>>677763488
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>>677763488
the area in your brain which is responsible for the processing of audible stimulus has to much dopamine in it. your hearing your own thoughts all the time.

>>677763535
Thats not even close to me talking about the voices giving thoughts or the madness that ensues with the voices

>>677763817
right
But the visions

Auditory and visual hallucinations develop into things

I mean Im sick fine

I just wanna hear about others voices

>>677763488
Its more like the voice in your head lacks stimulating, so it creates it's own stream of consciousness to keep you trucking.

However schizophrenia is categorised as a condition in which you think the world is a separate entity to you, which you then begin to view as hostile, unless you manage to nip it in the bud and relax yourself.

Talk to people, do things that use your body, don't just sit thinking 24/7..

Anyway, that's my 2 cents

>>677764011
i developed psychosis thanks to lsd and weed but i never had any voices. just visual hallucinations. like when i was staring at my hand i could see the flesh beneath it. do you take any meds?

>>677764011
what do the voices say?

>>677763817
What is the difference between what you mentioned and your conscience?

>>677764115
Well

I thought I got drugged and raped one day after having bad dreams people abducted me and did stuff to me

Then voices came after I had made a report about how it happened

Thought I got doped with scopolamine

Anywho police reports and nothing happening rapes in the middle of the night develop

One day I begin to hear voices

Weird thing is it was a black guy rapping

On my track mind you

I told his bitch ass to shut the fuck up and hop off the beat before I got hostile


Shit progressed


Dreams got more wierd

Less rapey
Ill go on

>>677764319
Just listen

I start waking up from the dreams in funny positions

Like I was drinking beers with some guys in my dream and I woke up with my arm out holding a beer that wasnt there

Real strange


Then I start running across all these people who knew me
But I didnt know them

I got friendly with the voices to a point

We would talk about hilarious things
Get high
And make music together

Mind you
I freak the fuck out about getting ass raped and get hospitalized

In the hospital people start coming up to me and saying the strangest shit

A doctor asked me what this magic was
Never mentioned magic
She seemed scared as fuck

Crazy shit
Ima keep going all night on this shit

>>677764494
you hear your own thoughts inside your head. but if you have schizo you hear them as if someone is speaking to you. your brain processes these thought shred as a stimulus from outside. and you cant control them. you cant identify with them as your own thoughts so someone else must be speaking to you.

>>677764494
The difference is you arn't in control of when the voices start, stop or what they say. Usually its about totally irrational subject matter, and it appears as if you have someone else in your head. The term schizophrenia actually comes from an old greek word roughly translating into two minds.

>>677765172
Listen my left eyes pupil wont close and I got an mri of an object behind it

Real strange


So Im in the hospital doctors acting strange

A chick that was hot asked me to have sex

And I did a lot

Like real pretty asian chick
Like you wouldnt think Id be fucking her at all

>>677765427
what would be interesting if someone who has schizophrenia is taking LSD. you already have schizo so getting it wont be a problem but the effects on your brain would be interesting.

>>677765575
Thats when the term 'schtizing out' takes effect, and you get some guy mowing down 10 people with an ak47 because they have black hair and the voices tell you people with black hair are evil or some other crazy irrational reason.

>>677765188
Let me finish

Now the one of the rappers in my head was sean price

Now I never knew this guy

He died

Dont hear em no more

Real strange


Now I meet this cat named hakim who like the doctor mentioned magic

So it was like the doctor was asking me about what this motherfucker was talking about

But that was before I ever met Hakim

And this girl Anna

Kept singing and asking me to get her out

But she would look at me and hold her hair and the shit would start moving

Like a sci fi movie freaky bitch got hair that moves on its own

Real wierd
Ima keep going

By the way this is ButtonMash

The guy a bunch of bronies made a cartoon about
Look it up

Real wierd shit

When I smoke pot to excess I become inaudible, mumble when spoken to and apethetic. I don't add to conversations in reality, but in my mind I am verbal and joke around and the conversation goes back and forth. I tend to just smile because it is entertaining and just as fulfilling as a normal conversation. I'm aware this is in my mind. Do you think I should be cautious with hallucinogens? I've taken acid before, had a lovely time on it.
Depression flows in my mothers genetics. My dad was adopted, his genetics are unknown.

