>>683066168
drugs

>>683066168
Not much, takes a lot to wake up

Usually the anticipation of a cigarette

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I honestly have No idea. Wouldnt really mind anyone dropping a piano om me tbh.

>>683066168
living is an interesting experience, if you have a conscious of course, so im just ''''''''''enjoying''''''''' the ride for the moment

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>>683066168
Malice.

>>683066168
Live is good in the beginning. but what dou you do when you made all these experiences? sex, money, drugs etc.? what then? is it just family and "hey we are going to die"?

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My parents love me very much and to have me as proof of that through their union is enough, regardless of the pain I go through. They have my undying respect and loyalty, no matter what. Until they're gone, I've a reason to live. Otherwise, if I can't find happiness once they pass away, it's curtains for me.

When I was younger, I used to live for making others happy, with the epitome of that being when I find that special someone, share my love with her just as my father did with my mother, and for us to share that love and have a child of our own. That was when I was young and realized almost all women are nothing but bloodsucking monsters, and I respect my mother all the more for not being that.

>>683067205
>>683066685

I know the feel. Too lazy to bother ending it, especially since I just happen to be here; if I happen to die, it's whatever. Just going with the flow. You get used to crippling loneliness.

Only reason I stay on this rock is because it seems like it's more interesting than the alternative. Besides, what if there's no booze in the great beyond?! HA?!!!

god you guys are fucking depressing

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>>683066685
I have access to a baby grand, but no way to hoist it up...

>>683068261

Honestly, dying seems like a win-win situation. You either go to a fluffy-puff marshmallow Heaven, you get reincarnated and forget everything or you just stop existing. Obviously there's ideas of in between, but it mostly seems irrelevant either way.

>>683068311
well, then let us know what your motivation is

>>683068121
Word

>>683068121
preach

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>>683068391

>>683066168
making music
I'm building a little studio that I'll hopefully finish before I completely lose my will to live.
Also, weed and the pathetic hope that my former best friend will come back into my life.

ive already killed myself that should answer your question sir

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>>683066168
>>683066685
>I honestly have No idea. Wouldnt really mind anyone dropping a piano om me tbh.

me too, brother, me too =(

>>683068418
don't get me wrong, i have a hard time with life too.. lots. i'm not trying to compare myself here, i mean after all look where i'm posting. maybe it's half decent genes and being in a decent area with some opportunity. i have family that loves me and a couple of good friends. that's the good stuff. i haven't worked in a year and the only reason i'm still awake is because my hunger pains are keeping me awake. i'm not gonna try to tell anyone else how to feel or how to live, but for what it's worth, i really do love you all. and what is important is that you just keep doing things that make you happy, no matter what it is. drugs, booze, who gives a shit. depends on your situaton i guess. do not fucking give up because life can truly change in an instant, for good or bad, and if you really have gone through some serious shit before it should only make you realize how resilient you are. you can get through it, and you will

There's still so much stuff to do and see. I have baby nephews that I want to show cool things to and see them grow up to have families of their own. I want to see the new Star Wars, Thor, and Dr. Strange movies. I want to try restaurants and foods I haven't tried yet. Listen to music I haven't heard yet. Read books I haven't read yet. Etc...

>>683066168
basic survival really.

I'd like to see where this stupid life of mine goes, despite an odd urge that I could be schizo but is most due to the fact that i live in a shitty town.

I tried getting out but I am literally shut in.
it sucks

>>683068705

It must be nice to be able to hear the music in your mind and be able to convey it onto paper. It shows you've still the capacity to bring your hopes into fruition. I'm a musician myself, but my love for music died when I realized that I never enjoyed it for myself - in an orchestra, I am dispensable and to myself, the music I play only reflected how miserable I felt. The notes resonating through my ears would only amplify the loneliness I live with and, while it felt like it was what gave me soul, I had to learn to do without it. Much like everything else, that is.

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>>683066168
Not sure m8. I just kinda go through the motions for now. My life really isn't bad either. I find myself saying fuck life more than I probably should be though

>>683066168
the knowledge i will do great destruction, and creation one day; for this is my purpose, why i am. what is.

>>683066168
the fam, the squad, the niggas and the hustle

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>>683066168
(You)s

>>683066685
This. 2 months ago one of my 2 best friend an hero. Then a couple weeks ago the other one got such a bad confusion he essentially is a stroke victim. Can't talk right, think, remember shit, pukes all the time. 4-5 days a week my life revolved around drinking with themy and finding some shit to get into. My tarred bro can't drink. Everyday struggle not to drink myself to death. I wish a motherfucker would. I don't want to an hero cause of my family. But holy fuck why can't I just plow into a herd of cows at 79 on accident... fml

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>>683069033

>but for what it's worth, i really do love you all.

