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>>681604571
This one fucked me

>>681604571
Fuckkkkk

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Alright, let's get these cringey, but necessary for bump pics out of the way, and actually talk.

What's up OP?

>>681604927
im a fucking mess from this shit because i can 100% relate to this shit

>>681605060
this

>>681605086
My friend and I were watching the fault in our stars, pretty cringy I know, then this grenade scene came up and she said she feels that way and she just left the room crying. She's attempted suicide 2 times

It feels good to have no empathy.

>>681605086
Also have a lot of work, and bawling helps me work

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>>681603916
I always love a happy ending

>>681605429
Being dead inside is great

Had a best friend, me and him used to do all sorts a shit together: drinking, vidya, watching chinese cartoons, the whole 9-yards...
Eventually become so close we decide to try and be couple. He made me feel happier than anyone else in the world, and I tried so hard to make him as happy as I was. But, I think my over-eagerness drove him away. He cut off all contact with me one day and I never got any sort of closure

>>681605823
I'm sorry.

Okay you fucking people. I have a fucking story to tell you.

>Be me, 22 female
>recently dumped by long term bf literally one day before thanksgiving
>families supposed to be getting together, his and mine combined
>nope cancelled
>says he's tired of pretending to love me
>after 2 1/2 years...
>i'm obviously shocked by this
>don't even cry or anything just start packing up my shit (his apartment)
>it's a work night but idgaf just keep packing my things into my car
>few hours later i've got about half of my belongings into my car
>stand there staring at my stuffed car, outside apartments
>get a call from my new ex, says he's not coming home tonight, staying at his 'brother's place' doesn't want to see me
>i have no where to go so i sleep one last night in that filthy bed of his all by myself
>smoked the rest of his weed and cried myself to sleep
cont?

>be me
>smart, attractive, athletic and coordinated, parents are well off
>be me at 10
>countless friends around the neighborhood
>wed play war, hide and seek, football, just any game you can imagine, also super smash bros
>everyday was a blast rarely got bored
>in special program called GT for the smarter kids
>had a handful of friends at school but i was always shy and quiet
>find out the girl i like likes me back
>many girls around the school have crushes on me
>i was cute as fuck but also really shy
>overall good times had 10/10
>Dad lands a big job offer with a big company and we can pretty much move to any major city in the us
>californialove.mp3
>1st time ever moving, entire family lived on the east coast, leaving friends and the only home i ever knew
>never wanted to move but i kept it to myself because i knew it was a big promotion for my dad
>We move in to a bigger house with a bigger yard and pool
>sad i left friends, family, and home
>this is home now
>not many kids too play with but my brother and i make friends with two guys up the street
>newkidatschool.jpg
>shy and quiet as fuck
>make two friends all year
>go to middleschool

>>681606043
heh, thanks...
its been a little over a year now, but i still wish he'd come back into my life, even just as a friend

>>681606338
Keep going

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This fucks me up everyime I see it

>>681606543
wat

>>681606740
Look at the left

OP here, should I greentext my story?

So I was hanging out with my friend last night. And she tells me that she views me as husband material and that if I didn't marry her that whoever I do marry she would be lucky to have me.

After she tells me this we talk about other things. I tell her a sad story about my dog who had gotten mauled to death by another dog. And pretty much I was with him for hours as he slowly bled to death.

Then after we kissed. I kissed her first then she kissed me then we kissed a last time.

Immediately after she asked "what are we doing"... I just responded with "I don't know".

After we kind of laid together in eachothers arms for like a minute. Since, she had work in the morning I left a few minure aftee this. As I got back to my house. She texts me "can we act like that didn't happen."

I died inside.

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>>681605640
Lost my shit

>>681606911

Go ahead.

>911 dubs checked

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>>681603916

does work?

Cannot deal with these threads anymore.

>>681605823
Sorry dude.

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cont...
>fast forward a few weeks later
>my ex's ex wife calls me out of the blue
side story...my ex has an ex wife and they have a child together whom i adored, so if that puts a little more context to how i was feeling about being dumped after 2 1/2 years of taking care of his child etc etc then there you have it...*anyway*
>calls me out of the blue and says
>'i'm so sorry for what he did to you, you didn't deserve that'
>to me, this sounds odd, i mean..yes it sucks we broke up, and he didn't love me like he said..
>me: "wtf you talkin bout"
>her: "because of the girl he was with"
>heart
>fucking
>drops
>what
>her: "...yeah she moved in like the day after you moved out, went to drop child off at his place and newfag answers the door"
continue...

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almost

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last

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here's some oc from a thread a week or so back

>>681606372
>one of the two friends i made completely ignores me and the other friend
>hes mexican and hangs out with the other mexicans at the school
>probably have talked to him twice since grade school
>Me and other friend we'll call him bob hang out all the time at school
>me and bob are good friends but bob has a best friend he's known for a long time, steve
>steve is kind of a dick
>Bob, steve, and i hangout every lunch and recess in 7th and 8th grade
>thirdwheel.jpg
>wouldn't really even consider myself a friend of steve's
>never hangout with either outside of school
>become a bit of a recluse at home playing rise of nations, halo...
>Bob and steve tease me alot
>it starts to get to me a little but i never show it
>they tease me for being skinny, for being quiet, for having no friends
>they tease me for hoarding snacks, for being good at basketball (which i didn't really mind), for being in band class, for being a liberal
>one day steve asks "Anon who is your best friend?"
>tell him bob is my best friend
>they laugh and don't believe me
> "But I'm bobs best friend"