>>677764658
Holy fuck, thanks for my next concept album, seriously.

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>>677763488
I do, yes.

Honestly its not as hard to deal with as people make it out to be. Most of the time i find it hard to sleep because my brain cant really be quiet. Throughout the day, if i do something entertaining, i hardly notice it. in addition to that im also on seroquel and lithium to help balance me out.

not all schizophrenics are nutcases. just most.

>>677765915
Im pretty sure thats totally normal dude.

>>677765575
Oh I ate mad mushrooms

This chick I met on the train told me about that shit
Never saw the woman in my life
Started yelling at me and talking about her brother knowing about drugs and asking me if I need lithium
Scary as fuck

Listen motherfuckers shit is going down and I cant contain my laughter no more

It is so crazy


Anyway so I had these imaginary friends

Sometimes a black metal band
Sometimes Sean price
Sometimes two girls

Like I was at the bar kicking it with some og's as usual and I made a joke and said no one is safe
And I swear on everything this nigga sean price popped up like a hologram next to me and said everybody is getting it
Strangest shit
Ima keep going

>>677765976
Yeah the medicine gives me very painful eps
And shit gets more strange still

>>677766290
this is amazing dont stop

>>677766074
When I took LSD, I smoked green to company it. It intensified my trip in a well matter, but at one point I wanted to explore a morbid part of my brain. I was at the beach, near a cliff, and I questioned myself "why don't I jump off?" then a sea of bitter reassurance came, words like "why don't you?" Flooded my mind. For awhile I was overwhelmed because I just created a snowball effect, and for moments I couldn't cease the thought loop. It was probably only for 10 seconds but the thought repeated itself. I ended up taking a deep breathe and rationalising to myself that it was a beautiful day and the sun is up. I was happy after that, didn't go into as much depth as I had at that moment. Still thought of death, but not in that way. Is that odd?

>>677765915
i had some signs before i developed psychosis. like racing thoughts. i couldnt control them when i smoked pot. things started to get weird. once i smoked pot and everytime my friends smiled i loked... strange. like the smile was just a mask. so if you have racing thoughts ore realy weird shit happen while you are high be careful.

>>677766290
Like the visions are people reacting to me doing shit making funny gestures or doing dumb things
Like one of the girls
Was swimming in a fish tank at the restaurant
Hilarious
Anyway the scary shit is
I started getting crazy shit happening in public
Like a convoy of cars following me And meeting people on the train who had newspapers that had religious stuff on em
Like they were there to scare the pants off my ass
Guy told me he worked for the post office
Got a pamphlet with a picture of a satellite on it talking about jesus that had a question if I believed in jesus
I do know btw
And had a spot for your signature

All hell is breaking loose mind you

>>677766599
no. thats acid.

>>677766802
So after all this
The voices told me about tor

For real

Instructed me where to go

Ended up on facebook and youtube

And all the shit I had got to was about the apocalypse and the rapture

Real fucking scary


http://www.amazon.com/BENEDICTA-Marian-Norcia-The-Monks/dp/B00V66GNMQ
Saw about this

Then one day the monk talking in the videos if you look

Ended up riding a bike past me

Thought his as was in norcia

Apparently not

And he says How are you gentlemen and rides away

Like he was talking to the voices and mad about the shit

After this shit
No more imaginary friends
Joke kinda fall away
Fucked up rape dreams
And funny dreams turn into demonic possessions
I start losing days at a time

Like completely out wake up days later and find out I went to see doctors

I end in the hospital and they let me out qiuck

Nigga Im in the matrix for real at this point
Ima keep going

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>>677763488

>be me
>gf is schizo
>voices tell her she'll die next Friday
>I made fun of it, "look, only 48 hours to die"
>eventually Friday comes
>did she died? nope
>I made fun of it, "I was correct, voices were drunkeniggas on drugs"
>her first laugh in weeks

>ff one year, she's still on pills
>no extra voices episodes, but i'm sick it could start again
>she dumps me for the 4th time
>atlast!.jpg
>didn't do anything to regain her
>now she's dating a fedora-equipped neckbeard
>can't wait to see what happens when him finds out about her
>pic almost related - just add neckbeard and glasses

>>677767642
you dont want to mix your genepool with this schizoshit so its better to let her go.