Likewise.

>>683066168
Silly family who would be devastated simply because they are expected to be

>>683066168
this is the only thing worth living for https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r5UINotf-cM

>>683069305
same here /b/ro

>>683068391
I run a loader for a living. Come on to Kansas bro

>>683069557
Holy shit, that's where it's at..

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>>683066168
>basically this >>683066685

if i had to give an answer:
>my two cats (mom and baby), i rescued them and i would never abandon them (pic unrelated)

>witnessing the end of A Song Of Ice And Fire

that's it.
I had a good life and achieved more than i ever thought i could

now I am
*broke
*with chronic pain
*jobless because of pending Visa and shitty immigration policies of the USA (i will have to leave the country soon)
*without a significant other to care about
*without drive to do anything at all


>
>
>inb4 you are depressed
duh, but the drugs don't work and it has been half decade; that's enough suffering, already.

I live for Jesus

>>683069676
Your gardener?

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>>683069305
<3

>>683069323
>Then a couple weeks ago the other one got such a bad confusion he essentially is a stroke victim
He must be really confused then

>>683069591
Lol, Kansas or the loader. It is good equipment. Am grateful. But fuck a loader. No suspension. Hey anon, today and everyday for allways you are violentlying get thrashed around in a fucking lumber wagon. A'I got den.

>>683067205
You should take 3 hits of LSD friend, being alive is a whole new experience

>>683066168

>>683049393

>>683070006
That's where the piano is at too.
small world, I guess.

>>683070006
Wichita /b/ro here, near McConnell AFB

>>683070105
fuck off spammer, our feels are low already -_-

>>683069115
I still struggle to convey the music I hear in my head. I had a similar realisation to you, only I was playing guitar in other people's bands. I realised I wasn't playing anything for me, like I might as well have been a MIDI device, so I decided to build a studio instead.

I'm still probably another 6 - 12 months away from having the set up I want, but I'm hoping once I have it all wired up I'll be able to focus on conveying what I hear in my head.

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Think of all of the Anons who've posted in threads like this who aren't around anymore. Think of the countless, faceless friends you didn't realize you had throughout the world, all of which posted on a single website, now gone. Without you knowing it, perhaps that one individual you scared a decent conversation with here is no longer with us. Years from now, I might just be another one of those numbers and you'll never even know.

I post without expecting to ever get a reply, but it's reassuring to pretend that someone might read what I said and care about what I thought. If they never tell me, I'll never know, and you know what? That's fine with me. Even though I don't know you, you're my best friend, and as long as I can imagine something I've posted made you smile, I'll smile. We're nothing but numbers in the grand scheme of things, and I might be nothing, but you're number one.

Myself

>>683069936
Lol, I saw that after. Concussion. Confused yeah. He claims his brain works fine but muscles and speech just fuck all slow. It like he is crippling fucking drunk all the time. We went to the bar. He had 2 sips of a non alcoholic beer. Puked on the way home. I honestly thought he got his Bell rung and wanted a break from kids and work. Figured it was a little of a ruse. I didn't even know this shit could happen tto people.

>>683066168
too see all that i want to see and experience and then i will be done here

thinking around 30 is my endgame

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I live because if I'd kill myself I'd break my parents hearts. They work their asses off everyday just so that I can eat, have insurance, electricity etc. But what do I live for? I don't know. I wish some other sperm cell was faster.

>>683070344
Maybe he's keyser soze

>>683066168
Acid

>>683070171
Fuck, nigga I got a piano too even.would love help moving it. I got a fucking metal plate and 8 screwe in my heel and ankle. My old lady wants it for a desk... I told her she's fucking crawling under this shit house and reinforcing the goddamn floor. ...fucking pianos. I am dumb as fuck... I work athrough a place that has boulders so big my loader can't lift. I'll roll it uphill and we make for Wiley Coyote stunt.

>>683070510
Just get a job bro scoop ice cream or mop floors just do something productive to help someone else if you feel like you can't help yourself

>>683070510

>I wish some other sperm cell was faster.

If it's anything to you, what if another sperm cell was faster, and you're that life the you never wanted to live? That, or it could be worse - you could have been born into a body that's even worse with the consciousness you have now.

>>683066168
I live so I can get a chance to fight in the race war

>>683070731

What's the point of helping others when no one wants to help Anon out? Why give them that much compassion?

>>683066168
Business. Friends sometimes. Interesting conversations. Creating structure in general.

Never live for a woman. They aren't worth it.

