why bother?

>>685921073
>>685923031
I have to agree with this guy. I'm currently in love and it's going perfectly. But I'm constantly terrified of losing him. He's without a doubt the person I want to spend my life with, and losing him would absolutely ruin me. It terrifies me that one person has the power to do that to me.

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>>685921941
I've had 5 or 6 different psychs throughout my life, always helped for a while but it became nothing after a while

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>>685921073
i learned from my beloved fiance that being scared is for little bitches.
She passed away last October bless her little heart <3
Never an hero once because she would bitch me out if i went to hell despite my lack of belief in hell i don't want to chance it.
Dont an hero unless your a little bitch.

>>685920089
Person who asked the question here. I totally get feeling like that. I did for a long time. You just have to keep telling yourself that even though it doesn't seem like it, if anything happened to you it'd ruin your family and your significant other's lives. You truly never get over something like that, it just gets easier to live with. They'd spend their lives blaming themselves for what the could have done to help, but didn't. Don't do it. Hang in there, even if it's just for the people you love.

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what does it feel like to be loved?

>>685923647
I didn't need this today. How the hell did you deal with losing her?

>>685923647
>says being scared is for little bitches
>didn't kill himself because he didn't want to chance going to hell
>calls anyone who kills themselves a little bitch

Top fucking kek

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>>685921329
ATAR means nothing once you get to uni. Employers don't give a fuck about it
>>685921073
Afraid of the dark, ants and basking sharks
>>685922679
I nearly did recently, thankfully I wasn't caught or anything, something just stopped me

>>685923690
How the fuck should i know??

I'm sorry anon

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>>685923970
Giving up in life is like throwing the controller down mid boss fight yes i still believe it is for bitches.

>>685923941
You just move on for them and yourself try enjoying things more i personally just play a shit ton of video games and hang out with friends and i do smoke a fuck ton of pot witch might help

>>685924009
Dude, fucking ants

I can't figure this shit out

I'm not afraid of much, not even death

But God help me the day i wake up with ants or centipedes in my bed

>>685923690
The best way to describe it is warm and comfortable. Loving someone and knowing they love you back and knowing it's real feels like you're wrapped in a blanket. You're safe. They got you.

Of course I'm insane so I get bouts of just being completely terrified of losing him, but he's got my back then too. Reassuring as shit.

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>>685924334
And on top of all this im super MAKE AMERICA GREAT AGAIN so i get a kick out of trolling lefty kittens

>>685924334
Was she sick for a long time? What did she have? Did she do a bucket list? Stop me if I'm being an autist but my heart is breaking for you and I must know more.

>>685924334
>its like throwing the controller down mid boss fight.

If you ask me, it's more like throwing the controller down because you're sick of grinding your character over and over and over again only to lose to said boss each and every time.

>>685924472
Fucking cringe

>>685924593
Quitting is the coward's way out.

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>>685924371
If I found ants in my bed I dunno what I'd do, I can stand one or two ants but not a whole group of them. I know exactly why too

>>685923576
Who's that?

If that's you, you're pretty.

If that's someone close to you. She's pretty.

If that's a stranger you don't know. She's pretty.

>>685924750
Depends on your point of view

Would you continue playing a video game if you already knew that there was no way to win?

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>>685925069
Stefanie Joosten, my god I wish it was me, but I'm not vain enough to post pictures of myself in every thread hahah

>>685920089
Just hold on, shit will get better. When you're at the bottom, there's no where else for it to go.

>>685925234
Do it.
No one will say anything rude.

This is a feel ( good ) thread

Most peaceful thread I've been in.

>>685918484
>Hitler
>You
Oh boy, let's name 1 more person who existed long before you that didn't kill you.

Let's see.
Literally anyone that killed people and lived before you.

>>685925562
See>>685921397

>>685925562
I would've said Eric Harris

>>685925150
Well, yes. Id make it apart of life on the daily basis. It sucks knowing it wont ever end until I expire, but at least I wasnt afraid to adapt to it or didn't choose to an hero early because I was too scared to adapt to it.

Drop the mentality of "winning" to make it easier.

