Can we get a feels thread going tonight?20neet suicidal every daylost touch with
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Can we get a feels thread going tonight?
>20
>neet
>suicidal every day
>lost touch with all close friends
>family hate me
>loneliness is crippling
>live in a tiny town
>feel like I'm wasting my life
>struggling to find a job
>have opportunity to go back to school
>don't even want to go back to school
>will be in class with 16 year olds
>nothing else going on though
yes please
everything you said applies to me, you're not alone.
>>682381407
You're the kind of person I don't feel bad for.
>single hot middled agreed woman starts treating you like a son in the office
>start developing feelings for her after a while
>she becomes very close to you but stills sees you as a son
>yesterday make up my mind to try to be with her
>today she quits from work
I feel like shit right now
>tfw pedo
>go on musical.ly app often and follow a bunch of girls of age 8-15
>really enjoy seeing them sing and having a good time
>favorite muser posts new video
>super cute, comment saying "You are great!"
>she instantly blocks me
>she had only a few followers, don't remember her name, will never be able to look her up again
>never going to see her cute face and long blonde hair mouth to songs agajn
>become so enraged I start pacing my room cussing
Now Im more just sad then angry. Why did I have to comment? I should of wrote down her name. Why did she block me? Am I really that creepy? I just said her video was good. God damnit.
I'm going to be 19 next month and to this very day I've never even had a crush on a girl. I've never wanted anyone, ever. I really don't get it, I find women attractive and judging by the way they look and act around me they think I'm attractive but I've just never felt any desire to pursue any person I've ever met. I recently went to basic training and AIT and almost everyone I met was already married and here I am without even having had a crush. I feel so behind everyone. Does this ever go away? I really want to love but I just can't find anyone I like.
This isn't the only thing I'm missing out on either. I don't drink, I don't smoke, I don't party, nothing like that. I just never felt the desire to so I spend all my free time sitting in front of my keyboard. I wouldn't even describe myself as being sad, I'm usually pretty satisfied with myself until I start thinking about all of this. Has anyone else felt this feel?
>>682382461
My mom used to sing that to me. She died when I was 22. I heard it in a movie or something about a year after, broke down and cried until I felt empty.
>>682383413
age?
>>682382461
crying :(
>>682383413
What the fuck did you expect
Anyone else /lonely/ here? I know I am.
>>682383554
as a 20 year old who's mother sang this to him as well, this is concerning. I don't even like my mother that much but the thought of her just being gone one day is way more brutal than my father or a lot of things.
thanks for making me appreciate my mother a little bit more
>>682384178
Heres an idea, dont creep on little kids.
Now heres another idea, try finding a cute younger looking person your age so you fulfill your pedo needs
>>682384178
>>682384178
"Self-conceited...?" it's just conceited m80, the self is redundant
>shit soaked life anon
>>682384146
All the time.
>>682382461
Now I'm crying.
>>682383686
21, but based on my appearance people second look as young as 17–18. Im not ugly either, not to be self-conceited but Im not going to pretend Im not attractive. I know Im good looking.
I just don't get it.
On mobile, so I'm not gonna type much, but here's my story.
I have a younger brother who was diagnosed with severe autism. Tragically, my parents both died when I was about 22 and he was 8.
The question then became, who will raise my brother? I took on that role, as I love the kid. Promptly dropped out of school and began to go through the legal steps needed to be his guardian. It went smoothly, as nobody else was really fit to raise him in my extended family, and many wanted to have him placed in a mental institute, something I refuse to do.
Having severe autism makes it impossible for him to ever live independently. As a result, he's essentially a part of my daily life for the rest of his or my life. I take care of him during the day, and work overnight at Walmart, paying someone to call me if he wakes up and freaks out at night, where I have permission from my boss to leave in such emergencies.
I barely sleep as a result. I take naps if I can at work on break, and also take naps when he goes to his school for about 4 hours a day. Then I'm back, raising him.
I have no other life. I'm so tired...and alone. He's my only company really, and I love the guy and he loves me, but it's exhausting. I don't know how much longer I can take this, but I have to.
I don't really know why I'm posting this. I'm not asking for advice, I know I need to care for him, and I'm not seeking sympathy, I guess I just needed to vent a bit.
I'm just tired.
>>682384414
Is watching videos girls put out on the Internet really, "creeping"?
And Im trying dude. The super young looking ones are always taken first. It's not like I need to be with a super young girl, I just like watching. It just really makes me depressed one of my favorite girls blocked me. Seriously ruined my day. At least I follow other girls but I liked her.
>>682384349
I didn't get along with mine either. The last time we ever spoke, she was drunk. We argued, I yelled and punched a door, then left. That was on a Friday. I was planning on stopping by for dinner the Monday after, and apologizing, etc. My dad called me about an hour before I got there to tell me they were at the hospital. She never woke up, died three days later. I had nightmares for about six months, still get them once in a while. Don't go more than a day or two without regretting not mending that relationship.
>>682385369
I'm very sorry for your loss, this is one of my biggest fears.
>>682384146
Me too, Anon. Me too.
>>682386080
wanna talk?
>>682382038
Where from?
I love you all so much. Please anons we can't die tonight. Not this week. We can last a week, right? Even if we have no one or feel as though we have no one we can't die. We can't love but we can survive. God fucking damn it /b/ros why does choosing life always have to be so difficult? It's lofe for fuck's sake! Millions of people unconsciouly choose life every day so why can't we just LIVE FOR FUCKS SAKE I JUST WANT TO LIVE IS THAT SO MUCH TO ASK FOR
Is it really
I dont want to die guys.
But every day it seems like a better and better choice. Good luck to all of you who read this. And good night
I hate myself so much. I'm such a lazy fuck. I do nothing, feel nothing, and don't really care about anyone but my brother. I think I need to find a girl to start caring about, but how can I be in a relationship and care about somebody else when I don't even care about myself?
>>682386559
Love you too anon. Stay strong, we are here to talk.
i cant sleep
>>682386705
It's not about knowing to care for yourself anon, when it comes to someone particularly that sets off this almost fire in your soul, you will learn to care for yourself and the other person. The only thing that sucks is that once it is over, you stop caring even more
>>682385958
I learned the lesson too late, but I learned it. Treat the people you care about like you may never see them again. Eventually, you'll be right. Let your parents know you love them for trying, even if they fucked up all the time. Same with siblings. When you find someone you care about, don't go to bed or leave angry. Take a good long look at the people in your life. Ask yourself how you'd feel if each of them died tonight. If you'd have regrets, then think about that and fix it. We don't get many second chances, /b/ros.
Fuck my life, /b/ros. I fucked up my best bro's relationship, nearly fucking ruining our friendship... I'm so fucking done with life, I've been doing this kind of shit my whole life... why do I even try...
>>682387298
May I ask what happened?
why do i hold everything inside? i constantly blow up at my bf about small things and ruin his day. he tells me the best part of his day is talking to me but half the time I get frustrated and take out all my anger on him which results in both of us being distant.
Just remember /b/ros, it could always be a lot worse.
>>682381407
> 22nd birthday
> have therapy in 13 hours
> bipolar
> gf of 5 years somehow feels both smothered by affection and emotionally unsupported
> half my friends are busy all the days I can have a party, including gf
> haven't had sex in half a year
> on track to fail out of university
>>682387291
Know that your Mom knew you loved her. Sure in her last moments she knew you were mad but overall her entire life she knew that you loved her and in her deathbed knew that your fight was just a passing moment
>>682388078
Thanks bro. I hope so. I tell myself that a lot. It's one of the things that keeps me going.
>>682387867
I don't care if it could be a lot worse. This is bad enough to make me want to die. How can it even get worse than that?
>>682387759
Long story short:
>Best friend gets GF about 2-3 weeks ago
>I've known her for a while, she has depression and multiple personalities, as well as a shitty hone situation, but is otherwise amazing.
