>>676461301
Hitler.

My great life

>>676461301
Always something left I'd like to do

Me

>>676461611
>>676461977
>>676462133
3 dubs in a row, 4?

ur mums lips on me donut hole

>>676461301
I don't feel like doing it, I'm too depressed.
>justdoit.jpg

I'm not gay
I hate videogames
I love work
I seriously dont care what people think
I'm not black
I'm not a jew
I'm not a woman
I'm not fat
I hate mlp
I hate Bewrnie Sanders
I hate alcohol
I don't like drugs at all
I seriously love girls
I have gfs
I love learning new things

the list goes on and on

Hope that life gets better

>>676461301
Fear of what lies next.
I'm too much of a pussy to do it, I guess.
But maybe that's a good thing.

Because I can't let my cunt of a cousin outlive me.

Probably my boyfriend and my word of warcraft mounts.

>>676462415
>I hate videogames
Kys.

>>676462260
exile yourself to the Shadow Realm, mortal.

>>676462589
kek

Random shit.

Rick and morty.

New movies.

A trip I'm planning with some friends to Costa Rica.

Just shit I'm looking forward to, I guess.

How about you?

>>676461301
All the people who I need to prove wrong and all the places I want to go to. A lot of motherfuckers have talked shit on me before, saying I'd never amount to anything. But I'm staying here to prove them wrong....if I killed myself they would end up being right. And I can't let that happen. If I keep trying I'll eventually amount to something. Sure, I get stressed out a lot and I think about suicide every day. I'm usually depressed and angry yeah, but I swear I'll prove those people wrong. I know I could kill myself if I wanted to because I have the guts to do it. But it's fucking cowardly and if there's anything I'm not it's a coward. So that's why I'm not going to kill myself anytime soon.

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>>676461301
I don't know if I'm going to keep fighting the thought anymore.

>>676462663
>boyfriend
>wow
bullshit

not knowing what happens after

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>>676461301
Part 4 of JoJo coming out this Friday

Hoping that tomorrow is better than today

>>676461301
I don't know how to do it properly. It's not like I can learn from an expert.

nothing any more
I'm going to do it July 8th
Will probably make a post with some picks before I do it

The hope that I might get back with the person I love one day and get a good job

>>676462955
Good intro fam

Too lazy

All these tricky gun restrictions in 'Murrica. Damn libruls!

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>>676463801
>Gotchu

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That someday we will all achieve the perfect loli figure via advanced cybernetics and a merging of organic and mechanical engineering.

>>676464572
You just have me hope, anon

>>676464572
Wtf is up with her hips

>>676461301
I'm to much of a pussy to hang myself. Does anybody know how painful it is to hang yourself?

>>676462663
Get off of 4chan, Jessie.

>>676463991
Why july 8th? Maybe ill join you

>>676465105
See
>>676464558

her

>>676465151
mark?

>>676465586
Funny. She's actually part of the reason I'm going to kill myself.

>>676465823
oh do tell

Cassidy paradise

>>676461301
Sex in missionary position for the sole purpose of procreation.

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I know I'm not loved by anyone.
I hardly speak a word to my parents.
I never speak to my peers aside from a small group of friends that is strictly within school walls only.
I don't have a girlfriend however I have been texting this one girl but she hardly ever responds to me now so I think I fucked up by not making a move in time.
Funny thing is I think the situation with the girl from school fucked me up so bad that I'm starting to lose my mind, which luckily veers away from suicide.
I spend as much time as I can locked inside of my room living my own life inside of my head.
I talk to inanimate objects like pillows and what not pretending that I'm talking to the girl from school because inside of my head she actually likes me.
She kisses me, hugs me, enjoys cuddling with me but I know none of it's real.
I know I'm not crazy as some edgy 13 year old would say but I understand that to the rest of society what I'm doing is considered unhealthy but at least I have a reason to live.

