>>684835951
hi anons. let's feel together.

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>tfw when you have great friends but one day they just stop interacting with you

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So, I guess I'll start with my shit. Its finals week in my senior year, and for once I'm not ready to be done with school. This year I finally found some people who I became close friends with, and they're going out of state for college. I'm not ready to be alone again /b/.

Is else anyone here dying?

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>>684836874
Yep

>>684836874
eventually yeah
Thinking of getting a tat about that to remind me to endure through shit

>>684836874
Not dying, drowning. And I don't know how long I can keep holding my breath.

>>684836677
Hey man at least you've got the summer. Live it to the fullest. I'm in the same boat as you m8, I graduate on the 20th how bout you?

>>684837128
22nd. It's weird seeing all these people get excited about it when it's the thing I'm dreading the most.

>>684837032
>>684837044
My brain is giving out to Huntington disease, I'm slowly going to turn mentally retarded and one day it'll just shut off.
Birthdays are like a countdown..
I've flunked out of community college because I don't know what I'm going to do with my life

>>684837092
Talk to me anon

>>684837399
Out of all of us, you're the one who really shouldn't be here. What are some things you always wanted to do as a kid. Make a list so you don't forget.

>>684837399
Do you know how long you have left?

>>684837614
It's just one of those things where I don't know if I should even try in a lot of things, should I go down working ass off and trying to get the best score in life I can, or take things easy and slow and be happy in the moments.

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I'm Gabriel Crespo.
Facebook Profile ID- 100002034949524
I'm Gay.
9549231337
I'm lonely

>>684838069
More than most.
I'm 20 and I'm looking my cognition , I would say 5 years of being aware or myself

>>684838468
Loosing

>>684838453
At least you look five times better than me

>>684837530
Give me a min to type

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So how's been your day, anons?

>>684838645
Absolutely

>>684837297
Hey I'm rooming with 3 black guys in college, so Idk how I feel

>>684838785
i overate to the point were it feels like there's still food in my throat and my stomach is so heavy i can't breathe, i think i might have a food addiction and it's scary to admit it

>>684838468
how do you feel about it? Serene, scared?

>>684837297

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Ahh but change can be so exciting.

Go travel buddy. If you're not quite ready to grow up. I left Canada at 24 on a working holiday visa. If you are American you can get one of those for Australia and a few other places.

Go explore. Good luck!

>>684839098
Stupid question but have you tried to eat less? I mean, it's probably near the point which you're hurting yourself there.

I think i should not be alive. Im not gonna suicide or doing something stupid, but i feel like i am terribly useless. Who cares about me? (apart from a few family members, you know, just because they raised me). I have zero confidence. I cannot hold a nice relationship wether its romantic or friendship cause im a neurotic paranoid... Jesus fucking christ its been like this all my fucking life.
I dpnt expect you to reply, just wanted to express myself a bit.
Have a good day anons...

>>684839281
I fantasize it's going to go out like a fuzzy warm blanket of ignorant bliss.
But it's genetic, my father has it, cognitively he is now about 5 years old, and it's just confusion..

>>684837530
I'm the guy who graduates on the 22nd. When I was growing up, I was good friends with the kids who have grown up to become the chads. During 8th grade year, they decided it would be fun to make my life hell. They beat the shit out of me every day on my way home from school. I chose to go to a different school than what my middleschool usually filtered into, so I knew pretty much nobody going into highschool. Because of my old 'friends' I have pretty bad anxiety regarding social situations. I have been alone until this year. I planned on ending it 2 months ago because I didn't see the point in hanging on, but then I met someone this semester. She was/is in my cooking class, and she made me fucking smile. Now she's going to be leaving, and I'm gonna be back where I left off. Not looking forward to it...

>>684839643
I feel lucky to of felt that

>>684839557


I went on a very light anti depressant for an anxiety disorder. Changed my life. Social anxiety and panic attacks. I wasn't depressed but the very light dose I'm on made me able to cope and gave me the tools to cope.

Your mind is a powerful thing. I've also left the city and moving farther into the country. People are more accepting of your quirks in the country. Good luck anon. Keep your chin up!

>>684839557
I know exactly how you feel anon.
I have no purpose in this world.

>>684838675
>tfw

>>684839550
I have, and actually it's gone pretty well for me. I've lost about 15 pounds so far since the beginning of the year. But I always end up binging again. And even if I only gain back 5 pounds because of the last few days, that's still months' work of progress I just demolished for no reason other than that food tastes good and I'm lonely and I like it.

I'm reading some things about food addiction and identify strongly with the symptoms. I've been this way all my life. Feels bad man

>>684838134
I'd say be happy whenever you can be. But these threads aren't made for happiness. Come back to us if you're having a shitty night and need someone to vent to, but PLEASE don't lurk these as often as I do. You deserve at least a little happiness with the shit hand you were dealt.

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Most shitty things can be changed anons, a lot is in your own 2 hands. Sometimes you might feel powerless, unable to do anything, but most of the times it wil pass.

Everybody goes through shit, try and form the situation instead of letting the situation form you.
If it's truly impossible to do anything about your problems, for example the anon with huntington's disease, well then you're just shit out of luck and you gotta try to make the best of it.
Go do wtf you wanna do anon, get some hookers and drink 3 bottles of jack. It might not help in the long run, but at least you're having some fun.

I hope you guys pull yourselves through.
godspeed anons, you're all beautiful disasters.

>>684839985


Get a trade and build things. It gives you purpose.

Omg so many people in here where I was years ago.