>>677766726
I try to avoid smoking around people I don't know because I become anxious about my behaviour. Like I act the same when I'm by myself; I'm quiet, content with self, senses enhanced. But with others it's different. For example, I was smoking with people I hardly knew, they were playing video games and I was staring at the art work of the game, absolutely fascinated of how beautiful it was. It was a loading screen for forza aha my vision became less focused on the car, an I noticed a guy was looking at the TV whilst I was, our eyes locked then and I became anxious as fuck after that because it may have appeared I was just staring at him. The mood of the room changes if I'm high I detect too, people seem to converse less.
Idk, I've learned to smoke in moderation and by myself is more fun. I get to play guitar care free and listen to my own favoured music, listening to others music is cool too.
Thoughts can rush, but they are easily contained by putting the view into something else. Going for a walk, playing guitar, YouTube. When my thoughts do rush, it's of hindsight things I destroyed accedentally; friendship and loves of my life mostly

>>677767397
Mind you I got my ear in the street cause Im in the trap and shit is going haywire for real

Yall know about this shit

Anyway its calm right now

But I can go on


Anyone ever get told you are good looking by the voices and end having sex with ghost?

Cause I never heard that shit

Then I hear about succubi
Oh hell no

This shit is so crazy

Like I wish I wasn't serious and I was schizo for real

Like ass rape to being in a world filled with holograms I interact with to the rapture

This shit gotta stop

Im laughing about this shit but it aint funny

I have gone mad in the face of shit that would make anyone go I suppose

Yo the succubi are freaky

Straight zap my asshole and suck my dick

Oh I dint even mention the motherfucker aliens

Really the anyone paying attention please help me
Im not kidding or fabricating any of this

>>677767642
Listen man I had sex with schizo girl

The asian one if you read all of my shit

She said the same thing was happening to her
Kept telling me I worked for the hospital
Said if we had sex that she could go
Amongst other things
But I told her no over and over
And the ho tells me this after we fuck
Like oh I did this to help myself
Felt used
We kept fucking tho
And she got out

So all in all

>>677767972
I don't know what I can do for you but you sure are helping me, friend.

>>677768230
So if anyone is listening Im with my momma in the hood
Aint shit changed in my life

Im still on welfare

Sept Im about to get cut a check


I really hope I dont get abducted no more for real

If I could only explain the shear terror of waking up days later from an abduction after seeing all this

But a pimp gotta keep pimping

Tired of this bullshit

>>677768487
have you actually read all of what I wrote

Man the voices are the ones writing this shit
Im just a vessel

That gets ass raped and shit

Remember sticking a water bottle up my ass then blacking out
Real fucked up

>>677768500
do you take antipsychotics? i took olanzapine for a period of time. made me realy tired but it helped with my thoughts alot.

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>be me, lousy coder
>hear voices
>asked them for programming advice
>at first they would never answer, I laughed at them
>"I'll only listen to you if you outsmart me"
>they slowly began giving me codesnippets
>female one was most expert in OOP, male was better at debugging
>I only talked with them about job-related issues
>shipped on schedule
>coworkers named me "john nash" and ask for advice without the slightest sign of making fun
>eventually voices faded away

TL;DR: schizo profited own "voices", taught himself OOP coding, got respect by coworkers

>>677768636
every word

>>677768703
A unique relationship with consciousness can be harnessed.

>>677768636
I couldnt move but my body was sticking a water bottle up my ass

Getting ready for some dick I guess

Mind you all of this Im surrounded by murdering drug dealing motherfuckers on a level that my skinny white ass dont need no part of

Now being friends with killers prepared my ass

So to speak

For this shit

No that I ever

But My mind was ready for some shit to go down

Just not to this extent

Man this shit is hilarious

Crossed eyed dirty little weed smoking toddler ends up in the matrix

This some shit for ripleys

For real

Seeing my sister get beat by a killer and I cant feel nothing


You know what its like to be around killers for real?
How you feel Like you might have to kill them?