>>676465519
the day after my birthday

>>676466212
Same story you hear everyday. Began putting up barriers and taking precautions to not depend or open up to anyone, ended up believing this one would be different. She found out a bit too much about my family life and got creeped out I guess, wanted to break up.

>>676466699
so my prom is coming up and i know this one girl who is very much like me. should i tell her these are my last days and i want to share my last dance with her

>>676466689
Kill yourself.

>>676461301
>What keeps you from killing yourself?

Ammunition is expensive.

>>676466877
No then she'll feel like you're guilt tripping her. Just stop being a pussy and ask her to prom confidently you fucking beta shitlord

>>676463991
man, that's my birthday.

>>676465641
lol nah, son.
Guess again.

>>676467169
hahaha that's the point
i want her to be guilt tripped

My life has been absolutely shit so far, it's getting better now, it'd be stupid for me to give up after already going through more shit than most people do their entire life.

>>676461301
i havent figured out a good way to do it yet

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>>676461301
Dubs

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My drive in life.

Used to be drive of revenge. To get back at those who I felt robbed me of my happiness. As time went on I grew and accepted lifes challenges.

Now my drive is to give myself the best life I can. I still think about him sometimes. I have a feeling tbat we will meet again when the time is right. Until then I need to build myself a life of my own.

Shame, mostly. It'd kill my parents, they've put so much effort into me this far, if I kill myself then it's been for nothing for them. It's also because i'm a coward, but mainly the shame.

Not wanting to die a virgin

>>676461301
drugs, until those drugs bite me back

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>>676461301
I honestly don't know

>>676469365
This.

My dog, and the vain and highly unlikely hope that my book will get published and start making everything OK again

being reborn in iraq, china or some other shithole.

>>676461301
The girl of my dreams for the past five years and the hope that one day she'll love me again.

world of warcraft, there is no other meaning to life in my opinion!

>>676461301
Knowing I'm not a nigger.

>>676461301
My life is dope and I do dope shit

>>676461301
I'm fucking awesome. Why would I want to die?

>>676469365
Right now I'm so in so much emotional pain it's unreal, pills and especially concerta are fucking garbage, also got some psychical pain but honestly the more depressed you were before you take this shit the more it fucks you after

>>676461301
You know what keeps me going? My unwavering hatred of my fellow man. Seriously, I feel all warm and fuzzy inside when I think about how much I hate everyone. If I had the money, I would be a serious villain type. Were talking comic book level shit here. I would routinely come up with impossibly ridiculous schemes to kill people. Especially fucking muslims, they would be gone in 10 years if I had the cash. All of them. Fucking dead

The thought that I'd grow up to be a productive, well-respected member of the community and excellent father figure for future offspring.
Or some grandiose narrative where I sink into the prison system to study the mechanics of society then emerge as the antichrist.

>>676471047
Please end the suffering.

>>676471047
Wow much edge

>>676468897
I feel this.

Having a Kanye-level ego.

The only catch is everyone thinks I'm an asshole.

Too scared to die, i'm such a fucking coward. I have nothing to offer this life besides a below average cock, Shitty self-esteem, and a pathetic excuse of a body.

>>676471359
The only issue is that im getting older. I just turned 50 this year, so I would need a number 2 to take up the mantle pretty soon. I have to concentrate on raising evil grandchildren soon

lorazepam

her and drugs

>>676471216
All I need is some cash, and a really sweet evil genius guy name. and a massive underground lair to sit around in and plan shit

>>676471632
Fuck what they think, its what you think that matters

>>676461301
Serious question, are psychologists are a trap? I feel a lot better talking to people even if it's you guys on a anonymous image board. I've considered it for a long time but I enjoy also having someone emotionally have thier input back to me, and not judging what kind of drugs I need to put on. Which i feel like I would be forced to be put on meds against my will or be contained by law if I told even a quarter of my issues. does anyone got input on this or experiences with it? I really want to be happier and I'm tired of feeling this pain 24/7

>>676471650
Thats where you are incorrect, fine young citizen. It takes guts to keep on going. Cowards take the easy way out

>>676472489
My thoughts are hybrids of other people's and that shits annoying. Can literally hear the echoes of other personalities when my internal monologue begins to endure unnatural amounts of stress.