Fuck fellas. I feel for you. It does get better. City life today is not good for metal health. It really isn't.

I wish you all luck. If you can figure it out your 30's is pretty nice.

>>684839793
I second that

>>684840360
Lucky us ayy

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I lost the love of my life, 4 years together and things went to shit because of bad decisions... Now I have to see her with her new boy while I know he won't ever try as hard as I tried to make her happy, cause I gave her my 101%. Literally.

>>684840105


Ex fatty here. Just exerciser a lot. I still eat shit but I burn it off so I'm healthy. My weight loss is just slower than others.

Don't care 60lbs and counting all while eating burgers and assorted shit.

I call it the burger poutine diet. Just lift brah.

You can even be a bit chubby as long as you pack on muscle mass. Many women like big men with muscles chub and all.

gf of 6 years left me last week. Said she just doesn't feel the same anymore and shes not sure why. Just before she left we were planning our future together, planning on getting a place for just the two of us, planning on seeing the world together... shit like that. I've been waking up everyday feeling so empty and wishing that I could feel anything at all, but I just feel so numb.

>>684840105
Man, put a lock on your fridge or whatever, fuck it and stop being lonely, go out and try to find something that makes you happy other than eating.

>>684839598
Thinking about euthanasia? No disrespect meant

>>684840582
Bad decisions?

>>684839748
Social anxiety is a bitch, I went from private school to a normal public middle school and the same thing happened, my friends climbed the social ladder faster than I did, and I got bad into drugs when I learned I had Huntington disease which I further alienated myself.
Recently I have found out that hanging out with a bit younger crowd of good kids can be helpful. I'm 20, my brother is 15 and he has many friends around his age, when I'm over I feel like I'm a big brother to all of them and they look up to me. Just being able to do stuff like teach them how to work on cars has made me feel slot better about myself

>>684840811


Last gf left me and I was destroyed. Didn't even kiss a girl for a year..... I was early 20's so just got drunk and skated like fuck.

Then I met my wife. My last one left because I was a bit controlling. I learnt to cut that shit out and not be a dick like that.

Look at yourself and see if you can honestly improve anything so you are ready when the right one comes along. Or, score your love back.

That was always my fantasy. I'm glad it didn't work out. My wife is way better than the last love of my life.

>>684835951

I disagree. I think it's the feeling of your bones splintering as you're slowly consumed, feet first, by a giant spider/beetle.

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What to do with yourself when there's no good around you? Is it worth to change the face and become as bad as them? Can you find a clue when you look at yourself in the mirror, is it worth to be bad? Does it feel good to be bad? Do you love them, or are you just attached to them and their presence around you? Do you like when someone is by your side? How to feel love? If there is no love, what do you feel towards your partner? What is the explanation of that bond that pulls you back to them every single time?
And last, but most important. How does it feel to love yourself if you are ashamed of what might be inside of you?

Used to talk to my child hood friend everyday... but we haven't talked in years I wonder if she still thinks of me as a friend or is it just me.

>>684841150


Other words for sticking fun bits in other peoples fun bits.

Thats' my guess.

>>684840811
Been there man. It doesn't get easier. The ride never ends.

tfw you know you will never be loved by the one girl you will love in life

>i fucking want to kill myself everyday

>i still talk to her every day
>she was describing me as her true love, but when i asked for a name/picture...
>a completely different name came up...

>>684841327

So get back in touch. That's what FB is for motherfucker.

>>684840811
I know the feel man... Months have passed since she left me and wel... I thought it would get better if I tried things out with some other girls and only thing I found with that is they all don't make me feel a thing. It's just not the same as it was with her... They treat me great, care about me and I can't feel a thing for them even if I try my hardest, I just feel depressed whenever they're around and just want them to leave. I fuck them or give them whatever I feel they want from me to make them feel comfortable but I don't enjoy it. I've been unable to cum having sex, bj or hj since she left me cause I don't feel happy.

Sex has become kind of a numb feeling for me. It scares me a lot, cause I've met this girl I really like and I'm so fucking scared of the same thing happening with her aswell...

Hope you can manage to get out of this shit better than I did.

>>684841364
If that's the case he only gave her 95% of him. Literally.

>>684841327


Yes, my best frioend growing up turned out to be lesbian... So glad we never hooked up.

She lives in England now. She's still my buddy. We just buried her mom last month...... Cried like a bitch so much that her dad teased me even though it was his wife we said good bye too.

Shit welling up again. I wish I had said good bye.... fuck

If anyone feels the need to have someone to talk to and get shit off of your chest, talk to me.
Kik: Thatanoncalled.j

>>684840895
None taken, and no my little brother has a high chance of getting it too, and I owe it to him to already appear to go down swinging

I hope everyone is okay today, I get so annoyed by stories i hear from people, where they so obviously need someone to hear them out with dignity but have been shunned and laughed at/deified that many times they feel like they are worthless in everyone's eyes. I've seen people so bound by anxiety and inferiority complex they can't even look someone in the eyes let along speak and it's horrible to see.

I want you all to know there are people out there who care, people who will listen and people who take you seriously. but for every one of them, there are 1 million self righteous arrogant arseholes.

there are people who think that, because they are mentally with it, then everyone else is. that when they have 'banter' it can actually mean something and hurt someone, even when that person doesn't show it.

I used to be the same, i never showed any emotion other than happiness, i would never allow myself (in public) to be seen without a smile on my face *Life's good if i'm smiling or happy* but inside i was slowly decaying.

i've had 9 years training (including 5 years in uni - UKFAG) and people come to me so fucking upset because other people refuse to believe them.

a lot of people (especially psychologists) know what they want you to do/say before you enter the room. when you sit there blankly it strikes a nerve with them. I've had patients sit in a room with me for up to 8 1-hour sessions in silence.