>>681607041
Ok first time doing this
>be me, 18, virgin
>go to see my incredibly close family friend
>about 2 months ago she attempted suicide
>got phone call about it in class, had to leave
>back to story: first night there, we smash
>second day we go to the beach
>later we go to her house to watch TFIOS
>she seems to be turning away from me
>she's balled up in the theater facing away from me
>ask her if she's ok, she says nothing
>scene comes on saying the main character is like a grenade, and her death will harm everyone around her
>she says she doesn't want me to be close to her so when she leaves I won't be hurt
>friend starts shaking, crying hysterically
>I ask her if she's ok
>just leaves and I'm bawling my eyes out alone
>fast forward to today
>get call that she attempted suicide again

>>681603916
Can I be honest about something?
To people having women problems I understand your attached to "her" but there are more people out there ok? We live Ina society where people fuck around like sex is essential. Women are attracted to the scoundrel not a fedora tipper because they want security in strength and who is stronger than a troublemaker? Unless that girl was like that one anon who's girlfriend had cancer and his mom was a Christian scientist I can't understand why would worry. Maybe I'm right maybe I'm an asshole without a heart. I just needed to get that off my chest

>>681607242
>me: hangs up phone with ex's ex wife
>promptly gets up off my bed (it's late in the evening)
>walk to living room
>passes the fuck out
>a little while later i found out his ex wife was trying to get full custody
>i blocked all of them on my phone and social shit including ex wife and all
>she's apparently still able to leave voicemail even after being blocked
>i don't get a notification about blocked caller's voicemails
>fast forward to yesterday
>my voicemail box says it's full and i need to delete messages and shit
>call the voicemail number and a few messages in on the blocked voicemail
>ex wife's voice: "just wanted to let you know, we're winning the custody case, ex faggot is suicidal etc etc."
>this guy proposed to me
>this fucker gave me so much false hope after so long...
>all i could feel was hatred for him for taking *child* away from me-as if they had been my own
>i slept better last night than i have in a while

I got a depressing story for you faggots

> be me

>>681607767
thank you.

>>681607887
i love you.

You guys are gonna get invaded by desu.

>>681605602
This happens to me too often it hurts bad

>>681608063
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>>681608040
These guys are fine. they post content.

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>>681607734


run like fuck bro.

>>681608202
Go back to filthy frank newfag

>>681607767
you've been watching black pigeon speaks

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>>681608444
New people don't understand how the website works. I know /b/ is post whatever you want, but all these newfags are just trying to be edgy to stand out, it's the cancer that's ruining the site

>>681605823
That's never fun. My best friend of 20 years cut off contact with me about a year ago. Looking back, it was probably better for both of us, but it still makes me sad sometimes. He was the only person in my life who knew everything about me. What get's me is the thought that I will never be that close with someone again.

>>681607367
Des anybody else think the bunny in the top right picture looks like a dick

>be me
>be military vet
>every five years my platoon from boot camp meets
>couldn't get to the first one because no time off work
>ask for time off the week it should happen
>week comes
>nobody calls me or emails me
>maybe it just didn't happen
>see facebook
>It did happen
>Maybe they just didn't want me to come
>Ask one of them why nobody called me
>They forgot about me

>>681606372
r u fucking retarded,
I had to move 3 times a year because i was foster care and your here boo hoo i had good life in daycare but now that middle school and puberty him my life is shit. do yourself a favor and fuck off you cunt

>>681606988
She clearly has some level of attraction to you. Have you asked her why she wants to pretend it didn't happen?

>>681604708

this one got me cuz im usually up at 4am...

>>681605602

don't remind me please

>>681607648
>high school comes around after a short summer
>Im in Marching band, Bob is in football, and steve is in water polo
>Over the summer, they both make friends in their sport and i struggle to make friends in band
>1st day of high school, arrive an hour late
>Lunch comes around and i meet steve and bob.
>All the football jocks and all the water polo players are grouped right next to eat other
>we hangout right between both groups so steve will talk to his water polo friends and bob talks to his football friends
>I sit there by myself feeling awkward and shy
>moreofathirdwheelthani'veeverbeen.jpg
>more like a 20th wheel
>weeks go by with this setup at lunch
>everyday Bob and steve talk to me less and less and talk to their other friends more and more
>Everyday i dread lunch, i just sit there and feel really awkward and scared and out of place
>one day the fear and dread builds up so much that i don't even meet them there
>I walk around campus and try to seem like i have somewhere to be
>I go from bathroom to bathroom to locker and avoid anyone who is getting suspicious of me
>I don't want anyone to see that i have no friends
>develop a complex schedule down to the minute of when to leave one bathroom and go to the next or go to my locker
>first i go to my locker, then i go to bathroom A, then i go back to my locker, then i go to bathroom B, then to my locker, then back to bathroom A

>>681608698
Im sorry to hear you went through the same thing. Yeah, its miserable knowing that the one person you thought that got you suddenly doesnt care anymore. I just hate that a year later I still wonder if I could have prevented it

>>681604571
Yeah, but that's my fault. Plus, I put her on a fucking pedestal. After trying to at least befriend her, I kinda realized that she's just a fucking human. Craves attention and wants people to notice her.
Humans are really fucking meh.

>>681608346
See number 3 on
>>681607281
Probably a coincidence but will check him out

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>>681609335

Sup, /b/. Third time trying to post this story in like an hour but fuck it I am gonna go for it. So here goes, Anon's Alphabetical Love Life.

I got a long story for you /b/, but I am not gonna greentext it. It has to be typed out in detail. As background, I am 18 and just failed senior year, gonna restart it, and I have dated some crazy girls in my life. This is my stories from that.

Girl #1: C

It was around 6 months of straight 11 year old cringeyness. A cute redheaded girl with strict parents, and cunty friends, including the typical ugly ass tomboyish girl who is used by pretty much everybody. But this girl, for the first time, I voluntarily loved someone, and meant it. She made me fucking insane, /b/. We sat out in the grass between our houses and played pokemon for hours, and just talked about stuff. C was amazing. Well, she then transferred to regular school, (Homeschooled), and that is where she met the druggiest druggie of all time, and fell for him. My chances were lost, and as much as she isn't as important to current events, she is the reason I had trouble finding a new girlfriend.