>>676472178
Put a bullet in my skull as well, either that or I'll join you and then kill myself. I'm not sure how I'll react to killing someone though so I thought I'd just leave early

>>676461301
I really dont know OP.
Something. Cant put my finger on it

>>676472489
Exactly. I still have my friends, just not a huge group. It's hard not to think highly of yourself when there's so many room-tempurature IQ idiots out there. I don't WANT to feel that way, but enough exposure to society brought such feelings upon me, inevitably.

>>676472922
Same, I think it's just like a waiting game

>>676472575
I'll say this but you may already know it. There is a difference between a therapist and a psychiatrist. I went to both for a while to help with my schizo shit, and I found that the mix of meds and having a professional to talk to really helped. I hated the meds but I was glad to talk to someone. I'd say if your insurance will cover it go to your primary and get a referral to someone who can help

My wife who loves me and would be devastated. My mother who is highly supportive and would be devastated. My sister who had shit male figures in her life who would be devastated. My group of friends who would be devastated.

Otherwise I'd disappear into the fucking Alaskan wilderness and eat poisoned berries or get mauled by a bear.

>>676473011
I used to think like you did until I realized there was a lot to learn from perceived dumbasses as well.
Always best to lower yourself, trust me.

Some misguided idea that any gods may frown on it.
And I ain't played Mass Effect Andromeda.

Not much

dark souls 3 come out in few weeks

>>676472575
>>676473166
I meant to explain that a psychiatrist gives you meds and a therapist talks to you in case somebody was wondering

i have a life worth living. realized that years ago and now i just keep living

>>676472801
Yeah I do that stuff too man. It drives me fucking crazy sometimes.

>>676470706
Zach?

>>676473278
Yeah, I'm becoming more humble as time goes on. Really, just the more I make mistakes the more I start to understand I can be stupid too. I just flair up in ego as a defense mechanism when I get defensive. I have other reasons to love, a relationship, and the opportunity of being young and having the drive to do better for myself.

>>676473357
This too.

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>>676461301
It was going to be the excitement of ds3 but now that's ruined so I might as well kill myself.

>>676473166
>>676473464
Can I also explain that I've had virtually also every symptom of schizo and depersonalization, and this isn't just edgy responding. I'll just hear these thoughts, sometimes violent, sometimes indifferent. Nothing really determinate, they are annoying sometimes though

>>676461301
Drugs and booze

>>676461301
Hoping that one day you may amount to something.......... Hoping

>>676473749
Wtf how do you know me?

>>676473464
And I'll have these strange manics sometimes, completely sober sometimes depending on the environmental action I'll be put in euphoria, but if I do something my mind doesn't like it'll send me almost withdrawal symptoms, I'm pretty much controlled by it

>>676473962
I know the feeling dude, it got really fucking annoying. Couldn't even think because of how crowded it felt in my brain

>>676461301
I'm not stupid as fuck.

>>676461301
i assume something else will kill me, i.e. cancer, car crash

Lots of alcohol.

Honestly, my dog. I am scared to death of what would happen to her if something happened to me. She's a rescue, and was abandoned. It took a while for her to trust me. I have gotten really low more than once. I adopted her when I moved to have a companion. She is what keeps me going. Gotta make sure my girl has food and a roof over her head.

>>676474420
You don't understand the type of happiness I get from just talking to people like me, like yourself, I think it's the way my brain is wired that it just rewards me on that, almost like a high, I was withdrawaling pretty hard earlier but now I'm feeling slightly better

>>676474384
That just sounds strange. Go to the doc anon and tell them everything you told us, your doc might want to commit you over a weekend like mine did but you can refuse and they'll start you out on lower doses of meds if you ask. I never wanted the meds so they agreed to keep my dosage low unless shit got real

>>676461301
The gril I like likes me back.