They don't want to speak yet they need to get to know me, and the way they do that is by sitting in a room with me.

or, i tell them about myself. I talk to them about books, about games (although I'm pretty useless with gaming) i talk about food, films, the ocean, why i think the moon landing was fake (I don't) - anything.

Just because someone has a title and a degree, and an office, and a white coat, and a pen and a secretary doesn't mean they're qualified to help you. just remember that ultimately its a quality you can't learn in a school. Love one another.

>>684841150
long story short:
>she has new friend (girl)
>friend tells her she's not happy with me (she's always been kind of a sad girl except when she was with me)
>i had bad times with college and family so we couldn't see each other for a month and a half
>she believes her friend and leaves me, months pass and she's still trying to convince herself she doesn't love me
>I try to move on with some girl I met (huge mistake, I never felt a thing for her but thought she wouldn't come back with me)
>She wants me back, I think I have to move on and that she doesn't really love me (I told her the day before telling about the girl I loved her and she stood there looking at me but didn't answer)
>She starts dating this retard and she thinks she's in love with him cause he was nice to her when she was sad about the whole thing
>I realized a week after that the huge mistake I made not taking my chance to get back
>I cry every night.

>>684841963
I'm trying to tell the girl who is leaving, so that I can thank her for all she has done for me. Any advice on how to do this without putting a bunch of pressure on her and making her worry all the time when she leaves? She deserves to be happy.

>>684841963


I loved your post.


Isn't /b/ a funny place full of contradictions of itself.

In one post I see people exploding and have to wade past loli threads and then you find posts like yours.

It's why we're all here I suppose. It's more honest than real life. Here is where you find out what humanity is really like. All the disgusting beauty of it.

>>684841764
Why don't you travel? Get in an NGO? Do something, anything to be able to say "I lived a good life"

>>684842295

1. You're an idiot. 2. It's not over.

>>684842549

Just say "thank you for all you've done for me?"

>>684842295


Long story shorter, fun bits in other fun bits and your wife met a man hater.....

It's not over dumb ass. Your story is fucked sure but not so fucked. If there is love there chase it bro.

Good luck.

>>684842864
Dude, without her I'd be dead. Thanks doesn't really cut it...

>>684841252
Thanks anon. I'm trying to look at myself and look at other areas in my life that I can work on. It's just so fucking hard... so fucking hard knowing that I gave her everything that I could, tried to be the best that I could be for her... and it wasn't enough.
I cherished her so much. And yet she couldn't give a less of a fuck about me anymore. I know that I need to try and accept what happened, but I just care for her too much...

>>684840105
I've lost 53 pounds.
It's seriously not that hard to just not eat shitty jesus.

>>684842549
"Thank you for being here for me"
Don't forget to hug her

>>684842765


I actually loled.

It's so not over.... There is more drama to come and if they can pull it off and not be torn by jealousy they could end up stronger.

Just get rid of the man hater.

>>684837399
Damn anon my problems seem like nothing. Keep your head up always my man.

>>684835951
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hlsbTcPxZPc

>>684843018


My wife nearly booted me before we got married. She actually just wanted a man that works as I was a skater and therefore a bit slack as I wanted to play.

I got into construction and loved it and poof, she was happy....... Fucking annoying why didn't she just say that shit.... I suppose it's better as I did it on my own not knowing exactly why we where rocky.

Are you a bit of a slacker at all? Women approaching baby years start looking at us fucky if you are.

>>684842765
I know I'm an idiot, I regret making that choice every single day, really. But it's getting harder and harder every day to have a little chat with her or whatever, she just doesn't feel like making the effort of telling me how's she doing, she just makes excuses not to meet me for a walk or watch some movie... It feels awful. It really does, so I'm letting her go a bit more each day.

Love's the best and the worst thing that happened in my life, that sucks.

Post the comment "Hitler is the prophet!":

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5W68ztHpE_E

>>684843668


Fuck movies dude this is grand romantic gesture time!!!!!!!!


Go watch some bitch flicks and shamelessly rip an idea off if you have to.

Plus if she blows you off then, it's over.

>>684843639
>Fucking annoying why didn't she just say that shit

Preach.

>>684843668

OK, here's what you do. Back off. Cut her out your life for a bit. Meet new people, have new experiences, grow as a person, and give her time to get truly sodding miserable. Then wait till she breaks up with this non-entity, and give her a call. Like a fortnight after the breakup.

>>684843976
ayy lmao. Didn't think I'd find a reason to laugh in a feels thread.

>>684843322
>Saddest Song Ever
At least give the author some credit
>Kiss The Rain - Yiruma

Currently I have almost zero friends. How do I establish a proper social net with no real interests or hobbies?

>>684842549
i really don't want to give advice because that's not what counselling/psychiatry is about.

but

it sounds to me like what she wants to hear is that you will be fine on your own. people (usually) don't help others for gratification, they do it to help, especially those who carry it through for a while.

The best thing you can do is reassure her. now, it's not going to be easy and i cant speak for you. but you need to let her know you aren't looking to put her on a pedestal or give her a medal. she needs reassurance that she can leave and live her life without fear of you dong whatever it is she's worrying about.

>>684841405
>>684841486
Thanks anons.