Will cont whether you want it or not, need to get it off my chest

>>681608938
Well she said she's seeing someone...

But I plan on asking her later today why she told me what she told me.

Like she said other things like how out of other guys she has gone out with that I seem to be the best.

She said she cried at the thought of me leaving (I plan on joining the air force).

It's like she wants me but feels like she would ruin it if we got in a relationship.

>>681604019
holy fucking shit

>>681606608

already smoke two packs a day and drink everytime i have the money

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>>681609453
Girl #2+3: Adams and Brown

Two girls, who have the same first name, but are completely opposite. Being crushed, I only thought I had chances with the crazies. Adams, well she was hardcore weeb trash but the kind that obsesses with creepypasta and the fetish stuff on /b/ is like sesame street to her. She was a disgusting McFat, but was obsessed with sex. Luckily, not my first time. Got rid of her quickly but then came along the 3 year "Brown period." From 7th to 9th grade I on and off dated Brown, and so far, she stabbed a kid in the arm for saying that we were a gay couple, cheated and fucked a 21 year old and got him sent to prison, accused like half the male population of the school of rape, and then said it was because I am not religious she is acting this way, (She was hardcore christian, bible bet yo). Luckily, she moved the fuck away. But, now, I feel I should aim a little higher than the crazies but not as high as I want. Enter trailer trash

Girl #4: M

When I was 14ish, I had dated around 4 girls, and only had sex with one, and she was as whorey as possible. M, as she will be named, however briefly, knew I used my own condoms every time, yet got pregnant, and after I proved she was cheating and it wasn't mine, she moved on. Nonetheless, I had severe trust issues from there on. I decided no more dating, just sex, and became heavily into drugs. From there I met G

Girl #5:G

Me and G did not actually date, and only fucked once, but I count that I guess. Basically a scene girl who dyes her hair every week and smokes bullshit like clone and fucks like everything. We got high of our gourds one day and watched House, but withing like 20 minutes it was straight fucking watching that doctor limp around discovering new diseases and shit. I dropped her for being a drama queen and stopped talking to her, but from there my sudden "Heartbreak" collided with the actual heartbreak of Brown's ex-bestfriend and C's current bestfriend: A

>>681607158

ouch...just ouch

>>681609642
Girl #6: A

Finally, some real story worth typing. Less general story now. So, me and A had a rocky relationship as friends. She was hard christian, and I was a pure autist, but around 9th grade I changed that, and towards the end of the year, her brazilian boyfriend had cheated on her in Florida, (I actually placed bets he would, I am an asshole). Well, I made jokes about it in front of her and she started to cry. Me, being a white knight faggot whenever I make a girl feel bad, apologized and did everything I could to make her happy again. That led, to her crushing on me taking it is something it wasn't, and we ended up fucking some. Was good, but she transferred schools, (where I go now, actually, and transferred this year to my big ex, R's, school. Small world), so I stopped contact, and she found a new guy. The time between then and last August is a blur, because September of 2014, my mom got sent to jail for a few months and my sister was taken by the government lizards, and I decided I wanted to do heroin, as well as do a lot of illegal bullshit with my friends. I remember the hospital in March, getting my new car, and becoming pure mall rat. Around August last year, my fucking life was doomed from the first kiss. Here comes R

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Girl #7:R

The big ex, the one girl who I undeniably fell in love with, and had a real chance with, and everything went wrong. It started with some chill talks at the mall and abandoned building break ins but I fell really hard. Our first kiss we basically fucked with clothes on. We fucked for an hour the first time and only used condoms three times despite my extreme caution. She was amazing, I actually had inspiration to write on my book and do school work. I quit all drug use and became basically a part of her family. I moved to a new house and new school the week before I met her, and moved again to a new house two weeks after it ended. I spent maybe 1/3 of the time we rented that house in that actual house, because her parents let me stay over for days to weeks at a time. We hit our first bump in October when my jealousy issues kicked in and met her guy friend, who is "coincidentally" her new guy's brother. I was fine after a few minutes meeting him and realizing he was gayer than /mlp/, but not even a day later some dude messaged her calling her baby, and I confronted her. She said it was some stalker, and I took that as the truth and said just get rid of him.

>>681609912
Girl #7: R part 2

Around December I looked at her phone, out of extreme paranoia and I know I shouldn't have, but for a week she had been getting texts from gay guy from before asking when she was gonna break up with me, and we got into our first real bad argument, and I found that she had been internet cheating, which I count as cheating, and I told her to stop that shit or we really are done, and she said she'd quit. I didn't believe it that time, and was uneasy for a long time. Well, around the end of January, she said we needed space, and she didn't love me anymore. It was only six months but like I said, I don't love easily so I thought it was meant to be. I thought maybe she'd think it through and get back together with me, because she invited me over again and we fucked for the last time and said ILY like 300 times, but the day after she sent me a pic saying she got a new hat. It was a torn and old camo cap. She hates camo, only wears beanies, and doesn't wear torn stuff. It was obviously some other guy's, and I didn't point that out, so I just stopped talking to her. Couple days later, her status on facebook changed. I stopped all contact and she messaged a few times calling me an asshole, but I just quit that shit completely. Then I got some weird month of dating K, but she doesn't really matter besides R unblocking me even though I blocker her too, and I saw that K and R were friends, so I figured R said something. Well, I come to a conclusion with my new love interest. She will be called China, as her name is related but was a previously used letter.