> I've been trying to help her out with her mental issues for a while now
>find out recently she's developed feelings for me
>ohfuck.gif
>Try to make things work between the 2 of them, fails miserably
>They broke up today, apparently she told him she never really loved him and that he was just an "experiment".
>Feel like there was something I could've said or done to prevent this.
The fact I have severe depression doesn't exactly help matters... Fucking hell, this is why Monday's suck...
>>682384757
upload another pic.
>>682388642
Btw, he doesn't blame me at all, but I still feel like I hurt him a lot and let him down...
>>682388590
You could be in a third world shit hole where literally everyday is torture and mental pain.
Not saying your pain isn't serious, but really, if you hang out in gore/rekt threads, its scary shit.
>>682388727
I think if he doesn't blame you, you're alright. I wouldn't put so much blame on yourself, you tried to do that right thing, and that's what counts anon. Sometimes things just don't work out.
>>682388846
But that isn't his life. He's at his own low, and those problems are still valid.
>>682388895
Eh, I guess... I don't know, I just feel like shit over this entire situation... I feel like if I never got involved, this never would've happened... God, I'm so tempted to break my no self-harm streak...
>>682388642
So basically
>friend gets gf
>gf loses interest in friend cause she likes you
>dumps bf
>you do nothing and she fucks off
Come on dude, what did you do wrong? You didn't pick her up after or lead her on. It was the best possible solution that could of happened. You are not at fault for other people's feelings.
>>682389148
Look, this girl is a fucking mess dude. The fact she'd be cold enough to tell your friend he's an "experiment" is heartless. Don't let that bitch be the reason you hurt yourself. She's not worth it.
>>682383413
degenerates like you belong on a cross
>>682383538
You are better off
>>682389332
I know I did nothing wrong... I'm honestly just blaming myself for her starting to like me in the first place...
>>682389471
I know she's not worth my fucking time. It's just that I've been trying so hard to help them both, and to be the reason it all failed fucking breaks my heart. He's my fucking bro, ya know? I'd die for this bitch if I had to.
>>682389582
How can someone just ignore their father like this? Just imagine whats going through his head. This fucking gets me, I'm having children in the next month or so and if they treat me like this I will die of sadness
>>682389582
I came here to feel, not rage.
>>682389864
>tfw dad was an asshole to me as a kid
>got drunk
>shouted at me
>tried to hit me and shit for no reason
>left when i was around 7
>he now tries to contact me and talk to me like that
It breaks my heart but i don't respond sometimes
>>682381407
Thats exactly what i am doing right now, i have every opportunity to do stuff but the motivation is just not there
>>682390628
learn to forgive, my dad was like that except that he didn't leave. He's your father try to make amends, he probably changed his life for you. Give him a chance please
>>682390828
>he probably changed his life for you.
He didn't, whenever i meet him now he's drunk as can be and shouting/aggressive
He ruined my life when i was young and has had a great part in me becoming socially inept. I want to like him.
>>682384906
you're doing a great thing man
>>682383538
What's your MOS? /b/rother?
And I feel you're feel man I do.
>>682389731
That image made me lol
>>682391041
Have you talked to him about his tendencies? If so what was the response?
This is the first time I've really shared this with anyone, I'm trying not to break out in tears while typing this up
>be me
>17 years old at time
>dating this girl
>been dating for 3 years at this point
>anniversary comes up
>gives me a red bandana
>tells me whenever I feel alone to hold it up to me
>says that she'll always be with me when I do that
>fast forward a few months
>18 now
>graduation day
>wait for her for a bit
>doesn't show
>think she is running late
>try calling her
>no answer
>getting really nervous she won't make it in time
>principle calls me up before it starts
>hands me diploma
>tells me he needs to talk
>find out my she died on her way over to graduation
>fast forward a few days
>funeral happens
>starts raining
>stay there all day/night refusing to leave
>still holding that bandana
>eventually join military to straighten life up
>fast forward to present
>22 years old
>been to Japan, Australia, New Zealand, South Korea, Thailand and more
>still had that bandana on me the whole time
>tfw as type this I'm still holding it
>tfw I can't move on even though I tried to
>tfw I don't I ever will be able to
Pic related
>>682391219
Thanks, you're the first person to tell me that in a long time.
>>682382461
>sunshine
i love you grandma. i'm sorry i was such a little brat to you. i miss you.
>>682382461
>mom and I used to sing this together all the time
>even in my teenage years
>mom passes away at 16
>tfw I lost my sunshine
>>682384764
You're disgusting and should kill yourself
>>682391041
Please talk to him , my dad is dead and this breaks mi fucking heart
>>682381407
Go back to school OP, thanks me in 10 years. Also, go back to school and be the alpha and pick up all the 16 year olds, you'll even be cool with the older kids which will further solidify your in with your grade. Just bring cigarettes and kids will flock to you as the mysterious older dude.
>>682387889
Hahaha cuck
>>682393766
>Someone is different from me
>Kill yourself!
>>682394170
stahp
>>682389258
cant even imagine something like that
>>682394255
>Being sad due to underage girls blocking you because you are a fucking creep.
>>682394255
You enjoy fantasing about defenceless children. You are subhuman. Kill yourself.
>>682394341
Fuck
>>682392700
Damn anon...
My grandma passed away yesterday. My mom found her on the floor at her house. She had just gotten home Thursday after being in a rehab center for 2 months because she fell down. She was doing better. She was in good spirits. It doesn't make any sense. Gonna drink tonight.
>>682392700
Fuck anon..
>>682394341
please, give me a break.
It was so heartbreaking she had to screen-cap it and put it on facebook for likes.
Fuck you fags
>>682384764
>I just don't get it.
Are you actually attempting to understand an underage girl?
Good luck.
>>682394768
>THE PURE INNOCENT CHILDREN :(((((
Get real. These girls know exactly what they doing. If they don't want me jerking off to them then they should put on makeup and shaking their ass.
>>682395223
To be fair to them, Anon, they want boys their age jerking off to them, not full grown men.
can I have a hug please?
>>682395364
That's not how it works. Putting something in the public is for everyone.
You can't select who views it.
I'm like all you true feelers. I lost the girl I loved more than my own life to another man. I fell into the deepest darkness one can fall to. I'm a recovering alcoholic, college dropout, who has spent time in jail because he can't control himself. I finally found a job that I absolutely love though. My coworker is the most amazing woman I have ever met. Of course, she's in a serious relationship. I'm diagnosed schizo on top of all that. But I'm happier than I've ever been in my life. I found a job I love. The people in my life support me and are incredible. I've hit rock bottom and made the resolution to use everything in my life to create a better me. I know how bad life can suck, but I'm on the other side and have come back to tell my /b/rothers that it gets better. So hold on. One more day, one more week, one more month, one more year. Ultimately only you can get through the fire you're living in, but I'm here to tell you that you can. So hold on. There's something on the other side if only you go and get it.
>>682394067
>mysterious older dude
Top kek. Cheers man.
>>682392700
Dude..this one's for you.
>>682387819
Ya I've had a gf that did that. She needed the relationship bout a month ago. He loves you regardless, but it is slowly killing him.
>>682394934
Cheers to you, mate. Be safe, whatever you do. Drink until you're dead, but be safe. Don't risk putting someone else through your pain, no matter how "sober" you think you are. I speak from (almost) experience.
>>682381407
do you live in idaho
>>682396115
Thanks anon, it feels good to let that out for once
>>682396315
Don't worry mate. I'm sitting safely in front of my home computer. Cheers.
>>682396505
Good man. I wasn't you. Still paying g the price almost a year later. You need a friend tonight, I'm here for you. Unload whatever you'd like.
>shit soaked life anon
>>682396471
Probably one of the best things to do. Love you /b/ro.