It helps a bit to know that someone understands what it's like, what it's like to feel so hollow. It fucking sucks man. I know she doesn't care anymore but a part of me still hopes that by some miracle she will change her mind and she in me, what I saw in her. See how much I love her... how I would break my back trying to make her happy

>>684838453
you're not bad

>>684844283
Ooooooh I like this advice. It's better than mine with the romantic crap.

Do this.

>>684844328
Are you still in school? If so, smoke pot. The stoners will accept you as one of their own.

>>684837032
Sorry to be a weeb but one of the rules is that you can't kill yourself using the notebook.

>>684843025
i know, and like i said i've made a lot of progress. the binging is just something that happens, if i could control it i wouldn't do it

>>684843928

Yeah no. You go with this guy, you're gonna end up ruining her wedding or something.

>>684844328


Do you like drinking?

That's a hobby many enjoy. If you don't keep drinking until you find something you like.

Don't punch people.

>>684844511
i forgive you for being a weeb, don't let it happen again

>>684838400
Describes my whole life in a nutshell.

>>684844553


Yes I retracted said advice.

>>684844340
Thanks for the advice dude. Btw, why do you come to these threads? I'm assuming you're doing this during your free time.

>>684844313
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c7WmUkQeIj8
If you want something similair

>>684844435
I'm 25, graduated from university some months ago.

>>684842598

thank you, i really enjoy hearing positive feedback and if i can make 1 person a bit more optimistic about reality my job is done.

i had a note from a guy who was going to kill himself but called our helpline up. the helpline was silent for 2 hours while he cried and i was on the other line, i didn't speak, but every time he asked if i was there i said 'im here'. (when i was doing work for the samaritans)

was pretty memorable, but it goes to show people need someone else a lot of the time they don't want to be analysed or categorized, they don't want a label they just want someone in their life, even if it's to do nothing with.

>>684844790
Take up drinking. Keep it low, alcoholism is its own horror, but go to the bar and meet new people.

>>684839643
My teen love fucked me up , cheated on me with my best mate and another mate and encouraged my severe depression because I kept going back to her , and I loved her so much but yet she emotionally abused me and fucked me up. Sorry for the rant...

>>684844516
do you control the food that comes into your house?
then don't buy shitty foods that you know you're going to binge on.
learn some self control too, it's what comes along with losing weight.
coming from someone who used to be pretty obese and is just slightly overweight due to an entire lifestyle change.

>I'm an average student
>Average in math, history, whatever
>Fat
>Beta, but have friends
>Only had one gf, but things ended bad (none of us had the fault, thought)
>Still virgin
>Only kissed anyone maybe 3 times in my life
>I'm 20
>Be in the easiest college in my country
>Get bad grades
>My parents said that they know I tried, and that I did my best
>My brother is fit, alpha, has gf and experienced teenage love twice
>He's a genius
>Plans to study at MIT
>I have 25GB of porn in my laptop
>He has a future

I love him a lot. I'm not jealous, but disgusted by myself. I feel like shit when thinking about anything that is relevant. I just wanted to be smart. That's it.

I'm such a fucking idiot.

>>684845171
Yo, go ask /fit/ what to buy. Tell them whats going on and I'm sure you'll get a real answer.

>>684845092
Tried that already, the hard part is not sitting in a corner with a glass of whisky the whole time.

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I'm feeling so bad

>>684844283
Sounds great to me, will do! Anyway we're on our way to stop talking so...
Thanks mate.

>>684845290
start working out and losing weight.
it's possibly the best thing to do if you're down and overweight.
seriously this has been the best year of my life

>>684843639
I used to slack when I was younger and early on in our relationship. But I realized that slacking off will get me nowhere. I worked hard at my job to support myself and support the future I wanted for us. Yea I've made mistakes along the way but I became a hard worker and Im currently trying to finish uni. For God sakes last year I lost my car in an accident with a drunk driver. I worked double overtime at work to afford a better car for us and one that would last in the future.

>>684845337
I don't know what to say man. I wish I knew all of you irl, at least none of us would be lonely.

>>684839557
exactly what I feel.

>Be me
>Be 15
>Don't have any confidence or motivation
>Through my whole life teachers and parent ( dad left) telling me how smart I am
>Get fucked over by the teenage love of my life (she accepted me then cheated on me - I'm pretty retarded)
>Now an underachiever
>Rarely earning even C's and predicted A's
>Dont even have the confidence to speak to anyone.
>Why do I even bother?
/b/ What should I do , I'm trying to revise and get better but nothing seems to make me happy anymore and I see no point.

>>684844740

Yeah I don't think work would pay me for this as much as i'd love it

i suppose it comes down to the disassociated aspect of it all, i love speaking to people and i especially love making a difference, even as i've said, 1 person. ive been around enough tragedies and i know a lot of people in my profession don't do their job properly.

i really love counselling i believe in order to cure the world there needs to be more understanding of how people work.

these threads in particular though: i merely stumble across them in my spare time. I do browse 4chan every now and again, i always have and i always will it really is a strange place full of surprise

>>684836635
hit them up

>>684845995
you kill yourself piece of shit

>>684841486
I am exactly here. Worst part is, I've tried to get back together with my ex, and even that feels good of meaning. I don't know how to ever make anything feel real and enjoyable anymore.

>The worst feeling is beginning where loneliness is, having years of love from someone who felt the same way
>But was confident enough to plow through it to function in society and pretend to be a normalfag
>They taught you confidence

>and then to lose them.

>And then after they died, the confidence they taught you starts to dissolve in your hands.
>And then you're back to square one, alone and lonely.
>You've betrayed them by not doing your best and you'll spend the rest of your life alone.
>I'm experiencing this right now

I wish I'd never met him. I feel like such a disappointment.