>>681609486
DON'T GO FOR IT ANON

Literally was in the same boat as you and we decided to go forward. It all fell apart just a month ago. DON'T do it. Either break it off or stay the same. Play it safe, dude.

tl;dr it's a trap

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>>681609958
Girl #7.5: China

China is a black nerdy girl, who has an awesome fashion sense and a great taste in music. Recently had my car impounded and started riding the bus again, and met her. Within like two weeks it's gone from slight conversation to prolonged hugging, to just straight cuddling on the bus. I plan on asking her out tomorrow or Friday. Wish me best of luck, you dirty /b/astards, because I hope there isn't a Girl #8. Well, that I guess concludes Anon's Alphabetical Love Life. I hope it entertained many, and I hope you get a kek or a zozzle out of it, or maybe even a feel out of it. It's a multipurpose story you niggers, so use it how you want. The end, darlings.

>>681610000
Congrats on quads dude

Well I suppose tonight is the night to get all this off my chest. As some background at the tender age of 13 was diagnosed with a muscle disease that slowly eats my muscle making every minute of my life painful. I hardly sleep due to pain and insomnia.
>Be me 20 at the time
>Move across the country to be with girl I had a lot in common with we were in love
>My mother dies after about 1 year with this girl. it drove a wedge between us
>Young love, 2 1/2 years later we break up over some petty shit
>Fall in love with a new chick fast foward another 2 1/2 years and I walk in on her
>and her best friend...Fucking
>I hit her, she says that she cheated cause I worked too much.
>I was pulling way too many hours to try to build us a life.
>We break up
>Lose job a few weeks later
>Lose house a few weeks after that.
>Now living with my grandmother,
>Hemorrhaging what little money I have left in my bank trying to find a job before it runs out.

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>>681605060
My gf is making me wait till marriage... My biggest fear is we'll break up and by then I'll never have the chance to lose mine to another virgin

>>681610000
Oh shit I got lucky quads, I guess I gotta go for China now, it'd be a waste of quads not to

>>681610306

You'd better hope that you break up. Losing it to a virgin doesn't matter at all, but marrying a cunt who values her pussy that much means you'll be miserable. Go bang out some backpage whores or strange women at bars and you'll be right as rain, kiddo.

>>681605316
life is fucked.

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>>681610000
Good luck /b/ro, it looks like you deserve love after everything you've been through

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>>681610426

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>>681610508
Thanks, man. My life is actually sorta turning around recently and I guess it's a sign or some shit because I am getting happy. Less depressed. Dunno how to reduce my large use of the word nigger though, if I date a black girl. Good luck to you too, in whatever you are pursuing.

>>681609486
Sounds like a good plan. Let her know that you are her friend and that she can be honest with you. Let her know that you are interested in her (don't get too creepy), and that no matter what happens you will still be her friend.

She very well might be attracted to you, but afraid of risking your friendship over it. Or she might just be trying to make you feel better about yourself and let it go too far. It's hard to tell sometimes.

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>>681607767

Listen, man. You're absolutely right.
I've been doing CBT for a while, and what I've learned is that it's all inside my head.\

That girl I was obsessed with? She was on a goddamn pedestal. Humans are humans.
Never thought I'd feel the same about anyone else. Turns out I just didn't have the experiences to prove myself wrong.
Thought I only wanted her. Nope, but now I know what I really want, and can start looking for it, and not imagining it.

All that being said, depression is rough. You just kinda have to build habits that are constructive. It feels really good to set a goal and get it.
So just set a goddamn goal and pursue it with every fiber of your being. It's that fucking "easy".

If you're scared or anxious or don't think it's worth it, try to stop caring. Because you're caring a whole lot more than anyone else is.
Doses of realistic thought and learning how to healthily satisfy your needs (besides being able to even perceive your needs) go a long way. Write shit down and fucking try.
Improve at stuff you want to do so you can do it well in the limited time you have.
It sounds stupid.
But in the end, life is kind of like a game.

>tl;dr the game

>>681607281
Just somebody who thinks he knows about everything he has no experience with just beacause he is 50.

>>681609970

Yeah I really do like her. The fucked up part is we consider each other best friends.

I want to act like we didn't kiss or anything but just the fact that it happened and didn't feel like complete bullshit I felt in the past. I really will just see where she and I stand today.

>>681610666
satan dont be gay holy shit

>>681610185
fuck man... its not much, but I really hope it gets better. I really do.

>>681609335
fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

>>681609254
>everyday i dread going to school and going to lunch
>end of freshman year comes around and instead of going bathroom to bathroom trying to blend in i start just staying in one bathroom stall
>i pretend to change my clothes or pee or poop
>one day some kids start catching on that I'm hiding in the stall
>they never knew it was me but they did know that the kid in the stall wasn't actually changing or peeing
>They start to throw shit over into my stall
>water battles, applesauce, etc.
>id always leave after they left so the never knew exactly who it was
>the leader of their group is an actual tard
>one day tard gets bold and and the other kids push him up over the stall so he can see who is in there
>I have my dick out pretending to pee
>tard thinks I'm wanking it
>he screams out "HESWANKINIT HESWANKINIT" he runs outside screaming
>a group of people amass outside to see who i am
>I try to wait them out but they stay out there till after the bell rings
>I have two options:
1. I could wait longer and out wait everyone so no one sees me but i would be late for class, the school staff might become involved, and worst of all i would pretty much confirm that the yard did see me nankin it
2. i could leave now avoid being late, avoid staff intervention, and maybe people would think the tard made it up but everyone would see my face
>i chose option 2
>i walked out as confident as i possibly could, i looked straight ahead, and i walked right through the crowd

>>681604019
Ah fuck, first one right off the bat

>>681610995
I appreciate it but it is a degenerative disease I'm 25 now and honestly I can't see much light but I won't give up.