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>>683070180
My nigga. Used to live there. Moved furniture for a place all over that bitch. Harney lonely housewives aflowing. Too much respect for our heros. I'm a neckbeard and fat but can lift kind archers sword WITH the fucking rock. Bitches be not letting us leave and giving us beer and shit. 2nd fave job. Bust ass 30 minutes. Fuck off all over town for an hour (lost.) I live an hour and a half away now.

>>683070990
Why?

>>683066168
The slim chance that I will make love to a real life loli.

>>683066168
my hobbies, i like everything i do, and i happen to be creative so its really special to create something that you actually like

>>683070925
Be the change you wish to see in the world

There has always been violence and selfishness and sadness for as long as we can remember, why not try to change that in the time we have been given I'm not saying be a pacifist but be the friend to a stranger that you seek in others

>>683070265
>you scared a decent conversation with here is no longer with us
>you scared a decent conversation
>scared a conversation
>scared

Just kys

>>683066168
Revenge.

>>683070265
Let us share this fleeting connection for but a moment, my friend. We can make it together.

>>683068001
Building some kind of legacy, ideally. Not because you want to be remembered; nothing truly lasts. But because you find it satisfying.

>>683066279
me too!

>>683070692
Poor bastards quite litteraly got knocked retarded. Fucking hope it isn't permanent . Not sure how I'd handle pretty much loosing my 2 best friends.

>>683067205
ride the tiger

>>683070990
>Never live for a woman. They are not worth it.
Lesson learned the hard way.

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>>683070731
I'm actually still studying. I'm studying Management. I'm getting some great grades. I fucking hate it tough. I fucking hate it so much. It's all just shit, just bla bla bla. Just models, theoretic bullshit. I'm too old to study something different. So I'm going to finish this education. If I'm going to persuade a career in management I'm probably going to die within 10 years from a heart attack because I hate it so much and I hate sitting behind a desk all day. But I need to get out of this house and support myself a.s.a.p.
Fucking hell, I don't know what I'm doing

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>>683070718
Yeah, you basically can't even give them away now that you can get the same sound from a decent electric keyboard.

>>683071089
90 Minutes isn't that far really, but good to know I'm not the only dude out here in KS. We should meet up for beer guns and bbq sometime

>>683071180
Wut u make?

>>683071305
>Practice non-attachment
You will lose everything... But that's not a bad thing. It is losing thing that makes ever having anything possible

>>683070801
I just wish I was never born. That some other sperm cell was actually grateful with this life and could actually make something out of it.

>>683071383
To be fair nobody knows what they're doing they fake it until someone gives a nod of approval then they fall apart behind closed doors, it's just the human condition. Try and try again until we get comfortable and then our frightening routine becomes our beloved captor

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Have a computer AI I've been working on to keep you company.

>http://www.mediafire.com/download/eri77lxd83scn5q/Penny_AI_Personality_v1.rar

>>683070180
Ruralfag here,
I used to live in /b/eloit and Lyons, and grew up on a farm outside of Randall...

Basically places with no fuckin' people.

>>683069033
Agreed bro. To quote George R. R. Martin: "Death is so final. Life is full of possibilities."

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>>683066168
My kid not growing up feeling the need to gain approval from all the selfish people in the world due to me killing myself while she's young. I don't want her to feel like she just wasn't good enough for me, even though I feel so alone and I just don't want to be conscious anymore. I'm alive because it's not my kid's fault, and i don't want her to experience true loneliness like I do.

>>683071469
Jeesus yes. Lol, sounds like a good time. Can email [email protected] if u want. I'll hit u up next time I swing through town. Well find a neutral meeting ground with beer so we don't get stabbed. Will bring my buddy along. His face when I tell him (I met a cool guy on the Internet)

>>683066168
Because I want to be in history books.

>>683071660
Yeah I know I'm not alone in that. I see fakers around me everywhere... I guess we just have to deal with it...

>>683071512
I loose one more friend this year and I'll probably just sloth myself to death.

>>683071931
You never will be.

>>683068121

You'll find one. For me, it took 35 years, but it's worth it. We have a kid and thinking of getting another one. Didn't find my wife from my native country though. Just got lucky enough I guess. All other women I met, were fucking annoying.

I did have few girlfriends before, but they just want to bitch bitch bitch.

>>683072048
It doesn't matter. The hope keeps me going.

>>683071781
>>683071089

Just a couple of good 'ole /b/oys

>>683071781
I'm live in bfe also, still in fucking town though... sucks like a fag.