I have a 10 page paper due tomorrow and I find that I lack the ability to care or do anything about it. I don't care about anything, I just feel like the there is a big emptiness in me. All I really think about is how I'm going to die one day and that my existence is meaningless. I feel like I was born in the wrong time or place, like I'm not supposed to be here. What is wrong with me?
>>682384906
Thats really admirable.
Have you ever thought about looking for someone to take care of him when you are at work? Someone especialized would be best and would help you a lot.
>>682396955
Love you too /b/ro.
>>682397097
Fuck whatever you're doing now. Take the time to figure out what you're truly passionate about and pursue that, with or without schooling.
>>682389864
I do this to my mother constantly.
Thats what happens when you're an abusive drunk.
Your kids fucking ignore you.
>>682397097
You're intelligent enough to understand the reality of your situation. Nothing is wrong with you.
Stop what you're doing and figure out what makes you happy. Nothing else means a damn thing.
>>682395922
Good to know that you are doing ok bro, keep it up!
I feel no remorse for you. She did the right thing. Ide beat someone half to death if i saw someone do something similar
>>682397836
Man, I used to spend every day searching /b/ for feels threads. I'd join when it was fresh and go until it closed down. You all helped me so much, and I have to repay that. I'm here for anyone who seeks help.
>>682396635 just sick and tired of being looked at like im from a different planet. I try to be myself and be genuine with people but at 19 everyone i know is just completely fake. Have never been able to connect with anyone..... Dropped out of highschool sophomore year because of my drug usage. After a year and a half of being out of school all i would do is try to find the next thing i could do to get fucked up on and disassociate further from reality and responsibility. Inmet a girl who I really liked and i fucked it all up then I tried to OD on xanax and oxy and a handle of captain. Dont remeber the 4 days after i took them but apparently i came pretty close. Life did get somewhat better further down the road but it stills feels hollow and meaningless i try to do things i enjoy and keep a PMA...thoughts?
That's what makes it so strange, I feel like I have some sort of purpose in this world, its the only belief that I have. But I don't know what it is or how to find it. I guess I'm just waiting for it to reveal itself to me, I just don't know if I'll ever see it or find it.
mfw I make the thread and barely anyone replies to me
>>682392700
Jesus /b/ro
That's rough
I recently got an concussion. This is my second one. If i get a third one I'm fucked. I can't keep playing the only sport that keeps me happy. I'm already pretty much a vegetable. I can't barely speak without stuttering. I can't remember half of my childhood memories. I was at my grandma's funeral last week. I didn't cry, I barely teared up. I know that I love her very much. My parents told me a story of when I was a kid I would help her with shining furniture and sewing on loose buttons. I can't remember anything about her. I remember having a dog. She died 2 years ago. I see pictures of her and I remember crying at her euthanasia. I don't remember anything about her either. I just want to go back to having a normal brain and knowing why I care for my family.
>>682398764
feels thread not attention whore thread
>>682383413
I don't know this feel
>Be me
>professional jockey
>My brother's dead
>he was the best jockey
>he died because a mouse that i release scare the horse
>years have passed
>my boots are broken
>going to my brother's room for his boots
>Dad sees me
>Don't let me take the boots
>today's a competition
>father refuses to go and see me
>we start to fight for the boots
>he stumbles and collides with cabinet
>Dad start to cry and says
>"God... you took the wrong son..."
>I leave the house and i change my name
>>682398384
I'm 23 on Friday. I was pretty similar to you. I'm still prone to looking for my next fix. I was super dependant on relationships to carry me through my issues. I got super fucked up when my fiancé ended things. I'm a year single, today actually, as ironic as that is. It's taken me this long, and some really amazing people in my life, to find who I truly am. My suggestion to you is to really spend time both sober and alone. Figure out who you truly are, what you like, what you want. I still love drugs, but I've realized that in the real world I can't function on them, so I need something else to get me through. That's what my passions are for. Once you find those, pursue them. You can find a way. Like I've said, I'm a college dropout, but I've found a way to succeed in my passions without one. Having something you truly care about helps to, not forget, but at least move on past the pain. The past is the past man, only you can make the future. future. Choose to make it a good one.
>shit soaked life anon
I got another story for you. Different than the one I've already shared that made enough people cringe and how I earned that name.
>be me
>learn grandpa is dying of brain tumor
>don't believe it
>continue to see him as much as possible
>at home one day
>"anon, grandpa passed away."
>never got to tell him one last time that he meant so much to me
>always used to misunderstand everything I did as a kid
>didn't care, made it better
>man was my idol
>place picture in wallet
>got new wallet, promptly put picture in new wallet
>still have picture in wallet to this day
Will have been 10 years in August since his passing. Love you grandpa.
>>682399070
That sounds about right for me. Peace out guys heading to bed
>>682399232
Lucky. Its a terrible feel
>>682398294
Yeah, I really enjoy these threads aswell. They help making me feel a better when im a bit depressed.
I like to read the stories in here, and even more, stories like yours, where you struggled but made it. Stories like yours give people strength believe it or not.
>>682384906
You should train him to suck you off
I see all these anons posting "don't die tonight....we can't die tonight...I can't die tonight".... well jokes on you /b/ro....I'm already dead inside
I need a hug, anons
>>682398764
I was in the same position as you 8 years ago bro.
Only advice I can give to you is run.
Get the fuck out and run like hell. Take only what you can carry and never look back.
I joined the military to escape but I missed a lot of important life lessons because of that.
Find a new city and start again. Of you don't know what you want. You gotta take a leap
>>682399560
It's been a year since I truly was fucked up. It's taken a long time, but I'm finally getting better. I realize now what it takes to get better, and I know I need to help my /b/ros the way they helped me. Pass on what you've gained, it's the only way we survive.
I just want to let you all know. Someone cares about you, someone constantly thinks about you. Don't be afraid to love. Don't let past mistakes could your every thought. Stop blaming yourself for things out of your control. Find something that makes you happy and pursue it. This life if your story. Make it beautiful, and above all don't let someone else write it.
Times will be tough, it will seem as no one is there for you and it may feel crippling. But sometimes it's the little things that help the most. Like venting your bottled up feelings or fears on an anonymous board. My only hope is I can touch one of you. Who knows maybe I'm typing away for nothing or maybe it will help one of you through whatever it is you're going through.
Stay safe anon
>>682391009
Holy fucking shit.
>>682399560
These threads are the main reason I come to /b/. I feel incredibly sad and lonely, see a feels thread, relate to all the /b/ros in it. Sure I still hang out with friends but there's a special place for you guys
I'm not giving up on any of you.
This isn't how your story ends.
You aren't broken.
You just lost the light.
You are now in a place where you think all there is left is a dark abyss, waiting to suck you in.
You are so wrong.
You are a strong person.
You can get out.
You made it this far.
You have to push further.
You have to draw strength from the pain.
You will want to collapse most days.
You must power through.
You can't let the doubt in, not even once.
You can do it.
You.
Will.
Make it.
>>682399813
*hugs*
I hope you feel better, anon.
>>682400475
Not the one you responded to (the one he responded to) but I wanted to agree. You phrased it perfectyly. There's my friends, and then there's the honesty I share with you guys. The world may hate this board, but /b/ is forever family.
>>682395789
They don't know that coz they're fucking children?
I have a 12 year old daughter. She is the reason I live and breathe. She does gymnastics and on the way home she likes to get takeout because she's tired from gymnastics and its late so its just easier + I like spending time with her. But lately it creeps me out because she wears tights for gym, and slowly I am growing to dread walking into anywhere with her because all the seedy old fucks will stare at her and the last I had a go at somebody for it she got scared of me. So I can't do anything.
That might all seem quite irrelevant but im getting there. People like you are the reason I worry about taking her out, because she genuinely doesn't understand why old guys stare at her. She's too nice to ever say anything about it until we're already on our way home. She doesnt see herself as sexy or whatever, she's just a kid. All she knows is some old persons staring at her and making her feel uncomfortable. So that's why they get defensive mentalities towards old dudes that like or comment on their stuff. Because they learn from the second they look old enough for some pedo to find attractive that men (not boys) make them uncomfortable.