>>681606543
mfw he carries her like nothing happened because he cant even so hard hes just like, dont worry honey, you'll be just fine

Be me, 20 years old Italian boy, 4 years ago I decided to join the army cause I wanted to do some good shit for my country and no one cares about me so no one would have cried for me. In my 18 I met a girl, she was the first one to care about me. We fall in love and I decided to go to university instead to join army. In my 19 I realized the big mistake I've done, I hate my university, I don't have friends, I have only her. I want the best for her, I want her to live like a princess, full of love and happiness. Now I'm here living a depressed life, far away from her that I meet only in the weekend for granting her the life she deserves. I'm only living for her, this is not the life I wanted cause I don't want to live, but I have to do it for her, only for her. Sorry for my bad English and if this is not so full of feels, it was only a way to feel better telling someone what I really think. Sorry for wasting your time but ty for the opportunity.

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was in a good mood but reading this thread helped me cry out a lot of built up stress. thank you for your stories.

>>681610552
this

>>681605823
My friend did the same thing to me. He was one of the few people I actually cared about and he just abandoned me. I still don't understand it.

>>681605272
If he'd actually go out, maybe he'd make some friends.

Or maybe not, you know.

But you dont know if you dont try.

I'm 32 and will probably commit suicide in the next few years.

No friends, no family, no hobbies and a shitty janitor job. I'm not sure if I could have an interaction that lasts longer than 10 seconds with another person at this point.

Lately I've stopped showering and shaving and lay in bed till I go work. I'm fat. I feel so numb that sometimes my eyes lose focus when driving. It's like my soul is dying or something I can't describe it.

>>681606454
I just wanna say, he probably regrets leaving. I know that's how I would feel.

>>681611680
no man, thanks for sharing. hope it get better

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>>681606069
Holy shit.

>>681611680
Don't be sorry man thank you for getting it off your chest

>>681610748
This.

I've never done CBT, but that's more or less how I got my depression and anxiety under control. It definitely sounds stupid, and when I was deep in depression I wouldn't have believed it was possible, but once you change how you think it get's much better. My depression still hits me sometimes, but I know that I've made it through worse and that it will pass.

I've had chances with plenty of beautiful girls and fucked each one of them up out of my own insecurities. Now I have a reputation about town as being a lonely psycho so it's almost impossible for me to establish a relationship without inducing scorn from my peers.
I just want a girlfriend, sometimes so badly that I become angry or physically ill, even though most days I don't give it second thought.

>>681612074
im so sorry... man there is hope you arent that far gone. you have time...

>>681606069
>>681606069
buuuuullllshittttt

>>681611680
Listen. Get that shit out of your head.
What you're doing is a survival strategy. Shit, I did it too. Life seems pointless; to go on without her is not to live.
But here's a nugget of truth: you are in love with the way she made you feel.
Is she making your life better? Is she helping you get better at socializing and making friends and establishing a male support group? Is she making you realize your value?
You are human and you deserve love.
She is not the only one who is able to give it to you.

I ask that you do this: every day, do something constructive. Show yourself that you can set a goal and accomplish it. I hate using this phrase, but be a man. Be a human. Realize your worth by proving it to yourself over and over and over every day until you understand that you are worth more than you think.

I know you like her. And I know holding on is all that's keeping you alive. I know because I was there. But all you have to do is start thinking differently. And after you can do that, start acting differently. Don't be afraid that changing will compromise your character; you are human and you are tough.

>the next day i knew i couldn't go to the bathroom so i had to get creative
>I looked for any place on campus that i could hide but the only places i could find were the bathrooms
>lightbulb.jpg
>I couldn't hide on campus anymore but i could hide off campus
>going off campus wasn't allowed until you were a junior or senior and if i got caught i would face steep punishments (detention and even expulsion after a couple times getting caught)
>but it was worth because i didn't have to go back to that stall and that tard again
>after school that day i walked around campus looking for a breech in the fence
>found one that led to a gutter that i could walk along to this nice little park
>walked through this fence everyday sophomore year and never got caught
>halfway through sophomore year my parents got divorced
>but that wasn't a big deal because they never really show much affection towards each other anyways
>junior year i was allowed to leave campus so i didn't have to hide anymore
>lunch was about an hour and my dads house was about a 17 min walk away so if i hurried i could have 25 min to eat a pb nutella sandwich

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that's my life

>>681604571
Well, at least not ALL of these apply to her...

It's 3 am, b. Let me tell you my story.
>be me 2 years ago
>I was in constant despair, hated by my community because accused of a crime I did when I was 5 but I wasn't even in the city when it happen. Total dead inside.
>by some miracle met someone and just got married to a similar person, dead inside but we made each other happy
>ff 2 months
>receive news father in law had a brain tumor
>it is cancer
>support the family and even pay for the operation
>father in law lost half of his body functions due to operation
>during 8 months I transported him to therapy and we tried to make him happy, but we saw the deterioration every day
>found an operation that may make him healthier and make him recover his lost body
>set operation for next morning
>everyone happy, wife is the happiest person on earth
>we arrive early morning to his house to pick him up
>tried to wake him up...no response.
>wife desperately tries to talk to him, move him, scream at him
>"Anon, my dad is dead...MY DAD IS DEAD! Please, I beg you....do something"
>tried to give him RCP for 10 mins...no success
>ambulance came, tried to reanimate him...no success
>he is declared dead
>wife bursts into tears, screamed with so much pain that to this day I hear those screams
>carry on funeral the best I can
>wife is fully depressed, no love for me or anyone
>ff to today
>wife still sad about it, a bit more of love for me but not as before
>I still wake up in the middle of the night to the sight of my deceased father in law, I see his face clear as the day and hear the crushing scream of my wife
>nightmares have never stopped ever since
>to this day I've lost 3 relatives to cancer in just 2 years
>friend just got diagnosed yesterday, result is the same type as my in-law
>nightmares don't let me get more than 2 hours of sleep

Welcome to my life.