>>685920089
Suicide ism't a selfish thing. It's more of a personal choice. Staying alive and being miserable just for others is selfish. And in reality, the one that will get affected by it mostly is your mother. That is probably the worst punishment for a mother, to see her child die before her. You might ruin her life but as for friends or SO, well they move on pretty easily. You'd be dead so you won't be there to see them having a hard time. It hurts but this is the truth. People will always move on.

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>>685925390
Nah I'm an ugly 19 year old and I'm not a femanon so I don't take photos of myself

>>685918484
Kys fucking jew.

>>685925771
I don't know, i hear the "suiciders are just too scared to deal with life" angle a lot and i wonder, who's scared, the one who continues living because he's worried about what could happen afterward despite the agony he feels on a day to day basis, or the one who took his life into his own hands to end his suffering?

>>685926380
Unfunny/10

>>685926357
Whaaaaaa??seriously??bless ya...you are pretty damn gorge in my opinion

>>685926595
That's not him.

>>685919054
Join the YPG and fight in Syria for a free Kurdistan...

>>685923690
I feel like an utter shit because I'm loved by many people, but I don't feel it back. I don't feel much, at all.

>>685926595
Read the thread you beta

I watched that documentary "The Bridge" before my closest suicide. Everyone brings up the guy who said he realized all his problems could be fixed except the fact that he had just jumped. When i was falling asleep I didnt feel that. I felt comfortable. I felt eager. Obviously it didnt work but ive grown numb to the terrifying fact that should I ever meet that point again, I'll make sure I do it right :/

>>685927454
I know this feel anon

And i know it in reverse too

Feeling like you're loved by someone but can't feel anything for them at all but you keep pretending because you know that it would kill them if they found out that you didn't feel the same

>>685921073
Time
Im afraid of time

>>685921073
I think im subconciously fearful of feeling better.

>>685927843
I do what I can for them, but just seems like I'm going through the motions. Friends, family...it's all just the same feeling like everyone's in on something that I don't know. These days I only get angry, anymore.

>>685928128
Why?

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When my dad died I didn't shed a tear for him. I loved him as one would love their father but I didn't cry or anything. When I see sad pictures/gifs of animals on 4chan, like the one with the baby cheetah with disable legs. I cry.
>Im fucked up emotionally and I don't even know why because I probably repressed it.

>>685927174
Srsly, this us my back up plan. My life was shit til I met my current gf and my friends... If anything fails, I don't wanna be all alone and depressed again. So I'd rather join a revolutionary group and fight for the freedom of others. If I die, if I live, then its no longer meaningless

>>685921073
I'm afraid of facing the fact that i have to live another day

I can't believe i haven't been fired yet

I do the best i can but I still show up obviously hung over, sometimes in a state of ketoacidosis (my boss used to be a pharmacist but he got caught stealing oxys) and yet somehow I'm still there

>>685923690

ill tell you anon, love feels like a constant cycle of dying and rebirth, until you hit that point where death is all thats left.

>>685928478
Don't waste the chance he's giving you, Anon.

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>>685921073

I probably fear most, the idea of being alone. Ive never felt loved by a woman and I feel like I honestly never will. I honestly couldn't even imagine a girl having any interest in me. I have friends, but it feels like when I'm always the last of the group that they would choose to invite.

I wish I had the balls to kill myself, but after my sister passed away I know I can't. The image of how sad the rest of my family was. That was the first time I saw my big brother cry. I can't put them through that again.

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>>685923690
A feeling that you think feels too good, so you push it away to protect yourself. Thats what I think from personal experience.

Is there a reason you guys don't go to /adv/ for this kind of thing?

>>685928901
Most of us don't come seeking advice, but rather just somewhere to get this stuff off of our chests.

>>685928128
>>685928290

I've experienced this, i think

When shit is bad enough for long enough, you start worrying that if things get better, you'll get used to things being good, and then when everything goes to shit, it'll be that much worse.

Basically you get scared of things getting better, because you don't want to be given false hope.

>>685928290
I think at this point in my life Im only propped up by mental illness. It was kind of a mix of bad genes, bad experiences, and bad parenting. I cant say i dont know who i even am if not a shell for that.