That shit never leaves you

For real I need help
People listen I know you watching
Someone save my ass

Literally

>>677768894
Harenessed
Motherfucker I kicked the door to hell in and I rule the world

All this shit

How I really feel

Im a go down but I saw the truths

I walk like a man on fire

I dont do shit but skate,drink and smoke

And life aint good

But motherfucker my actions opened the gates

Pandora's box exploded

Shit is so real

Ill never doubt my life again
Only crave to change the future
But we are helpless to do what we want sometimes

>>677769455
So anyway I into pain

Like masochism

I asked

Begged rather

And my cock started to vibrate and it felt like my foot was being stabbed

Super intense


Listen Im like a fucking warlock


Im a retard
Im probably in store for some real bad shit

But I feel like a fucking sorcerer

The whole hologram and ghost sex stuff has changed me so much

>>677769750
You know I feel like I lost a friend
This Sean P cat was hilarious

And one of the best rappers I ever heard
For real

Ima just throw that in

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cjlXDRT18QA


Peace to the nation of islam and all the other religious groups involved in this madness

Sounds a lot like having a tulpa

>>677770014
I guess we are done


If feels good writing this shit down

I know if you dont know you aint gunna believe this shit

I love all of you

I never had shit but my momma and my sister

Ima lose them

Shit I kinda did already

But this gave me the world

And Ill never go back

So about a month ago, I took about 650ug of lsd, and essentially had my first ever difficult time on acid. Done it probably close to 100 times in the last 3 years, but this was fucking scary.
Started seeing the corners of reality getting chopped and folded in very quick stabby motions.

The floor pattern spread up my leg and I started thinking my chest was tight.

Long story short, a few hours later, and I was hearing two copies of my voice talking. Like one was my normal thinking narration, but the other was talking back. I remember envisioning myself sitting across the room and feeling very scared.

My mind kept on involuntarily 'popping', which felt like my sanity was a very very thin wire that was about to snap, and every time it got plucked, I'd get that popping feeling and have a mega eye twitch. At the end of the night, I felt as if someone was climbing out of my head.

All through that night, I thought I'd really done it. I was convinced I had developed schizophrenia, which made it much worse.

I think I'm okay now, but I still feel slightly weird about it. Not that I'm outwardly crazy, but that I might have something deep in my mind that isnt entirely me . Scary shit! Sound anything like I should be worried about or was I just tripping major balls?

>>677770054
Its like being a in the arms of god

Terrifying moments
Joyous moments
Funny Moments
and I can go on

My path in life is at the foot of all creation

I feel holy sometimes

Like I have been chosen to see the world god gave us

People suffer in ignorance that fell from me

I know men did this but god
The gods

Whoever loves my ass

Tulpa aint to far away from what this is tho I guess

>>677770361
I would love to say that drugs did this
But they are a small part of this
Very interesting

Hi by the way
My name is charles
Ima cyborg

>>677770549
this thread is raw af

>>677770361
if you develope schizophrenia most of the time you dont realy know that something is wrong. schizos think the world around them is wrong and not the inside of their mind.

>>677770753
Raw as it gets my man
From the hood in NewJersey mind you

Where else does this shit go down

People always say NJ is the worst

They might be right my man

>>677770771
Yeah unless a weapons system inside him got switched on

The doctors did a lot more then diagnose schizophrenia

This worlds gunna turn

No matter how crazy shit gets

From what I know

>>677771070
Mean while my left pupil is sitting open and I have documentation of implants in my body

Im a motherfucking cyborg

A fucking robotic warlock sitting in the hands of god

Shit is crazy my man
Ha!

>>677770744
Yeah I dunno I've always been kinda weird, hence the reason I love acid so much. Its certainly had a profound effect on my mind, I'm good and bad ways, but yeah it kinda felt like something in my head wasn't right and that's why the acid got me like it did. Thanks dude!