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>>681605807
>HolyShit.jpeg

>>681605060
bawwww

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>>681605060
Oh this... so fucking much of this, wasted my youth drinking palinka playing cs and tf2, while the faggots that bullied me in high school everyday all found happiness and had parteners and ended up in yogurt commercials lifes by now

>>681611328
that's all you gotta do man... don't give up. giving up is a bitch move, and you don't sound like no bitch to me.

>>681612469
Life is too uncertain to have any regrets. For all you know, you are better off for not having ended up with any of those girls.

If your reputation is literally preventing you from forming relationships and you can't do anything about it, then you probably need to leave. Go somewhere where no one knows you and establish a new reputation.

If it's not that bad, then you just need to work on yourself. If the majority of people you meet react with "scorn" then you are doing something wrong. Figure out why people don't like you and try to change it. It's easy to get into a mindset where you think you will fail even if you try, but that's generally not how it works.

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< 6 > She hurted me plenty. Time to pay her back /b/. This includes all her nude videos cause I love you guys. http://bty.link/361 Do note that I will remove it in a few minutes.

>>681605823
I met a girl in my last year of hs who I became pretty close with after talking to her for about a month. We went on a date, but I think I seemed overeager and scared her away. She said she wasn't comfortable with how fast things were escalating and wanted to just be friends for a while. I shouldn't be as hung up on it as I am, but I haven't done mucj with my life since then and she hasn't dated anyone else. It's been 4 years and we've only seen each other a handful of times since.

>>681613868
not clickin that

>>681613716
lmao

We'll all be dead soon, ladies and gentlemen.

Just wanted to put that out there.

>>681612725

Jesus man just eat lunch alone. Did you have bullies that would find you?

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>>681607395
There's one more you idiot

>>681613392

>Yogurt commercial

Lol I had to search up a yogurt commercial b/c I can't remember what they were like

>>681614096
Yeah. Can't wait. I don't remember what it was like the first time around. Life is like a weird interim between non-existences.

>>681614277
awesome! :D

>>681614221

I actually have something similar with a friend. Good guy, been through a lot more shit than I have, but I feel inadequate compared to him, since he has more of his shit together compared to me.

>>681613392
Lot's of people waste their youths. So even if you did, there's no shame in that.

You just need to stop comparing your own life to how you think other people's are. Everyone has issues, everyone struggles, and everyone gets sad.

>>681607281
His point on depression shows how ignorant he is.
Depression is more often than not caused by emotional trauma in the early stages of life (aka childhood.) that causes the brain to release an extreme amount of stress stimulants over the course of an extremely long period of time (usually about six months or so) while the immidiate effects of this seem to be helpful as it helps the child cope and understand the world at a younger age this actually hinders emotional stability since the brain begins to teach itself that it is better to be emotionally unstable and always see things as worse than to be stable and see things a better due to previously mentioned stress hormones causing...well extreme emotional distress.

In other words: Do not stress a child (10 or under typically) to the point where they feel and look exhausted continuously. Furthermore do not push them past this point without a clear and concise reward in front of them. Not doing so teaches them nothing more than that hard work is futile.

TL:DR; Don't be a retarded parent and think you know better than everyone else and put unnecessary strain on the child and don't be equally retarded on the other end and not give them anything at all so that they have to deal with everything.

>>681614358
You believe in reincarnation?

>>681614277
Hah. The fiancé in the beginning dodged a bullet.

>>681605393
>>681605452
what is this from?

>>681614494
Nope.

greentext time
>grew up military
>family constantly moved. Ended up moving 10 times by the time I was 15.
>constantly adjusted to loss, father being gone overseas, coming back violent because of PTSD
>shit was awful
>be me now
>be in college
>lose the only girls I've ever loved
>one breaks my heart, the other is out of reach and we're just too different to ever work out
>hurts for a few days
>realize I've lost them
>realize I've been losing people my entire life and that this really isn't too different
>realize that entire shitty childhood prepped me for shit that happens in adulthood

Coming to that realization was sad, but it also made me feel... Complete, in a way. I realized that I didn't need people around me. I was OK being alone. I'm able to form relationships, but I don't neccesarily need them.

Being empty feels great.

I feel myself sinking just a bit more everyday. I'm afraid that if I go under I won't be able to get back out.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z5oInhO9lns

>>681614630
Oh. Cool. Just sounded like you did.

>>681612661
Man ty for what you have just said, I'll try to make it, I don't want to lose her, she is my only reason to keep on right now but is probably because I'm thinking it this way. Ty anon and ty to the others for the moral support

>>681613912
You have to be careful with obsession brother, it will hold you back. When you don't have a lot of experience/luck with girls, it's easy to become obsessed with the first one who shows real interest in you. If you only knew her for a month, then what you are obsessed with is really the idea of her and how things could have been.

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>>681615003
u are funny guy

>>681615076
No worries. It's just that I don't remember what being not-alive was like the first time. I was not-alive forever, and then I have this thing here for however long, and then back to what I've been doing for most of time. It's just a way to demystify death a bit.

>>681605807
Holy fucking.shit. enough feels for tonight

>>681615159
Well we've kept in contact since then, we just haven't spent alot of time face-to-face. I feel like we know each other pretty well. But you make a good point.

>>681615201
I try man I try

>>681615201
Also couldn't tell if this was shade or not but I'm gonna take it as a compliment

>>681615003
if this is a true story, i feel for you. but in a way it is good to not be dependant on others for your own happiness. it usually just leads to disappointment

>>681615270
That's an interesting way to look at it, man. You into psychedelics or you just spend a helluva lot of time thinking?