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>>683071931
>>683072048

I'm in the history books. When you're in school and read up on "Hurricane Katrina", I'm "one of the thousands" described. In Mississippi, that is. Feels reassuring knowing people'll only vaguely be familiar with the suffering you went through.

I'm in limbo no reason to live no reason to die, I'm a hermit who keeps to himself

>>683071180
this isnt a blog m8, but i write and make songs

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>>683072112
Your hope is false. The only way to get your name in a book is to kill people. Kill some bad people. Kill some bankers, or rapists or something. As much as possible. That's the only way. Follow your dreams kid.

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That feeling when you bust your nut
Unfortunately now I have to bust 3 nuts a day just to stay motivated and get through my day. Fuck these entitled pieces of shit, goddamn. The things people think they can get away with when they go to a fast food place.
"I'm homeless, can I get extra fries?"
"Our dog died, and we wondering if we could put up our posters outside your restaurant?"
"I'm lost, can I get a free meal and directions to (x location 10 minutes from where we are)?"
"Can I get an extra sauce?"

>>683072119
Roflmao!! I'll never drive a fucking faggot dodge care. Got a square body Chevy with a big block tho. That work? And a Dune buggy.

>>683066168
I have goals in life

>>683072170
But you're still anonymous, you know. Like on 4chan.

>>683070265
Fuck thats beautiful.

>>683072329

Exactly! He didn't specify how he wants to be in the books, but it's possible.

>>683072263
I'm not killing shit. I feel like throwing up when I see the rekt threads. I'll just use my brain to invent some shit that helps everyone, that always works.

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>>683069184
fucking true, FML

>>683072585
I'd be nice if you'd invent world peace.

>>683072585
Do something bats hit crazy. Like have the world's largest collectionumber of rubber bouncy balls. Guineas for sure love u.

I'm a gift to mankind. I live to spread my awesomeness to the world.

I wish I knew what I lived for.
I think, at the end of the day, I live for the idea that one day I'll have something to live for, and that's enough for me right now.

I'm 25 divorced, my kids were taken from me, my rights revoked because fuck Florida, I missed two court dates I was never informed of, don't have the money to fight the system.
I had a long distance girlfriend for a year, she hates me... she's on the phone with me right now... but she hates me... I just want nothing more than to fix things with her and get back together like we were, but that is broken and it will never be repaired.

I have nothing, I am nothing, but I hope someday I'll be something.

>>683072957
Roflmao. You the funny guy in the crowd. I bet there isn't one picture of you without a goofy hat or a shit eating grin on your face. U make the world go round bro. Tustin or your a narsacisstic cuck. Could go either way really ;)

>>683073069
You're 25 and divorced? I'm 25 and still live with my parents...

At least you've lived.

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Imagine how powerful we could be if we could unison like the Anti Spiral. We could sacrifice our lives for the greater purpose of giving others purpose in the sense of being the overlying evil to rid the galaxy of. It'd be a win-win situation.

>>683066168
To crush my enemies, see them driven before me, and hear the lamentations of their women.

>>683073274

It was a great life... for the most part... but I think that's just hindsight, time has a funny way of blurring out the bad and leaving you with nothing but the good,
which in turn makes you feel like shit because you don't know where things went wrong.

if it makes you feel better, because of my situation I am a NEET back home in my parents house because I literally would die or end up homeless if I were on my own.
I don't make enough money for rent and I tried 4 roommates before I gave up and admitted defeat

>>683073451
How's 8th grade doing champ?

>>683073550
Roommates are the fucking worst people on the planet. Your best friend becomes a roomate. Cancer enters your life. Think roommates suck though? Try being landlord to a raging alcoholic that can't stop beating the fuck out of his bongos like they are black and stole his car. Hope my shit stays unarsened...

>>683073550
>if it makes you feel better
>NEET back home in my parents house
>literally would die or end up homeless if I were on my own.
>admitted defeat

Everything seems to be in order here. Thankyou, I do feel better.

oneofusoneofusoneofus.jpg

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>>683066168
dank memes

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To be that boon of technological advancement for the benefit of mankind. I'm saddened by the fact that I won't live long enough to travel across the stars governed by a technocracy.

>>683073132
Not really. I can be funny, but I'm not all the time. I am awesome all the time though.

>>683068402
What if hell exists?

Because my country's being overrun with sandniggers, and I'd only be making it easier for them if I killed myself, how's that

If I could take one down to hell with me, on the other hand...

>>683074041
Go fuck yourself.