I get you've got a fucking illness. But people like you are the reason I pick her up from school and don't like her being late. I get scared that some dude from a website like here spent too long jerking it and wanted the real thing.
So do the world a favour; seek help and sort your shit out or kill yourself.
>>682388642
You're a fucking retarded mess. This bitch has a million red flags, there is no way she's amazing, you just have low standards due to low self esteem.
>>682401124
Well said dude. That guy you replied to is fucked up. Nobody should have to fear their daughter walking around. Unfortunately it's inevitable. I'm sure you're a good dad and can teach her all the right shit to deal with it.
>>682401124
>So do the world a favour; seek help and sort your shit out or kill yourself.
Not possible to get help since if you admit the attraction counselors HAVE to report it instead of actually helping you.
Although listening to your story did help put in some perspective for me.
>>682381930
is this from a movie or anything?
>>682401875
The thing is man I get its probably not even his fault and he can't help it or whatever. I just hate being scared every time she goes somewhere. She's old enough that I need to let her walk to her friends houses and stuff if she wants to, but to me she stills seems so little, and hardly a threat to someone who wanted to hurt her.
>>682401124
We have the 2nd amendment for a reason.
>>682402028
Yeah sorry I realize that was probably a little harsh. I know you can't help it. I genuinly wish there was something for you guys to help because I understand you're not necessarily bad people... You've just, got a problem or whatever. I've got bipolar so I get it in a really small sense. I'm just scared for my daughter. This is a feels thread after all, shouldn't be shooting people down.
>>682401073
Middle guy here. Yeah i agree with you both. I talk to my friends but its not the same. Im not a person who talk about his personal stuff too much, its very hard for me to let it out when im feeling like shit, and theres hardly anyone i can trust enough to talk about my feelings. Here, its different, I know i can talk freely and there will be people who would relate. Its a different kind of feedback, a more honest one and thats what really helps.
>>682381407
http://www.strawpoll.me/10023492
>>682394170
I still cry to this
>>682403837
Nah you are good. I feel like if I had a daughter I could see myself feeling similar to you, especially since I understand the attraction very well.
I understand I have to make an effort to bury the attraction, because as time goes by I've only made it worse by feeding it.
>shit soaked life anon here
>>682401073
>>682404108
Thanks guys. I have never been bothered by you guys judging me based on what my life is like. /b/ros have been through everything and nothing, to the ends of the abyss and back, just to share their experiences and give insight into the situation.
>>682402872
Chasing Amy
And it's "Please know:"
>>682381407
online school is your friend dude, you'll never have to even see another 16 year old. Try k12.com
You know what's a really good solution to stop being a faggot? Go outside and take a walk when you feel like a faggot. Do it everyday until you stop feeling like a faggot one day and then turn that walk into a jog. Maybe you can meet an actual person who appreciates you one day.
You know /b/, I remember being a kid and looking into the future and thinking about how great things would be when I got older. How I'd have a family and a nice job and a beautiful house.
And as I got older and things started going south, I could still always see the future and a glimmer of hope. I could still get things back on track.
But now for the first time in my life, I can't see that future. I'm 25 and I don't see anything 10 years from now. I'm not sure I'll make it till then.
I love you /b/ros you wouldn't keep secrets from me would you?
From some anon telling war stories
>>682408172
Got any more?
>shit soaked life anon here
>>682407683
I haven't kept any secrets from /b/. I've shown them who decided to shatter my heart and they have been completely honest in comments toward her. I give them the same honesty that I have been shown.
>Be me
>Depressed 18 year old Bro
>Nice car, somewhat attractive, good paying job, not a poorfag
>Multiple Auto Immune diseases causing hair to thin early, skin cancer 14 times, cariticonas (not sure how the fuck to spell that)
>Loner in Christian private school
>Matches with a mutual friend on Tinder
>Goes on a date In Austin
>Shes amazing.jpg
>Depression lifts for the first time I can remember (literal)
>We spend alot of time together in the following months going out, Raves, drugs, the like
>I fell in Love like I had never before
>She stops talking to me after dropping her off from a rave
>No reason.jpg
>When.that.depression.drops.MP3
>Went anorexic for around 3 months, one O.D. attempt, and 6 months nonsober
>Get on heavy dose of Prozac
>Moms dying, leg was hurt on the job and can't work, my best friend is gone in a desert far away.
>life Isn't looking up,
>No one I trust to talk to anymore.
>>682408172
That's rough
>>682409272
makes you think, doesn't it
all this macho war soldier killer bullshit
have fun braggin about your kills when you see their faces at night in bed
war is hell
>shit soaked life anon
>>682408955
let it out /b/ro. I can't guarantee you will feel better, but I'm sure there's someone in this thread that can give you some insight.
>>682387867
Sure. I actually have a good life. But 25 years has felt like such a long time. Whether happy, mad, sad, or angry, it really doesn't matter anymore.
>>682408955
Pic related BTW
>>682383413
In my idyllic society you would be crucified.
>>682407240
The reason you can't see it anymore is because you realized life isn't predictable. Right now you're mostly seeing it in a bad way. You didn't predict that shitty things were going to happen. Life just threw you a curveball.
But here's the deal.
Life is unpredictable in more ways than one. You could be walking down the road of complete and utter shit, then life throws you another curveball, except this one actually gets you hitting a homerun. It could be a girl you didn't even fathom to exist, and she just shows up uninvited into your life. It could be a call from a family member or a friend to spend some time that will mean the world to you. It could be a small event that you didn't really care about, then you go and it turns out to be the best night of your life.
Life isn't predictable, anon. If it was, maybe that would be a pretty great reason to kill yourself. What would be even the point in living if it worked that way?
No, the curveballs are precisely the reason to live. It's what makes life livable in the first place. Just keep hitting and waiting on those homeruns.
Also, never turn down opportunities that take you out of your comfort zone. Take chances. Doing that subjects yourself right into the realm of unpredictability.
I mean think about it, all of your favorite moments in your life, young or old, did you ever see them coming?
>>682410028
pretty girl man.
>>682410560
It's much too late for that.
>>682408955
Have you attempted to talk to her since then?
It sounds like it's been a while since then, so it could be a good time to reach out at least for confirmation.
I know this is going to sound cliche but no girl can pull you out. She'll only give you inspiration to pull yourself out, although you mistake it for it being her own work. You're the only one who can do that, in your own time.
>>666666666
This is the answer to everything /b/
>>682410456
And in mine, there would no longer be an age of consent. Whats your point?
>>682381407
20
Your Life just started, everything before 20 means jack shit.
>suicidal every day
You're free. You know life sucks. No more delusion of 'be happy everyday'. Your going to die one day and you want it to happen instead of living in denial. All that's left now is having fun. That's all life is about now, entertainment before the end. Been suicidal for the last 14 years.
>lost touch with all close friends
There are no true friends, only people that are fun to hang out with for a while. Find new friends.
>family hate me
So what. If you strip away the whole biological fact, do you even like your family? If they were strangers would you hang out with them? If they don't like you then fuck them and move on.
>loneliness is crippling
I've gone entire years without even speaking to people, I feel ya. If your lonely go out and force yourself to be around people. It's the only way.
>live in a tiny town
Big towns suck too, but just build cash to move if that's what you want.
>feel like I'm wasting my life
There is no purpose to life other than having fun. The only question you should ask yourself at the end of the day is did I have fun today?
>struggling to find a job
It's rough, but keep on. Don't turn down jobs 'below you'.
>have opportunity to go back to school
>don't even want to go back to school
>will be in class with 16 year olds
Unless you want to spend your life digging holes just get it over with. Stop worrying about people's opinions when it stops you from improving your life.
>nothing else going on though
I once loved a girl so much that in the end I can't love anymore. It's nice but also very dangerous.