>>685929000
trips speak truth

>>685928678
I'm doing my best

Thanks

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Why to live?
This world it's BIG, I mean, it's fucking BIG. You can see a lot of things but you're not seeing more than 2% of the world itself.
All of our problems are, actually, a tiny part of a tiny world around our life.
If we only think in our problems, if we only think in the shit we cannot stand for... we're as tiny as our vision.
You are LIFE, life is BIG, so you must be BIG. This world it's full os possibilities and hopes.
Travel. Be creative. Think in life from another perspective. Go thousands of miles away from your comfort. Explore. Get lost in a forest, get back to civilization.Adapt yourself to a BIG world changing in BIG manners. Don't be a tiny being who cannot sostain the change. Don't be "that guy".
Life is BIG, while death, we don't know. But we'll know. Be patience about that inquietude. Try to explain the life to yourself.
You are you, anon. You're one. You're the only fucking one in this fucking world, GOD DAMN IT, so don't get lost by oppression and negative thoughts. It's part of a tiny life. You can be BIG, as the world itself.
Be the world.
Be yourself.
Kisses.

>>685929114
I believe in you.

>>685928801
That is, in my honest opinion, the worst thing for people like us.

We know we could end our suffering with one simple trigger pull but we can't get over what that would do to our families.

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19, off to uni soon but in a destructive relationship, however, I believe she's the "one", cliche as fuck but I actually believe it and so does she, we argue every day now and Id genuinely rather kill myself than live in uni with her or get a shit job. like working in a shop (What im doing to build money)

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>>685929000
Maybe for some. for me I have no desire to get better because there is nothing to get better for. I actively seek to make myself more and more depressed so that I will stop being such a fucking pussy and kill myself already. I don't want to get better because misery is comfortable, familiar. happiness feels wrong.

>>685923690
We love you anon.

>>685929000
I definitely think thats a big part of it but honestly, i have a deep seated world view that tells anything outside of crippling depression is just deceptive. I sickly feel like its better to be so fucked up and know who i am than be better and pretend its all behind me.

>>685929368
Doesn't oxytocin fucking suck?

>>685929195
I find that one can get comfort in the little things. A cup of coffee in the morning. Some words from a loved one. Maybe a video game or TV show. Just something that, little by little, makes life more bearable. Sometimes people can't go anywhere, or don't have the confidence to do anything. But simple things...they're for everyone.

>>685929496
As much as I know I sound like whiny pussy, there's a lot more I haven't explained lmao

>>685929368
There's probably something wrong that you aren't talking about.

>>685929375
This is closer to what i generally feel

If i want to feel better, the only thing i can do is use music or other means to make me feel worse, and then after a while normal feels better by comparison

I guess its like inflicting Stockholm Syndrome on yourself

>>685929705
Was diagnosed with lack of serotonin, and since then my mood swings and depression have been fannnnntastic

>>685929503
Yeah that's true but sometimes simple things are not enought. We need all of these, big and small things.

>>685929684
You'd be surprised how many men get turned into "whiny pussies" by women they love.

Don't blame yourself.

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Anybody feel as if crippling social anxiety is a major killing point? I can't function and I can't even seek help because social anxiety. Doesn't help I'm a 24yo virgin.

>>685929897
Yikes. Any chance of getting medicated?

>>685929911
Isn't this life made of big and small things?

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gonna dump some suicidal shit. maybe even include preffered methods of suicde.

>>685930024
You don't need to have sex to be a man or be a real person. Don't put so much value in how much pussy you get.

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>>685918484
>i try kill self but fail
>fug :DDDD
>better post it online

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make a visit to your local welder supplier and purchase 40L of nitrogen. you can play it off as brewing your own beer or fiilling car tires.

>>685930237
(Not the one who posted the picture)

I think its less of the sex, and more of the undesirable part of it all, and sex being the main reinforcement to how desirable you are

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>>685930402
this. I couldn't give two shits about nutting.

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>>685930516
find an oven bag and some surgical tubing, some string and one of these string tighteners you find on jackets

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>>685930724
hook all that shit up and set the flow for 15l per second.

>>685930053
Herbal medicines are a way to go, however, the side effects usually heighten the previous said symptoms, plus more. I'm gonna nut up.

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>>685930813
just look up exit bag modifications. you can't use balloon time anymore.