>>684845171
no. :( i ask my parents to buy me fruits and vegetables and usually i can control myself but sometimes they'll make a delicious fucking soup or some shit and there i go having 6 bowls

i think things will be better when i move out

>>684839908
what movie ist this

>>684846014
Hey, would you do me a favor? If it works in your schedule, will you start coming to the thread that starts in around 6 hours? We lose a lot of people at that time.

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>>684838400
This. Fucking this. I've spend a lot of time helping my friends with their problems. I try my best to be altruistic when helping people. Some of my friends see that. The worst part about it all is that i feel they have no reason to care or help even though they do. Only recently have i started asking them for help with things in my own life. They have always been there when i need them like i have been for them. Two in particular have guided me greatly. I always say thank you and both have said the same thing... "you would have done the same for me"

>>684845776
I do work out. I lost 10 kg so far. That doesn't change the fact that I'm a literal dumbass.

Thanks anyway, anon. Keep having an excellent year!

>>684846236
500 days of winter

>>684838453
You're hot, despite the fact this is pasta

>>684845337
holy shit man tell me about it. you sound exactly like me.

>go to bar full of hopes and dreams
>too loud, people too superficial all too drunk to converse with
>come home
>browse /b/
>hits my comfort spot

Firefighter for 18 years, and I'm dead on the inside. Nobody has any idea. I see the worst shit, and it just doesn't affect me.

Plus side, it makes me great at this job. My crew knows they can count on me to deal with th heavy shit, and honestly, I'm fine with it. But the downside is that I don't feel anymore. Good or bad, it's all the same.

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>>684838453

>>684845995
This was me, without the gf.
I played it cool, went to college for the subject I genuinely enjoyed, and I found friends that way.
Just find a way to be happy. Smoke weed, join a club, whatever. Your work ethic will reflect your mental state.

I'm doing an apprenticeship in an IT school. i am in my last year and it looks like i'm not gonna make it. my grades are bad because programming isnt something for me. i tried, i really fucking tried but failed. 2 years wasted again. 4 years overall.
i have no fucking ambitions. i have nothing to look forward to. i dont know why i was born at all.
i have nothing to live for. i'd be better off dead.
I see nothing for my future.
if one would ask me where i see myself in 5-10 years, i'd say in a grave.
i curse the day i was born.

this is how i make it through everyday now because if i didnt have other people to help id just break down man.

>>684846719

> creeping you out

that's usually what ends up happening.

so yeah...ending up doing nothing is usually the best bet.

which is why i only message my exes when i'm shithoused and being stupid.

>>684846564
how many people have you saved?

>>684846564
On the plus side you are now mentally invincible. Great power brings great responsibility.

>>684846752
Alright man , thanks for the advice , will just have to stick it through and hope something changes for the better :) Thanks again man.

>>684838400
this is how i make it through everyday now because if i didnt have other people to help id just break down man.

>>684846184
no, don't say that.
take control now, you go to your parents and tell them "I'm going to lose some weight, stop buying this garbage."
it's not that hard and i'm sure they'll understand

Honestly, it's hard to say. Once you get someone out of the house or the car wreck, we usually don't hear how the story ends. Nine people for sure that I took out of burning buildings on search and rescue. Which is pretty cool, knowing that they survived.

It's a hard question to answer. We pull someone out of a car accident ... Would they have died if we were two minutes slower? Impossible to say.

>>684845337
Okay so looks like you're shy and won't really engage on a conversation by yourself, right? From 1 to 10 how god looking are you? Be honest, not too low, not too high.

Do you like rock/metal music? Depending on where you live there may be a lot of live shows every weekend of that kind of music, usually with facebook events and shit where people ask for a car to get to the place or whatever. If you have a car you would offer to bring there some people or you could ask for a ride.

Not gonna lie, the more good looking you are the easier it'll be for people to get to know you and that kind of shit, so you may aswell gather some cash and buy nice clothes (nothing too fancy or weird, good things), consider buying sinny pants if you're a skinny guy with a fine black shirt. No hats, no gloves, no shit like a fedora retard would wear just please.

If you meet a girl you don't have to be all nice with her; If she's gorgeous she probably won't want shit with you even less if you're acting like a 17th century man, so probably just act like you're not interested on them in a physical way, treat em like you would with a man and don't be scared to point out things just because she's a girl. Anyway, to start with I would recommend you to get closer to some 5s or 6s both in matter of girls and men as they'll probably tend to be nicer people and friendly (usually).

cont.?

>>684846275
hey - I'd love to but im from UK and it's 10:40 pm here now

i may set up a chat room /kik style thing in the near future and i will announce if i do

i never rarely have free time - i volunteer a lot with the samaritans but never the less if i ever see a feels thread I will join in.

its nice to see a lot of you guys sticking together and really makes the feels thread a helluva lot nicer when you stick up and honour thy thread name by getting rid of haters

you g

My girlfriend of two years just broke up with me over text..

>>684847272
Not sure what this is, but checked. Do you really feel nothing, or do some things still get through? It sounds like you have a great relationship with the other guys at your firehouse, maybe they will be able to save you now.

>>684847638
wanna elaborate? I'm listening

>>684847629
Thanks for being around then. I'm pretty sure I speak for all of us when I say it means a lot that you actually care.

>>684847638
Over text? Couldn't even talk to you face to face? That's cowardly of her anon. No one deserves that.

She give you a reason?