Weed. Literally just waiting till my next fix. I have tried hard drugs. I have scripts for everything from diazepam to adderall stock piled. Nothing works like weed.

>>676474799
You're probably right but my brain doesn't let me, it puts me in a state of intense anxiety anytime I actually consider it, and it's kinda happening right now. It's almost like I'm like two people, guess I ended up the people I was most scared of

>>676474974
Same, although I get way too fucking drowsy on weed, nothing like some speed and some bowls. Makes for a great night and gaming sesh

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>>676461301
myself

>>676475297
I thought I got drowsy with weed until I tried a good sativa. It was like having all of the high with none of the tiredness.

>>676475082
>>676474768
You're the literal definition of why parents tell thier kid don't talk to strangers, please kill yourself and rid the world of one less psycho

>>676475818
>not feeling any compassion for broken souls
Heretic

>>676475297
Don't smoke the speed. Just swallow it.

>>676475693
Eh, I like a powerful indica. Feels like weak opiates which isn't too bad because no withdrawals and if you take a anti nausea pill or lay down it pretty much goes away

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Watching TV this popped up.

>>676462918
coward

Lack of money. Would love to kill myself with prolonged use of heroin

>>676476522
It's ironic isn't it. This life is a joke and honestly just sad I can't be friendly with everyone and just sleep under a hill and not have to worry about disease, pain, hunger, etc. I know I'm just rambling but I sure hope there is actual "heaven" even though I probably won't go to it

The amount of pussy I've been getting lately

>>676476837
Nothing like iving some brown and listening some music through some quality headphones

>>676476935
>what keeps you form killingyourself
not what makes you want to

>>676476169
Aw come on anon, I know my drugs. Anyways I hope that one day I can just live comfortably and do what I want

>>676461301
her, shes so loving and sweet fuck

>>676461301
The thought that I can still feel some joy in this place. This is a home that I wouldn't give up for my selfishness. I love you guys.

>>676476169
And I'm gonna be so tired tommorow waking up to go work, only got about 6 hours now but not even close to tired because I'm withdrawing and speeding at the same time

My friends and the woman i'm in love with

>>676462589
Underrated post

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>>676461301
Well im not being attacked by my sympathetic nervous system due to perceived threats, and being alone is fine as long as i can commune with the earth.

>>676461301
My mom.

>>676477475
I have prescription adderall and never take it. I have three colors at this point. I have white ones, pink ones and orange ones. All 20mg. Just different brands.
I don't see what you see in speed

Nothing but my useless hope that I'm not as bad of a human being as I think I am

Because I'm not a pussy and i enjoy living too much

>>676478028
I don't either, some of the worst withdrawals for some of the most only decent highs, all I know is I really need something right now for this because it's becoming unbearable, concerta withdrawals are 10x worse than adderalls for a lot weaker high

>>676461301
>my family
>my friends
>sometimes I can really enjoy life
>sadistic need to see what happens next even if things suck at the moment
Honestly the only time I entertain the thought is when I have a bout of severe anxiety and derealization.
Been having one the past week, thought it was going away but had a panic attack last night. Still feel like shit. If I felt like this my entire life I might have killed myself but it usually becomes tolerable within a month or so.

Every day without pussy is a day closer to killing yourself.

>>676478737
Is every dude like us? We're probably the more emotional sex, We just don't show it due to "masculinity" and an image you have to put up

Her. Even though she doesn't love me anymore.

>>676468907
Shame doesn't exist once you enter the void.

The fact that there's still a shit ton of stuff i want to do like become a successful actorfag and finish building my proton pack

>>676471047
A U T I S M

>>676462860
You mean normie realm?

>>676471047
you wont kill me fag
sanmd nigger race lives on through my jihad kids shitlord

>>676471047
all comic book supervillians failed so go right ahead negroid

Thinking about people born with nothing and fought to accomplish amazing things, makes me feel like a bitch when i feel bad for myself