>>685930237
It pisses me off so bad when men judge their value in the number of sluts they sleep with

If i know them well, I'll tell them straight that the opposite is usually true these days

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I hadn't considered hanging as a option for suicide previously for fear of strangulation. However I watcvhed a documentary where if you fall from an extended height your head would be immediately decapitated. so that's not a bad option.

>>685930631
Fuck.

Even i have that one friend

And we're all that each other has

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>>685931038
dude, honestly. How can you NOT judge your value on how many women you sleep with. Grow up.

>>685920466
This, dont do it op, people care.

>>685931172
Lol,shit bait, but 2/10 because I replied

>>685931038
>>685931172

Only fedora-tier faggots tell themselves it doesn't matter how much pussy you get.

Obviously, some people feel the need to get as much different pussies as possible and brag about it. Others stick to a select few. But at the end of the day, we all want dat pussy, and if we ain't getting it, that's faillure.

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>>685931229
not even trolling. what do you measure your value by, money? amount of friends?

>>685929437
Well, like someone wisely once said,

"Self loathing is the fate of all great iconoclasts."

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>>685931333
this man gets it. Almost like he's of age to browse /b/

>>685920782
What about LSD or dmt?

>>685929230
You probably shouldn't, but thanks

>>685930480
We're here to hear you anon
Why can't you communicate well?
And don't quit the job just to pity yourself earn money then travel the world lots of places to see before you an hero

>>685931354
I measure my value by what I've accomplished in life.

>>685931573
see what? do what? why bother?

>>685931466
Someone?

>>685931654
too bad everyone else is measuring you by how much pussy you aren't slaying :^)

>>685931773
I measure mine based on how many people actually care about me, or how many people would come to my funeral if I did end up dying.

>>685931333
>checked, but

>Only fedora-tier faggots tell themselves it doesn't matter how much pussy you get.

This honestly might be the cringiest thing I've ever read. Do you really think its hard to get fucked?

Do you really think that the number of people you've had sex with really matters?

>>685931466
Not the person you replied to, but truffels and acid helped me deal with alot of things in my life. If you're not too scared or paranoid, try acid. I hope it does the same for you mate. Doing strong drugs like acid once is enough imo.

>>685931654

Girls measure you by your looks, social skills, wealth, talent and succes. Therefor, pussy obtained is a pretty good standard to measure accomplishment by.

>>685931707

Look up 1P-LSD, or 4-Aco-DMT

>>685931915
Why should i give a fuck how women see me? They've never done anything but impede the progress of mankind.

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>>685931848
alright I concede. not a bad measurement. just an uncommon one.

>Cuddling with my crush
>Never felt this happy and completed

Then I woke up. Well, at least now I know what it feels like.

It felt so real anons. So real.

>>685931573
I'm sorry. I deleted my post. I have chronic mood swings and after I wrote that I felt kinda ashamed. It's likely I won't kill myself for awhile, if ever, there is many of drugs that I want to experience. That is my emphemeral joy at this time in my life. I just need sleep and to live a life not of impulse. I'm so embarrassed of myself when I do that, which is a regular occurance. And I think I can't communicate well from adolescent drug use, I feel I can share with people's life situations, but can never relate

>>685931915
You should kill yourself.

If you think that how women view you means a fucking thing, you should self-immolate.

>>685931865

How did

>Only fedora-tier faggots tell themselves it doesn't matter how much pussy you get.

make you think that? I personally think everyone but the very select few omegas will get laid eventually. It's not a very hard thing to accomplish. People who never do get laid however fail in certain aspects of life and cope by telling themselves it doesn't matter.

That being said, I personally don't think the number of people you've had sex with really matters. Alternatively I do think, like I said before, that never having sex does mean you're failing.

>>685932100
it's not about how the woman sees you. it's about the status of getting pussy. Getting pussy means that you've impressed women enough to score with them. In return you know for a fact that there's someone out there that values you, even when you don't.

>>685932218
Read
>>685932273

>>685921073
Jews

>>685932273
Then we're in agreement.

>>685931681
The question is why not bother?
I was depressed I know the feeling of loosing sleep but I guess there's more to your depression than that.
But for now just do thing and don't get into the vortex of self pity you will surely won't get out of that and you will an hero eventually and hurt the one closest to you

>>685931951
I certainly will.