>>684844595
Maybe he need to punch people, like mma, box, Thai, practicing these sports it's kinda easy to find buddies to talk and train too

Feel very little. Being part of the team is cool, I get something from that. Adrenaline when we're on a call. I have two kids and I love them. So I feel those things, but mostly, it's just weird. Like being around, functioning normal, appearing normal, but knowing that my head is wired different.

There's a line from a manic street preachers song ... 'All surface and no feeling'. That's me. It's not really a bad thing. Just feels weird aometimes, like I'm a robot.

>>684848162
She said that she was gay.

>>684848162
This.

My last ex pulled that shit too. I was like wtf I deserve to at least hear her say it if she's breaking up with me.

She got mad when I had a non-landwhale gf a few months later. Found out, was jelly, got mad... My friends found out and had some great lolz about it.

Fat bitch.

>>684847940
mate a lot of people care but it's really hard to find them

thats why these places are awesome because ( i know this sounds terrible) even if someone is lying and they couldn't give a shit, you never know

thats why text is slowly killing humanity off in my opinion but that's opening up another can of worms

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help

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WibmcsEGLKo

Worth the watch anons.

>>684847497
Not same anon but cont please

>>684848788
talk to us Anon

>>684848388

do you ever get post traumatic stress? like flashbacks and stuff?

>>684848788
We're here. Whats up?

Despite her being a manipulative, emotionally and sometimes physically abusive, whore who caused me to lose my career and the support and love from my family...I miss my ex fiancée every single fucking night. And I hate myself even more than I already did before because of it...

Okay, so.
When I was about 5 my granddad was diagnosed with lung cancer. Long story involving a motorbike accident a few years prior. Who's got two thumbs and didn't fully understand the concept of cancer by then?
Couple of years passed. We couldn't play rough and tumble in the mornings anymore. Shortness of breath ensues, so he got a moving chair to get him up and down the stairs. He let me play on it from time to time, just for a laugh.
Few months passed and the time eventually came that he had to enter end-of-life care. One day we all visited him in the institution he was in. I mostly just ate sweets and fiddled with the oxygen feeding tube in his nostrils.
Sooner or later the time came that we all had to go. I'd never had anyone I knew die before, so I wasn't taking this seriously. I thought he was still going to pull through. I'll never forget what I said to him as I was leaving:
"See you soon, Granddad - if you're still alive, that is!"
Couple of days later my mum went out for the night and I stayed in with my sis and dad. Next day she comes home and tells me he'd died that night, with most of his family around him.
She told me one of the last things he said was telling her not to let me forget him.
Me. Specifically. Not so much my sister or my cousins, me.
Few years later I found he left a valuable memorial plaque to me in his will.
I was his favourite grandson and the last words I ever said to him were taking the piss out of him.

When I was about 5 my granddad was diagnosed with lung cancer. Long story involving a motorbike accident a few years prior. Who's got two thumbs and didn't fully understand the concept of cancer by then?
Couple of years passed. We couldn't play rough and tumble in the mornings anymore. Shortness of breath ensues, so he got a moving chair to get him up and down the stairs. He let me play on it from time to time, just for a laugh.
Few months passed and the time eventually came that he had to enter end-of-life care. One day we all visited him in the institution he was in. I mostly just ate sweets and fiddled with the oxygen feeding tube in his nostrils.
Sooner or later the time came that we all had to go. I'd never had anyone I knew die before, so I wasn't taking this seriously. I thought he was still going to pull through. I'll never forget what I said to him as I was leaving:
"See you soon, Granddad - if you're still alive, that is!"
Couple of days later my mum went out for the night and I stayed in with my sis and dad. Next day she comes home and tells me he'd died that night, with most of his family around him.
She told me one of the last things he said was telling her not to let me forget him.
Me. Specifically. Not so much my sister or my cousins, me.
Few years later I found he left a valuable memorial plaque to me in his will.
I was his favourite grandson and the last words I ever said to him were taking the piss out of him.

>>684848542
I know that it must hurt. Especially after two years, but at least you have a definitive answer for why things didn't work out.That's more than some people get. And now that you have your answer try your best not to dwell on it. Focus on you. Focus on your happiness

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>>684849527
Seems like nothing goes my way. Sometimes seems like the world's out to get me. I just hate the fact that nothing will ever go my way. Nothing will ever make me happy.

>>684850140
Thanks for the advice /b/ro.

>>684849959
Dude, why would you torture yourself over this. He fucking loved you, so I'm pretty fucking sure he wouldn't want this to be what you remember about him.

Does anyone have the screencap of an anon's poem that was posted in the last thread? I was going to save it, but I lost it.

It was something along these lines:

>I'm in love with her, but I do not tell her

>I'm smart, but I don't do anything

etc.

>>684850110
Whoops. Thought it hadn't registered.

No, I've been really lucky that way. Sleep really good at night, no ptsd. The only thing I dream about or flashback to is the tasks ... Like going in with a hoseline, or driving apparatus to a call. None of the bad stuff. Just the technical stuff plays back. I'm lucky that way.

>>684850253
You can't look at it this way. We all know its a lie, but you have to tell yourself it will get better. Even lies can be based in truth.

>>684850253
Don't expect things to make you happy bro
Make yourself happy
Small things. Making your bed every morning, doing some regular exercise
A lot of things will drag you down but you need to have things, however small, that you can say "I did this and nothing can take this achievement away from me".

>>684849959

i feel you.
my grandma used to give me money every time i went to see her, i used to go for that reason only.

I never told it was because she gave me money but she never let me leave empty handed. I really feel horrible now shes gone.

by the sounds your grandad he was always happy-go-lucky and a very dedicated one at best. he always wanted for you to be happy.