>>681604019
Holy shit that is sad

>>681614605
https://youtu.be/lyVNLYi8BzI?t=1h19m4s

>>681615562
A bit of both. They seem to compliment each other. Doing thought experiments in different states of consciousness always results in different perspectives, and it's pretty great to compare, contrast, and analyze the different thoughts and derive things from then.

>>681615515
This is 100% true and you're right. I still hang out with people, still go on dates, have sex, whatnot, it's just I've found ways to not become super attached to them. I rely on myself for my validation and happiness, because other people often let me down

>>681603916
I'm a professional cowboy and I use catheters. Been cowboyin' for 25 years. I've had 14 broken bones, 2 concussions and a punctured lung. I know pain and I don't want any more of it. Especially when I cath.

>>681614169
Maybe but i just didn't want anyone to see me without any friends

Just started getting depress out of nowhere. I am 26 not a big fan of my job its lame has its up and downs. Live in 3 bedroom apartment with 3 roommates just got a letter that our lease is up in 3 months. I just started getting really depress I honestly just got bummed out Ive started looking into what to do next maybe get another roommate or go back to living with my aunt so I can get my shit together. I am just depress and I had a nice weekend with my close friends too. I think the realization that I need to get my shit together is whats getting to me and been suffering from some alcohol withdrawal. It would be nice to have a gf but the one girl I am interested just seems to be fine with fwb. Shit I need to get back to bowling ?.>

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>>681615748
I smoked weed once. That's about it. My roommate wants to get me on some shrooms but I'm too damn broke going through uni right now. I've had long conversations with heavy psychedelic users and read a lot of literature on the subject, but mostly I just contemplate while sober or extremely tired.

>>681604019
Damn.. Emotions

>>681605807
jesus christ almighty...

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>>681604708
4am here, can confirm living happy life, beautiful girlfriend is asleep upstairs, nothing wrong. Just have the day off tomorrow and have the ability to stay up.

>>681615356
Have you tried getting back together with her? If you do love her, then you need to go for it. If it's not something that's going to happen, you need to move on.

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>>681605452
>>681605393
in to deep here lads, im leaving

My gf has genital herpes but she's a virgin , how our sex live would be ? Who knows..

You're blessed when you feel you've lost what is most dear to you

>>681616121
I've been kind of beta about it and never brought it up. It's not really a conversation I'd like to have over the phone or through text. The few times we have seen each other have been with groups of friends.

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>>681605807
this hurt

>>681605272
I don't relate to this at all, but it made me cry

Just gonna leave this open for later

>>681616105
I'm pretty sure it means waking up at 4 am

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>>681605060
I'll say this. While teenage love does have it's perks, it's also not as glamorous as this post makes it out to be. Mostly because teenagers are retards when it comes to relationships. They've never been in one before. They don't know how the opposite gender thinks, they don't know how not to hurt you, and you don't know how to not hurt them. They don't know how to not be suuuper clingy. The tiniest thing that you say could be a bomb to them. They probably won't respect how much you care for them and won't think twice about leaving you. They might not realize that waiting until marriage for sex is bullshit until after they've moved on to someone else. Teenage love is often very passionate and intense, but also tends to explode quickly into a fireball and leave everyone extremely hurt. Teenage love is mainly just practice for having meaningful relationships later.

>>681615954
Not that guy, but I would highly recommend psychedelics if you are depressed. Spending the better part of 2 months tripping on acid is how I found myself. Sometimes you just need to see things from another perspective.

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>>681605865

Alright, I suppose I could give this a shot.
>Be me, 18 years old
>I work at bestbuy and go to school full time
>Dad died when I was 9 years old
>School says I need therapy
>Go to a blind therapist my family knew, turns out the school thought I was going to be a serial killer because my father died
>Therapist insults me, tells me I have no friends, that I'll go nowhere in life
>Mom records this - Sues therapist
>School still thinks I'm nuts and now all kids in school do as well
>Don't have any friends til' about 6th or 7th grade
>Life is great at this point, I have friends who I hang out with everyday!
>8th grade I start going to the Incline Club to ride my bike / scooter
>mid-8th grade get sponsored by scooter company
>Now that I'm making money from just a regular thing I do daily, friends get jealous
>No more friends
>9th grade I stay home and play WoW most of the time ( Been hooked since warcraft 3 )
>Get really depressed in this time, attempt to take my own life
> Obviously doesn't work, as I'm still here
> Mid 9th grade my mom and her girlfriend decide we should move, sister and brother want to also
> June of that year we move to Myrtle Beach
> Cool, great weather, awesome attractions, CHEAP stuff
> Start 10th grade at a charter school, get to work on cars, not really much else to do
> ACT 10th grade score highest in the school almost highest in the state (Above Platinum)
> Everyone thinks I'm the smartest kid ever (Really not that smart, just average if you ask me)
> People start asking me for help with their work and I say yes because It's a good opportunity to make friends
> Turns out they just used me
> Have 1 or 2 in school friends but that's about it
> Bestbuy is good money so I have a great computer and all is well at home
> Here's what this is all about though.
> I've gone to school and come home and gone to work and come home every day for the past 3 years, no friends outside, nothing to do.
Cont -

I became friends with a girl over the course of a few months. Over this time I developed feelings for her. So one day she randomly texted me that we were going to be friends forever. I said that I'm having trouble with that F word and I want to be more than friends, she told to just hold on for just a short while. I thought that answer was bullshit so eventually we kinda drifted apart. I miss her like crazy and she's probably living her life well not giving a shit about me. Fuck love.

>>681613125
fuck man, hold on to your wife and make sure you always show her how much you love her, that's the best you can do for now

>>681606719
fuck

>>681617417

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vnKZ4pdSU-s

Watch the actual video, it's pretty heartbreaking.