>>685931885
Thank you for showing yourself. I tried a Rc and it showed me I must continue learning, I had lost the will to learn for awhile before that. Ironically I failed my studies shortly after which is kinda funny in that sense, but I won't forget that moment. I had wrote down my thoughts during, something in particular stays with me and what I was writing. I had wrote "re read for growth or satisfaction", that resonated with me. I don't know the reason I was reading what I what wrote though

>>685932279
Some of us don't care about that. We're smart enough to know what lucid dreaming is.

I hate to sound like a sexist, but for the vast majority of men, lucid dreaming can effectively replace any need we would have for women

>>685932489
this

>>685932790
Spoken like a true virgin

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I had a dream about her, It felt so real, so good, but then I woke up and regained the awareness of who I am compared to who she is and why she would never be into a guy like me.

>>685932279
And some of us don't care what women think because we know how fucking stupid they tend to be

for all the short people out there, remember that hitler was only 5'9 and he still did great things

>>685932790
dude no, it can replace fapping.
That's about it.

>>685932215
Then you have a motive to keep on that's at least a thing
Don't be embarrassed about anything just do what you wanna do
And try to figure out if there's anything that can give you pleasure that does not involve drugs (but thats just me I'm against drugs in all not just the hard ones)

>>685932881
It is what it is

>2016
>thinking this life actually matters

You're in for a brutal wake-up call, anon

>>685932936
I'm sorry for whoever hurt you anon.

>>685933161
Tell me anon: Do you believe in an afterlife?

>>685932206
Read about lucid dreaming.

>>685932908
And why is that?

>>685933227
I can't help but believe in an afterlife

I know that all logic points to it not existing, but something keeps me believing in it

>>685933525
>something keeps me believing in it
that's called hope, anon

>>685933129
I would like to make my mum proud before her or my death. She has seen me transcend into the cracks of existence that some are afraid exists within themselves. I don't like her to worry about me,

>>685933129
I would like to make my mum proud before her or my death. She has seen me transcend into the cracks of existence that some are afraid exists within themselves. I don't like her to worry about me,
And drugs help me feel. I think too much and feel too little

>>685933640
>>685933688
Sorry for the duplicate posts

>>685921073
death and nonexistence

>>685933276
When I told her about my feelings for her, she went on about how we were too good of friends to ruin it, but I doubt thats the actual reason.

In reality I'm just not good enough, she doesn't have a reason to settle for me when there are so many better people out there that she could get easily.

>>685933774
"Death does not concern us, because as long as we exist, death is not here, and once it does come, we no longer exist" -Epicurus

Chin up anon.

>>685933525
As hard as it is, you've got to live your life according to reason, anon, not vague feelings. Everyone hopes for an afterlife, obviously. It just isn't very likely that there will be one. We should therefor live our lives life there won't be one. Finding joy life until it ends. We've only got one shot. Better make it count anon.

>>685921073
Poverty. Disgrace. Failure.

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>>685927727
That bit fucked me up, how he described that as soon as his hands left the rail he regretted it
Thank god he survived

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Want me to dump my feels folder?

>>685933901
That is akin to myself anon. I remember being in love with my best friend. She didn't want to ruin our friendship when I expressed my feelings to her. Later on she had told me she indeed had feelings for me, maybe not at that mutual point, but once. Our relationship was for too decayed at by then from jealousy from me, and emotional abuse for her not fulfilling my happiness. I mistreated her, don't be me anon. Be there for her through the relationships you know are horrid, and comfort her falls. If it's meant to be, it will be.

>>685933640
Seriously if you wanna make her happy and proud I guess you can lie a little and really go see the world and just take pictures and show her you're happy as a father I can tell ya when they show they are happy you become happy instantly and if your mom saw you at your darkest hour then you can't even imagine how proud she would be to see you out of it and who know maybe you will get out of this whole messy situation

>>685934344
I think you know the answer to that

>>685922210
Why have children? Life is mostly suffering. You're just forcing someone else to go through it.

>>685934148
It absolutely does concern me since I'm a paranoid fuck and am constantly dreading it.

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>>685934613
I guess this is kinda what Im doing with myself, not leaving my room unless I have to

>>685934514

It still doesn't concern you. You make it relevant by fearing it, but there really is no reason to. When we die, we're gone. No problems. Nothing to worry about. It's over. There is therefor no point in fearing it. Nothing will happen.