I dont think he would have wanted your last words to him to be full of depression and sadness. this is going to sound absolutely horrid from me, but i think you cracking a joke was the perfect send-off for him.

I hope i've not made you feel worse, but from what you've wrote (tumble fights, playing with the chair, fiddling with the tube) his memories of you were always of you being a kid full of naivety and youth. I think you did a fine good job of his final memories of you being just you.

the funeral is the day for you to remember him, his deathbed is how he remembers you.

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>>684850730
Thanks anons. It's nice to know that some people care and can take time out of there day to help and talk. You guys are great.

>>684847497
I'm shy and tend to get nervous and to stumble over words around new people. I'd say I'm a 6 or a 7. My body is in a good shape, I work out regularly, but I'm not a big fan of my face (which could result from low self-confidence to some degree).
I do like rock and metal music, and I do attend concerts occasionally. If I show up there alone I normally just try not to attract any attention until the show starts. Occasionally I tend to chat up random people, but at some point I normally reach a stage where I feel that it's better to disappear somewhere in the crowd without much fuss. Normally it feels like people enjoy the conversation, but not enough for them to wish to maintain contact.
Proper clothing is not really a problem since that's kind of a prerequisite for my work as a businessman. Since I finished uni I also invested in getting a nicer haircut, so I definitely made progress regarding style.

>>684850253
When I was younger, I felt like this. Felt that I couldn't do anything right, felt like I couldn't catch a break. I wanted to just give up and give in. I struggled with depression, and I still do, but I know that I have more good days than bad days now.

What I'm saying is that it can be easy to be caught up in your own negativity, but just know that life isn't out to get you. Find something that your passionite about, learn something new, try new things... nothing feels worse than feeling stagnant. For me, my passion was music... try to find yours, and keep your head up and held high. It gets better

>>684848826
Aight then, on the same line i was writing...
Let's assume you're the driver and you're carrying some people to a show or whatever, if they start a conversation you should really try to join it in a non-awkward way. Say they're talking about some movie they've watched you could join eventually with something relevant (usually avoid fun facts, but not always, only use them if they REALLY suit the conversation and you have some confidence with the people) like 'Oh if you liked that movie you should really check out X, *elaborate comment about same genre, director, plot, actors or w/e*'. If you're one of the passengers you could talk about the show you're going to watch, ask them if they've already seen the band live or things like that.

Maybe I should've started with the 'introduce yourself' thingy, but whatever. You should choose, depending on where you live and your culture, a proper way to introduce yourself to avoid an awkward situation. From where I am it is alright to either kiss the girl in the cheek or hug her when introduced for the first time, shaking hands as men, though you can aswell do the same with a girl if you're not confident enough. This is important because you don't want to be unsure about what you're going to do once you met them, leading to a weird moment when they wanna shake your hand but you want a kiss; you can always go with the 'oh, fuck it! Give me a kiss/hug' if that ever happens, which shows confidence and if you say it with a smile it's also kind of charming for some people.

Give me a second and i'll go on, I'm busy atm.

>>684851427
That was my thread from Saturday. I'm the anon who was waiting to tell a girl about his depression

>>684851237
Next time, when you will have pulled through all of this you will be there for other anons

>>684835951
I honestly wonder what do you get out of these feels threads? Are you just trying to be depressed? or what I honestly do not get it? And Inb4 it is good to be sad sometimes. Sure there is the ying and yang edition of it. But it is almost never good to be sad. Not to say that it sounds like some tumblr bullshit.

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>>684851552
Thanks anon. It's not that I'm not passionate about anything. Music and sport are my passions more than anything. The problem is these passions only distract me from a problematic life. But I'm getting better and feeling more positive than I was a few months ago, so the only way is up right now.

>>684852047
That is the fucking deal of life. You find passions so you do not have to be sad...

>>684851958
We come here because we have nobody else to talk to. I come to these even when I'm having a good day because I need someone here when it gets bad. This is a support system for the lonely faggots that populate this site.

>>684850425
I try not to, I swear. But I've never had a good memory for this sort of thing. I try to remember positive memories when that one crops up.
I remember how, when he came to our house, sometimes he'd come up to my room when I was being antisocial and playing video games, and he'd just talk to me about what I was playing, just to keep me company.
I remember how when I was younger he'd sing nursery rhymes to me and my sis, but he'd change the words around just to dick with us.
I remember when we were all out crabbing one day and he cut his foot on a rock. He didn't seem too fazed by it, and he taught me the best way to pick the suckers up.
But when I look at that plaque, those words are the only things I can hear.

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I'm gonna head to bed anons. I hope you guys are all okay and have a good day tomorrow. Thank you for your time and caring :)

>>684852259
So if I understand correctly. You are socially akward faggots. Instead of going to social events where you live and fixing your situation you go onto this online forum... Okay so quite honestly that is retarded. That will not help your social situation at all...

>>684850253
What comic is this from? I always love the ones of batman reaching out to the human side of his usual cast of villains.

>>684852344
So put the plaque somewhere you wont see it and replace it with a picture of him. If you don't have one, ask for one from your family.

>>684851592
Thanks anon, you seem to know alot of what I don't have any clue.
So here's my thing, how can I start to talk again with a girl who was almost something ( I wouldn't say girlfriend but I kiss her once if it counts) that lost contact to, she's my classmate so I see her every day in university but now kinda feel weird, I feel like she doesn't want to talk to me the way we use to

>>684852259
Same anon. Do not understand me wrong. I understand the need for someone online once in a while that is anon. Anons have a special relationship. But still though >>684852638

>>684852517
goodnight bro, going to bed too

>>684852654
Batman Adventures Holiday Special #1

>>684852830
Not always about the social situation though. We lost someone last week who came out to his family and friends and ended up being alienated by ALL of them. We talked with him for about an hour before he decided to wait for a train.