>>682411017
You could be fucking 60 and it still isn't too late for that. Life never stops being life.
Although you can go ahead and wreck yourself by attempting to avoid unpredictability by locking yourself up in your room all day like a NEET. The more you take chances and go out, the more you insert yourself into unpredictability, the happier you'll be.
I know how it is though, it hurts like hell to leave that comfort zone. Make a friend who can pressure you to leave it. I'll do it for you if you need me to.
>>682411147
Attempted calls and texts just like any other day, her father accidentally texted me meaning to text her saying I left their house after I did some work for him. She kissed my friend in a bar bathroom a month later and told him she wasn't done fucking around.
>>682411580
>>isn't too late for that.
Unless your a pedophile or in the same criteria Then your pretty much fucked
>shit soaked life anon
good night /b/ros. Maybe see you guys in the next feels thread. Until then, best to you and love you /b/ros.
>>682411968
What are you even talking about?
Are you trying to say you're too old to go out with other people and have fun?
>>682381407
Sounds like me, but I have a job and a family that's somewhat sociable with me. However, I feel like I've wasted some of the best years of my life and that I'm still wasting them.
Life is tough man, go back to school or find something you're passionate about to such an extent you can turn it into a career -- at least you'll have a good shot at life, right?
>>682385217
>tfw you will never have a girl look at you like this
>>682402028
You really don't deserve help. You are a sum of genetic and acquired variables that amounts to human shit. You were born a lowlife monster and if you die painfully over the course of a year it won't have been enough suffering. This is a feels thread wherein we mourn the loss of a bygone halcyon era when the world made sense. And you want to rape the children whose incizorless smiles gather dust in fading old pictures in the attic that is our nostalgic minds. Fuck you, trash. You'll never be as good as the rest of us.
>>682389582
Whoever this is is a filthy piece of shit. You never do that.
>>682392700
You make me feel the feel
>>682412129
No i'm saying Pedophiles pretty much fucked there life up for the rest of whats left of it. And there are other crimes that can make your life irreparable just as easy.
I am not on the verge of suicide I was just replying to what you said
>>682411580
Fun isn't fulfilling. There's really nothing I want to accomplish. Drinking isn't fun anymore, drugs aren't fun anymore, life just really isn't intriguing anymore and it hasn't been since I grew up.
>>682396181
Fuck, this got me
>>682383538
I've never loved or had a crush on anyone in my life. I love my family, but that's different. Honestly, I don't feel like I'm missing out on something. From what I've seen, it mostly just makes you miserable. I'd say you're better off for now, too young to worry about such things.
meet gorgeous 10/10 girl. We talk all the time and she says she has feelings for me. Long story short im pretty sure shes just leading me on or using me to make an ex jealous.. Pretty sad /b/ros
>>682389582
I'll never ignore my father like this. Every day, I talk to my dad about sports.
I don't even like sports. I just want to make him feel like his son loves him and shares the same interests as him.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZsO4w7hTdWE
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=boa96c7uOSM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PzDm6ImLtHc
Drown the pain
>Be 20
>No license, high school dropout, rarely leave house, socially retarded
>Have a job that I enjoy that allows me to work from home, but doesn't pay me enough
>Have a family, but they're all older and frequently remind me they'll be gone soon
>Mother can't work and is bipolar
>She offers to help me get out of my comfort zone and plans to do things to help me out but always falls through due to her health or her "forgetting"
>Live with her in a 2 room apartment (not 2 bedroom, 2 room) and pay for all our expenses
>Savings is slowly dwindling and I don't want to quit my job
>My closest friends have stopped talking to me because I'm a really negative person and brought them down one too many times
>Got a dog to help ease the loneliness because I have no friends, it helps but I know having a dog will hurt me in the future if I ever try to move out
>Slowly sinking into a deep depression because friends don't want anything to do with me and I don't think I'm ever going to get out of this situation, especially not alone
>Despite all this the thing that is gnawing at me the most is the fact I'm a virgin and have never had a girlfriend
Not really sure what to do honestly /b/, I know these problems aren't nearly as bad as some of this other stuff. I've never been a very motivated person, and the few things that did motivate me are disappearing.
I just want to move out and start my life, find and date a girl with similar interests, and get out of this utterly unhealthy lifestyle that I live now. Between the thought of losing the last years I have with my mother and my social anxiety I feel like I'm frozen in place.
some of yall got it bad but i just want to type this out and vent. I'm currently 18 and recently enlisted into the air force. this has been my goal for 3 years now and everyone I know is expecting me to go do great things because honestly that's all I've ever talked about in my life. I thought the military could give support to my life. anyways recently went to meps a month ago and thy found small scars I got from cutting when I was a stupid little autistic 13 year old. I've been denied and I don't know how to face my family or friends or anyone I know for that matter. most likely going to move states and stay in contact with family over phone. I've let everyone I know down
>>682383538
Are you me?
I've been in love, but I never told her. Which in hindsight might be a good thing, but at the time I felt pretty bad about it.
Do you have alot of friends? Because I do and that really helps!
>>682414418
>>682412433
>>682389869
>>682389864
maybe be they called the dad everytime?
>when you were here before
>couldn't look you in the eye
>you're just like an angel
>your skin makes me cry
>you float like a feather
>in a beautiful world
>I wish I was special
>you're so fucking special
>but I'm a creep
>I'm a weirdo
>What the hell am i doing here
>I don't belong here
>I don't care if it hurts
>I wanna have control
>I want a perfect body
>I want a perfect soul
>I want you to notice
>when I'm not around
>you're so fucking special
>I wish I was special
>but I'm a creep
>I'm a weirdo
>What the hell am i doing here
>I don't belong here
>She's running out again
>She's running
>Run, run, run, run
>Whatever makes you happy
>Whatever you want
>You're so fucking special
>I wish I was special
>but I'm a creep
>I'm a weirdo
>What the hell am i doing here
>I don't belong here
>>682399844
This is good advice. Everyone out there looking for something/someone. You aren't going to find anything sitting on your ass.
saw this thread hours ago
said to myself out loud
"fuck these threads I need to stop posting in this shit"
its been years of me posting in these
a bunch of shit has happened over time
one thing keeps happening and im sick of fucking posting it here
shes over it
she cant be affectionate
she cant feel whatever the fuck for someone like that right now
why does this keep happening
I just listen to music and turn to drugs immediately
get all bummed
and let this fucking happen over and over
im so tired of being here guys
why isnt it easy?
ive had it work out before
ive been the one to call it off before
these last 3 girls in particular were all so similar, similar tattoos, issues, family shit, drug shit etc.
How happy and in a good place do I need to be before I see someone good for me and pursue that?
not whats right in front of me in hopes it will fill the void ive had for so fucking long
I wonder why I haven't killed myself already
>Jumped in the river what did I see?
>Black eyed angels swam with me
>A moon full of stars and astral cars
>All the things I used to see
>All my lovers were there with me
>All my pasts and futures
>And we all went to heaven in a little row boat
>There was nothing to fear and nothing to doubt
>"No Anon, we are just friends with -Aons friend-"
Yeah sure, maybe I am just being paranoid but I don't fucking trust neither her nor him.
>>682392700
yea this made me feel
>>682415934
> you aren't going to find anything
>>682415608
I'm going to think that from now on. I refuse to believe that someone would ignore their parents like that.
I'm on the verge of tears. I want to wake up my dad and tell him how much I love him now.