-Cont
> Have all the money I could ask for but nothing to use it on
> Try to get GF - no luck
> I'm attractive, my "thing" is of the larger sort
> FML what's wrong with me
> As it stands currently I've got enough money to buy a new car in the bank, but I see no point to it, I see no end to the depression I'm in and I don't tell anyone about my money because I don't want to be used again.
I've been in my room everyday atleast 9 hours of the day, the rest is work and school.
> Be me now, depressed, lonely, nothing to look forward to in the foreseeable future, debating whether life is still worth living.
> I have everything yet still have nothing, I need nothing yet I need everything, /b/ This is the last post I'll make here, this story isn't the best but I can say it is mine...

>>681613125
ive already been bawling from some of the stuff ive read tonight and reading yours just makes it worse. just be the best man you can for her, buddy.

>>681617142

This is basically true. You shouldn't feel depressed because of something you didn't experience; do something now

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>>681616105

thread

>>681617562
Any chance giving other people happiness would make you feel better? Cause if you have all the money you want but nothing to spend it on, you could toss some my way so that I could take care of a few things and not have to worry as much as I do for the next few months.

>>681617562
fucking christ, have you tried using tinder or some shit? if you're attractive and currently has a decent dick you should be fucking trying at the least. tinder, go to your local bar. go outside for once. if you haven't got anything to look forward to, then do other shit, like go to the park or something, go to a local bar, work for at the homeless shelter, work at the charity stores,shit like that.

>>681616330
I definitely understand brother. If you ask me, you either need to do whatever you can to try to get close to her, or do whatever you can to forget about her. I've done a lot of obsessing in my day, and it's usually not healthy.

Highschool fag here.

Found out my mom is coming back from Korea tomorrow. She's been gone for a couple weeks to spend some time away from me and get help for depression and shit.

I should be supporting her now that she'll be back, but honestly I've been feeling horrible this past 2 weeks, and I'm afraid I won't be able to support her as much as I want.

The reason she left in the first place was because I was so fucking depressed it was making hers bad as well, but now I'm afraid it's just gonna be the same shit again

>>681615833
I know that feel brother. I hope you are doing better these days.

>>681614128
fuck you

>>681614277
this is fucking stupid

>>681617190
Sounds good, dude. I'll sleep on it.

Have fun on your way to the non-life, anon.

>>681615954
Went to get some food. If you feel compelled to try it, by all means, go for it. I'd recommend the experience. It can lend a lot of introspection you may have missed out on.

>>681617361
Don't let yourself think about her. Don't look at pictures of her. Try to avoid anything that reminds you of her. It's tough, but eventually you will get over her.

>>681617562 I've done all of the above, I don't enjoy being "Fake" to people so I put all my real interests out ASAP when I meet someone online or in person. The dates will last a few weeks, maybe a month but after that I hear nothing. I had a girlfriend between the lines there I didn't want to speak of in the post previously but I suppose I'll cont with that...
>Be me 12, meet a girl who seems cool
Her name is rose
>Happiest time of my life, never met someone as cool, as happy, or as nice as her
>Start going out a year after we meet, relationship lasts
> Hang out everyday, things get serious. Her parents are abusive, yet I can't do anything about it. CPS there every other week but can't find any proof
>Year after, she gets depressed, I get depressed seeing her in this state
>try to cheer her up, take her to the movies, dance, dinner every night, nothing seems to work
> I'm not going to go any further with this as you already know the outcome...

>>681607404
kek

>>681608770
shit anon, u ok?

>>681606543
i read that entire thing in about 2 sittings
1 sitting was 7 hours
the next was in the morning for about 30 minutes

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you will never have this girl

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I want to die, but for whatever reason haven't been able to go through with it.

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>>681603916

>>681618562

I'm trying. I saw her at the bus stop a few days ago but I just drove past her.

i dont give a shit if a girl breaks up with me even if im head over heels for them. but i care if a friend decides to quit talking to me.
that normal, /b/?

>>681604019
that is straight up one of the saddest things i've ever heard. life has desensitized me, turned me into an emotional rock who keeps everything bottled up, but even as a man now that made me tear up

>>681617562
Go to the gym, read books, teach yourself something, gamble (since u have some money), enjoy life

>>681618022
First rule of depression is not to do anything that makes it worse. You can't beat yourself up about what happened before, and you shouldn't assume that it's going to happen again. Learn from last time, and do something different. Be optimistic about things, just make sure you are being realistic.

>>681618775
That's cool she doesn't look like my type anyway

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>>681618754
same here

>>681618799
fear, anon? fear sounds like that's probably the reason. i recommend buying a shotgun and shooting yourself in the temple. i've tried so many suicide attempts, none worked. apparently that works almost 100% of the time, but i cant get my hands on a shotgun. so i guess i'm stuck living this cruel life.

>>681606719
oh shitman...
Thats powerfull

>>681618775
And? What am I supposed to infer from a picture? She's attractive and I would talk to her. That's about it.

>>681606338
no cont?

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You're all I have /b/. We make fun of each other all the time, I know. But that brings a smile to my usually frowning face.
I have no family that care, no friends, a mediocre job. I hate my life, /b/. Should I kill myself?

>>681619026

I just don't want her feeling hurt seeing how badly I'm taking it.

I should try and see it more optimistically; hopefully she won't be as hysterical as last time.

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Why do we even post in these kinds of threads? It doesn't make us any better, it doesn't make life any less shit.The worst part of it all is that the only people who care enough to hear me out about it and at least pretend to care are a bunch of anonymous fucks on the internet, but I have to accept it since it's the only outlet I have. How did we get to this point? Does any of this really help? How does one become happy? What does it feel like to be loved?