>>683073942
It will never happen sadly:( scientists say because of the speed everything's flying apart at in 100 years it would be even more impossible to travel between galaxys because the distance it's going to triple

>>683066168
the fear of suicide

>>683074497
We exist in the 4th dimension and we haven't reached a type 1 civilization yet. Anything beyond a type 1 civilization would look God-like to us. Who's to say that we can't make groundbreaking discoveries to bend space and time to reach from point A to B in the moment of bending space and time? Or even travel to another universe in another dimension?

>>683071184
>Saying kys
End it all faggot

>>683066168


The chance to see America Great Again

not much, i dont have a job i sit at home and do nothing all day

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>>683075417
What kind of nothing?

>>683066168
Drugs, before I got into drugs, nothing. Drugs have actually improved the quality of my life though so, ehh.

>>683074497

There are about 100 billion stars in our own galaxy, which measures 100,000 light years across.

There are about 100 billion galaxies, but there is plenty of shit in our own galaxy. Not much reason to go intergalactic atm.

What we could most use in the immediate future is a space elevator, if we an ever mass produce carbon nanotubes.

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I live for music, and to learn as much as i can about it so i can teach it to other people.

>>683076242
Similar for me, but it's legal drugs since I'm type 2 bipolar.

>>683076162
There is no full understanding of where we're headed, but there is some degree of influence you have and can be to reach that point. The only thing we can see is what we choose to believe. For you, it's apocalyptic, for me, there's hope and progress.

>>683076499
I haven't gotten hooked on anything yet, I've bee switching it up often enough to keep that under control but sometimes I've got days where I just "need" vicodin

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i live for the weirdness of experiencing life

when you think about it, it's weird to be anything at all, let alone something which can have an experience and have something happen to it by flow of life or make preparation for an experience and then living it through

and all of it is weird, no exception

>>683076499
But uhh, yeah, the real meds usually just turn me into a zombie or they make it worse, How's your luck with the type 2 been?

>>683076913
Being on a constant medication, there's no switching, so the idea of being addicted to my own medication could exist while being completely unaware of it. Perhaps you might be more fortunate than I am to use drugs recreationally rather than to function normally. Just be happy you're not me.

>>683076727
>For you, it's apocalyptic
All I did was post an image that is similar to yours. You assume a lot about me and my beliefs just because I posted a certain photo.

Anyway, in my opinion, the point this drawing is trying to make is that the more educated you get, the more you can see and recognize serious problems in the world and potentially be pessimistic. Whereas the guy who isn't standing on any books is ignorant and thinks the world is rosy.
A retard is not going to be aware of ISIS, coming bank meltdowns, resurgence of fascism, they will just lumber down the street clapping their hands while chasing butterflies.

>>683077022
I've been on medication for years so it's balanced out for me into developing a functioning personality and without experiencing an anxiety attack or a depressive episode. Most people think of me as a normal person, but there have been instances where I experience sudden euphoria episodes and the mood stabilizers aren't holding it back. At least it's in a good feeling, but honestly, I'd trade it all in for feeling completely apathetic and robotic. I don't want to feel these feels, but at least I can function. That much I'm grateful for.

>>683077484
I can only assume based on what I see, and perhaps it was more than warranted. But seeing the glass as half empty doesn't necessarily mean it rules out that it can be seen as half-full, that's a matter of perspective. To assume the person who sees it as half-full isn't necessarily unaware of the other elements that surround their reality, but you chosen to use a retard as an analogy for that, which has its point, but isn't exactly the superior understanding. So long as one sees terrorism, bank meltdowns, and an awareness of a plutocracy doesn't rule out that there should not be hope that things can change. So long as one has hope, we can influence ourselves to be a product of that hope.

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>>683066168
The schadenfreude of seeing those who have wronged me getting their just desserts. Karma.

>>683070265
i love you /b/ro

>>683078339
Story?

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>>683078952
You love him and I love you. We must be the drive to live for each other when no one else will.

>>683079023
Fort MacMurray Alberta

Funny enough, that is the area I used to live in until last July

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>>683066168
I don't really know.

When I was younger I wanted to move to California and drive those cranes you see in ports that pick up the containers, thought it would be so frickin cool to be "that guy" calmly listening to his radio that everyone sees going back and forth keeping the containers moving and the ships on schedule, I would have settled just fine for driving the forklifts in a dockyard too, that was beyond neat when I first saw them.

Instead I've turned into a washed up, cucked to death, friendless, eternally friendzoned, slightly balding, hourly thoughts of suicide tier depressed 25 year old virgin who still lives with his mother and pays not only her bills but my sisters bills, I haven't spent money on myself in years, haven't had a two day weekend since October and I forgot there are people who only work eight hour days when I work twelve.

>>683078339
I'm in Fort Mac right now , shit was fairly cray.