>>682416118
keep looking at her twitter
keep thinking maybe I deserved this
its probably karma
keep thinking i want the pills to kick in
whats wrong with me?
my one bane
one fuckin thing
seriously its the one thing
that fucks me up
are girls
girls who are below what I really deserve on different levels
I get really attached, really quick, to someone clearly working on their own stuff in life that is about or less attractive than me
over and fucking over
like im this prize they picked up and I can always feel it
like im this catch but theyre hesitant about making it official or serious
or like they expect me to take it there and I take too long
I dont fuckin know but fuck this
please for the love of something
just by summer can I be happy and set up
I have the tools and power to do it
just let me have this one thing where most stuff works out
I want shows, new people, smiles, less drugs, less alcohol, my parents happy, my dad with a job, planning to travel back to maine for a while, me with a job, me more stable and just if maybe I deserve it
Someone I have no doubts in
Not someone that helps me with the doubt in myself for only a few months
>>682386188
never obsolete, we can all dream.
>>682416459
I wonder myself
>>682386188
tfw the posted gif is nearly twice the size of that floppy and it's like 2 seconds long
>>682416708
Beat the shit out of him, fag
>>682417516
i prevent myself from doing that sometime
i don't quite understand what it is but i have a soft spot for not just my dad but the idea of fatherhood
thinking about being a dad one day, having someone to look up to me as their strong wise old dad makes me want to fucking cry from mixed emotion
i tell my dad i love him every single day, and i will keep telling him i love him every day for the rest of his life, regardless of the circumstances.
Don't die on me now, thread
How long has b been this full of pussies?
music for these feels.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=flCKIvukz68
>>682418630
it always has
>>682418336
I really wish I could visit my dad everyday. I work almost 70 hours a week, and it's difficult to drop by when I'm exhausted.
My mom and him split up when I was two years old (they were never married). They split on friendly terms and they still talk to this day, but I really wish they would have stayed together. I feel like their breaking up kind of crippled me emotionally.
>>682418630
if you've never seen a feels thread you haven't been here too long my sweet summer child
also /b/*
Now fuck off retard
>>682418630
This is not about being weak or a pussy but rather about feeling human at least here for in the real world, there's nothing to make us feel that way for many of us
>>682418708
call him dude, call him once a week. Ask him how things are and talk if you don't do this already. You'd be surprised how nice and almost cathartic it can be. He's a friend that will never leave, and always have your best interests at heart. Never forget that.
>>682418904
I'll start doing that. Thanks, anon. I forget that I'm lucky to have two parents that still love me.
>>682389582
I always thought the idea behind this was that the kid an heroed and the dad was trying to contact him. Like a denial or not knowing type of thing. Maybe that's just me, but I could definitely see that being the case.
>>682419077
No worries man, glad I could help.
Also cool dubs
>>682418649
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=HsixXCnYVfA
ELLIOTT SMITH is the ultimate feels delivery guy.
I hope you hear something similar from someone who means a great deal from you in real life someday anon. The hope that someday someone will say something similar to pic related is the only thing that really keeps me going these days.
So long, thread, it was nice
>>682398384
I have the same problem with connecting to people I know how it feels. I went through that but now I'm just content with myself and constantly striving to become a better version. It gets a lot better trust me.
>>682389582
This hit me hard. Now I'm crying. Wtf.
Be actually fucking a 17 year old girl who looks like a 9 year old with boobs and an ass, who lets me cum in her asshole . You sad fucks need to get off the internet.
>>682412433
My fathers a fucking piece of shit, ignoring him would be the least i could do. That fucker can die for what i care. Fucked up my life
>>682382625
Fucking hell mate no different then my dog which I always took hunting with me, she ended up getting mauled by a bear while we were out in the Yukon after I shot and skinned/gutted a moose. The bear which was a grizzly came out of nowhere and started charging towards us she protected me and in return sacrificed herself for my safety. So badly torn up that nothing I could do so I pretty much ended her after I shot the grizzly dead with 2 slugs and 6 rounds from a 45 cal. Natiy was a German shepherd husky mix. 2001 born from her mother and died in 2011 at the age of 10.
it's nearly 10am
goodnight, /b/
I love you guys, you're the best
Well, I may not have the hardest of lives nor the best but I shall tell some stories.
Me during puberty so around 10-21 male.
> never been the best looking nor the worst possible but I have developed a issue which is Gynocomastia or other words bitch titties
> refused to get the surgery and haven't been able to a decent relationship because of this
> rejected and often used by people because I am easily trickable as I am a very lonely person with only one friend
> Dated 3 women
> First one we were friends from preschool and decided to try it out but she ended up sadly passing away from a undiscovered cancer growth in her left breast.
> now around 15 or so and second girlfriend comes along
> working out great and about to have sex when she says "Derek I am sorry but I can't"
> Point she was cheating on me and stealing from me
> I leave her and she isn't loyal
> third girlfriend repeats the same as the second one
> I can no longer trust women and I can no longer really believe any women who say they care for me.
> Ending result from this I have a very angry and physically/emotional abusive self infliction issue.
> Sarah J will forever be remembered.
>>682422886
Goodnight /b/ro may you find your worth in the waking world.
What is it that brings you to threads like this anon? What's keeping you from being happy?
Born and raised on the trap line and a hunter.
> Had a dog named Natiy
> German Shepherd Husky mix
> Very loyal and good dog
> Took hunting many of times expect for a couple of times but that was because she was either to young or not really up for it
> Shot and killed a Moose with a shotgun
> gutted it and started bagging it up to leave but it was very late so I decided to camp out
> hung my moose meat up in the air on a tree in the Yukon
> around 2am rolls around and I am awake watching my catch with a fire roaring.
> Natiy jumps up barking and growling and I look pointing my shotgun and its a grizzly.
> I am under the moose at this point and the Natiy is going mad
> Grizzly charges and so does Natiy
> Grizzly bites and claws Natiy tearing her stomach, legs, ears, her front paw off.
> Grizzly is fighting her and I am firing off rounds at the grizzly and after two rounds and 6 rounds of my 45 hand gun it dies.
> Natiy is wimping in pain and is going to die as I can't do anything to help her but put her down.
> reload my side arm and put it to her non damaged ear and put one round in her skull.
> She protected me from the grizzly and was doing what she was thought to do.
> I took the moose home and my remains of my dog after I skinned the grizzly and took its head.
> Took off her left front paw and preserved it and now I hang it on my backpack whenever I go out with her daughter hunting.
> The grizzly was a male and now I have its pelt and its head in my room as a reminder to protect my dogs before myself.
> love your pets and love what they will do for you.
-Derek
>Best friend of a long time finally manages to get a girlfried
>Get tossed aside as if I'm not important anymore
>Still hang out with them but can't help but feel like a thrid wheel
>It's a complex feeling.
>Miss my bro, but also hope that he;ll be happy with this new girl.
>Jealousy but also a bit of hope for friend.
>Used to be like his mentor until the day he surpassed me/
>Nobody will ever love me
>>682425037
That's some heavy stuff right there anon. Stories about dogs always hit way too close to home for whatever reason. It sounds liek you really do love those little puppers. Keep taking good care of them. I'm sure they're happy to be with you. You sound like you;re giving them a pretty good life and teaching your kids to appreciate the value of a true friend like that dog of yours.
>>682381407
Don't often greentext so here we fucking go, be gentle, faggots.
>be me, 14, year 8 (ausfag)
>mum and dad sit me down one night
>tell me dad has growth in his lung
>don't know how to react, go to my room, curl up in my bed and force myself to cry for an hour because what the fuck else should I do
>turns out the worst is true, dad has lung cancer
>fast forward a few months to his surgery
>all is well, he makes it through it
>over the next 2 years shit seems to be pretty sweet with his health
>he's old though so he is degenerating steadily
>come to third year
>find out the cancer has spread to his other lung
>family is optimistic but knows this won't go as well as last time
>surgery isn't an option, he's far too weak
>being a moody little fuck, I go through various bouts of depression, anxiety and what not
>failing at school
>drop out of college at 17
>smoking weed constantly, complete deadshit who thinks his band will take him places
>dad constantly supports me, loves me, helps me, chats to me
>rudely shrug off most of his attempts to support me
>keep being moody fuck
>fast forward to start of 2016
>20 years old
>less of a moody fuck,studying and slowly putting my life together
>dads now taking a turn for the worst, constant hospital visits
>during the fast forward he broke his hip, so he's extremely frail
>he's basically a walking skeleton
>goes for his last trip to another state to see close friends before he dies after a bout of pneumonia
>gets back and is immediately rushed to the ER
>makes partial recovery, but is rapidly degenerating, cant eat, now on an oxygen machine
>get a text from him at 7 in the morning
>"help with meds pls"
>go and help him sort his meds out
>his oxygen saturation was so low he couldn't think straight and he couldn't see because he hadn't slept for days
>after helping him, head upstairs and chill
>mum walks in, tells me an ambulance is on his way
>wtf.jpg
>ambulance comes, dad gets rushed to hospital
Continued
>>682425529
This anon is eagerly awaiting the next part for what it's worth. Sounds like a really difficult story so far, can't see this going anywhere good but I still await closure.