>>677770771
This is actually what my buddy told me when I eventually admitted to feeling horrible. It makes perfect sense to be fair. I knew something was wrong, but I was aware of what I'd done. It just felt like my mind, my entire reality, was fractured and on the very edge of just snapping. I hope I don't have anything major but there's probably something lol

>>677771278
you guys know about the illumanati closing there hand over there left eye?

Strange thing is my left eye has this thing made of metals behind it as a doctor told me

Listen kids
Who ever you are

I cant prepare yo asses
Which probably gunna get fucked
Less you the one fucking asses
Scoundrels
But listen
Shit is going down
A billionaire cowboy told me to listen to country and go to church
Something tells me its not a bad idea

>>677771278
you are a biomachine. everyhuman is one. in my psychosis i saw things the way what they realy are. humans looked like machines. without soul. i could feel the chemicals in their brain working while they talked to me. all their intentions, dreams and thoughts are based of former impressions and experiences. you have no free will. im typing this right now because i got a stimulus from this thread to type this what i type. in the end everything is just the same shit. atoms. only in different orders. but matter isnt even realy matter. the is no "solid" matter. matter is made out of the relationship between elementary particles. no such thing as solid. and those particles are energy. but no one knows what energy realy is. in the end reality is a big great lie.

>>677771431
You may have had this happen over and over throughout you life
Just cant put the pieces together

Go back

Ever see a ghost?
Thought you saw something that wasnt there?

All my childhood our houses were haunted

Me and my sister were both molested along all the other children in my family
Being aroused at strange times
You know about those phantom boners kids get
Yeah real funny
Meanwhile its a pedophile behind a machine
Man I could talk about what I think is really happening if you want
Being aroused as a little boy in embarrassing moments, getting molested, being haunted in terrifying ways, all other types of strange activity


Just so happens people rape me when I get older

This shit is wicked

>>677772122
Well that is very interesting
Unfortunately I have met men in real life

Im not here for games or fun topics

But I am having fun

>>677772314
You sit down and talk to a man who knows stuff and shit changes

>>677770771
it could be derealisation. i got that from a panicattack on weed. everything seemed odd. i cant even describe it. like the reality wasnt realy there. everything seems fadding away. its not the same as being schizo because you know that there is something wrong but it is very scary. sometimes i didnt even know if i was realy me.

>>677772417
Very fun time I have been having but I assure this is the most serious shit you will ever confront

Explain that the world I know was controlled by people abusing me as a kid in a fucking global network of extremely powerful murderess and rapist and kid fuckers

My ass is an open market now

There out know way out

My mind isnt my own

God might take me tho

I got that

>>677772461
I never had reality change
Just things added to it

Being scared is scary tho

>>677772844
this thread went off topic

Meanwhile Im in the matrix

Knee deep in some succubus pussy High as fuck on meth
And these niggers calling out positions

Dick ends up swelling up to like fow times its size for like two weeks

Ima relapse

I need help people
True story BTW

>>677773242
try olanzapin. it can help you sort your thoughts out. and the voices are getting more silent.

>>677773242
Nigga you're an interesting guy, and I enjoy reading your shit, but lay off the meth dude. It cant be helping your sutuation mate

>>677773663
>>677773527
I got olanzipine officer
I'll live

Man the meth is a bonus for going through this shit

Man they make me paranoid then a motherfcuker when they want

Me getting crazy with a succubitch high on meth is in the contract
Fine print
Gotta READ IT

>>677773893
Really I get scared shitless and take my meds dude but they make me sick as fuck and I cant do anything
Olanzipine is the nicest thing the doctors ever did for me
Its mild
The shakes arent as painful
Eps is a bitch
Or id take the shit everyday
Which I have
And it doesnt stop this shit

Im in to deep
Ok dude
To much shit happened
Meds are in my furture
Along with a whole bunch of other shit

>>677773893
Lemme ask you
You ever have yo dick vibrate while being broadcasted titties?

I bet you havent

Motherfuckers

>>677774404
I got a succubus on each nut
The small one and the even smaller one and Im watching porn live in my head

Sometimes
I feel like the realest nigga on earth

I mean it

>>677774574
Yo aliens show up and start tripping on me dude

Like being exposed to this shit

Son

Godlike