I'm just a little down right now.

>>684853210
So you also engulf yourself not only in self pitty but also while in this self loathing you willingly drag others down with you or add more problems to your life because you try to help others. Trust me as someone studying psychology none of those sound healthy.
> Sucide by train
> Fucking delays man

>Be in relationship.
>I have liked people before, ja, but her.. I really love her
>She loved me back
>Only thing is, she barely ever talked, because she has depression. Whenever she totally opened up before to people, they screwed her over
>I, being my idiotic self, just talked to much, and yeah while she did open up to me sometimes, I kind of like tried to get her to open up sometimes
>Says she is breaking up with me because she feels like I "interrogate" her.
>Only did that because half the time she would only talk to the bare minimum, most of the stuff she said was 1 worded..
I know I should have let her open up herself, and I had to be a major fag.. I know I sound like I don't deserve her, which I probably don't, but other then that, I treated her to the greatest of 110%. We agreed on taking a break.
I still miss her a lot and have been depressed, I shouldnt have been such a fag..
We are still friends, but I still love her.. I think I still may have a chance of a round 2...
What do I do, 4chan?

>>684853500
And trust me as someone with dyslexia trying to write after 12 and expecting good grammar and spelling is just not worth it.

>>684852638
you've obviously never been in a situation where you can't just get up and go to a bar and all your problems are solved.

let me ask you why you felt the need to comment on this thread in the way you did?

did your conceited comments help you with your inferiority complex or something?

sometimes the best help comes from incognito sources you fool. coming onto a help thread and mocking it isn't 'bait' if you gonna throw that in

you're the type of people who make this threads so necessary for some people who actually have difficulty speaking aloud the words they need someone to hear

it's going to sound so whiny but having depression while being a general happy person is so infuriating, it makes me mad the way i feel, i shouldn't feel the way i do im not a fucking child

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>Trust me as someone studying psychology
I'm sorry to say you sound arrogant as hell bro. This place is about getting a sense of community. Of feeling some have gone through the same shit before and they pulled through. Sure, it gets overly dramatic sometimes but these threads are the first step towards betterment

>>684853635
if she had a problem with you trying to initiate conversation she should have let you know
if you think you have a chance to try again, communication better be a priority this time. and it doesn't even have to be communication about her problems, but communications about what she's comfortable discussing
can't you find shit to talk about that isn't so personal?

>>684853500
Alright, so I have to do this for some people I know
>Psychology is a pseudo-science

Anyway, its kind of the same idea as AA. We come here, we talk with each other, and we try to make it through.

>>684851521
Okay, that's good to hear! I contd here >>684851592
But keeping it more on you I'd say you should practice a bit with the stumbling thing before getting out, else you'd get really nervous and shit I assume. Best way I've found to do that is talking with complete strangers in sites like omegle or maybe skype (try hanging around /soc/ sometime so you might be able to catch some interesting skype). Of course that's not a must do, but I do think it'll help you a bit.

Now, you must be self-confident; People you met aren't automatically good enough for you, so you should have that in your mind. Being a funny person usually helps A LOT, but that's not something everybody has, so you should try to find out what works best for you when talking to someone. It could be you're more of the interesting guy that can always talk about whatever topic and be really into it with a lot of facts, the dude that's always bringing out something cool as a topic, the one that did some crazy shit in his life... Whatever you feel you fit into try to develop it. For myself I'm the one with crazy stories and I always try to tell them with a great dose of humor; stories where you fucked a 1/10 can become GREAT and make you look like a winner if you know how to tell them properly (usually making people see you don't regret your experience, you had fun or you consider it a great story to tell cause it makes people laugh [beware, make sure they laugh WITH you and not AT you]).

And on how to engage on a proper conversation, maybe... Let's say you go to this pub, good music, lots of people, etc. You don't want to seem like a classy dude if you're around young people, you want to look like one of they can see themselves in. Maybe grab a beer (if you like it) or some cheap shit, shots of whatever. You can always get in the place, grab your phone and look kinda busy at the beginning, but checking out the people and stuff.
cont.

>>684852638
More like we hang out here in between of failed socializing attempts.

>>684839538
Lookgaryit'sme.jpg

Started abusing my prescription Ativan to avoid feels of being 22 and graduating college in 5 days and never being in a relationship and figuring out the girl you loved who you were talking to doesn't have feelings for you.

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>>684853757
First of all read my second comment faggot. I litterary say I understand it can be good from time to time. But the reason he gave was stupid. If you have social problems you are not going to solve them by self loathing you solve it by going outside. Who the fuck said bar probably atleast one or two organisations that includes your hobbies that is not a bar unless your only hobby is alcohol. My point is that it seems like all of you just go self loathing in everyone of these threads and I honestly do not get what the point is with bitching about your problems instead of trying to solve them.

>>684853984
Psychology is a pseudo-science

please back this up...... unless bait then good job

>>684853984
>pseudo-science
There is mathematical methods to asses the amount of reability a study has...

>>684854683
Nah, its total bait. Like I said, some people I know would kill me if I didnt say it.

>>684854041
http://www.bustle.com/articles/90744-7-ways-to-make-new-friends-as-an-adult-because-its-not-as-easy-as-it