>>682389258
40k? what a joke! the guy deserves at least 250k per year.
In love with some stupid fucking person who could care less if I'm alive or dead. Somebody kill me please
>>682425529
Continued
>go to see dad ASAP, he seems to be doing well
>go home to eat, come back a coupel of hours later
>dads crashed so bad he cant breath
>every breath is a gurgle of mucas
>he's literally fighting drowning
>this continues for 6 hours
>medical staff decide there's nothing they can do
>put him on morphine
>spend next 26 hours calling close friends/loved ones to see him before he goes
>contact brother who lives in england and recite his last words to dad from a text message
>he's semi comatosed so he can nod
>gets rejected from a hospis (place where people go to die)
>after waiting for him to die, his oncologist says we can try an aggressive anti-btiotic treatment that may prolong his life, but he could suffer 10x more
>leave it to dad
>ask him repetitively using nods and hand squeezes to ascertain his response
>he wants to keep going
>treatment fucking works, dad makes a big recovery
>he's still unstable and could die, but he is atleast awake and aware
>tell my brother
>he and his wife come to see him while they can
>spend 3 weeks constantly visiting dad
>have to wear gowns, gloves and masks because he was neutrapenic (low white blood cell count)
>fast forward to a monday morning
>brother has left, said his goodbyes and gone home knowing it was the last time he would see him
>get a call in the morning saying dads taken a turn for the worst
>rush to hospital with mum
>walk in to see him bleeding profusely from his nose, his eyes and his mouth
>no idea where the fucking blood is coming from
>his breathing is forced
>sounds like someone blowing through a straw into milk
>doctors say there's nothing they can do
>put him on morphine and other sedatives
>dad becomes comatosed for real
>spend the next two days by his side
>he looks like a corpse, eyes rolled back, mouth half open
>family friend offers to take us out for lunch
>decide to go
>come back and return to his side
>hold his hands, me on one side, mum on the other
>takes his last breath
>>682425319
I just wish to be honest she didn't go that way. She would and did fight to protect me even if she died. She gave birth to 4 pups before she left to go with me. Sadly I know they knew what happened to her they may of never seen her after the math had occurred but they knew what happened. Gladly would of traded myself for her. In fucking tears at this moment. All her pups lived and now are with me when I go hunting. NarNar a male, Minxer another male great little guy not very big but very playful not much of a hunter yet but very good. Newt another male because when he was born I had to pull him out because he got stuck and I named him newt because he just looks like one, really long tail for a type of dog which should have a medium one and finally Sarah as a way to remember my friend and my dog. Its going to be a very hard day when all of them go. wish I could of done her in quicker if I could of found a round quicker. On a less depressing note because I am crying and about to start drinking at this rate all my dogs are healthy and they get along great. Neighbors hate them because they bark a bit when they are 4 years old what do you expect? -Derek.
>>682426233
That's rough anon. I'm sorry to hear you had to go through that. Though I'm sure your dad would be proud of you. Become the man (or woman it's hard to tell on the interwebs sometimes) that you know would make him proud. Never forget his memory. It sounds like he really meant a lot to you.
>>682393912
My dad beat my brother and me for the 6 years he had custody of us before we went back to foster care.
I didn't speak to him for 5 years after that until I was 18 and honest to God, he denied ever laying a hand on us. He even blamed me for "lying" to my social worker and the police about what he did and kicked me out afterwards.
It's been years since then, but I still think about him denying having ever hit us; I know he was drunk the entire time, but there's no way he could have forgot it all and yet he seemed so genuine in his belief that it never happened.
I'll probably never talk to him again; I don't even want to know him.
I'm not comfortable with this at all and it's really been bringing me down lately, but what can I do?
>>682426233
OP here, last cont.
>med reg comes in and declares his death
>after he passes, all his fucking friends start to rock up without knowing what had happened
>spend the next hour with his corpse
>after everyone left, I sat with him
>can't stop holding his head, moving it
>can't fucking understand why I won't stop moving his body
>won't let go of his head, keep kissing his forehead and telling the body I love him
>pack his things up and leave his body
There's more, but I'll type that in another post now.
Cont.
>>682426339
That's really sweet anon. You sound like someone who really appreciates the worth of a good dog. Those little niggas are the loyalest litte things I've ever seen. I appreciate them so goddamn much. You sounds like you really appreciate and treat your dogs with the utmost trust and respect. They're more than pets they're the truest unconditional friends a man can have. This next drink goes out to your little doggies there anon. I hope you live a good life with your pups. They sound like they've got a hell of a good master. Treat em right and always appreciate the love they have for you. Best of luck to you anon, keep up the good work. Those dogs love you and I'm sure you love them even more.
>>682389582
Damn, not even for the super bowel
>>682426450
Just realized I said last cont on that post. It wasn't, deal with it.
>come home, put his stuff away, break down and sob into my girlfriends arms for a minute or so
>recover
>know what I have to do
>learn to play a guitar piece he's always wanted to hear me perform
>funeral is in 2 weeks
>spend everyday playing the piece again and again until I can play it
>funeral comes
>do a 10 minute speech and perform the piece of music
>closure hurts man
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lk38dwPvuOE
That's the guitar piece for anyone interested.
Don't know how to cope, I'm okay but not. Thanks for listening, anons, tears are coming now I listen to the piece, gonna go play it. I would like to see replies, as narcissistic as it is, it's nice to know people find this experience interesting.
>>682426450
Sorry to hear that. Not much I can say but I do wish you the best as I know its hard to lose someone you do truly love. Take care mate dont be afraid to ask for help.
self pity circle jerks dont help anyone
adapt and improve yourself or your bloodline will die out, you are weak, you must be strong
>>682426671
you sound like a real good person anon. Listening to that guitar peice now. Can;t say I'm crying because I'm a cold ass mother fucker who has no more tears to shed, but this is a really sad story and a really fitting piece of music. I wnt to say time heals all wounds, but some things never stop hurting. I hope that someday you can overcome this pain of yours and continue to work towards a great future. you seem like a good person with a good heart. For whatever it's worth your story really moved me, and I'm wishing you the best from one anonymous stranger on the net to another.
>>682426600
Heck, I think I treat them better then I do myself. 1 oz steak for me and a 42 oz steak for them each lol. Best possible animals I've ever had the honor to own. Natiy was the daughter to my childhood dog which was named beast. Beast passed away a couple years ago which was my fathers dog. Gladly trade my life in for my dogs.
>>682426767
I don't come here for help. I'm beyond help at this point. I come here to feel human for just a brief moment. I want to pretend someone cares. There are people beyond hope. I don't expect things to get better, but at least I can pretned there's someone in this world that gives a shit till the 404. That's why I come to these god awful threads. I've got nowhere else to be.
>>682426671
beautiful piece of music. Take care my good man.
>>682426914
Thanks, anon. I'm glad it moved you, not sure why, but it helps to know.
>>682426946
A man after my own heart. Keep treating those doggies right. What breed are they if you don't mind me asking?