It's hard to put your mind to it and do this, anon, but think of it this way: We've been in non-existance for an eternity, and we only exist for a tiny fraction of time. Once we die, we go back to doing what we've basically always done. Not being.

>>685934613
that's pretty much my situation right now. Crazy how accurate it is.

>>685927727
Deepweb fentanyl overdose while drunk. Or Nembutal if you can find it. Pretty much 100% success rate and completely painless. Quite likely pleasant.

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>>685934738

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=4_nWRVCNwg4
Her you go guys

>>685934978
I hear Nembutal tastes like camel spunk and is really difficult to get down. do you know any reputable fentanyl vendors?

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for those with social anxiety this should hit home.

>>685934926
That's what's terrifying. Nobody has ever understood my fear and I don't expect anyone to start.

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>>685935545
Christ

>>685920846
The same sheisty cast that you hang with, and do your thang with could set you up and rat you up, nigga peep the language

>>685931773
Fuck you. You are the problem with society. When things get bad enough, I will make sure at least one of you fuckers dies before I do.

>>685935679
now that's edgy as fuck

>>685935545
This used to be me.

You just gotta go do it, make mistakes, fuck up, and you'll get the hang of it.

>>685932279
Ongoing status competition is the primary reason depression rates are so high in this country, fyi.

>>685935927
How is it edgy? I got the same response everyone who I have ever told my fears has given me. Nobody seems to understand exactly why it is so terrifying to me, and instead tell me it's a "non issue" or that it "doesn't matter".

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>>685935505
Go to any arbitrary darknet market and buy from at least 2-3 different fentanyl suppliers. At least 50mg each. Lethal dose is 2mg. For Nembutal, 20-30 grams -- it is harder to find and the best suppliers appear to be mostly in China. For fentanyl, best used with a lot of alcohol and a Benadryl or two. Don't try it beforehand or you will get tolerance.

>>685936708
Not the same anon. But I'm paranoid as fuck to do anything on the deep web from myself searching prices of items, and general things about the deep web. Would it be fair to say I'm paranoid? I'm scary that I would be one that is being surveyed, and orders would be traced from myself looking things up on the mediocre web

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>>685937089

>>685937169
Well it certainly didn't make me joyous

>>685920390
>listen to some Vaporwave

Are you that same dude that told me to listen to Aphex Twin because I was depressed?

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>>685937983
I feel like telling anyone I know about how I feel about life would just make them worried about me constantly, Making me another burden to someones life.

>>685936962
Can someone answer this please?
Also, would one have to purchase a new laptop to go on it? Would it be good to buy a anti virus subscription? Also would a Mac be the best choice to go on it?

>>685938779
Wrong post^

>>685937161
Suffice post. Please, an answer would be much appreciated

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>>685920089
Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. This sounds like bullshit but listen to me.

>suicidal for much of my 20's
>never attempted because I felt that if I was going to try, I was going to try for real and I just never found the courage/right combination of drugs and alcohol
>around the age of 27, I thought "fuck it", I sold my shit, got a working holiday visa and went to Japan
>once I got there I got offered a pretty sweet job. Met my wife at that job.
>once my visa ran out, me and my wife moved back to my country and I started going to university.
>got pretty good grades so I did postgrad
>got pretty good grades and now I am a PhD candidate on a full government scholarship
>got a wife, got a baby, spend my days researching something I like and lecturing (which I like less but pays good)

I know I was lucky but it sounds like you might be due for some good luck too.

Don't throw your chance away anon.

>>685920089
It's good to have goals

>>685919054
Any chance you live in Illinois?

And fuck off about poverty. There are plenty wayd to make good money if you're willing to put in the hours. If not then stop whining.

>>685921329
What the other anon said. ATAR is only important for like 4 months while you're getting into uni, after that its completely useless. Plus even if you don't get an ATAR high enough to go into the course you want, there's tons of ways to still get into that course. Don't stress it, I'm sure you'll be fine

>>685921941
I actually want to do to a a therapist at least one just to get a professionals point of view, maybe it'll put things into perspective, I dunno. But money, also parents are gonna freak and overreact. I'll manage