>>682427086
Listening to that piece of music over and over now. Haven't felt such a nostalgic and sorrowful emotion from music like this in a long time. It's nice in perhaps a sadistic, feelsy kind of way. I'm glad you came here to talk about it. I feel like it helps sometimes to let it all out. Thanks for sharing anon.
>>682384906
You are slowly destroying your life and you know it. Nobody is admiring you for your self-sacrifice. This day and age doesn't think like that.
I honestly wouldn't take care of him. Maybe I would try to earn a shit ton of money to be able to take care of him properly or pay a highschool girl to be a sitter, but not this. He cannot even acknowledge properly what you are doing for him. It's sad people like you are trapped in horrible cages made of human pieces.
Bumping this thread, feels for days.
>>682425102
You aren't the only one
>>682427115
German Shepherd Husky Mix with a little bit of rottweiler in there but so little its not worth mentioning. Beast was a pure Husky and Neece was a Semi pure bred German Shepherd but with a little bit of rottweiler. I imagine there is a little bit more in their past breeding history but I simply don't know.
>>682427258
It'll do that. Sticks to the mind like glue.
>>682427325
They sound like great little dogs. I hope to have a dog or two of my own someday. I'll be sure to do my best to treat them as well as you have. Thanks for the inspiration anon. Those sound like some damn fine dogs. Keep treating em right. A man who treats his dogs well is a good person in my book. I'm sure they really do appreciate you being there for them. Best of luck dogbro.
>>682427367
It's true. I'm almost tempted to learn it myself for your sake. It's got such a melancholic and almost nostalgic tone to it. It fills me with such a sadness but also hope. Maybe it's just an association with your story, but it's a really beautiful piece of music to go along with an equally beautiful and sad story. For what it's worth I'll always remember you tale anon. So never give up alright? I'm some anon across the globe from you, but still hoping for the best in your life. So best of luck m80.
>>682427603
Posted a best girl. At least you can look forward to being a man of good taste.
>>682422532
Goodbye Natiy
>>682427535
She looked alot like this dog I have pictures of her but they are all in physical copies
https://www.google.ca/search?q=german+shepherd+husky+long+haired+mix&hl=en&biw=1366&bih=643&site=webhp&source=lnms&tbm=isch&sa=X&ved=0ahUKEwivqJnd0r3MAhVV6mMKHUaSDJIQ_AUIBigB#imgdii=v_3PYc0GYgPemM%3A%3Bv_3PYc0GYgPemM%3A%3BdBMWWOm4vnY0hM%3A&imgrc=v_3PYc0GYgPemM%3A
If you ever get a dog don't feed them dry food feed them some scrap meat if you must. Its cheap and its easy and in most cases a butcher shop will give it to you for free or very cheap.
Take care of them because in the end they will fight for you. Take care mate and I will treat them well as I wouldn't be here without them.
>>682427791
>>682427791
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v7vDdy2ELFw
Here's another version, closer to how I played it just without the trem, and I played it very slowly to emphasize the feeling, noooowhere near as fast as this. Could have been good enough to do it but as I said, was a very stubborn lazy teenager.
It's nice to know I have support from someone I don't know, and likewise I wish you the best in your future. There's something nice about not knowing you, the one dimensional aspect of our one off meeting enhances the value. So thankyou, you've made my night a lot easier to cope with, anon. I only hope you treat others like you have me (atleast those who deserve it), makes for a damn good world
>>682427992
That's a real fine looking dog there. Best of luck to you anon. Thanks for the dog advice. If i ever end up with a pupper of my own someday I'll be sure to treat them right. It's funny how much a silly little dog can really improve and add so much to a person;'s life. They really are the unconditional man's best friend. God I love them so much. Perfect animals right there. Thanks for the story and for sharing. I hope your life goes well for whatever the wishes of this sad and drunk anon are worth.
>>682428312
You may be drunk and sad and we may never meet or cross paths but its nice to meet someone who cares about a animal just as much as I. Nice to spread her story. -Cheers mate also if you do get my type of dog you got to learn to love brushing their hair because THEY SHED LIKE HELL
>>682399241
nobody deserves that
I still miss my ex from 6 years ago,even though I have a gf which I love. What us wrong with me..
>>682428215
I still can't get over how impact that piece was anon.I think you have a point about the anonymous nature of our interaction. it's kind of special it it's own way, people really don't repond here uless something really moces them to, and tonight you'e moved this husk of a man to feel something. For that I am truly grateful. Best of luck to you man. Be the kind of person who would make your father proud. I can't say I belive much in an afterlife, but for what it's worth you seem like the kind of person that any father would be proud to call their child. Keep up the good work. Thanks for sharing and the inspiration.
>>682428564
You never really get over it. Personally I found taking the love I would of given her and give it something else makes me happy.
>>682428668
Feel free to save it, anon. Best of luck, friend.
>>682428673
I tried that,sometimes it works,sometime it feels like cheating. I fear that I will come to a point where I will throw everything away and try to get her back.. And fail ofc
I hate how much being sexual with my gf bothers me.
Everything was fine until she told me she hates sucking dick, and showing herself to me.
It may sound stupid but for this past year she's been sulking like a pro and sending nudes and what not. Now she tells me she hated all of it. I just feel wrong. I know I should respect her opinion. But on the other hand what made her wait a whole year of non stop doing it. Why did she make me fall in love with our sex life to take it away. I feel like a scumbag even being offended by it because I love her.
But restricting blow jobs and what not. Like I am 20. I fell in love with the touch of her tongue wrapped around my dick. The sweet smile she would give after watching me cum all over her breast. And now I just have to get use to never having it again. She said she'll blow me once in a while, but, what good is it if I know she hates it.
Idk I love her but my sexual frustraton may ruin it all which kills me cus i love her.
>>682428482
I her you man. I hope to get a cute little samoyed someday. Fluffy little motherfuckers. Totally worth the hairs and shed fur around. Glad to hear i wasn't too intense with my appreciation of dogs. They'll always bbe my favourite animal because they're so great to be around. Litterally te perfect pet and the perfect friend as far as I'm concerned. Remember you're never alone as long as you have your dogs with you. They'll always think the best of you andbe willing to give their life for your happiness. Your story is the kind that'll stick with me for a lifetime. Your dog was truly an inspiration. Thanks so much for sharing.
>>682389582
>please
The day my father has to say please for me to hang out with him is the day I know I have failed as a human being.
>>682428853
Get a dog and just show it more love then possible. Sarah even though she was young and we had our fights and hate at times she was a very good friend from preschool to the day she died. Good friend on the aspect she always had my back. She died from a growth on her breast which was cancerous. She was my first girlfriend. I take the love which I would of given and give it to others. It is sometimes my dogs and sometimes its my friends. You can move on even though it is hard. Just remember what she would want. She wanted you to be happy and she wanted you to be loving. What better way to show that then doing what she wanted?
>>682428746
Same to you. I'm gonna save and treasure that guitar riff forever. Glad you could share such a heart-wrenching story with us all here.Best of luck to you and happy trails anon.
We need a new thread.
I still need to feel.
>>682428968
No problem mate glad I could share it not often I find decent people on this site but its nice. Own a couple of Samoyed well not owned but watched and then we adopted if that makes any sense. Great dogs they are. Good choice. Its going to be a sad night tonight to sleep.
>>682429117
But..she is still there,somewhere, with someone else..I can still talk to her,just not about what I want. I don't even care that she is with someone else,I am not jealous, but every time I think of her,my stomach hurts. Doesn't matter the situation. I know I should just accept defeat, I was dumped and that's all there is to it, but somehow I can't. Maybe I don't even want to.
>>682381407
im in a similar situation OP, except I work in a wage slave job and have 0 friends
>>682429538
Just talk to her. I've talked to my ex's years after asking them why they cheated or why they did this. Their answers helped me and helped me improve who I am to this day.
